I have made mistakes, many many vast and obvious ones. I am no angel nor have I claimed to be such. I have hurt those closest to me for reasons both justified with in my mind and those unforgivable. I have won a select few battles and ultimately lost the war. I have tossed aside what could have been my happieness for something that was quicker and easy. I have loved and I have hated, at times within the same moment. I have climbed beyond the wildest dreams of possiblities and fallen into the nothing of an empty existance. I have lost my soul to the biddings of others. And I have been a consuming entity that threatened the sanity of broken minds. I am a regret and an obession, usually for the same reasons. I have been everywhere and yet I am no where. So where do I go from here? Do I stand a chance from the firey pits of this hell I have created? Or can I create my own heaven among the flames? Will those who onced loved me ever love me again? Or will I find a new torment to my heart and mind? My hopes are few and far between and my fears far more plentiful. I want to have the life my daddy read to me each night, truth and lies within a fairytale. I simply hope to find somewhere cause there are endless places from no where.
