that when you have a good friend or they say they are your good friend and you reall care about them that they are the ones that make you cry the most. I have a good friend in Illinois i love him as much as i do my own brothers but yet everytime we talk i end up in tears. yes i know he's dying and i know there is nothing i can do about it even though i wish i could he tells me he wishes things could be different between us and i know what he means but i can seem to feel that he wants me to be there when his end comes but that is something i don't think that i can cope with i am having a hard time coping with the fact that i know this. someone hit his computer today and the first person that he blames is me because we had a fight hell if i knew that stuff i would be doing great but hell i am lucky i know what i do about the computer...almost crashed my own changing a memory stick seems now that everything that happens to him is my fault lately well i guess enough bitching just needed to get it out
