Well, today Adam is moving out of our home, leaving my daughter and I here. That's fine, but I already miss him, and I don't want him to move out. The facts are: We argued too much about dumb things, I allowed my emotions take over, and made matters worse, and he said I have a habit of pushing him away and pulling him back, and he knows that it's because of my 4 depressions. I hate that, having 4 different depressions burdened on me all at once, taking control over my life, and now I'm losing Adam out of my life living wise. He's not the only one sick of my emotions taking over and getting the best of me, I'm tired of it myself, and I wish I could just be rid of them and be normal. Things'll probably get better for the both of us now that we're not living together as friends, and I surely hope that they do, because we both agreed that we don't want to be out of each others lives permanetly, but living together is making it impossible for us to deal with each other and the unnecessary arguing. Maybe I shouldn't have been so emotional with the arguing, and how I talked to him. Because of my actions, he's moving out, and I can't stop him. Because of my actions, I was the one who lost him as a boyfriend.......just because of these 4 fucking depressions that are taking over my life, I lost the best guy I ever had in my life. I'd rather him be my best guy friend than nothing at all. I do love him, more than he knows, but that doesn't excuse me to treating him like poo............I miss him so much, and tonight is going to be the first night sleeping alone without him.........*crying*
