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Sarahrella ...lol
After watching the movie Cinderella, five-year-old Sarah started using her pinwheel as a magic wand, pretending she was a fairy godmother. "Make three wishes," she told her mother, "and I'll grant them." Her mom first asked for world peace. Sarah swung her wand and proclaimed the request fulfilled. Next, her mother requested for a cure for all ill children. Again, with a sweep of the pinwheel, Sarah obliged. The mother, with a glance down at her rather ample curves, made her third wish, "I wish to have a trim figure again." The miniature fairy godmother started waving her wand madly. "I'll need more power for this!" she exclaimed.

A Woman's Fairy Tale:
This is the fairy tale that we should have been reading as little girls! Once upon a time, in a land far away, a beautiful, independent, self-assured princess happened upon a frog as she sat, contemplating ecological issues on the shores of an unpolluted pond in a verdant meadow near her castle. A frog hopped into the princess' lap and said: Elegant Lady, I was once a handsome prince, until an evil witch cast a spell upon me. One kiss from you, however, and I will turn back into the dapper, young Prince that I am and then, my sweet, we can marry and set up housekeeping in your castle with my mother, where you can satisfy my needs, prepare and serve my meals, clean my clothes, bear my children, and forever feel grateful and happy doing so. That night, as the princess dined sumptuously on lightly sautéed frog legs seasoned in a white wine and onion cream sauce, she chuckled and thought to herself: I DON'T F***ING THINK

I Dont Care
I DONT CARE WHAT ANYONE SAYS THE CONFEDERATE FLAG=RACISM If the US Flag represents Freedom, Liberty, Blah Blah Blah then the "southern" flag represents what was going on at the time it was created...SLAVERY it represents the darkest time in American History, a time when people with god complexes though they were better then other people, because of skin color, because of where they came from. the funniest part is..that the "confederate flag" isn't even the flag that represented "the south" Actually..nevermind...fly the flag....not much has changed. I challenge anyone who feels otherwise about that flag to debate me...you may win, you may lose, but we both might be entertained.

Once Upon A Time
Once upon a time there was a bunch of tiny frogs.... who arranged a running competition. The goal was to reach the top of a very high tower. A big crowd had gathered around the tower to see the race and cheer on the contestants.... The race began.... Honestly: No one in crowd really believed that the tiny frogs would reach the top of the tower. You heard statements such as: "Oh, WAY too difficult!!" "They will NEVER make it to the top." or: "Not a chance that they will succeed. The tower is too high!" The tiny frogs began collapsing. One by one.... Except for those, who in a fresh tempo, were climbing higher and higher....The crowd continued to yell, "It is too difficult!!! No one will make it!" More tiny frogs got tired and gave up.... But ONE continued higher and higher and higher.... This one wouldn't give up! At the end everyone else had given up climbing the tower. Except for the one tiny frog who, after a big effort, was the only one who reached th

Well I Received My Mail...
This is a follow up to my Love Thy Father MUMM. Today I received my 1st Holiday card from my father whom I never new..and in that card was a check for $300.00 which I think is a lot for him.. I am completely perplexed by this..and a bit overwhelmed. I am hoping that maybe he would like to get to know his grandchildren, they could sure benefit from him and he would benefit from them. Now time to MUMM on my response...

The Little Girl
A little girl stood near a small church from which she had been turned away because it was "too crowded." "I can't go to Sunday School," she sobbed to the pastor as he walked by. Seeing her shabby, unkempt appearance, the pastor guessed the reason and, taking her by the hand, took her inside and found a place for her in the Sunday school class. The child was so happy that they found room for her, and she went to bed that night thinking of the children who have no place to worship Jesus. Some two years later, this child lay dead in one of the poor tenement buildings. Her parents called for the kindhearted pastor who had befriended their daughter to handle the final arrangements. As her poor little body was being moved, a worn and crumpled red purse was found which seemed to have been rummaged from some trash dump. Inside was found 57 cents and a note, scribbled in childish handwriting, which read: "This is to help build the little church bigger so more child

Kiss My Rebel Arse!!!!
For those of you who dont get it, here's why I employ the flag as a means to symbolize who I am, and what I stand for: A> I am White. (sorry, yall, not really southern, but my god-family was, and alot of my pals were.) B> I am American, and Stars & Bars were here before Betsy got-to-stichin, folks,sorry to tell ya. C> This flag does not stand for the idea of slavery, as many have come to believe. It stands for taking a stand for what you believe, and not letting the government order you to live a certain way, against your will. ( the funny part is that you "minorities used to feel this way 50 years ago! But now that everything turned in your favor, now you LOVE the goverment!! funny, that!!) I never fought in the Civil War, nor did anyone in my family, that I am aware of. Therefore, this will never TRULY be the flag of my heritage. But until someone offers me a flag that stands for all of these things, this IS my flag. ( Those of you who believe in flag burning.... come

Natural Highs!!
1. Falling in love. 2. Laughing so hard your face hurts. 3. A hot shower. 4. No lines at the supermarket 5. A special glance. 6. Getting mail. 7. Taking a drive on a pretty road. 8. Hearing your favorite song on the radio. 9. Lying in bed listening to the rain outside. 10. Hot towels fresh out of the dryer. 11. Chocolate milkshake (vanilla or strawberry ). 12. A bubble bath. 13. Giggling. 14. A good conversation. 15. The beach. 16. Finding a 20 dollar bill in your coat from last winter. 17. Laughing at yourself. 18. Looking into their eyes and knowing they Love you 19. Midnight phone calls that last for hours. 20. Running through sprinklers. 21. Laughing for absolutely no reason at all. 22. Having someone tell you that you're beautiful. 23. Laughing at an inside joke with FRIENDS 24. Accidentally overhearing someone say something nice about you. 25 . Waking up and realizing you still have a few hours left to sleep. 26. Your first kiss (

The Code Of The American Cowboy
The Code of the American Cowboy Body: The Code of the American Cowboy (From Patrick Wayne's Eulogy to his father, John Wayne.) 1. A cowboy does not judge color of skin, but by character within. 2. A cowboy always respects a lady and tips his hat to all that pass him by 3. A cowboy stands strong for what the American frontier is all about: Freedom, Truth, Justice and the American way. 4. A cowboy will not be wronged, nor wrongs another. The justice he deems out depends on that. 5. A cowboy is loyal, and hard working and maintains a high ethic. 6. A cowboy loves his country, and will fight for it’s principles and sovereignty. 7. A cowboy respects his animals and the earth they roam upon. 8. A cowboy is faithful to what is entrusted to him. 9. A cowboy is bound by duty, honor, and gratitude for what God has given him, which includes his friends and family. 10. A cowboy maintains a hidden code in his heart, for all to see.

Before I Was A Mom
Before I was a Mom I never tripped over toys or forgot words to a lullaby. I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous. I never thought about immunizations. Before I was a Mom - I had never been puked on. Pooped on. Chewed on. Peed on. I had complete control of my mind and my thoughts. I slept all night. Before I was a Mom I never held down a screaming child so doctors could do tests Or give shots. I never looked into teary eyes and cried. I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin. I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep. Before I was a Mom I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put him down. I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn't stop the hurt. I never knew that something so small could affect my life so much. I never knew that I could love someone so much. I never knew I would love being a Mom. Before I was a Mom - I didn't know the feeling of having m

51 Days:
51 Days Body: A bartender is sitting behind the bar on a typical day, when the door bursts open and in come four exuberant blondes. They come up to the bar, order five bottles of champagne and ten glasses, take their order over and sit down at a large table. The corks are popped, the glasses are filled and they begin toasting and chanting, "51 days, 51 days, 51 days!" Soon, three more blondes arrive, take up their drinks and the chanting grows. "51 days, 51 days, 51 days!" Two more blondes show up and soon their voices are joined in raising the roof. "51 days, 51 days, 51 days!" Finally, the tenth blonde comes in with a picture under her arm. She walks over to the table, sets the picture in the middle and the table erupts. Up jumps the others, they begin dancing around the table, exchanging high-fives, all the while chanting "51 days, 51 days, 51 days!" The bartender can't contain his curiosity any longer, so he walks over to the table. There in the center is a b

