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Lies! It's All Lies I Tell You!!
My, someone's being awfully pushy! Could it be you? Even aggressiveness looks good on you, though, so don't worry. Someone (and it's the right someone) finds your brashness extremely charming. lies! it's all LIES i tell you!!

Sex Without Love
Sex Without Love How do they do it, the ones who make love without love? Beautiful as dancers, gliding over each other like ice-skaters over the ice, fingers hooked inside each other’s bodies, faces red as steak, wine, wet as the children at birth whose mothers are going to give them away. How do they come to the come to the come to the God come to the still waters, and not love the one who came there with them, light rising slowly as steam off their joined skin? These are the true religious, the purists, the pros, the ones who will not accept a false Messiah, love the priest instead of the God. They do not mistake the lover for their own pleasure, they are like great runners: they know they are alone with the road surface, the cold, the wind, the fit of their shoes, their over-all cardio- vascular health—just factors, like the partner in the bed, and not the truth, which is the single body alone in the universe against its own best time. somethin

Why Can People Be Jealous Of Someone Else's Friendship!?!
Hmm....I really don't know what to write. I know what I could write about but Ill write about that in a few. I can't wait til this weekened because IM not sure yet on what my best friend and I are doing. Just in case you all don't know my best friend is the tall blonde that is in MOST of my pics. I know what we will be doing sure will be fun. Then there will be July 3. Woo hoo. I have recently updated my profile. A few weeks ago I had removed a lot of stuff from my profile. My best friend and I got into it pretty bad. I was tired of putting up with all the crap that was going on so I finally gave up and told myself that I didn't care what was going on. Well, we finally talked about the problem that we were having a week ago. So we are friends again. :) BEST FRIENDS still! IM tired of jealous people too. It is pretty bad when someone wants to judge a person and they only hung around them once!?! Have you ever heard that saying don't judge a book by its cover!?! Well, I

My New Story
This is the beginning of a story I am trying to write,,please comment and let me know what you think so far. "W,..where am I? W,..what is this place?" Starla wipes her eys, she has just awoke into her own personal hell. The surroundings are strangely familiar to her, yet something is distinctly different. A feeling of darkness and death clouds her mind as she tries to make sense of it all. "What is happening to me? Why can't I remember?" She stands slowly, looking around trying to grasp any spark of reality she can find. As she walks throught the house, Starla feels a presense, something eerie,,,,,,,something ,,,evil. Fear overcomes her, she begins to cry. Her pace quickens as she searches for a way out. Finally reaching the front door, Starla franticly tries to open it, fumbling with the knob, but something is blocking it, keeping her in. "Let me out!!!!!" she screams. "What do you want from me!!??" She falls to the floor, sobbing histerically, "please let me go

Benoit: Tragedy And Speculation.
I will warn you now - What I am about to write is pure speculation, and may not have ANY basis in fact. However, with everyone around the internet and "real" world coming out and convicting Chris Benoit based on the findings of the Fayette County GA Sheriff's office - I feel a need to point out some glaring inconsistencies. He may have done this terrible thing - If he did, God will judge him far harsher than any one of us can. But reports coming out could point in a direction NOBODY is looking. Let's start at the beginning. We all know that Chris Benoit called the WWE officials and called off from appearing at the event on Saturday. Further, his Plane reservations were changed by the WWE so that he could get to the PPV. That would be the last VOICE contact with Chris Benoit for anyone. Strangely, all other contact was via text Message, and not just from Chris's phone - But from Nancy's as well. Even more strange, here is a list of the messages and times as reported by WWE.

Some More Fucking Bullshit
Church leaders want concert to go away BY CALEB HALE, THE SOUTHERN Violent J (left) and Shaggy 2 Dope (Right) make up the rap-metal duo Insane Clown Posse. (Provided) HARDIN COUNTY - Promoters for the group Insane Clown Posse say they've found a perfect spot for a music festival in Hardin County, but local church leaders are telling them to find another place. The Shawnee Ministerial Alliance plans to meet with a representative of U.S. Rep. John Shimkus, R-Collinsville, on July 10 to discuss what officials can do to stop the Detroit-based rap-metal duo, Shaggy 2 Dope and Violent J - and a few thousand fans - from ever gathering at Hog Rock. Advertisement Advertising Info ICP, as the band is commonly known, and its label, Psychopathic Records, will host a music event called The Gathering Aug. 9-12 at the privately owned site near Cave-In-Rock. The band has hosted the event for eight years at other venues throughout the U.S. Owner Tim York, who also runs Hogdaddy's Salo

What Makes A Great Guitarist Great?
In the next month I will be writing about our rock heros, Case in point-Guitar gods! What makes a guitar player great? Is it flying through scales? Is it "tapping?' Personally, I think nearly everyone contributes. I feel a guitarist isn't really better than the next. It's their performance, if it sounds good, feels good, it usually IS good. BUT, once in a while there comes along one that kinda stands out for whatever reason. One way or another, they leave their "mark" in the music industry and that gives us all the memories we all like to talk about for years to come. Would'nt you agree?

Why Am I Hurt Over This
Ok so Im having a contest and asked one of my family members to join, and he said "ok, but give me some pics of your tits" I was like umm yea right....then he throws this crap in my face " ok fine whatever, but everytime you ask me for something I do it" Which is true hes always made little gifts for me which I always appreciate, but I didnt know I owed for it goodness, I dunno that just made me feel disrespected I guess. Anywho I just needed to vent. thxs

Rag Dali 1282
ONCE MORE A CHILD HAS DONE IT ,CHECK MY OYHER BLOGS,THERES A GROUP OF MYSPACE REJECTS WHO THINK ITS FUNNY TO PLAY A FOOLISH LOW RATING GAME,THIS IS STARTING TO GET REDUNDANT,I GUESS THEY THINK ITS FUN TO MESS WITH PEOPLE,IT DOESNT MATTER IF YOUR UGLY,GOOD LOOKING,FAT,SKINNY,BALD,OLD,WE ARE HERE TO HAVE FUN AND TREAT OTHERS WITH RESPECT,BEWARE OF RAG DALI 1282

A Time
as i sit here in this quiet house i cant help but think of the past and how much i wish things could be different, but some things come to mind, like, do you remember a time when you were so happy that nothing could get you down? when everything seemed to go your way? when you felt like you could do anything? i remember when first held my wife, when i first kissed her, i remember when my girls were born, when i got to see their faces for the very first time, it seems like only yesterday i was bouncing them on my knee, helping them walk across the floor, helping them ride a bike for the first time, but now my oldest is getting married and is making a me a grandfather, and a in couple of years the youngest will graduate, as i sit here with their pictures on my desk, it is hard not to wish their mother could see how much like her they are, for they are growing up, and becoming young ladies themselves, so as i sit here i remember the past, and thinking of my girls i can be happy for a t

157
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Rip Jpk
Joe Kenny, I will never forget you. I'm really confused right now, and I'm not really sure how to feel. The fact that you are gone is starting to sink in (although, it still seems very unreal and it will probably be a while before I... I don't know). I'm really confused, I don't understand, and I'm kind of angry at you. I NEVER expected something like this to happen. Thank you for being a part of my life, even though it's been a while. Thank you for all the times you made me laugh and smile. You were amazing, you ARE amazing. I love you, and I will miss you so much.

Must Take A Break!
Ok I must take a break from all the drama that is here! I must do some soul seeking, and to make the best of what I have. Sure I have friends and family here that care about me and show me daily but right now I must do a spiritual seek for my own mind and body! I will come here and say hi to everyone every other day or so and to chat with a dear friend when I can catch her here so everyone have a great week and don't worry about all the small stuff because that don't matter. And never ever under esitmate the power of love and understanding from your loved one!! Blessed Be and be safe..

Stupid Tourist Tricks
To start off, I work in security emergency services at Disneyland (the one in Calif) which is just like police dispatch... and tonight, we had a doozy under the Stupid Tourist Trick categor!!! I tell you, the gene pool needs more chlorine! Tonight we get an emergency call from one of the elevators at the huge parking structure from a guest stuck in one of the guest elevators. He said he was punching the button for almost 5 minutes and then decided to hit the emergency button which comes directly to us... Here's the catch, the elevator door was OPEN the whole time he was "stuck" in the elevator!!! Please, get this man out of the gene pool!

Freakin Downraters
I hate the downraters... I got a newbie rate me a one , yeah okay maybe I deserve a one but I was nice enough of to go back and rate her a 10 knowing she didnt derserve it...... DAMN DOWNRATERS ... its all good though.... lol just wanted to vent about something lol...

Follow Up To My Last Blog...
Tuesday, June 26, 2007 So in my last surf blog, I went on and on about how "I just wanna be considered a good surfer." Well FUCK all that shit. I decided today, after a great five hour session, fuck being GOOD, I wanna be considered one of the BEST, someday. I took my friend of 14 years, Mr. JP surfing with me over the weekend, which incidentally was the BEST ego boost ever. So thank you John, whenever you're in town, i'm dragin your ass to the beach from now on... Today, as I paddled out into the lineup, I got the typical glares and sideways glances from the guys out there, the classic, "Oh no, WTF is SHE doing out here" kinda thing. I made em eat their words. I caught more waves than anyone and those glares turned to shock as I tore that shit up. Okay, so it was a pretty mellow day, picked up for a while and then died down again, but compared to the last five sessions i've had, the conditions were pretty ideal. Not too much chop, light offshore winds, mostly nice, clean

Whats The Point..
You know just when you think you found someone good and maybe just maybe they are not gonna be like all the rest they prove you wrong! I, like an asshole fell for another chick and she like all the rest turned out to be a fake! It's annoying and frustrating but thats not the point of this blog! The point of this blog is this, Who cares about love when love sucks! A guy like me can get any girl I want so im done wasting my time on one girl! If I can have it imma get it and nothing will hold me back and down the line as the years go by and their all old and washed up I'll be fine living in my giant house with sleeping with models!!! Have a great life!!

Fight For You (min & Mam)
Do you know why I am no longer like before? Why have I changed? Do you have any idea why I am doing it? Transforming myself into someone unlike my old self? Do you know who inspired me, wishing only to do something good? To fight against someone is not tougher than fighting against oneself. Do you know whom I am fighting for? Because you are mine You are the one who are transforming myself into someone better, I am going to excel myself. Do you know how tough it is to change oneself over? I want to fight on to possess you, no matter how tough it will be. Because you are more (valuable) than anyone (to me.) i love you min and mam

Not Anymore
Like a fallen angel With broken wings Unable to see further Than the sorrow of things Silence and stillness As my heart goes to sleep Like an angel of sadness I curl up and weep In the depths of my heart I am bruised and so sore, For he doesn’t love me Not anymore….

"a Sweet Voice"
A SWEET VOICE I HEARD A VOICE THAT SOUNDED SO SWEET I KNEW ONE DAY IT'S OWNER I HAD TO MEET.I TALKED TO HIM OCCASIONALLY THINKING HE WAS WITH A GIRL THEN AFTER A TIME OF ME AWAY WE STARTED TO FLY. WE STARTED CHATTING I THOUGHT FOR A BIT LITTLE DID I REALIZE IT WAS MY FANTASY TRIP.WE TALKED ALL NIGHT HAVING A GREAT TIME NEXT THING I KNEW OUR LIFES INTER-TWINED.WE WERE ON FOR SERVAL HOURS ALMOST A WHOLE DAY BEFORE WE WERE DONE WE WERE EACH OTHERS BABE.WE GREW CLOSER THE MORE WE TALKED THE MORE THRU LIFE TOGATHER WE WANTED TO WALK. WE FELT COMFORTABLE TOGATHER THE WHOLE NIGHT THROUGH LEARNING WHAT WE HAD IN COMMON AND FINDING ALL THE CLUES.WE LONG TO MEET EACH OTHER IN THE FUTURE VERY NEAR SO AS TO SEE AND HOLD EACH OTHER NOT JUST TO ONLY HEAR..

Don't Give Up
DON'T GIVE UP IN THIS PROUD LAND WE GREW UP STRONG WE WERE WANTED ALL ALONG I WAS TAUGHT TO FLIGHT,TAUGHT TO WIN I NEVER THOUGHT I COULD FAIL NO FIGHT LEFT OR SO IT SEEMS NO FIGHT LEFT OR SO IT SEEMS I AM A MAN WHOSE DREAMS HAVE ALL DESERTED IV'E CHANGED MY FACE,I'VE CHANGED MY NAME BUT NO ONE WANTS YOU WHEN YOU LOSE DON'T GIVE UP 'COS YOU HAVE FRIENDS DON'T GIVE UP YOU'RE NOT BEATEN YET DON'T GIVE UP I KNOW YOU CAN MAKE IT GOOD THOUGH I SAW IT ALL AROUND NEVER THOUGHT THAT I COULD BE AFFECTED THOUGHT THAT WE'D BE LAST TO GO IT IS SO STRANGE THE WAY THINGS TURN THE PLACE WHERE I WAS BORN,ON THE LAKESIDE AS DAYLIGHT BROKE,I SAW THE EARTH THE TREES HAD BURNED DOWN TO THE GROUND DON'T GIVE UP YOU STILL HAVE US DON'T GIVE UP WE DON'T NEED MUCH OF ANYTHING DON'T GIVE UP 'CAUSE SOMEWHERE THER'S A PLACE WHERE WE BELONG REST YOUR HEAD YOU WORRY TO MUCH IT'S GOING TO BE ALRIGHT WHEN TIMES GET ROUGH YOU CAN FALL BACK ON US DON'T GIVE UP PLEASE DON'T GIVE U

When I Turn Away
when i turn away have the heart to forgive and forget me for i don't know what to say just close your eyes if i cause you pain for the pain inside me is more than yours maybe you will never understand why i turned my back there's nothing i can explain, why? the feeling will always be there sad to say our time together were futile to work we'll just keep on hurting each other i don't want to pretend that there's something left for us

I Dont Understand
i meet chris benoit many years ago, he was one of the nicest men i could have met, but i'm guessing that i was wrong about benoit, i just don't believe all of this i have watched his whole carrer from new japan to wwe, and i just hope his soul never rests.

I Have Leared
I HAVE LEARED I'VE LEARNED THAT YOU CANNOT MAKE SOMEONE LOVE YOU.ALL YOU CAN DO IS BE SOMEONE WHO CAN BE LOVED. THE REST IS UP TO THEM I'VE LEARNED THAT NO MATTER HOW MUCH I CARE, SOME PEOPLE JUST DON'T CARE BACK. I'VE LEARNED THAT IT TAKES YEARS TO BUILD TRUST AND ONLY SECONDS TO DESTROY IT. I'VE LEARNED THAT IT'S NOT WHAT YOU HAVE IN YOUR LIFE BUT WHO YOU HAVE IN YOUR LIFE THAT COUNTS. I'VE LEARNED THAT THAT YOU CAN GET BY ON CHARM FOR ABOUT FIFTEEN MINUTES. AFTER THAT,YOU'D BETTER KNOW SOMETHING I'VE LEARNED THAT YOU SHOULDN'T COMPARE YOURSELF TO THE BEST OTHERS CAN DO. BUT TO THE BEST YOU CAN DO. I'VE LEARNED THAT IT'S NOT WHAT HAPPENS TO PEOPLE THAT'S IMPORTANT.IT'S WHAT THEY DO ABOUT IT. I'VE LEARNED THAT YOU CAN DO SOMETHING IN AN INSTANT THAT WILL GIVE YOU HEART ACHE FOR LIFE. I'VE LEARNED THAT NO MATTER HOW THIN YOU SLICE IT, THERE ARE ALWAYS TWO SLIDES. I'VE LEARNED THAT IT'S A LOT EASIER TO REACT THAN IT IS TO THINK. I'VE LEARNED T

06-27-07
I witness something in 2001 I'll never forget. I've heard of people paying their dues but seeing it was memorable for me. I spent part of my day with a man who I knew for maybe 2 months. I remember it was the day before Halloween and at the shelter they were haven a Halloween party. This man had bummed several smokes from me and asked me to take him so he could get his money. I said..it's just 2 blocks away...he said I'll buy you a pack of smokes...I said ok you drive a hard bargain..lol. I took him and he got his money and he did buy me a pack of smokes too. As we left the store their was a lady walking down the street and he said STOP THE CAR and he handed her a dollar he owed her. We went back to the shelter and they were taking pictures of peoples outfits for Halloween. He wanted his picture taken with several people that day. He also invite a few people out to lunch however I elected not to go. Little did I know that day would be his last day. Later that evening he was struck by a

Breathless
Go on go on Leave me breathless Come on [echo...] Hey... yeah... The daylight's fading slowly But time with you is standing still I'm waiting for you only The slightest touch and I feel weak I cannot lie, from you I cannot hide And I'm losing the will to try Can't hide it (can't hide it), can't fight it (can't fight it) So go on, go on, come on, leave me breathless Tempt me, tease me, until I can't deny This loving feeling (loving feeling) Make me long for your kiss Go on (go on), go on (go on) Yeah... Come on Yeah... And if there's no tomorrow And all we have is here and now I'm happy just to have you You're all the love I need somehow It's like a dream Although I'm not asleep And I never want to wake up Don't lose it (don't lose it), don't leave it (don't leave it) So go on, go on, come on, leave me breathless Tempt me, tease me, until I can't deny This loving feeling (loving feeling) Make me long for your kiss Go on (go on), go on (go on) Ye

I Just Realized Something
Okay I'm sure you're all wondering why I'm acting so damn weird. well...Today I spent the day with my ex....why well I'm still friends with him because I don't believe we cant just be friends and nothing more (though I know he hates that but it isn't going to change). Well we were out swimming with my dad and my son was asleep on the shore. We swam for like 3 hours and we go to leave and are listening to the song "Mary Jane's Last Dance- Tom Petty and the heart breakers" Well He said he loved that song and gave me a funny look....i didn't realize what the look was for until i re listened to the song, he had asked me to look up the author...I didn't think nothing of it until I looked it up and listened to it again because I like tom petty....well now I know what the look was for.

