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Secondhand Love
Secondhand Love by BlueWolf 51 © I'm not her first love, nor is she mine A secondhand love can be truly divine Knowing each other has been loved before And you both are ready to be loved once more Secondhand love knows it's way around And avoids situations where hurt is found Learning from the mistakes in it's past A secondhand love is more likely to last Secondhand love feels fresh and brand new And that you're ecstatic you know is true No doubts at all not a single regret This secondhand love could be your best yet And if you're sharing a secondhand love There is nothing at all to be ashamed of Love is love whether it's old or new I'm glad my love my secondhand love is you Notes From The Author: Dedicated to the Women I Love... I am not your first but I'm determined to be your last, you are my secondhand love so says life but in my heart you are the First .... Jan 10 2009

For A Special Lady
MY FIREPLACE The heart is to the body as my fireplace is to my home. It is the center, the warmth, the life that flows throughout. It is the power that generates healing heat, pulsing rays of energy to ward off the chill of a frosty winter night. Pine is a gift from God; a wood so willing to give itself up for the sensory pleasures it brings. A blazing pinewood fire lavishes three senses: • The sense of hearing – listen to the crackle, the sound of pine warming you is unmistakable. Each crack, each pop reminds you the pine bough is thinking of you. Thinking of the safe sounds it provides to bring you succor on such a cold evening. • The sense of sight – even with your eyes closed, the glow is evident. What better marriage than a stock of freshly laid pine boughs within the brick womb of the fireplace. It is life this marriage of wood and brick generates. A flicker first, then a small flame, then a roaring symphony of light and heat. And, you can

Fake Family Bad Friends
MySpace Comments It is sad when we spends weeks even months getting to know someone and they turn out to be someone other then who they profess to being ... I do not understand why people are so evil just leave me the heck alone if you are not going to be real damn it anyway what is the point.... MySpace Comments MySpace Comments MySpace Comments

~the Other Side~
I don't want fake friends,fake relationships...fake anything..be real with me..as real as I am with you ...I am not afraid to cry ....I am not afraid to tell you what I think...why do that with me..Don't think it is a requirement to be my friend ...because...I would not do the same for you...Life is too short to pretend anything at all ...especially with myself...and if I do not like you ..I may not tell you out right, but if you ask me...be prepared to hear the truth as I see it ... Why waste time...we both can be doing other things much more enjoyable and not feel either pressured or have to play a part in some play . THIS IS REAL LIFE...if you can be real with me...then go fake it somewhere else ..... I will give my all to any relationship I value ...friendship or intimate working one too...whether you would or will is entirely up to you...Although , I may be hurt when I find out you genuinely do not care about me half as much as I do you... I will get over it...at least I have

My First Concert
I remember telling dad I was hanging out at Amy's. It was kinda true. She had gotten us tickets to the Electric Factory in Philadelphia to see the Butthole Surfers. She had a Camaro and there were five of us stuffed in it driving into Pennsylvania. They were playing a lot of older stuff but also a ton from Electric Larryland. It was a great show and at one point, the guitarist looks down at all of us dancing and waves us up. We look over at the bouncer guy there and he moves the gate thing and we get up on stage. I love Amy, but she always dressed like a whore...lol. She was there with the singer dancing around, I was over by the guitarist. So they start playing 'Pepper'. And I'm like "Hell yeah!" So he puts his guitar around me and is all playing it while I'm there with my arms raised up. I can feel he is all pressed up against me...lol..what the Hell did I care? After three songs or so we got back down on the floor. With all the smoke and lights and stuff, you s

Stolen From Cooter Van Captainson.
A - Available: No. - Age: 28. - Annoyance: stupid people [yes, Van! death to them all] - Animal: Face eater is my dog. B - Beer: Liquor! - Birthday: June 10th. - Best Friend(s): I'm lucky I'm love with my best friend. ♫ - Body Part on opposite sex: Eyes. - Best feeling in the world: Laughing until tears are streaming down my homoface. - Blind or Deaf: Twat? I cunt see at night very well these days. - Best weather: Autumn. - Been on stage?: I've graced one on a few occasions. - Believe in Magic: I certainly do. - Believe in Santa: I believe in a child's right to believe. - Been in Love: I am at this very moment. - Been bitched out?: Ho yes. - Believe in yourself?: I try to. Some days are harder than others. - Believe in life on other planets: Sure. - Believe in miracles: Absotively, posilutely. - Believe in Satan: He's there. - Believe in Ghosts/spirits: I have an open mind. C - Candy: Reese's Peanut Butter Cups. Swedish Fish. Milky Ways. - Color(s): M

Turn My Black Roses Red...
Turn My Black Roses Red Her skin is as white as the snow, softer than silk. Glowing hazel eyes reach into the depths of your soul, taking the breath of life away from you. Her beauty is so strong that you cannot escape, forever captive. Her dark loving embrace shadows all that harms you. The warmth of her soul keeps you from fading away into the cold of the night. Her lips stained red waiting for a dark soul to awaken her. Her frozen hands holding black roses wait, wish and want someone to make her black heart beat once again. She only asks for one thing... Will you be the dark soul that turns my black roses red.

Religions
"Religions are divisive and quarrelsome. They are a form of one-upmanship because they depend upon separating the "saved" from the "damned," the true believers from the heretics, the in-group from the out-group. Even religious liberals play the game of "we're-moretolerant-than-you." Furthermore, as systems of doctrine, symbolism, and behavior, religions harden into institutions that must command loyalty, be defended and kept "pure," and - because all belief is fervent hope, and thus a cover-up for doubt and uncertainty - religions must make converts. The more people who agree with us, the less nagging insecurity about our position. In the end one is committed to being a Christian or a Buddhist come what may in the form of new knowledge. New and indigestible ideas have to be wangled into the religious tradition, however inconsistent with its original doctrines, so that the believer can still take his stand and assert, "I am first and foremost a follower of Christ/Mohammed/Buddha, or who

America Is Not That Great.
Our cunt-ry(America) has no culture, history, or future as far as I can see.....look to Bush for reasons why we have no future. With such a president, how could ANY American be proud of what they are? After your done perusing Bush, look towards Clinton(who in my opinion is the best president of our generation so far). What the hell is wrong with the public?? BIG DEAL he got a little action in the office and dipped a cigar.....maybe the wrapper was coming loose. None of that matters when you look at the statistics of his terms. The dollar was worth more than almost any other currency while he held the office, and war was the last thing on his mind(cause he is a lover). The American public is so prudish that they almost impeached the greatest thing to happen to them since JFK. Speaking of JFK, HE had Marilyn Monroe jump out of a cake almost nude and sing Mr President to him in front of not only the nation, but his FAMILY as well. No one even thought twice about it. I will never

Fear
Quick glance to the right I could've sworn I heard a sound One that goes bump in the night A sound that fills me with terrible fright I hear the thunder rumbling Then the lights go out I sense movement Somethings about! I can hear it breathing through teeth so bare Along it's scaley back is a line of thin hair As I think of this, my dread begins to flare In the corner! A dark shape indeed And as I watch It comes closer to me I can feel it's claws scratching my chair Green eyes glowing! Yes, theres a monster there Now I can smell it's breath The stench of human blood Gore dripping from it's mouth in a horrible flood Then all of a sudden The lights come on again And sitting beside me Is my furry bestfriend All of this has made me feel cold and quite queer Because it was all created, by my own Fear!

I Whispered To Her
In time she will surrender with eternity behind. The path outstretched long past the horizon. I whispered from the shadows "Don't be afriad." She took a step and then another almost without knowledge of her movements. Simply, she followed that sound - my voice beckoning. Yet there she stumbled. Looking around and realizing she was no longer home. Eyes search for a road that would lead her back. Though the feet do not lead. The journey had begun and only could she move forward. No footprints, nor breadcrumbs, nor trail there to return to what was. In her heart, she knew that it was in ruin. To the east. To the east she turned - the path ahead. Faintly there like the traces of a wraith. I saw her. Her hands quaked and her eyes began to water. She laughed and bit her lip terrified and paralyzed. My words tempted her and coiled around her face like smoke. "...I'm scared", she seemed to almost choke on the words. "I know." There is so little comfort in those

Sbg - Your Monday Blues Cure - January 19, 2009
Do You Have Monday Blues? Are your wondering what to do on a Monday? Do you want to rate but don't want to go through the BORED board? Are you tired of only rating only ezrate pics? Well, here is something different, fun, and exciting! SARGE'S BAD GIRLS The BEST bad girls you will ever meet! A listing at your fingertips of beautiful women with great pics. And of course the man that made it all possible. (He has folders of some of our best pics!) Give these bad girls a good old fashioned fu-spanking and don't forget to thank the man that made it all possible. Fan - Rate - Friend - Bling - Comment! You won't regret it! Sarge's Bad Girls Tulsa's Angel RaidersBabe ¢¾ Brown Eyed Girl ¢¾

Me.2
ME. by me Questions without answers, “How does it feel when you feel That you are nothing for someone? ” Anger, accidents... The misfortunate always Crawls alone... The stigma you gave me, I wear it with pride, Your eye is always Watching me, I am still here, Crawling, Surviving! I am a loaded gun, Always ready to shoot, Always ready to hurt... But I never do, Because I know How much A wound hurts! Sadness, loneliness... The misfortunate always Dies alone... In the death bed, I’ve seen myself, Yes, I will die alone, I will scream and cry, I will bleed alone... No warm and loving arms Will be around me, No one will care for me! “Why in front of my pain, You remain indifferent and cold? ” The misfortunate always Dies without an answer! And so be it. I am alone………… MRRCP 2007

Be Proud Dad
Be Proud Dad by me be proud dad u didnt make a soldier i did that u didnt shape my views i did that u didnt teach me to think death before dishonor i did that u didnt teach me to kill i did that u didnt teach me to hate i did that u didnt pick me up when i fell i did that u didnt give me ambition i did that u didnt teach me 2 love i did that u didnt choose my friends i did that it was ur absense my friends and my family that made me the way i am i forgive you, you didnt show me how i did that for dad. mrrcp 2007

Thursday
I will find out this Thursday if I have to have hernia surgery or not . A lot of people have said that hernia surgery will slow me down , I don't think so . It will just slow me down a bit but not long guaranteed.

Today's List 02/05/2009
lil Miss Fancy Pants, Miss Wild....and ~ItalianTease~ HAVE AUTO 11s!!! These fine ladies could use a really good spanking. Have a great day. lil Miss Fancy Pants....ஐ*ღDangerous Curves Memberღ*ஐ@ fubar Miss Wild....@ fubar ~ItalianTease~@ fubar Brought to you by: RedZ28 - Co-Owner Rate Spankers@ fubar

One Silent Night Quotes
"No one knows their true mottle until it's been tested. this is yours. whether you pass or fail is entirely up to you. I can't tell you what to do, but i know where I'll be tonight." Acheron to Urian "Take it from someone who knows firsthand, there's a lot to be said for forgiveness. Grudges seldom hurt anyone except the one bearing them." Acheron to Urian

You Rawk
this is just alittle note to let everyone know that i appreciate all the help getting to Godmother. if i forget to return your love, just remind me, there were so many of you. i do my best to return the love. thanks again,, shyone,, muahhhhh

Fair Maiden
The fair maiden stands before me, I stare at her nice and long. I turn my head for just one second, and when I look back she is gone. I turn myself in circles looking from left to right, Then I hear a scream as I look dead ahead and stare in fright. A man runs away laughing as I begin to cry, Her back is covered in blood as a dark red stream drips down her side. Why did I turn my head for that one second? If I didn't she might just be alive, Oh what can I do then I slowly begin to pull out the knife. I thrust the knife into my chest into my heart, Soon I'll join her in death and then we will never ever again be apart. -DJ Dragoz-

Here I Go Again On My Own
Single again Been here done this My last relationship wasn't a bad one. We just didn't see eye to eye on some stuff. Personality clash. But that's okay. Live and learn as they say. My life is in a different place since I was single the last time. I suppose that's a good thing. I'm not sure where I'm going or what I'm doing But I'm here pluggin along. Maybe I'll just slip into the background for awhile. Just observe. Then come out when it starts to get dark. I'm not really bothered by the alone time. It's all good for now. I have Charlie. :)

Where To Dwell
sometimes i write things that are dark, a little down words come while on my face sits a frown a muse in misery often i've found it's not like i'm some emo punk, moping around pretending i'm the only one who can feel, we all do, those of us who are real you do have those that say they're hard, and cold and just don't care , but something, somehow, somewhere, has got to bring you down, otherwise nothing can lift you up i'm not saying we should dwell on the things that make you want to throw back a hand full of pills, but rather the things that run up your spine, make your hair stand, and give you chills. like a bass line that sets in just right, or a drum beat hard heavy and tight, a guitar riff recognizable from the begining, a singer wailing like on it their life was depending, or a bolt flashing lighting up the sky, or the feeling i get when i look in her eyes, that's where i need to dwell,

Bad November - Track 11 - Choices
Bad November Disclaimer: This is a chapter in a story I wrote. None of the characters in this story are real and any relation to anyone dead or living is not intended. I apologize for any wrong use of United Kingdom English because I am not that familiar with United Kingdom slang. Any input would be welcome and any flaming will be ignored. This story is planned to be revised and maybe I can talk writer to let me post them here if people like them. Please comment and let the writer and me know what you like or don't like. Also if 2 male characters being romantically involved sickens you please don't read. If you're still interested please keep reading. One last note, if anyone wishes to copy my story please get permission first (Not that I think that will happen but who knows). Lyrics from Choices Do or die/ Sink or Swim/ We face these choices everyday/ Bitch and moan/ Nag and groan/ Don’t blame me when you fail Track 11 - Choices Bewildered doesn’t even being to descr

Update
The cancer was found in both lungs. A biopsy was done on one of them, the results will be available in about 2 weeks according to the Dr. The Dr. said that he will be safer at home than at the hospital (he was becoming confused and going downhill quick). He is home now and will be there for the next couple weeks until treatments begin. We are trying to take everything day by day, and the past two days have been great.. Thanks to my friends on here for asking and showing support - you all know who you are :)

I'm Sad
I'm sad because my boyfriend went away for 44 days I ready hope he will learn his leasons for doing what he did to me. But right all i can do and look up and try to do everything to right way while he in jail like go to deal with of driving and getting another job.

1 Word :p
The One Word Survey! Answers can only be one word; no explanations! Your self: Dislike Your eyes: Like Your hair: Soft Your smile: Cute Your crush/bf/gf: Dreamy Your prized possession: Love Your bedroom: Messy Your style: Comfortable Your mood: Loved Your outlook: Positive Your favorite movie: Many Your favorite book: Many Your favorite band: None Your favorite weather: Spring Your favorite car: Meh The room you are in right now:LivingRoom The song you are listening to right now: ........Hard The person you are thinking of right now: *winks The task you are putting off right now: Sleep The best word to describe you right now: Calm The last person to talk to you: Lewis The last person to hug you: Brian The last person to tell you a secret: Lewis The last person you told a secret to: Lewis The last physical injury you have recieved: Hip Take This Survey | Search Surveys | MySpace SurveysSurvey found on Bzoink

What-e-v-a
I wear glasses, because I have so much awesome it leaks out and screws up my vision. I shave my head because if I had hair, girls would follow me trying to collect it. I know so much Webster's had to change the definition of everything. They asked me what it should be. I shot a man in Reno, just to watch him die. Then saved his life so he had to thank me after it. I'm so badass the world doesn't actually spin, just moves when I walk. Ok, enough fun. I really am awesome, f*cking awesome. So don't confuse my humility for weakness, accept it as a fact that I'm not an ass and don't want to make you feel like crap. Also realize that you don't impress me, and I don't derive my sense of self worth from anyone, and you shouldn't either. If I compliment you, it's because I want to, not because I have to. So do me a favor and quit thinking the world revolves around you. You aren't the sun, just a flaming ball of gas who thinks they are. Now get over yourself.

Randomness
Did you ever play MASH when you were little? No but we played Hogans Hero's If you were getting married, who would be your maid of honor? I think you mispronounced "best man" it came out sounding like "maid of honor". Have you ever slept in the bed, with someone you liked? YES!! But OMG please don't tell on me. Do you still talk to the person you fell the hardest for? Yes Where are you right now? Sitting at work.. ignoring my screen.. Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to? yes What were you doing at 9:30 last night? Playing on the computer. Are you listening to music right now? Nope, all I hear is the clickity click of keyboards. Are you currently wanting any piercings or tattoos? None for me thanks. lol If your ex said they hate you, you say: "well you got some fucking nerve!" Do you curse in front of your parents? In front of my dad, yes, like a sailor. In front of my mom, no. What is your

Deciever
DECIEVER WRITTEN BY HAILZ Deep deep deep Burning eyes Lips lips lips Full of lies Don’t you even care What you’re doing to me Messing with my head Saturated with this bigotry Fall fall fallin Far away Call call callin Without delay Chorus Where are you sweet Deceiver…. Honey I’m not your Believer……. I only want to hold you, want to feel your touch. Frankly I don’t care that you, Lust to much. Keep keep keeping You close to me Pull pull pullin, Hear my plea? every night I think of Only your name But your with someone else Beneath the candle flame Hard hard harder Feel the pain Need need needin To abstain Chorus Where are you master Cheater Too feel you on me nothing Sweeter I need to slow down Need to catch my breath Its like calling the drug dealer Need my fix of the meth Oh oh oh oooooooh Where are you sweet Deceiver Honey I’m not your Believer I only want to hold you

Ldc Family Member B-day...plz Comment
An LDC OWNER has a birthday on January 17th! Please go and wish her a Happy Birthday and show her some LDC Family Birthday Love!!! ღ GothiqueTemptationღ Owner-DSG&D ღGio's RL Princess ღ Owner of LDC@ fubar

New Program Encourages Missouri Hotels To Go Green
Some Missouri hotels are looking for ways to go green this year. It's largely due to a new program developed by the Department of Natural Resources and Missouri Hotel and Lodging Association. The Green Lodging Certification Program is brand new in 2009. Hotels and other lodging facilities can go through a list of environmentally friendly practices, checking those they have implemented, to come up with their score. If they get 100 points, they're certified green. Greg Walker, owner of the La Quinta Inn on South Campbell in Springfield, wants his hotel to leave a great impression with guests, so he also wants it to leave little impact on the environment. "I think the customers that come into our hotels will be more appreciative," Walker says. The La Quinta Inn is striving for the Missouri Green Lodging Certificate. "Looks like we're gonna hit the 100 points, no problem," says Walker. One way staff at the La Quinta are already going green is recycling all of the paper used at the front de

Carrie's Little Bling Auction
Do you need BLING? Well, here's your chance to win it! Carrie is holding an auction for just one day. Come place a bid on four blings! Click on the bling icon to make a bid. You could win: Dolphin Fu-Juice Cupcake Kangaroo or other 3 credit bling Auction will end at 8pm Futime on Monday, January 12th. Winners will be contacted by Carrie following the close of the auction. Upon the receipt of the fubucks, she will Bling you on the next Happy Hour. *******************

Scenario
Picture this: Woman is at a party in a room full of people...she raises her hand and states loudly: "can i get two guys to come fuck me in the other room?" All guys line up for action. Same room, same people...a guy raises his hand and and loudly asks..."Can i get two girls to come fuck me in the other room?"...all girls walk away from this creep and no girl is interested. What made me think of this is FUBAR....think about this...guys profile...bartab shows from a girl "show me lovin!!!" every guy that is her friend that saw that status change if she is hot is showin her "lovin".... Girl's profile..bartab shows status change from a guy, it states..."can i get some lovin?" lets say i posted this....now im not vein but i do know i am attractive to most....WHERE'S MY MUTHA FUCKIN LOVIN??!!!!!!! huh? Has society really seperated our two genders to become THIS fucking diverse?? does it really have to be like this???

Family And Nsfw Pics
I just want everyone to know that my NSFW pics of myself are open. You do not have to be in family to see them. Comments on them mean more to me than rates do. I use my family to keep track of those who I either talk to frequently or those who have piqued my interest for whatever reason. Just thought I would put that out there.

I'm Confused
TO: mnw1989(akaMitch) I never meant to offend you in any way. I was simply asking a question. I am one of the nicest people you will ever know. I'm sorry you took my question the wrong way. I think you are very easily offended and that's too bad. My friend was also being nice and got misunderstood by you too. I'm not selfish by any means and am sad that you have blocked me because of a simple misunderstanding. From reading your blog regarding people being mean to you, I can see that you take things completely out of context and have a major chip on your shoulder. I think you are the "ignorant" one... Take care, Lori

People Pissed Off.
i guess i have pissed off alot of people here on fubar. you know what i dont care because from the responses i have gotten all the people who responded think is that i am a pussy without balls and i dont know shit. This is funny to me because half the people who did respond probably have never been in harms way nor have they been in the Military. I think that everyone of them should have to spend about four years under the rain of fire and then tell me what you think when you come home and people call you names because you did what your country wanted you to do. there was one comment that I really did agree with and it referred to protesting the government. GEORGE W BUSH and his admin. they are the ones responsible for them being there but yet i can understand his thinking. get rid of terrorist while you can. go figure.

Computers Sorta Back Online
Finally we got the pc back online n goining, but if it all of a sudden quits, i'm sorry yall. rember that storm screwed up my phonelines too. but yall have my number too, so if i anit on here, feel free to call n leave a message n i'll bb in touch as soon as possible. hope everyones doing well, missed yall! i'll bb online back n forth today, got customers coming in and out.

Friends.....
i really don't know where to begin seems like all my life its one thing after another...i let people in and when they start to get a little bit close or i start to feel something for them i push them away i say things i don't mean i can be a real (bitch)......i really don't know what i want out of life as far as men are concerned i like getting to know someone and talking for hours laughing communicating feeling wanted.....seems like everything gravitates toward sex in some kinda way or another...i give an i give an i give..thinking to myself "this makes him happy"....but what about my happiness i seem to forget about myself in relationships...i always put the other persons wants and needs before my own an when i try to put my needs first it turns into a problem...and in the end i take all the hurt and pain...i will be the first to tell u...i am a very emotional person....my feelings get hurt easily....i trust no one....i don't know where my life is headed but i just want to be loved..

Follow Up
Just letting those few know who care.. that things went ok with the funeral. I cried a little bit..but managed to get through it pretty good. I feel so bad for my cousin..Hes taking it pretty rough. Hes only 27. I know his sister is little upset..but not by much I do not believe. Maybe thats just me thinking though. I know if it was my parents I would have been crying more than she was. Heck I think I cried more than she did today. She was never a part of his life anyways though. I am still hung up on death thoughts though. I look at my parents more closer. I did this starting after my granny passed 2 yrs ago. Now I am doing it more. I am seeing how they are aging. I know we all do. My dads hip is doing pretty good although he still has that limp. He is pretty fast walking though. To see him limp some though..hurts.

Overpowering Men
ok i am so sick of men right now it isnt even funny. i live with my best friend, or at least i thought she was. she told me the entire time i was with my ex that i needed to get ride of him b/c he was controlling my life and making it impossible for me to spend time with my friends. well i think maybe she should take her own advice for once. her fiance got out of jail about 2 weeks ago and about a week ago moved in with us. the minute he came in the door i started getting pushed out. first it was he rearranged the bedroom without permission. now its i got shoved outta my own room all togther. no one asked me. i didnt even get a say in how the room was to be arranged. my stuff just got thrown into a different room and no one even cared enough to ask if it was even ok b4 they started moving my stuff out. i am so sick of this guy thinking that he is king of the fucking world and that no one else counts but him. he walks around the house like he owns it and i am just sick of him. and if i

Go Rape Angeldawnkris She Loves It!!!!
Angeldawnkris will have auto 11's at 5 pm fu time. Please help her to level to disciple. She works so hard to help people out, so please return the love tonight. *AngelDawnKris*

.bullshit,
**WARNING MAJOR BITCHING GOING ON IN HERE** I'm so going to start treating men like they fucking treat me. I should know not to put myself in a situation where it is just a fuck and run. Now with these men I did this with I didn't want a relationship but don't fucking totally ignore me after we have fucked at least tell me to fuck off I would like that better then NOTHING. Fuckin assholes. So I'm gonna start doimng the same fucking thing. No more dick sucking no more worrying if they are feeling good or making sure they get off. No its all about me now. I'm gonna make sure I get mine. I'm not gonna get shit on any fucking more. Seriously its just total bullshit.I was with my ex for 6 fucking years and he did the same bullshit. Didn't worry if I was happy it was all about him. No fuck that I'm sick of it. Its time for MONICA to be happy. Not the other person but ME! Thanks for letting me vent. You know I love you guys :) LOL

Random Thought 1
I know many of us out there are will be or even are thinking of having kids. Well my thought is why do we have laws to make our kids safer but we send them off to schools everyday( or weekdays) into a giant steel an fiberglass 17 ton plus machine built by to lowest bidder an the only person that wears a seat build is some almighty im the boss of the little people cause i can eat enough twinkies to feed a village in a 3rd world country bus driver. I got a better idea we start spending some real cash on seat beats for the kiddies an let the driver worry about his/her safety so they will drive that much betteran them maybe ill feel better about wanting to put my kids on a bus to go off an hope they get a better education then myself. Later Days

A Soldier Poem
The Soldier How does a soldier feel fighting a war? Does he always know what he is fighting for? Maybe he knows but doesn't understand, why he is alone in a faraway land. Like so many others he is there for a cause, And like the rest he doesn't pause. He has a job that he does well, even as his best friend beside him fell. How does he feel when he hears the news, of violent protests from the ignorant few? His shame is great, the pain goes deep he feels compassion for the dead at his feet. Rioters can boast and carry signs, about the war that has shook our time. But when the call comes for them to go, they burn their draft cards and make a show. How can a soldier be proud of his land, when this type of people make a stand? How can we show him we are glad he is there, fighting for freedom and the ones who care? War is unfair in any way of life, and all involved must pay the price. But the soldier is proud to keep us free, stop and think.......... Shouldn't you be

Desperate Times Call For....
Not that I'm desparate, but I am increasingly aggrivated. So if you've read my profile, you know I'm divorced. Yeah, I joined that club. Can I have the fucking jacket already? I paid the dues. Anyway, he's been gone nearly three years now, found a new wife, had a baby, etc etc. Here I am, still having convulsions every time someone starts uttering commitment, long term whatever and what have you. Thing is, deep down I still want it. I want the husband and the kids and the dogs and the pretty little house with a garden. But for the life of me, I cannot stop looking at potential mates and wondering when they're going to get that look my ex husband did. You know the one where suddenly it dawns on him that he made a god-awful mistake and he'd give his left nut to take it back... So, I'm sitting here wondering if all I need is more time or if I'm so screwed up I'm gonna a need a shrink to set things straight?