A Hard Day
Today has been a really hard day on me. Everybody knows how I feel about babies and little kids. Well today I was shopping for Cassie & Katlin’s Christmas. I just kind of wondered along behind as Momma was looking for their clothes. My mind was somewhere else the whole time. I know if I said huh one time I said it a thousand. I try to keep my mind out of the place where it seemed to want to reside today. I can’t really afford for it to go into that hidden room in my mind but it does. I kept thinking would shopping for the girls ever be enough for me. That answer followed quickly and it was a no. I try not to think of the whole not able to have babies thing. Everybody who knows about it keeps telling me don’t worry about it don’t think about it. It is hard not to think of it when every time I look at the girls I wonder how they would be with kids that where mine. Don’t get me wrong I love my nieces with all my heart they are my world. I just can’t help but wonder if I would be as

Ice Fishing:
Ice Fishing Body: A blonde wanted to go ice fishing. She'd seen many books on the subject, and finally, after getting all the necessary items together, she made for the nearest frozen lake. After positioning her footstool, she started to make a circular cut in the ice. Suddenly, from the sky, a voice boomed, "There are no fish under the ice!" Startled, the blonde moved further down the ice and began to cut yet another hole. Again, from the heavens, the voice bellowed, "There are no fish under the ice!" The blonde, now quite worried, moved way down to the opposite end of the ice, sat up her stool, and tried again to cut her hole. The voice came once more, "There are no fish under the ice!" She stopped, looked skyward, and said, "Is that you, Lord?" The voice replied, "No, manager of this ice rink!"

Trailer Trash???
For those of you who think that this is really me, or that i really look ANYTHING like this: STOP READING NOW!!!!! For those of you who think that I actually live in this : you could be right, because I have, and have many freinds and family that still do!!! My question is this: SO F-IN WHAT???? ~is yur Loan Invested,50 year mortgage strapped, two bedroom yardless condo make you maore of a man? ~does your goverment subsidized, section 8 waiting list, crime infested projects make you more deserving of our tolerance? ~does the fact that you have 18 relatives living in one pastel painted,lowrider surrounded, mariachi blaring barrio dwelling mean that your tougher than me??? I think not. Unless YOU actually live in a trailer park, and have lived the life of these people, then you need not use the term "trailer trash", unless you give me express permission to use whatever derogatory term that i can find to lable you. And trust me, I know a few! okay, thats e

What A Man Wants From A Women
What a man Wants from a women When we say its over [Its really over] When we don't call [Don't get mad we will make it up] When we say sorry for no reason [We don't know what we did but want to] When we hold you close [Its because we care] When we ask if you want to go out with us and the guys [We are doing it to make sure you are ok with it] When we kiss you softly [We more then care] When we ask for you number [Don't be rude not all me just want sex] When we say it a secret between guy [Don't ask it is a secret that can't be broke] Don't think all men are about sex [Thier are a few that want love] When you break it off [We need time if you want to be friends] And if we say I Love You [Its real don't smash it]

A Time For Change
There comes a time in every one life when you must start making changes. Rather there big or small it doesn’t really matter up to a point. A small change can be just as affective in your life as a large one can be. Believe me I have been thru a lot of them, big and small. Changes are not an easy thing to do. It may seem like some are but they really not. One of the hardest changes that people go thru is getting older. Because the older you get the more thing change, that is just part of life. As you get older you look at thing different then you did when you was younger. Change can also be bad or good; it just depends on the situation. But regardless of the change it seems to always work out. Or at less you hope it does any way. Most of the changes in one life will never be notice by your self. Only when one points it out do we really see it, and then there are the usual changes that you and everyone else sees. Usually they’re the ones that you would conceder to be major changes. This

Who I Am
WHO I AM I AM A WOMAN WHO MAKES MISTAKES A PERSON WHO LOVES AND MAYBE LOVES TO DEEPLY AT TIMES I AM A WOMAN WHO HAS FEELINGS I AM A PERSON WHO GETS THOSE FEELINGS HURT EASILY I AM A WOMAN WHO TRIES TO MAKE EVERYONE HAPPY AND A PERSON WHO KNOWS THAT SHE CANT MAKE EVERYONE HAPPY I AM A WOMAN WHO WANTS GREAT THINGS IN LIFE BUT A PERSON WHO KNOWS THAT ORDINARY THINGS ARE MY ONLY OPTION I AM A WOMAN WHO TREASURES FAMILY BUT A PERSON WHO'S FAMILY HARDLY KNOWS SHE EXISTS' I AM A WOMAN WHO CRAVES APPROVAL AND A PERSON WHO KNOWS IT DOESNT MATTER I AM A WOMAN WHO LIVES HER LIFE ACCORDING TO HOW OTHERS PERCEIVE IT SHOULD BE BUT A PERSON WHO KNOWS SHE CAN ONLY LIVE IT FOR HERSELF I AM A WOMAN WHO WANTS TO BE ABLE TO EXPRESS HERSELF BUT A PERSON WHO DOESNT KNOW QUITE HOW TO DO IT I AM A WOMAN WHO SHOULD BELIEVE SHE IS A GOOD PERSON SADLY I AM A PERSON WHO DOES NOT I AM AFTER ALL ONLY ME! WRITTEN BY ME

Someone You Care About
The Mayonnaise Jar and 2 Cups of Coffee When things in your life seem almost too much to handle, when 24 hours in a day are not enough, remember the mayonnaise jar and the 2 cups of coffee. A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in front of him. When the class began, he wordlessly picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls. He then asked the students if the jar was full. They agreed that it was. The pr ofessor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar He shook the jar lightly The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls. He then asked the students again if the jar was full. They agreed it was. The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar. Of course, the sand filled up everything else. He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded with an unanimous 'yes.' The professor then produced two cups of coffee from under the table and

Things Not To Do Or Say To A Bartender
I'm pretty sure every one of these rules was violated in some shape or form tonight. Just a heads up to anyone who is going out to drink at some sort of liquor-dispensal location, here are a few tips: 1. The first words out of your mouth should not be "What's cheap?" The first answer that comes to mind is "You are." I don't mind if someone asks if we run happy hour, I'm more than happy to go through the specials with you and really don't mind the fact that you are getting discounted drinks. Just remember that your drinks are discounted so if you and a few friends rack up a 100 dollar tab, that tab should actually be 140. I served you well, please tip accordingly. 2. Don't ask me for free drinks. Just like in the prior point you may as well just say "I'm a cheap bastard." If you would like free drinks try this approach: stop by our bar more than once a year. Be friendly and take care of the bartenders, then I guarentee we will take care of you. 3. Think about s

It Is Official
HEY I JUST FOUND OUT TODAY, MY DAUGHTER IS HAVING A SON ! ITS A BOY... I AM SO EXCITED... I HAD TWIN DAUGHTERS, ALWAYS WANTED A BOY... CAN NOT HAVE CHILDREN, SO I WILL LIVE VICARIOUSLY THRU MY GRANDSON.... I AM SO HAPPY ! THANKS FOR ALL THE WELL WISHES FROM MY FRIENDS ! WHAT A GREAT XMAS THIS WILL BE, SHE IS DUE IN MAY 2008 WHICH IS HER BIRTH MONTH ALSO... WHAT A COINCENDENCE ! PEACE , LOVE AND HARMONY TO ALL MY FRIENDS AT FUBAR... T

To All In The West Palm Area!!!
If you are in the West Palm Beach area, you need to get yer ass to the "Buzz Bake Sale" !!!! At 11am, the winner of the Battle Of The Bands will be playing!!! YOU NEED TO SEE THEM ! ! They are Bury The Broken..... THE BEST FUCKING THING OUT OF SOUTH FL.!!!!! If you want to know more, search them on "MySpace".......You WON'T BE DISAPPOINTED ! ! !