So Im Gonna Be In My First Movie
This thursday, im going to be filmed in a short film. After 15 years of playing music, and the last few years at doing some modeling, im trying my hand at movies. Im playing a auto mechanic @ a bar. Its a quick scene but the movie over all is only gonna be about 10 minutes. I also have some other acting work lined up. So I'll see where this takes me.

Why Hurt Someone You Love?
IF YOU ARE STARTING OR ENDING A RELATIONSHIP, WHY WOULD YOU GET OUTSIDERS INVOLVED? THEY ONLY HEAR ONE SIDE OF THE STORY. OF COURSE THEY WILL TAKE YOUR SIDE CUZ THEY HEARD AND FELT YOUR PAIN FIRST! BUT THINK ABOUT WHAT YOU DID TO THE OTHER PERSON WHILE YOU WERE GETTING COMFORTED. IS THAT REALLY RIGHT? TO TRASH SOMEONE YOU ONCE LOVED, OR SOMEONE YOU THINK YOU MIGHT LOVE? I WISH PEOPLE WOULD JUST LISTEN AND BE SMART TO NOT GET INVOLVED. IF YOUR A FRIEND.... JUST BE THERE! BUT GOD! DON'T GET INVOLVED. YOU COULD BE DOING MORE DAMAGE THAN YOU REALIZE. YOU ALL KNOW WHO YOU ARE AND WHO I AM TALKING TO. I AM FULL OF LOVE NOT HATE! I DON'T DO DRAMA. AND I AM ACTUALLY HURTING. SO DO YOU THINK YOU CAN STOP THE BULLSHIT? MY HEART HURTS! IF YOU KNOW ME....YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I AM HURTING,SO I AM ASKING YOU NICELY TO PLEASE STOP IT.

While We Sleep
They say that dreams are the wishes That our hearts make while we sleep, That all the things we desire and want, Are there within our reach. That our unconscious mind Can take us to where we long to be, Where there is no meaning of time Only moments spent vividly. They also say that dreams Are messages from the gods, The foretelling of our futures Like printed tarot cards. They say that guardian angels Come to us while we sleep, To comfort and protect us Whenever our souls weep. That our loved ones passed over Occasionally come through, To be with us in dreams Because they miss us too

Ten Fuck Yous
Fuck You number ONE. To the people who bitch about the people who have like 25,000 friends; Are you fucking serious? Don't be jealous. Go play in traffic. Fuck you number TWO. Don't ever post pictures and say: "OMG, I'm so ugly" because if you were, you wouldn't post them. If you do you're a fucking moron. Fuck you number THREE. NOBODY cares about threats over the internet, so don't try to act hardcore with the keyboard. Fighting online is like racing in the Special Olympics; Even if you win, you're still retarded. Fuck you number FOUR. Quit crying because you're not on someones Family. Who cares?!? ITS CHERRY TAP!!! If you really cared that much, you would pick up the damn phone! Fuck you number FIVE. Who really cares if I don't accept you as a friend? MOVE ON!!! Don't send me another request or message asking "What's up with you not adding me?" I don't want you as a friend, that's what's up, Asshole.... Fuck you number SIX.

A Wish For Sun
I see you there, sitting on a bench, wrapped tight in polyester and down, staring out at the naked branches of trees torn bare by winter’s breath, and I feel your discontent, your angst, the boiling within your core that begs you each day to do something different, go somewhere warm, feel the dry wind which scatters desert dust, touch the hair of a woman and watch it glisten beneath your hand. And I think we’re not so different, you and I, both soldiers trapped within a war that neither of us understands. There is only wind, and rain, and the constant caress of hands we do not know, and we are cold without the light we crave, the warmth of a summer whose power will cast away the lonely lies we tell ourselves each day, the words we live by, our mantras, which keep us sane, and so we wish for the brightness of a place far from here.

People That Think They Know Me!!!
Do you have any idea what upsets me? People that think they know you just because they have known you for a long time. That doesn't mean they really know you does it??? I had a conversation with someone who I have known for about 21 years but he lives 400 miles away from me so he has no idea what I do say or think on a daily basis. He was trying to be helpful and give me love advise, which if you knew this person, you would find funny in itself!!! But, instead of giving me good advise, all he did was upset me and make me cry and question myself even more that I already do!!! He even went as far as to say he doesn't understand why I don't have a man in my life! He said I'm not that ugly!! How was that suppose to make me feel better????? What am I if I'm not that ugly??? I tried to tell him that I really don't care at this point if I have a guy or not, which isn't exactly the truth, but he didn't need to know that did he??? I have a good friend in my life right now and that's all I care

A Few Hours Afterward...
He took off his fedora and the mask. The bruises on his body were sore but they were bearable. His partner was slumped against the wall in equal pain and fatigue. "That is the last time I let you take the lead boss," said his partner between gritted teeth. He smiled, the taste of blood lingering in his mouth like a sack full of nickels. He loved a good fight - but this time they just got out by the skin of their teeth. He checked his sidearm - it was out of juice. He shook his head in amazement - yeah, they did get out by the skin of their teeth. The 'beauty was going to need a possible overhaul and the bullet dents needed to be worked out. Nevertheless - they accomplished their task and made the world "Right" again. He looked at his gloved hands - though they were black he could still see blood. Some life was lost tonight, despite their best intentions. Criminals they were, but not every bad guy deserves to die. Good intentions...that is what the road to Hell is made of -

Friends
Friendship is: The comfort of knowing there is always a shoulder to lean on, a hand to reach out for, and a heart to welcome me home. A friend is: Someone who laughs at your jokes when they're not very funny, and sympathizes with your problems when they're not very serious. Friendship is: like a prism through which the many variations of beauty are revealed in our lives BECAUSE Friendships take time to season into tust. Like water in a deep well, honest expressions of the heart bubble up to the surface rather slowly. A man could go all his like and never taste the cold, bracing refrestment from such a well. But once you tasted it, the tepid, surface stuff will never satisfy.

Hey Girls Dont Cheat On Guys It Hurt
while i been trying to find a girl becasue i dont have one and i just got out from haven an ex wife cheaten on me so it take a lil befor i will trust again i was over seas when i found out my wife sleep with 15 diferent guy

Man In The Mirrior
look at you! man in the mirrior. your pathitic and weak. look at you. bleeding on the floor. all this is you fault you have no one to blaim. so go ahead man in the mirrior, play your game. cut yourself! bleed yourself, run yourself dry! but remember this. play to long. and let your heart be broke. and it will be my turn to play. from which there is no return!

Blah
Well, I've been living in OKC for a while now. I love it... Of course... been pretty hectic though... Drama as always... plus I feel like shit... i've got bronchitis... I've started my enw job.. i love it... it's fun!! I only work 40 hours a week, so I'll have time for my babies!! I'm so tired though... I've not been feeling well, and feel like i can't get enough sleep... I hate being sick... And on top of that i still have man drama i have to deal with... it's pretty freaking unreal... men... can't live with them, can't kill them... uuggghhh... anyhow... love you all miss you!!! mail me lemme know whats going on!!!

Love
What is love Is it that happy feeling Every time I'm with you Or is it when my heart hits the ceiling I've learned now That it is actually neither Love isn't what they say I can see love when he beats her I can see love in the pain That you inflict I see love when you lie to me Everything you do is easy to predict See love isn't a good feeling Its acutally all of the bad ones When some one says they love you... Be prepaired to be hurt! written June 27th.

Daily Horoscope: Libra For June 26,2007
That old childish desire to fit in never really goes away. The only thing is, you were completely meant to stand out! The more you fight your fate, the more it'll try to get your attention. Give in gracefully, okay?

Broken
Some days I wonder if my heart is broken Does it work like it use to? Your tongue is like a whip at times I have scares from its lashes They feel like little paper cuts Thin and small but sting like hell Do the scares you give me bother you? Do I scare you the same way? Well, you act like you can fix everything Like there is nothing you can’t repair What if this is something you need not mend And maybe we shouldn’t be together Maybe these scars are signs What if my heart is only broken for you You don’t have the power to repair it And maybe I can’t repair yours Why don’t we do ourselves a favor Stop living this lie Staying together because of the convenience Because it is easier to follow this routine Let’s just end it now Before our hearts are beyond repair Am I wrong feeling this way? Tell me, I need to know This is killing me inside So please, don’t tell me I am alone Don’t you feel your heart is broken? Written 6/26/07

I Hate Horoscopes
Virgo, Today the Stars make you seem fascinating and attractive to others. This would therefore be the most opportune moment for starting a new romantic affair. Work wise, you'll be somewhat penalized by jealousy.

A Tear
A tear rolls down. Slipping away In the silence Of night. The clouds of darkness Turning to storm. Crashing at once Breaking down the strong. Broken and singed The storm taking it's toll. Laid out in a crowd. Dead though breathing. Noticed but not seen. The tears of rain Never to be seen. Silently slipping, Slipping away. In the dark of night.

The You Poem
A glimpse in your eyes Darkened by fear listen to your lies I cry a silent tear The words hold me listen to your song Never to be tamed You are gone before to long Loving for a few moments like a wild horse running through the night to your sweet torments I hold on tight Wanting to be possessed by you You are in my blood Becoming obessed by the things you do Cant stop this longing, emotions flood And if surely you were to kiss me I would be enslaved for you would hold the key to pierce me with your blade I would be yours a slave to desire yours forever more For only you can put out this fire

I Really Could Do With 5 Minutes!!
I see you had your mind all made up you group of Pitiful liars. before I woke to face the day, your master Plan transpired. -something told me- this job had more to Meet the eye. my song is not believed? my words some- What deceiving? now Im unwhole. Youve waged a war of nerves But you cant crush the kingdom Cant be what your idols are. cant leave the scar. You cry for compensation. I ask you please just give us... 5 minutes alone I read your eyes, your mind was made up. you took me for A fool. you used complexion of my skin for a counter Rascist tool. -you cant burn me- Ive spilled my guts out In the past. taken advantage of because you know where Ive come [from]. my past. Youve waged a war of nerves But you cant crush the kingdom Cant be what your idols are. cant leave the scar. You cry for compensation. I ask you please just give us... 5 minutes alone

Lettin Go
When I close my eyes, I think of you, I wonder when my dream mite come true. I feel the wind blow through my hair, as i wonder if you even care. The tear drops fill my eyes, and i try o' so hard not to cry. Is it me he thinks of at nite, or is it her he is holding tight. Am i just a fool, as I sit and wait for you. The sun comes up to brighten the sky, just another day as I wonder why. why am I allowing myself to come second you just dont know what you mean to me I reckon. So before I let the last morel I have go, I one last time will let you know. how very much I love you and this is why I'm letting you go! By:cici34

Befallen
Slipping on sugary words No time for errors The hand has come to seal my name My life has been one hellish game Let go- the moistened flesh of youth Step into the practical skin of bravery Eyes were open way too early Noone around to shield my body. Oh cast the armor put it's weight onto me I will come out fighting though my heart is dying Waiting on the promised state That has yet befallen me

10 Fuk You's Of Cherry Tap....
*Fuck You number ONE* To the people who have like 25,000 friends; Are you fucking serious? You're stupid. Go play in traffic. *Fuck you number TWO* Don't ever post pictures and say: "OMG, I'm so ugly" because if you were, you wouldn't post them. If you do you're a fucking moron. *Fuck you number THREE* NOBODY cares about threats over the internet, so don't try to act hardcore with the keyboard. Fighting online is like racing in the Special Olympics; Even if you win, you're still retarded. *Fuck you number FOUR* Quit crying because you're not on someones Family. Who cares?!? ITS CHERRY TAP!!! If you really cared that much, you would pick up the damn phone! *Fuck you number FIVE* Who really cares if I don't accept you as a friend? MOVE ON!!! Don't send me another request or message asking "What's up with you not adding me?" I don't want you as a friend, that's what's up, Asshole.... *Fuck you number SIX* 6th graders who have CH

Thinkin
everyone is trying to figure out what to put in the place where my 9 brothers died. i was thinkin as i sit and talk to a couple of freinds on line, and i think that a park with a memorial should be placed there along with changing the name of that street to the charleston 9 blvd. lots of ppl have simular ideas but i think this shuld have lots of time and thaught put into it. i think that every fireman in s.c. should be honored becuase their the ones who have taught us more than any ook could ever teach. when youre sitin at the table in the mornings and afternoons talking to the older guys and they tell the stories about burning buildings downtown back in the day before we had all this nice equipment, its eye opening and cool. the stuff they tell you will be used someday, mabe not today or tomarrow but ya never know when. i can remember while listening to mr. earl drayton talk he would tell me to notice all the sounds around me in a burning building becuase when things go bad they go ba

Jun. 28
In This blog i will be updating everyone on my life... as i see, hear and touch it... Trust me you gon be amazed at how much crazy shit goes on in my life... __________________ last nite, I was so into, You told me secrets that You never told a soul... I saw the sun, the moon, the flowers and the river... Whew, she said "I could feel you in my rib cage how is that possible","i could feel u in my large intestine", "Oh Rik" Things like this make WoW a happy man...

This Is How Life Is
for those that dont know whats its like for a hustler then hear these song its tells the life of how we all live to get by one way or another and to stay on top of or life somehow so stay real all my hustlers cant play the game then stay outa the game. but ther is rebuctions for a rat ass snitch so fuck all you rats fucking stright to the grave and if your blood fuck all you crip for life mother fuckers .Skee-LoTop Of The StairsMusic Video Codes By Music Jesus.comve with you bitches.

For Those That Asked Or Cared
some of you have been wondering were Ive gone.....did I get bored with CT...did I forget the people Ive met here...... yes, i have been bored with CT, its lame updates and ignorant people. NO, I HAVE NOT FORGOTEN THE PEOPLE IVE MET HERE!!! I just took some time away after going to the ER a few weeks ago.....yes, I'm still alive and kicking...no, I have no idea whats wrong with me, yes I know why I went to the ER....maybe I'll tell sometime but not now, I'm boring most of you already. missed you all, some more then others..... PEACE an REspeCT Da Freak

Massage
I'm done with school, and I am looking to build up my cliental. I was just wondering if there is anyone that would want a massage, I would take 20$ for a massage. If you help me put the word out there for me thanks

Poem
Running from Something that I can't see Need to save myself before I slip itno the darkness for eternity This evilness is after me It won't stop it's torment of me It's after my soul and my life I'm on the edge of the blade of the knife

Hello
i am a single mom of 4 kids i love to be outside why its summer i like to swim and go to pools i love to have fun without my kids sometimes but most of the time where i am my kids will be ...... my name is kristin i am 27 i have short hair now thats its summer i have baby blue eyes i am 5'4 i am about 130lb..