"the Mirror."
The Mirror You can fix your blouse, and you can fix your hair You can seek a just opinion, from the one that’s standing there From the same deep eyes you always see, staring back at you A mere reflection in the mirror, something less than true You can mask with makeup, those lines upon your face A travel log etched in skin and lost to time and space Taking time to do it right, the years they fade away If you listen to the mirror and what it has to say But me I’ve never needed that, to see you as you are Be it magnified up close and keen, or viewed here from afar To me the mirror is just a sheet of lying empty glass The things it shows today will fade, when the present meets the past So smash it into fragments, say goodbye to ageless tears I promise you that’s just a rumor about the seven years But before you break it, take a look, at an image bold and true And you’ll see me standing by your side, staring back at you. Copyright 2009 by Steve Santini

Caa #68 - Update1
My dear angel has informed me that her mother does have cancer. Please pray for both of them and send all the angel love, healing and strength and pray that she comes through this in God's Will. Doc

So It Begins
It was hard to decide whether I really wanted to write another blog, I have them all over the place and then today I realized that you know what people don't know me and some people actually might want to. So here I go again attempting to put into words who I am. I am a wife, mother, bitch, sweetheart, moron, genius, flirt, wiseass, and sometimes a joke, it depends if you are really willing to have a conversation with me to get through all my layers. Did you follow all that, get a hint of who I am yet, if so please let me know because I am still learning. I am a Italian/Irish Pagan New Yorker who moved away from everything I knew to be with my soul wanna question my marriage? I love my family even when I want to kill them and I would kill for them, wanna cross them? I have tattoos that I love and if I had the money would have so many more. I have fat, there I said it, so before anyone decides to make comments about it, guess what I know, I have never nor will ever be skin

Song Lyrics
Awesome song. "The Beautiful People" - Marilyn Manson And I don't want you and I don't need you Don't bother to resist, or I'll beat you It's not your fault that you're always wrong The weak ones are there to justify the strong The beautiful people, the beautiful people It's all relative to the size of your steeple You can't see the forest for the trees You can't smell your own shit on your knees There's no time to discriminate, Hate every motherfucker That's in your way [Chorus:] Hey you, what do you see? Something beautiful, something free? Hey you, are you trying to be mean? If you live with apes man, it's hard to be clean The worms will live in every host It's hard to pick which one they eat most The horrible people, the horrible people It's as anatomic as the size of your steeple Capitalism has made it this way, Old-fashioned fascism will take it away [Chorus] There's no time to discriminate, Hate every motherfucker That's in your way

Ponyboy0827 Needs Our Help Please!!!
Image by Cool Text: Logo and Button Generator - Create Your Own On January 12, 2009, Ponyboy lost everything He lost his Points, his Fubucks, his Referrals Everything he worked so hard to gain Is GONE! Fubar deleted everything. Because of others who had thousands and thousands of pictures

"you Left Your Mark."
You Left your Mark It seems like just the other day I heard the starter’s gun That loud report that told us both the race it had begun And then you unleashed your passion, yes from the very start You left me standing in the dust, as you went and left your mark That race was one unbalanced, the deed was now complete Not measured by mere stamina, or with the fastest feet To the victor went the spoils, and the prize it was my heart And you held fast to your trophy, as you went and left your mark But that race was not the only way you went and made me yours There were at least a million times we shared revolving doors That left me with the spins, yet still you played your part So certain and determined, you had to make your mark Yet your mark it sometimes made me hurt, it had a darker side And right here sit the buckets filled with tears I cried From the times I felt like dying, when I was torn apart By your riding crop of caring, as you went and left your mark I

Why
Why do I smile at the sound of your voice? Why do I let you take over me as if I had no choice? Why do I let you touch me in places never touched? Why do I like to have you around so much? Why do I melt at the tenderness of your kiss? Why do I feel like I could live forever like this? Why do I put my heart in your hands? Why do I answer to your every demand? Why do I tell you leaving me is not your wrong? Why do I let you know with out you I'm not quite as strong? Why do I take you back even though I know it's not right? Why do I feel like I should please you by not putting up a fight? Why do I care about you even though you hurt me? Why do I turn my head from what's plain reality? Why do I try to hide from what is true? Why do I still have these feelings for you?

No Child Should Cry
One day there will come a day, when no child would cry, when all tears would dry, and smiles would appear. Did you ever begin to wonder? What it would be like? If a child didn't have to cry, to feel pain, sorrow, to feel empty? We all grow from learning right from wrong. Why would we hurt a child? Children need love. We, as parents, are taught to provide it. We need to learn to give a child a day of smiles and joy, and the freedom to be a child. Never lay our troubles on them. When a day comes when a child doesn't cry, will be the day the world will become a brighter place. A child lights up the world. We wouldn't need the sun, the moon - we'd have the sunshine, the starlight, of a child's smile. It's all the world really needs, and we can make it happen, If we let a child be what, they want to be. So deep down, remember - a child grows from us. So let's give a child a reason to smile. never a day of tears again. No child should have

Mirror
Mirror-mirror on the wall show me what you see if you really reflect it all show every piece of me behind my eyes, behind my smile deep into my soul linger for a little while show me all you know not just a figure standing here reveal all that's inside show me, even though I fear here and now, it's time show the bruised and battered place in me the piece that just can't cope the part that longs to be set free the side where life's a joke the innocence hiding behind the sin the adult inside the child the heart that won't let anyone in the piece of me that's mild the place in me that's always red the part that's forever blue the side that follows what is said the piece that's always confused the place in me that thinks I’m right the part that knows I’m wrong the side that's bloated up with pride the piece that can't go on the coward inside the fighter the genius next to the dumb the part that's drunk with laughter the side that shies from fun

Cutting Back...
It's a new year...and with that reality comes the realization of the year past.. If I had to pick a "Theme" so to speak, to represent my previous year it would be labeled; "Indulgence" I would have to say I lived that self indulging way a good part of the entire year! Me, me, me, I proclaimed and I did it with much enthusiasm! I had the mindset of do whatever it was I wanted to do. It was my turn. I had enough of sitting back and just watching. I had endured years of abuse and neglect and I was sick of taking care of everyone but me. I thought, why not, it's now or never. My spontaneous nature caught up with myself and I can never get it back. I set out for a dream and consequently woke up with only a headache and sore back to show for my efforts. I tried to go back. Go back to a time that made me happy, to something I thought I would be good at and to a place I no longer am welcome. I don't see it as a mistake or a missed opportunity, I only see

Woman In Love
Life is a moment in space When the dream is gone Its a lonelier place I kiss the morning goodbye But down inside you know We never know why The road is narrow and long When eyes meet eyes And the feeling is strong I turn away from the wall I stumble and fall But I give you it all... I am a woman in love And I do anything To get you into my world And hold you within Its a right I defend Over and over again What do I do? With you eternally mine In love there is No measure of time We planned it all at the start That you and i Would live in each others hearts We may be oceans away You feel my love I hear what you say No truth is ever a lie I stumble and fall But I give you it all I am a woman in love And Im talking to you Do you know how it feels? What a woman can do Its a right That I defend over and over again......

Prison
Life is a prison, Oh God let me out. No one to listen, To hear when you shout. Climb the walls of insanity, Ride the waves of despair. If you fall it don't matter, There's no one to care. Used to wish for a window, To see birds, trees and sky, But you're better without one - Stops you aiming too high. Watching freedom is painful, For those locked away. Seeing joy, love and happiness, Another price that you pay. Strong is good, weak is bad. Be it false, be it true. Your mind makes the choice, And enforces it too. Cell walls built by society, With rules to adhere. If you breach the acceptable, You had better beware. Hide the pain, carry on, Routine is the key. Don't let on that you're not, What you're pretending to be. Lock it all up inside you, How badly that bodes. Look out for that one day, When it all just explodes. Leaving naught but a shell, Base functionality too. But killing all else, That was uniquely you. So how do you grow,

Something
Something must be wrong with me with all this hurt inside, always bursting with anger, and never any pride. Something must be wrong with me if all I do is cry, I can't stop this pain all I want to do is die. Something must be wrong with me if my emotions run wild, all this confusion does is make me feel like a lost child. Something must be wrong with me with all these terrible things, always there and never gone depression is what it brings. Something must be wrong with me if I can't stop these thoughts, all this pain does is turn my stomach in knots. Something is truly wrong with me when I think there's only one way out, "Let this pain end," is all my heart will shout.

Life
Through life you go through many changes, you take many different roads, not knowing where each one will lead, but it is the roads that you take that you learn many different things. Love,happyness,caring,trust,let downs and sadness. yes you may fall but each time you get up some times you get lost , but then some one comes along and shows you the way. as you grow you will loose people that are close to you such as a parent a brother, a sister, a cousin, a niece,a nephew, a grandparent and es even real close friends.you think to yourself why did this happen you get angry and yes sometimes think that you think it should have been you instead. things in life happen for different many reasons, but they will alway's be close to you . along they way you meet many different people and yes some become your friends, and yes friends have fights and some times you get over it and some times you don't . you also may have 1 love or maybe more, but in life you get that one person that just knocks

The Zipper
The ZIPPER A man walked into a supermarket with his zipper down. A lady cashier walked up to him and said, "Your barracks door is open." Not a phrase that men normally use, he went on his way looking a bit puzzled. When he was about done shopping, a man came up and said, "Your fly is open." He zipped up and finished his shopping. At the checkout, he intentionally got in the line where the lady was that told him about his "barracks door." He was planning to have a little fun with her, so when he reached the counter he said, "When you saw my barracks door open, did you see a Marine standing in there at attention?" The lady (naturally smarter than the man) thought for a moment and said "No, no I didn't. All I saw was a disabled veteran sitting on a couple of old duffel bags."

In His Arms
Forever searching for the missing The path leads to many distractions Ever in his sight her beautiful smile Forever locked in his memory her scent Striding through life's obstacles Fighting new and old emotions Seeing through the fog of doubt To the core of her existence Dreams of the valley before Mountains within his reach Down into the void he goes Ever deeper in the search Seeing her form in the distance Smile playing his lips The two finally to become one Under the moon and stars Sinking into her warmth Ever deepening within her grasp Riding on wave after wave Settling into his arms For Shan

Idiot Alert
IDIOT ALERT: We had to have the garage door repaired. The Sears repairman told us that one of our problems was that we did not have a 'large' enough motor on the opener.. I thought for a minute, and said that we had the largest one Sears made at that time, a 1/2 horsepower. He shook his head and said, 'Lady, you need a 1/4 horsepower.' I responded that 1/2 was larger than 1/4. He said, 'NO, it's not. Four is larger than two.' We haven't used Sears repair since. IDIOT ALERT My daughter and I went through the McDonald's take-out window and I gave the clerk a $5 bill.. Our total was $4.25, so I also handed her a quarter. She said, 'you gave me too much money..' I said, 'Yes I know, but this way you can just give me a dollar bill back.' She sighed and went to get the manager who asked me to repeat my request. I did so, and he handed me back the quarter, and said "We're sorry but they could not do that kind of thing.' The clerk then proceeded to give me back $1 and 75 cents in chan

Please Help My Friend
my friend is going for the sexiest legs on fubar...please help her make it to the final round if you could...all ya have to do is click the link....leave a comment...and vote.... thanx for your help http://www.fubar.com/photo.php?u=968407&albumid=1442510&i=2953380267&idx=1

Rates
I have a fresh days of rates and I can not find someone who is willing to pay for my rates so they can level as i will but these rates will go to the first few who decide that they will pay 10k for 100 rates. must have auto 11's on for the rates

Catch Me If You Can
Catch Me If You Can Would it be easier to catch a falling star or grasp the wind? What kind of bait would I use? Where would I begin? To take in my possession something wild and furious A tempest of sensuality hidden in a kiss She has captured my every thought And in her snares I am caught An inner child a lost little girl deep inside Never showing the world all the pain she hides She is passion she is fire a flood of temptation How do I capture all this unrestrained sensation? She will never be bought or sold She will show a face brave and bold She wishes to be caught yet stands in the shadow She wishes to be taken yet struggles against the flow She wishes to be touched by a passionate hand Yet she hides behind masks and built walls singing Catch Me If You Can

Old Feelings...
9:08am I thought that most of the feelings I'd experienced were buried. Turns out they're not. Last night I completely freaked out. I was on the computer just messing around with the settings and then I noticed a couple of messages on my phone. So when I saw them, I noticed one that came from AIM. Yes, I'll post his screen name it's.... wait nevermind, it's not worth it, for all I know he could be trying to stalk me on fubar lol JK but yeah maybe I should post up his freakin AIM screen name. Anywho, it's just stupid because I thought he knew that my phone was disconnected. The 1st message that I got and read said, "hi Liz" and then like a dumbass I deleted every message thereafter. I don't know what he doesn't get. I've been trying so hard to move on and I haven't been able to. I mean it's hurt me, and it's hurt the guys that I've liked. Most guys listen and understand but they cannot comprehend what I've gone through and what I still feel deep inside. I don't love h

"the Ball."
The Ball The questions stay unasked, while we hide behind our masks And the orchestra strikes up for one more tune I hold you close and then we step the steps we know so well Two faceless strangers waltzing through the room Keeping time we’re doing fine, or so we’d like to think While the others stop to take a rest, or pause to get a drink But still on we dance, we move as one, and never miss a beat Never tripping on your gown or you stepping on my feet We are grace and motion personified, a gentle flowing stream Two glowing stars that shine the brightest, Galilleo’s dream The golden pair, that stand above the guests here at The Ball So synchronized we fail to see the folly of it all True we move, as a summer breeze, that whispers through your hair But there is something not quite right about this couple dancing there The ones that seem to never tire and always keep the pace Still wear the masks and do their best to always shield their face Yes, the steps are

Online Class Introduction
Hi...my name is (name of pretentious douche) and I am a third semester MBA student. I graduate next fall, after which I will go onto a really great job I don't deserve and annoy everyone I work with even more than the people I went to school with. I wear multiple shirts to class, all of them with popped collars, my hair is spiked and I can be found laying drunk on a bar room floor at three AM pretty much any day of the week (especially if I have a group meeting the next morning that determines not my, but your grade, in the class). I graduated from (name of university he will always think is better than yours) with a degree in woodcarving and a minor in underwater basket weaving, and cheese appreciation. It is honestly a miracle that I actually made it into the MBA program here, and an even bigger miracle that I have managed to stay as long as I have because I have no real foundational understanding of any of the topics we discuss. To be totally honest, when we get assigned to ou

Level Up
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My First Poem..more To Come If Successful
Never Fading Love My love for you can’t possibly fade The moment I laid my eyes on you A couple is what needs to be made With you gone, there is nothing now for me to do The moment I laid my eyes on you My heart had then become filled with joy With you gone, there is nothing now for me to do All you can see in me is a boy My heart had then become filled with joy You and Me, I believe we are meant to be All you can see in me is a boy There is something you just do not see You and Me, I believe we are meant to be You’re so beautiful like a waterfall’s cascade There is something you just do not see My love for you can’t possibly fade

Nightmare
I paint this mask on, Act the perfect show, It's not all puppy dogs and rainbows, But no one needs to know. My smile works wonders, My oh so perfect charm, It's the only way I can cope, Beneath the self-harm. I'm totally numb to feeling, Don't know what's going on, Stuck in this void of emptiness, Somewhere I don't belong. I'm tired of this story, Always the same old, Although everything seems distant, I can still feel the cold. Sick of explaining myself, And the endless, darkened days, I'm drenched in powerless rage, Something that I can't display. All I want is out, To breathe, to break free, I've tried so god damn hard, To find where I want to be. But I've lost myself, Got knocked off track, I'm treading on thin ice, I can't find my way back. I'm chained to these barriers, Oh, I just want to scream, Because I can't seem to get out, To wake up from this dream.

Lol Bank Atms
Subject: ATM's A new sign in the Bank Lobby reads: 'Please note that this Bank is installing new Drive-through ATM machines enabling customers to withdraw cash without leaving their vehicles. Customers using this new facility are requested to use the procedures outlined below when accessing their accounts. After months of careful research, MALE &FEMALE Procedures have been developed Please follow the Appropriate steps for your gender.' *******************************< SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 7.5pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"> MALE PROCEDURE: 1. Drive up to the cash machine. 2. Put down your car window. 3. Insert card into machine and enter PIN. 4. Enter amount of cash required and withdraw. 5. Retrieve card, cash and receipt. 6. Put window up. 7. Drive off. ******************************* FEMALE PROCEDURE: What is really funny is that most of this part is the Truth.!!!! 1. Drive up to cash machine. 2. Reverse and back u

Give Us A Chance
I wish I could take back the things I said take back the things I did. I know I can't; I can only hope to make up for the hurts I caused you. Maybe you can never go back but u can start again. If we both want it, we can make a new life together. I feel so fortunate to have our love. I do believe it can be better than it ever was. It's not easy for either of us. But something worth having is never easy to come by. The more valuable the goal, the harder the fight but the best part about this fight is we can both out of it winners. I don't expect change overnight. I know it may be a long way to go, but I'm willing to travel the distance regardless of the outcome. I want us to help each other, to grow together to achieve and feel the pride in each other's accomplishments. Give us a chance; and give me a chance to show u the love that I have for you.

Hmmm
i know things are changing.. but into what, i have no clue. have you ever had the feeling that certain things aren't right for you and you're way too sure of it, but don't know how long and how much change to feel right again? there's stuff i'm doing, some good, some bad, some indifferent. but what annoys me is the gray area. i like my job, but it pays squat. i don't date because i end up either being friends or not liking the person after all. mainly i'm sure i wasnt really that attracted to them anyway. just searching i guess.. weird thing is i know what i want to do about my job situation and what kinda person i want to be with, but nothing's happening...why?

Story Part 4
. After a few moments the woman’s body convulses the screams echoing into the night. As if nature shares her excitement a bolt of crimson lightning crashes to the ground near them. Standing slowly this creature caught between man and wolf howls to the moon his lust for this exotic creature showing in the firelight. Without hesitation he pulls her to him their eyes both blazing with pure need. Sliding her hands from her side she cups her breasts, her voice now filled with lust, “come brother of the wolf and take what is yours.” A growl escapes his lips as he enters her accepting her challenge. Her eye’s widen with shock as she feels him completely embedded in her. With a hunger unlike any other he leans down kissing her hard and passionate. The stone alter groans and creaks from the force of his thrusting. Moaning into his kiss her hands slide to his back and digs her nails into fur and flesh. Jerking his head up he howls in both pain and pleasure. The wind howls along wit

Ghost Lover
The wind whispers soft through the curtain, Though she never knew for certain, With a tenderness only a lover shows, He had stripped her of her night clothes, As the moon light fills the room, It was the breeze that caressed her bosom, With a tender kiss upon her lips, This ghostly figure will touch her hips,, With the care not to wake her, From this wondrous sleep she did not need to stir. As a lover he takes her now, AS she moans he makes no sound, When her hands seek his flesh they find nothing on the bed, Then she wakes naked with her hand on her head, Be this a dream she says aloud, and away the ghost moves silent as a cloud.

This Is About You.
I miss you...But I never met you. I hate you...But I have no reason to. I want you...But I can't have you. I love you...But I guess that isn't enough. I wish I could have you, I wish I could call you mine, I wish I never let my gaurd down, and let you in, I wish I never let you have my heart...just so I could let another person break it again.

"sorry"a Friend Wrote This And I Thought I Should Blog It
WHEN YOU WORK IN CLOSE PROXIMITY WITH OTHER PEOPLE THERE WILL BE MANY TIMES THAT YOU WILL OFFEND EACH OTHER. FAMILIES INEVITABLY HURT EACH OTHER FROM TIME TO TIME. SAYING "I'M SORRY" ARE THE TWO WORDS THAT CAN REPAIR YOUR RELATIONSHIP WITHOUT APOLOGIES THE BAD FEELINGS ARE ALLOWED TO GROW UNTIL EVENTUALLY THEY GROW INTO SOMETHING SO BIG AND UGLY THAT IT IS ALMOST IMPOSSIBLE TO REPAIR. IT IS DIFFICULT TO HUMBLE OURSELVES AND ADMIT THAT THAT WE MAY HAVE MADE A MISTAKE. HOWEVER, WHEN YOU THINK ABOUT THE REPERCUSSIONS OF NOT MAKING A SIMPLE APOLOGY, YOU WILL REALIZE THAT ITS WORTH THE EFFORT. THIS IS FOR EVERYONE THAT IVE EVER KNOWN AND FOR EVERYTHING THAT IVE EVER DONE SOMETIMES IT TAKES LOSING EVERYTHING FOR ONE TO SIT BACK AND ADMIT THAT THEY ARE THE PROBLEM SO HERE IT IS FOR ALL THAT IT CONCERNS IT MAY NOT BE ACCEPTED BUT ATLEAST I PUT IN THE HEART AND AND EFFORT TO ATTEMPT IT IM SORRY OF BEING SO EMOTIONAL IM SORRY OF BEING SO POSSESSIVE IM SORRY THAT I CRY FOR YOU

Great Shyt
A guy walks into a sperm donor bank wearing a ski mask and holding a gun. He goes up to the nurse and demands her to open the sperm bank vault. She says "But sir, its just a sperm bank!", "I don't care, open it now!!!" he replies. So she opens the door to the vault and inside are all the sperm samples. The guy says "Take one of those sperm samples and drink it!", she looks at him "BUT, they are sperm samples???" , "DO IT!". So the nurse sucks it back. "That one there, drink that one as well.", so the nurse drinks that one as well. Finally after 4 samples the man takes off his ski mask and says, "See honey - its not that hard."

Yes 2
Wife : "I dreamt they were auctioning off dicks. The big ones went for ten dollars and the thick ones went for twenty dollars." Husband : "How about the ones like mine?" Wife : "Those they gave away." Husband : "I had a dream too...I dreamt they were auctioning off cunts. The pretty ones went for a thousand dollars, and the little tight ones went for two thousand." Wife : "And how much for the ones like mine?" Husband : "That's where they held the auction."

"what Dwells Here."
What Dwells Here There’s many things that dwell here, and all of them are me Most never take the time to look or glance my way to see Lost in superficial worlds, lusting for the fake With knives too dull to cut beneath the icing on this cake There’s the good, the bad, the ugly, all living in my heart By turns they work to make me whole, or pull my soul apart Depending on who comes to call it can be Heaven or it’s Hell They can knock me down right to the ground or catch me when I fell What dwells here is a tempest, lurking deep inside All the many voices, and pain I try to hide Often battles raging, here inside my head Many times when I would give my all to be someone else instead But I have my lifeboat, I have my gift of words A way to let it all pour out and let my soul be heard Sometimes proud and often loud yet often soft and meek A crowd of one, sometimes undone, perhaps the one you seek… Copyright 2009 by Steve Santini. All Rights Reserved.

4 My Baby....
Music Playlist at MixPod.com BLUE OCTOBER THIS SONG IS 4 YOU BABY.... Theres something that i cant quite explain i'm so in love with you you'll never take that away and if i said a hundred times before expect a thousand more you never take that away well expect me to be calling you to see if you're ok when i'm not around asking if you love me i love the way you make it sound calling you to see do i try too hard to make you smile to make a smile well i will keep calling you to see if you're sleepin are you dreamin and if you're dreamin are you dreamin of me i cant believe you actually picked...me i thought that the world had lost its sway (its so hard sometimes) then i fell in love with you (then came you) and you took that away (its not so difficult, the world is not so difficult) you take away the old show me the new and i feel like i can fly when i stand next to you so what if I'm on this phone a hundred miles from home i take the

For You
Car tant vous aim, sans mentir Qu'on poroit avant tarir La haute mer Et ses ondes retenir Que me peusse alentir de vous amer. Sans fausser; car mi penser, Mi souvenir, mi plaisir Et mi desir sont sans finer En vous que ne puis guerpir n'entroublier For I love you so much, truly, that one could could sooner dry up the deep sea and hold back its waves than I could constrain myself from loving you, without falsehood; for my thoughts my memories, my pleasures and my desires are perpetually of you, whom I cannot leave or even briefly forget.

My Ex Sucks
i meet a man in real life (sbharleyrider) and we had a wonderful time for the first several months that we hung out. everything was very casualy no stings attached no expectations. i discovered that he had an internet problem (or whatever the fuck u wanna call it)when he got on the net while i was at his house and was looking at pics of nasty gross ladies (no offense, but some of ya all must not have mirrors in your house, or be blind or something). after we were more serious, i asked to to at least not go on Fubar while i was at his house, he did but i had to remind him several times to get the fucl off. maybe i would not have minded but i was not getting what i needed. he would tell the chics on the net how much he wanted to lick them, when i was not getting licked AT ALL, was hardly getting fucked at all. i am submissive i would have done ANYTHING that he wanted and he did nothing with this. nothing except tell chics on the net that he had a sub to make himself seem sexy, manly

The Fake Disease
Why am I the only one who sees That they've all caught the FAKE disease Why's everyone gotta be Something they're not? Do they think that it's cool? Do they think that it's hot? Drop the act and get some help Just drop the act and be yourself People, just use your brain! And save yourself the pain Of trying to be Someone who you're not Cause it isn't cool And it isn't hot In fact it's one really huge turn-off! Being yourself comes with ease So save yourself from the FAKE disease!

Confused
lookiing deep within myself, staring deep in my own existance, crying inside and showing no tears. fearing rejection and torment, standing strong against winds of destruction, willing myself to move on. my sight is blocked by own darkend heart, missing you and not knowing it, never being missed by you, lost and confused to hard to fix, sitting here wondering how, wondering where i go from here. seeking peace and comfort, needing more then friendship, which is all they ask for from me.