My Thoughts As Of Late
Maybe the only truth is that it's all a lie, I wouldn't be suprised, so then wouldn't it be something, if it were all for nothing? So gone, but I'm sure you don't care if I ever came back, let's re-arrange those facts, you leave I stay I cry but you'd never see that, I'm so far gone that doctors already announcing the time of death, wouldn't you care that we never made up before this last breath, yes these words struggle within me trying to come out, but you only see frustration stummering stammering a dj scratch and me shout, I'm so gone that no I don't want to come back, even if the whole block felt me had love for me like I was crack, should this be my undeniable fate, sometimes I wish that I could exchange plates, empty it out or not even eat to begin with, I wish they never thought of me to begin with, I wish I could say what I really feel, but you know like I know a magician never keeps it real, there's too much at stake, my mind is about to break, right at the seams, I don't re

Help! I'm Being Fustalked And Fuharassed!
http://fubar.com/army_chick_shelia My ex invited me to this awesome site which I've become uber addicted to but after awhile she got bitchy and harassing. Threatened to get my account disabled because I "didn't have permission" to upload pictures of US even though I'm in them and 95% of them I took. During that spirt of harassment I blocked her. Since then she's been sending the majority of Mistr3ss's House of Pain members to rate everything I have on here a "1", send harassing/rude/hateful/threatening messages, and it's just been a complete nightmare. We made peace that lasted a few days but she's up to her psychopathic harassment again and even has added fuStalking to the list of her abilities (I'm assuming she has at least one fake account as my friend and I really don't want to get paranoid and delete every single one of y'all just because she's literally insane.) Anyways, I think it's time for me to stop taking her shit and start dishing it out. I humbly come beginning

Am I Racist???
well, to a certain extent, I believe everyone of us is. If given the option, and all other things being equal, our natural instincts would kick in, and we would defend the person thats closest to our own existence. This is my point. I am White/Caucasion/Honkey/Cracker/Cornbread/Peckerwood, etc.... My family is white. Most of my freinds are white (although that hasnt always been the case). The entire world preaches tolerance, and equality, but in the same breath excludes caucasions from everything. We are inherantly evil, and we ALL have this diabolical plan for an aryan race, no matter what the cost. We all support the reinstitution of legal slavery, and would enslave every race, color and/or creed that is not W.A.S.P. !! We are all war-mongers, and care about nothing but for ourselves!! Whitey = Bad Person. Period. Well, kind folks, this is what the educated like to call "REVERSE DISCRIMINATION".....hmmmmmmm...a form of RACISM!!! > > So, the next time you want to lable me w

Drink Your Haterade
yo yo uh uh what it is, girl this the remix, no onions i fold like an accordion, seeing all this shit disappointed by what i see, a bottomless pit why is hilton such a tool, all you see is her tit and carrie underwood, she won't have a hit she gotta take her rightful spot and just go sit sean taylor has paid the ultimate price now he has to answer to the worms and mice if his kid dates pig pen, she gon get some lice though not as bad as a 9-7 blowout from mike tice maybe he'll realize his true dream and move to the land of kung fu and rice and god damn, these kids keep trashing the halls when you ask them to go somewhere else, they got no balls it falls on deaf ears, like you talk to them walls why they stayin here? take your ass to the malls oh i know, i bet big brutus stole their girl's numbers and he's gonna make some calls the name of the game is standing up for yourself, always gotta be a winner, no matter who falls

Old St Nick
'Twas the night before Christmas--Old Santa was pissed. He cussed out the elves and threw down his list. Miserable little brats, ungrateful little jerks. I have a good mind to scrap the whole works! I've busted my ass for damn near a year, Instead of "Thanks Santa"--what do I hear? The old lady bitches cause I work late at night. The elves want more money--The reindeer all fight. Rudolph got drunk and goosed all the maids. Donner is pregnant and Vixen has AIDS. And just when I thought that things would get better Those assholes from the IRS sent me a letter, They say I owe taxes--if that ain't funny Who the hell ever sent Santa Claus any money? And the kids these days--they all are the pits They want the impossible--Those mean little shits I spent a whole year making wagons and sleds Assembling dolls...Their arms, legs and heads I made a ton of yo yo's--No request for them, They want computers and robots...they think - I'm IBM! F

More About Me
A Bunch of Stuff About Me!!!! by moonflash{ The Basics }Name: BevAge: 26Birthday: 8/17/81Current Location: MichiganEye Color: brownHair Color: light brownHeight: 5'3Weight: Lefty or Righty: Righty{ Favorites }Color: PurpleNumber: 77Music Genre: EverythingTV Channel: GACMovie: Anything ScaryKind of Movie: Horror DUHSport: NascarFood: CHicken{ Do You }Have any Siblings: yesHave any Pets: yesHave a Job: yesAny Special Talents or Skills: LotsHave any Fears: NopeWant to go to College: I am attending collegeGet Along with Your Parents: Most the timeSwear: FUck yeahSmoke: NopeDrink: Yup like a fish LOLDo Drugs: { This or That }Frui

Lost
"Lost" You look right at me, sometimes I know you see me, other times you look right through me. I'm losing control, I'm going insane, going under, drowning suffocating. I need to break free from all this but how? Leave? Stay? What? If I stay there's endless pain and chances of irrepairable broken friendship with no way to mend. But to leave is to run, what I've always done...I don't want to do what I've always done. So do I break free and save my sanity or stay and give in to Crystal? She's calling me my name. She's an evil temptress and she along with you I can't seem to break free from. Please, somebody my soul is on it's knees, crying out in agony! What is the answer and how will I know it's the right one? Do I trust in the powers more devine than I? Do they even exist? My faith lost from loss, My mind and soul, trapped, lost in oblivion. All I want to know now is the other side of things. So tell me whether to break free or jus

About Me:
NAME? Andrea Marie Starbird AGE? 43 but I can party with the youngins! LOCATION? Kingman, AZ DRINK? only for fun! occasionally habitual drinking is an ugly thing! IF SO, HOW OFTEN? maybe once or twice a month SMOKE ANYTHING? oh yeah the sacred herb, and I hate it but I haven't quite smoking ciggz yet! agh IF SO, HOW OFTEN? regularly although if I am out it's certainly not the end of the world! WHERE DO YOU STAND POLITICALLY? Anarchist WHERE DO YOU STAND RELIGIOUSLY? I love God the creator and my relationship with God is the most important thing in my life I am doing my best to listen to my higher self, the inner voice that always chooses Love! WHERE DO YOU STAND ON THE TOPIC OF SEX? love love love it!!!! What a wonderful gift! As with all things it must of couse be a mutally joyous occasion, it is a celbration of life, it is sacred and beautiful! ARE YOU ROUGH? CAN YOU BE? oh yeah we are animals are we not? WOULD YOU LET ME HANG OUT WITH YOUR FRI

Grrr....
Okay i just had a very long day...i worked a double shift...went to a class that was pointless....then i went to the store, got some meds because i'm sick...on the way out i saw a kitten so for 2 hours i tried to saw this kitten...but being sick and freezing..i could not get the kitten and so i had to leave it...i wish i could have gotten it and save it...but i had to leave and then there was even more kittens across the way...i wish i could have saved them but the will be taken care of, the humane society can save them...:(

What Offends Me
So here we are again, some school, someplace, with someone deciding that they are "offended" by the traditional portrayal of Thanksgiving. So, the some school school board has decided to remove it from the someplace school. Follow me so far? Also recently, in Utah, some Atheist decided that the little crosses on the side of the road in the middle of nowhere for people killed at that location..... yes you guessed it.... offends them. If you know me at all, you also know that I am not Christian, however, the little crosses on the side of the road do not bother me in the slightest. Who am I to decide how someone wishes to honor their dead? Just don't go putting one there for me and we are good (Although if you want to put up a Thor's Hammer, I would not complain). So here it comes.... people that are offended by every little thing OFFEND ME! These people need to grow some SKIN! They need to stop thinking that everyone needs to think and believe the way they do! "Freedo

Wtf? Someone Elses Rant At Me!
RushN'Roses@fubar.com #936945=Artens Milkani Artens Milkani : wish u were not invisible ~*~ Kat ~*~ : well I feel like it Artens Milkani : that's fine Artens Milkani : i tri4d to become friend Artens Milkani : you , i guess , have more inportantthings to do Artens Milkani : good luck girl ~*~ Kat ~*~ : dont do that ~*~ Kat ~*~ : I did something stupid ~*~ Kat ~*~ : and I am paying for it now ~*~ Kat ~*~ : I didnt mean to hurt anyone...ignore anyone Artens Milkani whatever you didi will not judge you, period ~*~ Kat ~*~ : I know how that feels Artens Milkani : you were never for me Artens Milkani : so, keep your friendship up, and that's it ~*~ Kat ~*~ : Im sorry...I didnt know I was so freakin important to anyone Artens Milkani : it's ok ~*~ Kat ~*~ : I'm sitting here in tears and can hardly see Artens Milkani : you will not lose nothing Artens Milkani : but now that you know... dont throw away the importance of someone showing you, som friendship Artens Milkani :

Do
do ya ever wonder if i hurt do ya ever wonder if i know do ya ever wonder if i care do think i hurt do you even think about how i feel do you know i know do you think about what i know do you know i care do you even understand y i care do you know i love you do you know i want you do you know i cant live with out you do you.........

