Hot Apple Pie's blog: "This and That!!"

Heart, mind and soul bared You could easily tell Because I had trusted you I came out of my shell You knew me inside and out I know you must agree I shared everything with up With upmost sincerity You placed my mind at ease As my confidence grew My heart felt your presence I am certain you knew Feelings you sparked within Even from the first hello When you came into my life You set my heart aglow

Come to me, my love You're my heart's desire tonight, Embrace me in your loving arms Until the morning light Bring with you your passion, love That's hidden deep inside, Shed the mask of shamefulness, There's nothing left to hide. Bring with you your smile, love That illuminates my sky, Leave behind the sadness No more tears you'll cry. Don't forget your heart, love Then gently open wide, Close your eyes and kiss me Then let love come inside. Come to me, my love The yearning is just too much, Don't make me live another day Without your gentle touch.

Have you ever loved somebody so much, it makes you cry? Have you ever found the one that makes you come out of your mind? Have you ever found the one that makes your heart true? Have you ever felt that you were loved? Have you ever wanted to hear his voice, just because it makes you smile? Have you ever dreamed that you were there with him? Have you ever kissed his lips while thinking that you and him were in heaven? Have you ever thought that you will never be loved from someone else as much as he loved you? Have you ever thought that he might be your one and only? Have you ever felt that you were wanted? Have you ever looked into his eyes thinking of what’s going to happen next? Have you ever needed something so bad, that you can’t sleep at night? Have you ever tried to say words to him, but they won’t come out right? Have you ever been in love, that you will do anything to make it work? Have you ever given up all your love to make sure that he loves you the same? Have you ever wanted to break down and cry ‘cause you wanted to be in his arms? Have you ever felt that you wanted to die ‘cause you think that he doesn’t want you anymore? Have you ever think that he is your world? Have you ever thought that you and him were meant to be? Have you ever felt real love in side? Have you ever let the love pass you by? Have you ever? I have.

Time heals all wounds I do believe in that, because I believe that the heart is a fragile thing - break it once and it may never recover at all. Remember that all healed wounds leave marks behind. Scars that will always be a reminder of the pain one has suffered. Pain that sometimes remains deep within 'cause though the outside looks all right, the inside may still be bleeding. It’s hard to admit that the heart can easily love; and yet, when it gets hurt, one will find difficulties to ease the pain, the loneliness, and the heartache. So, for me, time never really heals the wounds. It only makes the wounded feel numb. Like memories, heartaches will live on. There are things that may be forgiven; but the heart can never forget. As for loving another after a hurtful relationship; it would always happen. The broken past will always stay behind cause the new one will be the present and hopefully the future but it will never mend the broken one. You see a heart is like new linen. Every relationship or memory - joyful or hurtful - is like a patch sewn on the linen. Soon the heart will be a colorful quilt, with so many memories and heartache to cherish and remember by from time to time.

I wasn't falling in love All my life I have believed in Destiny... Fate… And that when two people are meant to be they will find each other no matter how long they wait, how far apart they are, or how hard and painful it takes... I’ve been dreaming that one day my prince charming will come and take me to his castle and we will live happily ever after... Nobody told me that "happily ever after" does not exist in real life. That Destiny or Fate is actually created by the choices we make. Meeting you, thinking about you and letting myself be fooled by you are the choices I have made and I'll never regret that, even if that’s the reason why my heart is in tears. You’re always hurting me (without you realizing it?) And I let you do that to me because, maybe, subconsciously I want you to be that person who will complete me...You have no idea how much I want to fall for you. How much I want to be with you everyday, to take care of you, to love you and to be one with you... But I know it’s not gonna happen - not now or not ever. I am done waiting for you. I am tired of always understanding you and always being wrong. I have been true to you. I like you a lot... And I mean a lot. I like you and your imperfections. It’s never gonna work out between us. You have planned your whole life without me. You can actually see yourself years from now without me. So my fairy tale needs to end now. I have to make another choice for my Fate. It will cause tears but it won’t ruin me. You never gave me any reason to love you. You belong with your family, your career and your ambition... Who knows maybe if I'm gone then you'll realize my worth. I will not wait for you. I will start another story, another fairy tale. I’ll take the lessons I have learned. For what it’s worth I really wanted to give you my heart you just never let me.

You've given me a reason For smiling once again, You've filled my life with peaceful dreams and you've become my closest friend. You've shared your heartfelt secrets And your trust you've given me, You showed me how to feel again To laugh, and love, and see. If life should end tomorrow And from this world I should part, I shall be forever young For you have touched my heart