50 Thangz
1] What is your name? John 2] Do you find it annoying when surveys ask for your name? No in fact thats not common 3] What do you plan to buy in the future? A used car for my youngest daughter 4] Where did you get the underwear you are currently wearing? I guess Wal Mart 5] How many pairs of Converse do you own? None 6] Who is your favorite “That ’70s Show” character? Donna Pincioti 7] There is a mummy standing behind you, what do you do? OMG! Grab him stuff him in the trunk and bring him to the nearest museum.. CHA-CHING, payday for John! 8] What do you think of Miley Cyrus? I think her dad is Billy Ray Cyrus, and she has a kiddie show on Nick Jr I think, other than that I am not sure what (or why) anyone would be curious about her. 9] Do you tend to think that you are always right? Not really, but in arguments moreso, because I will not argue unless I'm already pretty sure. 10] Top Five Favorite Songs: At the moment they are: - "It W

An Angel
An Angel The hours pass slowly, sleep wont come, though my arms embrace an angel, I lay awake, confused How could I? I man with wavering faith be granted a night with one so perfect How could I? A man with the shattered remains of his heart find her amidst the rubble? Why does my heart burn with her here and grow cold when she walks away. tonight while everyone dreams, I pray, I pray for the gift to peer in her heart to Know what she wants, to be what she wants, bring her closer to me, make her mine I'll prove to her im like no other I'll give to her the earth the sky the heavens. Take time, take faith my angel, whats meant to be, will be whats not, will not. My past left me in ruins, I prayed for the future, I was shown an angel, shown a girl I could love, respect, could treasure every moment with, come back when she leaves me, everyday I'm with her ,I urge to hold this angel kiss her, call her mine. with her smile, my heart beats faster, my breaths

423156878
This is one of the Best prayers I think I have ever read. PRAY THIS EVEN IF YOU DON'T FEEL LIKE IT!! IT WILL ONLY TAKE A MINUTE. I started not to do this,but as I read it.... I understood God to say, 'You need a miracle tomorrow' so here goes...Prov. 29:25 You never know when God is going to bless you!! Good things happen when you least expect them to !!!!!!!! Change the number in the subject box when you forward it by adding one!!! I bow in the name of my LORD and SAVIOR, JESUS CHRIST!!! GOD, I do thank You for this day,!!! I thank You for my being able to see and to hear this morning. I'm blessed because You are a forgiving God and an understanding God. You have done so much for me and You keep on blessing me. Forgive me this day for everything I have done, said or thought that was not pleasing to you. I ask now for Your forgiveness. Please keep me safe from all danger and harm. Help me to start this day with a new at

Does Role Model Give You The Right To...take Advantage Of...
Good Morning… Are we to determine role models by what they say or what they do? I could recite numerous news stories on this Professional Athlete or this Congressman or that Court Judge or that President or even how about this teacher or that one. We had a first year band teacher in the Bangor Schools which is a school not far from where I live let go because of a posting she made on her “Face book” account. Who doesn’t have a story or heard one of someone getting let go because their posting of a certain photo, or comment, or even a statement made. Are our role models to blame? Can we safely say we elect, we accept, we hire or we look up to those who really qualify to be considered being looked up to? As a child today they have access to the internet, media reports, and first hand experience to see what some do with their power…the power of role model. Again I could name names, makes no difference who, where they originated from who they were or who they are…once you take the respons

We Grow Accustomed To The Dark
We grow accustomed to the Dark When light is put away As when the Neighbor holds the Lamp To witness her Goodbye A Moment We uncertain step For newness of the night Then, fit our Vision to the Dark And meet the Road, erect And so of larger Darkness Those Evenings of the Brai When not a Moon disclose a sign Or Star, come out, within The Bravest, grope a little And sometimes hit a Tree Directly in the Forehead But as they learn to see Either the Darkness alters Or something in the sight Adjusts itself to Midnight And Life steps almost straight - Emily Dickinson

How Many Times Do I Have To Say I'm Sorry?
Approximately six year ago, I did something terrible to my sister. Then I hid it from her for years, eventually telling her and apologizing for it. However anytime she gets mad at me she throws it up in my face, and makes me feel like hell all over again for doing what I did. How many times do I have to say I'm sorry?

Geography Of A Women
THE GEOGRAPHY OF A WOMAN Between 18 and 22, a woman is like Africa , half discovered, half wild, fertile and naturally beautiful! Between 23 and 30, a woman is like Europe , well developed and open to trade, especially for someone with cash. Between 31 and 35, a woman is like Spain , very hot, relaxed and convinced of her own beauty. Between 36 and 40, a woman is like Greece , gently aging but still a warm and desirable place to visit. Between 41 and 50, a woman is like Great Britain , with a glorious and all conquering past. Between 51 and 60, a woman is like Israel , has been through war and doesn't make the same mistakes twice, takes care of business. Between 61 and 70, a woman is like Canada , self-preserving, but open to meeting new people. After 70, she becomes Tibet , wildly beautiful, with a mysterious past and the wisdom of the ages...only those with an adventurous spirit and a thirst for spiritual knowledge visit there. THE GEOGRAPHY OF A M

Top Ten Reasons To Date /marry A Fireman
TOP TEN REASONS TO DATE /MARRY A FIREMAN 1. We handle our hoses everyday and their the biggest around. 2. When we do somethin we do it right and we go in deep. 3. We can spread and ram anything. 4. There is always a risk of having a fire in our pants. 5. Grabin and holdin chicks is part of our job. 6. We like to work in confined spaces. 7. To us...everything is better hot and steamy. 8. We always wear protection. 9. Were not afraid to do it in public. 10. We can discharge 700 gallons a minute from our large nozzles......can you?

Creative Block Wtf No Wonder
Wednesday, January 14, 2009 Libra (Sep 23 - Oct 22) You could suffer from a creative block today. It's like someone pulled the plug to your vivid imagination circuit and you cannot fix on a dream to lift yourself out of the malaise. There may not be a quick and easy way out of your serious mood. Fortunately, you'll be surprised at how quickly it vanishes once you surrender to your internal process and take a few steps down your new spiritual path.

Fair Thee Well
Away i shall walk my path dangerious in many a way, Will they care when i have nothing left as i fade away, Pain is all that i bring as i walk this land, So beware lady and take not my hand, As i walk upon my path this cold wind is oh so fine, That when i come to the end i know it shall be my time, Just as the sun sets over yonder hill, I close my eyes this last time and lay oh so still, Nothing is missed if it never touched any importance, My once warm soul now held in cold turbulence, So as my lungs empty of air, I now lay here my body bare, Though never to be missed by people around, I have left to make just one sound, I love you are my last words, and it is finished as the earth over me turns.

Evil Man
BE i a man of great evil, For my heart was with two women, Wanting neither but both, So in this world id rather stay hidden, For with but one word these two may strike me, Even though they can not find my reason, So be i am man of evil, when i love both goddess like women, Each had her own style of life, but it was my hearts fault for wanting them both, So now im torn and broken, as i walk away from their worlds, I have but one last breath, I love them both more then they would ever know.

My Down Fall
When u took my hand in yours, it was then that i knew, that nothing mattered anymore, Because u gave me hope, I shall forever be grateful, So as the days fade to night, I know where you are, always beside me but so far away, it is my down fall... Always loveing but never loved, when the winds blows my soul crys, For nothing i do is ever good enough, to show my love for you, So i set day to day wondering of my love, did you ever want me is all i say, it is my down fall... With my life id protect you from harm, never a care to my own safety, So as i set and wait, i can not help but ponder, is she happy with the one she has, As i wish my luck to her upon the stars, I know now she is my down fall.

The Best Song Ever!!!!!!
If you haven't heard it, YouTube it or check my stash! :) 3.14 Apple Pi - Bo Burnham Yo i dont got bros, dont hang on the streets i dont beat my hos, i only beat my meat. Dont womanize cause you no its true that when you look in their eyes you see their people too Mother effin suffrage! Mother effin suffrage! You know im a gangsta, you know i do coke, but i had to go to diet, cause it burnt my throat. Ive been doin drive-bys all of my life, cept the bullets are newspapers, the car is my bike. the car is my bike. 3.14 apple pi, i whip it out, clean it off, and stick it in her eye. and by "it" i mean contact lens 3.14 apple pi, I got rhymes and flows that make Hitler cry. George Bush wont he just yell and rant but hes a presiDONT who ameriCANT I spit gangsta hymns, cause i'm a gangsta straight, I think of 20 inch rims when i masterbate. We're gonna be late, theres no time to waste, cause the girls that i date, have a particular taste. the taste of my wei

Holy Carp
So am I am drinking my bottle of water; I start reading the label (like I do with everything) and BEHOLD! There is a goldfish on the inside! Well on the inside of the label :P I was like ZOMGWTFHOLYCARPSWEETNESS! I think it just made my day xD Almost as much as my friend getting made fun of by a deaf person, holy crap that was funny.

My Love
you have taught me to love again and not to be scared about the way i feel about things, you pick me up when i am down , for it is you that makes my world go around, from the moment i saw you i knew it was true that i wanted to spend the rest of my whole life with no one but you, i know things get crazy every now and then but we always make it through at the end, i have become a better person because of you, and i want to thank you for who you are and all that you do , for my heart will always belong to you, so now as we take this journey together and become one , i promise to respect, trust,care, protect , listen, and always be true to you, so for not only are you my lover , you are my best friend, thank you for loveing me for who i am , and for letting me just be me, for i will always believe in you and me

Rock Hard Snow After The Battle Of Tooth No. 10
So I get home last night and first Jeffrey rushes to greet me with a big hearty “HI!” Then Sarah, and Martha and Mary both sat on the couch and my wife showed me where the tooth she had pulled out (apparently her left front canine, called by her dentist “tooth number ten”) was beginning to heal at the gum line. Until it completely heals, it will sound like she’s whistling through that gap which will be there for the rest of her life since adult teeth do not grow back. So last night was Daddy’s night to read Sarah a Dr. Seuss story (Monday night I read her “Happy Birthday to You!” for the first time while last night we went with one of her favorites, “The Cat in the Hat”. She ought to be able to recite it to me soon) while Martha came up afterward and cuddled with her until she went to sleep. I’m not leaving Jeffrey out; I expect after we convert his crib to a bed I’ll be reading to him too! I woke up this morning and at 0800 hours according to The Weather Channel it was twe

Pulmonary Disease
What Is COPD? COPD, or chronic obstructive pulmonary (PULL-mun-ary) disease, is a progressive disease that makes it hard to breathe. "Progressive" means the disease gets worse over time. COPD can cause coughing that produces large amounts of mucus (a slimy substance), wheezing, shortness of breath, chest tightness, and other symptoms. Cigarette smoking is the leading cause of COPD. Most people who have COPD smoke or used to smoke. Long-term exposure to other lung irritants, such as air pollution, chemical fumes, or dust, also may contribute to COPD. Overview To understand COPD, it helps to understand how the lungs work. The air that you breathe goes down your windpipe into tubes in your lungs called bronchial tubes, or airways. The airways are shaped like an upside-down tree with many branches. At the end of the branches are tiny air sacs called alveoli (al-VEE-uhl-eye). The airways and air sacs are elastic. When you breathe in, each air sac fills up with air like a

Good Enough
Under your spell again. I can't say no to you. Crave my heart and it's bleeding in your hand. I can't say no to you. Shouldn't have let you torture me so sweetly. Now I can't let go of this dream. I can't breathe but I feel... Good enough, I feel good enough for you. Drink up sweet decadence. I can't say no to you, And I've completely lost myself, and I don't mind. I can't say no to you. Shouldn't let you conquer me completely. Now I can't let go of this dream. Can't believe that I feel... Good enough, I feel good enough. It's been such a long time coming, but I feel good. And I'm still waiting for the rain to fall. Pour real life down on me. 'Cause I can't hold on to anything this good enough. Am I good enough for you to love me too? So take care what you ask of me, 'cause I can't say no

After A While
After a while you learn the subtle difference Between holding a hand and chaining a soul And you learn that love doesn't mean leaning And company doesn't mean security You begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts Presents are not promises You begin to accept your defeats With your head up and your eyes ahead With the grace of a woman not the grief of a child You learn to build all of your roads on today Because tomorrow's ground is to uncertain for plans and the future has a way of falling down midflight After a while you learn that sunshine Burns even if you get to much So plant your own garden Decorate your own soul Instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers You learn you really can endure You really are strong You really do have worth And with every goodbye you learn --------------------------------------------- and a song fitting my mood

Introduction
Well...I've finally decided to blog about my lucky number. That's right...for all of you that have been asking...I will finally explain all of my little quirks I have discovered about the number. We can get one thing straight right now while I am on the subject...if you don't like what you read, I'm not really here to cater to you, and these are simply my beliefs. That's what makes America great...We all get our own opinions! =)...So if you don't like it, you don't have to read it. However, if you do read it and you still don't like it, you can call me crazy or whatever you want...It's my number and I'm keeping it. Jim Carrey may have had his number 23...mine is 9. So keep your eyes peeled for future postings about this fascinating number as I am quite sre it will at some point come into play in the book I am also currently writing....Anyways...I am rambling...so...hope you enjoy my future postings!

For My Brother Rick!!
Thank you for always being there, To listen and understand me. I appreciate all you did for me, And all you still do. Thank you for making me feel whole again, For putting my pieces back together. I appreciate you putting my life back together, You saved my life. You may not understand, Why I do what I do. But you never criticized, You just helped my through. I knew I could come to you when I was down, 'cause I knew you'd always be there to pick me back up and say everything will be ok.

Friends Are Effin Great!!!!!!!!!
Well i've have no one to talk to about this because no one cares because its not about their problems. I'm so sick of being everyones go to girl im not a miracle worker i have my own problems to worry about and frankly after 21 years I'm really tired of hearing about everyone's bullshit because im hurting and they don't care. So next time some one wants to talk about their bad day look else where because I'm not your girl. I don't really care about anyone's break up problems i mean apparently if you break up its pretty fucking obvious it wasnt meant to be; so get over it. Not like its the end of the world and i'm tired of always being someone's second choice. For once i would like to be someone's number one concern but everyone is to wrapped up in their self pitty to worry about their friends; which honestly after that statement makes it pretty apparent that none of you are true friends, because if you gave a damn i wouldn't be venting to my self right now. So stopping asking me to fix

Hahaha
->Da Kevman: infedel Da Kevman: nah ill leave that to ragheads like you ->Da Kevman: kill yourself Da Kevman: im betting your underage anyway ->Da Kevman: do that ->Da Kevman: cool Da Kevman: btw im reporting you to the bouncers ->Da Kevman: haha your family died Da Kevman: personally i hope you contract the disease and die a slow debilitating death from a common cold since you think its something to joke about Da Kevman: then again your probably some raghead anyway with the shit in your status message dont you have a suicide bomb to set off somewhere or something Da Kevman: my aunt and cousin died of aids you fucking prick ->Da Kevman: kill yourself Da Kevman: your screen name is not ammusing

Proud Of My State And Marijuana
State gives nod to medical marijuana dealers About 207 New Mexicans are approved to use medical marijuanaNew Mexico has become the first state in the country to license marijuana dealers. Officials say dealers are under stringent regulations. It took about a year and half, but the New Mexico Health Department has ironed out a plan to deal with the complex and legally thorny issue of how to make and get medical marijuana to qualified patients. "This has been the hardest piece of the program. We really needed to proceed carefully and thoughtfully because we're the only state to take this step," said Deborah Busemeyer of the Department of Health. New Mexico is the first state to license non-profit organizations to do the growing and distribution. Any group that wants to do it will have to clear a lot of hurdles, Busemeyer said. "They need to have security measures. We have monitoring requirements they have to have a non profit board overseeing it that includes a doct

Help Meeeee
G'day lovers & haters I need help you see ... im trying to build a lounge and i am computer illiterate...lol I dont know how to get cool skins and i realy wouldnt have a fucking clue how to get a radio station played in there!!! Any help or advice would be awesome. Please help me?!

Goodbye..
These wounds keep on burning... These hearts keep on hurting... Trying to mend whats broken, Tearing every mend. Time ceases future, Further back we go. The past is just returning, What could have happened? We will never know So much we have tried Now every chance is fried So much pain Even more anger. Like the ice cold wind Driving the rain Pushing us apart Paths lost Only mud and debris Lives changed in a single instant In seconds the pain Of the past returns Never knowing Always wondering What could have been? There is no future only past.. Every second, Clock ticks backwards, Everything returning. Turning back the hands of time... Now our beginning, Becomes our destruction. Can we save our future? or is this our end? Goodbyes are coming quickly, Tumbling to a halt! But must they be forever? Who is to fault?

The Trouble With Angels
All I Can Ask For by Vanessa Ginarte I'm here waiting Impatiently, eyes full of tears, The other day you said you loved me You said it perfectly clear. Now, today's a new day And you're not here by my side, Now everything you told me Just feels like pain and lies. You said you would be here forever Was that just a lie, too? You made promises you couldn't keep I had all my faith in you. You took off with my heart And life inside your hands, I'm left empty and incomplete Why can't you understand. You let me down When my hopes were high, I try to smile But I always sigh. I'm left alone With all this pain and misery, Your love is all I ask for Why can't you see. You loved me for who I was Not for who I tried to be, You were the best thing that ever happen to me You'll always be inside of me. We've been through too much For you to push me away, I'll always love you no matter what It will never fade away.

My Feelings Right Now...
So, I have had my heart bruised, squeezed, thrown away, crushed, shattered, stepped and spat on. In my relationships I give it my all but seem to get the shit end of the stick. I'm married and thought I found that guy who would never do that to me... I guess I thought wrong. He seems to be tossing it up in the air to see how much I can take and to tell you the truth, not much more. People say that god gave you this life cause he know's you are strong enough to handle it... I'm not so sure about that. Don't get me wrong. I love my husband with my body, mind, and soul, but I don't get that feeling in return. What I get is me waking up to him still being on the computer at 5, 6, 7, 8 o'clock in the morning instead of wanting to cuddle with me. Flirting mad crazy with other girls. I know that flirting is harmless, even I do it, but I know where to draw the line. He doesn't. That's why there is a pic of his penis on my phone that was sent to his email with a chicks name one it.

I Need True Friends
Hi for the last 3 months i have been seeing doctors because my brain has been thinking some crazy stuff well this week they finally determined that i have 3 count them 1 2 3 disoders and they go as follows bipolar disorder multiple personality disorder and schizphrenia peranoid ......so i guess im just asking for people who added me and is trully my friend be here for me they gave me 2 choices take pills and see if we can maintain them or committ myself i chose the pills but i think sometimes my thoughts arent my own and they are demented thoughts question to you commit and still be on pills or stay free on pills and all of you just really start being true friends with normal conversation keep my mind occupied with you then them much love to you all

Just Venting
Just decieded to write a blog been awhile. I been doing good. worn out kids have been keeping me so busy. Glad the holidays are over. I been working out trying to get over the weight gain from siezure meds. I lost 14 lbs since Thanksgiving and a some inches. I work out almost everyday and been eating really healthy. I feel better. Have not had an siezures since November so thats a plus also. Fubar has been stressing me out some lately. Even thought about deleating it but I just paid for a 6 month VIP. I have had people say things about me that don't even know me. So much drama. I am just here to have fun and make friends. I have people get mad sometimes saying I ignore them I really don't ever mean to ignore anyone I promise. I try to return all love. Sometime I just can't get to fubar. I am a busy mom of 3. My kids come first. I enjoy fubar and my friends but Kids keep me really busy sometimes. Just drop me a line and I promise I will say hi ... I am just slow lol. Don't get mad a

No One Reads The Rules!!
Why is it that no one can read the rules of a contest?? I'm having my Virgin Auto 11 contest and have already had people breaking the rules I set up! grrrrrrr In the rules, I specifically ask people NOT to message me back after I let them know they are entered. The reason for this is that at the beginning of my contest, I empty out my inbox so as to reserve it for entries. When you respond back, I just have to delete that message, because I JUST want the entries in my inbox. Second, I specifically state that there is only one entry per person but that you can nominate as many people as you like. I am getting multiple entries from people. PLEASE, gather up all your virgins and send their links to me in ONE MESSAGE!!! I'm pretty much letting a few things slide THIS time. Please people, READ THE RULES and follow them! They are put down for a reason!! that is all, rant over, go about your biz now!! hehe

The Balance Of Life
Last night as I was driving along an empty streth of Highway, I looked to the horizon and took a good look at the moon. It was extremely low on the horizon, one of those moons that you think you can reach out and touch. It was full, had a red/orange tint and was mezmerizing. In a word, it was beautiful. Today, the newsman at the radio station where I work told me an area family of three died in a fire. A 33 year old mother, her 3 year old son and 1 year daughter perished from a fire of unknown origin. I didn't know the family. This is my life, this is our life: there is beauty and tragidy everywhere in the world. It's giving me pause to think, and to realize, maybe we need to pay attention to which end of the teeter totter we're sitting. Find something beautiful in life today.

'fantasy Island' Actor Ricardo Montalban Dead At 88
LOS ANGELES, California (CNN) -- Actor Ricardo Montalban, star of the hit TV series "Fantasy Island," died Wednesday in Los Angeles, a family spokesman said. Montalban, 88, was in deteriorating health over the past several days but "died peacefully" at 6:30 a.m. at his home, son-in-law Gilbert Smith said. He understood "it was his time," Smith said. The cause of death was not given. Montalban rose to prominence as one of the most visible Hispanic actors in post-war Hollywood in the 1950s and 1960s. But his star grew as he took on television roles as the mysterious host Mr. Roarke on the hit drama "Fantasy Island" and as Captain Kirk's archnemesis Khan Noonien Singh in "Star Trek II: The Wrath of Khan." Born in Mexico City, Mexico, on November 25, 1920, Montalban knew at an early age that he wanted to be an actor. He moved to Hollywood as a teenager, and his first big break came when he was cast in a small part in a 1941 play, Tallulah Bankhead's "Her Cardboard Lover." A

What Is Second Life?
Second Life® is a 3-D virtual world created by its Residents. Since opening to the public in 2003, it has grown explosively and today is inhabited by millions of Residents from around the globe. http://secondlife.com/whatis/ send me an email addy and i'll send u an invite!

Rice,eggs And Fried Potatoes
So I have yet again fallen off my high horse and broke yet another new year’s resolution. While counting points daily, giving up sodas, and increasing steps. I’ve become weak. Those who look they have stepped right off the pages of Vogue or any other high fashion magazine, purge, puke, excessively work out to the point they have no life and or have not had children; I don’t want your advice. Not to sound cynical but obviously you’re not anything like me! So obviously temptation gets the best of me. It’s a life lesson that many of us fall victim to. Starting off the year; trying to manage points. along with stress, family crisis and an occasional woha of emotion. What woman wouldn’t say they “cheat?” So it’s apparent to me that I’m perhaps active enough to wear myself out, but not active enough to burn the bulge (loose the ass). It’s quite depressing so the lease. But has me at a rock bottom, searching for, not an easier way. But a more productive way, to begin my reformation

Wow A Must Read
SEEMS SO MAY PEOPLE ARE SO CAUGHT UP IN THINGS THAT HAVE NO RELEVANCE WHATSOEVER IRL- TO ME ITS ALL SO PETTY AND I HAVE NO NEED FOR DRAMA IN MY LIFE..THIS SPOKE TO MY HEART TONIGHT..I STOLE THIS FROM A MUMM MADE BY WV REBEL AND HAD TO SHARE.... There was a blind girl who hated herself because she was blind. She hated everyone, except her loving boyfriend. He was always there for her. She told her boyfriend, 'If I could only see the world, I will marry you.' One day, someone donated a pair of eyes to her. When the bandages came off, she was able to see everything, including her boyfriend. He asked her,'Now that you can see the world, will you marry me?' The girl looked at her boyfriend and saw that he was blind. The sight of his closed eyelids shocked her. She hadn't expected that. The thought of looking at them the rest of her life led her to refuse to marry him. Her boyfriend left in tears and days later wrote a note to her saying: 'Take good care of your eyes, m

For Renee, For Myself (short Story)
I cant tell if the girl in the mirror is me anymore, in this pit of bodies I don’t know that I care—just promise me one thing, promise me you wont forget me. The words seem so carefully careless as I read them to myself but I knew they were not, they were just the ramblings of some random girl that no one would remember. I felt the cold sliver of metal in my hand and watched the light glitter off its razor edge as tears prickled in my eyes but did not fall. They never fall, I hit bottom so fast that they just can’t keep up, and they never fall. Slowly, to prolong the pain of payment, I drag the metal edge up and down my forearm. Slowly the words that flash in my mind like violent rubies form in liquid guilt, filling the tears in my flesh. Now the tears came, one by one—tiny toy soldiers marching to battle back the rage. I leaned over my arm, cradling it painfully and wondering why I do this to myself. The pain clears my head; it makes the voices stop but is it really worth the silenc

The Husband Store
The Husband Store A brand new store has just opened in New York City that sells Husbands. When women go to choose a husband, they have to follow the instructions at the entrance:- "You may visit this store ONLY ONCE! There are 6 floors and the value of the products increase as you ascend the flights. You may choose any item from a particular floor, or may choose to go up to the next floor, but you CANNOT go back down except to exit the building! So, a woman goes to the Husband Store to find a husband. On the 1st floor the sign on the door reads: Floor 1 - These men have jobs. The 2nd floor sign reads: Floor 2 - These men Have Jobs and Love Kids. The 3rd floor sign reads: Floor 3 - These men Have Jobs, Love Kids and are extremely good looking. "Wow," she thinks, but feels compelled to keep going. She goes to the 4th floor and the sign reads: Floor 4 - These men Have Jobs, Love Kids, are Drop-dead Good Looking and Help with Housework. "Oh, me

What A Jerk
ok i left the site for a while and recently came back shocked account was still here... Was like cool lot of time on my hands to waste till i move home being im not job hunting here. meet this guy Styx who seemed cool enough at 1st. lived near my baby brother so made plans to meet as friends for a movie. few days before thibgs just didnt feel right so i decided not to drive up home changed my mind about just meeting a straner off here even if it was in public. Now i get home from my weekend trip and relize how right i wasnt to go u8p to tampa to meet him this girl he introduce me too starts telling me what a liar he is. ... long story shorter cause he's not worth my nails... last nyte he tells me im talking to ppl telling them i broke it off with him... 1- only one real life friend knew i was going to meet him, i didnt go talking about him to no one here so who would i have told. well he told me F off have a nice life.... ok so i think its all over with. LOL not i go around d

Happiness I Feel...
I rose above pain. Soared past clouds and through the treetops you could see me gliding past. I was at last alive. Free. Perfectly beautifully inexplicably free. I had waited so patiently standing vigilant over the next of my virtue and the anchor of my heart. And here is my joy. My grand reward and ultimate salvation. Higher and higher I would fly past even where the sky shines blue. In my wake, gorgeous trails of crimson trace my path across the sky. Off. Off into infinity I fly. Do you see it? Can you see me? All there in my eyes. See how they are frozen in that joyful moment forever? Blankly I stare in to eternity no longer capable of sorrow or pain. Impervious in fact. The smoke still warm rising from my mouth harkens of my liberation. Millimeters of steel and lead forged my bridge to sanctuary. - Fuck my birthday, forgive me for being wrought upon this world. Mordrid

The Gift
There was a blind girl who hated herself because she was blind. She hated everyone, except her loving boyfriend. He was always there for her. She told her boyfriend, 'If I could only see the world, I will marry you.' One day, someone donated a pair of eyes to her. When the bandages came off, she was able to see everything, including her boyfriend. He asked her,'Now that you can see the world, will you marry me?' The girl looked at her boyfriend and saw that he was blind. The sight of his closed eyelids shocked her. She hadn't expected that. The thought of looking at them the rest of her life led her to refuse to marry him. Her boyfriend left in tears and days later wrote a note to her saying: 'Take good care of your eyes, my dear, for before they were yours, they were mine.' Life Is a Gift Today before you say an unkind word - Think of someone who can't speak. Before you complain about the taste of your food - Think of someone who has nothing to eat. B

Nco Vs Officer Work
Officers At Work A Lieutenant, a Major, and a Colonel were dining with the General in his quarters one evening. The conversation turned to sex and the Lieutenant stated that making love to your wife is 10% work and 90% fun. The Major disagreed and stated that he believed making love to your wife is 40% work and 60% fun. The Colonel then stated that they were both wrong and that the ratio is 80% work and 20% fun. They decided to put the matter to a young Sergeant. "Well, Sir," he began, "I think you are all dead wrong. It must be 100% fun." "Why do you say that?", asked the General. "Because," answered the young sergeant, "if it involved any work at all, you'd assign an enlisted person to do it for you."

