yepim still a marine's blog: "whatever..."

stare at the sun by thrice i sit here clutching uselessness keys to doors that dont exist i crack my teeth on pearls i tear into the history show me what it means to be in this world, yeah in this world cause i am due for a miracle im waiting for a sign ill stare straight into the sun and i wont close my eyes till i understand or go blind see the parts but not the whole studied saints and scholars both no perfect plan unfurls should i trust my heart or just my mind? why is truth so hard to find in this world? yeah in this world i know theres a point ive missed shrine or stone i havent kissed scar that never graced my wrist a mirror that hasnt met my first but i cant help feeling like im due for a miracle

theres a trend here...none of this is my work but the words really speak to me lol waste by staind your mother came up to me she wanted answers only she should know only she should know... it wasnt easy to deal with the tears that rolled down her face i had no answers cause i didnt even know you but these words they cant replace the life you... the life you waste how could you paint this picture? was life as bad as it should seem that there were no more options for you? i cant explain how i feel ive been there many times before ive tasted the cold steel of my life crashing down before me did daddy not love you? or did he love you just too much? did he control you? did he live through you at your cost? did he leave no questions for you to answer on your own? well fuck that and fuck them and fuck him and fuck you for not having the strength in your heart to pull through ive had doubts i have failed i fucked up ive had plans doesnt mean i should take my life with my own hands

once again...not mine but i really like this song pain by everlast somewhere between the lies and truths borderlines get shady somewhere between the yeses and nos you can find a maybe somewhere between the highs and lows you can spot the middle and somewhere between the questions and clues you can solve the riddle somewhere along the road you might want a place to stay and somewhere along the road youre gonna have to pass away somewhere in space you still remind me of a reason summertime you still smell like my favorite season and it feels like pain its just like pain love is like pain some people like pain somewhere between the mountain and sea a river is flowing somewhere between the earth and the sky winds of change are blowing and somewhere between the two of us a space is growing and somewhere between suspicion and trust are the things worth knowing and somewhere along the road you might wanna hitch a ride and somewhere along the line youre gonna have to swallow your pride somewhere inside you still remind me of a feeling somewhere deeper still are wounds that are not healing put your nails in my hands fill my eyes up with sand papercuts on my tongue were right back where we begun somehow i only hurt the ones who really mattered somehow she played her role although her soul was battered someday soon i know my ashes will be scattered someday soon i know my former becomes latter

not my work but still nice i think... forgive me if now i wear the face of worry this time alone could never cause any doubt but ive been cold too long such a strange time to find myself coming down as the rain with all these holes my love to fill up from the middle...this storm could stay all night so can i stay until we close our eyes? till your dreams hold mine? just stay until we know weve tried one more time cause laughing lovers can overcome their closest demons then theyll go on they wont let go its not something that we know has never come so close can i stay here...stay here forever? can i stay till we know ourselves? im torn as i tell the only story that i know it fell through... im so far into your story i dont... know why we think were in control when we lie between the lines we find a light to follow its gonna show real soon or well never reach this high we climb a little further cause theres nothing we cant get around together further gets colder until nothing is holding us all around so we stay until the cloud we can come down from splits us away maybe stars know why we fall... i just wish they were thinking out loud oh i could wish all night