Are You Lonesome Tonight?
Are you lonesome tonight, Do you miss me tonight? Are you sorry we drifted apart? Does your memory stray to a brighter sunny day When I kissed you and called you sweetheart? Do the chairs in your parlor seem empty and bare? Do you gaze at your doorstep and picture me there? Is your heart filled with pain, shall I come back again? Tell me dear, are you lonesome tonight? I wonder if youre lonesome tonight You know someone said that the worlds a stage And each must play a part. Fate had me playing in love you as my sweet heart. Act one was when we met, I loved you at first glance You read your line so cleverly and never missed a cue Then came act two, you seemed to change and you acted strange And why Ill never know. Honey, you lied when you said you loved me And I had no cause to doubt you. But Id rather go on hearing your lies Than go on living without you. Now the stage is bare and Im standing there With emptiness all around And if you wont come back to me The

Help Me Understand
Once in a lifetime You'll open up your heart Maybe once in your lifetime You'll swear to never be apart You think your love's on solid ground Then out of the blue, it all comes tumblin' down ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Who's gonna hold me tonight When I'm feeling lonely Who's gonna show me the light 'Cause I need to know With all the things we've go How can love just stop Tell Me Somebody help me understand ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ And my picture in your locket What will you do with it now All our friends and all our memories Tell me how we sort them out What's yours is yours What's mine is mine Is that all that's left After all this time ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Who's gonna hold me tonight When I'm feeling lonely Who's gonna show me the light 'Cause I need to know With all the things we've go How can love just stop Tell Me Somebody help me understand ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ He

Sexiest Mom
ok dont know how do all the pretty graphics but im holding a contest called sexiest mom on cherrytap..i need twenty moms... i would like to start the contest on sunday july 1st and end it july 8th thats if i get all my moms in by that time gifts will be 1. first place will get a 3 day blast 2. second place will get a 1 day blast 3. third place will get diamond earrings rules are... 1.must fan,add,and rate the host 2.you must have a salute photo in your pics 3.anything goes except using scripts or whatever else to cheat. 4.no one under a level 5 can bomb you 5.comment bombing yourself is allowed 6.no downrating or any type of drama will be tolerated if you are interested pls shoutbox me lovlymom and let me know.here is my link,, [ CherryTAP.com photo: 2678644761 ]

Update On My Son
Ok well here it is...Yes my youngest son was in a motorcycle wreck the other day and it upset me very much. Well believe it or not yes he is burned pretty bad. But I now can tell he lets nothing at all stop him and hes alllll boy 100%... His dad told me that the first thing he asked the next morning was when he could get back on it. So at least I know he's not afraid to jump back on and try again. He did let me know that next time he would do what he can to be alot more careful. I am just glad that hes ok....

Tonight
I'm not really sure what's wrong with me toniht. I'm just very sad. My arm hurts and I just don't see much point in anything. Feel free to try and cheer me up but don't hope for too much. It's not any of you and I'm sorry if I don't seems like myself. Just having a bad night I guess. Sometimes a girl just needs to feel loved or something I guess!

Wwe Superstar Chris Benoit
when something like what WWE star Chris Benoit does what he did everyone is soo quick tohop on the cold bloooded murderer band wagon..these stars go through hell enough every nihgt they are in that ring and pounding thier bodeis to hell and back a million times over..those who think its fake?..yes the story lines are made up but the injuries are real..look what happened to Owen Hart..he must have been fakinthat too huh?..soooo may stars have succumbed tothe pressure of the travel and bein away from familes, and the recovering of injuries and surgeries and the like..it isnt the most glamorous life style but comes with fame and fortune..and the heavy price tag of the mental and physical abuse of the human body and mind..these stars may be the heros of all those who chooose to watch them..but they are first and foremost human....they hurt and feel like the rest of us do..they suffer like we do too..you cannot deny what he did..he madde the wrong choices..look at the illustrious career he

State Slogans
State Slogans Alabama: Yes, We Have Electricity Alaska: 11,623 Eskimos Can't Be Wrong! Arizona: But It's A Dry Heat Arkansas: Literacy Ain't Everything California: By 30, Our Women Have More Plastic Than Your Honda Colorado: If You Don't Ski, Don't Bother Connecticut: Like Massachusetts, Only The Kennedy's Don't Own It Yet Delaware: We Really Do Like The Chemicals In Our Water Florida: Ask Us About Our Grandkids Georgia: We Put The "Fun" In Fundamentalist Extremism Hawaii: Haka Tiki Mou Sha'ami Leeki Toru (Death To Mainland Scum, But Leave Your Money) Idaho: More Than Just Potatoes ... Well Okay, We're Not, But The Potatoes Sure Are Real Good Illinois: Please Don't Pronounce the "S" Indiana: 2 Billion Years Tidal Wave Free Iowa: We Do Amazing Things With Corn Kansas: First Of The Rectangle States Kentucky: Five Million People; Fifteen Last Names Louisiana: We're Not ALL Drunk Cajun Wackos, But That's Our Tourism

Updates Hehe...
Ok people as of last week im am no longer single, Im loving it every moment. But I also feel bad cause its my girls ex bf. But things will work out. It always does. Im just mroe happy then I ever have been, grant it I only see him for an hour everyday. But after next week I get to see him everyday. We already planned our day for wensday or thursday when ever he gets out. Then its drinking time hehe... But anywho... Im moving this week, between tonight after work an friday. So after friday I wont have no internet for a while. Eh oh well cause ill be busy with my CLOSE friends an my bf. Well I better get going now. Im at work an just messing around here. lol.. Take care.... ~Shorty~

Drunk Singing?
Why do people always sound better singing when they are drunk? LOL...I was drinking tonight and then went to sing with a buddy of mine to practice for this dang talent show shit and I think I sounded so much better tonight after a few Long Island Ice Teas in me! Is it true people sound better when they drunk or is it just the confidence level is foggy so they belt out all kinds of mess? LOL

Love Spoken Extemporaneously
The plethora of conniving women and distrustful men Made the proposition of acquiring true love an unfathomable notion At the hands of infidelity we’ve sustained emotional wounds Adulterous companions were afforded every opportunity to Renounce their philandering ways Still we tried forcing square pegs into rounded holes Until we completely exasperated our souls She was a good girl who just grew weary of Constantly being misled by a bad boy’s love And my weakening frame Began to deteriorate under the strain Of manipulative minds games I no longer had the desire to play Candidly we discussed the differences between needs, desires and wants For the first time in our lives we were going to Put ourselves above all others Forgoing the monotony Of feigning monogamy She and I brokered an alliance based upon sexual reciprocity We established a relationship of self indulgence That would be devoid of any emotional attachment Yet it becomes so easy to grow accustom to Merel

I Want It That Way
~*~*~*~*~You are my fire The one desire Believe when I say I want it that way But we are two worlds apart Can't reach to your heart When you say That I want it that way ~*~*~*~*~Tell me why Ain't nothin' but a heartache Tell me why Ain't nothin' but a mistake Tell me why I never wanna hear you say I want it that way ~*~*~*~*~Am I your fire Your one desire Yes I know it's too late But I want it that way Now I can see that we're falling apart From the way that it used to be, yeah No matter the distance I want you to know That deep down inside of me... ~*~*~*~*~You are my fire The one desire You are You are, you are, you are Don't wanna hear you say Ain't nothin' but a heartache Ain't nothin' but a mistake (Don't wanna hear you say) I never wanna hear you say I want it that way ~*~*~*~*~*~Tell me why Ain't nothin' but a heartache Tell me why Ain't nothin but a mistake Tell me why I never wanna hear you say (Don't wanna

Where Are You?!
there are times i swear i know your here when i forgot about my fears feeling you my dear watching over me my hope sees of what the future will bring when you ride me on your wings and take me... where you are where you and i will breathe together once again will be dancing in the moonlight just like we used to do and you'll be smilin back at me only then will i be free when i can be where you are nick: and i can see your face your kiss i still can taste not a memory erased jess: oh i see your star shining down on me and i'd do anything both: if i could just be right there where you are where you and i will breathe together once again will be dancing in the moonlight just like we used to do and you'll be smilin back at me only then will i be free when i can be where you are nick: now baby there are times when selfishly i wish that you are here with me so i can wipe the tears from your eyes and mak

Would You???
Thought I would post it just to see what people would say.... SO LET'S HEAR IT!!!! 1) Would you mind me being in control? 2) Would you spank my ass & pull my hair? 3) Would you talk dirty to me? 4) Would you kiss me with a lil' tongue, or a lot of tongue? 5) Would you go down on me? 6) Would you expect me to go down on you? 7) Would you let me kiss and lick all over ya' body? 8) Would you suck my toes? 9) How many rounds would we go? 10) What would you wanna do afterwards? 11) Would you strip for me?, What song would you strip to? 12) Would you lick, kiss, and bite all over me? 13) Would you like foreplay 1st, or just get straight to the point? 14) Would you take your time, if I told you to?? 15) Is it gonna be all about me, or you?? 16) Would you fall asleep when we're done?? 17) Would you want to go fast or slow?? 18) Where would you wanna do it at??? 19) Can you make me scream your name?? 20) Do you think that I coul

Wedding
Subject: wedding Below is a true story about a recent wedding that took place at Clemson: This was a huge wedding with about 300 guests. After the wedding at the reception, the groom got up on stage at the microphone to talk to the crowd. He said that he wanted to thank everyone for coming, many from long distances, to support them at their wedding. He especially wanted to thank the bride's and groom's families for coming and to thank his new father-in-law for providing such a fabulous reception. To thank everyone for coming and bringing gifts and everything, he said he wanted to give everyone a special gift from just him. So taped to the bottom of everyone's chair was a manila envelope, including the wedding party. He said that was his gift to everyone, and told everyone to open the envelopes. Inside each manila envelope was a 8x10 picture of his best man having sex with the bride (He had gotten suspicious of the two of them and hired a private detective to trail t

Things I Have Learned
You love at a cost. A cost of getting hurt, but we all go back to love in the long run. Do we like being hurt? No, but love is an everyday occurance and in order to love fully, we must endure the pain. You can't MAKE someone love you. All you can be is yourself and hope you are the person that person can love or learn to love. Giving up a person is a hard thing to do. It's easier to walk than to run. Meaning take one step at a time. You endure less pain that way. Never look back when walking away. If something was meant to be, it will happen again eventually. Crying is good for the soul. Cry everynight and wake up feeling refreshed. Nothing is guaranteed in life. All, these are a few truisms I have reflected on tonight as I was sitting in a bar by myself. I started out feeling sorry for myself and the life I have but then I reflected on these above statements and realize I can't change much. I can only be me. I can't make anyone like me. And I don't plan on chan

Tears Of A Cop
Tears of A Cop I have been where you fear to go... I have seen what you fear to see... I have done what you fear to do... All these things I've done for you. I am the one you lean upon... The one you cast your scorn upon... The one you bring your troubles to... All these people I've been for you. The one you ask to stand apart... The one you feel should have no heart... The one you call the man in blue... But I am human just like you. And through the years I've come to see... That I'm not what you ask of me... So take this badge and take this gun... Will you take it? Will anyone? And when you watch a person die... And hear a battered baby cry... Then so you think that you can be All those things you ask of me...?

Each Day.....
Each Day I live without you is a day without Life, It's Just another day, Another day with Nothing special to Breath easy for, Another Day, I feel Nothing but sorrow, If you live a Life with No Purpose, you have lived a life for Nothing, Another day you live without love is Another day in shadows, To Truly Love someone NOTHING will keep you apart.

The Price Of Children
The Price of Children This is just too good not to pass on to all. Something absolutely positive for a change. I have repeatedly seen the breakdown of the cost of raising a child, but this is the first time I have seen the rewards listed this way. It's nice. The government recently calculated the cost of raising a child from birth to 18 and came up with $160,140 for a middle income family. Talk about sticker shock! That doesn't even touch college tuition . But $160,140 isn't so bad if you break it down. It translates into: * $8,896.66 a year, * $741.38 a month, or * $171.08 a week. * That's a mere $24.24 a day! * Just over a dollar an hour . Still, you might think the best financial advice is don't have children if you want to be "rich." Actually, it is just the opposite. What do you get for your $160,140 ? * Naming rights. First, middle, and last! * Glimpses of God every day. * Giggles under the covers every night.

A Fire Inside....
Can Old sparks rekindle new Fires, I feel I have a Fire Raging In me for someone who I would die for, someone I would Kill for, Someone I would walk Thru Hell for, someone I would Put Above the world for her to see, I do Hope she Knows it in her heart and soul, For everyday I'm without you, I feel a piece of me silently leave my body like its the last breath I'll Take, You are My soul Mate, your are My One true Love, You are the One I want by my side when I die, you are the one, that will tell me Go to the Light, God awaits you, you are the one I want to be with on My dieing day......I Love you More then Life it's self!

Milk Bath
A lady always wanted to have a milk bath so she called the dairy and asked how much it would cost for a "milk bath", the gentleman asked "Do you want pasteurized?" ARE YOU READY FOR THIS "No, she replied, just up to my titties! he he he Tc n peace..Boo xo

Come To The Family Loungeee
GOOD EVENING EVERYONE .. IF YOU LIKE TO JOIN US AT THE FAMILY LOUNGE TO HEAR OUR OWN BIGDAWG DJ WITH SOME LIVE AWESOME SONGS .. WE BE HERE WAITING FOR YOU .. NEW MEMBERS COME JOIN AND MEET OUR OTHER FAMILY MEMBERS .. ATTE THE DEVILISH ONE

♥words Of A Stranger♥
Words Of A Stranger when the words of a stranger makes you feel...as if they have stolen your thoughts and made them their own @ that moment in time you realize you were never alone somewhere in this cold world someone feels as you do someone is in need of love as you are two trains of thought unknowingly traversing parallel tracks their destination...destiny how surreal is that? when the words of a stranger encompasses your entire being liberates your soul focuses your mind on sights your eyes are not able to see you have experienced something far greater than the exchanging of poetry when you are comforted by their intellect then drown within its depths when nothing satisfies you more than to be swept away in their stream of consciousness when you become their muse and they become your inspiration and in each others words you see the possibilities of the impossible the logic in the illogical when the words of a stranger stimulates you cerebrally

Rip
I just wanted to take a few mins and get sum things off my mind. I lost my life partner back in March and u would think as the days go by it would be easier but it dont. When I see couples together it really is hard for me. I can see the difference between whats real and whats fake. I was with this guy off and on for 18 years more on so da speak and over them 18 years we been through sum shit together from marraige to break-ups to cheating to jail to divorce and me having babies by other people. I know I have not been the person I should have been and I see that now and I dont ever want to live like that again so it makes it hard for me to believe that when u been with sumone and u split up there is a reason for that. I got told once an ex is an ex for a reason and it makes perfect sence now. But now is to late and I have to live with all the past decisions I have made. IT SUCKS..lol but I can only hope that if I should EVER meet anyone I wont make the same mistakes again. Loosing him

Sometimes....
SHe sat alone so many night wonderin what was going on where he was and why when she was the love of his life was she left alone?....when he walks in and sees her tear stained face she says... You made me hate you everytime you walked away..yopu made yourself loose what we had because u culdnt be there when i needed you the most..Now u accuse me of never being by your side and we both know deep down you telling a lie. I gave u me as much as icould I shaed with you things i swore i never would...and yet you can look me in the eye and tell me im at fault...well this time ill take the blame because maybe I was nt what you needed me to be...I am who i am every lil quirk and flaw and I happen to like me and im sorry u cant see..who i am who i was and who i have become....You shall move on with your life and I shall remain ...someone u can turn to when u need a friend but dont get angry with me when things I say arent exactly what you want to hear...Good luck and best wishes in all you d

Dear Friedns, Old And New
hey everyone, due to some things beyond my controll I will not be on tap very much for the next few weeks. sorry to all the love that I not had the chance to give out. but once I return I will give mad love out with avengence, and thank you to whoever bought the blast for me. I donno who to say thank you for but thank you all the same

Starting Anew
I have been offline for over a week. Did you miss me? I have had a lot of time to do some soul searching. A few things I know for sure. I hate being alone. I hate waking up to just my cats. I hate spending time just soul searching. I'm not sure what I'm doing wrong. I have been alone for almost 5 years now. The knock of opportunity is silent. My heart is open to suggestion. But no one wants my heart. Plenty want my body. Superficially. I want to love. I want to fill my life with love. But it is so hard. So hard. I'm so tired.

To Chris Benoit
To all of those who loved him. He will be sadly missed. I am having a hard time believeing that there was no foul play involved. But what do I know I am not an investator nor a police officer. I do know that when someone kills there family they would die with them not later on. I guess noone will ever know the truth cause noone was there. All we know is what we are told and that is what we have to go by. I know that I will miss him and he will forever be in my thoughts.

