GuyOfYurDreams30's blog: "My Songs"

I'll wrap your gift and put it under my tree

Even though you won't be here

And all I want for Christmas

Is for you to be here this year

And watch the snow fall all around us

But you're not here

So pack your bags and pack your suitcase

Just hold tight

I don't know if I'll make it through to

Christmas night

And all I want for Christmas

Is to hold your hand

I'd drive through snow for hours and hours

To be your man

I'll bundle up, I won't waste time, I'll hurry up, we'll be fine

As long as I see you Christmas night... Christmas night

Don't turn off the lights before you sleep

'Cause I'll be there

I'll put something special in your stocking

To show you that I care

And we'll stay up all night, in each other's arms

'Cause I'll be there

I'll pack my bags and pack my suitcase

To see your face

'Cause I don't know if I'll make it through to

This holiday

And all I want for Christmas

Is to taste your lips

I'll fly a thousand miles

For just one kiss

I'll bundle up, I won't waste time, I'll hurry up, we'll be fine

As long as I see you Christmas night...

I'll wait by the fire, look at our star

(I'll be there for Christmas wherever you are)

Just close my eyes and think about you

(Just don't give up hope, whatever you do)

I'll wait for you (I'm coming)

I'll wait for you (I'm nearly there)

My heart is true (I'm yours, too)

All I want for Christmas

Is to feel your heart

No matter the space and distance

We'll never be apart

We'll bundle up, we won't waste time, as I am yours and you are mine

We'll see each other Christmas night... Christmas night

(New Song, unfinished)

I never knew how you could stand tall

With my back pressed against the wall

You could have chosen anyone

But you put your finger to the gun (and pulled the trigger like a pro)

You wore that smile like a shark

Whispers on phones in the silent dark

Wielding your sickle with style and grace

Winning every pretty face

It's not you, it's compulsion

A hollowness filled with your consumption

Addiction to self-absorption

Anything to forget your own word

Knives laid bare on a screen

Pretending you're on my team

Rehearsing lines for your scene

A friend spent isn't a friend earned

So here's to past times, staying up all night

Sneaking out and sneaking in together

But that's the last time, I'll ever trust you

Because all that's gold isn't all that glitters

That razor's edge you've been dancing upon

Has got you drawn onto

The vile inside your head, and the phial inside your hand

You never wanted to take blame

For every target at which you took aim

Gold dress on your fingertips

Poached kisses on your lips

I tried just like I professed

But you never once confessed

The many things to which you wrest

Trying to quench your own thirst

I'll stand back, just like you wanted

Flash my teeth, as you flaunt it

Hope my ghost leaves you haunted

You call me brother, but, brother, you're the worst

So here's to past times, staying up all night

Sneaking out and sneaking in together

But that's the last time, I'll ever trust you

Because all that's gold isn't all that glitters

He just sits at his home
Wondering how he’s alone
Thinking about how he’ll make it out on his own
He looks in the mirror and says how do you plead
“Friggin’ innocent” but he’s as guilty as can be
And the time ticks away, as the clock melts to mush
And he’s smoking his weed for the simplest rush
He just stares at his face, the reflection ain’t kind
What was once just a boy is now filled with age lines
Used to be a kid, but now here’s an old man
Once what had life is now ready to kick the can
A young man at the age of twenty four
Left a wrinkling corpse that wasn’t there before
The years flew on behind, leaving this kid in his past
As he holds on his pride, and he sits on his ass
Wondering where things went wrong and how this came to be
While he’s still holding onto a single memory

It’s like the good mixed in with the bad…
And you got to take in all the happy with the sad
‘Cause if you don’t then you’ll never live life
And you’ll sit on your ass as time passes you by
It’s like the old mixed in with the new
And you got to enjoy everything that you do
‘Cause if you don’t then you’ll never live life
And you’ll sit on your ass as time passes you by

She’s just waiting to meet the right guy
But after thirty dozen tries, she’s starting to ask why
It’s like she can’t catch a break, it’s eating her alive
‘Cause she’s busting her ass for seven dollars twenty five
While her baby daddy ain’t nowhere to be found
‘Cause when he found out she was pregnant, he skipped onto the next town
She calls her momma and prays to Jesus everyday
For some rich, handsome man to come and take her away
She’s wishing she was Cinderella, waiting for her prince
But not a single guy seems to be taking her hints
She’s trying to look out for herself and her son
But it’s hard for her when she hasn’t found the one
Who will take care of her and won’t take her for granted
‘Cause she’s sick of feeling like she has been abandoned
So she’s slaving away, trying not to scream
As she sits on her ass, waiting for her dream

