Mr ABC's blog: "Ramblings of a old man"

I woke with no sun,

Quarantined again,

the streets are so lifeless,

to be continued....

2020 I didn't think I would make it this far

still alone, still wishing on that star

the dreams I had, there now in the past

the life I dreamed of ended too fast

at 65 the light now grows dimmer

the smile on my face now dosent shimmer

I sleep at night with just empty dreams

I wake in the morn, with no life it seems

I go through the motions, I get out of bed

I go make my coffee, and it hurts in my head

why do I do this, and beat myself up

because I still love you........

2014 was my planned ending

I tried suicide, but I failed

everyday is still hell,

I failed at love, I failed at life.

my meds help numb the pan

seeing you here and on instagram happy

tears at my soul

I cry and smile at the sametime

I am happy for you, but sad on what I lost

its 2018 and nothing has changed.

waiting for God to take me home.

your married now

I wish you well

your happy now

my life's still hell

The pain's still there

I drink it gone

but its still there

and you are gone

I met you here

my only love

and now you dance

with someone somewhere

my life is lost

our love is dead

I think of you

your in my head

your in my heart

I wish God would

take me home

and end my pain for good.

You'll never hear the silent words I am speaking
You'll never feel the silent love I am feeling
You'll never fell the silent pain thats now my life
I'll never feel the silent joy of you as my wife.
 
The sadness fill my soul, it clouds my life
Fe without you , what the point in life.
My sadness builds from day to day.
I don't want it to end, not in this way.
 
My goal was never to let you down,
it was for you to be around
Oh, yes my love I made mistakes
my judgment failed, but ne'r forsakes
 
Oh yes my love I miss you so.
And with these poems I let you know
but will you read my words I write
I pray to God, each and every night
 
So please forgive my humble soul
and start again, anew a common goal
and if you love me , as I do you
come back to me. And say I do.
 
Darling, my words fall silent. My life is meaningless without your love.
Please search your soul. Forget what your head tells you follow your heart.

Love is.
Love is imeasurable , its bigger than the universe, yet can fit inside your heart.
Love is unstopable, it can overcome any obstacle
Love is always willing to forgive, no matter the circumstance
Love is tireless
Love is the essence of 2 people.
Love is one, love is all, love is not singular
Love is a gift from God, God gave me the gift off your love.
I cherish that gift, I cannot think of life without that gift.
 
A preist told me what hell is like, he said hell is the absence of God, and Gods Love
My hell on earth is the absence of your love. Mahal, save me from this hell.
Tell me you love me so we can start fresh.  Love can over come the diffrences.
If it couldn't why are you reading this.

Without you there is no light

Without you there is no dark

Without you there is no happiness

Without you there no sadness

Without you there is no reason

Without you there is no rhyme

Without you there's only stillness

Without you there is no time.

Without you I am so empty

Without you there is no us

Without you there is no future

Without a future what's the fuss

Without you my life is empty

Without you should I continue

Without you my life's a mess

WITHOUT YOU....... my love will end ... forever

This is from my heart, I am crying as I write this, I cant imagine a life without you in it with me..

I love you dearly, I wish you could see...