Y Do Men Hit On Me
it pisses me off everytime a guy wants to talk to me on here they want to get laid. i want only friends if they are male or female i am sry to b so harsh and i know this is known to have people to hook up with but u can rate me and stuff but i won't tolerate men wantin to cyber or fuck me

Darkness
Darkness resides all around me, it envelops my soul, I do not fear it but welcome it. Very little light shall penetrate the darkness, for too much light may end up destroying me rather than saving me. There is one beacon of light that keeps some of the darkness at bay, that light is my son, for without him the darkness would completely consume my soul. I know that there are women out there whose light could free my soul from most of the darkness, it would be a love of kindness and hope and happiness and giving. But there are also women out there who could bring my soul even further into the darkness, making it a love of despair and pain and torture and pleasure. Shall we drink a glass of wine and take walks in the park or shall we drink of each other and experience painful pleasure?

Life Lessons
There are a few things you learn along the way as you grow up and i think that it is different for each and every one of us. We all have to take our own journey and see what we see. The biggest things that i have learned in my life are this: 1: be wary, for not everyone has your best interest at heart. Infact often times people will lie and deceive you jsut to get what they want or need from you, be it physically, emotionally, financially or socially. 2: if it's too good to be true, it probably is. This can span the course of alot of things and I personally have experienced most of them myself; yet the most likely is with love. I guess it will never cease to amaze me the things that surface when your heart is most vunerable. 3: what's done in darkness ALWAYS comes to light. Is there anyone out there that seriously thinks that they are getting away with something? Yet you always try... give me a break. There is always someone waiting to replace you and deceit is like a

Selfish!
My great grand mother is 94 years old. I know she isn't going to last forever but I just found out some bad news about her health. She recently had surgery on her leg to put in an artificial vein to help with blood flow o her foot. Well now there is a blood clot in the vein and when they tried to do an angioplasty on it, it didn't work. They can't do a similar surgery because now she has an infection in her foot so they want to amputate. But the stuborn old lady refuses to allow them to do so because she refuses to die without her feet! :( I got all upset, crying and told my mother that our family is like a puzzle and if a puzzle is missing a piece the puzzle becomes worthless. Am I being selfish or is it normal to be upset? What should I do?

Beware This Lying Downrater For Real!!!!!
Yes, It's another installment of beware the douchebag. This one is not only a downrater but, is actually a guy and not the girl you see in the pics. I say everyone that reads this should go and show this fake some 1 loving followed with a block. Anyone that hits him good, let me know and I'll throw a gift your way. http://fubar.com/user.php?u=770546&friend=770546

Heh.
I feel sick. Alone. depressed. All I need is me though right? Thats what I keep telling myself. I love my fiancee` and I want us to work. I just have to be patient or sum'in... right? Still... doesn't change the fact I feel sick. alone. depressed. *shrugs*

For A Wonderful Female Friend Om Here Part 1
u r the most amazing women i ever met. u bring happiness and joy to me. ur eyes , ur lips, ur face, etc. shows true beauty.so does ur personality. any guy would be happy to have u as a friend.it is women like u that makes this world go round and round.

Why God Made Mom's
WHY GOD MADE MOMS (Answers given by 2nd grade school children to the following questions: ) Why did God make mothers? 1. She's the only one who knows where the scotch tape is. 2. Mostly to clean the house. 3. To help us out of there when we were getting born. How did God make mothers? 1. He used dirt, just like for the rest of us. 2. Magic plus super powers and a lot of stirring. 3. God made my Mom just the same like he made me. He just used bigger parts. What ingredients are mothers made of? 1. God makes mothers out of clouds and angel hair and everything nice in the world and one dab of mean. 2. They had to get their start from men's bones. Then they mostly use string, I think. Why did God give you your mother and not some other mom? 1. We're related. 2. God knew she likes me a lot more than other people's moms like me. What kind of little girl was your mom? 1. My Mom has always been my mom and none of that other stuf

I Love You All.
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I Swear I'm Not Ignoring You !!
I just wanted to let everyone know a few things.... I drive a truck for a living, and usually have my laptop with me. That means that I my be on, but I might not be able to get back to you for a while. This goes for rates/comments/shouts/games,etc.... I can be a rude "some bitch" when need be. But when it comes to random people trying to get my attention, I am not like that. The reason I am posting this, is because I have been deleted as a friend, or have been told I am an ass for not responding. It is impossible to drive a truck and type at the same time.lol I hope you all understand, and if not, TOUGH !!! Thats the way it is. I will be happy to respond as soon as I can !!! Also, I seem to have a problem getting into a game invite when I try to accept it. If I can, I will shout at you to let ya know I am trying..

Needing To Vent
today wasnt a very good day for me. me and my sister got into it again. only this time it was a mess. it turned into a shoveing match and then she either shoved me hard in my chest or hit me hard in my chest and i punched her hard in her arm. then my dad got in between me and her to seperate us so i guess we couldnt hurt each other anyworse than we had.... needless today she threatened to keep me from my neice. well if she dose that , i am NOT sticking around here, i am moveing , and they can all kiss my *** everything was fine til she got back together with you know who, but what can i say. she even when as far as to trash me about how i was living MY life..... well if anyone wants to comment on this they can , there is more to the story , but i just dont feel like typeing it....

Has Anyone Ever Come So Close Yet / So Far From Death?
In past 10 yrs Ive almost died three times , and past 4 yrs almost two times ; Ive never so close yet so far . Three times succide , all a stared since 1999 June. In 2003 had a deseased gall bladder ..low iron supply in my body,s blood.. I always was anemic .. No reason to why found medically...suffered 8 months in pain , felt like a heart attack ;every time an attack hit me. I went to county hospital close to where I live . No one would set a sonagram up for me . i told Dr.s what I thought it was , my gall bladder,; took three months to be seen . I didnt make it to that sonagram , i was admitted at another hospital; thru Er Room and rushed an hour latter into Er surgery as soon as a dr arrived to do the surgery . I was lucky . Dr. just had to do lazer removal thru my navel no big cuts or scar. five small ones/,he couldnt understand why county didnt do this surgery sooner; my gall bladdr was deseased very bad . decayed in side me. poisioning me. Now this

Being Single Getting Old..
lol was my desion to tay single this year after years with the ex wanted to get my head on straight, that and the guys I been having the oppertunity to meet werent any i'd go on a 2nd date with or get involved with *sigh* but when it come to late at nyte and most your friends married or have kids cant just call and talk when you ne3d a friend =( so much on my mind and no one to share it with kind gets to you. I so hate dr's yet im volentarily waking into a surgeons office tuesday lol but im tird of not feeling good about me ive thought about this surgery for a long long time mostly just a lift...but now with the weight loss I want back to my full size too. barely know anyone in south fla im blindly picking out dr's so with knew someone who could refer a good surgeon might ease a few fears..... Create The Perfect Girl at MyFreeImplants.com!

Premarital Sex
I just thought I'd take a moment to say that I think premarital sex is a beautiful thing. We were watching Home Improvement tonight and it just seemed symptomatic of how Americans view sex. Kids are uncomfortable talking to their parents about sex because their parents are uncomfortable talking about sex. The truth is, it's natural and healthy to be thinking about it at that age. What's dangerous is the point where kids start having sex with no knowledge at all about it or its possible consequences. Personally I think that it's not healthy to discourage people at that age from having sex. It's healthy to let them know what they're getting into. It's healthy to tell them about the emotional aspect of it, and what happens if you get pregnant, or what happens if you get an STD. If they know, then they can avoid some of these pitfalls. Maybe they can avoid some predator taking advantage of their ignorance too. Maybe that predator would have been the one they married. The Net

It Is Fun For Me
OK Just so some of you know..I am here on FUBAR to have fun and take a break from daily life.My escape .SO no I dont get caught up in the drama..If after sometime of chatting and so forth I make you part of my r/l that is my chocie not yours.I am very close with some of my friends on here .FUBAR is fun lets keep it that way.I just had to get it out because of some people trying to stir the pot.stir away..but I perfer to be shaken lol LOVE TO MY FUBAR FAMILY AND FRIENDS

My Ex
OK... Some of you that are on my friend's list that I talk to and some of you I don't. I have found out over time that my ex is on some of your pages in friend's list and some of you have him in your 'family' list. All I can say is at the moment we are going to court. The state has pressed charges on him and I have to testify, so in the interest of legality, I really can't tell you who he is, what he has done..but I will say that I won't be talking much to some of you for this reason only.. when court is over, I will talk to you regularly again...To those I don't talk to, you will be deleted. Sorry.

