No. I'm not still so bitter. At least about most things..Those things..
This place has come to be very much a burial ground, hmm? >blog refrences to wyldfey.com<
Maybe if I wrote here I'd get over myspace annoyances. Lawd knows this place alone was hard enough to get used to. "An unexamined life is not worth living.."
How true..and yet infuriating..Too many thoughts this morning. Too many on life & love alone.
I've given myself that indulgence and played the broken record of my youth repeatedly.
I think most are lucky to find one love in life. One real person in one moment of time when the emotions are in synch and real. But for three? What would most give? How often through tears have I heard the asinine words "better to have loved.." and well, you're still lucky. I couldn't stand it. I wanted to yell at each person with these b.s sage words. They truly must have never felt the pain..anguish utter heartbreak..there are no words, duckies..
One death, One marriage, One liasion. And my world could fall to pieces. Even though not all connected. It was a web of grief I couldn't help feeling trapped in.
It's possible they did understand..a few times. Pure envy may have also played. Does it matter? Years later..I feel & hear..those words. I was lucky. Insanely so. I'm trying to be thankful for just that.
So many memories..so many words and tears and intrigue. The joy of knowing a shared soul..Mystery wrapped in the warmth of holding your own hand. I pride myself so often on wanting to be prolific... But when it comes down to it I am always at a total loss when it comes to describing my own love. I miss you my dark knight.