Broken Hearted Psalm
I sing to you, My dearest Friend. My heart full of sadness, That your sweet life, Has to end. Your smiling face, Your form full of grace. Will be missed, Here among us’ In this place. Sleep well Dear Heart, We say our good byes. With broken hearts And tears in our eyes. I lay a rose at your feet, Though I can’t be there, Where you sleep. You’ll always be with us, In that I will trust. So good bye, My Dear Friend. I love you, you know I will feel you with me’ Where the warm breezes blow. You’ll be here in the wind, When the early bird sings. I’ll hear your laughter, In every bell that will ring.

I Hate........
tonight i had my ex call me... he's been trying to get me back and i wanted to give him another chance just so that i would be able to say that i didn't give up you know. well he fucking calls me and asks if i talked to one of his friends. and when i told him that i didn't i asked why... then he precedes to tell me that he said something that was kinda fucked up and that i should take it to heart... well he started to just skirt around the issue and i finally just got pissed was like what the fuck did you say.... he tells me that he told his friends that i was going hill fast just like all of his other ex's... well at first i was surprised so i didn't react then when i wasn't shocked anymore i flipped out on him... i can't believe he said that about me... well two can play that game if he wants but i don't have the energy for the bullshit... i'm done if he wants to play them games he can find someone who will put up with his inability to have a job, lack of bedroom skills, immaturi

New On Here But Like It
Well - I didn't know about this site before untill I checked one of my mentors sites (though I don't know her personally - just love what she's doing with her career). Definitely gonna link this up with my website www.MonicaF.com Man has that site evolved over the years. It's taken some time, but now I have a crystal clear picture as to exactly how I want the site to look, feel and be (at least for now). I uploaded a notice today as to the renovations underway for the site, so if you want to get a feel as to the vibe of what I'm doing, check out the front page. In other news, no word from my...well I'll just say it: "Ex" and I don't expect to hear anything, but guess what I'm glad. No more relationships for me for at LEAST a year. Funny thing about life is that it always goes on and you know what, mine's revved up to about 100mph since Saturday and I'm not slowing down so if you can't handle the ride - get the hell off. I want to start a podcast. I don't even have an ipod, but I ha

The First Time We Met
The first time we met I just knew, That my life would change, because of you, My heart was such a lonely place, Yet the look in your eyes and the smile on your face, I asked if you would like a drink, Then in your presents I let myself sink, It only took a short while for me to fall, Sadly it took longer for me to make the call, It was then with heart aglow, I knew that I loved you so, Our love grew and you chased away my strife, All emptiness now gone from my once lonely life, You fill my days, With your love and in many other ways, Now it’s to you I give my love and heart, Wherever you are or when we are apart.

Poem For A Friend
The following poem was found on http://www.fortunecity.com/meltingpot/eagle/284/friends.htm , and I wanted to let that person know I think very highly of him no matter what... Who Is A Friend? A friend is like a flower, a rose to be exact, Or maybe like a brand new gate that never comes unlatched. A friend is like an owl, both beautiful and wise. Or perhaps a friend is like a ghost, whose spirit never dies. A friend is like those blades of grass you can never mow, standing straight, tall, and proud in a perfect little row. A friend is like a heart that goes strong until the end. Where would we be in this world if we didn't have a friend.

One Of These Days
one of these days, happiness will find me, One of these days, my true love will walk in that door, One of these days, I wont have to argue anymore, One of these days, my life will be my own, One of these days, I wont feel loneliness anymore, One of these days, I will actually start to care, One of these days, I wont feel like a total failure, One of these days, my heart will rejoice, One of these days, heartache and pain will disappear, One of these days, I will be able to say I am the luckiest person in the world, One Of These Days, All Of My Dreams Will Come True

Another Day And All That...
*stretches* Tonight was an easy night at work. 3 and 1/2 hours in and out. When I walked in the woman running the store got excited. Apparently last time the store went so poorly because they had bad counters. well.. maybe not bad just inexperienced. It went well tonight though, thank god. Tomorrow is an early morning. (And what am I doing? Fucking around CT of course. Hehe.) I have the easiest job though. Aside from the hours of course. I count stuff for a living, and whats more is normally I don't have to count higher than 10 since I have a machine. Why do people find this to be difficult. The keying I can understand. It's a little strange to 10 key on your hip. But it gets easier the more you do it. I dunno... somepeople have smoked themselves retarded. I don't know that its a good excuse though.. I know some people I work with who are down to their last brain cell and yet they can key. Go figure.

No Hero!
MIAMI (Reuters) - Professional wrestling superstar Chris Benoit killed his wife and 7-year-old son before hanging himself from his weight machine, authorities said on Tuesday. ADVERTISEMENT Investigators said the murder-suicide happened over Friday and Saturday in the suburban Atlanta home where the bodies of Benoit, his wife and young son were found on Monday. Nicknamed "The Rabid Wolverine" and "The Canadian Crippler," Benoit had canceled two events in Texas over the weekend citing an undisclosed "family emergency," his employer, World Wrestling Entertainment, said on its Web site. Benoit then sent "several curious text messages" to friends early Sunday morning and this prompted authorities to check on him and his family at their home, the statement said. Autopsy results showed that Benoit first murdered his wife, Nancy. She was bound at the feet and wrists and died of asphyxiation sometime on Friday, Fayette County District Attorney Scott Ballard told a news conference. She was wrap

Oh... Yes. I Almost Forgot.
Hmmm. How to say this. And I know you're going to call me conceited, or at least think it. I get pleasure from being watched. I don't mean in the weird peeping tom voyeuristic thing. But what really gets me is those that know they'll be caught looking - at my new pictures, at what I write. They remember what happened, but maybe never knew why. And so they continue to watch what I do. Looking for clues. Hey... and I told this to Eric the other day - "With guys, when its over its over... when we turn that page we don't go back and none of us can ever explain why. Sometimes we turn the page immediately after that first time. And we make up some lame excuse about having to be "up early". Other times, two years go by and BAM! in an instant you went from forever material to spitting up in the back of my mouth." I don't know why and whoever he was doesn't know why. So don't ask. But back to what I was saying, I notice everything. As much as you didn't think I kne

Pulling Me Back
Come notice me :: And take my hand So why are we :: Strangers when Our love is strong -- Why carry on without me? And everytime I try to fly :: I fall without my wings I feel so small /// I guess I need you baby And everytime I see you in my dreams I see your face, it's haunting me I guess I need » you baby I make believe // That you are here It's the only way :: I see clear What have I done :: You seem to move on easy And everytime I try to fly I fall without my wings I feel so small I guess I need you baby And everytime I see you in my dreams I see your face, it's haunting me I guess I need you baby I may have made it rain Please forgive me My weakness caused you pain And this song is my sorry -- Ohhhh -- At night I pray // That soon your face Will fade away And everytime I try to fly I fall without my wings I feel so small I guess I need you baby And everytime I see you in my dreams I see your face, it's haunting me I guess I ne

Booze Or Water?
You just never know all the facts ! Reason to Drink! Booze or Water In a number of carefully controlled trials, scientists have demonstratedthat if we drink 1 liter of water each day, at the end of the year wewould have absorbed more than 1 kilo of Escherichia Coli (E.Coli)bacteria found in feces. In other words, we are consuming 1 kilo ofpoop. However, we do not run that risk when drinking wine, rum, whiskey, beeror other liquor because alcohol has to go through a purification processof boiling, filtering and/or fermenting. Remember:Water = Poop Booze = Health Therefore, it's better to drink booze and talk stupid, than to drinkwater & be full of shit. There's no need to thank me for this valuable information; I'm doing it as a public service.

Our Nature
Why is it we find ourselves sometimes giving control of our feelings and emotional responses over to another? Not total control, but we let them influence those things to the point where we can't understand them ourselves anymore. Getting lost in a person because they felt right, and then you realize you feel incomplete when they aren't around. Then when they say something unexpected, the anger sets in. That confusing point where we realize, I don't have complete control of my emotional responses. I did last week. Why don't I now? Its unnerving. I'm taking back possession of my emotional responses and keeping them my own. The world at large isn't ready for them anyhow.

Native_rebels Family List
Please check back here from time to time to see the update version as we get new members added to our family!!!! Please take the time to SHOW your love to our MEMBERS and those who you might have missed as "new" family members! THANKS! lxl_purple_lxl ~~founder~~Native_Rebels~@ CherryTAP RECK ~Founder~Native_Rebels~@ CherryTAP MJ~Native_Rebels~@ CherryTAP Amdukias~Native_Rebels~@ CherryTAP Dragon~Proud Member of Native_Rebels~@ CherryTAP theking381~Native_Rebels~@ CherryTAP foxx~Native_Rebels~@ CherryTAP acidburn~Native_Rebels~@ CherryTAP

~~the Passing Of An Old Friend~~
Today we mourn the passing of a beloved old friend, Common Sense, who has been with us for many years. No one knows for sure how old he was, since his birth records were long ago lost in bureaucratic red tape. He will be remembered as having cultivated such valuable lessons as: Knowing when to come in out of the rain; Why the early bird gets the worm; Life isn't always fair; and Maybe it was my fault. Common Sense lived by simple, sound financial policies (don't spend more than you can earn) and reliable strategies (adults, not children, are in charge). His health began to deteriorate rapidly when well-intentioned but overbearing regulations were set in place. Reports of a 6 -year- old boy charged with sexual harassment for kissing a classmate; teens suspended from school for using mouthwash after lunch; and a teacher fired for reprimanding an unruly student, only worsened his condition. Common Sense lost ground when parents attacked teachers for doing the job that they th

Church Attendance
Selection from Wealth, Women, and War raw cut (it is unedited at this point). Church attendance is still an expected ritual for people of the relatively middle-class normative culture. To live the idea of Christianity is not expected. This can best be described in a reversal of the old cliché. It would be, "do as I do, not as I say." The expectation is to park ones fanny in the pew for four hours a week, pay the weekly dues, and go about life without rocking the boat, or asking any real questions. To the uninitiated and the condemning, Christian-basing idealist this sounds like lunacy. However it does go back to the function of the Church in the United States . It is neutral ground upon which a person can stand and for a few hours, once a week, feel good about themselves, or find a personal fix for a personal problem so long as that fix does not require a long term investment of real capitol. Primarily, the people of the United States go to church to convince themselves they

Ahh The Return
im bk n at it again..here at good ol cherry tap, i was away for a little bit..but i have returned..Im gon to make a new layout as soon as i get my website layout done..which should be by tommorow with the help of a special someone who just rocks..just wanted to post an update.. XOXOXO

People Are Werid
You think with age people tend to grow up and tell each other things that need to be said it sucks because some cant and I make a point to say how I feel does hurt though people cant do the same by coming to you first what can I say the world sucks And fake people do suck so for the real 1's left out their love ya and hope you dont turn your back on me I had to deal with it enough in the last month already

I'm Tired
I AM NOT AS STUPID AS SOME THINK I AM !! AS I HAVE SAID I DO NOT LIE OR DOBREAK PROMISE'S !! I AM SILLY NOT STUPID !! STUPID IN BELIEVING IN PEOPLE YES I GUESS THERE I AM !! BUT NOT ANYMORE I WILL STAY ME BUT A BETTER ME !! SO IF YOU SEE CHANGES IN ME YOU WILL KNOW WHY !! I HAVE LIED TOO AND PROMISE'S BROKEN !! AS MOST OF YOU KNOW I HAVE BEEN SICK I GOT THE NEW'S TODAY !! IT DOESN'T MATTER !! ALL I HAVE ASKED FROM THE START IS TRUTH AND I WILL DO THE SAME, BUT INSTEAD I GOT LIES AND BROKEN PROMISE'S !! NO PROBLEM I KNOW ITS HIS LOSS NOT MINE !! HE'LL NEVER KNOW WHAT HE IS MISSING !! YOU ALL HAVE A GOOD TIME I AM...THE NEW ME IS BACK & DOING GREAT !!

Oooooook, Lets Get A Few Things Straight
Ladies, ladies, ladies... Let's just get a few things out of the way here. Ok? (And tell me if this sounds familiar guys...) We're talking and conversating and in the course of the dialogue you start sending me pics of your boobs (oh yeah, you sent them "because (I) didn't ask to see your boobs") and you're askin to be in my fam and whatnot. Cool. I like boobs (And no she never saw my Man). I get ya there on the fam list thinking to myself, "wow, boobs AND good conversation. Cool." No big deal. Anyways, I log in the next day. You're there on my fam. I check out your away message and it goes something like this... "Missing Him". Ummm, ok well we all miss people I guess. I look a couple hours later and its saying "He makes me smile." Then, "Thinking of Cali". Then whatever a hoe-ish internet skank would say next. Ok, at this point you're off the fam. This isn't rocket science. Nah, you're not my girl, but I don't like looking at a hoe's face when I log

The Demon With In
he dwells with in, he lauphs at my pain. he demands my blood, and i give it to him. little cuts of pain and pleasure, little cuts of obedence. HE WANTS IT, HE WANTS MY BLOOD, SO HE GETS IT. i cant stop it, no more heart ach, i cant take it. no more pain. ill let it out. let the blood pour. 13 slashes, and 13 more, lets my heart fall to the floor. and the demon? he is inside me, forever more.

This Would Mess With Your Mind If You Were Hammered
THIS IS A PAINTED BATHROOM FLOOR!!!!!!!! *IMAGINE YOU ARE AT A PARTY on the tenth floor....* *YOU'VE BEEN DRINKING......* *(not that you would...)* *AND THEN YOU HAVE TO VISIT THE BATHROOM.... * *You open the door.... ** NOW, REMEMBER,* *THE FLOOR IS JUST* *! A PAINTED FLOOR!** KINDA TAKES YOUR BREATH AWAY.....* *DOESN'T IT?*

Cookie Salesmanship
On his way in to our local grocery, a man was stopped by a gaggle of small girls selling Girl Scout cookies. When he said Yes, he'd take a box, a Brownie asked, "What kind?" Helpfully he inquired, "Oh, let's see - which is your slowest seller?" The tiny spokesperson thought a minute, then, pointing toward another girl, stating emphatically, "Brittany!"

What Love Is To Me...
People on CT are always asking... is it love at first sight? In my eyes, love has to be earned. It is not love at first sight, although it might be lust. Love grows with time. I asked a friend once, what is love? They said something that has stuck with me since. They said love is trust, someone that is honest with you, can make you laugh and back you up. It was the back you up part, that got to me. I was in a 20 year relationship and I have never had that. The trust in a person, that they would truly back me up. I want that. I want to trust someone with all my heart. I also feel that love is accepting that person for who they are, goofiness and all. And actually enjoy them for it. And the willingness to communicate. Am I asking to much? Not in my eyes.

Have You Ever Held A Grudge?
Have you ever held a grudge? I admit that I do hold them . Not to the point of trully hating someone - I evantually forgive and get over it. However once I feel I have been wronged in some way- there are no second chances. I forgive, move on, and do not look back. Character Flaw?? Perhaps,but it is just the way I am. This is me and and till now not nobody has been able to change this !!!!!!!!!!

My Dear Friend
A DEAR FRIEND OF MINE FROM HERE ON CHERRYTAP IS QUITTING DUE TO THE FACT HE HAS CANCER AND IS IN SO MUCH PAIN HE CAN'T SIT AT THE PUTER AND KEEP IN TOUCH WITH ALL THOSE HE CARES ABOUT ON HERE... HE IS SUCH A GREAT GUY AND HE DOESNT DESERVE TO BE GOING THRU ALL THE PAIN HE IS .... HE IS GONNA TRY TO GET ON WHEN HE CAN CAUSE HE WILL MISS ALL HIS FRIENDS AND THOSE THAT TRUELY CARE ABOUT HIM WILL MISS HIM.... PLEASE PRAY FOR HIM AND IF POSSIBLE AND U WANT TO LET HIM KNOW U R THINKING ABOUT HIM... IF U WISH TO DO SO I WOULD APPRECIATE IT... HUGZZZZ TO U ALL AND MY LOVE TO U ALL CASSIE

Contest
hey all of my friends here on cherry tap!!!! i am in a contest and need your help, click on the link below and it will take you to the contest. it is for one week and it ends on monday night. thanks to you who have helped out already and to those who help me from now till the end of the contest.

Bitches On Ct.
What the hell is up with some bitches? I viewed this one dumb ugly ass bitch, and didn't rate her until the second time, and she comes at me like a fucking psycho!!! I finally rated her, a 10 by the way, and then she fucking blocks me.. get over yourself... fucking bitch.

