TheRealBxTruth's blog: "My life"

Out with the old, in with the new. You know,  four years ago I  was deeply saddened that the woman had loved for so many years decided not to stay by my side as we planned. That "ride or die" for as long as we all wanted, yet you chose differently at the end.  Through my dismay, I continued to build a life for her with me, and even attached her name to the deed of my new house. Of course,  once again,  she decided to stay where she is. It shattered me, and broke my heart beyond measure, but what can I do.  

Its been almost 4 1/2 years,and let's analyze where WE are. While you live under someone else's roof with your ex baby daddy, I have  my own roof with three bedrooms, three bathrooms, kitchen,  living room,  balcony etc. You have to walk a few blocks for a park to enjoy,  yet I have one across the street. You have to go miles to jump in a crowded pool with other people,  yet I have  my own and its right outside. Closest beach to you is miles away andit's a cesspool of dirty people in the same place,  yet my beaches are minutes away and clean enough to be up to your neck in water and still see your feet.Oh, but what really gets me is the fact that,  now that I am in the aviation industry,  I can travel worldwide when I want,  anytime I want.........and you..............well, your still in the same neighborhood aren't you? I live my life in truth because you can't win with any lies, I've never lied to you or anyone else........yet, much like the internet,  you believe what people tell you behind a computer instead of the Truth which always stood in front of you, and while youve probably already been through a thousand guys after me,it's safe to say you were the last woman I've been with, and  not to say that I'm bitter in any way, but I'm damned sure and healthier with a higher degree of respect for myself than anyone. Oh, and by the way........its a comfortable  80 to 100 grand a year in my career, so if you're happy with your ex baby daddy and all your other boyfriends supporting you,  do you.......I have  better things to do with my time and money.......like Greece, Rome, Dominican republic (which I just came back from a cruise from), Italy, Cozumel (two months away).....etc. You get the idea, you made your bed of nails, live with it.

Wow, I'm looking through the history of my page and see how my life has progressed throughout the years of changes. From single, to finding my one and only, dedicating my life to her, being betrayed,  and to the now........single, alone, phenomenal career at the airport, three bedroom house and my truck that has been more faithful than any woman I've met. Just to get it off my chest, I'm disappointed. I did the chasing, I did the persistence, I gave everything you could possibly imagine, even bought you engagement rings, wedding bands, personal items, smh.......I've spent more on you in four years than your ex did in his whole life. Even the house was put under your name,  which I later had to remove for tax reasons so that I didn't destroy your credit. I've broken away from your web, I created a distance, when instead you could have been under my wing. It's all good. I've learned from our rocky relationship that what I once valued in you, blinded me from seeing what was within me....a kind, thoughtful, generous, humble and honest man. I proved my worth while you denounced my value, listening to haters instead of building with the one who would never lie to you, the one who defended you against the army of perverts you entertained. Lesson learned. A year and a half later,  I'm still single, while you're probably on your 100th man, and I'm still faithful not only to the world, but most importantly to myself.  You were once my one and only thought, but my eyes have awoken to see you as everybody else's  thot. Real eyes recognize real lies.

Im disgusted by betrayal, im disgusted of being the loving natured who always gives his all for someone who doesnt do the same in return. Early this year i had to make one of the most toughest decisions of my life, i had to leave New York in order to stay close to my dad and watch over him. I trust no one, not even his money thirsty new wife. Due to his illnesses, i decided to govern over him so that nobody comes and tries to take away an empire that i alone have built. The biggest downfall that came with this decision, was the fact that the woman i love and have planned to spend the rst of eternity with, did not want to join me, even after the fact that i bought a house for us, with her name attached. At first, i bought a 4 bedroom house for my dad, which any loving son with good upbringing and funding would do for any family member. Next i bought a three bedroom, which i thought would be convenient for my girlfriend and her son as welll as myself. Of course, like dejavu, eggs on my face, she didnt want to make such a move for the better. Next i bought a truck, a perfect sized family vehicle for us, which now i have to ride alone all the time. And of course, i bought her two rings with genuine diamonds, just waiting to become customed fitted for her. One diamond is a genuine clear brilliant white, and the other is a genuine briiliant black.......both 2 qts, one appraised at $3875 the othe appraised at $1290. 