Pot O' Gold Contest
WYKD Radio Presents Pot O' Gold!! ~WYKD~WYKD~WYKD~WYKD~WYKD~ There is Currently 11,100 fubux in the pot ! ~WYKD~WYKD~WYKD~WYKD~WYKD~ Entries : ~ 1 ~ manly - Thirsty Thursday!!!!@ fubar ~2~ mamaduck/Proud Member of The Friendship Circle@ fubar ~1~ Valik WYKD Greeter@ fubar ~3~ ***Dragonfairy****Fu-Hunnie2bigdan877~~~Greeter@WYKD@ fubar ~3~ Little Angel AKA Michelle,OWNED BY KAT1114 SHADOW LEVALER@ fubar ~7~ imcrazybitch ~friendshipcircle~

Çåråbë££å Wants To Level Before Her B-day
ÇåråBë££å@ fubar PLEASE HELP ME TO GODFATHER(GODMOMMA) BY THE TIME MY BIRTHDAY ROLLS AROUND WHICH IS JANUARY 29TH. ANYONE WHO SHOWS THE TRU FU LOVE WILL GET THE FULOVE BACK.. I DONT HAVE FUBUCKS OR BLING OR ANYTHING LIKE THAT TO GIVE.. SO IM HOPING ALL MY FU FRIENDS COME THREW FOR ME & HELP ME GET TO GODFATHER... TY

Pot O' Gold Contest
WYKD Radio Presents Pot O' Gold!! ~WYKD~WYKD~WYKD~WYKD~WYKD~ See Rains Blog for Updated Amount. ~WYKD~WYKD~WYKD~WYKD~WYKD~ Entries Will be listed on Rains Blog ~WYKD~WYKD~WYKD~WYKD~WYKD~ Here's the LowDown! ~WYKD TYKTS are 500 fubux.~ ~When you purchase a tykt whomever you buy the tykt for will recieve the tykt graphic.They will only recieve it once.~ ~I will keep this updated so you can keep track of how many tykts everyone has~ ~Whoever has the most tykts will win the pot o' gold.~ ~The amount in the pot will increase with every purchase~ ~There is no purchase limit~ ~YOU CAN NOT BUY TYKTS FOR YOURSELF~ The Rulz: 1. This is for fun, no drama tolerated! 2.You can ONLY buy tykts for other people NOT YOURSELF !! 3. Send Fubux and link to who the tykt is for to RAIN ONLY. 4. Winner will be announced in Blog 5. Please be patient after purchase we will get your orders as quickly

Video Games = Meth (old, 2007)
Nev. Couple Blame Internet for Neglect Sunday, July 15, 2007 RENO, Nev. — A couple who authorities say were so obsessed with the Internet and video games that they left their babies starving and suffering other health problems have pleaded guilty to child neglect. The children of Michael and Iana Straw, a boy age 22 months and a girl age 11 months, were severely malnourished and near death last month when doctors saw them after social workers took them to a hospital, authorities said. Both children are doing well and gaining weight in foster care, prosecutor Kelli Ann Viloria told the Reno Gazette-Journal. Michael Straw, 25, and Iana Straw, 23, pleaded guilty Friday to two counts each of child neglect. Each faces a maximum 12-year prison sentence. Viloria said the Reno couple were too distracted by online video games, mainly the fantasy role-playing "Dungeons & Dragons" series, to give their children proper care. "They had food; they just chose not to give it to the

I Lost My Bff..he Was The Only One..
Curt@ fubar Thank U Curt for offering sympathy & working on pics for me...U are an amazing friend on fubar, but when REAL life hit u were a REAL friend....Plzzz show him love. A good Friend all around!!!

My Dream
My dreams are filled with him night after night, Embracing him in my thoughts with all my might. When the sun awakes me to the reality of the day, My eyes open, only to have him slip away. I try to close them for as long as I can, The force of the light is too strong to withstand. The darkness brings him to me, if just for a short time, Flicking images of him fill every corner of my mind. How I suffer in the sun’s golden light, The days are unbearable until the return of night. Bring back the night it relieves my pain, I curse the light and its power that makes me insane. I can never resist the strength of his kiss, He takes his fill and gives me my every wish. It’s the dark that fills me with anticipation, He takes me to the time of his creation. How can I put out the sun to shine no more? Would it prove he exists, not just lore? I Know he’s real, I just have to close my eyes, I can smell his sent on me; it’s not a lie. O my god please bring me

Dark Greetings
From the dark of the night I hear, Your call as you draw near. I open the window and await, The arrival of my dark mate. Yours is the beauty of the night, I'm just a moth trapped by your light. I want you as my dark wife, and for that I gladly sacrifice my life. Into my neck your fangs you sink, And of my blood you deeply drink, As you take what you need to live, Your own blood to me you freely give. When the last human in me does expire, and into darkness I am born Vampire. Children of the night we'll be, You, My love and me. With hunger for the blood we need, Together we will hunt and feed. For our own selfish sake, The life's of innocents we must take. And when in Tomb from daylight we do hide, I will lie contented at your side. and with a shroud used as a cover, I'll lay down with my DARK LOVER.

My Life
it was a dark night like I have never seen befor cloud's filled the skyhiding the moon awayas I walked through forest fog covering the ground all at oncei hurd a nouse. I stoped in my track's turned to look couldn't see any thing and did hear the nouse I thoght I hurd all I could see is the darkness around me. Haveing feeling that i was being watchedunable to see.I toke a step or 2 and hurd it again sounded even closer then befor so I stoped again. Nouthing but a feeling like I was being watched. All I could see is the darkness that was around me all the sound's where gone with all the silince felt like I was being stalked. Like I was a nice dinner or maybe a snack. Then it sounded like somthing was right behind me. The last thing I rember was opening my eye's unsure where I was or even what place i was in and it had seemed tat i have gottin away from the darkness that almost had me. as I open my eye's a little more i could see very little just some crack's in the wall's or maybe in t

Tips 4 Dating An Aries.....(i Happen 2 Be An Aries To A "t'...fellas Take Notes)
Dating Advice and Tips for Dating an Aries: Don't think this is going to be an easy one. Dating an Aries is no walk in the park. An Aries needs a challenge and difficult goals, both physically and emotionally. Boring conversation will make this goat want to run to the hills, and a non sincere, not clear and straight to the point attitude might end this date even before it has begun. People born under the sign of Aries are ruled by planet Mars, which means they have a lot of personal pride, and sometimes can be hurt very easily. The Aries admires and loves people who express energy and power. Aries Dating Tip: In the area of love the Aries seeks protection, and will fall in love only with those who are stronger than them. Aries people do not follow social tradition and have an independent way of expressing themselves. Another dating advice: Don't get turned off too quickly if this Aries doesn't behave as expected, there might be much more behind the facade.

Trust Me
Wear me like the old school jersey I am The one you've kept all these years Because it reminds you of laughing days Of failed tests that don't count Thread your fingers anxiously through my sleeves Wear me like that Like your old school jersey Carry me stuffed at the bottom of your heavy bag

If Only Weunderstood
If We Only Understood Could we but draw back the curtain, That surrounds each others lives, See the naked heart and spirit; Know what spur the action gives; Often we would find it better, Purer then we think we would. We would love each other better, If we only understood.

Birth Name
For those whom I care about I willing accept their burden of pain. For those who do not know me know that I will not suffer ignorance. For those who have done true wrong know that only you can accept the blame and maybe, just maybe bear the shame. Acceptance does not come easily for you are eternally alone and with the passing of time even you will forget your birth given name.

So Lets See
So, let's see, We have a President Elect who has never run anything, not even a corner store. Don't tell me he ran his campaign, because he didn't, he showed up and gave speeches. The candidate doesn't have time to run the campaign. We have a Vice President Elect who thinks FDR was President and America had TV when the stock market crashed in 1929, (Herbert Hoover was in office and Television didn't become widely used until the '50's), he is also well known for his plagiarism in the late '80s. We have a Secretary of State nominee, who has never run anything, not even a corner store. Her claim to fame is that she is the wife of a former President, who had sex in the Oval Office, disgraced the Presidency and was impeached. We have a CIA Director nominee who has never worked in the intelligence field and is expected to take over during the most dangerous times we have ever faced. We have a Democrat Governor of Illinois who is the process of being impeached for trying to sel

Lifes To Short!
I STOLE THIS FROM HAZEL WHO STOLE IT FROM TEMPTRESS WHO STOLE IT FROM WV REBEL. AND NO MATTER WHERE YOU "WORK" I HOPE YOU READ, PAY ATTENTION, AND ENJOY IT AS MUCH AS I DID. There was a blind girl who hated herself because she was blind. She hated everyone, except her loving boyfriend. He was always there for her. She told her boyfriend, 'If I could only see the world, I will marry you.' One day, someone donated a pair of eyes to her. When the bandages came off, she was able to see everything, including her boyfriend. He asked her,'Now that you can see the world, will you marry me?' The girl looked at her boyfriend and saw that he was blind. The sight of his closed eyelids shocked her. She hadn't expected that. The thought of looking at them the rest of her life led her to refuse to marry him. Her boyfriend left in tears and days later wrote a note to her saying: 'Take good care of your eyes, my dear, for before they were yours, they were mine.' Life Is a

Say What?
WASHINGTON (CNN) -- A 13-year-old Arizona girl who was strip-searched by school officials looking for ibuprofen pain reliever will have her case heard at the Supreme Court. The U.S. Supreme Court will decide whether school officials were right to strip-search a student over ibuprofen. The U.S. Supreme Court will decide whether school officials were right to strip-search a student over ibuprofen. The justices accepted the case Friday for review. They will decide whether a campus setting gives school administrators greater discretion to control students suspected of illegal activity than police are allowed in cases involving adults in public spaces. Arguments are expected to be heard in April. At issue is whether school administrators are constitutionally barred from conducting searches of students investigated for possessing or dealing drugs that are banned on campus. A federal appeals court found the search "traumatizing" and illegal. Some parents say older children

Surgery
iam going to have surgery feb 29th on my left hand as some of you no from my past blog on the subject as far as i know there is a good chance 80% so there a 20% percent chance i may have permanent chance of damage to my nerve

I'll Kill Any Fucker Who Does This To My Girl Or Any Girl
Guy:"Lets have sex right now. Girl: "Can we do what?" Guy: "You know, can I be your first, finally?" Girl: "Um.....no. Guy: "Why?" Girl: "Because, 1. you have a girlfriend, who happens to be my friend......." Guy: "So, if you don't tell, I won't tell. Girl: "Besides that, I'm waiting for someone special. Someone that I want to be with for the rest of my life to be my first. Guy: "I'm not special to you?" Girl: "You're my friend. That's all. Guy: looks forward and keeps driving. 5 minutes pass....... Guy: starts to run his hand up the girl's thigh. Girl: moves his hand, "Don't touch me.". Guy: tries to kiss her. Girl: screams, "Would you stop. Guy: continues trying. Girl: moves to the back seat Guy: parks on an abandoned street and gets in the backseat with the girl. Starts to kiss he

Fuangel With The Auto 11's On!!!!
AUTO 11'S ARE ON FOR ONE OF OUR FU-ANGEL !!!!!! She has 1,527 pic's to rate so please show her some luv, because I know for a fact she's a sweetheart, and will return the luv... Her Auto's turn off at 2:30 eastern time so click on her FuAngel pic below and go and get some!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ? Lovable Lil One ? ~*~Fu-Angel~*~Inky's Levelers~*~Fu Bad Girl~*~

Events
NEXT WEEKEND ON JANUARY 25TH I AM GETTING FU MARRIED. THE WEDDING WILL BE IN THE HOT N BOTHERED LOUNGE, WE HAVE 3 DAYS OF EVENTS BEFORE IT. FRIDAY NIGHT JANUARY 23RD WILL BE MY FU BACHELORETTE PARTY WITH LOTS OF WOMEN AND FUN, DRINKS FLOWING AND HOT GIRLS ON CAM. SATURDAY NIGHT THE 24TH WILL BE MY FU FIANCE'S BACHELOR PARTY WITH SEXY MEN AND DRINKS, ALSO LOTS OF FUN. SUNDAY THE DAY OF OUR WEDDING WE WILL BE HAVING AN AUCTION, IF YOU WOULD LIKE TO PARTICIPATE OR INFO ON THE AUCTION PLEASE FEEL FREE TO SHOUT ME FOR INFO. EVERYONE IS WELCOMED TO ATTEND ALL EVENTS AND GIFTS WILL BE MUCH APPRECIATED. LOVE TO ALL MY FU FRIENDS

Ok Then........yeah
Sittin here stoned always gets my mind wanderin. Gotta be at work at 9 I really need some new shoes Charlie is so cute when he's sleepin Wonder when my W-2 will be here Did anyone get the mail Who is that schmuck in my sb This chair isn't comfy anymore Isn't this about the single most interesting thing you have read on fubar in a long time? I told you I was stoned! hehe *waves bye bye* WOOT

Did You Know Santa Had A Younger Brother?? Yummmy!!!!
Did you know that Santa had a younger brother? Well .... Scroll down and meet Jared, Santa's younger brother. Jared takes care of the 'naughty' girls. So ... Who is going to be naughty???? The line forms on the right!!!

[oh... And I'm A Godfather]
The kind that matters, not for this silly internet popularity contest. That means I need to make a trip... soonish. I missed another great moment today too, nothing beats the excitement of being present for a child being born, or say giving someone a "just because you make my life better" present face to face. But its always great to get that enthusiasm at least secondhand. More on these topics, more poetically, later For now I'm just riding two high points, and actually getting ready for bed Lonely as I am I think I'll be in better company tonight. When I'm a rich man I'll give you diamonds When I'm a happy man I'll give you my love. And to Mackenzie: don't worry, I won't call you mac and cheese around your friends and Your parents love you very much... even if they are pretty damned clueless. I guess that's why I'm in the equation Looking forward to all your firsts, and being a part of the great adventure ahead. -Love Arthur.

Hate Myself
Once again i find myself fucking up.... i feel as though i find the "right one".. and yet i let myself self put up these horrible walls and push them away....i know i have not been the best person....i have done my wrongs...who hasnt...no one is perfect. I feel as though i should stop searching...but yet i wanna settle and stop being lonely...how do i let these wall tumble down from all these past episodes?...i hate who i am

I Dont Care If This Pissin Ne1 Off
first off.. i c ppl on here that post pics of their kids.. i know ur proud parent n all n thats wonderful but think about the world 2day we have ppl raping kids ppl gettin off 2 kids and their pics there r some sick ppl out there n the world n here u r postin pics OF UR KIDS on a site where there is over 2mill ppl which half of them r sick fcks that do sick shit 2 kids and or women and yet mothers and fathers STILL post pics of their kids n plain site of ppl that could very well b doin the unthinkable 2 ur kids pics... sorry 2 say it but damn ppl think bout stuff this is a very sick place where we live in 2day and ur givin them easy access 2 do it... half of the ppl that have pics of their kids dont even have them locked 4 family only can c... i mean seriously think bout how many ppl come 2 ur page... think bout how many look at ur pics... now think bout how many r pics of UR kids by writin this i hope some of u guys open ur eyes n realize just how easy ur making it 4 someone of that t

Me?
25 Random Things About Me 1. I make chainmail 2. I curse like a sailor 3. I read at a 12th grade level.. in 4th grade.. 4. I secretly like Britany Spears music... well.. some of it 5. I LOVE broccoli.. 6. I like wheat pasta more than white pasta 7. I never liked to play sports.. 8. I love to dance.. but don't unless i am alone 9. I have anxiety attacks when I am around people 10. I used to be addicted to drugs.. 11. I grew up with a baptist mother and a catholic father.. but am considered pagan.. 12. I think milk is disgusting... unless it is chocolate 13. the only chocolate milk i like is ovaltine.. 14. Hello. My name is Vani and I am addicted to video games 15. I'm messy and I have no organizational skills whatsoever.... except at work! 16. I don't have many real friends... 17. I want babies.. and I want them bad. 18. I love shoes, but hate wearing them.... 19. I am addicted to chocolate. 20. I refuse to wear my hair long

Omg
MARION, Texas – Authorities are trying to find out who stuffed 70 dead Siamese cats into seven large trash bags and dumped them onto a road in suburban San Antonio. San Antonio television KABB reports the dead cats were found Thursday in the Guadalupe County town of Marion. The animals were all adults. Guadalupe County Sheriff Arnold Zwicke says the cats appeared to have been kept in a freezer or refrigerator. They've been buried at a site in Guadalupe County. Marion is located 23 miles east-northeast of San Antonio. ............ I say find the person and kill them

House Of Cards Auction
PLEASE COME SHOW SUM LOVE AND BID ON ME IN POKER PRINCESS' AUCTION! ITS MY 1ST AUCTION, IAM VERY EXCITED!! COME CHECK ME OUT PPLS. THX SO MUCH!! http://www.fubar.com/user/1246900 http://www.fubar.com/photo.php?u=1246900&albumid=1420658&i=33768610&idx=25

Chief Executive Of A State...(a Letter To..)
Our governor is a douche bag and after watching yesterday's "State of the State" address, it's taken me a good day just to cool off from his ignorant, pathetic attempt at trying to balance our so sorely diluted state budget! "I did it without raising taxes!" he says... SO WHAT! Just because you ran on that ticket doesn't mean it works anymore! Haven't you heard the term "desperate times call for desperate measures"? I'm sure there are a lot of people in our state willing to pay a half or more percent sales tax then have your dumb ass cut education for our already struggling children! Let's not forget that Millenium Scholorship you kept intact. Ooooh, one point for you Mr. Governor! Who cares? Why keep it, if there's no money for it? Is it so illegal aliens can fund their education with our tax dollars? I can't use it, but I'd sure like to. My kids can't use it. Cut it! Give that money to our teachers, our kids who already have to share a classroom with 30+ other stude

Saturdays Auto 11's
AUTO 11'S RUNNING TODAY. HERE ARE SOME TO START OFF WITH AND WILL BE ADDING AS I SEE THEM. AS ALWAYS, IF YOU HAVE THEM FEEL FREE TO LEAVE A COMMENT IN HERE IF I HAVE OVERLOOKED YOU! THESE ARE IN NO PARTICULAR ORDER. A PAGE AND BLOG RATE WOULD BE MOST APPRECIATED AND MAYBE MY SALUTES? LOL ************ HAPPY HOUR W/AUTOS ********** 5 PM FU TIME CLICK ON TOP LEFT "BOOK A HAPPY HOUR OR SPONSOR TO SEE TODAYS SCHEDULE AND SEE YOUR TIME, I CANNOT FIGURE THAT OUT FOR YOU :P 6'1 Playground@ fubar MzCh@osR☼xx/Wifey 2 TinMan22/Dylons's Diva Mafia/The Pegasus Project*Own'd by ImSmut@ fubar Ћξ şᴌݩŧ™: Owner of THE Trailer Park@ fubar ☆ ♥ Dawn ♥ ☆Fu-Wifey to ♫Rock Candy♫@ fubar Auto Suggadaddy ™/owner of/owned by Sultry@ fubar ♥AUTO SULTRY™♥Support Our Troops♥Mistrs to Vamp Morticia♥Owned by Suggadaddy@ fubar ♥ Porsche ♥@ fubar ..chillie...™@ fubar

Friendship
ok this is just something i have been thinking about alot lately.... Alot of people knows its not easy making friends,but over the weeks/days/months you actually learn about them.Not everyone is judging another person.To me friends is someone that i look fwd 2 seeing when i come around to see them, get a phone call, letter or even when u see them come online. Im not the one to judge anyone unless they are passing judgments against me.Learn about your true friends and you might actually like what you see, hear or read about them.I love making knew friends and those who know me,knows how i cherish my friendship.

What We Deal With
Ok I am one of many owners of a lounge on here. When you join a lounge to chate with people in the lounge it is great. Our numbers go up in members. You meet new people. And most of all have a good time. The thing you may not realize is the hard work we go threw to make this possable for you. We find staff to work the lounge to make it a fun place to be. Spend many hours on line. Some of us DJ when we are on line so you have music ,and can get your request for the music you want to hear. All we ask is that you take the time to thank them for the work they do for you to have a great time on fubar. LEFTY (AKA) COWBOY OWNER@ROUGHSTOCK

Never Say No~
It had been a frustrating day, projects not on time, people not where they were supposed to be. Now to top it all off, we had a business dinner to go to. I called my little one and let her know to be ready to leave as soon as I got home. Since we would be out with "straights" she was allowed to wear a "proper" dress, panties, but no bra, and her black satin choker instead of her usual collar. When I arrived home, she, as she is supposed to, was waiting at the door for me, ready to go to the damn dinner. She was wearing a black mini dress that was properly tight, showing off her fine figure. The neckline was a "scoop" type almost reaching her nipples. Her makeup was perfect, highlighting her features without being apparent. I motioned for her to spin around so I could check her all around. Her long hair was pulled back and held by a sliver clip I had given to her, falling to the middle of her back. The dress was tight enough that I could see the outline of the panties under it. "V

New Collar
The phone rings. I answer it. You are calling from work to say You are going to be a bit late, but You will call me when You are about to come home. We tell each other that We love each other and hang up the phone. I go about and continue on with my afternoon, passing time by. About two hours later, the phone rings again. "babydoll, I am on my way home. You are to be naked and kneeling in the living room, with your back to the door when I arrive." "Yes, Sir." "Good girl, see you in a bit." I get off the phone, and go into the bedroom and disrobe. I neatly fold my clothes and place them in a pile on the floor. I come out into the living room, and take my place on my knees. It does not take long till I hear You coming up the stairs. I feel my heart starting to race. I hear the key in the door, and my body starts to tingle. You walk in, You do not speak. I do not say anything, I know I am to stay silent until spoken to. I am kneeling, with my legs slightly spread, my han

Jades Dirty Diamonds
EACH WEEK, I'LL DO A PIMPOUT , ONE MEMBER A WEEK,A RANDOM GROUP PIMP OUT BULLETIN, ALONG WITH COMMENTS,BLOG,GIFTS(RANDOM AND WHEN IT'S UR WEEK TO BE PIMPED OUT...this is for guys & girls!!THOSE THAT DON'T KEEP ME AND ALL MEMBERS ADDED & FANNED WILL BE REMOVED, THIS CREW IS ABOUT SHOWING SUPPORT & LUV , THE FUBAR WAY, THANX ALL. HUGZ. DIAMOND. The mere mention of the word fills the mind with a multitude of concepts and images. Diamond is a mineral, a natural crystalline substance, the transparent form of pure carbon. Diamond is something superb, the peerless "king of gems" that glitters, dazzles, and symbolizes purity and strength. Diamond is for engagement and the 75th wedding anniversary, for a commitment to never-ending love. Diamond is indomitable, the hardest surface known. Diamond is exotic, formed in Earth's interior and shot to the surface by extraordinary volcanoes. A diamond is likely the oldest thing you will ever own, probably 3 billion years in age, fully two thirds

A Poem
I felt a sudden inspiration, so I wrote a short poem. Leave me love, comments, criticism, concerns, suggestions, rotting tomatoes, whatever, I wanna hear it. I wrote this in five minutes or less, and I don't write that often, and okay, no more excuses, here goes... It's called "I am" for what you will soon see are obvious reasons. I am Multi-faceted like Loreal Feria Multi-faceted shimmering hair color #60, crystal brown. I am Multi-faceted like a princess cut diamond engagement ring, $2,700, platinum. I am Multi-faceted like a mullet that stays business in the front, party in the back, $9.99 plus tax and tip at Super Cuts. I am Late-night Lady and Studious Student, Marja Morgan, pleasure to meet you. I am A gym-rat-health-freak and also enjoy moving my thumb back and forth on a grape-flavored Swisher Sweet, watching it twist between my pointer and middle finger as I watch the smoke fill my vision and feel the moment as nothing but sensual. I am

Enough With The Damn Drama!!!
Hard2Handle Rate/Re-Rate Day!! She attractsHatredJealousyand Envyfrom other Women! She brings outLustDesireObsessioninMen! This is.. Auto's On!!! Hard 2 Handle ~La*La's FuWife~@ fubarWhat ever emotion she has brought out in you, stop by and pay her a visit! Rate or Re-Rate!Add or Fan if you haven't already!!Male or Female, there's bound to be something in her albums that WILL tickle your fancy!! Brought to you by:DUH!MsCharlotte2U~ No Rate~No Add~@ fubarPlease Re-Post! DON'T FORGET THE RATE THIS BLOG! THANKS SO MUCH!

Disillusionment
Disillusionment Dismayed by illusion is but an intrusion into where you wish you were even before you find your way. The past is in your face until you put it in its place and take control of the desires that that make your heart want to race. But now inside and behind all of the confusion lies the peace and resolution to the fears that captivate your travels. So now if all that you possess are the fears that prevent your rest then lift your face up to feel the rising sun of day. A simple smile can send your disillusion back to its point of intrusion and create within your heart a hope and love and inclusion.

