mm i'm tired, but i have to go to work in 10 minutes. it's my birthday though nothing exciting happened or anything. it took me until noon to fall asleep i woke up at 130 then felicity woke me again at two to come and say hi and such. then i fell asleep again after 4 and had to get up at 6 to go to my foster parents for dinner. i just napped for maybe an hr. so it should be an interesting night.
i had an odd dream today. i had one similiar before. i think there was a ghost in my house. im still not sure if i was awake or asleep for the first part. i just remember feeling terrified ish all the sudden and like something was in the house, and i was getting these weird flows of chemicals thru my body that would start at my chest become overwelming then sort of die down and surge thru my body.
i forced myself to sit up and sort of look around though i was scared to where it took a lot of effort to make myself move. then when it became for sure a dream i remember finding the milkman left me milk for my birthday lots of milk. was interesting. and i couldnt use the phone cuz somehow the ghost had made it not work or something. then rochelle was over but she had ppl with her. i was lying my head on her leg which was bare, and i was sort of kissing it and squeezing her leg, but i was refraining myself due to ppl being there but just wanted to let myself get lost in her.
there were other sort of nightmares connected to the dream or there was one. it was weird., someone just randomly made me help carry a couch to there house and down a ton of stairs, i got the feeling they were going to try and trap me there or something. there were lots of kids with the same haircut as the person holding the other end of the couch. so then all the sudden i was trying to find my way thru the huge house to the door and spencer my foster brother was there, and he bolted to the bottom making me chase him when i was already afraid person in the house wanted to do something bad, though i didn't know what. *sigh* i'm so exhausted and dont want to go to work, but i guess i have to. at least i didn't cry too much today..