~ Alice In Chains Mtv Unplugged ~
Full Lenght Show Inlcuding Bloopers and other. Alice In Chains Live In Concert April 10. 1996 Nutshell – 4:58 Brother – 5:27 No ... all » Excuses – 4:57 Sludge Factory(Including Blooper) – 4:36 Down In A Hole – 5:46 Angry Chair – 4:36 Rooster – 6:41 Got Me Wrong – 4:59 Heaven Beside You – 5:38 Would? – 3:43 Frogs – 7:30 Over Now – 7:12 Killer Is Me – 5:23 1 hr 12 min clipped from video.google.com

Life...i Like This
It's not selfish to live the way you want to live; it's only selfish if you're trying to force other people to live that way, too. If someone looks askance at your choices, remind yourself that you're hurting no one.

People
Ok why do people for some reason go out and buy a live breathing animal? Then later go out some where and just drop them off anywhere ??? I mean why buy something to just throw it out to die or get killed???? I do rescue rabbits , and this year alone I have rescued a few more this year then the last couple that we have been doing this.... I love saveing bunnies, but if you buy some thing plz do not just throw it out!!!!

Summer's Blessing
Create Your Own Countdown The sole element on this earth that with no effort can fuse all the pieces me back together and show me the reflection of who I am, and better yet, without a word, just her presence, can convince me that I am sufficient in just being that, ...me. And I'll be the first to admit I dont make that easy. The one who can make all the rhetoric and stresses of each day evaporate with just her smile. In less than 12 hours...my daughter will be home. I find myself pacing the floor, wanting to decorate, prepare a fireworks display of proportion that would land me in jail, rent a skywriter, lol, but then I realize she will light up the place all her own once her eyes find me at the airport. Anyway, I may be a lil scarce in the coming month to those that communicate with me regularly, but I will be on here and there, and will try my best to keep up on things best I can. Some will only miss what I do for their page, some will actually miss me, either wa

My Love Values Test
Merritt, when you're head over heels, you are a Steady Mate You're the kind of romantic partner that others truly count on in times of distress. This is true because your logical mind allows you to remain cool-headed during crises. Because people look to lean on you, you will sometimes be viewed as a hero in your relationships. People who value your calm, rational nature will make a great match for you.

What Kind Of Seducer Are You?
Your Seduction Style: Sweet Talker Your seduction technique can be summed up with "charm" You know that if you have the chance to talk to someone... Well, you won't be talking for long! ;-) You're great at telling potential lovers what they want to hear. Partially, because you're a great reflective listener and good at complementing. The other part of your formula? Focusing your conversation completely on the other person. Your "sweet talking" ways have taken you far in romance - and in life. You can finess your way through any difficult situation, with a smile on your face. Speeding tickets, job interviews... bring it on! You truly live a *charmed life* What Kind of Seducer Are You?

Update On Baby And I...
I've had a lot of people ask how the baby and I are doing - we're doing GREAT! :) I had my genetic couseling appt yesterday and it went really well. :) Since I'm so OLD (yep, they think I'm OLD at 35), they have to refer me for genetic screening to make sure I have a healthy baby. Well, after my blood tests and ultrasounds, they determined that there is VERY little chance of my baby having any problems, so that was very reassuring! I'm still fairly sick most of the day, and can tolerate only very few foods but it's much better than it was! I've been going crazy cleaning house and fixing things/completing projects in the yard and house. I can't stop! I'm only just under 4 months pregnant and I'm going nuts with the urge to clean and take care of things. :) Well, I'll shut up now, I just wanted to let everyone know how things are going. :) Much love to all! XOXOXOXO!!!

Thanks All
For the CT mails, shouts etc. about me possibliy leaving CT. So much is going on in real life. I dunno anymore. I love it here at CT. But at the same time honestly its not fun for me like it used to be :( Dunno right now if I am staying or not! Yes I have alot of friends :) Met some great people in person. You all know you are! But in all honestly is getting full of some game players, liars and so forth. I know, I know this is CT and the internet bound to be some bad apples as they say. I guess I am just so confused right now!!!!!!!! In closing if I do leave I would love to keep in touch with each and everyone of you if its possible!!! I will keep everyone posted as to my decision on this matter!!!!!!!! Hugs all around to all! Army Mom PS! THE PLAYERS AND LIAR WAS MENT FOR A COUPLE OF PEOPLE WHO ARE NO LONGER ON MY FRIENDS LIST! NOT FOR MY FRIENDS!

~ The Doors Live - Hollywood Bowl 1968 ~
The legendary rock group, The Doors, were at their musical peak when this concert footage was taken. Filmed live at the Hollywood Bowl in ... all » the summer of 1968, Jim Morrison and the band perform an extended version of "Light My Fire," plus ten of their other most love songs, taking a standing room only audience on an aural journey of mystical worlds and psychedelic experiences. 1 hr 2 min clipped from video.google.com

My Values Test
Merritt, your values help make you a Responsible Friend Your giving and honest nature makes you the kind of person almost anyone would be proud to call a friend. As one who places a high value on your personal integrity, you seem to try to live by the ol' Golden Rule: Do unto others as you would have them do unto you. Because of this inclination, you're the type to insist on taking responsibility for your actions, even in difficult circumstances. You also appear to take conscious steps to honor your commitments to others.

My Handwritting Analysis
Merritt, your handwriting reveals that you are Orderly Your writing style reflects that you like things to be neat and orderly, and that you generally follow the rules necessary to keep things clear. Is it your signature, your line spacing, or your style of indenting that gives you away?

My Love Personality Type
Merritt, your love personality type is ENTJ About 3-5% of the U.S. population possesses the combination of traits that make up this personality type. Being an ENTJ means that you've got a bit of a rebellious streak in you. So rather than being the kind who follows, you'll usually choose to lead the pack. You also appear to love a challenge more than most others do. So if somebody wants something done, all they have to do is tell you that it's impossible. You're apt to show them then and there how you can make it happen. You're not one to be easily discouraged in any aspect of your life. So if someone catches your eye, you'll likely find a way to get to know them come hell or high water. You're not just a dreamer. You're a doer. In relationships, you usually have a clear sense of where you want things to lead. You also know how to take charge of a situation to help things go your way. You can exude a personal strength and confidence that really wins people over. Your friendly

Do You Know Your Hymns?
Do you know your HYMNS? The Dentist's Hymn........................Crown Him with Many Crowns The Weatherman's Hymn........There Shall Be Showers of Blessings The Contractor's Hymn.................The Church is One Foundation The Tailor's Hymn........................Holy, Holy, Holy The Golfer's Hymn..................There is a Green Hill Far Away The Politician's Hymn...................Standing on the Promises The Optometrist's Hymn.................Open My Eyes That I Might See The IRS Agent's Hymn.............................I Surrender All The Gossip's Hymn....................................Pass It On The Electrician's Hymn............................Send The Light The Shopper's Hymn.............................Sweet Bye and Bye The Realtor's Hymn...I've Got a Mansion Just over the Hilltop The Massage Therapists Hymn .....................He Touched Me The Doctor's Hymn..............The Great Physician AND for those who speed on the highway - a few hymns: 45mph.

On Censorship
"Censorship of anything, at any time, in any place, on whatever pretense, has always been and always be the last resort of the boob and the bigot." -- Eugene Gladstone O'Neill, American playwright "Restriction on free thought and free speech is the most dangerous of all subversions. It is the one un-American act that could most easily defeat us." -- William O. Douglas "I am opposed to any form of tyranny over the mind of man." -- Thomas Jefferson "Censorship reflects society's lack of confidence in itself. It is a hallmark of an authoritarian regime." -- Supreme Court Justice Potter Stewart "All censorships exist to prevent any one from challenging current conceptions and existing institutions. All progress is initiated by challenging current conceptions, and executed by supplanting existing institutions. Consequently the first condition of progress is the removal of censorships." -- George Bernard Shaw NSFW = CENSORSHIP

Playlist For The Week Of 6/19/07 - 6/26/07.
Cancer - The Sins Of Mankind Cannibal Corpse - Tomb Of The Mutilated Celtic Frost - Into The Pandemonium Ceremony - The Days Before The Death Demo Dehumanized - Prophecies Foretold Deicide - Once Upon The Cross Deicide - Serpents Of The Light Dirty Rotten Imbeciles - Crossover Disincarnate - Dreams Of The Carrion Kind Echoes Of Eternity - The Forgotten Goddess Exhumed - Gore Metal Exodus - Impact Is Imminent Hallows Eve - Tales Of Terror Iron Maiden - The Number Of The Beast Iron Maiden - Seventh Son Of A Seventh Son Kiss - Dressed To Kill Kiss - Asylum Macabre - Murder Metal Malevolent Creation - Retribution Master - Master Megadeth - Killing Is My Business...And Business Is Good! Mercyful Fate - Don't Break The Oath Motley Crue - Shout At The Devil Nuclear Assault - Survive Obituary - Don't Care EP Overkill - The Killing Kind Pestilence - Spheres Scatterbrain - Mundus Intellectualis Sinister - Bastard Saints EP Skid Row - Slave To The Grind Slayer - Show

4 Schools And Portfoilo
Im looking for some friends to model dressed or undressed. Im in a life study class 4 school and to build my protfoilo. It strictly coincidental ad no one will see them unless u want them out or what not. I do do photography as well so if u want some help with photos in return that just ask or even if u want some dont just let me know and we can see what I can do and that. Let me know.

Omg I Just Wanted To Deck Her
Ok, well some of you don't know this but my parents are in the middle of a divorce. Well this is the second divorce, my mother was married twice. The house I live in is my mom and stepfathers. Well my stepfather and his gf and her two kids wanted to come over and go swimming. I never really care if they do. Well everything was going good. Then his gf and her daughter who is 17 left and went to work. My stepfather left to take her son to get his bike and her son's father met up with them and then they all came back over to go swimming. We were all having fun until my dad's gf came back from work. She is the kind of person who bitches at EVERYTHING. She's cool when she's not bitching which is like 10% of the time. Anyways, her ex was getting ready to leave and my dad was doing the decent thing and walking him out to his car and bsing with him. I got sick and tired of her bitching so I went out front with the guys just to bullshit. And then me and my dad came in the house and I was getti

How Could You
You took me for a year long ride You said everything that I wanted to hear Yet at the end it was nothing but lies I showed you my love I gave you a ring Yet at the end it did not mean a damn thing For two weeks you had someone else on your mind You smiled in my face but at the same time you left me behind "An emotional affair" how could you come with that shit! You told another lie and you still could not be legit Every piece of money I made came directly to you The bills where paid and the money you made The choice was yours to do what you wanted to do I never asked you for a thing Not one penny, not one dime Yet I made sure you had everything you needed on time Now you are putting me out Not having a place to lay my head But if I remember correctly I was the one that brought you a bed Everytime I look in your face It will always bring a sour taste You will never know what you did to me The fire will always burn in my

*~ I Am Creation ~*
MotherPeace *~ I Am Creation ~* Riding A Tide In Early Morning I Am The Wind And Sun. On The Green Grass Lawn In A Country Yard, I Am The Dew. I Am Wind, I Am Sun, I Am The Water Of Life. I Feed The Lonely Creatures That Live Upon This Lonely Planet. A Berry Bush In Mountains High. A Summer Flower In Green Meadows. The Cows Velvet Carpet And The Milk Of Loving Cud. I Am The Song Of The Wind As It Rises High Through The Tallest Of Trees Of The World . I Am The Violent, Peaceful, Changing Rivers That Cover This Earth In A Glorious Pattern Of Branches And Roots, Connecting The Bonds Between Water And Land . The Islands Of The Mysterious Ocean, The Tears Of The Sky; The Thunder Of The Universe The Miracles Of Nature, The Colors Of Sky And Land I Am Rich Brown Earth Mixing With The Elements I Am The Fire That Burns With In Creation, Not By Man Made Hands But Mother Nature's Spirit Many Have Mistaken My Identity I Have None.

Let Me Know Whhat You Think?
The day the ring slid on my finger, I was scared of what the future would hold. But yet 10 years later, here you still stand, By my side, vowing to never let go. The twists and turns our lives have wound. The bumps and hills that we found. The evils we fought. The gifts we won. All made made us stronger now. Made us one. You and I Our lives so wound. My Life. My Love I am so glad i found.

Tuesday 06/26/2007
A thought for the day from: Peter Britt "The moment she fell in my arms was surely meant in time, this passion in her eyes I saw the lover I would find. The days which followed after, though filled with fleshful want, were never more remembered than the moment she did say, her heart enslaved to me now, in rapture we should stay. A lustful loving moment, a lasting place in time, eternities pass by us and still she is, but mine. Her heart will never wander, her eyes see only me, she looks into the future with the thought of what might be. And as our lips together, create the firestorm, she turns to me and whispers you'll never be alone. A moment lighted in the world for two alone to share, the storm goes unabated and passion has it's way, again this day." © 2007 Peter Britt Krystal Vision Producitons

Can Someone Explain Why
Okay I will admit that I do not follow wrestling but please tell me why people are making a maytar out of this Daniel Beniot guy? He strangled his wife and suffocated his 7 year old son...... If he was anyone else would people make him a maytar? I think not we would call him a coward for what he did.... He make have been a great wrestler but to me he is a coward that killed two people before taking his own life..... He is not a person that I would want my kids to look up too.....Do you? If people get offended I am sorry I just dont understand why he is made out to be something so special when he did something so horrible...

Hot
hi guys todays weather report is that it is hooooooooooooooot tommorrow too hi in the 90s im trying to keep cool buy laying in front of the fan leaving in a trailer it gts hot in here quikley calling for rain tomorrow chance maybe i hope any who have a good night and i'll see you in the morning

For Trey Hale R.i.p
Her young life a mystery to me. To be thirteen is something she'll never see. Her life taken away when she was so young. Erased for all time before it had begun. What kind of god can take away so precious and new. And how many lives will regret not ever knowing you.

Poem
The feel of your touch Your bodys sweet embrace Here for a moment Then gone without a trace Your Bodys gone But your presence still remains I can see your face It drives me insane A tear down my cheek At a thought of our lost romance Caught up in the moment And lost in a trance Life has been unfortinate A thought I cant grasp Not living for the now But still caught up in the past I can feel your breath upon my neck As I lay here alone Memeries begin to surface And time is set in stone I start to gasp My throat is caving in I cant breath I'm a losing a battle I'll never win I can still remember The energy in your voice But now your gone And I know it was your choice Life can be so cruel I'm dying inside I miss you so much I have nowhere to hide A heart broken in two A love that was divine The damage is done No happy ending this time!

Baby, Baby - Amy Grant
Baby, baby, I'm taken with the notion To love you with the sweetest of devotion Baby, baby, my tender love will flow from The bluest sky to the deepest ocean Stop for a minute Baby, I'm so glad you're mine, yeah You're mine Baby, baby, the stars are shinin' for you And just like me, I'm sure that they adore you Baby, baby, go walkin' through the forest The birds above a-singin' you a chorus Stop for a minute Baby, they're so glad you're mine, oh yeah And ever since the day You put my heart in motion Baby, I realize that there's Just no getting over you Baby, baby, in any kind of weather I'm here for you always and forever Baby, baby, no muscle man could sever My love for you is true and it will never Stop for a minute Baby, I'm so glad you're mine And ever since the day You put my heart in motion Baby, I realize There's no getting over you And ever since the day You put my heart in motion Baby, I realize that there's Just no getting over you Ove

I Guess Me At Times
My BFF April called me today and said this song reminds her of me that I should look it up and listen ...she said it made her cry thinking of me needless to say I was speechless when I heard and a bit misty eyed...hopefully some girl out there will here it and realize she is more than she thought

My Communication Style
Merritt, when talking to your partner, you're a Diplomat. This means that you tend to be a cooperative partner with first-rate listening and negotiation skills. Above all, you seem to try to keep the lines of communication open between you and your significant other. In your mind, it's usually far better to talk about problems as they arise rather than sweep them under the rug. For you to really feel connected to your special someone, it's important that they hear and understand you. Ordinarily, you'll return this courtesy tenfold by paying close attention to your partner's perspective. Experts agree that for a couple to thrive, they must be able to communicate. People with compatible communication styles tend to bring out the best in one another because their approach to relationships is like-minded. But if you're with someone whose communication style clashes with yours, you're headed for more challenges than most.

Am I A Risk Taker?
Merritt, you take the most risks when it comes to Following Your Heart Whether you're searching for your soul mate or you've already found a special someone, you're not afraid to take your chances in the realm of romance. Listening to your heart, and even putting it on the line, is part of your romantic nature. Love can be a gamble, and for a passionate person like you, it's better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all. You'll never find your soul mate if you don't try. Besides, it'll help you figure what you're really looking for in a perfect partner. So keep following your heart. It's sure to take you on a romantic ride!

