troubledone's blog: "My Exciting Life"

Yeah my dad is smashed.... Its really depressing being around him... seeing him stumble all over the place... slurring his speech... talking to the dogs... Thats not even the worst of my day... but id rather not get into that in a blog... Lets jus say its about boys.. yeah boys.. nothin but trouble.. *sigh* i duno... im sick and tired of being depressed. I jus wish that i could get away from it all... Sometimes i really do feel that everything would be better without me here.... Sure i do some good, but its not enough to weight out the bad in my life. A few of you know what im talking about but if you dont, dont be discouraged.. things always have a way of working themselves out... *sigh* this is my life...................

Here i am yet again being the slave.... Basically keeping up the house by myself... To be honest my house is a fucking pig stye. I only try to make it more livable. The weekend is here and my brother and I are the only ones home! How weird is that... But the dishes are piled up.. laundry is taking over downstairs and the bathroom is a mess... So in an hour i end up cleaning the bathroom finishing ALL the dishes and starting to tackle the laundry. I cant do much with my back but holy shit come on. Im 18 and im not getting paid to do this shit. Moms over at grandmas and dad went fishing. I think that they should be doing something once and a while... i just did the dishes yesterday and yet they piled up again... GRRR im soo sore and mad i still wanna go out and have fun but its sooo stressful. *sigh* i feel better... ok im done.. i think its time for a bath.....

I hate my life because its so confusing.. i wish people would just come out and say what they want and not beat around the bush. I hate that it makes me so confused!! i have enough problems then to worry about other people intentions... *sigh* Well that was vauge enough that now one knows what im talking about unless they're very clever. But yes i just needed to vent so i feel better now.....

i hate that everything happens for a reason..... im soo burnt out and i keep having more bad things all around me... its so depressing its hard to stay happy when all there is is saddness. I love my friends to death but there is only so much negativity one person can handle in a day and ive almost reached my limit... But never the less i will be there for them all... but back to everything happens for a reason... Maybe everything that happened today was for a particular reason. To be more specific.. to make me a stronger person... who really knows for sure... i sure as hell dont.. But the only thing i kno how to do somewhat is to look on the bright side, even when its buried. I love all of my friends out there. I hope that everything turns out the way it should for them... good.

Yeah im excited because i just cleaned my horribly messy room yesterday. And i organized last night. Then i couldnt fall asleep so i did the dishes and cleaned the stove and cleaned the entire bathroom.. Yeah theres something wrong with me. But hey then it just makes it that much easier to move when i want to.. yeah i feel great! But i just thought id tell you all how much of a clean freak i can be. Good thing im too tired to finish the rest of the house. But i do have to get goin so i can help out my brother an fix up his room... Then its meatloaf tonite! Later peoples! GIVE ME A CALL AND ENTERTAIN ME PLEASE!!! ILL PAY YOU WITH COMMENTS AND RATINGS!!!

Well i just got done voting.. boring really but at least its something. A few friends said it was a waste but i believe i contributed. I did my research and made an educated contribution. It feels good to get something done and i know the people i voted for a good for what i want and i can only hope that they fulfill their promises... well i hope the rest of you got out their and did something with your vote instead of just throwing it away.

Mmmm i hate stupid people who dont get the hint... Gee if i havent talked to you in over 2 years maybe theres a reason why. Stop calling me its gross! YUK! I dont know what else to say to this kid.. He just doesnt get the hint and i dont wanna be a complete bitch so what should i do?

My dad treats me like a fucking slave... and my poor mother. He yells and doesnt appoligize even though he is wrong. Maybe mom and i should get an appartment. YEAH! omg that would be sweet we respect each other and she know i go out and party... she makes fun of me for it. And if she wanted to i totally would. But I get up and was going to talk to mom who was in the kitchen and he says get me a beer. GAH thats how its been my whole freaking life. I hate beer so much I cant understand why people drink it and like it soo much. My mom got home while i was in the shower and dad started to play sick because the whole day he was fine until a half an hour ago and no hes 'stuffed up'. GRRRR FAKERS SUCK! And even last night dad was bitching about something. He always yells at mom for something. Like when she snores he jabs her in the ribs and yells at her to go on her side. A little too ruff if you ask me. I mean wear ear plugs for crying out loud! I duno if dad got off the drugs and alcohol he'd be a much more tolerable person. But i mean thats just me.. I wont have to really deal with him after i move out but mom is the one im worried about. In the past dad used to be very physical when he got angry i even called the cops on him for makin my brother bleed. Yeah and ive had more than my fair share of beatings in the past as well. But thats in the past and we all know we cant change that... WOH i feel better now. I just needed to vent a little bit and this was the best way i know how without the asshole listening in. So yeah tell me what you think i should do? Thanks love you all!

Ok so this bitches name is courtney. Ive known her ever since i moved to this town, unfortunatly. But i never really started talking to her until i got into high school. Well of course my best friend Betsy had a problem with her and she was right... Courtney is a slut/whore/bitch/cunt whatever you wanna call her shes everything. Very manipulative... Because of her I almost lost 2 very good friends. One of them i knew for 4 years and he is a sweetheart. I hooked those two up basically and she pulled on his heartstrings and played him. When they fought i was stuck in the middle.. so being a girl i took her side.. little did i know she was such a bitch. So after a while she still playin him he just wised up and i saw him at a co-workers sons birthday party. He appologised to me for making such a big mistake because i warned him. But we are friends now. She is now toying with another friend of mine. Tyler who ive known since i moved here.. her neighbor. Shes just pullin him along. or at least thats the last thing i heard. And shes stringing along John too. Damn what a whore huh? The worst part about this is she left me at a party where she knew this girl hated me. She didnt even call or anything so i was drunk and i didnt know that she hated me or anything and she wanted to fight me over some stupid shit! so i drove home drunk.... she avoided my calls and everything. What a pussy! Next time i hear she fucks with one of my friends... shits goin down. So tell me i dont have enough reasons to kick this girls ass!?

Well my dad who was supposed to be gone all week came home early today.. fuckin grand!!! Hes obviously drunk and probly stoned and i cant deal with his attitude. He aggrivates every little situation. We have this plugin thing for the internet and i moved them around so i could plug in my heating pad seeing as how i didnt wanna sleep alone because i was really sick. He has the nerve to bitch at me for moving the plugs around! WTF?! Is it really that hard to move them again??? GEEZ Totally ridiculous! Moms not happy and neither am i. We were both looking forward to a quiet weekend. We both have a lot of respect for each other and thats why we dont fight. Dad on the other hand just doesnt give a shit. I have a bad history with him as far as abuse and him just messing with my head basically. Im just waiting for the day where i can say 'fuck you' and never have him in my life again. Dont get me completly wrong i love my dad when hes sober but when hes like this hes a completly different person and i know he will never get help for himself so thats just the way its going to be.