So here I was, mad and upset with her for the things she said and how she was acting altogether. At this time, all the things about her that nag me also came to the front of my mind. Yes, she has mannerisms that I don't like. For example, she'll just randomly say 'blahhh' if she can't think of anything else to say and she'll even text it to me every so often.
I also started discovering more about her. I turned my phone off, I didn't feel like talking to her. I had nothing to say to her and I didn't want to hear anything more that she wanted to say. That Sunday, I logged into MySpace because it told me I had a crapload of messages from her, so I figured I would see what she had to say at this point. Nothing new really. I just find it funny at how she doesn't want to hurt me, then she starts doing this crap. I started looking around myspace a bit and I noticed she had posted bulletins--you know, surveys and crap--but cleverly gave them titles such as "This weekend sucks", etc.
Needless to say, I eventually turned the phone on and she somehow convinced me to come over to her place (oh yeah, she kept begging "please, please, please,....." until I said yes. Somehow we ended up making up. But, even now it seems odd. I can't forget what happened; I can't forget how she made me feel; and I can't forget all the crap that annoys me about her. She also seems to have picked up this annoying habit of trying to sound like some 'cute' girl by talking like a child. This has only started happening the past couple of days.
Great, one more annoyance.....
I know I probably sound like a dick, but I don't really know how to get my mind back before all this happened. I feel like my feelings are changing and I don't know if I can recapture the feelings from before.
