OK so I went to my doctor and my therapist yesterday and now Im on meds. The docotr told me that the meds he prescribed would also help give me energy since here lately I have none. I also seen Shawns car there. The people who know me over there were starting to panic. lol. They seen his car and was like omg, this is not good. lol. No I wasnt going to do anything stupid bc I dont feel like being locked up right now. I wanna make sure I have legal documentation stating that if anything happens to me either my Sissi Liz or Cassie would get my kids. Probably Cassie bc me and her have already been talking and I dont think it woiuld be fair to my Sissi to have 2 extra kids on her and Cassie was planning on being their second mommy neway. Long story. Well I am currently dating a semi-sweet guy. He is 20, I need an older guy. These young ones are getting on my nerves. lol. Neways I am currently running around like a chicken with my head cut off trying to hurry up and get a job so I can go ahead and get my internet and phone cut back on. I miss talking to everyone everyday. I feel like I am all alone. I know that sounded off the wall but its true. I have always had a phone and now I dont. Normally my stress level goes down bc I always talk to my Sissi Liz and Cassie but since I dont have anything its hard.
With all that has happened to me within the last year. It seems like all of my dremas that I was working my azz off to come true have now became dreams in which I have to work harder to mak come true bc now i have to start from the beginning again and work my way to the top. The only thing is Im not getting married. I had already planned on the person I wanted to spend the rest of ymn life with and since it is no more then I want no part of marriage or thinking of it. Im so exhausted from all the strss Ive been under and to tell u the truth no one knows all, hell even my own Sissi and Jynx doesnt know all of it. Tonight I am suposed to be getting a break from both of my babies. One of my friends is taking them both for the night so I can get down and dirty on house so to speak. My bedroom has been neglected. Well Im gonna run, gotta get their stuff ready but I will write again soon.
