Today has had it's ups and downs. It's not that I'm ungreatful about certain aspects of my life, it's just, well as a mom, I need a break from reality. My boyfriend has been assuming that I've this attitude problem, and says he's slightly annoyed, but in fact, I don't have an attitude problem, it's just how I am. But today, yeah I did have a major problem, and I feel bad because I snapped at my boyfriend for me losing a check that I needed to cash in today while he was home. Plus my daughter (I know she's 2, and it's expected) has been very annoying, very whiney, and clingy. I love her don't get me wrong, but I can only handle so much without wanting to go insane myself. I just don't want my boyfriend to think that I'm this bitchy mom/woman, and decide that he wants to separate because it's too much. We all have our bad days, but it just seems as if mine are always in between. I would like to have just one night alone with my boyfriend, that way I can spend the quality time I know and feel that we need. I told him that I was getting a little more attached to him, and he said it bothers him that people get attached to him easily. But I'm not just some person, I'm his girlfriend. Maybe he feels the same way, and is having a hard time expressing it, but I wish I knew how he honestly feels about us and our relationship. I don't wanna lose him, he's the best boyfriend I've ever had, and to me he's perfect. Anyways, yeah, I guess I'm reading more into it than I should and maybe over looking a whole lot.