Deadly Shadow
Slowly stalking through the darkness, a lone Warrior cautiously moved through the enemy lair. Tyburcio Warpoet had his goal set, and was fixated on achieving it. Calling the Shadow Clan home he was a very skilled Warrior for his age, and had already become the favorite of the clan’s Mistress, and continuously called upon for tasks. At the age of Sixteen Tyburcio has already taken part in more than thirty campaigns, and lone “disciplinary actions” against other Clans in the region, more than any other Warrior his age which is the result of constantly intense training in the arts of Calvary, Swordsmanship, Hand to Hand combat, and Infiltration from his father Olmec Xchyler who was a superb Warrior himself. Born from another high status dominant female, Tyburcio was well aware of how the social structure worked within his Clan, and others for that matter. Which made him very useful for situations that demands a more “aggressive diplomatic” touch. Within his Clan the females were domi

1st Time This Guy Talked 2 Me...peice Of Shit..
Tony: later ->Tony: BYE Tony: ok i will but i want phone sex ->Tony: HOW ABOUT THIS...I BET U DIDNT EVEN READ MY PROFILE..HUH..AND YOU WANT ME TO PHONE FUCK YOU...NOT EVERYONE IS AFTER THE SAME SICK SEX SHIT...I AM REAL ..READ MY PROFILE...AND DONT JUDGE ME.. Tony: oh Tony: i dont know.... but im true to my word.. now call me and phone fuck me ->Tony: U R NEW HERE..IVE BEEN ON HERE FOR LIKE 2 YEARS...AND IVE HEARD UR STORY 100 TIMES...FROM MEN THAT WIND UP TO BE PSYCHO'S OR MARRIED... Tony: hmm ->Tony: LOL...LIKE YOU EXPECT ME TO BELEIVE THAT...DO YOU KNOW HOW MANY TIMES I HAVE HEARD THAT SAME SHIT.. Tony: oh i def would.. i can hop on a plane first thing tomarow.. lock us in ur room and do it all day and nite mmm ->Tony: 28 IS GOOD...BUT YOU ASKED A QUESTION...WHAT WOULD YOU SAY IF I SAID YES BRING IT...WOULD YOU?? Tony: what now u wont talk to me Tony: like i said ..... old enough to make u cum over and over Tony: im 28.. ->Tony: THAT DID NOT ANSWER ME.

Local Folk
Just something I had in mind...... This guy, Seth Lakeman, is local home grown talent. I went to one of his concerts, I almost peed my pants, well mebbe not but, he is very good live as well as recorded, not much difference in quality of voice or musically......enjoy this with meaning, I'm still procesing........

Huh?
I didn't expect to already have a subject for entry but I suspect after reading some things here I might have more than one a day. Okay - so I'd heard about MUMM's but had no idea wtf they were, saw that one of my Fu-Friends voted on one and and thought I'd check it out. Oh myyyyyy.... The first one was a poll asking if you find anerexic girls or bbw's more attractive. Uhhhhh.... I see another one, something about being unlady like so obviously I click on it and read the question. It's obvious that this person has a question in there somewhere... but isn't very clear about what the question is. Now, I don't judge others' typing skillz or the way they communicate in, say, private messages or blogs - that sort of thing- bcuz I'm far from using great grammar myself. BUT - When you are trying to be witty and post something for a public forum you *might* wanna ... oh, I dunno... proof-read it first? Use spellcheck? Get an opinion about whether or not it even makes sense? Grrr

Fantasy ?
I had a dream about you again the other night. Not last night but the night before. I forgot because of everything thats going on. But here it is. I randomly showed up at your apartment. You answered the door and there I was standing there wearing a long buttoned up coat. You invited me in, you seemed confused. You took my hand and pulled me into your room. You started kissing me on my lips, on my neck. You held me tight. You took off my coat and what was underneath made you take a step back. I was wearing nothing but a red bra, red lace underwear and a garter belt. Which I find rather interesting since i have never owned a garter belt. Anyways, you smiled with this big devilish grin. You pulled me close and lowered me down onto the bed. You slowly unhooked my garter belt and pulled my panties off. You then spread my legs and started to lick my clit. Oh how good that felt. You nibbled it gently and inserted two fingers deep inside of me. I quivered with pleasure. You stopped and

Black Rose
Black rose -Sigh- Intensely in my mind Dark as a thought Moving fleetingly From shadow to shadow I see you Intermittently Blonde hair Blue eyes Narrowly bound waist Corseted Contained Yet Yet freely You open Trust Trusting me To roam through your dreams Blindfolded Fed a solitary grape Juice Juices flowing down your legs Anticipating Anticipation of a touch Yet not a touch Only capturing Your mind To open The black rose And accept the nectar Of sweated loins On smooth Shaven lips poet

Portrait Of A Friend...
"Portrait of a Friend" I can't give solutions to all of life's problems, doubts, or fears. But I can listen to you, and together we will search for answers. I can't change your past with all it's heartache and pain, nor the future with its untold stories. But I can be there now when you need me to care. I can't keep your feet from stumbling. I can only offer my hand that you may grasp it and not fall. Your joys, triumphs, successes, and happiness are not mine; Yet I can share in your laughter. Your decisions in life are not mine to make, nor to judge; I can only support you, encourage you, and help you when you ask. I can't prevent you from falling away from friendship, from your values, from me. I can only pray for you, talk to you and wait for you. I can't give you boundaries which I have determined for you, But I can give you the room to change, room to grow, room to be yourself. I can't keep your heart from breaking and hurting,

Poem I Found
I am a woman. At times even a lady. And at any time, a willing,passionate, talented partner in bed. I also like to be held and talked to During those lonely hours of the night When i feel so alone in the world, crying into my pillow. There’s never anyone to hear me or to care. Maybe i should become the kind of woman men seem to like: A perfect 38-24-36 and the type To simper and flirt and act dumb for a man. But that isn’t who i am, and i will not be that kind of woman. Or accept the man who wants me that way. Still, nights like tonight the loneliness is overpowering. I begin to doubt in the kind of woman i am. I wonder when, if ever, there will be that man Who can appreciate me and see into my heart and soul And realize the loneliness lurking there. With the need and ability to love someone til we’re old and gray And who trust in the woman i am To keep the heart and soul of her man Safe from harm for all eternity.

Please Help
This is the Story of Baby Roxan..... Taken from her Daddy's Blog While you read her story Please Try to open your hearts. Sometimes we forget about how important some things really are when we get distracted with the land of fubar. Thank you for taking the time to read baby Roxan's Story....if its not to much trouble to ask can you guys please repost this! Spread the word we need to get her all the help we can get! I am reaching out to you all in hopes that some of you will find it in your hearts to help me help my daughter. Below is a link where you can help contribute to her happiness and well being. I also included a bit about her and what she is going through. Please take a moment to do what you can. Simply CLICK THE PIC below to contribute, please. Thank you... AJ Roxan was born on November 30th 2008 at 6:27pm. She was a month premature and weighed in at 4lbs 6oz. Roxan was born with many complications, some severe and others strictly cosmetic.

Bleh Blah Bleh
Hmm I swore I wrote in this earlier after I got home. Maybe I forgot to hit submit or something. Anyways, Work was just another blah day... another day with me thinking about stuff. I was talking to my co-worker about the situation between Rich and I. I told her some things that's been happening. That I haven't been happy in a long while. She asked me if I still loved him and I told her that I didn't know anymore. Another co-worker heard us talking and he said that I should take rich out to dinner or some place to where we can talk, again. Have a talk outside from home. I've had soooo many talks with Rich about this. It'll work for a while or whatever..but then it just starts all over. But, I'll give it a try.....AGAIN. I'm also going to see how things go this week. Try to give him the hint of certain things I guess....like..simple things like I'll ask him if he wants to cook dinner or does should I....he hasn't cooked dinner in a while... Okay, well he did on Wednesday...

Guidelines For Leaving The Family
Leaving the Family Guidelines Any one may leave the family at any time. No one will force you to stay but we may try to talk you out of leaving. Some members may be allowed to come back at a later time and others may not. If you decide to leave the family: ~ Please send one of the heads a private message letting them know you are leaving. We would really like to know why but if you would rather not explain we can’t make you. ~ If you run into computer problems or net problems and can’t get online for a period of time, please try to find some way of letting someone in the fam know. Most of us have at least one phone number of someone in the fam and if not there’s always the library so you can at least leave us a message. You will be ineligible for re-entry: ~ If you leave the family without notifying one of the heads that you are leaving. ~ If you make it obvious that you left because another member left. This shows us that you are not about the family as a whol

Self
because pain makes us stronger we must embrace it..... to truly love the one who is meant for us...... so choose to live and never let go of your hope, your faith in self and most importantly never lose sight of the amazing creature you are with in.....

Enough
I've had my fill. I can't seem to make anyone happy. Can I just die already, please. I've been told all my life how much of a failure I'd be, and to that end I've fought and fought and fought against that. Well I'm out of fight. I just can't fight anymore. I feel very alone and very down. I used to wonder when this woman who was supposed to make me happy and everything great was comming but now I don't really know if she'll ever be comming

The Honest Truth
Ok...for those who haven't noticed yet...Todd and I are back together...this latest fiasco did not entail either of us actually going anywhere or even an actual argument...however statements were made concerning the status of the relationship and it was decided that for the time being we were broken up...Now at some point our fubar profiles ended up changed and some "friends" were notified of what went on...some just noticed and asked and others were left to wonder...All of you who really know us and are truly a good friend know how rough this last year has been...ALL of you have been supportive through the entire process...and I know some of you feel like I have let you down...But seriously our relationship is not as open and shut as it may seem...there are a lot of factors that complicate the hell out of it and may or may not have been mentioned or talked about enough for anyone outside of us to make any sort of adequate judgment as to whether this is a healthy relationship...No two

Grow The Hell Up
this person did not like a comment I left her. All I said was I have my doubts. She asked me in a sb what I was refering to, she then re rated me a 1 left several comments I had to delete and blocked me. Personaly, I hope she just goes away.....She is not worth anyones time. And please if your friends with her, just delete me now. Save us both the trouble of listening to her. I returned the favor. http://www.fubar.com/user/874286

Hope Floats And Diary Of A Mad Black Woman
Birdee Pruitt: I would have stayed with you forever. I would have turned myself inside out for you. Bill Pruitt: Birdee, I wouldn't have let you! People grow. They change. They have to! Birdee Pruitt: You think that I don't know that? I know that I'm not what I once was. I know that! But I haven't changed so much, that I would go and lie to someone that I love. God, I would walk through fire before I'd let them feel like they were nothing! And I would never break up anybody's home. Because I am not a quitter. I care about my family! I may not be the same person, but then again, neither are you. You're sad, you're weak, and you're... shorter. If you want to know the truth. Justin Matisse: Dancing's just a conversation between two people. Talk to me. Birdee Pruitt: Childhood is what you spend the rest of your life trying to overcome. Bernice Pruitt: [Bernice and Birdee are in Bernice's room after Bill has left... Bernice is on her bed and has finished crying] Why did you pretend that let

Leave In Silence
I was talking to her the other night when someone else had posted a video. I was saying the band that was in the video were a local band to me when I was younger. The band's name was/is Depeche Mode, one of the original groups to develop a movement called Modern Romantic. It was on a background of the Punk era and Disco that a new movement was born.....just at the time I was beginning to consider music in a more comprehensive way. I had been introduced to such things as mid western rock, british rock, hard rock, ska and reggae.........mix this in with experimental drug taking, it gives for a heady remedy of emotions for a young man. I've never really thought of myself as belonging to any particular clique or group. I have always stood as an outsider.....if memory serves me well, I have lived in over 34 different places in my lifetime to date.....I would appear to be a wandering spirit. When 'things' get too much for my soul, I look to move on. Lately I have been thinking it

You Want It, Take It, And Make Me Hurt
Hello, It's amazing, until this weekend I was being treated like I had a disease. I guess you can say that most guys don't like raping, torturing a girl with a cast on, or maybe the cast is just that big of a turn off. All I can say is I'm glad all that shit is over and guys are back to seeing how much they can hurt me as that rape all my little teen holes. God gave me a pussy, ass, and mouth so guys can violently ram their way in, and I am so glad they are back. luv u Tara

Why Love
why bother with love? all that happens in the end is pain and suffering so why bother letting your hopes build why bother letting your heart open to others when it gets crushed and ripped? the world would be far better off with out love. with a newfound pain comes a cold and bitter heart one that shall stay cold and bitter for ever more the heart can only take so much so keeping it cold is the best way to ensure no pain. we take each step one at a time and try to live for others try to love and help and share our lives but in the end the esult is always the same no matter how long you know that person you feel the pain you feel the suffering in the end was it really worth it? i used to think so but no more im done caring im done with love im done worrying about life. if my life were to end today oh well so be it i dont care one way or the other any more.

Life
i'm sitting here looking back on my life as we have all done at one point and yet there was a time so much like auther's befor me there was a time i was so full of hate that i feared i hated because i feared it i was only a boy that became a man almost a man over night now i stand befor you and the world no longer sweating blood and bulit's that paved my way of life for now i live a new life that isn't so hated that isn't so feared i stand befor you not as a juge and not as a leader i stand befor you as a friend i am a man with a past i am a man that isn't so defrint then any other man we all have a past it's not are past that make's use what we are today it is what we learen from it and what we do with what we have learned i know i made alot of bad jugement's in my time and now i know that i was wrong even though we all have said we would like to change somthing in are past i don't think i want to if i did i wouldn't be the man i am today

Life
Here I stand befor you I stand befor you as a man with nouthing I stand here as a man with every thing I am the man with every thing for I am the man with nouthing and yet I am a man with many rich's and yet a man that has no money and yet I am a man with every thing to give and a man with nouthing to take for I am that man that has nouthing too lose I am a man with every thing too lose I am a man with nouthing too go on in here for I am a man to young to under and yet I am a man to oldtoo go on so here I am set in my world woundering what I have done as a boy growing into this man I am will this leave the mark that I need to be rembered by or will I like so many befor me be forgotten in time after all i am just a man

Your Eyes
As I look into your beautiful blue eyes I get in thier beauty I look in closer and can see the pain I caused Pass that pain I see the love you have for me As I look deeper I hear them cry out to me "Take me away from all this pain." All your pain goes away with one passionate kiss Your eyes begin to sparkle with love You show me your beautiful smile As I whisper "I LOVE YOU."

If You Ever Go Out To Eat, Read This!
Next time you're out eating at a restaurant, look at your server. Do you think they are really happy to be doing that job? The answer is no, they are not, but it's what we do, and we do it for the money so please help them out. Its a tougher job than you think and you should pay them accordingly! There are SO many people out there flooding the restaurants w/o any knowledge of how to behave or tip. Here is a short guide for the general public to follow. Feel free to print out and store in your wallet and/or purse. 1. CHILDREN "THE LITTLE DEVILS": If you have children, DO NOT let them, open and dump anything on the table (ie; salt, sugar, etc). IF YOU DO, you must leave an extra $5 for the server to clean up YOUR CHILD'S mess & to restock the now unusable wasted items. We are neither their babysitter nor their parent. The least you can do is pay us for the extra work. Also make sure you control your kids and don't let them scream or run around the restaurant. Not only is it rude,

Help Baby Roxan!
This is the Story of Baby Roxan..... Taken from her Daddy's Blog While you read her story Please Try to open your hearts. Sometimes we forget about how important some things really are when we get distracted with the land of fubar. Thank you for taking the time to read baby Roxan's Story....if its not to much trouble to ask can you guys please repost this! Spread the word we need to get her all the help we can get! I am reaching out to you all in hopes that some of you will find it in your hearts to help me help my daughter. Below is a link where you can help contribute to her happiness and well being. I also included a bit about her and what she is going through. Please take a moment to do what you can. Simply CLICK THE PIC below to contribute, please. Thank you... AJ Roxan was born on November 30th 2008 at 6:27pm. She was a month premature and weighed in at 4lbs 6oz. Roxan was born with many complications, some severe and others strictly cosmetic.

January 2009
Well people, here is an update of my life... In December, I lost my home and became homeless. I was staying with a so called "friend" for a bit, but she threw me out, and took all my furniture (which some I did give to her, but she took everything else too) and she has my animals too. well, if I can find someone to watch my animals, she will give them back. As of now, I'm living in a sober-living house and trying to be sober once again. Hopefully in a month or two I can afford my own place and start over again...with my babies (my animals). As of now, I am sad because I miss my babies and haven't seen them in over a month. Please pray for me...and if you are in Az and know of anyone that could be a foster parent to two cats for a month or two, please let me know!

Tears
A thousand tears I have cried, Before I've seen the day I die. I want no more, I feel no more,And now I know for what is in store. The madness within is getting great, And the reason for life I no longer debate. My mind it spins and thoughts are glum, And now I wish it would all be done. A quiet place I need to be, So I can see the way you see me. I need to know what to feel,So I can be assured That I am real.I'm so confused and anger felt, Would you be the one to give me help? To ease my pain and put out the fire, In hopes to stop the evil desire. Lend me a hand or a gun, It doesn't matter, pick either one. Give me council and advice, Or tell me to pull the trigger twice. Don't tell me I need help, I know very well, Remember? I'm living this nightmarish Hell.But don't worry, It will go away, you'll see.Who knows, I might even go back to being me.However, for now, I'm stuck where I am,On this boat in the sea, with no sight of land.And here I will ponder how much I can endure,How

The Orgy.....a Work In Progress
They planned the night, they invited their favorite naked people. His and hers. They rented the perfect hotel suite. Lots of surfaces for lots of slippery gyrating bodies. Then set the rules and posted them on the door. There were three rules and they were simple. One - Strip as soon as you come in. Two - No pee, no poop, no vomit, everything else goes. Three - Retire to bedroom #4 when you're too tired to play or drive home. Everyone at this party knew everyone else, or should, so there really was no need for any rules, but just in case. People can get crazy when they get high on those sex endorphins. Macon and Indi arrived first to set up, drinks on the bar, plenty of ice and water...lots of fluid would be needing replaced. Sign on the door of bedroom #4. Lubes, oils, condoms and toys everywhere. Dirty movies on all the tv's. Two huge baskets by the door for the clothes and a pile of keys for anyone who needed to leave and come back in. Forty people invited. 32 RSVP'd. Time t

The Entirety
Aint I - Yung LA THERE COMES A MOMENT WHEN YOU REALIZE THAT THERE ARE A FEW PEOPLE IN YOUR LIFE THAT DESERVE TO BE COMEMORATED. THOSE PEOPLE THAT STUCK BY YOU EVEN WHEN YOU FUCKED UP, THE ONES' YOUR STUCK BY EVEN WHEN THEY FUCKED UP. PEOPLE WHO HAD YOUR BACK REGARDLESS OF YOUR AFFILIATIONS AND ALL THAT DRAMA FILLED FUBAR LIFE BULLSHIT. SO HERE THEY ARE A HEFTY HANDFULL OF GOOD PEOPLE, LOVE EM, HATE EM, RATE EM, BLOCK EM, BLING EM OR JUST PLAN IGNORE THEM I DON'T CARE, BUT HERE THEY ARE!!! -{Dots}- The Anime Nerd@ fubar /S/ilhouette@ fubar [[Per]]™@ fubar Priceless™@ fubar Vv i X x en@ fubar Beautiful Dreamer ♥ Fubar's "MOST" Finest =] Eye Candy @ The Candy Shop!

Frustration
So i have never blogged before..so if i do it wrong let me know. But the reason for the blog is that i dont have anyone to talk to regarding my frustrations. I am a single mom of three girls. I am recently divroced and having to share custody. I am so tired of when they go to his house for the weekend they come back with such attitude and disrespect. Granted they are young but it still is so hard to deal with when they come back. and then it takes me almost the whole week to go back into our routine and then it is time for them to go back.

I Don't Feel Safe
Since we got robbed, our neighbor told us who it was. We know. We also know someone traded pot for it. Shit will go down, I'm not dumb. I don't want to live here anymore. I'm here all by myself most of the time. I'm 5 foot, 98 lbs, if that. I don't have a gun, I never held one before even. I know bikers. I know bikers that have "clubs." I don't want my mom to get hurt, I don't want her bf to get hurt, I don't even want my cockatiel to get hurt. I'm scared and I know the police are effing useless. They won't do shit until it's already done and over with. Ever notice in the movies they show up right after everyone's dead? That's how it is. I don't really know what to do. Move to Anderson with my dad? He has a new baby and I don't want to be burden. I can't move into an apt. since I'm on SSI and there's a year waiting list to get into the apts. that are Section 8. So what do I do? Stay at Big Dog's bar all day with the bikers? LMAO.

Self Cpr
This could save someone's life -- maybe mine or yours! l Subject: Self CPR What are you to do if you have a heart attack While you are alone. If you've already received this, It means people care about you. The Johnson City Medical Center staff actually Discovered this and did an in-depth study On it in our ICU. The two individuals that discovered this then did An article on it, had it published and have had it incorporated into ACLS and CPR classes. It is very true and has and does work. It is called cough CPR. A cardiologist says it's the truth If everyone who gets this sends it to 10 people, You can bet that we'll save at least one life. It could save your life! Let's say it's 6:15 p.m. And you're driving home (alone of course), after an usually hard day on the job. You're really tired, upset and frustrated. Suddenly you start experiencing severe pain In your chest that starts

Facts About Teh Un
1. UN peacekeepers have been accused of child rape, sexual abuse or soliciting prostitutes during various peacekeeping missions, starting in 2003, in Congo, Haiti,] Liberia,Sudan, Burundi and Ivory Coast. 2. Oil For Food scandal (look it up) 3. UN "diplomats" are tax free, and guess who is paying for their parking tix, luxuries, rent, etc when they live in NY? Yup, we are.

Fetish Quiz, Cut And Dry.
**Alright, Astra ... I used your criteria, and this is what I came up with. Guess I'm a specialist. :P You Scored as Bdsm Hurray! you god bdsm you like kink and love, and you wanna show it with either leather, whips or other things. congratulations Bdsm 93% Anal 84% Tb/dl 73% Boobies/nipples 71% Beastiality 71% Gay/Lesbian 43% foot fetish

Things I Don't Understand
There are two things in this world I don't understand. That is to say that no matter what happens, I don't think I'll ever grasp the foundational aspects of these things. 1. Black holes. Let's face it, a paradox in which gravity is so powerful that it negates the ability of a massless object (such as light photons) to escape in space blows my mind. Quantum singularities disturb me. 2. Women. I find women to be totally confusing. I don't think I will ever be able to grasp what makes them work. The scary part about this is I have been directly exposed to women and I can't figure them out. At least with black holes I have an excuse, there isn't one around in the closest few, say thousands of light years. I think I'd understand a black hole if I could be there. Perhaps there really is only one great mystery in life.

Dj Bass @ Gods Forsaken Radio
DJ Bass's influences are porn, bass playing, large bowel movements, and the smell of cedar chips. His favorite bands are Strapping Young Lad, Primus, Iron Maiden, Clutch, and Gut. The reason he likes being a DJ is because he gets to spin music that he is passionate about, and to bring different bands to the ears of fellow metal heads. So what are you waiting for come and rock out with DJ Bass @ Gods Forsaken Radio !!!!!!!

That's How The Fight Started
When I got home last night, my wife demanded that I take her someplace expensive. So I took her to a gas station. And then the fight started. ********************************************************* I tried to talk my wife into buying a case of Miller Light for $14.95. Instead, she bought a jar of night cream for $7.95. I told her I thought the beer would make her look better than the night cream. And that's when the fight started. ********************************************************* After retiring, I went to the Social Security office to apply. The woman behind the counter asked me for my driver's license to verify my age. I looked in my pockets and realized I had left my wallet at home. I told the woman I would have to go home and come back later. The woman said, "Unbutton your shirt." So I opened my shirt, revealing my curly silver chest hair. She said, "That silver hair on your chest is proof enough for me," and she processed my Social Security

If Tears Could Build Stairways
If Tears could Build Stairways If Tears could build a stairway. and memories a lane. I would walk right up to heaven and birng you back again. No farewell words wore spoken. No time to say "Goodbye". You were gone before I knew it. and only God knows why. My heart still aches with sadness. and secret tears still flow. What it meant to love you- No one can ever know. But now I know you want me to mourn for you no more: To remember all the happy times. life still has much in store. Since you'll never be forgotten, I pledge to you today. A hollowed placed within my heart is where you'll always stay:

Relationships
use me. use me. not for my intended purpose but for what you wish to. for what you may be missing in your life. just for shits and giggles. just because you can. just because that’s what you do well. just because it makes you feel better about who you are as a man/woman...thing. take what you can and leave the rest for one that is just like you . i’m sure that they will appreciate the thought. a kind gesture that you bestowed upon them, that you lacked to show me. it’s ok though. because i asked you to do so. i am an open book for you to read,diagnose , run your hands through , and burn as you see fit. after all. that is my intended purpose to you isn’t it? i would be an ass to assume so therefore i am simply going to allow you to do so untill you use me up. would you like anything else? the shirt off my back? my ear for listening ? my mouth for touching,kissing? to talk back to you? my back? just in case you need

Relationships
fellas, some of you have officially been chopped and screwed out a good lay. why???.... ok. one of my best girls just spilled the beans on all ya'll trifelin' ass women ( only applies to the ones that do it) who claim to have a headache when their men wants a lil fun in the sack. fact is, one of the things that can be considered good for a headache is sex. sex,sex and more sex. ane me, being an anylitical whore , is once again forced to pry open this clam and schuck it for all it's worth. till the clam looks like it need a damn replacement, till it looks at you with sad eyes and no hope to live in it's heart. puns intended. now i've never had that used as an excuse so i really can't talk from experience. but if you really love your man and are a stand-up woman, then why the hell is it that you feel the need to lye about your status in order to keep the "monster " at bay. let the man release the hounds on that ass then call him in the morning. instead of " i got a headache" it reall

Hey There!
Hey guys! just wanted to let everyone know that I am doing pretty good finally standing my ground....Met some pretty great people in the past week! :) as for me and the ass we have just decided friends would be best right now and I totally agree ...we get along better that way..lol...im on bedrest for 2 weeks which sux but its ok i guess everyone is keeping me entertained..lol...just wanted to update everyone! love yall! steph

Sbg Of The Week Txdutchess!!!
Let Me Introduce You To Sarge's Bad Girl Of The Week For The Week Of 1-19-09 TxDutchess Be Sure To Stop By Her Page & Show Her Some ♥ ..She Will Be Sure To Return All ♥ To Learn More About Her Be Sure To Check Out Her Questionaire http://fubar.com/blog/242573 This Pimpout Brought You To By : The Sarge

Nicht Ganz So Sinnlose Scheiße
Mind your thoughts, because they become words, mind your words, because they become actions, mind your actions, because they become habits, mind your habits, because they become your character, mind your character, because it becomes your destiny.

