I'm crying as I write this, because i'm sad. I'm sad and i'm scared. things with him aren't good. rather.. they suck. I don't want to lose this family, but this is killing me so badly. If it wasn't for Dakota, i'd be long gone. No I wouldn't. I haven't been alone in years, and i might be too scared to be alone. and then what? jump from one meaningless relationship to another? what would that be worth.
I want that first sweet kiss again. I want the raw passion. I want that first little bit.. getting to know every inch of someones body for the first time...
I don't know, maybe I'm just hopeless. but my love for him just fades every time he yells. I don't know if i know what love is anymore.... He might have changed, but its more likely i did. maybe i just grew up. actually i know i grew up.
I whine a lot.
Leslie
sinfulvampress
