As my tired eyes gaze ahead at the mountains set before me,
As I struggle, as I fight to be all that I'm suppose to be,
As the night turns to day and the day slowly fades into night,
As I'm stumbling, lost in the darkness, deep in the absence of light,
As I grow weary and faint, and as my skin turns deathly pale,
Can you hear my heart crying out in pain? Can you hear it wail?
As the tears flow from my stormy eyes like a flood,
As I slice my wrists and stand over this pool of blood,
As I lie here whispering and writing letters to the one who gave me life and now has tasted death,
As I hold, ponder, and then cherish the little bit of strength I have left.
As I grow weary and faint, and as my skin turns deathly pale,
Can you hear my heart crying out in pain? Can you hear it wail?
As the people praise the power of my words of poetry and song,
As they stir, as they move, and as they all sing along,
As they smile, as they gather closer and begin to dance,
As they pretend to get me just so they can reach down my pants.
As I bleed and suffer alone, as I cry out for affection, for a burning love,
As I wait for a voice, a soft whisper, a word of encouragement from an angel above.
As I grow weary and faint, and as my skin turns deathly pale,
Can you hear my heart crying out in pain? Can you hear it wail?
In the silence of the night I pray...
Oh Goddess above breathe into the deepest part of me.
Lift me up and hold me close, open my eyes so I can see.
Guide my steps and light my way for I'm hopelessly lost in this world.
My thoughts and emotions are a blur as down a downward spiral their hurled.
I'm left alone yet once again. This time I'm desolate and deranged.
Left alone in a world thats shifted, twisted, and rearranged.
The things I hold dear always seem to disappear.
Oh Goddess, will you please help me, lend me your keenest ear.
As my heart begins to bleed yet once again I drop my head and shed a tear.
As I grow weary and faint, and as my skin turns deathly pale,
Can you hear my heart crying out in pain? Can you hear it wail?
In the silence of the night I pray...
Oh Goddess above breathe into the deepest part of me.
Lift me up and hold me close, open my eyes so I can see.
Guide my steps and light my way for I'm hopelessly lost in this world.
My thoughts and emotions are a blur as down a downward spiral their hurled.
I'm a muse on mute, a skipped track, a silent and sad song.
I don't know how I got here and how everything went so sudenly and severely wrong.
So excuse me while I sling this ink deep into my skin,
Beautifully illustrating the wretched pain that dwells within.
I pierce my flesh and I make a habit of spiking my hair.
People are forced to stop and in shock blankly stare.
The scars you see on these wrists of mine are smaller than those that lie across this man's heart.
Is this where it all ends or is this just where we all have to start?
As my heart bleeds, I drop my head and I shed another tear.
Oh Goddess, will you please help me, hear my heart's cry, its gentle plea, Oh dear Goddess please hear my heart's only prayer!
© Brett Harper