Gotta Be Somebody For Me.....
Hinder – Without You I just wanna be alone tonight I just wanna take a little breather Cause lately all we do is fight And every time it cuts me deeper Cause something’s changed You’ve been acting so strange And its taking its toll on me Its safe to say that I’m ready to let you leave Without you, I live it up a little more everyday Without you, I’m seein myself so differently I didn’t wanna believe it then But it all worked out in the end When I watched you walk away Well I never thought id say I’m fine Without you Called you up cause’ it’s been long enough And you said that you were so much better We have done a lot of growing up We were never meant to be together Cause something changed, you were acting so strange And it’s taken its toll on me It’s safe to say that I’m ready to let you leave Without you, I live it up a little more everyday Without you, I’m seein myself so differently I didn’t wanna believe it then But it all worked out in the end When I w

Moderate Cervical Dysplasia
I had a pap test come back bad in May of last year, went an got a colpo done in August which came back to be moderate cervical dysplaisa but it really messed me up the doctor that I was seeing at that time said I had two choices one was to get a cone biopsy or a full hysterectomy,thing is I had gotten a bacterial infection from the colpo which caused me to get a yeast infection that lasted for 3 months, talking about hurting I was in alot of pain, could not walk nor sit for any amount of time before having to stand so thought to myself I would go to a second GYN and get a second opinion she said that the doctor I had been seeing was way to agressive that we could get rid of this by doing the leep, thing was she had me set up to get this done on September 25TH but I had went into her office over the yeast infection and well needless to say I had started my period on the 23RD of that month, they had called me for a reminder I tried to explain that I was unable to make it but the lady cut

She Had A Birthday!!!
My heart was broken July 2008. I was sitting alone with my Mom in her hospital room. The doctor gave us the bed news. They can not repair her heart valve. They gave her two years to live. A few tears slipped out of my eye and my Mom was stern with me. She told me not to cry that she needed me to be strong. I have my moments where I slip away to shed a few tears. We made a decision to live each day to the fullest. My Mom is my best friend. She's great!!! Yesterday we had a family birthday party for her. I love it when she glows. Her face had color and she was having a great day. Her great grandchildren and grandchildren showed up. It was a wonderful day. You could her laughter fill the house. Just wanted to share a happy thought. Happy Birthday Mom!!! Number 72!!! Wooo hooo!!! Thank God for giving her such a great day. Kiss the ones you love, you never know when might be the last time. Don't be afraid to tell friends and family that you love them!!! :)

Dreams
In the mist of the night My dreams come aflight Working in magic as they tell me a story, of beauty an light... Waking with skeptism an curiousity Wondering if this is really ment for me... Sorting thru the ashes, trying to see what could possibly there for me.. Digging deeper an deeper, I find a light that shines just for me... Pulling it close an holding it tight, I open a door hoping for nothing but pure delight... I follow the light that was given to me, holding it close in all my dreams... It brings me smiles an laughter, as my heart is filled love an an ever after... My soul sent soaring, with the wildest of dreams... For Beauty has finially found me... In the mist of the night, I awake to my dreams, Only this time the story they tell wasn't made for just me... Someone is trying to pull me away from the beautiful of light brought to me... I awake cold from sweat, chills in the air as my body shivers from the dream that awok

"do I Really?"
Do I really? Do I really have a measure, do I really have the will? To silence all the dreams of doubt, to resurrect the still? And wrestle all the darkest thoughts we have here to the floor Do I really have the backbone, to give you something more? Do I really have the knife to cut, in deep right to your heart? That special road map leading home, that compass or that chart? Here inside my garment bag, I fumble for the tools The implements that will help me break those ever present rules Do I really have a standing, a place of reverence? One that lingers over all miles, and dissipates distance? A meaning that most would surely miss, or declare it out of time How strained and worn can you really get? When I am feeling fine Can I really find that meeting place, predestined from the start? Where the soul awaits the starter’s gun, and the runners are the heart The finish line is scuffed and worn, by defeats from our past Now it matters not who crosses first, or stag

It's Been Awhile
its been ahwile since ive updated ya'll on my life..well as you all may know im an army wife of a deployed solder in afganistan,suckyes..very. Honestly if it hadnt been for alot of you on here it woud have been harder than nessacary for us when our/my daughter Lizzie~[~AnglEyes passed away in Sept,o8.. On to a long year for the family as you would presume.. honestly it got much worse i was also left out of her obituary ...i have resent to have it redone..not because im mad because i forgave as soon as it happened,(some ppl know not what they do to others) But because they might as well of left her out ..if you all follow me.. i know just another blog on someones life .. honestly i dont care what you think other than my true freinds will always be there for me ..THats why their my family.. i have honestly been pushed to mylimit this year.. An yet i always find the strength ..im always here for my freinds on Fubar an probally always willbe... ***alot of you are brothers an sist

Thank You Everyone!!!
WOW!!!! WHAT A SHOW OF SUPPORT I GOT TONITE!!! THIS IS WHAT FUBAR IS ALL ABOUT, HELPING EACH OTHER AND HAVING FUN. THERE ARE SO MANY PEOPLE TO THANK, I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHERE TO BEGIN!! SO, I WILL DO IT IN ORDER THAT MY POOR MEMORY ALLOWS, LOL. FIRST OF ALL, THANK YOU TO THE LLAMA LEVELERS AND TO THE RATING REVOLUTION. WOW, YOU ALL REALLY ROCKED MY PAGE TONITE. TEMPTING ENCHANTRESS, ROSE, NO ONE COULD ASK FOR A KINDER OR SWEETER FRIEND. YOU SENT SO MANY OF YOUR FRIENDS TO HELP ME. YOUR KINDNESS TO ME LEAVE ME IN AWE. MY PEGASUS PROJECT FAMILY. YOU SHOWED UP TO HELP ME AND ARE ALWAYS THERE WHEN I NEED YOU. I AM BLESSED TO BELONG TO SUCH A WONDERFUL SISTERHOOD. MY FRIENDS AND MY FAMILY...WHAT CAN I SAY??!! I HAVE THE BEST ON FUBAR. THERE HAS NEVER BEEN A TIME THAT I HAVEN'T ASKED FOR HELP AND YOU NOT BE THERE. FUBAR IS AN ONLINE SITE AND HERE JUST FOR FUN, BUT MY FRIENDSHIPS ARE VERY REAL. I AM GRATEFUL TO EACH AND EVERYONE OF YOU AND WORDS CAN NEVER EXPRESS WHAT YOU A

Please Take A Moment
This isn't one of those times where I'm going to ask you to kick fu-bux to someone for spotlight or help level someone. Just asking for one quick rate. And if she isn't on your list yet, wow are you missing out. So click the pic below and F/A/R her. When it comes to good friends she's at the top of the list. She does a lot for others and now it's time to do a little for her. If she's already on your friends list please just take a moment to check and see if you're able to re-rate her. If so please do. And if you want to do more and feel like rating some of her pics or stuff like that go for it. But please at the least rate her page or re-rate her. Ms. Mona Doll ღ Dangerous Curves Member ღ@ fubar

Confused
When I lost my Daddy and Stepmom to a plane crash on June 17th 2006, I learned that I should say what I feel because I might never have the chance again. I've tried to stick with that, but it's just gotten me more heartbreak. I don't know what I should do. Go thru life regretting that I never said how I feel or wishing I could take back what I said because I fucked things up?

What Dr. King Was Fighting Against.......
read down to up as its straight from the shout box........ ->~*SeaMaiden*~: actually I am well educated, and you need to take your personal feelings out of the issue and look at whats right ~*SeaMaiden*~: you would never understand it. you don't know how it feels and im not about to sit up here and continue to try to explain it to you. all i can say is-educate yourself and be more open and empathetic. you're 31 yrs old and you speak with ignorance ->~*SeaMaiden*~: NO word, is above race.......... and what IS ignorant is to think a word can be used by one race and not another, personally i dont like the word at all, I dont think blacks or whites should be saying it at all........ and it IS racist to say blacks can say it and whites cant, and it makes no difference what the meaning is because its the intent with which its said that counts, not the word itself ~*SeaMaiden*~: the "n" word? its really sad that in 2009, some white ppl don't realize how offensive that is and when it's

Venting!
Can not stand my head, nor my heart to be played with, like it is some board game that can be pulled out whenever it seems necessary. I am a human being that has feelings and emotions just like everyone else in this world. If you prick me, don't I bleed. If you hit me, I may get pissed off but, don't I cry. Then why, oh why must this be deemed okay. People wonder why others have trust issues, just look around there are plenty of eye openers. Wake up this is not High School anymore, this is the REAL world and in the REAL world it involves a lot of growing up, which some have not. Is it sooo hard to find a decent person? What is it that I am doing sooo wrong that god must torture me so. Haven't I been through enough!

Lost
Waking up without the feeling of purpose. Without the feeling of just being.. like a dream you just can't wake up from.. then you wake.... you realize you did in fact lose everything. you wonder about your friends, your family.. where do you run to? do you run at all? you question yourself about everything you once knew... about who you were.... did it all matter? did anyone care? being lost in yourself is like being lost forever.. then you realize.... you were never found...

What Dreams Are Made Of
WHAT DREAMS ARE MADE OF ( FOR JOSH ) IT WAS EARLY EVENING AS I SAT THERE,, WAITING FOR YOU TO COME HOME MY MIND DRIFTED AWAY FOR A MOMENT...... WE WERE AT THE BEACH, LATE AT NIGHT THE COOL BREEZE TASTING OUR SKIN YOU WARM HAND WAS CARESSING MY BACK I COULDN'T STOP STARING AT YOU , YOUR EYES JUST KEPT DRAWING ME IN IN THE MOMENTS OF SILENCE, OUR EYES & TOUCH WOULD SPEAK MORE THAN WORDS COULD EVER EXPRESS WE COULD HEAR THE WATER, IN IT'S PEACEFUL TRANQUILITY SPLASHING AS THE WAVES ROLLED IN AND BACK OUT.... YOU HELD MY FACE SO TENDERLY AND GAVE ME A SOFT KISS I CLOSED MY EYES AND THOUGHT TO MYSELF ABOUT THE LOVE & PASSION I FEEL FOR YOU,EVERY TIME YOU TOUCH ME AS YOUR HAND SLOWLY SLID DOWN MY BACK, YOU GRASPED MY BUTT I LET OUT A WANTING MOAN AND KISSED YOU DEEPLY WE WERE TOUCHING , SQUEEZING, NEEDING EACH OTHERS LOVE OUR PASSION WAS OVERFLOWING WHILE WE KISSED AND FELT ONE ANOTHERS BODY YOU LAID THE WARM FUZZY BLANKET ON THE BEACH FOR US TO LAY ON

Reaction To His Meds
Last night we had to rush off to the emergency room at the hospital because my husband's blood pressure shot sky high. I have a BP cuff here at home and took his blood pressure and it was 165/107 which is entirely too high. The perfect range is 120/80. When we got to ER he had his BP taken again and it was 160/98. While waiting to be taken into a room he was sitting in the lobby and he started to get rather pale and clammy. I asked him how he was feeling and he said that he was feeling as if he was going to pass out. He was rushed right in and was stripped of coat and his shirt. His shirt was soaked with sweat. They hooked him up to a EKG right away and slipped a BP cuff on him and inserted an IV into him right away. To make a long story short, he had taken his blood pressure medication just an hour before. This medication which is to hold his blood pressure down did the opposite of what it is supposed to do. He eventually was released when his BP was norma

Enslave Me... ♥
™Lil™Spicey™Southern™Belle™ has joined the House of Cards Auction! Click the pic below and place your bid RIGHT NOW! A special THANK YOU to Poker Princess for hosting this auction! @ fubar A BatM Creation Beauty & the Mess@ fubar (repost of original by 'Beauty & the Mess' on '2009-01-20 10:33:13') (repost of original by '™Lil™Spicey™Southern™Belle™ ღDaNgErOuSஐCuRvEsღ' on '2009-01-20 10:34:06') (repost of original by '*~*Something to talk About*~*' on '2009-01-20 10:44:32')

Witout A Title
where have u been all my life many centuries has past and me without a wife. many years has came with every night i dream nightmares that someday i will wipe away your tears i sit and plunder of what thus tis be that does this to me. i hear many things with my soul but fear much more within my own heart so thus tis be true or lie i may not kno till the face show i not deny

Just A Thought
I have come to realize that the division of enlightenment and insanity is but a weathered picket fence, composed of mistakes and wisdom. As my weary legs carry me atop this rotting boundry, I ponder to which side I soon will fall.

Vision Quest
In a still place deep into the night I thought I would go on a vision quest like I heard about in Native American teachings. To discover my animal totom (whatever it is called) which becomes like a spirit guide within. I was expecting something like an eagle or a wolf in my meditations it was a Amazon bull frog. I could vision the large eyes looking at me in the night. It communicated wordlessly " I dwell in the three environments - in the water and in the air on the shores, and in the mud and earth, and among the plants along these banks. I am very sensitive to the environments in which I dwell and they have become poluted by man, you must tell your two-legged ones that Mother Earth is sad about human behavior and the polutions they have caused". I knew I could do nothing because who would listen to me and my story of this crazy vision. Nonetheless I set forth on a mission and made postings at a number to websites calling for a Global Rain Dance in order to baptise the ear

L33t Sp3ak
This form of jargon is not what it use to be. It is so sad to see people using it every other word. as if they are cool or creative in some way. When most people do not understand how it came about. Most people think its just a gamers thing, but in reality it goes beyond gamers. Infact it was created in the infancy of the internet by computer geeks. Leet speak was created by computer geeks, back when you payed by the minute for internet connectivity and dialup was the only option over a 14.4k modem. We are talking before web browsers and webpages were even a reality. We are stepping back so far that most people have no idea what the first message boards looked like, or how you got to them. Quick history lesson, message boards are similar to fourms but it was 100% text and just responces to peoples messages. Think of it like a bulletin board, which is what they were called way back then. Put a sticky note up on the board, someone then adds their note to the bottom of yours and so

What I'm All About
Being alive and awake, dreaming with my eyes open, never taking anything for granted. Honestly fame is not my game I'm a kid at heart, I love to color, jump in puddles, and make snow angels. If I'm chipping off my nail polish that means I'm nervous/bored.... it's almost always chipped off. I actually can't stand the smell of nail polish remover. I painted them yesterday (a pretty blue color and two nails still have it on there. I am an animal lover and can't stand to see anything die,hense the day we were heading to work and someone ran over bambi..we turned around got the gun and put her out of pain. Boy did I have a hissy,I really don't eat allot of red meat but I am not a vegetarian, just a hypocrite. I wear my heart on my sleeve, always have and always will. I trust everyone until they give me a reason not to. If I don't like you, you will know, I'll be nice and polite, but trust me you will know. I have the best friend in the entire world, he's grounded me and kept me sane and s

Fire Fly
Fire Fly Spots to gaze, Beyond this place. Flickers of light Quickening face Be still and wait They're all around In a jar by your bed The light that you've found Close your eyes The time for resting is soon Unweave your mind Gaze up to the moon Fly free Firefly Further and further away Fly Firefly To catch another day

Words From The Heart
I thought of u once, thought of u twice. but still there is no u in my life. I tried to deleted u out of my mind, what we all know true love is blind. I feel like R.Kelly, I can't eat, can't sleep. when thinking about what just happen all i can do is weep. I guest I'm just kidding myself saying he'll be back, he loves to much to just throw it all away like that. but u know what your right, real love is overrated. and if enough females tell u this, I'm sure your mind will be changed. but i guess my love wasn't enough for u, cuz i see a old friend is now becoming a new. So i am crying on the outside, dieing on the inside. but shyt why should u care, u told me good-bye

My New Guitar
After a backorder and a cancellation and a reorder from another site (and paying $50 more for a different paint job), my new guitar (an Ibanez Artcore AS73) came in today. It's a bit heavier than I thought it would be (apparently maple is a very heavy wood), but aside from that I love it. It plays beautifully and sounds exactly like I was hoping. :D Here's a clip of how it sounds. http://johnhmaloney.com/as73test2.mp3

Holly Sh*t!!!!
So just an update about school!! Its going good other then the childish drama that some people have to start around school. Things for me are looking up. I finished 10 lessons in my first two weeks of school. My teacher said that I had two that where in the low 50% mark and a few that I missed some questions. I went though most of them during the weekend got them all handed back in by yesterday so she could mark them. I am now studying for my half way test that I have to do tomorrow. I got all my marks back for each lesson. Below are my marks as of right now: Lesson 1 71% Lesson 2 74% Lesson 3 was 56% now 71% Lesson 4 80% Lesson 5 86% Lesson 7 89% Lesson 8 100% Yes its right I had my teacher check twice Lesson 9 80% Lesson 10 was 50% now 79% The good thing about my school is if you get a mark that your not happy with they let you go fix questions to get a higher mark. As of right now I am hitting the A mark for my math. i am very glad that I know if I app

Things To Know About Me
First thing you should know is that I am very opinionated. I am not afraid of speaking my mind regardless of how you might feel about it. That said I will not get into the Republican vs Democrat debate. I lean Republican but I vote my conscience. No, I did not vote for Obama and no I did not vote for McCain. Both are as bad as Bush. I voted proudly for Ron Paul for the following reasons: 1. I believe in the Constitution and the Bill of Rights and as such am strongly against the recent legislation passed during the Bush administration and the legislation that Obama promises to push through. 2. I believe that we, as Americans, have a right to privacy and do not feel the government has a right to intrude on that privacy for any reason without probable cause. 3. I firmly believe that we need to go back to a gold standard for our currency instead of remaining on the debt standard that is wholly controlled by the Federal Reserve which is a privately owned bank and not run by the U.S. gov

It's Weird
So I started thinking about class reunions. Which I guess is a bit odd since I'm a few months late on that since technically my 10 year reunion was last year. Part of what got me thinking about it is the fact that recently family members seem to be taking a bigger part on sites like Facebook and such. My oldest brother being one of them and today he was talking about how he's reconnected with a lot of friends from high school and even people that know of him because they knew one of our other brothers (I have 3 brothers all total). Now it also gets weird cause now that we're all graduated myself and my oldest brother share reunion years. The only difference is he's 10 years ahead. So last year was his 20 year and my 10 year. And I thought about how really reunions for the most part suck for me. The reason why is the school I graduated from...I hold no ties to it. I went there for basically one year of half days. I was one kid in a school of over 2000. My senior class alo

Work Sux
It's days like these that make me wanna give that notice of resignation. I hate staying over and not being asked just being expected to. I don't give a shit about my title or my rate of pay anymore....I just wanna get out of that dungeon ontime for once. :(

Denise Is 29 Today!
THE PRINCESS NEEDS BIRTHDAY SPANKINGS!!! Auto 11s will be activated Tues night @ midnight EST! There will be several folders marked "Rate for Bucks!" Rate one... or Rate them all! A Bonus will be given to those who Rate ALL 2500 pics! She is my best friend on fubar, so be sure to give her a good spanking. If you give her actual 11's, I am offering 25k extra in addition to what she is offering. Msg me if you wish to partake in this bonus offer. Be sure to send her Msg telling what you rated when you're done! And let her know if you want the Bucks... or Return Rates! If you don't send a Msg, it will be considered a Birthday Gift! Love her Lots! cAUSE iM tHE fCKiNG pRiNCESS..dUHH~owned by Godfather™ & Fireforeman@ fubar

Spank Her Hard It's Her Birthday!
She's a great lady and a wonderful friend! Give her a birthday spanking she won't forget!!! Love Ya Girl!!! cAUSE iM tHE fCKiNG pRiNCESS..dUHH~owned by Godfather™ & Fireforeman@ fubar

Peanut Butter Salmonella
Topics on this Page * Update on FDA's Investigation * What Products Have Been Recalled? * News Updates * List of Company Recalls * Company Action * State Reports * Information for Industry * Information for Consumers * Information About Salmonella * How Do I Report a Complaint? Update on FDA's Investigation January 19, 2009: The Food and Drug Administration (FDA) is conducting a very active and dynamic investigation into the source of the Salmonella Typhimurium outbreak. At this time, the FDA, the Centers for Disease Control and Prevention (CDC), and state partners have traced sources of Salmonella Typhimurium contamination to a plant owned by Peanut Corporation of America (PCA), which manufactures peanut butter and peanut paste—a concentrated product consisting of ground, roasted peanuts—that are both distributed to food manufacturers to be used as an ingredient in many commercially produced products including cakes, cookies,

Going To Tescos
I have 3 dogs & I was buying a large bag of Winalot in Tesco and was standing in the queue at the till. A woman behind me asked if I had a dog.On impulse, I told her that no, I was starting The Winalot Diet again, although I probably shouldn't because I'd ended up in the hospital last time, but that I'd lost 50 pounds before I awakened in an intensive care ward with tubes coming out of most of my orifices and IVs in both arms. I told her that it was essentially a perfect diet and the way that it works is to load your trouser pockets with Winalot nuggets and simply eat one or two every time you feel hungry & that the food is nutritionally complete so I was going to try it again. I have to mention here that practically everyone in the queue was by now enthralled with my story, particularly a guy who was behind her. Horrified, she asked if I'd ended up in the hospital in that condition because I had been poisoned. I told her no, it was because I'd been sitting in

Written With My Friend..
A soft touch lightly A soft touch lightly Caressing my neck like a whisper Each thought a scent Each scent a vivid memory Memory of we as two Together in perfect unity as one Embrace both passive yet violent How can both taste so right Taste your sweat falling on my brow My tongue searches for the salt The salt of two bodies in violent storm To awaken the sense of abandonment The sense of urgency presses forward My body on yours Yet feel the inclusiveness of your soul The beauty and breadth of that soul A mind numbing assault on the darkest recesses of my inner turmoil’s I feel your wetness rolling down my leg As I yearn to keep every drop of you in my being Your red lipstick smears gashes across my nipples And leaves trails of my forever worship across your body I am forever painted with your love, scarred yet satisfied Tonia & poet

Hello
hello everyone my name is pelin i am from Turkey my friend told me about this site i sign up then here is a lovely site i think... i want find a friendship here,i want be friends... i feel so alone because...would you like to be my friend?

Beginning Chapter 1
The Secret Within CHAPTER ONE (rough draft) April 19th 2009 Milwaukee WI The wind is cold coming off Lake Michigan as the sun sets, which is a great relief for Devin. The suns rays are just bearable for him during the daylight hours of spring time in Wisconsin. Soon though, very soon he wont be tolerating the ultraviolet rays as the earths rotation puts itself on axis in direct path of the sun. But for now the earths atmosphere and a bottle of sunscreen protect is skin from burning. Devin is very amused by Hollywood's interpretation of the vampires and sunlight bursting them to flames. In a few weeks Devin and his father, Hannibal will make their way to the southern hemisphere, for Argentina to avoid being forced into nocturnal state. Devin remembers a hundred years ago doing just that during summer months. Science definitely assists vampires and humans alike. In the recent few decades Devin and Hannibal have put their hands in the blood donation market and own donation c

Piercing....
I need to go buy a tongue stud aka tongue ring :( I keep biting the temporary one I have :( Ooh and I'm thinking about getting a couple of more piercings... that would have to wait another month or so. It'll be cool. I'll ask my fu-friends if they have any suggestions?

