Anthony's surgery was today and I was a mess. I can't eat, I can't sleep and I couldn't study for a test. I sent him a text this morning telling him I was thinking of him. I have lost 4 lbs in the last 6 days because I can hardly eat. He is deeply depressed over all his health problems. The last conversation we had keeps replaying in my mind. He barely talked. He kept telling me over and over again how sorry he was. He was breathing so hard and loud that I asked him what was wrong with him. I am hurting so bad and its not because he did anything to me. I don't know how I am supposed to deal with this. Its killing me that he is in so much pain. How do I deal with this.