It’s like the good mixed in with the bad…
And you got to take in all the happy with the sad
‘Cause if you don’t then you’ll never live life
And you’ll sit on your ass as time passes you by
It’s like the old mixed in with the new
And you got to enjoy everything that you do
‘Cause if you don’t then you’ll never live life
And you’ll sit on your ass as time passes you by

I wonder if you still remember
Falling asleep on the phone together
Thinking we would last forever
So we thought
Now I'm sitting all alone here
After so many years
Nothing seems to stop these tears
Now you're gone

But I still hope and pray
You'll come back someday
You'll come back to me

Chicago...
I hope you know
That this melody is for you
And my star
Wherever you are
I hope that you feel this too
'Cause I've been wasting away
Every since that day
Every since you left... me here

I know distance is a nightmare
And that life was so unfair
To place us without a care
So far apart
But I hope deep down inside you
That you still feel as I do
And I hope that you know that you
Still have my heart

'Cause I still hope and pray
You'll come back someday
You'll come back to me

Chicago...
I hope you know
That this melody is for you
And my star
Wherever you are
I hope that you feel this too
'Cause I've been wasting away
Every since that day
Every since you left... me here

I tried giving a part of me… but you wouldn’t have it

I tried so sel-fish-ly… to be part of your life

You couldn’t admit… I was your bane, I was your demons

And now here we are, picking pieces of ourselves off the floor

So Kill Me Now, Just Like You Wanted (You Wanted)

So Kill Me Now, While You Can

I never wanted this, I never wanted to say goodbye (say goodbye)

I never wanted this, I never felt you’d walk away… (But It’s Already Too Late)

You tossed me off to the side... like a burnt out cigarette

You always found places to hide… to keep your heart from pain

I’ll never be sure… what this could have been, what could have happened

And now here we are, both just strangers to ourselves

So Dis-Ap-pear, Just Like I Expected (Like I Expected)

So Dis-Ap-pear, Just Like You Said You Never Would

I never wanted this, I never wanted to say goodbye (say goodbye)

I never wanted this, I never felt you’d walk away… (But It’s Already Too Late)

You promised you would stay, but that was all a lie (a bunch of lies)

You promised you’d be here, but then you started to stray (‘Cause You Feel Overwhelmed)

She took me by surprise

With every single spoken word

And as I look into her eyes...

I know that it's for sure:

She's everything

She's everything

She's everything to me, to me

I love to see her smile

And the taste of her sweet lips

'Cause I know God couldn't

Have created a girl that could be more perfect

She's everything

She's everything

She's everything to me, to me

She called last night... just to leave me her last goodbye

But she didn't know that she was my world

She's everything

She was everything to me

She's everything

She was everything to me

So I'm lying here in my bed

With her voice ringing in my head

Every word that was left unsaid

When she finally let me go

Now I'm trying to figure out

Just what I'll do now

Just how I'll live without her, I just don't know

I can't help that she was scared

I can't help that I'm confused

I can't help that I'm still stuck here not knowing what to do

I just wish that she may realize how much pain this still stings

And I just wish she knew that she was everything

She's everything

She was everything to me

She's everything

She was everything... everything... everything to me

I hate the silence... and the crushing hope

That I'll hear the vibration of my phone

I hate the night time, and the thought that you're okay

While I'm losing sleep and can't breathe while I wait

For your phone call, for your text, for you to reach to me

For the end-all of this mess, and find a way that we

Can move on from this or can go back to the start

Give me one last kiss, before we break apart

'Cause I don't wanna say

That this is the end... that this is all over

So can't we pretend... that we're alright

I want you to know, my little October

I'll still be here, y'know, I'll still hang tight

I hate the darkness... hate the sound of my voice

As it calls into the night just to give me some noise

Like a wasp on the window, begging to get in

Feel your sting on my skin, releasing your venom

Put me under, put me out, put me in my place

Push over over, push me down, that I can find a way

Back to your good graces, back to what we used to have

'Cause I want to face this, and not put you in the past

'Cause I don't wanna say

That this is the end... that this is all over

So can't we pretend... that we're alright

I want you to know, my little October

I'll still be here, y'know, I'll still hang tight

I can still feel a part of you here with me

Like a ghost of you is clinging like a memory

Like a sound in the shadows, like a light in the dark

Like a skeleton's bony hand gripped onto my heart

'Cause I don't wanna say

That this is the end... that this is all over

So can't we pretend... that we're alright

I want you to know, my little October

I'll still be here, y'know, I'll still hang tight