The source of betrayal is the lack of trust. if you trusted me, you wouldve stayed by my side, but of course, you choose someone elses words over mine, when i only choose your voice over everybody. You wanted me to show you proof? What more proof than what i have already showed you in all these years? Everything and anything you wanted, i gave to you, and even things you didnt wanted, but i knew youd enjoy, i still gave you, and for what? For you to walk away from me all the time? Ive always came crawling back to you, begging for you not to let me go, knowing i gave you no reason to leave me, yet its just as easy as that for you to leave me and date others? Its been 6 months since ive left New York, and i still havent had the care to even talk to another woman, let alone even trust one, but im sure thats not the same in her case. If you truly wanted more proof, you shouldve taken me up on the offer and you wouldve came down to see it for yourself, in writing. You expected me to, what? Send you a copy of the paperwork? For what? Paperwork like that is sensitive, theres no telling what you would do with it if i left it in your hands. Ive got all the proof right here, right in front of me, you want to see it? come and see for yourself, like i offered you to do so. The house, the truck the rings......you would have seen them all for yourself, in person, if you wouldve taken the blind leap of faith to come see it for yourself. Time is running out, and im about to put the motion to remove your name as power of attorney off this lease if you dont come see it. It makes absolutely no sense of holding your name to my collateral when we are not even together.......thats like giving away a fortune to a complete stranger.

I have a three bedroom, three bathroom house. Master bedroom is huge, has a walk in closet, really huge bathroom and a balcony. Ive got a backyard patio, swimming pool, jacuzzi, and gym and parking for both trucks outside. All i need, all thats missing......is YOU.

Im done.

What can i say? How else can i describe it? This feeling has me floating on air. I found the right person that ive decided to spend my whole life with, ive found my perfect match. Without a question, she is smart, witty, perceptive, embracing, and 1000% gorgeous inside and out. The type of woman you would bring home to meet your family......the type of woman that you want to grow old with and wake up every morning next to. XxElviraxX, I love you.........now......always.......and FOREVER!!!

As I grew up, I broke out of that horror, but still much rathered just watching movies at home than in the theater, especially after the invention of DVDs.....because at least there, if you have to go to the bathroom, you could always press pause, pee, and not miss a scene. As time grew on, I did manange to catch a flick or two every few months or so, just to do something different in life, and manage to enjoy myself like every other normal human being in the world. I mean, Will Smith's "Independence Day" for one, is a movie much better enjoyable on a movie screen than on a TV at home. So I would go to the movies seldomly, but not as much.

Now, since Ive been with my girlfriend Elvira, Ive been going out just a little more. We've seen alot of movies, both good and bad, but the best part to me is just to be with her. I mean, at the end of the day, how else can you explain enjoying a good movie, while in the company of my movie star girlfriend? Shes the sexiest combination of Selena, Olga Tanon, Marilyn Monroe, Cindy Crawford, Irina Shayk, Chritie Brinkley and Adriana Lima. Altogether, my girlfriend is the hottest, most sexiest Goddess to walk the streets of this planet. If you doubt me, go take a look at her page, she's my number #1, see for yourself, but please......while you are there, dont forget to like and rate her page.