Randum
why do we use light? By: Drew Miller(sonic) why do we use light? is it cause it reminds us of something specile, or something we are atached to? mybe its be cuse we want to seethe beuty of all things around us. i for one use light for all the above. love to me is like a fire , keep it burning and there is light. like a light bulb, cut the power,the fule and its lights out. but if you return power , add a log and stir the coals the light comes back bright and strong. when i need light, i look to the stars and see all the light i need. whene i see a girl with a bright smile, i see the stars light here on earth and think how many people see things the way i do? to sit by a fireand see candle lights in the distence coming to join my light. as they get near, i see star that have lost there light. the ones with lightask me to relight what light has been lost. i tell them they must put out there lights and return to town in witch they came. all do as i ask as the stars rest b

My New Phucit Clothing Line!
Hi friends! I've Launched a new clothing Line and wanted all to see and give me some feed back! Would you wear it if it were available? It is available but not at your nearest outlet store or mall, not yet anyways! Just go to my Photo's and look at the "PhucCiT Clothing Line" Album! Much appreciated my friends! Thanx!

Whats Up
im going through my midlife crisis i think.I cant stop going over the ex's house to visit with the new babies/grandbabies they have custody of now ( 14 month old boy and 2 month old girl) I want another baby so bad. then i stop and think real hard and say what the hell woman! you are 39! your son is 17 and your daughter is 14! you're in the home stretch! do you really wanna start all over again???? *sigh* someone please tell me im insane! lol

Yeah It Makes Me Mad.. But Its Life Right?
So in my hours of sitting and thinking i realized in this crazy fucked up world the women who chose the men that fight for freedoms really do live by a different standard then those wives that are married to bankers etc. and so i thought about putting it all out there for you guys to think about to. One rule came from a phone conversation i have with someone today in fact that really chapped my ass. 1 never complain about how long he is gone be thankful that he made it back in one piece (civilian womem DO NOT COMPARE YOUR HUSBANDS BUSINESS TRIP TO WHAT WE GO THROUGH... he will be gone for a week!) we dont see our husbands for weeks, months, even years at a time. 2 we dont talk about the shit that goes on in our houses with anyone from the "outside world" we know whats at stake if we run off at the mouth about hubby's bad night (civilian women... you run and blab about how bad the sex is) try calming a man down thats going through ptsd and keeping a brave face in front of your "fr

Ever Fallen In Love
Ever Fallen In Love by:Buzzcocks You spurn my natural emotions You make me feel like dirt And I'm hurt. And if I start a commotion I run the risk of losing you And that's worse. Ever fallen in love with someone Ever fallen in love In love with someone Ever fallen in love In love with someone You shouldn't've fallen in love with. I can't see much of a future Unless we find out what's to blame What a shame. And we won't be together much longer Unless we realize that we are the same. Ever fallen in love with someone Ever fallen in love In love with someone Ever fallen in love In love with someone You shouldn't've fallen in love with. You disturb my natural emotions You make me feel like dirt And I'm hurt. And if I start a commotion I'll only end up losing you And that's worse. Ever fallen in love with someone Ever fallen in love In love with someone Ever fallen in love In love with someone You shouldn't've fallen in love with. Ever fallen in love wit

Marriage.... Hahaha
Marriage (Part I ) > >>牋?Typical macho man married typical good-looking lady, and > >after the wedding, he laid down the following rules: > >'I'll be home when I want, if I want and at what time > >I want -- and I don't expect any hassle from you. > >I expect a great dinner to be on the table unless > >I tell you that I won't be home for dinner. > >I'll go hunting, fishing, boozing, and card-playing > >when I want with my old buddies, and don't you > >give me a hard time about it. > >Those are my rules. Any comments?' > >His new bride said: > >'No, that's fine with me. Just understand that there will be sex > >here at seven o'clock every night...whether you're here or not.' > >(DARN SHE'S GOOD!) > >************ ********* ********* ********* ********* > >Marriage (Part II) > > > >Husband and wife had a bitter quarrel on the day of their 40th wedding >anniversary! > >The husband yells, 'When you die, I'm getting you a headstone > >that rea

Things That Matter
Three things in life that, once gone, never come back 1. Time 2. Words 3. Opportunity Three things in life that can destroy a person 1. Anger 2. Pride 3. Unforgiveness Three things in life that you should never lose 1. Hope 2. Peace 3. Honesty Three things in life that are most valuable 1. Love 2. Family & Friends 3. Kindness Three things in life that are never certain 1. Fortune 2. Success 3. Dreams Three things that make a person 1. Commitment 2. Sincerity 3. Hard work

Dementia Test...
Test for Dementia B elow are four ( 4 ) questions and a bonus question. You have to answer them instantly. You can't take your time, answer all of them immediately . OK? Let's find out just how clever you really are.... Ready? GO!!! (scroll down) First Question: Y ou are participating in a race. You overtake the second person. What position are you in? Answer: If you answered that you are first, then you are absolutely wrong! If you overtake the second person and you take his place, you are second! Try not to screw up next time. Now answer the second question, but don't take as much time as you took for the first question, OK ? Second Question: If you overtake the last person, then you are...? (scroll down) Answer: If you answered that you are second to last, then you are wrong again. Tell me, how can you overtake the LAST Person? You're not very good at this, are you? Third Question: Very tri

Perfection
Perfection All I ever wanted was to be part of your heart and for us to be together to never be apart. No one else in the world could even compare, You’re perfect and so is this love we can share. We can have so much more then I ever thought we would, I would love you more then I thought I ever could. I promise to give you all I have to give, I’ll do anything for you as long as I live. In your eyes I see our present, future, and past, by the way you would look at me I know we will last.

Hahaha Think Before You Speak! :p
Think before you speak... Here are six reasons why you should think before you speak. The last one is great! Have you ever spoken and wished that you could immediately take the words back... Or that you could crawl into a hole? Here are the Testimonials of a few people who did.... FIRST TESTIMONY: I walked into a hair salon with my husband and three kids in tow and asked loudly, 'How much do you charge for a shampoo and a blow job?' I turned around and walked back out and never went back. My husband didn't say a word... He knew better. SECOND TESTIMONY: I was at the golf store comparing different kinds of golf balls. I was unhappy with the women's type I had been using. After browsing for several minutes, I was approached by one of the good-looking gentlemen who works at the store. He asked if he could help me. Without thinking, I looked at him and said, 'I think I like playing with mens balls' THIRD TESTIMONY: My sister and I were at the mall and P

Too Good To Toss Aside
One day, the father of a very wealthy family took his son on a trip to the country with the express purpose of showing him how poor people live. They spent a couple of days and nights on the farm of what would be considered a very poor family. On their return from their trip, the father asked his son, "How was the trip?" "It was great, Dad." "Did you see how poor people live?" the father asked. "Oh yeah," said the son. "So, tell me, what did you learn from the trip?" asked the father. The son answered: "I saw that we have one dog and they had four. We have a pool that reaches to the middle of our garden and they have a creek that has no end. We have imported lanterns in our garden and they have the stars at night. Our patio reaches to the front yard and they have the whole horizon. We have a small piece of land to live on and they have fields that go beyond our sight. We have servants who serve us, but they serve others

