Darkest greetings to you all... it truly has been a long time since I had graced you all with a decent blog about my life so I figured why not today three days after my birthday.
OK where to start?...... I know... if some will note I have not been online for a long time... well that is only because the government pays me so since I am unemployed I have to go to this shit about work place training! Now this is training in writing a resume and stuff like that... so I had been doing this every day...... till I got an apprenticeship bakers place in the local tafe ... so I started to do that and well lets just say baking and me do go together it turns out! So.... I had to give it up... now I don’t know what I want to do....
Being confused about what I’m doing is a bad thing! I don’t know what to do or even why I should bother!..... Life seems to be giving me shit... bills a pilling up like every one else’s... and people are pissing am whining about me... life is grand...personally, I think life is just one big fucking joke!
One thing in life I never liked was getting sympathy from people! Now I don’t know why this is... it’s just something that I have been bad with.... I HAVE PROBLEMS! Now see this statement is something I know by heart! It’s all true I need help but I don’t know what the fuck I’m doing so how can I find something I know nothing about.
Sometimes I wonder about all the things I used to be! Now I don’t talk about this shit Manley as I’m afraid I will lose the friends I have but... now i just realize I’m hiding who I am so that I can fit in! I’m doing all the things I stand against! And for what?..... Ok I don’t actually know... but I’m sure there is a reason there somewhere!
I am unhappy as of now, and the thing that really gets to me is I don’t know why I am unhappy! I have no actual reason to be unhappy!
Fuck it all.....
Ok now onto my work Demon chapter 2 is coming along a little slower then I had liked but I am working on this one, also Birth of the mistress of wolves a shadow story I am writing is coming along quiet good, something I am proud of actually
Oh and the picture I’m colouring in for Kitteh is moving slower then a snail.... lol colouring is not a strong point of mine!
I have not played my Xbox 360 for a long time now! I have been so down I cannot touch it! How crazy is that!?! I think I'm having a little bout of writers block also,.... dammit I hate it when this happens! It puts me back on my time line!......
I don’t even know what I want to do today! I'm bored but I just don’t bloody know what the hell to do!.....
Ah well... this is just a short one today but I will try to write a better one soon ok! ^_^
Later my friends........
OH! Shit I forgot while I'm here my birthday....... lmfao..... It was shit and I don’t mean I got bad gifts.... I mean holy fuck I swear no one knows my birthday I try to remember everyone’s but My OWN FAMILY DIDN’T EVEN TXT ME A HAPPY FUCKING BIRTHDAY!?!
Fuck this for a joke! What a family! And after all the shit, I went through in my life to make them happy!....
Anyway.... I'm depressed so catch ya all later!....