Come Back
Hey to all my friends in Chicago Im comeing back on Sunday and will be back till the 6th and then back for about 3 mounts for school. I would love to hit it up with any of u and just do what ever. Let me know if u want to hang with me or not since I still don't know to many people and am trying to get out once in a while. Hope to hear from some of u soon.

What Was I In A Past Life?
Merritt, you could have been a famous Explorer Someone has to be the first to dive in, and it might as well be you. From sailing uncharted waters to climbing mountain peaks to exploring foreign lands, you've got a bold spirit and a brave soul. Not one to shy away from a challenge, you enjoy pushing the boundaries. Whether you were the first to reach the New World or the top of the mountain, there isn't much you won't try. Courageous and adventurous, it's all about testing the limits and taking life to new heights. With that kind of attitude, you're sure to go far in any life!

Cherish
Let's take a walk together, near the ocean shore -- Hand in hand you and I. Let's cherish every moment we have been given -- The time is passing by. I often pray before I lay down - by your side If you receive your calling before I awake, Could I make it through the night? Cherish the love we have. We should cherish the life we live. Cherish the love, Cherish the life, Cherish the love. Cherish the love we have, For as long as we both shall live. Cherish the love, Cherish the life, Cherish the love. The world is always changing; Nothing stays the same -- But love will stand the test of time. The next life that we live in Remains to be seen -- Will you be by my side? I often pray before I lay down - by your side. If you receive your calling before I awake, Could I make it through the night? Cherish the love we have, We should cherish the life we live. Cherish the love, Cherish the life, Cherish the love. Cherish the love we have, For as long as we b

What Are You Worth!!
OK so here's the deal. You look it over and see how many of these things you have done. BUT you have to add up the money amount along the way, then post the amount that you are as the title of the bulletin such as "$15" or I'm worth $78" or something to that affect! Smoked pot-- $10 Got drunk, passed out and don’t remember the night before-- $20 Went skinny dipping-- $5 Had sex in a pool-- $20 Kissed someone of the same sex-- $10 Had sex with someone of the same sex $20 Cheated on your g/f, b/f or spouse -- $10 Cheated on your g/f, b/f or spouse with their relative or close friend--$20 Done oral-- $5 Got oral-- $5 Done / got oral in a car while it was moving --$25 Prank called the cops-- $5 Stole something-- $10 Stole something worth over more than a hundred dollars--$20 Had sex with someone 10 years older-- $20 Had sex with someone under 21 and you are over 27--$25 Cried yourself to sleep-- $5 Cried during sex--$20

My Perfect Date
Merritt, your perfect date is a Cultured Sophisticate Sure, sweet dates are great, but you know a more refined mind trumps all. With your smarts and love of a quick wit, you should definitely date someone who can hold their own when it comes to worldly affairs. From spending time on Sunday morning with the NYT to talking about a newsworthy event, you're most stimulated by a mature date that can keep you on your toes.

At This Moment
What did you think I would at this moment? When you're standing before me With tears in your eyes? Trying to tell me that you - You found you another, And you just don't love me no more. What did you think I would say at this moment? When I'm faced with the knowledge That you just don't love me? Did you think I would curse you Or say things to hurt you 'Cause you just don't love me no more? Did you think I could hate you, Or raise my hands to you? Now, come on you know me too well. How I could I hurt you, When, darlin', I love you? And you know, I could never hurt you, ooh, ohh, ooh. What did you think I would give at this moment? If you'd stay I'd subtract Twenty years from my life. I'd fall down on my knees, Kiss the ground that you walk on If I could just hold you again. I'd fall down on my knees Kiss the ground that you walk on, baby If I could just hold you - If I could just hold you - If I, if I could just hold you Again.

New Ct Lounge
MY FRIEND STARTEDD A CT LOUNGE COME HANG CAUSE WERE TRYNA GET NEW PEOPLE. I WILL BE IN THERE CAUSE I HEAD THE LOUNGE TO . GOTO http://cherrytap.com/lounge.php?l=7933# COME AND CHILL WITH ME THANKS THE VIXEN P.S. We Might do a giveaway

Brain Teaser Test
Congratulations! Your score is in the 91st percentile. This means that if one hundred people took the test with you, your score would rank higher than 90 of them on average. When we analyzed your test, we also discovered that when it comes to linguistic-mathematical ability, you measure in the 100th percentile. This score indicates you have unusually strong abilities when it comes to understanding numerical representation in words or "word problems." You're highly proficient at translating words into numbers. This can be very useful when solving a problem in real life. When people are discussing a vague problem that needs a specific solution, you're able to cut through the extraneous information to a clear answer.

I Love My Family
Hi there i just wanted to writ this so all you people know i love my family all three kids and my wife to be i know you do not want to read this but i wrote it for me so thank you and have a good day!!! philburg360

What Kind Of Kisser Am I?
Merritt, you're a Romantic Kisser Whew, is it warm in here or is that just you? When it comes to kissing, you get your drive from the lure of romance. For you, it's more than a meeting of the lips. You appreciate kissing for the rush and for what it symbolizes. Long-stemmed roses, candlelight dinners, and weekend retreats to bed and breakfasts. Sound about your speed? You're a kissing partner who can go beyond the sweet surrender of locking lips to discuss the meaning of relationships. To really express yourself, you're probably one who's concerned with setting the proper mood. You might light a fire or take your date to a beautiful lookout before cuddling and kissing. You probably like to make a lot of eye contact, gently hug and touch your date, and talk tenderly about your feelings. While your intentions are pure, your intensity might sometimes be a little overwhelming. Don't forget that being playful can also be a sign of affection, and remember, sometimes a kiss is just a ki

I Am Bi-polar And Im Sorry....please Do Not Rate This...just Read It...please...
The time has come for me to explain something to alot of people and this is gonna be hard for me to do...Im putting my REAL self out here and I fully expect to be ridiculed and made fun of and/or dropped as a friend by alot of people...If thats the case, so be it... Just recently I was diagnosed as having something called Bi-Polar Disorder...Otherwise known as Manic Depression...The definition of Bi-Polar Disorder is as follows: "Bipolar disorder is a psychiatric condition defined by extreme, often inappropriate, and sometimes unpredictable moods. These moods can occur on a spectrum ranging from debilitating depression to unbridled mania. Individuals suffering a bipolar disorder generally experience fluid states of mania, hypomania or what is referred to as a mixed states in concert with clinical depression. These clinical states typically alternate with a normal range of mood, which is termed euthymia. Bipolar disorder can range in severity from a mild annoyance to a serious lif

My Animal Magnetism
Merritt, you're an Alligator in the wild world of love. See you later, Alligator. We won't be catching much of you around the singles swamp. You tend to lurk below the surface at some of the most happening and trendy scenes around town. Being the savvy prowler that you are, you give yourself adequate time to observe and calculate before you make your devastating moves. Once you've located your target, your slow, suave approach is enough to hypnotize just about anyone. Sure, you might look tough on the outside, but you know how to woo a potential mate with soft strokes and tender words. To you, romance is a subtle dance and you're willing to take your time with it. You ever so skillfully develop your next cunning move that's always so impossible to resist. You've got the ritual of romance down to a science, don't you?

Storry On Chris Benoit. . :(
WWE Superstar Chris Benoit found dead Written: June 25, 2007 STAMFORD, Conn., June 25, 2007 – World Wrestling Entertainment was informed today by authorities in Fayette County, Ga., that WWE Superstar Chris Benoit, his wife, Nancy, and his son were found dead in their home. Authorities are investigating, but no other details are available at this time. Chris was beloved among his fellow Superstars, and was a favorite among WWE fans for his unbelievable athleticism and wrestling ability. He always took great pride in his performance, and always showed respect for the business he loved, for his peers and towards his fans. This is a terrible tragedy and an unbearable loss. WWE extends its sincere condolences and prayers to the surviving members of the Benoit family and their loved ones in this time of tragedy.

Nothing Else Matters
You are in your car driving home. Thoughts wander to the game you want to see or meal you want to eat, when suddenly a sound unlike any you've ever heard fills the air. The sound is high above you. A trumpet? A choir? A choir of trumpets? You don't know, but you want to know. So you pull over, get out of your car, and look up. As you do, you see you aren't the only curious one. The roadside has become a parking lot. Car doors are open, and people are staring at the sky. Shoppers are racing out of the grocery store. The Little League baseball game across the street has come to a halt. Players and parents are searching the clouds. And what they see, and what you see, has never before been seen. As if the sky were a curtain, the drapes of the atmosphere part. A brilliant light spills onto the earth. There are no shadows. None. From every hue ever seen and a million more never seen. Riding on the flow is an endless fleet of angels. They pass through t

Answer Honestly
1. Your Name: 2. Age: 3. Favorite position (s)? 4. Do you think I'm hot? 5. Would you have sex with me? 6. lights on or off? 7. Would you have to be drunk? 8. Would you take a shower with me? 9. Have you ever thought about having sex with me? 10. Would you leave after or stay the night? 11. Do you like cuddling afterwards? 12. Condom or skin? 13. Do you give Oral pleasures? 14. Do you like to receive Oral Pleasures? 15. Have sex on the first date? 16. Would you kiss me during sex? 17. Do you think I would be good in bed? 18. Threesome? 20. How many times would you like to cum? 21. Would you use me as a booty call? 21. Can I use you as a booty call? 22. Do you like foreplay? 23. What is foreplay to you? 24. Can we take pictures of the act? 25. Will you post this so I can fill it out for you?

Am I Ready To Commit?
You don't need us to tell you that you're on the right track. A cool and confident person, you know what you want; now it's just a matter of finding it. Even more important, you know that love is about much more than what kind of clothes they wear or car they drive. And you're ready to make it work. You've gotten to a place where you are happy with your life, and you're ready to share it with someone special. So whether you've found them or are still looking, know that this time, you'll get what you want.

Opportunities For Models, Photographers, Make-up Artists And Web Designers!
Hey There Fellow: "Models, Photographers, Make-Up Artists and Web Designers." If your looking to exposure yourself further and you want to increase opportunties to build up your portfolio on either a TFCD or Paid Basis. The perfect website to do this the weblink below: Please click this link to Register for free This website is perfect for those people who cant afford there own Professional website. However those that do have their own professional website can also join this website, to increase traffic to their exsisting website and increase chances of paid work, coming your way. The key to get noticed is to network with as many websites as possible. All the other websites I joined before this, I was only getting offers of TFCD, However since joining this website, I have now recieved several offers of paid work. All you need to do is: add all your details, plus 20 of your best photos, and your profile is there ready to take you that little bit furth

The Hole
Note: This is a very dark fantasy, sure to offend some. Do not read it unless you are willing to face some very troubling images. I mean it! Don't come crying to me afterwards!! I'll admit it. My lovely sub and I are both thinking about a very dark fantasy. She wishes to be objectified, reduced to a mere device, existing for my pleasure. Since she has expressed this desire, I have given the matter a lot of thought, and my ideas are very extreme. Imagine being bound tightly, unable to move. Imagine being brought outoors into a secluded area, naked as the day you were brought into the world. You cannot walk, of course, as I wouldn't want to risk any attempts at escape. You aren't gagged, as we are so far from any traces of humanity that any cries for help will go unheard. You bounce over my shoulder as we traverse the path to your torment. You are set upon your feet and my hands turn you roughly so that you face it. The hole. As your mind tries to fathom

Sex Survey
You prefer Spontaneous sex! You're into spontaneous sex. Anywhere, any time the mood takes you. Just be careful that your sexcapades don't land you in a (ahem) tight spot. 'What is the best type of sex for you?' at QuizUniverse.com

Opportunity Is All Around You
The people that really succeed in the worldare the people who look for the circumstances they want, and,if they can't find them, they make them.The lure of the distant and the difficult is deceptive.The great opportunity in your life is where you are right now.Properly perceived, every situation becomes an opportunity for you.Your destiny is not a matter of chance,it's a matter of the choices you make.Being successful is not something you wait for,but rather something you achieve with effort.Things won't turn up in this world until you turn them up.You develop your opportunitiesby applying persistence to your possibilities.Thank you dear friend,spiritofrebirth

Spokane Barbie's
Subject: New Spokane Area Barbie Collection Mattel recently announced the release of the improved limited-edition Barbie Dolls for the Greater Spokane market: "South Hill Barbie" This princess Barbie is sold only at the Riverpark Square Mall. She comes with an assortment of assorted platium credit-cards,navel piercing, a Lexus SUV, a long-haired foreign dog named Honey and a cookie cutter house. Available with or without tummy tuck and face lift. Workaholic Ken sold only in conjunction with the augmented version. They might give you a run for their money, so often times you can't afford them. "Spokane Valley Barbie" The modern day homemaker Barbie is available with Ford Wind star Minivan and matching gym outfit. She gets lost easily and has no full-time occupation. Traffic jamming cell phone sold separately. "Hillyard Barbie" This recently paroled Barbie comes with a 9mm handgun, a Ray Lewis knife,a tongue and eyebrow piercing, a Chevy with dark tin

Foundry Cams: Introducing Sasha!
You're going to crash headlong into your monitor when you see the latest addition to FOUNDRY CAMS. Her name is Sasha, and she could be the sexiest woman we have ever seen. We sent her one of our white F*ck Me Shirts, and she sent in a video of herself... in the shirt...and a blue thong...and nothing else. We saw it for the first time about an hour ago, and we JUST stopped drooling. WATCH 'SASHA ROCKS OUT IN HER F*CK ME SHIRT AND BLUE THONG NOW!!

~ The Original Numa Numa (gary Brolsma) ~
Hey i gotta give the kid credit it started it all and got a pretty good run of fame with it :) The Original Numa Numa (Gary Brolsma) He was the first and will always be the best !!! The Original Numa Numa (Gary Brolsma) See more like this on kontraband.com

Prayer Request For 10 Local Families That Lost Their Homes In A Friday Night Fire(from My Local And Immediate Area)
Blaze destroys Wayside Inn By SHERREE CASPER / Journal Staff Writer The exterior of the fire-destroyed Wayside Inn at 9199 Valley Road in Morgan County is shown on Sunday. The heat from the Friday night fire was so intense that it destroyed a parked car. (Journal photo by Jason Turner) BERKELEY SPRINGS — A late-night fire Friday destroyed a 10-room motel in southern Morgan County causing an estimated half-million dollars in damage, said the assistant fire chief for the Berkeley Springs Volunteer Fire Department. “I’m probably estimating low,” said James A. Steiner about the loss caused by the blaze at the Wayside Inn at 9199 Valley Road near Cacapon State Resort Park. Steiner thinks the fire originated in Room 104 and was possibly caused by an electrical problem. There may have been faulty wiring in a back wall, he said. On Monday, Ed Robinson, from the West Virginia State Fire Marshal’s office, was investigating the fire. As of presstime, results from the fire marsha

Southern Women
Southern Women Southern Women: Southern women appreciate their natural assets: Clean skin. A winning smile. That unforgettable Southern drawl. Southern women know their manners: "Yes, ma'am." "Yes, sir." "Why, no, Billy!" Southern women have a distinct way with fond expressions : "Y'all come back!" "Well, bless your heart." "Drop by when you can." "How's your Momma?" Southern women know their summer weather report: Humidity Humidity Humidity Southern women know their vacation spots: The beach The rivuh The crick Southern women know the joys of June, July, and August: Colorful hi-heel sandals or flip flops. Strapless sun dresses Iced sweet tea with mint Southern women know everybody's first name: Honey Darlin' Shugah Southern women know the movies that speak to their hearts: Fried Green Tomatoes Driving Miss Daisy Steel Magnolias Gone With The Wind Southern women know their religions: Baptist Methodist Football South

Surgery
AHHHHHHHH IM SO SICK OF HOSPITALS I THINK SOMEONE NEEDS TO PUT ME DOWN LOL OK NOT FUNNY BUT SO HOW I FEEL RIGHT NOW I JUST FOUND OUT I WILL BE HAVING ANOTHER SURGERY IN A FEW WEEKS AND I HAVE NO CHOICE BECAUSE IF I DONT I WILL END UP IN A COMA LOVELY I KNOW SO HERE IT IS I HAVE THIS SHUNT A TUBE THAT PUMPS THE SPINAL FLUID TO WHERE IT NEEDS TO GO AND THAT IS WHAT NEEDS TO BE REPLACED BECAUSE IT IS IN MY DOCTORS OWN WORDS SUCKING MY BRAIN DRY AND AS IF THAT ISNT BAD ENOUGH I HAVE NOW DEVELOPED SOMETHING ELSE WITH MY HEART THAT I NEED TO GET CHECKED SO YA IM SICK LOL SICK AND TIRED OF BEING SICK AND TIRED I SO NEED A BREAK FROM BEING ME ANYBODY WANT TO TRADE PLACES JK ANYWAYS I GUESS IF YOU DONT SEE ME ON FOR A WHILE U KNOW WHERE IM AT THE HOSPITAL I SHOULD HAVE MY PHONE SO CALL ME IF U HAVE MY NUMBER OR IF U NEED A WAY OF GETTING IN CONTACT WITH ME LET ME KNOW

The Rest Of Part Of The Benoit Story
"There was a lot of prescription medication that he had received from doctors with what we believed to be at this time legal prescriptions," said Lt. Tommy Pope of the Fayette County Sheriff's Department. Authorities found the pro wrestler dead in the basement, hanging from the pulley of a weight machine. He died sometime late Saturday or Sunday, Ballard said. "In a community like this, it's bizarre just to have a murder suicide -- certainly involving the death of a 7-year-old child," Ballard said. Nancy Benoit filed for a divorce in May 2003, saying their three-year union was irrevocably broken and alleging "cruel treatment." But she later dropped the complaint, as well as a request for a restraining order in which she charged that Benoit had threatened her and had broken furniture in their home. In the divorce filing, she said Benoit made more than $500,000 a year as a professional wrestler and asked for permanent custody of Daniel and child support. In his response, Beno

Arrrrrrgghhh
Yeah, so like.... new tattoo, Malaysian Death Mask, covers my entire upper right arm..... 6 and a half hours and its not finished... it hurts sooooooooo much,and Ive had a headache since yesterday........ looks awesome tho... lol

Wow @ Some Of The Photo's People Have On Their Profile!
I was told that nudity has to be NSFW so I set the siggy's I made in a file name NSFW but yet I've seen two people sign on to her with their penis' showing in their profile picture! What's up with that?

