I was able to laugh things off like they were nothing before. . . Before these times have passed. Now I sit here with no emotions witting across my face. I lost so much since the last time I truly smiled, and now, the grin on my face means nothing more then a wallow of sheer lose. Lose of time, emotion, feeling in itself. My family, a girl here and there, happiness, they mean nothing to me anymore. I now only wish to live my life as I am told, a shell of a human. Emotionless is to be my goal, to care only for me. Have you ever had a really nasty food and you wanted to get rid of that taste so bad, you just eat something better to solve that problem, only to notice that your not solving the problem, your just prolonging it, and a few hours later you realize it was a mistake, because you burp up a taste so nasty that you want to throw up. . . I had that experience, but with a relationship. . . She knows who she is. . . But any ways, back to the topic at hand. . . To laugh would be a nice experience, but to laugh at the sight of the pain in which you inflicted, that would feel so much better for me. . . For no reason at all, I want to see someone cry, so I can know that what I am saying is true, to see you cry, it would complete my poetic chaos. . . And I would bask in the glory that is mine, complete. I want to know that I am truly as I feel. . . A hallow, blank, emotionless capsole, where a man once stayed. The lose of so much, tells me that nothing should really matter to me anymore. You were here, and now your not (to no one inparticular), and this has set me free, to be what I was ment to be. ME (in short)!! Nothing shall matter anymore. I have moved away from what you think I was, and now, you are nothing. Well. . . . That is all. . . I just wanted you all to know. . . To laugh would be nice, but to laugh at the pain in which you inflicted, that would feel so much better to match me.
