Well, my life has took a turn for the better. I went from being unhappy, down, sad and didn't know what to do with myself. Then, I started talking to Eric. Eric has made me so happy right now, it's like 1000's of pounds have lifted up off my shoulders. I'm not use to being this happy, I'm not use to being so wanted by someone. But don't get me wrong, I like it very much. Last night he told me I am very beautiful, can you believe that? Not once has someone told me seriously that I was beautiful. Not once has someone told me to never change anything about myself... But when Eric told me this, I was shocked. I didn't know what to say, I didn't know how to react. I wasn't use to hearing such words come out of a guy.
So my life has started over, from a fresh start. I believe God has directed me on a new fresh path, a path that I haven't went down on before. I'm not complaining that is for sure. God has plans for me.
Things have been working out for me for the better. I have been talking to Eric every night now, and we plan on meeting the first week of November. I'm going down to South Carolina for the first time, and I'm going down to see Eric in person for the first time. Eric and I have known each other for 6 years now. So it's not like I just met him, and going to jump the gun or anything. Although I'm still not jumping the gun, I'm going to take it slowly and go from there. I don't want to take it fast. I want to take it slowly.
Right now the key to my heart has been locked up and put away, and Eric may have the key. I don't know yet for sure. I guess I will have to see what happens when I go down to see him. Eric is such a sweet, kind, sensitive guy and he respects me for who I am. I sent him some pictures of myself, and he had shown everyone around where he lives. I can't wait! It's just... just so exciting!
Eric is a little person just like myself. He is like 4'2 I believe he said. So he's not much taller than I am, then again being 3'5 and him being 4'2 or some thing along those lines that's still pretty tall to me. lol But I don't care, I just hope it works out between him and I.
Eric is my best friend, he's always been there for me no matter what happened between him and I. Him and I have always gotten along. We had one argument, and we talked through it. Unlike someone I knew, we have a argument and we never talked it out and settled out differences. Eric and I, we settled our differences and worked it out.
I care a lot about Eric, and he's always been in my heart! He's always had my heart, and always will. I just really hope things work out between him and I. The only thing that is really going to be hard on us, which I hope we can defeat which is long distances between him and I. I live in Michigan and he lives in South Carolina. Long ways away, but if him and I put our heads together, we can do it. Don't you think so too?
Well I just wanted to update you on what's going on in my life. I feel I am doing great, and I am much better off where I am than where I was before. Don't get me wrong, I care about Rich. But things between him and I, there were too many differences between him and I. I hope all goes well with him and Wendy. I hope everything works out. He will always be in my heart whether him and I don't remain friends or not. I will always be there for him when he needs to talk, or vent!
But like a good friend said to me; But life goes on. When things go wrong, it's probably for a good reason. It's probably a sign that was for the best before things get more rough on both parties of the relationship.
But don't get me wrong, I do NOT regret not once being with Rich. It was one hell of a awesome experience and he will always be in my prayers. Him and his family will always remain in my heart.
Good luck Rich. I hope life fulfills your needs. I care about you, and love you as a friend. Don't forget that if you are reading this!
Well, going to update profile and what not. So see you all around...