I Wonder
I wonder why the last woman I said I love you to didn't love me back, I wonder why she left & why we went our seperate ways like that. I wonder why I don't look at women as I should, I wonder why sometimes I feel no good behind this darkness and neon glow. I wonder why I sit and watch the sun come up, this ones for those I loved who I lost and for all my wishes and plans. I cast my shadow on a darkend wall,like bare hands. I wonder why my life won't move ahead, having nightmares of demons, devils, you and the dead instead. So to the last woman I said I love you to, I'm not sorry for saying it because C.R. I do love you. I always have, and I'm sure I always will, with all my heart and free will as long as my heart beats red. Beats still. Now I regret not telling you sooner, but it was said. To have your kiss and die, I would happily be dead.

People's Bullshit..........
You know I have been on CT for close to a year now, and for the most part I have had a really good time, meeting ppl and talking to people. But one thing that I have come to notice is that people dont read your profile at all. One thing that I cannot stand is a person that lies. Why would you lie to someone, to get closer to them, knowing that somehow they will find out? Trying to earn brownie points? Well this is one person that could give 2 shits about fucking brownie points, if you are on my friends list, my family or my fans list...I care about you in one way or another. I dont try to be someone I am not, its a waste of time. But if you are on my friends list and you have lied to me about something...I am done. I dont waste my time with liars or players, dont say you care about me, if you DONT, dont say you wanna be with me if you DONT, dont say you wanna be my friend and then stab me in the back, dont say you wanna be my friend and then you talk about me behind my back..I am so si

Will You Give This To My Daddy
As a Company, Southwest Airlines is going to support "Red Fridays." Last week I was in Atlanta, Georgia attending a conference. While I was in the airport, returning home, I heard several people behind me beginning to clap and cheer. I immediately turned around and witnessed one of the greatest act's of patriotism I have ever seen. Moving thru the terminal was a group of soldiers in their camo's, as they began heading to their gate everyone (well almost everyone) was abruptly to their feet with their hands waving and cheering. When I saw the soldiers, probably 30-40 of them, being applauded and cheered for it hit me. I'm not alone. I'm not the only red blooded American who still loves this country and supports our troops and their families. Of course I immediately stopped and began clapping for these young unsung heroes who are putting their lives on the line everyday for us so we can go to school, work and home without fear or reprisal. Just

Hello All
to all u freakin people out there on my friends list who dont talk to me or got nothing good to say why the hell did u wanna be my friend or make comments? what the fuck is the point? u want points ask the guys runnin this joint if i can give u mine i dont need them......i am tired of people on here i deleted my account once cuz of morons its about to happen again!

Chris Benoit Kills Family Then Himself
MIAMI (Reuters) - Professional wrestling superstar Chris Benoit killed his wife and 7-year-old son before hanging himself from his weight machine, authorities said on Tuesday. Investigators said the murder-suicide happened over Friday and Saturday in the suburban Atlanta home where the bodies of Benoit, his wife and young son were found on Monday. Nicknamed "The Rabid Wolverine" and "The Canadian Crippler," Benoit had canceled two events in Texas over the weekend citing an undisclosed "family emergency," his employer, World Wrestling Entertainment, said on its Web site. Benoit then sent "several curious text messages" to friends early Sunday morning and this prompted authorities to check on him and his family at their home, the statement said. Autopsy results showed that Benoit first murdered his wife, Nancy. She was bound at the feet and wrists and died of asphyxiation sometime on Friday, Fayette County District Attorney Scott Ballard told a news conference. She w

The White Buffalo
The White Buffalo "The White Buffalo Woman" The Sioux are a warrior tribe, and one of their proverbs says, "Woman shall not walk before man. " Yet White Buffalo Woman is the dominant figure of their most important legend. The medicine man Crow Dog explains, "This holy woman brought the sacred buffalo calf pipe to the Sioux. There could be no Indians without it. Before she came, people didn't know how to live. They knew nothing. The Buffalo Woman put her sacred mind into their minds. " At the ritual of the sun dance one woman, usually a mature and universally respected member of the tribe, is given the honor of representing Buffalo Woman. Though she first appeared to the Sioux in human form, White Buffalo Woman was also a buffalothe Indians' brother, who gave its flesh so that the people might live. Albino buffalo were sacred to all Plains tribes; a white buffalo hide was a sacred talisman, a possession beyond price. One summer so long ago that nobody knows how long, the

Such Is The Way Of Faeries
Come dance with me midsummer's eve. Come brave the faerie lights! And nevermind what you might spy -- of forbidden faerie sights. And nevermind the honeyed fruits, the moonlit flows of faerie wines. And drink not of the liquid song from faerie flutes divine. Come dance and let the weaving spell flow through and braid around; But do not ever dare forget you stand upon a faerie mound.

Myspace, Ct, And Everyone Else Pretending To Be Who They Aren't....
I work down at The Pizza Pit And I drive an old Hyundai I still live with my mom and dad I'm five foot three and overweight I'm a sci-fi fanatic, mild asthmatic Never been to second base But there's a whole 'nother me That you need to see Go check out MySpace 'Cause online I'm out in Hollywood I'm six foot five and I look damn good I drive a Maserati I'm a black belt in karate And I love a good glass of wine It turns girls on that I'm mysterious I tell 'em I don't want nothing serious 'Cause even on a slow day I can have a three way Chat with two women at one time I'm so much cooler online I'm so much cooler online I get home I kiss my mom And she fixes me a snack I head down to my basement bedroom And fire up my Mac In real life the only time I've ever even been to L.A. Was when I got the chance with the marching band To play tuba in the Rose Parade But online I live in Malibu I pose for Calvin Klein I've been in GQ I'm

The Withdrawl
How do I act normal, my world being ripped apart. depressed and hiding within myself. I won't show you how I feel, the hurt the anger the fear. You'd turn away in disgust, maybe you can't understand...Heh you just don't really care enough. My tears not worth your time. I become the shadow you forget to miss. Wraith unseen. Invisible kid... Have you forgotten to miss me? I wouldn't know I'm already gone.

Food Safety In Your Home...
At the store * Never leave meat, poultry, seafood, eggs and other perishable foods in a hot car! Take a cooler along. * Head straight for the refrigerator or freezer. In your refrigerator * Don’t let juices from raw meat, poultry and seafood drip on other foods. Store on bottom shelf in refrigerator. * Keep the refrigerator at 40 F or lower and freezer at 0 F. At your kitchen counter * Always wash hands with soap and hot water for 20 seconds before preparing food and also after handling raw meat, poultry, seafood and eggs. * Wash counter tops, cutting boards, knives, sink and faucet handle with hot soapy water right after preparing food, especially after handling raw meat, poultry and seafood. * Don’t let raw meat, poultry and seafood and their juices touch ready-to-eat food. * Never put cooked food on a plate that first held raw meat, poultry or seafood. * Always thaw food in the refrigerator, never on the kitchen counter. If you thaw in the microwave

Wwe's Story Of What Happened In The Benoit Family Tragedy
STAMFORD, Conn., June 26, 2007 – World Wrestling Entertainment is stunned and saddened by the details released by local authorities concerning the double homicide-suicide involving Chris Benoit, his wife, Nancy, and his son, Daniel. However, WWE is concerned with the sensationalistic reporting and speculation being undertaken by some members of the media following the press conference held by the Fayette County Sheriff’s Department and the District Attorney. During the press conference, the investigating authorities made the following points, all of which run contrary to the media speculation that "roid rage" was a factor in the senseless murders and suicide: 1. The authorities stated that all drugs found in the house were believed to be legal prescriptions. 2. Steroids were not, and could not, be related to the cause of death (asphyxiation). Authorities had no factual basis to speculate as to Benoit’s state of mind, and rightly did not do so. 3. Toxicology tests have not

Why
Why is it no matter what is said or done to you they always say I didn't mean to hurt you?Why is it that when they hurt you they say it was an accident?Why is it when they say they love you you wonder if they mean it?Why is it that the pain you feel leaves but is never gone.Why is it when they keep hurting us and treating us bad we go back.Why is it when we are with them we are so alone.Why is it when they say they hate you and are leaving you wish it was true.One more thing why is it there is so many whys to ask and none of them will make us feel better if answered?

Femdom Society?
Would there be any interest in a CT FemDom Society? A forum where We can share info, ideas, scenes, training tips and more? I am wanting to put this together as an educational, resource group. Let Me know what you think.. if you have any ideas or want to join such a group Thank You, Lady Karmic Kisses

Part Of The Benoit Story
Pro wrestler Chris Benoit strangled his wife, suffocated his 7-year-old son and placed a Bible next to their bodies before hanging himself with a weight-machine pulley, authorities said Tuesday. Nevertheless, Nancy Benoit filed for a divorce in 2003, saying the couple's three-year marriage was irrevocably broken and alleging "cruel treatment. Benoit's 43-year-old wife was killed Friday in an upstairs family room, her feet and wrists were bound and there was blood under her head, indicating a possible struggle, No suiside note was found.

Metabolism Boosters
Metabolism is the motor that keeps us running – when we have a strong metabolism, we have a lot of energy. But as we age, our metabolism dips, and it’s more difficult to burn calories. Because of this, we gain weight, and slow down. Fortunately, there are a lot of things we can do to boost our metabolism, and keep that engine purring along! Here are some tips: -Eat a good breakfast. The word “breakfast” comes from breaking the fast that we’ve had overnight as we sleep. This morning meal gives us the energy we need to start the day. Without it, our body goes into starvation mode, so our metabolism goes way down and we burn fewer calories. A recent study showed that people who skip breakfast were 4 ½ times more likely to be obese than those we ate breakfast. -Take your vitamins. Vitamin C in particular is important in helping to burn fat. -Take some time in the sun. Light increases serotonin, which helps us to feel more awake and energized. -Take move-around breaks at wor

Gut Instinct
Sometimes we hear intuition as that little voice in our head, and sometimes we sense it in our heart, and sometimes we feel it in the stomach – hence the term: gut instinct. There’s actually a biological reason why this happens. Researchers have found that the gut has more nerve cells than the spinal cord. These intestinal nerve cells hold most of our body’s serotonin, a neurotransmitter that influences both the cardiovascular and the gastrointestinal systems, and also our emotional and psychological well-being. Scientists say that the particular receptor these gut cells use to process the serotonin is the same as the receptor used in the portions of the brain where intuitive thinking happens! So, the next time you get that signal, that “gut feeling,” pay attention – sometimes our stomach is smarter than our head.

No Internet Service
well i will be offline for about a week so thought i would leave a message to let you know i will be back soon and catch up on rating your alls stash and pics...leave me some love while i am gone...peace

Patsy Cline Vs. Loretta Lynn Results
It was CLOSE! Thank you for your votes on the showdown MUMM I recently wrote. Patsy Cline won out by 2 points! The official tally was Patsy Cline 27 votes, Loretta Lynn 25 votes. Again, many thanks to all the Cherry Tappers that participated. Hugs, Chris

A Journey Of A Thousand Miles...
-Full Version: If you've read my other blogs, you know that I'm all filled with poetry and idealism. I am that girl who used to sit behind you in homeroom reading a Sweet Valley High romance and doodling little hearts and flowers all over her notebook. Well...at one point of my life I was. Now, Anne Rice has replaced Judy Blume. Razorblades and devil's horns have replaced the hearts and flowers. Much of the imagery I surround myself with is dark and ominous and sensual. I'm that little girl all grown up. I've been wanted. I've been needed. I think I may even have been loved once or twice...not that it did me any good. I've been had. I've been cast aside. I've been battered and broken and lifted to stand on my own two feet. Now, I know what I want. But, I'm also grown up enough to see reality through all of that imagery. No matter how long I wait..no matter how patient and pliant and caring I am, I may never have it. It's taken a lot for me to learn to accept that

The Beginning Of Several
The Arts, in the mind, Are the bridges that span The vulgarity and Simplemind'ness of Man. They"re the spires of thought Wich in ignorant wind stand. And these blistering heighths Hold wide views in command.

Love
just so you all know well if you wnt to that is ,well the women of my dreams said yes to my question to marry me . so were getting married WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. just wanted to tell all of you , have a great night yalll .

Why Bother
Sometimes I wonder why do I even bother to do anything. It seems that nothing I do is good enough for any one. I am sick of trying to make everyone else happy all the time. It seems long as everything is going the way that they want it then they are happy. Hell I am human too ya know and I have feelings just like any one else, but yet let me say that I'm just not in the mood for something and then there ya go they get all pissed. Sometimes I just want to walk away from it all my whole life leave it all behind. Yeah I know what would that solve doing that as usual nothing but maybe if I wasn't always the one there when family and friends need me it would be appreciated more.

Contest
Okay I am having a contest for the ones who rate me the most!!!!!! The winner will get an outstanding chance of a life time. That chance is to send me as many nude pictures as they want. Really the winner gets to be nude for just me. So start the ratings ladies preferred for this contest.

4th Of July
On the 4th of July I would like us all to proudly display this pictue on your profile, members & non-members, thank you very much..pete click on this picture, it will take you to my site where you can rip it!!

Powerful Thoughts From Chief Sealth
Where are we without the animals? If the animals were gone, we would die from a loneliness of spirit. For whatever happens to the animals soon happens to us. All things are connected. This we know. The earth does not belong to us; we belong to the earth. This we know. All things are connected. Like blood which unites one family. All things are connected. Whatever befalls earth befalls the children of the earth. People did not weave the web of life, we are merely a strand in it. Whatever you do to the web, you do to yourself. ~ Chief Sealth (Seattle)

Nothing To Do And Bored At Work
Today just like any other day, I woke up and did the same thing i do everyday... -Yawned -Streched -Checked my WoW make sure it was still there and ok -then checked my email. Now this is where things get alil diff... A thought passes my head, "damn Rik you should be doing more with your life" yes i should be doing more with my life but what should i do. My schedule is filled with Music (da Clef Ent./Cash Squad Ent.) and Work (hotel-which shall remain nameless) School i said // Make a movie i said // Write a book i said... What shall i DO?

