CantSleepClownsWillEatMe's blog: "Crushed and not the good way"

Today I dont promise to be happy when I am COMPLETELY falling apart inside. Today is technically my last full day with my boyfriend. I go to Tanja's tomorrow. I will see Rudi on Wednesday night and he is taking me to the airport Thursday morning but honestly I just want to lay my head down and cry. The love of my life will be over 7400 miles away in less then a week. I wont be waking next to him nor falling asleep holding his hand. I wish there was something to do to make this easier, but no matter how much I tell myself Im not going to cry, I do :(