They Said No More Drama Part 2
۞WÌLÐÇÄŦ۞® ŦRÄÌñ۞ THE MOST WANTED PEOPLE ON FUBAR 4 BEING REALLY BAD!!! TRAIN FARE INFO. 1~THIS TRAIN IS NOT FREE,IT COST 7 DAYS BLAST 2 PROMOTE U. 2~ YOU STICKY UR TRAIN. 3~IF U WANT 2 BE THE CONDUCTOR BRING A NEW MEMBER 2 SPONSOR THE TRAIN & U STICKY IT. 4~IF U WANT 2 BE A V.I.P.ITS 1 DAY BLAST OR MORE. 5~TO GET A V.I.P. CART & ADD 2 OF UR FRIENDS ITS A 3 DAYS BLAST OR MORE OR IF U CAN BRING ANOTHER SPONSOR & UR CART WILL BE FREE. 6~ALL NEW CARTS WILL BE ON THE TOP.U'RE FREE 2 ADD COUPLE FRIENDS FOR 1 TIME 2 PROMOTE THEM. 7~AND THIS GOES 2 ALL PEOPLE ON MY TRAIN: (((U have 2 rate,fan & add all the people on the train each time U're on it check 4 the new members,,,also rate all the conductor's pix and you have 2 rate as much as U can from the stewards & the VIP members 2.)))OR YOU'LL BE REMOVED!!! HERE IS SOME AWESOME & SEXY TAPPERS ON WILDCAT TRAIN THEY LOVE 2 FAN,RATE,ADD PEOPLE & SHOW SOME LOVE THEY'VE BEEN SO BAD LATELY,I MEAN

Normal?
What do people mean when they say normal? Is it the stereotyped American dream? White picket fence, two cars in garages Married, kids, friendly neighbors I've never seen that in my lifetime So why do we call it normal? And what about dating? Why do we feel the need to have Someone to screw to make ourselves fit in? Why can't we just be alone and happy? Does a man need to be rich to make himself a name? Does your identity require a six figure income? Does our identity require having someone in bed with us at night? For me, being normal is a dream in itself Getting by on one job, a wife to cook and clean Well-behaved kids who do their chores and eat right Whatever. From what I've seen, "Normal" is a disorder caused by Conforming to impossible standards Marriage doesn't last, friends move on Money stays in the hands of idiots with dumb ideas And in the end, I just don't care about being normal

For The People Who Hate And Wanna Dog My Ass... Well You Can Kiss My Ass...
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My Son's Love Of Boogers...
So I was walking into the living room just recently and saw my son sitting on the floor in front of the recliner. I see his finger move quickly from his face as he turns his back and hides his hand. So I immediately asked him if he was just picking his nose and he just smiles at me. And so I said, "I know you're not about to wipe a booger on my chair." He smiled again. So I said, "You weren't going eat a booger were you??" And he smiled again and said, "Well I was going to eat it until you saw me." And I said to him, "Son that's really disgusting. You really should not eat boogers because they are very dirty and gross. Eating a booger would be like licking a dogs butt. You wouldn't lick a dog's butt, would you?" And he looked me dead in the eye and said matter of factly, "I would lick a dog's butt if it tasted like a booger."

Like A Kid On Xmas Eve.
The new PC (see last post for details) will be here tomorrow, much earlier than I expected. Of course, that means that my project for the evening is to dig up all of the cds and download all of the exes for my software and hardware. It'll probably take most of the night, but it's worth it. :D

Just...some Belle...babble...is All...
The “Sanctity”…of..“The Mass”… The world…eats…my “sanity“…with teeth…sharp, wicked, brutally biting…ripping every nerve…goading my inner being…to make myself…disappear…for lack of want….from lack of sustenance…….aches to starve me…take my inner strength…pushing me to make…a …homicide of myself… I don’t belong…I don’t belong…no need to belong…in “their world”…bitter….bitter taste…it lingers …on my tongue…every moment I exist…amongst “them”…the “they”… It lingers everyday…in a night filled with dreams…not pretty…angry surreal…underlying evil …most can’t see…is so clear…to my eyes…threatening me…”don’t speak!”…“don’t tell”…”don’t react” “pretense…your sanity”…for the “sake”…of “the masses”!!!…no need for the “masses”…they fear …me….for reasons…of ignorance…& apathy…no…empathy…is a sin…worse than missing confession…telling your "humanity" to “him”…to the pedophile…behind the curtain… Hypocrisy…making me vomit these words I spill …on paper…stench of hypocrisy…sickening my soul…makes

A Prayer To The Darkness
My pureness... has been my weakness... for far too long. I have known hurt... pain.... my soul has been shattered... I have been lost... but no more. O, darkness... I give myself to you... my mind... my body... my soul. I want to experience passion... lust... an existence with no inhibitions. So, come to me... blanket me... heal me... and make me yours. I welcome it.

Life
If this doesn’t fit you yet because you are too young, send it to an old friend. Here are some basic rules that most of us have to start believing. You are older now. Nobody cares what you think or what you say, especially your old friends who are probably worse off than you. Most of what you know is no longer true. Even if it was true, it doesn’t apply any longer. Move on. Spend some time on yourself. Discover and accept who and what you are. It’s too late to make changes anyway. Stop looking in the mirror. Sure, you don’t look as old as you are, but you're the only who believes it. If you have money start spending it. If you don’t, marry somebody who does - and spend theirs.. Piss off at least one young know-it-all every day. Forget doing all those things you’ve been putting off all these years. There ain’t enough time left anyway. Don’t be in a hurry to try anything new. Now is the time to finally get good at something old. Don’t take up

Hot Group Fun
any hot ladies want some hot group action , you are welcome to come to my lady freinds party in travlers rest SC on dec 8th. She is a good freind of mine and i have attended the party for the alst two years and each time it was an incredible only. Sorry guys my freinds only wants me to bring more pettite hot ladies, we already have plenty of guys attending , if interested please feel free to leave me a private message

For My Old Friends
If this doesn’t fit you yet because you are too young, send it to an old friend. Here are some basic rules that most of us have to start believing. You are older now. Nobody cares what you think or what you say, especially your old friends who are probably worse off than you. Most of what you know is no longer true. Even if it was true, it doesn’t apply any longer. Move on. Spend some time on yourself. Discover and accept who and what you are. It’s too late to make changes anyway. Stop looking in the mirror. Sure, you don’t look as old as you are, but you're the only who believes it. If you have money start spending it. If you don’t, marry somebody who does - and spend theirs.. Piss off at least one young know-it-all every day. Forget doing all those things you’ve been putting off all these years. There ain’t enough time left anyway. Don’t be in a hurry to try anything new. Now is the time to finally get good at something o

Do We Really Want This In Our White House???
I have friends that worked for these people when they were in office once before and after watching this I hope you come to the same conclusion that most people have come too. Please watch. http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=7007109937779036019

Our Love
Our love’s like the wind Strong and growing… Our love’s like the river Forever flowing… Our love’s like the sun That shines so bright… Our love’s like the moon With it’s gentle light… Our love is rare… Our love is true… A bond that has grown Between me and you… I love you so much, Chris.

Epiphany!
It occurs to me that alot of things in life are like watching 2 girls 1 cup. You really don't want to see it, it disgusts you and makes you want to puke, but if you force yourself through it, it becomes less disgusting. Well ok, it never gets less disgusting, but you become a little more numb to it with every little bit you see. If you don't know what it is, I'll warn you, its highly disgusting, but I know at least one person will be curious, if so go to 2girs1cup.com and be horrified for yourself. That is all for my rambling today.

Lucky--a Short Story By Me
This is a short story I wrote, thought I would share. If you want to read its fine, if not, no big deal. Lucky By: Jess Baker She pulled into her driveway. It had been a long night at work and she was so glad that it had come to an end. She worked at the local burger joint working the drive thru window, and if anything could go wrong, it happened tonight. First she had it out with one of her co-workers over a day off. Then someone burnt two whole baskets of fries, filling the entire little resturant with smoke. It had been a Friday night and they were packed. Everyone had to be evacuated outside at the alarms went off and the fire department showed up. She had called home almost four hours ago to tell her mom that she would be late. They had a huge mess to clean up. She could hear her drunk father in the back, asking who that was. He always got a little mean and loud after a few beers. How her mother had put up w

I Am Sadly Normal.
This is written by someone who was abused... I am sadly normal 1 out of every 3 women and 1 out of every 5 men have been sexually abused by someone they trust by the time they are 18 years old. I am sadly normal We feel unimportant, discounted, worthless, shameful, powerless, unlovable. I am sadly normal We are forced to hide within ourselves by our abusers. I am sadly normal We are forced to keep our dirty little secrets. It's easy to do because we believe it was our fault. I am sadly normal We learn not to trust anyone, including ourselves, and the adults who were supposed to keep us protected. I am sadly normal We learn to survive by lying, pretending, manipulating, and stealing. I am sadly normal We learn to cope however we can. Drugs, alcohol and food are used to numb us and provide the comfort we have missed out on. I am sadly normal We learn to find our way around it, while we struggle to find ourselves. I am sadly normal We think and l

Today
Hmm. I've been having thoughts all day, and for the most part, I have forgotten what I wanted to write. I know that I had something important to say, if you can believe that. I've decided that if that law (that HR law) comes into effect, and I can't get to Canada, then I will take anything bad about the goevernment and Bush off my profile. I would much rather be safe then in jail, or put on the list. I don't think that I will have to wait forever to get out of this country, but until then I would like to keep myself from getting arrested and keep myself out of jail. Know what I am saying? I hope so. Other then that, life has been basically uneventful. Got laundry done. Went to get my Revolver magazine, and I couldn't find it, at either Wal*mart. So, Josh said that he would be so kind as to try to find it tomorrow or Saturday for me! He said that I will be getting it. After he is done in the shower, it's my turn, then we are doing some stuff, and then I get to watch the

It's Now Online
Fufriends is now online. I am still working on the HOTLIST so in replacement of that feel free to sign up and join the community forum. Post your quesions, let people know who is live on air in the lounges...post whatever you want. Come by and check it out. Fufriends.com I will post another blog when the HOTlist is put up..