Songs About Rain
Ya I'm a Gary Allan Fan :) Songs About Rain By Gary Allan Well this town has closed down, way too early And there's nothing to do So I'm driving around in circles And I'm thinking about you Today I heard you got a new last name I sure didn't know it was gonna hit me this way And the radio just keeps on playing all these Songs About Rain... Now there's all kinds of songs about babies and love that goes right, But for some unknown reason Nobody wants to play them tonight, Hey, I hope it's sunny wherever you are That's sure not the picture, tonight in my car And it sure ain't easin' my pain All these songs like... "Rainy Night In Georgia" and "Kentucky Rain" "Here Comes That Rainy Day Feeling Again", "Blue Eyes Cryin" in the "Early Morning Rain" They go on and on, and there's no two the same Oh it would be easy to blame all these Songs About Rain Well, I thought I was over you But I guess maybe I'm not 'Cause when I let you go Looks like lonely i

Earth Cry
sitting on this lonely cliff top I watch the waves crashing against the rocks below. high as I am the spray still sparkles on the grass all around me... feeling cool and fresh on my naked skin. the wind... blowing through my tousled hair, seems to carry a sound, a cry... not the screeching of the gulls overhead.. but another.. older.. deeper sound that touches my very soul. is it the cry of the earth calling out to anyone who listens? is it the cry of the earth asking us to cease our destruction before it is too late? before we destroy the very ground we walk upon... asking us to return to her all that we have taken... so thoughtlessly.. so needlessly.. and I wonder how long it will be before mankind hears his mother's plea and heeds her troubled song? how long will it be before we join together and cease our endless wars... to put behind us the ways of hate ...the differences we fail to understand... and save our wondrous world.. so lovingly created yet s

Family, Fren And Work
i don't know whether it's another pms of mine but damn am i being super SENSITIVE or was it i am under treamendous stress. i hate almost everything about myself now and i don't know why. WTF with my father, why does he have to bring every little damn thing home for me to do. i can't even finish the stupid job. why can't he bring accurate information home. was it because he pay me i got to do this shit. i feel like shouting on top my lung now. i feel like asking him to do my thing and get me y am i getting tension all the time. babies crying, mom screaming, my fucking sister complaining no car for tuition, no money, my mother complain no money. why do i need to hear all this?? my aunt complaining about us not making money. wtf am my father doing! Fucking father doing fucking thing. can't even understand the importance of document accuracy. i feel like shit. i feel like i just want to die. i just want to commit suicide. was it all about life?? i wonder. some are destiny to be happy an

My Thoughts Of Suicide
Here I sit and write this poem Thinking of all I love and all I hate Thoughts of suicide thinking its my fate I think of all the times I used to laugh And now I wish I'd just die How did so much misery come in to my life And now all I have are thoughts of suicide Crying every night is not the way to live Heck I'm still a kid I should be out hanging with all my friends But these thoughts of suicide haunt my head Will they care when I am gone When nothings left expect my thoughts And this small poem telling everyone I will be no more in about an hour Don't try to save me Just save your tears Nothing can stop me Because i have thoughts of suicide Heres to the end my dear friend I hope you live life through This is the end to this girls life And all her thoughts to boot Nothing there but my thoughts my secret thoughts of suicide

I Love This Song
Right Where I need to Be By Gary Allan There's a plane flyin' outta here tonight Destination New Orleans Boss man says my big promotion's on the line He says that's right where I need to be Lately I've been on the road more than I've been home All this leavin' her alone is killin' me And holdin' her right now has got me thinkin' more and more This is right where I need to be Where when I hear her I can see her I can smell her sweet perfume I can feel her skin against me when I sleep Where I won't miss her I can kiss her Anytime that I want to Yeah that's right where I need to be Yeah that's right where I need to be There's a plane flyin' outta here tonight With an empty first class seat 'Cause I've finally got all my priorities in line And I'm right where I need to be Where when I hear her I can see her I can smell her sweet perfume I can feel her skin against me when I sleep Where I won't miss her I can kiss her Anytime that I want to Yeah

Something I Got Off A Freind From A Her Tribute Group To Benoit
Welcome To The Chris Benoit Site. Here Is The Place To Show Your Love The Rabid Wolverine and his Family. We loved him for his skills and ability. Sadness In The Wrestling Business. Our Condolences Goes To The Benoit Family and Friends You Want To Ad Anything To The CBF Site, Graphics; Condolences To The Family; A Word To Eddie;Poems; Song Lyrics For Chris and His Family; etc, Please Email Me (x) With Your Tributes. Credit Will Be Given Where Necessary. Christopher Benoit was a Canadian professional wrestler who performed in Extreme Championship Wrestling, World Championship Wrestling, and World Wrestling Entertainment. To many he was known as The Rabid Wolverine. To a well liked and deadly finisher, The Crippler Crossface, Benoit always had the fans screaming. Slam! Sports called Benoit one of the greatest technical wrestlers ever and many will not disagree. On June 25, 2007 Benoit was found dead in his home, along with his wife, Nancy and his son, Daniel.The sudden death o

One Day The Earth Shall Rise And Kick Your Ass
"There are more things in heaven and earth, Horatio, Than are dreamt of in your philosophy." – Oh you had better damn know from what Shakespeare play that's from. Those whose minds survived my first cosmology blog recently – welcome! Glad you could make it back to the land of the perpetually searching for truth. Today's blog, boys and girls, is about a lecture led by Sister Sarah Sharkey, a Biblical scholar and professor at Oblate Seminary. Following the theme "The Call to be Keepers of the Earth: The Biblical Witness," Sharkey's lecture basically breaks down a clear difference between man's supposed dominion over the planet and his actual domination. Elizabeth Johnson also suggests three models examined here: kingship, stewardship and kinship. As with most other modern-day social controversies, the struggle here is to see what the ancient Biblical authors and influences were versus what our contemporary lenses say. This is an exercise in exegesis – based on an old Greek word

Needing **fans** Ty Ty Ty Smies
I NEED FAN'S FANS, FROM ALL THE LOVELY PEOPLE ON CT , YOU ALL HAVE BEEN SO GOOD TO ME,, ENJOYING MY HH'S, HOPE IT LEVELS EVERY ONE UP..:) NOW I AM ASKING FOR ALITTLE HELP. SHOW ME SOME LOV PL. MAKE ME YOUR **FAN**.. THEN RATE ME AND REQUEST TO BE MY FRIEND, I CAN NEVER HAVE TO MANY FRIENDS , LOVE TO YOU ALL,,,,SEXYGIRLBLONDE

" Got A Head Full Of Sex, Better Grab An Umbrella! "
Well, its just past the solstice, and Ive taken stock of the harvest. I was walking yesterday and in the clouds, I saw a Phoenix, wings full spread, something that was new to me, so that familar spark is adding to the already blistering summer. Some of the most anciet of my wounds are begining to heal, but I tell ya, it dont make me feel any younger, but I cant help shake the feeling that Ive found those missing peice Ive beem looking for ( as evidence shown on the floor me in a reflective mood, and a broom in my hand...) As it grows hotter my tolerance for BS completly incapacitated, getting mad at ALL of my friends (IRL), after being in a horible situation and getting hung out to dry, and in AZ, that can hurt. Things between me and D are cool, but something tells me we will be ringing in momsoon season in together... if not then, some one local (who I have received a call from recently :P)may be helping me heat things up on the forth... a girl can dream right? Underneath a

Very Interesting
Many years ago in Scotland, a new game was invented. It was ruled "Gentlemen Only..Ladies Forbidden"...and thus the word GOLF entered into the English language. In the 1400's a law was set forth that a man was not allowed to beat his wife with a stick no thicker than his thumb. Hence we have "the rule of thumb" The first couple to be shown in bed together on prime time TV were Fred and Wilma Flintstone. Every day more money is printed for Monopoly than the US Treasury. Men can read smaller print than women can; women can hear better. Coca-Cola was originally green. It is impossible to lick your elbow. The State with the highest percentage of people who walk to work: Alaska . The percentage of Africa that is wilderness: 28% (now get this..) The percentage North America that is wilderness: 38% The cost of raising a medium-size dog to the age of eleven: $6,400. The average number of people airborne over the US any given hour: 61,000 Intelligent

Why Not?
Hot or not? Body: ***HOT OR NOT*** POST THiS iF YOU AREN'T SCARED TO SEE HOW PEOPLE THINK OF YOU 0 = ewwwwwwwwwwww! 1 = Definetly not attractive. 2 = Decent 3 = Cute 4 = Fine as heck! 5 = I'd do you. 6 = PRETTY HOT AND TEMPTiNG! 7 = Lovable, I LOVE YOU!!! 8 = I wanna make you my man/girl. 9 = Just a friend. 10 = Sexiest person I know! 11 = 'effin hottie! 12 = Ya, I've checked you out a few times. 13 = lets Make Out!! 14.= I'd hit it!! 15=BABY YOU IS F-I-N-E!!! 16= Lets Have SEX! 17= oh god let me get in LEAVE ME A MESSAGE TELL THE TRUTH!!!!!

.quick.minute.
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ok. now that i got that out of my system *whew* busy busy busy busy busy. *nod* moving company came out yesterday give us an estimate...can we say...sticker shock? but the guy was cool...and instead of having to rent a penske to move boxes ourselves we're gonna have the moving guys do it cuz in reality? why not when we're basically renting the entire truck for two work days might as well utilise it. *nod* tomorrow im takin the kids to some water park thingie place cuz i promised...meh. so today is pretty much the last day i have to do the major packing...n thursday is the last minute stuff which isnt that big a deal cuz there really isnt that much last minute stuff...cuz im good like that. textboy wants me to do him a favor. *raises eyebrow* of course if i do this favor...i own him. we both know this. he even asked if i had a purse to carry around his balls in. ha. im not that wicked tho. i could b

You
my pain is to much to hide i need help but no one's there im thinking about commiting suicide im hurting but your to happy to see im crying but you just walk on by i wanna commite suicide im screaming but you cant hear me im bleeding but you never notice so tonight im going to commite suicide and you'll never know im gone

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Love Died Behind Thease Eyes
THIS LOVE IS FOREVER LOSTTHEASE BROWN EYES OF MINE GREW COLDTHE LOVE THAT ONCE HELDPASSHION WAS NEVER ABLE TO HOLD TRUE LOVE FOR TO LONGFOR THEASE EYES CAN SEE NO MORELOVE WITH SO MUCH PAIN TO HOLDTHEASE EYSE COULD NOT BARE TO WATCHLOVE THAT SHOULD HAVE BEEN SO MUCH MORE THEASE EYES WATCHED IT MOVE ONIT'S OWNLOVE THAT NOW HAS NO MORE FAITH IN WHAT IS REAL EYES THAT WILL NEVER SEE LOVE COMMING AROUND HERE ANY MORELOST IT ALL IT WAS NEVER REALY BUT THE PAIN INSIDE IS ALL TO REAL

My Princess
Ever since she became part of My life, things are so different, she gives meaning to My world, she compliments the part of My life that was empty, she fills Me up, she gives Me love, she pampers Me, adores Me, pleases Me. I can't ask for a better woman and slave, cause I have it all on her... she is smart, she is beautiful, she makes Me happy and I love her deeply. Show My beautiful pet some love My friends! PRINCESS SNIPPY@ CherryTAP

Could Have Been
THOUGHT I HAD FOUND IT BUT IT WAS NOT TRUE,THOUGHT I KNEW IT INSIDE AND OUT,BUT SOME WHERE ALONG THE WAY I LOST IT WITH A HOLE IN THIS HEART OF MINELOGING FOR THE CLOSENESSTWOPEOPLE SHAIRSOMETHING JUST WAS NOT RIGHT WITH IN THIS HEARTOF MINETHOUGHT I HAD FIXED IT ONECE OR TWICEBUT THIS COULD NOVER BE FIXEDTRYED TO HOLD ALL OF WHATTHIS HEART IS ACKING FORNO CLUE ON WHAT THIS WOULD LOOK LIKE BLIND TO WHAT COULD BEOR SHOULD HAVE BEEN HAD MY WALL UP FOR WAY TO LONGSTILL WITH IN THIS SOALI SEARCHED FOR THE LOVE THAT CLULD HAVE BUT NEVER WAS

Was It Lust
FEEL IN LOVEBUT WAS IT JUST LUSTMY MIND WAS ON YOUWISHING THIS BODY OF MINEWAS TOO.TIMEING IS NOT RIGHT SO WELL JUST HAVE TO SAY GOOD NIGHTDID YOU EVEN SEE THE FIRE THE PASSION IN MY EYESDID I NOT MAKE IT CLEARMY DEARYOU I SO ADOREAND I JUST LET YOU WALK OUT THE DOORI JUST HAVE TO GET ALITTLE BIT MORE WILL YOU COME OVEROR IS IT REALY OVER AND THE CHANCE OF BEING WITH YOU SLIP RIGHT THROW MY FINGERS AS YOU WALKED OUT THAT DOOR

Suicide Scars
i look at myself in the mirror wondering. wondering what happend to the girl i used to be. wondering why there are scars on my wrist. why i did this to myself. then i think back to when my whole world was crashing down. i seem to realize that these scars are suicide scars. i start to cry to the fact that i will have these scars for a life time. i grab my razor put it up to my wrist. and i start to cut. i start to cut them suicide cuts all over again. i cant stop. but i guess that this will be me forever. makeing them ugly suicide scars.

Did You
Did you even cry when it was time to say goodbye?did you tink of me,and how id be?Does your heart ack in a way that you feel will never go away?Did you even care that this withch you have chose to do would send me somewereso far away?Lost you set me and love is all i wanted understamding,I asked for but nothiing w there, when I looked for a reason tryed my best 'part of me I will never see,locked up with many houghts prisener of a lost and broken heart

Rain
I HAVE BEEN HERE SO MANY TIMES,LOST IN A DAZEWHY LET LIFE BUILD UP ALL AROUND?WHY IT MUST RAIN?I'M GOING INSAINEALL AT ONCE, HOW DOES LIFE GET THIS WAY?FEELING TRAPED SEEING NO END,GONE TODAY BUT NOT ROTTEN,IS THERE HOPE?OR DID I JUST CHOK?WAS THERE A WAY TO JUST GET AWAY??COULD I EVER FIND THE PERSON I USE TO BE?OF DID SHE TOO,LOSE THE KEY TO THE DOOR?WHERE THERE IS NO MORE PAIN,AND SO MUCH RAIN

Not The Same
I AM HERE JUST NOT THE SAME,STILL THINKING OF YOU EVERY DAYAND GOING INSAINE,STILL HOLDING TRUE WHILL I AM WITH OUT YOU STILL NOT KNOWING WHAT TO DO,FEELING SO LAME NOT HOLDING NO BLAMETHOUGHTS OF YOU CROSS MY MIND,WITH THE LOSS I CAN NOT TOSSTHE MEMORES OF YOU

Defining Not Giving A Fuck
So, with all the bullshit on this site, the world and everything in between, I decided that giving a fuck doesnt work. I simply dont give a shit about a damn thing. Well, thats not true. I do love my kids and my wife, and a select few friends. Outside of that, I dont give a fuck about anything. Even you. Yes you. I dont give a fuck about what happened in your life before today. I'm living in this moment. For this moment. Mistakes? Yeah, I've got em. Who the fuck doesn't? But I refuse to see them as regrets. They are lessons learned. Not to be repeated. Im I where I want to be. Not even close. But thats the challenge isn't it? To get to where you want to be. I have half my puzzle figured out. I have my family. Thats been the real challenge. Holding it all together. Thats how I realized that everything else...well, its bullshit. I can't control a goddamn thing. I can't give a fuck about what happens in the rest of the world. I can't change it. I can only contr

Suicide
Let me bleed away my pain, Melt away from all my fears. These wounds get deeper as I go, I've chocked back all my tears. The hurt inside my darkest dreams, Shows through my stone cold eyes. To open them would tear my soul, For half the night I waste in sighs. Suicide is my only friend, To help me through my tasks. Suicide is the only friend, To let me forget my past. I do not ask for many things, So of you I ask this; Will suicide be my only friend? Or will you save me from this misery?

Alive
LYING THERE IN YOUR ARMSLISSING TO YOUR HEART AS IT SPEAKS TO MY SOAL FEELING YOU BREATH AS YOU DRIFT OFF TO SLEEP WITH THEASE FINGERS OF MINE I TOUCH YOU BODY RUNNING MY FINGERS THROW YOUR SOFT SHINNY HAIR AS WE LIE TOGHTER INTWINED IN EACHOTHER HAPPYNESS AND PEACE GROWS WITH IN MEAND WITH YOU I FEEL SO ALIVE

Love Or Lust
fell in love but was it really just lustmy mind was on you wishing this body of mime was too.tine is not right so well just have to say good night did you see the fire and Passion in my eyes did i not make it clear my dear that you i so adore aidi just have to get a little bit more will you come over here set so close put you r arms around me and i will kiss youso passionately