Hello everyone, today I took my daughter to the doctor to see what the outcome was going to be. Is she or Isn't she pregrent. I won't know until tomorrow evening. She took the pee test and it came out neg. So she took the blood test. The machine went down so we have to wait until tomorrow. The wait is killing me. I don't know how to feel and I hate wondering. She's been in some pain, and I can't explain what it is. She is one month late, but the way she tell it it doesn't add up, but I will find out tomorrow. I hope.
As for living here, man it getting harder. Man I can't wait to get another job. I have to leave, even if the test is pos or neg, I still have to leave. My heart isn't here anymore. I need to be by myself for awhile. I have been with him faithful for 10 years on March 8, and the love I once felt for him is gone. I do love him, I'm not in love with him anymore.
He a good man for someone eles, I lived this life long enought. Am I wrong for that? This man allow me to drive his car, live in his house, make love to him, but on the other hand, I'm not getting anything back. I love the fact that after all these year I'm still here, but when you start with the mines shit, than I know you want us gone, and I'm so ready.
Well, I said enough, I will be back tomorrow to let everyone know if I'm going to be a Sexy 40 year old gradmom or a just sexy...LOL...Smile
Until I write again...
