Lesava's blog: "VENTING"

Some of you that know me, know that I was FU engaged on here to someone that I cared so much about, even loved.  Everytime we would make plans to see each other, something always happened.  The third time, I was flying to his area with my mother to see family, so he couldn't get out of seeing me.  The week before I left, he sent me a message about how things REALLY are.  He had told me things that were true, but he hadn't told me the continuation of their story, or the facts.  Neglecting to be honest with me, and flat out lying to me about certain things.  An example, I sent a package of Christmas presents to a home that he didn't live in anymore that I had spent a decent amount of money on.  I told him OVER and OVER again just be honest with me, good or bad.  I'd rather have the facts and be able to make my own decisions based on them, not what you want me to know.

He says I dumped him because the money wasn't there as he said it was.  I could honestly give a flying fuck about the money.  My only requirement money wise is that the man can pay his own bills, other than that I don't give a shit.  

It hurt to receive that email from him, he couldn't call me to tell me, he had to email me.  That might have been better actually.  He didn't get to hear my tears.  Luckily, my brother had no clue how to get to him, because he was ready to jump in his truck and go.  Lying to me hurts me more than anything you can do physically to me.

Just a warning to anyone interested in me, for friendship or more.  BE HONEST, please.  If you knew what I went through during my marriage (that's a vent for another time) you would understand why lying to me is the most painful thing you can do to me.  

Have some class................tell the damn truth