Can You Help Us Out And Your Help Wil Be Rewarded With Love
queen of hearts needs 10,000 comments in 2 weeks for a vip i know this can be done and dont forget about me i need 40,000 comments in 6 weeks for a vip as well so show us some love as we will for you as well

Relationships
My ex fiance and I just broke up because of an disagreement and what I found out what he did behind my back, I tried to work it out with him as a grown woman and he's being a little boy, I'm sick of the mind games men play, tired of getting hurt, tired of the bullshit and lies, I hate games and don't like them...I've tried my hardest of working it out and giving him reasons, but he doesn't want to say yes to me about being with me when he said he will give me a second chance, but he is pushing me away again like last time when we weren't dating, I'm getting sick of it. I don't know what to do and I hate it!

Darkness
My heart,my love one word and gone to say i will believe and prey To see,to feel to hear,to be and gone How can i get close to you? how can i the foolish one? Beauty can't be seen but only kissed i have so much love to give but where are you and how to be reached? Can i talk,can i speak? and can i lay my head and you? can i choose and can i say i love you? Darkness surrounding me my head hangs low your arms are far you breath takes me besides i am in love i'm loving you,but you so far from me,i'm holding out your words,your face,your breath your touch,your heart should cover me but all you do is watching me so i dismiss the grace of you and far beyond the darkness grows which lead me back to all my roots the longing and the pain and darkness and disgrace Beauty can't be seen but only kissed i have so much love to give but where are you and how to be reached?

Lawyers & Charity
A very rich lawyer is approached by the United Way. The man from the United Way is concerned that the lawyer made over $1,000,000.00 last year but didn't donate even a cent to a charity. "First of all", says the lawyer, "my mother is sick and dying in the hospital, and it's not covered by health care. Second, I had five kids through three divorced marriages. Third, my sister's husband suddenly died and she has no one to support her four children..." "I'm terribly sorry", says the United Way man, "I feel bad about asking for money." The Lawyer responds, "Yeah, well if I'm not giving them any money, why should I give you any?"

Rant Two: I Need To Vent!
Nameless2: hey sexy Knows Better: hey Knows Better: ty 4 the compliment Nameless2: sure. how r u? Knows Better: I'm fine...no I'm not, but I'm not gonna dump my life in your lap. how about u? Nameless2: what's up? Nameless2: people dont play nice Nameless2: u play nice r mean.. Knows Better: I can be your best friend or your worst nightmare....like he is gonna find out Nameless2: his loss Nameless2: u know karma is gonna bite him in the ass Nameless2: bite him hard ok Knows Better: yup

Home Depot Scam!! Please Read
HOME DEPOT SCAM!! PLEASE READ A "Heads Up" for those men who may be regular Home Depot customers. Over the last month I became a victim of a clever scam while out shopping. Simply going out to get supplies has turned out to be quite traumatic. Don't be naive enough to think it couldn't happen to you or your friends. Here's how the scam works. Two seriously good-looking 20-21 year-old girls come over to your car as you are packing your shopping into the trunk. They both start wiping your windshield with a rag and Windex, with their breasts almost falling out of their skimpy T-shirts. It is impossible not to look. When you thank them and offer them a tip, they say "No" and instead ask you for a ride to another Home Depot or Lowe's. You agree and they get in the back seat. On the way, they start undressing. Then one of them climbs over into the front seat and starts crawling all over you, while the other one steals your wall

Drifting Away
silent petals drift from a blackened rose held loosely in one hand, chased to the ground by soft drops slowly runing from fingertips, rose eventually falls from weakend hand, forgotten carelessly as memories of a cherished time fade her face the only thing left before blurry eyes the good times forgotten, the pain, gone, the bed made, soon his mind wanders, he sees friends long since past, waving sadly they welcome him once more breathing, heart, life, slows, eventually he falls and takes his last, the wounds never to close, the heart never to heal life drifts away

Soldiers Christmas
TWAS THE NIGHT BEFORE CHRISTMAS, HE LIVED ALL ALONE, IN A ONE BEDROOM HOUSE MADE OF PLASTER AND STONE. I HAD COME DOWN THE CHIMNEY WITH PRESENTS TO GIVE, AND TO SEE JUST WHO IN THIS HOME DID LIVE. I LOOKED ALL ABOUT, A STRANGE SIGHT I DID SEE, NO TINSEL, NO PRESENTS, NOT EVEN A TREE. NO STOCKING BY MANTLE, JUST BOOTS FILLED WITH SAND, ON THE WALL HUNG PICTURES OF FAR DISTANT LANDS. WITH MEDALS AND BADGES, AWARDS OF ALL KINDS, A SOBER THOUGHT CAME THROUGH MY MIND. FOR THIS HOUSE WAS DIFFERENT, IT WAS DARK AND DREARY, I FOUND THE HOME OF A SOLDIER, ONCE I COULD SEE CLEARLY. THE SOLDIER LAY SLEEPING, SILENT, ALONE, CURLED UP ON THE FLOOR IN THIS ONE BEDROOM HOME. THE FACE WAS SO GENTLE, THE ROOM IN SUCH DISORDER, NOT HOW I PICTURED A UNITED STATES SOLDIER. WAS THIS THE HERO OF WHOM I 'D JUST READ? CURLED UP ON

This Will Make You Feel Good.....
Think about them one at a time before going on to the next one. It Does Make You Feel Good, especially the thought at the end of #44. 1. Falling in love. 2. Laughing so hard your face hurts. 3. A hot shower. 4. No lines at the supermarket. 5. A special glance. 6. Getting mail. 7. Taking a drive on a pretty road. 8. Hearing your favorite song on the radio. 9. Lying in bed listening to the rain outside. 10. Hot towels fresh out of the dryer. 11. Chocolate milkshake (vanilla, strawberry ). 12. A bubble bath. 13. Giggling. 14. A good conversation. 15. The beach. 16. Finding a 20 dollar bill in your coat from last winter. 17. Laughing at yourself. 18. Looking into their eyes and knowing they Love you . 19. Midnight phone calls that last for hours. 20. Running through sprinklers. 21. Laughing for absolutely no reason at all. 22. Having someone tell you that you're beautiful. 23. Laughing at an inside joke with FRIENDS 24. Accidentally overhearing someone say som

Fun Facts From The Infection Control Center
During an hour's swimming at a municipal pool you will ingest 1/12 liter of urine. In an average day your hands will have come into indirect contact with 15 penises (touching door handles, etc.) An average person's yearly fast food intake will contain 12 pubic hairs. In a year you will have swallowed 14 insects - while you slept! Annually you will shake hands with 11 women who have recently masturbated and failed to wash their hands. Annually you will shake hands with 36 men who have recently masturbated and failed to wash their hands. In a lifetime 22 workmen will have examined the contents of your dirty linen basket. At an average wedding reception you have a 1/100 chance of getting a cold sore from one of the guests. Daily you will breath in 1 liter of other peoples' anal gases. HAVE A GREAT DAY... .and wash your damn hands!

