**I wrote this to put on myspace blog to update everyone on there about what is going on with me lately . . . but I have had quite a few people on here asking so here I will place it on here too, that way everyone knows . . . **
I have learned some things in life that I never thought I would have to learn, or at least not learn when I did. Yesterday, I may have been thrown another one of those things that I am not ready to catch and run with. Let me break it all down here real quick for those of you who care to know, ad those that don’t well just quit reading now . . . . There will be no wit or humor through this blog, just the truth of what is going on in my life as of now.
I was at work yesterday and it was somewhere around 7:30 am when my phone rang. I looked at the screen and it said Dr Idrees, now knowing the office doesn’t open until 8:30 I was reluctant to answer, but I did. I said hello, and was told that some of the tests I had run a week or so ago had come back abnormal and I needed to come in to the office to talk with someone about them. So, heart heavy and kind of scared I said ok I would come in as soon as I could.
I went downstairs and started brainstorming on who could come in and cover my shift for me so I could go get whatever news was waiting for me. After 2 hours of trying I finally had someone who came in to work for me and I owe her a great deal of thanks. Anyway, I took off and headed home. I stopped ay the house to change my clothes and all that before I went to the office. No need to go in my work uniform if I don’t have to after all.
I got there and they stuck back in that little room all alone and just waiting for someone to come in. I could hear the doctor knocking on other doors and walking in, thinking each time will it be my door next. Then, after what seemed like forever he made it to my room and knocked on my door. He came in and ‘Jessica, how are you doing today? “ “I told him I was a little worried about why I was there” He told me that he was going to let his assistant work with me if I was ok with that. I told him sure I didn’t care and then she came in.
She sat down and looked through some papers and then up at me. She opened her mouth and then closed it again without saying a word. She took a deep breath and began “As you know we did some blood work when you were in the ER a few weeks ago and tested for various causes of the bleeding in your stomach. It seems that one of the tests we ran has come back troublesome. We ran a test on your whit blood cells and the numbers came back abnormally high.” This is when I said “so I have an infection, or could it be from the infection I already have?” To which she replied “no, I am afraid this is a little more serious than that. I have not seen cell counts this high with a simple infection, even with a pre-existing infection. I am afraid that it is something much more serious.” I was speechless, again. God knows I am used to getting bad health news but I couldn’t think of what she meant by much more serious.
Then, she comes over and feels my throat where it is swollen. She explains that she thinks the problem is in my lymph nodes and that is why the swelling in my throat is not going away and actually seems to be getting worse. I asked her if the swelling wasn’t just from my allergies and she told me that no, had the swelling just accompanied allergies then I would have pain and since I have no pain with the increased swelling that the lymph nodes are the logical cause at this time. She explained that in two weeks I would have to go to have some tests done that I have had done before to test for new cancers in my body. They are concerned with lymphomas at this time.
So, there ya have it folks . . . More happy news from my world. I never get to be happy; never get to be healthy . . . But never going to give up either. I feel horrible I will not lie about that, but I am still going, not going to stop. I’ll just deal with whatever is thrown at me and my friends will be right there with me . . .
