A Perfect Circle . A Stranger
cast a calming apple
up and over satellites
to draw out the timid wild one
to convince you it's alright
and i listen for the whisper
of your sweet insanity
while i formulate denials
of your effect on me
you're a stranger, so
what do i care?
vanished today
not the first time, i hear
all the lies
what am i to do
with all this silence?
shy away
shy away phantom
run away
terrified child, won't you
move away
you fucking tornado
i'm better off without you
tearing my will down
so, here i sit, amidst the ruins of last nights melt down, with today's annoyance and my father picking at me, with minimal sleep. maybe four hours. that might be generous. but, it's all becoming clear. without a FUCKING WORD from ANYONE ... well, not just anyone, but whatever ... i'm beginning to realise that i was right all along. and it sucks, but it's life. i am to be alone, at least until i die. sooner or later, right? that day... well, some days it can't come soon enough. but i am a goddamned capricorn, and a god damned fool, and ... well, i'm going to stick it out a little while longer, for some silly ass reason. probably because i have a couple books i need to write... one of which being my obituary.
really, none of this matters. i don't give a shit, you don't give a shit... really, no one gives a shit, so i'm just going to shut the fuck up and move along. everything happens for a reason? yeah, maybe...
it was just a game, wasn't it?