Chicago's blog: "Journey "

The last few months has been a up an down path with So many twist an turns. That when you see a True friend for coffee they look at you an say in.  The nicest way possible that you know your a Beautiful disaster, even when things are So Rough. You can manage to pull yourself an others together, when things get tough. But what floors me, is when you are just being that simple,plain Jane that everyone see daily.  They don't see the struggle or desire within your eyes. An you truly ask yourself are they truly friends or are they only there for a short period of time.  And you try understanding this whole path an just when you think you have it fingered out. Something step out from the dark shadows an says Not, yet little lady. An you stand there for a moment an come to grip an understanding of what just showed itself, then you think on way to fix or move it. An then your compounded with emotions an you think will it Ever get to that easy place again. An you look at those, that look up to you for protection an security an love an think.... this is Why, I'm such a Beautiful disaster.  And right then looking into that 3foot little ones eyes. You realize this is Why. I do all I can. 

And looking like a Beautiful disaster. You see that. No matter what you look like.  You know that deep down that the Beautiful disaster is only that BEAUTIFUL ! In So many ways..It's for you to discover the beauty in all..

Xoxo