i s'pose i ought to start trying to write a blog every day or every other atleast like i used to. umm not a whole lot is new. i've just been working. i did midnight's the last two nights and now they're throwing me on morning shifts which doesn't make me happy but ill survive. i may be working a 2nd job soon because my aunt just got the gas station back and needs help running it.
as much as i know thatll mean all i do is work, i need the money and it's not like i have much else to do so for now it'd be fine. i slept until 7. i meant to get up at 4 then somehow i looked at the clock and it was 630 where it was just 4 like 30 seconds ago. i have to work at 10 in the morning. so ive been just sitting on the comp since i got up being fairly bored as ussual, which is my own fault for not choosing to do much of anything.
i should get a check in the morning for the money i was shorted which is good. i should probably get groceries sometime soon, i took my foster my and brother to the hospital for a doctor's appointment. so i got to bed a little later then ussual today. i started getting a little emotional and cried a little earlier but no biggy. was a little surprising since i've been so used to how things are and have become so distant from myself i haven't actually cried in a while. ussually i just think of ravyn far back in my mind but don't let it really get to me at all, tho not even sure why i was crying to begin with.well i guess that's it. i can't think of much to say because not much has happened and i've pondered all the pains and woes for over a year so have almost ranted myself out. loving someone sucks when the best thing you can do for them is remain out of there life.