crystalkee's blog: "What a kiss means"

So anyone who knows me knows that i have been hanging out with this guy since school started last year... well we finally decided to start being more than just friends without the label of dating. yeah it was a kinda friends with benefits thing. but anyways he wont date me because of what exs have done to him in the past and last night after we kinda got a little serious he told me that he wanted us to kinda chill for a little bit. basically he wants a break. i dont know what the fuck i am supposed to do.. i mean damn i fucking love him and he makes me so happy except when he pulls that shit. why cant life just be simple and just work out in my favor for once. i have told him so many times that all girls are not the same and that i am not his exs and he needs to give other girls a chance to prove that we are not all the same. and that i have been hurt so many times in my life trust me i think i have a tattoo on my back that says cheat on me, and lie to me. but anyways he says that he still wants to hang out, but its going to be 2 weeks before we get to because i am leaving for North Carolina and i am thinking that maybe this 2 weeks in North Carolina without seeing him is good for me and maybe he will realize that he will miss me and want me in his life as his girlfriend?!?!?!? just maybe! ERIN I NEED YOUR HELP!!! : (

Have you ever just wanted things to go back to the way they used to be? I have been thinking that a lot lately. I really enjoyed last semester of college and this semester I am hating it. I never want to go to class and it seems like i just had a lot more fun last semester. My english class was a blast, and i had friends that pretty much got along and we all just had a good time. Now its like i dont even talk to some of them that much. There is one that i just hate not talking to everyday. We grew so close and now we dont even talk except maybe once a week if that. Other than school i wish i could just go back to being a little girl who looked up to my dad like he was the best thing in this world. I'm not gonna lie i miss him alot. Its so hard to not just pick up the phone and say can we meet somewhere and hang out like we used to. I told him everything, and he always knew when something was wrong, and he always knew the right things to say, and now i have no one to talk to about anything. I just wish things would go back to what they were last semester at college and how things were way before i stopped talking to my dad.

+Kiss on the stomach = Im ready +Kiss on the Forehead ="i hope we're together forever" +Kiss on the Ear = Your my everything +Kiss on the Cheek = "We're friends" +Kiss on the Hand = "I adore you" +Kiss on the Neck = "we belong together" +Kiss on the Shoulder = "I want you" +Kiss on the Lips = I love you" What the gesture means... +Holding Hands = "we definitely love each other" +Slap on the Butt = "That's mine" +Holding on tight = "i don't want to let go" +Looking into each other's Eyes = "i just plain love you" +Playing with Hair = "Tell me you love me" +Arms around the Waist = "I love you too much to let go" +Laughing while Kissing = "I am completely comfortable with you" --Advice-- + Dont ask for a kiss, take one. +If you were thinking about someone while reading this, you're definitely in Love. --Requirements-- +Post this again after reading!! Or you will have a bad year of Relationships. If you LIKE, LOVE, OR MISS someone right now and can't get them out of your head then Re-post this within One Minute and Whoever you are missing will surprise you. Repost this as "what a kiss means"