I got everything I wanted out of you
More than I expected to
The shock of it all was overwhelming
From such lowliness to amazment it's entirely compelling
So why am I still dissatisfied
Left uneventful to such excitement leaving me tramatized
I'm not sure the experience is worth the aftermath
Furiuosly I question myself wondering how I can feel like that
Hiding in my room isolated and withdrawn
I miss the comfort it brought now since these good memories we make may soon be lost
The worry and anxiety it brings
Nothing is what it seems
While you're leaving me out again
The only one trustworthy I can depend on is me, I'm my only friend
You say that you love me but I'm not sure
I think we both love some other things a hell of alot more
I'm begging and pleading inside for things to be the way they were before
This was so unexpected
To think I once called you my blessing
I stepped right back into to the pit of hell
And I'm not motivated enough to pull up myself
I'm so weak I envy your willpower and strength
I loathe my jealousy torwards you so much it makes my heart break
I once hoped to ecscape simplicity
But this change is killing me
You brought a meaning into my life yet I'm still so hollow and empty
Something's got to be out there to fill this void
But I'm not determined enough to try I'm stuck wishing we could relive all those polaroids
Nothing ever lasts for good
This didn't turn out like it should
We should retrace this turn we took
This is both our faults
So how the fuck can you not recognize it at all
I know if this was over I would be devestated
My life would go back to how it was before and I would hate it
This darkness we're in is so intoxicating
I don't know how long I can tolerate it
I know it isn't hard to see
You brought out the worst in me
Happiness for a minute turns into a huge mistake
And once you've felt it there's nothing to replace
Still what scares me most is how
Without you I'd be nothing right now
