I Want to cry
I want to scream
I want to tell you mostly.I hate that im afraid of everything
I hate that your the one thing i want most but cant have
I hate that you let me go before i even got to say goodbye
I wiish that you would come back to me
I wish that i were strong enough to say NO to you
I wish i could believe my own lies I tell you to cover up the pain you left
I need to move on says my head
I need to hold on says my heart
I envy the way this hasnt hurt you at all
I envy her
I envy the fact that you dont understand what this feels like at all
I want to hurt you
I want to be with you
I want this nightmare to be over
I wish i could make things to the way they were before
I wish i could change time
I wish I could change you
I wish I could have hurt you before you hurt me
I need you out of my thoughts
I need you out of my heart
I need to start doing things for me
I hate that i gave you something that i can never have back
Im tired of hoping aimlessly for you
Im tired of wanting something i cant have
Im tired of hurting ME for things that arent my fault
Im sorry i wasnt good enough
Im sorry i couldnt make you happy
Funny though how you never once said sorry for hurting me.for braking me.for not loveing me