I really am tired of coming in 2nd place...They will find the time to spend with others online, but when I am here right in front of them, they choose to do something else...Is this punishment for the years they were ignored? Maybe, but even so, when is enough, enough? Does a fight have to start in order for them to be able to talk to me? If that is how it's going to be each and every day, no matter how much I try to avoid it, why bother? Why can't love be enough? They say that they just want to be loved, but it must not be by me... I guess I am just a horrible person and deserve what I get...going to be in a loveless, hopeless relationship forever... as the song goes, "Pain, without love, pain, can't get enough, pain without love...I'd rather feel pain then nothing at all".
