I stand in the doorway
knowing this will be my last time.
I am beyond the cutting heartache...
You know the one that binds the chest
so tight breathing is all
but an impossibility...
That hurt of facing this
so many times before
has numbed me in preparation
for this moment.
The final moment.
I can't look back now
To say good-bye to that one love
you searched and prayed for.
How could I have been so wrong?
I knew this was the one ...
I just knew God had sent
me my soul mate.
But instead
it was another lesson in life.
Harder than any other
but alas
another growing experience.
I can't look back now
Should I stay or go ?
There really are no options here
I have to do what is
in my best interest
My heart yearns to stay
and to give it another chance,
but chances have run out.
When the heart grows cold
it is time to go.
So I take a deep breath
Wipe the tear from my cheek
and put one foot
in front of the other
not allowing thoughts
of the good times
to cloud my judgment.
Not daring to look back
As I walk through the gate
to my waiting car
I ask God to watch over him
and keep him safe ...
To send him happiness
and to fill his cold heart again
with a love and tenderness.
I bid you good bye
my bitter sweet love
without a backwards glance
for I know if I do
I will not go
You take care of you
I loved you more