People Must Change Before A Thing Can Change
I'm going to be making some blog posts about my specific thoughts on certain key issues. But before I do so, I thought a general statement of why I feel a certain way should be posted, to give a better idea as to how I arrive at my conclusions. As the subject says: People must change, before a thing can change. We are capable of some great ideas, innovations, and concepts as a people. We have the ability to make great progress and change to humanity. However, we also have the ability to turn those ideas into horrible things. Perfect example: The Manhattan Project. Harnessing the power of the atom. Great idea! Go us! Taking the world into the atomic age, and making great progress that would helps us scientifically and medically. But... what do we do first? Turn it into a big honkin bomb! YAY!!! Then Hydrogen! YAY for A-Bombs and H-Bombs! Oop... we made bigger guns, time for everyone else to! Lets start a project. MAD! Mutual Assured Destruction. You launch you

I Want To Know (repost)
I must have clicked something wrong...but several couldn't read this blog so I am trying to repost it. Let me know what you think. It doesn't interest me what you do for a living. I want to know what you ache for, and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart's longing. It doesn't interest me how old you are. I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool for love, for your dreams, for the adventure of being alive. It doesn't interest me what planets are squaring your moon. I want to know if you can stand up and always be my friend through the laughter and the tears. I want to know if you have touched the center of your own sorrow, if you have been opened by life's betrayals or have become shriveled and closed from fear of further pain! I want to know if you can sit with pain, mine or your own, without moving to hide it or fade it, or fix it. I want to know if you can be with joy, mine or your own, if you can dance with wildness and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips o

Chicken Tenders With Honey Mustard Sauce
Chicken Tenders with Honey Mustard Sauce Peanut or vegetable oil, for frying 2 pounds boneless, skinless chicken breasts 3 eggs 1 cup all purpose flour 2 cups panko bread crumbs 1 teaspoon garlic powder ½ teaspoon cayenne ½ teaspoon salt ½ teaspoon pepper Season salt, onion powder and pepper Pound chicken until flat. Season with season salt, onion powder, and pepper. Store in a Ziploc bag overnight. On the following day preheat oil to 350 Cut the chicken into long strips and set aside. Beat the 3 eggs in a separate bowl and measure the flour into another separate dish. Measure the panko into a pie plate or shallow bowl and season with garlic powder, cayenne, salt and pepper. Dip the chicken strips into the flour, the beaten egg, and then dredge them into the seasoned panko. Fry in the hot peanut oil 6 to 8 minutes, until golden brown, and remove to a paper towel lined sheet tray. Serve with honey mustard sauce Honey mustard ½ cup Dijon mustard ½

Salutes Plzzz
So i was wonder if someone will do salute for me i am looking for the most creative one . it can be nsfw , sfw hell i don't care as long as it has my name and your face in it .. please i will get you something special if you do top family and a vip... so post them to your page and link them in the comments.. this will be fun.. i will leave it open for a month .. and pass the word around

Reo Speedwagon. In My Dreams.
There is nothing in this world that can explain the feelings and emotions that overcome me when I listen to this song. Most of you who will read this have come to know and understand me. I appreciate the time that all of you have taken to get to know me. So here are the lyrics to a very special song to me: There was a time some time ago When every sunrise meant a sunny day, oh a sunny day But now when the morning light shines in It only disturbs the dreamland where I lay, oh where I lay I used to thank the lord when I'd wake For life and love and the golden sky above me But now I pray the stars will go on shinin', you see in my dreams you love me Daybreak is a joyful time Just listen to the songbird harmonies, oh the harmonies But I wish the dawn would never come I wish there was silence in the trees, oh the trees If only I could stay asleep, at least I could pretend you're thinkin' of me 'Cause nighttime is the one time I am happy, you see in my dreams We climb and cli

The Ending - Follow
I've had this song in my head for a few weeks... it's a new band out of Toronto that's a pet project of the guitarist from Platinum Blonde Need some help just to find my way A better life and a final say Got a rip in my pocket And a tear in my soul Never thought that I'd come undone Who'd have thought that you'd be the one The skies are so pretty I must say Sometimes I run for cover When I've lost my way, lost my way So don't follow me Life's not forever And I'm lost So I will follow you Follow you Can't rest till the day is done Pick up the pieces one by one Can't ask for forgiveness For something I haven't done The skies are so pretty I must say Sometimes I run for cover When I've lost my way, lost my way So don't follow me Life's not forever And I'm lost So I will follow you Follow you Follow you So don't follow me Life's not forever And I'm lost So I will follow you Follow you (so don't follow me) Follow you (so don't follow me)

Learning To Value My Beliefs....
Inspiration comes in many forms in this world.... this is the result of sitting and chewing the 'fat' with a few others on the Fu tonight. Both pieces have similar messages, the first written nearly 90 yrs ago and the second written only a few years since. It is interesting to see how some things are valued to a soul, no matter when they are considered..........both pieces mean a lot to me and have had some kind of impact on my own values and beliefs in life. Desiderata -- written by Max Ehrmann in the 1920s -- Go placidly amid the noise and the haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence. As far as possible, without surrender, be on good terms with all persons. Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others, even to the dull and the ignorant; they too have their story. Avoid loud and aggressive persons; they are vexatious to the spirit. If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain or bitter, for always there will be greate

If You Were Here...
Another sleepless night All alone But you are in my thoughts How I wish you were here I think of the things we could do The way you make me feel inside, touching every secret part of me, letting the passion inside escape Even if I can't have you here with me right now, I'll wish to hold you in my arms... First we would lay by the fire Look into the eyes of desire You would reach for my hand How this feels so right... If only you were here

God's Busy
GOD'S BUSY If you don't know GOD, don't make stupid remarks!!!!!!! A United States Marine was attending some college courses between assignments. He had completed missions in Iraq and Afghanistan . One of the courses had a professor who was an avowed atheist and a member of the ACLU. One day the professor shocked the class when he came in he looked to the ceiling and flatly stated, 'God, if you are real, then I want you to knock me off this platform. I'll give you exactly 15 minutes.' The lecture room fell silent. You could hear a pin drop. Ten minutes went by and the professor proclaimed, 'Here I am God. I'm still waiting.' It got down to the last couple of minutes when the Marine got out of his chair, went up to the professor, and cold-cocked him, knocking him off the platform. The professor was out cold. The Marine went back to his seat and sat there, silently. The other students were shocked, stunned, and sat there looking on in silence. The professor eventual

Benefit Auction
Benefit Auction We are holding a benefit auction to get Dani ~ DJ Lush on the spotlight!!! ~♥Ðani♥~♫DJ LUSH♫~ ~CO-OWNER @ DiRtY DeEdS RaDiO~ Fu-OwNeD by LITTLE PHUCKER~@ fubar HOW IT WORKS: 1) You offer up one thing to auction off (pic rates, bling pack, salute, etc.) 2) The auction will open for bidding in fubucks only. 3) Half of the winning bid will go to Dani's spotlight fund 4) Other half is yours to keep (or donate back to Dani if you choose) OPENS: Thursday, January 22nd Noon EST or 9:00 am Fubar Time CLOSES: Thursday, January 29nd Noon EST or 9:00 am Fubar Time To get your auction entry in, please contact the Auction Hostess: dj nilla~owner of ~DIRTYDEEDSRADIO.COM~ ☯ YdaFnot's Light ☯@ fubar

Today
THE WEATHER HAS CHANGED ITS AS THOUGH THE SUNN BURNED AWAY ............YESTERDAY IT WAS BEAUTIFUL SUNNY NOT A CLOUND IN THE SKY I WAS WEARING A T SHIRT IT WAS GREAT I HAD THE WONDOWS DOWN ON THE RIDE HOME ...I AWOKE TODAY WITH A GLOOM ALL ABOUT AND THE AIR WAS COLD THE SUN WAS GONE THE SKY WAS/IS BLCK WITH CLOUDS TOO .....THE WEATHER IS COMMING AND IT SEEMS TO BE HARD AND FAST ....I HEAR ITS GOING TO BE A LONG COLD WINTER AND USEUALLY BY NOW MY ASS HAS FLOWN SOUTH TILL BETTER SKYS APPEAR BUT NO WE HEAD OUT FOR SNOW COUNTRY SOON AND WHAT NEXT PATH LIES AHEAD WE STEP TOWARDS WITH STRENTH , COURAGE AND HONESTY MAY MY NIGHT BE EASY AND TRAVEL BE AS EASY AS LOOKING TO MY LEFT

9 Words Women Use
NINE WORDS WOMEN USE (1) Fine : This is the word women use to end an argument when they are right and you need to shut up. (2) Five Minutes: If she is getting dressed, this means a half an hour. Five minutes is only five minutes if you have just been given five more minutes to watch the game before helping around the house. (3) Nothing : This is the calm before the storm. This means something, and you should be on your toes. Arguments that begin with nothing usually end in fine. (4) Go Ahead: This is a dare, not permission. Don't Do It! (5) Loud Sigh: This is actually a word, but is a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men. A loud sigh means she thinks you are an idiot and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing with you about nothing. (Refer back to # 3 for the meaning of nothing.) (6) That's Okay: This is one of the most dangerous statements a women can make to a man. That's okay means she wants to think long and hard

Wash Away My Story
Within these walls I stand and stare at you I can't seem to speak my mind A fallen angel with no place to hide Seeking refuge in the night I thought I knew you Thought you understood The inner sanctum of my heart If you can't understand me I'll mistrust your love Good intentions Are not always enough Damned if I do Always damned if I don't Can you blame me Am I going crazy Today I'm regretting tomorrow obsessing Please save me I'm going crazy September rain Wash away my story I need to feel sunlight After the rain Stormy weather follows misery So I must spread my wings Take flight Constantly living On the edge lonely This fallen angel still has pride September rain Wash away my story A rainbow of sunlight Caressing my face

Just A Place To Hangout!
There is always that one special after hours place all the food/beverage people hangout. Swapping stories, complaining, and just relaxing after a long shift. I have created that place on FuBar. The Cooking For One 101 Lounge. A place you can drop in, tell a story, let off some steam, and head back to rating. Swap a recipe, ask or answer a question, just relax a minute. No music, no forever loading graphics. Give me feedback as I build my website which is connected to the lounge. Get away from the fantasy for a moment and meet some real people. The core group has been together at least 10 years. Look forward to meeting you!

Sadness
Well, I fond out today that my Son is leaving 4 days earlier than planned for Basic Training. I'm sad. I am so glad that I requested that week prior to him leaving as vacation. He wasn't supposed to leave until the 9th of Feb, but I guess he is going to be leaving the 5th and staying where they have been doing drills as some sort of pre training prior to departing for Fort Sill on Mon the 9th. He will be gone for up to 12 weeks. Time is going by so fast...

Forever
In my brightest hour Of my darkest day I realized what is wrong with me Can't get over you Can't get through to you It's been a helter skelter romance from the start Take these memories that are haunting me Of a paper man cut into shreads By his own pair of scissors He'll never forgive her He'll never forgive her Because days come and go But my feelings for you are forever Because days come and go But my feelings for you are forever Sitting by a fire on a lonely night Hanging over from another good time With another girl Little dirty girl You should listen to this story of a life You're my heroine In this moment I'm lonely Fulfilling my darkest dreams All these drugs all these women I'm never forgiven this broken heart of mine Because days come and go But my feelings for you are forever Because days come and go But my feelings for you are forever One last kiss Before i go Dry your tears It is time to let you go One last kiss Before I go Dry yo

I Made A Mistake...
Illusion blinded my eyes and I saw what I wanted to see. Perhaps, what I needed to see. Everything twinged with the sparkle of joy and the promises of tomorrow. And tomorrow...and tomorrow... What of tomorrow? Yesterday betrayed my tomorrow. It spoke of warmth and a brilliantly shining sun. Yet tomorrow found it was not so. It was cold and gray - arctic wind making it hard to even gaze out into the nothingness. It burst. That puff of smoke in which I dwelt and lived in that beautiful haze. When I fell to the ground, the jagged rocks were so familiar and indignant at my audacity to run from them. I felt my soul completed in a moment that touched the fullness of time. Yet... the light shined down on me ...and I was alone. As my heart began to crack, my arms coiled around my chest in infantile defiance. Futile and fruitlessly I tried to keep it safe - keep it from shattering. Underneath a blanket of sudden misery, I sought sanctuary. But there was

Experimenting With A New Life
touch. the dictionary gives so many different definitions of the word touch. Touch: 1. to put the hand or finger on or into contact with something as to feel it 2.to come into contact with and perceive something as the hand or like does 3.to bring the hand finger stc into contact with something 4.to treat of affect someway of contact 5.to come into or be in contact with 6.the act or state of touching;state or fact of being touched these are just a small number of many definitions of touch, but what else can touch mean. what does touch do, and what emotions can touch evoke. i think my favorite would have to be the act or state of touching state or fact of being touched. my idea of touch runs the gammit. like the touch of my son when he wraps his legs and arms around my leg. the emotion that evokes would be the emotion of being a mother. every time i feel his heartbeat against my skin i know that heartbeat at one point was my heartbeat. the little heartbeat that races whe

Foreign Bodies!!!!
This is from a blog I read about the work of an ambulance dispatcher in London. Thought i'd share. While you may think ambulance workers are mature professionals who have seen and heard everything, every now and then a call pops up on our screen that makes our eyes water. One such call appeared the other day. A four year old boy had somehow managed to get a Triple A battery wedged irretrievably in his foreskin. (Point of note: the FRED system automatically dispatched a fast response car, thinking the “Triple A” bit referred to an Abdominal Aortic Aneurysm. Not so clever, FRED…) This, of course, led to much confusion and speculation as to how the battery found itself in the offending region in the first place and the position it must be in for it to be so irrevocably wedged. No firm conclusions were reached. The conversation progressed to other foreign objects in genitalia we’d taken calls about in the past. Vibrators, household objects, chillies, razor blades… they’ve all been mi

The Guardian...
Can you see her there? She sits in the night sky Gazing down on us all Loving us, healing us She shimmers to life here Shadows flee before her Her icy blue stare banishes the darkness Mysterious as the dark side of the moon Floating to earth on lunar light She has come to me here I feel her cold warmth inside me She speaks to me in my head I hear her telling me not to fear the night She pledges to protect us all from the shadow Mother Moon will keep us safe till the sun She sits in silence, speaking volumes to us

Words: Smiles Break The Cycle...
My words are my tears I shed them like skin Blood flows into the fire Sweat stings my eyes Here we are again Back at one Hope you like what I have to say I'm gonna break the cycle today No more nights of self-loathing I've often thought about my end I remember friends, Irish smiles I love you all, thank you Your faith has kept me whole I maintain through the edge I hear a voice speak in the distance She tells me not to fear, Irish smiles "You are my light, I am coming home....."

World Coming Down: Inside The End
I can smell what you are, innocence I can hear what you will become, tainted Why does this have to come to pass now? It makes me sick to see you fallen down I saw you get behind me, to protect me? I felt your boot smash my spine, why? I've been crippled by those I loved I've been erased by the visions I saw What brought us back to this point here? I can't see anymore, down in this hole I'm sick of emotion, I cut the nerves No feeling now, numb inside and out I'm starting to see the end to my beginnings Thunder roars in my ears, deafening me I'm blinded by what I cannot see, you It twists me inside, I'm starting to like it "It's My World, You Will Fall Here"

Omfg
Ok I just had to post this now since it just happened. I had a elderly black man come into my hotel and ask for a suite for a month. Upon being informed that we do not have monthly rates but we do have weekly rates and the price he exclaimed to his son, "Obama hasn't changed a mother fucking thing. I told you we'd have to pay full price for a hotel room. No one will give us any breaks just cause a brother is the the president." His son responded, "Thats bullshit, we should get the room for $300 a month not $300 a week like the honkeys." So begins the gimme gimme phase of America. May the Lord save us all. As if we don't have a bad enough entitlement complex, it has just gotten worse. No I will not treat you differently because you are black and the president is part black. No I will not treat you differently if the president is white, brown, pink, purple, or glowing nuclear blue. I will treat you the same as I treat everyone else. Your skin color does not mean you get special tre

Pussy
SB convo his name was Scotty Hotty...yeah... Sc(.)tty_H...: so i tell you what....keep ur fuckin sarcasm Sc(.)tty_H...: precisely my point Sc(.)tty_H...: you see i can be sarcastic also...sounds dumb huh? Sc(.)tty_H...: only your ceiling? Sc(.)tty_H...: sky* Sc(.)tty_H...: the shy is not up either...among others? Sc(.)tty_H...: oic ->Rev: ;p ->Sc(.)tty_H...: the ceiling Sc(.)tty_H...: whats up sexy?

The Nature Of The Beast
Part of my nature is to try and be the person you can come to when you have a problem. There's not much else that makes me feel like I've done something than when I've helped someone. Over the years I've done lots of things that were an inconvenience to me, but helped someone else. It's important for me to be the person my friends come to for advice. Sometimes I've been hurt in the process, and I've had several people use me because they knew I would say yes to whatever they needed. I'm not complaining though, I open myself up to it when I tell people they can come to me. I have several friends who only speak to me when they are having problems. These people, like my ex, do hurt my feelings a little bit. I solve problems in their lives, and they move on, and I don't hear from them until there is another problem. I wouldn't change the way I do things though. Helping people helps me, in some way. Being there to listen while they vent about work, or their relationship, giving that hand

Time...plenty Of It Or Lack There Of?
Well, I lay here for a moment on my bed to type this. I know what I should be doing and hopefully my dad will be patient enough for me too. Yeah, we're doing the lunch thing again today, but I need to say a few words and get busy around here. Time...what an interesting thing. When I have too much time on my hands, I think. Sometimes it's more than I should...The what-ifs, the whys and all the other fun stuff that comes along with it. I struggle with it to be honest. And to make things worse, I deploy next month back to Iraq and well...think mode is in overdrive. It doesn't help when you get close to friends and closer with others. It makes you not want the good things to stop, but you know that it's going to HAVE to happen. It makes your head swim, your heart ache and drives your mind to places you don't want it to go. Why do you think that something like that could happen? Well, it's obviously written, but I guess for me is that it shows me that I cared more deeply than

Add Some Sexy To Your Friends List
If you don't have these four ladies on your list, you are really missing out! These ladies are all amazing! AND HAVE SALUTES!!!Please take a few minutes to check them out... You will surely want to add them if you don't already have them. Send them a drink, bling them, and of course, rate or re-rate them!*~La*La~* Hard2Handle & BnwB's FuWife @ fubarMsCharlotte2U~ No Rate~No Add~ @ fubar Auto's On...Qtazabutton @ fubarღ◊ÑΣ JÂÐΣÐ HΣÂЯŦღR/L Fiancé of TALღ @ fubar I hope everyone has an amazing day! Michele :) Hard 2 Handle ~La*La's FuWife~@ fubarPLEASE RE-POST

You Want To Know...
1)I have never met my birth father 2)I like to dance in the shower(and have fallen more than once) 3)I’m a sucker for designer handbags, and that’s about as far as I go with brand named shit 4)I have had 4 boyfriends 5)I lost my virginity and kissed my first boy in the same year. When I was 18. 6)I used to smoke a lot of pot 7)I one a hula-hooping contest when I was in third grade (45 minutes yo) 8)I have never owned a dog. 9)I killed over a hundred goldfish in fifth grade. 10)Reggie Miller (Pacers) asked me where the batteries were once. 11)I use to clean Larry Bird and Peyton Mannings houses. (Larry Birds daughter is a pig) 12)I have seen the Dave Matthews Band over 12 times. 13)I think I have only really been in love once. (chad) 14)My favorite color is orange. 15)I don’t get along with most girls. So feel special if I am nice to you. 16)I think everyone is a liar. (bad thing to think, but fuck it) 17)I like pictures, way too much. 18)I have 27 cousins on my dads si

This Ain't A Love Song....
Send "This Ain’t a Love Song" Ringtone to Cell Phone Send Ringtone I should have seen it coming when roses died Should have seen the end of summer in your eyes I should have listened when you said good night You really meant good bye Baby, aint it funny, how you never ever learn to fall Youre really on your knees, when you think youre standing tall But only fools are know-it-alls and I played that fool for you I cried and I cried There were nights that died for you baby I tried and I tried to deny that your love drove me crazy, baby If the love that I got for you is gone If the river I cried aint that long Then Im wrong, yeah Im wrong, this aint a love song Baby, I thought you and me would stand the test of time Like we got away with the perfect crime but We were just a legend in my mind I guess that I was blind Remember those nights dancing at the masquerade The clowns wore smiles that wouldnt fade You and I were the renegades, some things never chang

Beauty
Beauty is something that shines from within, As much as from without. Some people are beautiful on the outside, While on the inside they are disgustingly ugly. Others are beautiful inside, And beautiful outside. Their hair, their eyes, their legs, All perfect to admire with your eyes. Their soul, their heart, their mind, All gorgeous to desire with your heart. People like this are wonderful, As friends, or maybe more. You enjoy spending time with them. Others are jealous of their looks, While those that know them are jealous of their kindness and inner beauty. And you hold their hand and think, "How greatful am I to possess both?" by: Michael the Smokin' Gator

Valentines Auction Dont Miss Out
That's right I'm in an Auction!! So here's your chance Let's see if you have what it takes to own me! Unbreakable (repost of original by 'Unbreakable † Promoter @ Fallen Angels Always owned by T & Fu wife to Sweetpeabayba' on '2009-01-22 17:23:41')

Wow......
There was a blind girl who hated herself because she was blind. She hated everyone, except her loving boyfriend. He was always there for her. She told her boyfriend, 'If I could only see the world, I would marry you. One day, someone donated a pair of eyes to her. When the bandages came off, she was able to see everything, including her boyfriend. He asked her,'Now that you can see the world, will you marry me?' The girl looked at her boyfriend and saw that he was blind. The sight of his closed eyelids shocked her. She hadn't expected that. The thought of looking at them the rest of her life led her to refuse to marry him. Her boyfriend left her in tears and days later wrote a note to her saying: 'Take good care of your eyes, my dear, for before they were yours, they were mine. This is how the human brain often works when our status changes. Only a very few remember what life was like before, and who was always by their

Service
For a while now I have been confused when I heard these terms with reference to the word "service". Internal Revenue 'Service'' U.S. Postal 'Service' Telephone 'Service' Cable 'Service' Civil 'Service' Customer 'Service' State, City & County Public 'Service' This is not what I thought 'service' meant. But today, I overheard two farmers talking, and one of them said he had hired a bull to 'service' a few cows. BAM!!! It all came into focus. Now I understand what all those 'service' agencies are doing to us. I hope you are now as enlightened as I am

Update 1/22
Well, today we were told an answer to a the question we needed to hear "How long?" I suppose there is no good answer and no matter what they tell you it's a crapshoot and can be off by a year or two (longer) or sometimes a few months earlier. Our answer was "about a year". 365 fucking days! Of course they are going to do a bone scan because of lingering back pain. There is a great possibility the cancer has spread into the bones. WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! The brain, lungs and adrenal gland is not enough? A healthy man who walked 2 miles a day after breaking his hip less than a year ago. I dont understand. I dont know why I am giving strangers updates on my dad, I guess it's an outlet for me. Please bear with me.

Just A Click And A Rate---please Please Please
PLEASE RATE THIS PIC FOR ME ALSO PLEASE ADD/RATE/FAN THE HOSTESS AND TELL HER JC SENT YOU PebblesinAZ-Kisses to My Fu Valentine Shaun the Scotish Lad-"Member of Princess Leia's crew& ON ANOTHER NOTE HERE IS YOUR CHANCE TO OWN ME FOR A MONTH Please RATE this pic too... XOXO MUCH LOVE AND THANKS

I'm A Walking Suicide
I'm a walking suicide but you'd never know cause' I hide I got too much pride to show my depression I think about dying everyday but never say anything cause' people will stop me rob me from succeeding in my goal. I fold my letter up saying how sorry I am for being a disappointment to my family and you'll be better without me. You'd never think little baby girl would try something so bold didn't know that the mold you made her in turned it's grin and that hell really existed in her eyes and she cries for god to please just let me die and be free from the reality she's facing!! I'm a walking suicide

Why? (total Rant)
So, Im not one to really put my "feelings" out there but damn lately i've just been like really what the F**K does it matter? I mean why do i bother with this over populated popularity contest? I know I can't compete with the "FuSupermodels" and if im honest I dont want to. But at the same time I see them and i'm so like who the F**K are you kidding? That is not you and if it is? Why the F are you on Fu and not on "MarryAmIllionare.com"? I'm sick of the fake, photoshoped bitch whores on this site. And you know what else? I'm sick of the "Buy me a bling, ticker, HH, Blast" Bitches too. Sorry if your one of my friends and thats your game but really GO F**K yourself. If you need it that bad to rank and level try getting a F**Kin job and buy it for yourself and not begging all those that WORK to whore yourself!! Hmmm... And while i'm ranting I'm SICK of this one girl that profile is all about how she ONLY wants women to contact her but yet she doesn't respond to women and all her specia

I Drop To My Knees On The Inside
Sitting around listening to music... The thoughts of you run through my mind... The few strands of hair that fall, as you smile... I Drop To My Knees On The Inside. Driving 20 miles out of my way just to see you... That sparkle in your eye as our eyes meet. As your cheeks turn red when I say hello...I Drop To My Knees On The Inside. Wanting to show you so much love and affection. To scared to tell you, as I ask you to take a break... The shyness from both is to much to bare... I Drop To my knees on the inside. Gentles of a hug as we away... Stopping just after a few steps, hoping for that bye kiss... Realizing it's not going to happen... I DROP TO MY KNEES ON THE INSIDE

Munchausen Disorder
Munchausen by Internet: Faking Death Online 81 rate or flag this page By becauseilive Written by: Jaclyn Popola With the advent of the Internet there came an insurgence of new and unlimited possibilities--you can connect with loved ones across the world in the blink of an eye, meet new people, join communities. But there also came a whole new set of problems, too--internet predators stalking underage children, online scams bilking people out of their hard earned money, message boards dedicated to encouraging anorexia and so forth. Munchausen by Internet is one of these disorders. Regular Munchausen syndrome is a psychiatric disorder in which those affected feign disease, illness, or psychological trauma in order to draw attention or sympathy to themselves; Munchausen syndrome by proxy is a type of abuse in which a caregiver feigns or induces an illness in a person under their care, in order to attract attention, sympathy, or to fill other emotional needs. Munchausen by I

To Send Or Not?
Some want to lead, others want to hide Although it may seem simple, lifting where we stand is a principle of power. They stand close together and lift one where they stand is a divine command to succor the weak and lift up the hands which hangs down and strengthen the feeble knees. Relating to feelings and expression of words, are about the power to lift our lives. You are seeking; We find a world today looking for answers to questions, What do we seek? in so many different things. When we seek within ourselves we can find the light and the life of the world. We also need quiet time and prayerful pondering as we seek to develop information into knowledge and mature knowledge into wisdom. Our priorities determine what we seek in life. Random thought.......*sigh*

Sometimes.................
It is all too easy when a friend or someone you care for deeply is troubled by something, to give advice and sometimes that advice may be needed but other times that advice can also cloud or even confuse the matter in hand, even more so when it concerns the affairs of the heart!! My feeling is that no matter what, it is best to let that person know that they have your full support and understanding and you will be with them every step of the way rather than giving advice, more so when you are also part of the situation, that way you do not look like you are influencing any decisions that are made………regardless. To you I say……I am here as a friend first and foremost as I always have been and shall always be, no matter what, every tiny step of the way!!

Small Minded
A friend of mine recently posted a blog. He called all those opposed to Obama small minded people. I posted a reply, not defending myself, but rather proving him a small minded person. I wonder about the dangerous territory American are treading onto now that Obama has been elected and become a nation's hero. I have been accused of being a racist for not supporting him. This is not true. For while the election of a black man to our highest office is a day in history, it does not mean racism is obsolete. On the contrary, racism is very much alive. It is not just the white man that carries racism, but he is the one who is crucified for harboring the hate. He cannot start a group or call himself proud to be a white. But the black men can start as many groups as they wish, and in their creeds cry for supremacy over the white. Hypocritical? It is. And always will be. Now we have a president, that no one will dare challenge for fear of being called a racist. The people of th

Uuuuggghh I Could Scream
today i got that infamous phone call from the shit hole that i work(ed) in....the layoff has become permanent .....idk anymore....fudged up automotive industry....anyone that had less than 10 years of seniority got shit canned unable to keep things in perspective right now...screw it all

More Poetry
I'm making a dissention from a former style. My mind is making such an evolution. No longer is there a secularism of my style. Though my mind may be extensively filled with malicious intention. I have no inclination to be as dishearteningly foul. There is now a reason for my heart to feel a slight dislodging. From a place where it hid from my malevolent soul. Even though I have not the need for isolation of thy heart and mind. No longer am I feeling a sense of denegation. That I tended to discover with this other "kind". By that I mean those of a different estimation. Perhaps it's been too long since I've been fortuitous. This feeling of malcontent for love is slowly fading. Is this truely how I feel or am I being fictitious. Though it's all being left unannounced this needs ending. Although not stated my feelings are unannihilable. This conclusion though not inextenso still will remain ineffable. So fairwell for now our next decent into my thoughts, may be more pleasu

Things About Me No One Really Knows.
*Ive been in an air plane more times than I can count. *I am very passionate about alot of things. *I use a fake name at starbucks because it makes me laugh. *I hate driving. *I sing all the time, I was in choir and showchoir my whole school life. *I hate soggy bread. *I dont like putting my head under water. *I've ment a good share of famous people. *I really dont work out. *I love the smell of oister stew, but hate the taste. *I own more than 30 pairs of jeans. *I can sleep at any time of the day. *I've rode on the spaceshot ontop of the stratosphere in Vegas. *I'm a good artist & my art has been displayed in art shows for winning contests. *My dad is my biggest fan..The art I told ya about ^ now hangs in his office at work. *I sleep with a ton of pillows. *I floss twice a day. serious.. *I often tell soliciters i'm not home when they ask to talk to me. *I believe Arbies should be against the law. *I won the spelling b in 5th

What's New...
Okay, so I conducted my interview with Nate Arling from The Last Vegas. His band won the Guitar Center contest garnering them prize money and a management contract and a recording deal with Motley Crue's Eleven Seven label also joining MC on tour. In other good karma news (pun intended) I finally got word from the PR for the Wounded Warriors Project, an organization that helps wounded soldiers with rehabilitation, reentering society, job interviews and so much more. This is just an intro email, no green light yet but hopefully it will be the start of a long lasting relationship. I'm very excited for the opportunity. However, still struggling to get those numbers up for Rock The Troops, so if you luv me and want to help...spread the word! And if you haven't added it yet...what are you waiting for? :P Rock The Troops

Follow...
Shoot me and leave me to die alone Dig me a grave and stick me in the ground Cut me into pieces and throw em to the winds Slap my face and scream obsenities Beat me black and blue Break my bones Burn me alive just to hear me scream Run me down in the streets Take your vengance out on my face It's all away, with you gone today Cut my throat just to feel my heat Tie weights to my legs and drop me in the sea Lock me in a trunk and drive me over the edge Hang me by my neck till I stop kicking No matter how it ends I'll still follow you home...

