I started this on myspace..but this place looks cool to..so i will start by reposting everything for all the fun people here......
away we go....
Sunday, June 04, 2006
6-1-06
Current mood: chipper
I'm single , 36 as of early this year I was married for over a decade , 11 of those years were heaven , until I woke up. Now before you think this is another "My wife left me I'm miserable" thing let's get one thing straight , I may ramble about my past marriage at times but this blog is about one thing, the truth about being single at 36 and beyond. It's about breaking out and being who you are. That person that is always in the back of your head , you conscience.. good and bad , Fuck good...fuck bad. Meld them together , thats how you become you. Everyone has there own morals , beliefs , ideas on what right and wrong. I'm a product of the 70's and 80's. I was adopted , born May 6th 1970. Born in New Jersey. 9 months after Woodstock.... you do the math.
I raised myself from age 12 on. My father was a workaholic with his own business and my mother was a drunk. My older brother had cancer when I was in 6th grade and from then on I was on my own. I blame none of them . I am exactly what I want to be , all of that helped me in a way. I went to church and learned all that I need to know about God and right and wrong. I became an agnostic soon after. Maybe there is a God most likely not. I mean look around our whole existence is fucked...sure god helped out those poor saps when they were in trouble long ago.. Sure he did.. no TV or media to see first hand what happened. No it was some fucking sheepherder ... the equivalent of a country hick claiming he saw a ufo and it made him fuck a sheep. (anyway. Sorry rambled a bit there...lets get this back on track). I had a push in the right direction on morality.. don't steal , kill , ect...But also being free of the jaded guidance I would have been subject to if my parents cared , made me see what i wanted to be at an early age. Me. Here I am world
Now growing up with out parental guidance i still needed some type of moral support. I had music. Music at that age can be highly influential. My music of choice was Metal. Kiss, iron maiden , twisted sister poison. Hair metal bands. Now you can laugh now.. unless you were there when it was popular. Metal back then was inspirational.. songs like I am , I'm me from twisted sister. Trial by fire from kiss. Tons of songs telling people to fuck everyone who wants you to be something else. Tell them to shut up and be yourself. I had the look too.. hair down to my ass , denim , leather , bandanas , converse , work boots , vans... my denim jacket had so many patches and pins on it , it looked like Gene Simmons outfit during destroyer. I looked like an outcast to most people good...fuck 'em.. I was having the time of my life....
My rule ..1
Do what you want to...fuck everyone else.. who cares what they say about you. I'm making my self happy.. and you know what , before you say. "But you need to share your emotions with someone ...your selfish.." Bullshit! I'm just smarter than the rest of these jello-heads. Be yourself do what you want to do . People with like interests and who are compatible will be found along the way. I'm here to amuse myself,, if you want to come along and enjoy the ride. lets go it's going to be a blast.. but if the bus leaves without you and when the rest of the people come back telling you how awesome it was .. to friggin bad!
Ok ...I rambled and I will....but that should give you a bit of a background on me. And before you say anything about me being irresponsible or anything like that here are a few stats about me... see if you measure up...
1. I have been working since I was 14 the longest I have been un-employed was 18 hours.
2. At age 30 I bought a house. I paid for half of it in cash.
3. I am debt free save the mortgage. ($500 a month..LOL) everything else I have I own.. cars furniture everything.
4. I started my own business and it's my hobby. As far as I'm concerned I have been retired for the last 2 years.
how is you life going?
Any way lets get back to what this blog is all about. an account of my newly recovered continuation of my youth. It's about having fun and a whole lot of sex. If you are revolted too fucking bad..stop reading and go to www.disney.com don't yell at me for posting it yell at yourself for reading it this far.. your mouse works. Click somewhere else. This isn't a best selling novel.. hell right now this is straight out of a mead notebook. It's me stroking my own ego... me wagging my dick in your face saying .."Hey look at me!" .. so on with my life... enjoy the trip.......
