Ok, here goes. I have been thinking about this for a long time now. As most of u know, I recently seperated from what I thought was a great guy and good father. I loved this man with all my heart, and would do just about anything to make him happy, including make myself unhappy. Which is pretty much what I did. I was miserable. I tried to think of bad things to say about why I wanted to leave him, but in general, he WAS a good person and did what he had to to make sure that me and his girls were taken care of. The man worked his butt off. I know that, and I don't want to take that away from him......BUT.....
Here I go. I had to think long and hard about what it is that I REALLY want in a relationship. I'm not trying to speak for every girl out there, but I think this will sum it up for alot of us. R u guys ready?
My dream man would come up to me while I'm in the kitchen cooking his dinner and ask me if there is anything that he could do to help, and if I say no, then tenderly kiss me on the neck and tell me that he loves everything that I do for him. My dream man would be able to look at me and tell that I have something on my mind, and not be afraid to ask what it is. My dream man would ask me to sit beside him on the couch when the kids are asleep and just play with my hair or let me play with his. My dream man would be willing to lay beside me in the bed and not expect me to do anything more than hold him or let him hold me. My dream man would ride next to me in the car, and not care that I don't have anything to say, but be comfortable with the fact that I'm just content with the fact that I am there with him. My dream man would never be afraid to whisper sweet nothings in my ear. My dream man would always enjoy letting his friends know that I AM his best friend. My dream man would be willing to accept the fact that I work just as hard as he does, and that it is a team effort. He would never allow me to go to bed crying, and if I do, then make sure he's there to wipe my tears. He would be the master of making love to me...know every single part of my body, and what I REALLY need him to do, just by the sounds that I make. He would know what pisses me off, and try to stay away from there, and he would know that flowers and chocolates are not the way to my heart.
I know that you have all heard this before, but seriously, it is the small things that matter the most. I don't want u to spend money on me. You can show me how much u love me just by looking at me, just by talking to me. Is that so much to ask? Is that possible? IS HE OUT THERE? I want to get it right next time, and just so u know.....this is what I REALLY want!!!