For the first time in my life, I can say it, i can breathe it.....I can believe it. Its a feeling that is so strong, so powerful and so deep that its become the essence of my life and existence. Its so much more than a mere thought, its so much more than a mere dream, its become my reason to live, and my inspiration to reach for bigger goals in life. Once you’re in love with someone, it’s hard to remember how you lived without him or her. Of course, you were alive before you met this person, but you really didn’t start “living” until the two of you met. Falling in love is one of the most exciting, rewarding and scariest things you could ever do. Everyone experiences love differently, and at different times. Even the meaning of love is extremely subjective, but I say for certain that anyone who’s experienced it knows it’s the best feeling ever, and for the first time in my life......I know its a reality that is as real as the touch of the keyboard against my fingertips as I write this blog. No matter how great your day might be going, your special person will make it better. Ive proven that to myself everyday, because if I dont speak or hear of her, my day becomes gloomy, and my heart feels grim. When you just "like" someone, he or she might make your day better..........but let's face it......."probably" doesn't cut it. Love is selfless. Not to say the I have an ego, or that I am self-ish, but all mankind was born with survival instinct.....and when we are single, we put ourselves before anyone else. There was a time in my life that even I thought I was the most important person in MY world........until, of course, I met my girlfriend. from the instance that I found her,all my focus was redirected to her, and her desires became much more important than my own. This is just how love is. Your needs always seem to become trivial in comparison to your significant other’s needs. When you’re in love with someone, you do whatever you can to make that person happy. When you like someone, you may feel like there is a lot you would do for the person, but you certainly have your limits. True love knows no limits. When you’re truly in love, you want everyone to know. You are not bashful about your feelings by any means. When you like someone, there is a lot of holding back on how you feel. When you’re in love with someone, it’s hard to imagine a future without the person in it. For this reason, you will think long-term about how you can build a life with this person. You won’t give in to short-term temptations that might mess up your long-term goals. When you just like someone, thinking long-term can be pretty scary. No one is perfect (except for my girlfriend because she in my eyes she is truly flawless)............we all have room for improvement. But, being in love will force you to work on these things. You want to become the best version of yourself for the person you love. I am a better person now than I was before I met my girlfriend. For instance, im a healthier person now, more than ever since ive met my girlfriend, because up to this day its been 7 months and 6 days since Ive last smoked a disgusting ass cigarette. When you love someone unconditionally, it means that your love knows no conditions and is absolute. I don’t actually like the term “unconditional love” because I think it’s redundant. I believe all true love is unconditional. When you like someone, your feelings change depending on the condition. From the moment I first interacted with her, she became more and more my best friend.  I believe this to be true for most people who fall in love. I believe that your significant other becomes your partner in crime. You feel like, together, you can take on the world. For this and so many more reasons that I will not share, I believe that for the first time in my life, I truly am in love. I walk around the earth with thoughts of her, and hearts flying around in my eyes at the mere sight or thought of her. Its not a mere obsession, although technically obsession means an idea or thought that continually preoccupies or intrudes on a person's mind........it's more like a devotion, which is better described as: Loyalty, faithfulness, fidelity, commitment, admiration, love, affection and caring (yes, i grew up as a bookworm too). Its definitely not an infatuation either, because infatuation's are more of a short term agreement.......an intense but short-lived passion or admiration for someone or something......this feeling I have is more for the long term.........it's more for the future, and as I've told her time and time again.....I'm willing to do anything to make it work, so that I can live old and gray and happy for the rest of my life with her and only her by my side. Although she is not ready to feel the same way for me now......hopefully time will change that, and I have to stay optimistic that she sees the true worth of my feelings. Until then, I will remain on my knees waiting forever to bow down to her glorious grace. As for me, I know im in love. Elvira, my love......if one day you were ever to read this, I want you to know these are my real thoughts to be proof evident, that you are my one and only, and that I will love you forever. This is written proof as a testimony that will live on even after I die, that my heart, mind, body and soul are yours forever, and if there is anything beyond foreveer, i will love you beyond forever some more.

Ive found my perfect match. I can honestly say, I truly am, without a doubt, fully in love. Due to the fact that the internet is too nosey and impersonal, I wont release her name here, just know that she exists and she is my everything (I make sure she knows that everyday). She has an inner beauty that has radiated on to her outter self and has made her the jaw dropping, mouth watering, gorgeous super model that she is today.......and I have loved her since the first day Ive laid eyes on her. There is just no other way I can describe it........there is just no other way I can say it........but in all my life, ive never felt so happy and without a doubt completely in love with her. So much so, that im willing to do anything for her!! 

In all my years, this emotion has never felt so much more real that it inches through my heart like a pulse going through my veins.

She has become my every breath, and my only thought in life, and without her, I refuse to exist. The heart that I have hidden and protected all these years, has finally arisen and now lays in her hands forever. Together, my love story one day will lay immortal.