Hunting...
Run...Hide... Are you afraid? You should be... The gloves are off now Your time is coming... The world you thought you knew is about to end You touched me Used me Raped me Left me to die Run little one... Judge me by the error of your ways Just give me one good reason One answer, and maybe I'll fade away I've got all the time in the world to wait I'm well rested and prepared to hunt you down I'll show you the truth behind my words Brand you with the definition of pain Run, Rabbit...Run!

Own Me ?? Anyone ?
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Porn And Wow
heres a intresting story for ya though. porn star mia rose got her account deleted on blizzard after a guy in trade chat spammed her site where she makes "wow" inspired porn. mia replied wtf blizz my mains a lock isnt that punishment enough after all the nerfs you gave us!

Nicole And Jen - Yes There's Backstory
Her plane landed in Orlando shortly after three in the afternoon. I was sitting in the waiting area outside the TSA secure zone, my smile broadened as my phone chirped, alerting me to a waiting text message, "I'm here!!!" it read. I stowed my iPod and ear buds and got to my feet, straightening my shirt for the hundredth time, and popping a fresh piece of gum into my mouth. I bounced gently on the balls of my feet and watched the end of the corridor where she would appear, and several minutes later I caught sight of her. Her eyes found me at the same moment and a smile lit her face, she waved merrily, and there was a childlike quality to it that I could not help but be touched by. I laughed, and began to close the distance between us in as dignified a manner as I could. When we met I swept her up into my arms and squeezed her tightly, lifting her from the floor and spinning in place. I buried my face in her long hair and unhaled deeply of her long absent but not forgotten scent. I

Waste Of Time
writtin this to get it off my cheat so here gos, idk why ppl add me on here and then they dont bother to even say ty for the add or hi!, i can add all kinds of pics and stash on here and never get rated!!am i just wastin my time on here? i dont think u can make friends on this site enless u think ur better then anyone on here. i only have 3 good friends on this whole site and from now on screw the addin pics , ratin ppl 11s and askin for bling, it a waste of time for me to ask. im only here for my friends read and move on good bye

The Tears Of A Clown
In everyone`s life there`s sadness, it comes from all around. but no other sadness is greater, than that of the tears of a clown. I wonder through life just searching, for that lady that just can`t be found. my days are filled with sadness, like that of the tears of a clown. again my heart has been broken, and stepped on as it hits the ground. and suddenly i feel the sadness of that of the tears of a clown. so next time you`re tempted into betraying, the love that`s always been around. remember me and soon you will see, how it feels to be that poor clown. jocko65 1-23-09

Obligatory Status Message Rant
I chalk a lot of the messages I get to having an orange name. That comes with the territory. The nature of the internet, and by virtue of which, the nature of being on a social networking site, assumes that most, if not all, of the users are literate in English -- that is, able to read and write in the English language. In addition to the stock messages you can set as your status ("Online," "Stuffing my face," etc.), members may set their own custom ones after attaining level 2. I use this feature a lot to let the membership know what I'm doing, if I'm available, and why I may not be responding immediately. Why, then, do I still get shoutbox messages demanding immediate response? Remember my blog from last August? "Passed Out" () is understood to mean "Asleep." Sometimes, instead of Passed Out, I use a custom message like "I'm asleep" or something that I understand to be a bit clearer. Unfortunately, this appears to some members as "I'm HERE! Send me all of your questions that

Lovin Our Owner!!!!!!
What a sexy Group of People!!! Check them out and show them some Love!!!! Say_Hey2008 say_hey2008__ Owned By Freyja Fu Goddess@ fubar Freyja FREYJA!@ fubar DawnMarie ~~~~DAWNMARIE~~~~Fu-Owned BY SAY_HEY~~BIG AL'S WOLF PK CUBBIES@ fubar BaMa ✿~BaMa~✿**** Fu Owned by Say Hey****@ fubar ScoobyDoo SCOOBY-DOO~OWNED BY ΤhΣ ßîg ΜîκΣ & Dan727...I LOVE MY OWNERS@ fubar Flirty Girty (¯`v´¯)F£ïЯT¥»GïЯT¥(¯`v´¯)®@ fubar This PimpOut is brought to you by: DarkKitty~Spankers Club~Fu-Owned by Say_Hey2008~@ fubar (repost of original by 'DarkKitty~Spankers Club~Fu-Owned by Say_Hey2008~' on '2009-01-23 17:51:15')

Miles Apart
I wish I could wipe your falling tears away, as you bravely smile through your pain... You see me suffer, then you break down and cry miles apart... In your dreams I softly kiss you, no one can see the pain, that we both feel inside miles apart... You whisper I love you and I whisper to the skies, I love you too When will this pain ever go away even though we are miles apart... To be by your side is a dream I can't deny But I will wish for it to come true. I miss you so badly my heart is breaking as we cry miles apart...

Trust
Trust is a very precious thing. When you trust someone, It means sharing part of your soul. For some, trust is not easily given; It takes time and comes in small pieces. Once given, trust is a powerful tool That creates binding ties. To have trust broken is an agonizing thing. It's as if someone Has smothered a piece of your soul. Your self-esteem suffers a blow It may never recover from. You find yourself in a pit of blackness, Full of despair and self-pity. Yet, somewhere in your mind There is a light. You will find strength to recover And, God willing, you will trust again.

To My Favorite Non-raters!!
Ok, I have two special types tonight that hmmm I feel are the laziest fucks i've yet to see on here among many that carry auto's....First up is this one whom I rated yesterday under two different accounts my one here and my trickdaddy acount....1085 on the other and 1253 here. That gave her 126,252 points which now she is a disciple. http://fubar.com/user/1520759 Tarnished Angel 1085 Her return to me was 3 credit bling and a profile rate returned. I appretiate that and told her but told her I would rather have some rates, but ty for the bling...no responce and no rates imagine that!! This next one is ... http://fubar.com/user/2337370 Derek&Candy 2384, profile rate and 1 credit bling returned only So, I guess these spoiled fucks feel to depretiate us by what??? Offering bling, i'm sure they realize the bling they give still gives back to them...imagine that!! The Auto's they receive are a gift from someone else origionally, even though I buy my own!! Why support the

The Answer
One of my best friends asked me recently if I still believe in love. Interesting…that word to mean wow…I normally won’t even say it unless I have too. Or will say it to a very few close friends which I do love and respect deeply. So many now a day are on rather a search for love or rather the idea. I quit searching I guess more so I just sit back and watch and try and just live. Reflection has to take place if you ever want to grow or change the series of events that has gotten you the place you are now. I watch and listen too so many. I only hope the best for everyone. But yet at times I wonder what makes people do the things they do. I have said before I am one of the last true hopeless romantics in the world. (I am sure there are many out there just not enough balls to say it). A revised fairy tale I have thought about that a lot lately. I wonder if maybe due to circumstance or because my belief in people or rather men is so far gone so slim that I had to change what it was I ne

Just Breathe
Breathe in, Breathe out. Move One foot and then the other, and eventually the sceanery will change. I tell myself, everyday, Across a thousand miles But internal sceanery remains the same. I am still walking through the shadow that you cast. Still see before me those eyes that caught me Held me. Like some Le Brea creature Sucked under. Slow drowning when I try to breathe in, breathe out. I tell myself when the banshee wail of a distant train echoes through the lonely night and memory comes calling so convincingly that everything is okay but without the rise and fall of your chest against my back, I suffocate,Unable to breathe in,breathe out. I tell myself to let the pain flow through, my only option, since nothing known to man can ease the pain. Like phantom limb syndrome, I still feel you Long after amputations scars have healed. Long after foot, in front of foot, in front of foot,has taken me away. Poem By Tammy C.

Death In The Family
So, my bird, whom I've had for years now finally kicked the bucket. Now dove's are pretty fragile and don't always last that long. He had a full dish of food, full water and was alive last night. I held him only two days ago. I'm sad, yes. I'm keeping my composure. Karma is irreplacable and I will always hold him close to my heart. I've decided to celebrate his life rather then mourn his death. He was well taken care of (90% of the time) yes at my mothers there were times I forgot to feed him but since hes been here between matt and I he was spoiled and out constantly. He got to go outside a few times, see the sun in the summer, feel it on his wings. He knew tricks and loved people. He was the gentlest bird I've ever had. Now not to sound like an asshole, I will be getting a new bird. NOT to replace him but because I've had a bird in my life as long as I could remeber. Oscar(my cockatiel) was in my life from age 5 until he passed when I was in college, I got Karma not long after, S

The 08' Summer Got No Better.... Sunday August 31st
Note: Originally posted on my myspace profile August of 2008 So the summer got no better after the cath Those who know me personally and know the details of my story, which isn't many by the way. Even my close friends don't know the whole story with me. Such is the life of a recluse. Anyway, those who do know the particulars of my relationship with Scott know the details of the later stages of his life and my relationship with him. I won't elaborate on his last years as it serves no usefull purpose to those who are not aware of it. If your my friend and you ask I would probably fill you in. The relationship wasn't stellar to put it mildly. But he was my brother and as such, his loss made an impact. For those who don't know already, Scott died of renal failure which led to heart failure and he also had a stroke. He was without oxygen for an indeterminate amount of time and even if that had not been a factor in his death, his life would have been without any quality b

I'm Up For Grabs!
So I'm in my second ever auction and I would love it very much if you could drop by. Even if it's not to make a bid, I also need the photo to be rated! So just stop by and drop a rate! All love will be returned. Thanks Everyone! TAKE ME THERE!

Writings
I could be your stalker, I wouldn’t touch you just watch…. You switch your light on I see your body and the clothes hanging loose from your slim shapely figure. I watch you stand infront of the mirror watching yourself playing with your long flowing hair, your fingers swirling around it. A pearl neckless hangs loose around your neck, I see it sitting there your neck so slim line and soft, both hands move around to the back and you unclasp it, slowly the neckless is laid across the table. You so good standing there so fuckable right now, watching your body move making me feel weak at the knees my heart pounding fast. I watch you move from side to side adirming your curvy body, wondering what the inner you was like. Long brown wavey hair hangs down your back so soft and silky, you move and start feeling your neck. You keep playing with your hair while your fingers softly stroke your neck, slowly you move my eyes following with you as you touch inch after inch. A flinching and g

Scorpio
A lot of times I question myself I see traits in me common to my astrological sign. every now and then I do research and I'm amazed at what I come up with.. Here's what I find today------------ ----------------------------------------------------------------------- Scorpio is the eighth astrological sign in the Zodiac, originating from the constellation of Scorpius. As the eighth sign in the zodiac, Scorpio is associated with the astrological house number 8, which is associated with natural Scorpio matters - birth, death, transformation, deeply committed relationships of all kinds, and the occult and psychic matters. Scorpio also has associations with three animal symbols: the scorpion, the snake, and the phoenix (or Eagle). Each sign represents different levels of power related to personal strength, individual power, and even intimidation based on cultural associations with these different animals. All three symbols indicate the fierce determination of the Scorpio symbol

My Ex Husband Had The Balls To Ask....
This will be long- so I married him when I was just 18, he started abusing me on our wedding night. Stupid me, no one else to blame but myself for staying. We had three kids. He abused me throughout our marriage- I finally got the courage up to leave him after 9 years. I filed for divorce, I had custody, he had visitation. He was ordered to pay $349 for three children. Fine- I was not trying to break him. One year after our divorce, I remarried. My new husband died shortly after we were married, and I went a little crazy. The kids went to stay with their dad and his gf in April 1999. I got myself together and went back to get them, he refused to give them back to me. I was able to get a court order to force him to return them to me in Dec 2000. From then on, they have lived with me full time, except for the two times I let them go visit him, both times he would not send them home, I had to take him back to court each time and have the judge threaten him with jail

Pms=parked Motorcycle Syndrome
PMS Let me start off by saying this article is rated PG-13. We will be talking about PMS. That’s right, a condition known as Parked Motorcycle Syndrome. I was sitting on the couch a few days before Christmas looking outside at the snow falling, when it hit me like a rock thrown from a passing car. You could see it coming, but just couldn’t swerve out of the way fast enough. I had ALL the symptoms! Nervousness, sweaty palms, irritability, pacing back and forth through the house, and the urge to pile up credit card bills from purchasing chrome on every motorcycle internet site I could click on. Ah, safety chrome, the visual beauty that makes our bikes our own, and raises an eyebrow to every oncoming motorist and onlooker lusting to have a bike of their own. I never realized what was causing me to act this way. I thought in the beginning that it was just my aging body. Then I remembered, as a young teen the symptoms started after the purchase of my first motorcycle. I would si

Added To Family...
I've had a few asking lately to be added to my family.... I don't just add anyone to my family because I have some pictures open to family only. Those on my Family list 3 I know in real life for years and years.. the others I added from here because they went out of there way to make me feel special. I won't just add someone cause they asked , begged or tried to make me feel quilty they added me to theirs. I will add you because I want too, when I am comfortable with you.

Bigmule's Birthday Train
BigMule's Birthday Train "Harley Rider" The Rules: 1. Stop by BigMule's page, rate the Harley Davidson Signs folder of pics... He will have an Auto 11s running as well... Start with this one... While you are there... Rate all the tags in the Birthday Train tag folder. Please leave him a comment that you have gotten your tag... 2. Rate, Fan, Add, and Comment each person on the Party List. If you are already friends with someone, check to make sure you have re-rated him/her and leave a comment... "Happy Birthday BigMule," "Harley Rider's train" or something like that... If your profile is marked private, then you need to visit each person's profile on this train and add each rider yourself, whether or not they are above or below you on the train... 3. Private message Carrie when you have completed rating each party guest. She will get a thank you tag made for you if one is not already made for you... And add you to the guest list...

First Kiss
First Kiss Lost in a binding hot shower of stars My world has contracted me to fit in your arms I will be enveloped in you and i cannot be saved As my heart will leap towards you, bound by its cage Every last nerve ending searing with fire As my conscience is slowly consumed by desire The thought of the taste of your lips and the scent of your skin Where love and the rest of my lfie will begin And as my last defenses collapse at your feet I surrender myself in becoming completely complete.

Im Being Auctioned
go to this site if you want to purchase me http://www.fubar.com/photo.php?u=1936481&albumid=1450135&i=2072760991&idx=21 . there are many things that you will recieve if you are the winning bidder. none of them are bad and all are good. so please bid on me, and bid high

You
If there hadn’t been you? A man filled with doubt Down and out and all alone A ship tossed and turned Lost and yearned for a home A survivor barely surviving Not sure of his next move All of this I wouldn’t be if there hadn’t been you Now a man filled with hope Who knows where he belongs A heart filled with love More than enough to keep it strong Back to life again No longer afraid to face the truth All of this I would have missed if there hadn’t been you Where would I have been If you hadn’t been there for me I made it thought time Time I would have never made it though if There hadn’t been you In my life On my side All my dreams would still be dreams If there hadn’t been you Er/2001

20 Something
Obviously I'm not 20 something anymore , no rockin body or even fake anything but what I do have is the wisdom (how ever much it is) that comes from age n bein an awesome single mom . I have alot more than alot of people so I'm ok with it . keep on keepin on

Sensational Feeling
Love is a sensation, Caused by temptation, When a man sticks his inspiration, Into a womens combination, To increase the population, Of the future generation, Do you dig my conversation Or would you like a demonstration.

Who Wants To Own Me ??
Ok so I am up for auction..Come love on me please..Even if you don't bid please rate the pic..whoever has the most rates wins a small bling pack..My birthday is February 22 so be good to me !! Huggles love my friends and family :-)

Life Is...
Life is a challenge, accept it. Life is a wish, want it. Life is a book, read it and observe it. Life is a fight, battle it. Life is a tear, face it. Life is a smile, enjoy it and embrace it. Life is a game, play it. Life is a journey, complete it. Life is a ruler, measure it. Life is a sunrise, begin it. Life is a sunset, hold it. Life is a treasure, save all you can.

Acting
Acting The scene set. The passion is flowing like wind stirring about your body. Portraying the part needed to gain whatever your heart and soul wants. Yet, when off screen is the actor or actress still performing to falseness? Tragedy echoes. Words are provoking the spirit to relate. Looks and touches. His or her alluring movement stirs like fire within our blood. When does his or her theatrical stop and the true reality begin for them and us? Tragic stories and tragic words flow about the entire room, yet nothing seem real; however, most of it is? How can we tell when they are being real with you? Should we place our heart and soul into one that plays a part like he or she is always upon a stage or movie set? Life is an endless drama that seems too never end about us or life. Feelings stir. Love blooms like words upon pages with no substances. Tears fall as love dies or becomes a nightmare dream of horror. Yet…. The acting is always flowing about life like an end

I Fuckin Give Up
I'M TIRED OF THE SHIT IN MY LIFE. I'M TIRED OF MY FAKE ASS FRIENDS. I WISH ALL THIS BULL SHIT WOULD END. SO I SIT HERE WITH A GUN IN MY HAND BUT WHO'S GONNA STOP ME. NOT A DAMN PERSON. NO ONE GIVES TWO SHITS IF I LIVE OR DIE SO HONESTLY TELL ME WHY SHOULD I. SO AS I WRITE THIS ALL I SAY IS TRUE FUCK ALL THIS SHIT FORGET IT I'M THROUGH CAUSE NOW THERE IS NOTHING ANYONE CAN DO AND YOU DIDNT CARE I BLAME THIS ON YOU BYE

This Bullet, With My Name On It...
No more music. No more sadness. No more isolation. No more voyeuristic joy. No more anger. No more memories. No more dreams. No more nightmares. No more bleeding. Just you and me. If I pull it will you set my mind free? I'm happy. Open me up and splatter color on this gray.

You Know You Wanna So Just Do It Baby
Ok startng to get caught up here... A litle more about me.. I am from the land down under..666 under..As you read on my page already I am new here but not to the online thing. Be respectful and we can be friends. Now to access my pictures other than defaut we need to be friends so add/fan me baby. If you want to see deeper then there are a few ways. For 1 week unlimited access. 25 Bling pack 7 day Blast or 1 month VIP For 1 Month unlimited access 65 Bling Pack 30 Day Blast or 3 Month VIP For 6 Months unlimited access 135 bling pack 2 30 day blasts 1 25 bling pack and 1 6 month VIP For 1 year unlimited access 2 135 bling packs 4 30 day blasts 1 6 month and 1 12 month vip PM me about auto 11s and also once your in you get something extra special made just for you..But for now those details remain a secret ..But I am sure you wont be sorry 5 Million fubucks sent to me gets 3 months access I have alot of pictures that I will be loading as we go. Please remem

Who Wants Me?
Update After 24 hrs here I have to rethink this just a lttle bit..You will get to buy me as described below and gain access. However if someone comes along and doubles your price they will then get to own me. Anyone who gets to buy me will get access for a minimun of 1 month even if I am purchased from you. Now what are you waiting for its only fubucks baby haha Now that I am past level 10 I can be owned..Well let me rephrase that.. I will allow someone to purchase the rights to have their name as my owner. What ownership brings: Unlimited access to all my family only pictures. Your name on my page (Not added to mine) Or will it say April Go Sexy Princess of the dark side fu owned by... Not gonna happen. I have checked around and from what I see the going price will be 2 million fubucks for me. However you will send me the 2 million and then I will allow you to buy me for 1 fubuck..Why let fu have them all back when you can just give it all to your Mistress? Hows does tha

Special Someone
Every night when I close my eyes, I drift to sweet dreams of you. I imagine the taste of your lips, the feel of your hands in mine, and the softness of your touch brushing against my cheek... and suddenly I'm strong yet weak from my need for you. And when you hold me close, and look into my eyes as you whisper how much you love me, I'm carried gently to the clouds. Your love makes me feel so alive and proud of the person I am when I'm with you. Yet when the stars fade as dawn breaks, you kiss me good nite at the door, and when I awake I'm needing you even more than I did the day before. I'm missing you badly, and I wish you were here. But though you're far away, in my heart you'll stay. I'll never quit wishing that you were here beside me, but until that day, I've only to dream about you, and I escape to that place in my heart, where we're never apart.

Replaceable
OK last night was the first night in a long time that i felt so horrible that i actually got sick from being so stressed... Some of u that may being to read this may think u know who stressed me out and i can tell you this isnt all because of some dumb aussie lol he has nothing to do with this blog so im not going to give him ne more space in it lol Now where was i... oh yea well lets start with a few days ago at work... I was told that i have to stop unloading the truck after my first break and go and finish the handheld comp work left over from days...everyday... now my crew isnt too happy about this cuz 1 its less work for me and 2 it slows down the prosses big time for us... a job that used to take us until 10 now takes us til the end of our shift at 1230. i know im not saying without me the whole crew would fall apart cuz i would just be replaced and the work would continue to get done... well tensions are running high because of that and last night..well we have one guy on our c

Ode To An Arsehole (by Miss Andry)
I just found this too funny not to share: You actually think that you’re sexy and cool When all you are is an arrogant tool, Coz, when the chicks hit your page and rate, Over you, they ain't going to masturbate So, think again my delusional friend What an excuse for a cock is your sad bell end Your penis is somewhat decidedly lacking, It’s not exactly what I would call “packing” Now I'm waggling my little digit Can barely see it,‘coz you’re hung like a midget With so little to offer, you should keep it in your pants But you're always eager to please the dizzy sycophants With rose-tinted specs on, I once saw you like that too, Why I ever liked you,I just don’t have a clue But the others cannot see through my own eyes, All the crap that you fed me, the bullshit, the lies That spouts forth from your mouth The only true feelings you have lie south And no other feelings can ever exist With your dick grasped firmly under your wrist Pouring over pictures: the next stup

Should I Drink Or Not
My sexy lover doesn't like me drinking. I enjoy drinking. I don't do it often but when I do I usually get wasted. Should I drink? I really love him and don't like upsetting him. Maybe there is a way I can compromise. Let me think. I know I will only drink at home. Of course I could get drunk on fubar!!! Love you babe!!!

I Hate This So Much
I cannot stand it. Every time i start feeling better i just get ridiculously depressed again. It just feels like i climbed the mountain just to jump off. I don't even know so whatever. not like anyone reads this anyway

Dark Soul
The night was falling And the stars are show up My heart is still weak and cold I try to defeated with the shadow But I canâ€™t Is this the only way I can find my true love? Sitting here all alone Watching the stars Hoping for the sign The night was falling slowly And the stars are show up And my cold heart still searching for something My lonely soul is lost in the darkness Try to find the way home My fallen angel is lost in my embrace forever I see you in my dreams, dark angel My love is belong only in your dreams There is nothing to do with it I am just shadow Who is always hidden from the light My cold heart still try to find something All this years I cannot find my way home After all this years I only see painful nothing else My cold heart is lost in the shadows, again This tears I cry they are forgotten forever I will never find someone like you I miss you so bad I miss your touch Where are you, my love? I wish you were here with me tonight To share

R.i.p. Snow Pudding
Snow Pudding~03/2002 - 1/25/2009I woke up this morning and was doing my usual dark:30 rounds around the house to check on everyone... Yanno, to make sure the kids were not abducted by aliens in the middle of the night.Well, when I got to Snow Pudding (our sweet little bunny), I found that he was not abducted by aliens, but he WAS taken by God to the grand garden in the sky.I'm gonna miss him. He was such a good bunny. The only thing bad he ever did was chew through the cord of a microphone for my computer many years ago. That's better than I can say for any other animals we've ever had. {sniff, sniff}Anyway, here's some pictures of Snow Pudding.Yeah, he needed his claws clipped in this pic. R.

Unlikely Romance~
by alonzo14© I was just lying there beside her, holding my head in my hand, my arm bent at the elbow. Annie was sleeping on her side, facing away from me. The low light from the lamp on the nightstand illuminated her long, lean body, and the shadows danced over her as she breathed. Annie's long legs were not quite fully extended, but were bent a little at the knees. Her beautiful ass and naked back were tantalizingly close and still a little sweaty, almost begging me to caress them. What was this beautiful, young woman doing in my bed? I could scarcely believe it myself. Did I just make love to this amazing woman? Or am I all alone and merely having a wonderful dream? As I lay there watching her, I thought back to the lucky events that led to our meeting. We met on-line, for god's sake! I was bored and avoiding doing some work, as usual. To idle away the time, I like to chat, but none of my on-line friends were available. My list of friends isn't that long. I'm not a person

No Excuse
Sometimes, in the heat of the moment I tend to not think about what I am doing….hey I am only human after all, and because of this I can and do land up making the wrong decision or do the wrong action, whereby, upon reflection I know I took the wrong action and end up regretting it… This time, even though I feel it was the right decision to make for the right reasons, it was how I handled it afterwards that was very wrong and as such I ended up hurting the one person I was trying to do right by and by doing so I may have driven that person away and lost everything we had built between us……I have no excuse!! I was wrong and from the deepest depth of my heart……I am sorry