So I'm doing much better. I feel better. I'm happier. I have a much better outlook on things. Its still a work in progress but I know I'll be fine. I've talked to some people and have figured a lot out. I have my priorities back in line and I'm working on tackling my goals one by one.
As I work to pay off my car I'm putting money away to move. If there is nothing keeping me here in PA then I'm going to be moving to VA. I've told my family of this already so now they can get used to it and prepare for it if they must. If I stay here I'm going to look into buying a house. Nothing big. Just a place for me to call my own without having to pay rent and ending up with nothing in the end. No matter where I go I will most likely start going to school for computers. Oh and once I move I'm going to get me a dog. I'm also going back to concert photography. I already have a list of shows I want to photograph. Now all I have to do is contact people and get my tickets and passes set up. Life is good. :)
:) <- thats my face now days. I smile a lot. I laugh a lot. I haven't gotten mad in days. Which doesn't sound like a big deal. But it is to me. For quite a while I got mad entirely too much about the stupidest shit.I don't feel like I'm back to the old me. I feel like I've become a better me. The me that I should be. I still feel like theres something missing. But I know what it is and eventually I'll find someone to fill it. Maybe someone from my past or someone I have yet to meet. I'm sure I'll know when it happens and if its meant to happen it will.
I don't talk to my family much. It seems my mother is going out of her way to try and make me miserable. Perhaps its because she can see that I'm perfectly happy and content the way things are (me being single). The family rented a condo in Ocean City Maryland. My ex was going to pitch in while we were together. But we are no longer together. My mom insisted that I give her the money. So I gave it to her. But I'm no longer going to Ocean City. My two brothers, their girlfriends, their children, and now (as i learned yesterday) their friends are all going. They will be there the entire week. I would've only been there four days...Yet I had to pay to go. How fucked up is that? OH AND! I'm not allowed to bring anyone with me.
Some of you know that I can't stand my brother Josh's girlfriend Tara. Apparently she said something to my mom because my mom demanded I be nice to her. I flat out told her no. I'll be nice to Tara when she stops being a drug addict and a thief. Tara has started seeing a psychologist. Who knows if she'll get better and who knows if she'll change. I've talked to my fair share of them (especially in the past two weeks). It has helped me so I can only hope that it will actually help her.
Paula got a job working for dunkin' donuts. Not a big deal for the normal person. But for a girl that has a baby and hasn't worked in several months..I'd say its a nice improvement. My oldest brother Mike finally got a cooking job. Thats quite a big deal. He's been unemployed more then he's been employed in the past several years. So I hope this will finally get him on his feet and help him become dependent. Andrew has finally decided to go to college. It took him a while to finally get to that point so I'm happy for him. Paula is going to start classes to get her GED so she can become an x-ray tech.
