Chicago's blog: "Journey "

Well, where do I began... A few months ago I started getting sick again and i knew what it was. So! After calling the doctor's and meeting with my team of health care providers.  The pre-cancerous cell have came back and it knocked me on my booty. And 10 days ago, I got worse and was rushed to hospital with uncontrollable pain.  And was deemed that my spleen and appendix are finally giving up. And this Wednesday i meet with team again and we are going to remove spleen and appendix.  And get me back on track health wise. I have lost a bit of weight due to not able to eat or hold stuff down til just recently.  But it is still difficult to eat without the aid of medication to prevent me from throwing up.  I am also on painkillers and those work for awhile but it's still not helping much.  

To those who have reached out on why I have not been active or asking if they could help. If you pm me, I can give you the information that has been setup. I appreciate the prayers and love I have been given and I am trying not to return the love in between doing what I can and keeping up with my college courses. 

On that note, I am 10 months away from graduating and I am.glad to be done with everything soon. 

Again thank you  for reaching out and if u have my personal number, email stuff you know how to reach out to me aside from here. 

Love ya 

Well back in July I started this journey of going back to college,  well I am happy to say I have made the President list and have carried a 4.0gpa and now we are on Christmas break thank goodness. 

Then Thanksgiving break was a nightmare,  I got very sick again and for those who know me a few years ago I got sick and was facing sum very nasty stuff.  Well we got the news that, I have a 50/50 of the same stuff again but it could possibly be something a lot different this time.  Due to some other things going on. I have been keeping quiet but a few days ago I finally got to tell all my family and friends.  So now that I am back on fu with my family here. I thought I should blog about it. And up date everyone else. 

Hugs 

WEll where do I begin. 

New life has been interesting to say the least of watching what I eat to 

Understanding my diagnosis to the  best of my abilities.  I have slow growing Cancer cells of the skin. Which leaves me have multiple sore on my legs and lately my upper arms.  I also have a disease called cushin where my body has stop useing fat,  so I've had to go on multiple blockers and a very strict diet. I am currently giving myself weekly injection to boot many of my vitamins cause this disease is not allowing me to make them and keep them.  So in order to maintain this is life.  I am still healing from ripping my Achilles tendon and Parnell tendon.  I'm out of the boot at least but there days I still use it.  

But having these disease have not keep me down.  And definitely has not taken away from my babies. If anything it has made me fight more.  Especially with new stuff coming about it's been. Interesting in finding out what works for us and it has showed us who has standing with us Thur it all.  

So that's where I am and life is always changing especially in the next few weeks.  Definitely looking forward to it.  

And thank you to those who have stood with me and my kids Thur this!! 

As I promised....  Many of you know I've been battling a nasty diseases. Well as of last week we are 100% we have a diagnosis, 

It was not the diagnosis we all wanted. But like they said, they are 100% sure.  So once test comes back and they get the  paper

Then we can move forward on treatments, I am on 5 different medicine right now. I am hoping that insurance will help cover at 

Least one of the pills.  The other diagnosis we got was I have slow growing skin cancer cells. And they said we would watch my skin,

So every 6weeks, I'll have to see Dr and I will be sent to see another specialist that can help with changing my diet.  Now once the 

Diagnosis comes back in black and white ink, I'll share it too. A few people here already know and have been a support system. And I soo

Appreciate them, cause this diagnosis was not one I even thought of. But it explained soooo much.  The skin cells I can deal with and I can deal 

With. Cause I know what to look for now.  On my leg & foot, it's healing but still very painful especially if I walk a lot.  And I don't wish anything bad on people

But people who have the restless leg syndrome. I feel so bad for them, since my injury my leg is so restless and will be into completely healed which I still got 3-5 weeks left. 

So that's where am I on my health to those closet thank you I appreciate you all.  Hugs 

Finally after some very very long testing,

I know now, I one have a autoimmune disorder but which is still unknown.

Two I have slow growing skin cancer cells. And. Last but Not  least I have

To have at least one surgery to remove some glands an but first I'm going to 

Weigh all others, cause the surgery has a lot ups and Downs. But is very tricky. 

So  those who have stood with me this last year thank you.  And to those who continue to 

Support me and my babies thank you so much. 

Recently I was faces with some news that really racked my mind,body and soul. A week before my 34th birthday,I had a radiation Ct to check on the status of my spleen and when I called to get the results, on my birthday weekend  I was told they wouldn't give me the results over the phone like passed results, and that I had to come into the Cancer center and see the Dr. 

So on a weekend I'm supposed to have a stress free weekend full of laughter and love. I was faced with uncertainty an a big dose of what if.

So I put on this fake smile and a brave face to shelter my mini me,my family an friends. Cause I don't want to face the possibilities for a few more days at least. 

So the morning of my birthday, I awake and put this brave face on yet again.An head to the cancer center. And once getting back there.  I'm told...

One,we have no answer on why your spleen an lymph nodes are doing this.

Two,We what to test for all the bone an bone marrow cancer's and my heart sank!  

Three, you'll go into surgery for this And soon.

I was shocked an was like wtf and why me all in one big bunch of feelings. So after having a moment an not breaking my brave face, I called immediately to family and friends.  

It was not even 48 hours later, I received words that I would have this surgery in just a day an half. An the waiting an what if began.  

So now I'm post op and had a few days to process a few things. I still what to question why me. But truly it's very unfair to ask that. So I will run with whatever the good lord hands me and I'll fight and come out better and stronger. 

I'm not worried as much as I was before cause honestly the word Cancer has been in my family mouth for a few years. But now I'm like I got this... I have a awesome support system and awesome friends from all over who will be there. So it's going to be okay. 

My support system...  words can't even describe the love and appreciation, I have for you all. So now as we wait. I want to say don't worry... 

We will beat whatever it is.

An thank you for all your love.

The last few months has been a up an down path with So many twist an turns. That when you see a True friend for coffee they look at you an say in.  The nicest way possible that you know your a Beautiful disaster, even when things are So Rough. You can manage to pull yourself an others together, when things get tough. But what floors me, is when you are just being that simple,plain Jane that everyone see daily.  They don't see the struggle or desire within your eyes. An you truly ask yourself are they truly friends or are they only there for a short period of time.  And you try understanding this whole path an just when you think you have it fingered out. Something step out from the dark shadows an says Not, yet little lady. An you stand there for a moment an come to grip an understanding of what just showed itself, then you think on way to fix or move it. An then your compounded with emotions an you think will it Ever get to that easy place again. An you look at those, that look up to you for protection an security an love an think.... this is Why, I'm such a Beautiful disaster.  And right then looking into that 3foot little ones eyes. You realize this is Why. I do all I can. 

And looking like a Beautiful disaster. You see that. No matter what you look like.  You know that deep down that the Beautiful disaster is only that BEAUTIFUL ! In So many ways..It's for you to discover the beauty in all..

Xoxo

I recently got told my aunt had stage 4 Lung cancer. Cancer is a.big part of my family life.  Due to my grandmother had lung cancer.  An beat it! And now my aunt. My emotion have been all over the place from sad to pissed off. And now I'm slowly coming to grips with it. Only cause a few months ago I went through lymph node removal for precancerous cell. So I understand her situations kinda. But this Word has taking such a big toll on my life and I only cause in the past three months we have had to many friends and family get that Call from Dr and get told you have. And it don't seem to be letting up. But life must going on.. I Guess....

I want to Thank those who have reached out to me an asked if I was okay.  It means a lot. An to those who have sent private message and notes Thank-you, I'm slowly replying back. 

Hugs