To Break Free
So, here it is again this dilemma that never resolves
Here i can expect the agonizing pain that overwhelmes every part of me, that it disolves.
what do i need to do to find a way, a path that elevates?
One that doesn't betray?
So, i simply ask when will time be condusive? Will i grasp the things i yearn for?
Or are they too elusive?
I've tried all i know passive, agressive, even calice
But there always seems to be a counter-remedy, one with such malice
So, ultimetly i remain tainted & torn
Between what i was & who i am now, a woman scorned
It's horrifying to ponder that the ones who are supposed to love & love unconditional are first to attack, their first to shove.
So, how do you raise your fists, I don't understand?
How do you hug me & beat me with the same hand?
This situation can not continue this is clear, because i can not live in constant fear.
I'm trying best to deal, to conquer & be brave but its disparaging to know
that You will be the one to create my grave.
So, with no one to turn to, no one can hear my cry
Who can help, when is it time, when will i die?
Is it as bad as it seems because we will all pass away, that is fate
But then again not all dangle from strings, not all are bait
So, i know this is my life..unless i change it
I just wish i had that spark, that the match was lit
Once that part fits, once i retrive
A new beginning i forsee, a new way: one that only I can conceive
So i can be who i want, who i am, finally free
Without any distractions, without being afraid, i will see
This new vision will bear light to who i am to be.