If A Man Wants You!!!
IF A MAN WANTS YOU If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away. If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay. Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior. Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache. Stop trying to change yourselves for a relationship that's not meant to be. Slower is better. Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy. If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then heck no, you can't "be friends." A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend. Don't settle. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is. Don't stay because you think "it will get better." You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better. The only person you can control in a relationship is you. Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women. He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant, Why would he treat you any differently? Always have

Fallout From The Kc Trip
Ok I am many things.... An asshole(god knows everyone knows thats true), A misogynist(I do occasionally talk down to women), an egotist (I do believe that I am better than most) and an all out not nice guy, among so many other things. And god knows why I am explaining this, probably because I am drunk. I am not a racist. I have never been a racist, and most likely at my age I am not going to be a racist. Let me Repeat that in clear Letters: I, SEAN GIOVANNI, AM NOT NOR HAVE I EVER BEEN A RACIST. So let me put this in the simplest of terms to the few of you that got all fucking pissy about my Mexican comment in my BLOG. They were insane and in my business that is a good thing.You do not want a crowd to be tame.... How fucking boring would that be? I did not call the derogatory names, I did not make racial slurs. None of that all I said was in the crowd was 400 mexicans and they were insane. So I am going with this Statement..... If you do not like what I post on my fu

A Word Of Advice
Now some of you are going to read these blogs listed and get them for what they are comical shit that happened..... Some of you are going to read them and get pissy (Hey I told you up front I was an asshole) Do me a favor and if they piss you off read the fall out from the KC blog and take heed to my message SG

Falling In Love
A couple of weeks ago, I was invited to join this site (thanks Rayne!) I can't believe that there is a site where there are so many friendly people I've made some great friends here and am having a gas. I guess I just wanted to say thanks. The Upper peninsula of Michigan is a cold desolate place in the winter and you will make it a hell of alot warmer and shorter for me. Now enough of the sentimental B.S. lets get it on!

Lost Of A Love One
Lost of a Love One I should be shame of myself to think or worst, even write such words, But Reality is... For my own personal reason Losing a love one that may be in near future is an only blessing in disguised. I linger not with tears or emotion as my father lays in a hospital bed. I ponder will God take his miserable life away finally. For year this man has never done anything good for me. He walked out of life when I was just baby. Yet I am told I should feel or care about him. Too all those around me here, I just sit to wonder, will my damn prayer finally be answered. Will my father died today? Since Monday, he has been in the hospital, never once did he calls me or sends word to me, until today. When he is barely alive? Damn my hatred deep within my heart and soul for him, But The crime he did to me long ago is burning like yesterday news upon my mind, heart and soul still. What he did, I will not speak of. All I can say…. His sorry no good ass deserves too

An Adendum To The Now Infamous Kc Trip
Ok it has now been brought to my attention that while at Hooters Brow beating bottom feeders that I missed some funny things we said and did and Barry is bitching about. So during the how do you live with yourself comments, One of us busted out this Beauty," I mean seriously you would never give this mark the time of day. Seriously he could not get laid if he had a $100 bill taped to the end of his dick." But Barry proved something extremely important, No matter how much you beat a bottom feeder they still do what you tell them. So after last call Barry wants another beer and tells us that he bets us he can get Moron to give him another one. He calls her over..."Hey I want another beer." "Its past call," she murmurs. I point out that at two beers for the price of the big ones she owes him one. She still says no I call bullshit.... Barry breaks out this beauty... "You get me another one if you can and I pay alot for it." And sure enough the bottom feeder returns with his beer. He pays

Pic On The Nightstand
After a long night of making love the guy notices a photo of another man, on the woman's nightstand by the bed. He begins to worry. "Is this your husband?" he nervously asks. "No, silly," she replies, snuggling up to him. "Your boyfriend, then?" he continues. "No, not at all," she says, nibbling away at his ear. "Is it your dad or your brother?" he inquires, hoping to be reassured. "No, no, no! You are so hot when you're jealous!" she answers. "Well, who in the hell is he, then?" he demands. She whispers in his ear "That's me before the surgery."

The Weekend I Died Part 1
It started as any weekend should....I woke up. Ok so its Friday about noon. I get a txt From Michael ( Names have been changed to protect us from the stupidity that ensues.) and I quote " I get of at 6 then we procede to burn the Nam down." So sure enough 6 rolls around and we go to the mall to get suited up for the coming disaster. Now we get to a store and this stupid ass Clerk starts fawning over Michael. "What do you like wrestle or something?" and so on and so forth. So 45 minutes later with an intense desire to hurt this young "woman" (put in quotations because I am not sure what it was) we finally escape from the store. We look at one another with that knowing look that says this is going to be the weekend we die. So we start the trip to the NAM. If you have been there you know from Joplin its about an hour to an hour fifteen. We make it in 45 minute

The Water
when you walk the beach with the one you love think of those that walked it before you and the love they felt for the one they loved and the way the waves were comeing in that night the mood was set for true love! think about that when you are on the beach with the one you love!!!!!

The Now Infamous Kc Trip
When your in the business that most of my friends and I are in your on the road a lot. And in the course of that time together on the road you hear a lot of crazy shit. A couple of things to clear up(and I know a few of you are going to argue this point) 95% of us are ASSHOLES. Oh we can be nice hell we can even be charming(if we want something) but by and large we are infact a bunch of drunken assholes. And there are Varying degrees amongst our various groups I do not deny that from the slow build up to soul crushing sarcasm (Barry) to the Just plain blunt get the fuck away from me assholes(ME) Now that I have made that statement let me continue on with my story. We start our story just after our show last night in KC. I know mid week show what were we thinking. Turns out it was a great crowd probably 400 mexicans who were insane.We are starving and need beer in the most obscene ways. I have personally been screa

One From The Vault....the Road To Hell
Ok since my last set of blogs was so wildly popular I have been asked by some to recount another tale. This one is from quite a while ago and I just never got around to putting it too paper.....I think I will call it the "Road to Hell" Your central cast on this one....Myself and Barry.... Anyone else notice a pattern there? Ok so it starts mildly enough on a Wednesday. I know that is not a normal night to start getting shitty, but when you live like us everynight is a night to try and die. We get a call late Tuesday to work a show that Wednesday night, so we scramble to get off and head to the show. We get there work the show and have not had a drop of the Hooche all day.(See we do not have to drink.)This is going great so far doing good. Well the show ends and we decide to eat...Do we go to get fast food? Hell no we go to a wrestling staple Hooters.(If you have read one of my previous blogs you know how I feel about this) Well several beers later we get on the road and head ho

Don't Walk Away
Confrontation ain’t your thing You say that laying blame won’t do no good now So before you go and say goodbye And move on with your life I wish you would somehow Give me a reason to believe That everything you’re gonna leave behind Is a waste of time and ain’t worth fighting for Slam the door, yell out loud Don’t hold it in, let it out Put me down, put up a fight I can be wrong, you can be right Just get mad, is that too much to ask But, don’t walk away, walk away like that Don’t walk away, walk away like that Kicking me in the teeth would be better than leaving me untouched So try Cause all the words we never say The wars unwaged have started stacking up So high There may not be a way to make you Wanna stay and try to save our love But if it can’t be like it was before Give me a reason to believe That everything you’re gonna leave behind Is a waste of time and ain’t worth fighting for

I Can't Believe It!
It was a month on the 27th that my one true love and I have been together! My life has never been happier now that he is in it. What makes it even better is that I get along with his son and he gets along with my daughter. Being single parents, it is hard to find someone that the kids will get along with and want to spend time with. He has opened my eyes to so much in this past month and I cant wait to see how much better things can get. We both love each other so much and are looking foward to moving in together in a couple of months. I have never been so sure of a relationship as I am of this one. He is such a wonderfull man and makes me feel tingly all over. If you have heard the song Bubbly by C. Coliet, then you know what I am talking about.

4 Things About Me
Four things" about me that you may or may not have known, in no particular order. Please follow the return direction at the end. Four jobs I have had in my life: 1 Mother 2. School bus driver 3 Custodian 4. Cashier Four movies I have watched more than once: 1. Charlie and the Chocolate Factory 2. Dirty Dancing 3. The Wizard of Oz 4. Pretty Women Four places I have lived: 1. Inkster, MI 2. Detroit, MI 3. Northglenn, CO 4. Ecorse< MI Four TV Shows That I Watch: 1. Ghost Hunters 2. Wheel of Fortune 3. Jeporardy 4. Myth Busters Four places I have been: 1. Ohio 2. Canada 3. Colorado 4. Florida Four of my favorite foods: 1. Crab legs 2. Shrimp 3. Fish 4. Chicken Four people who email me regularly: 1. Laura 2. Dolorse 3. Kathy 4. Robert Four places I would rather be right now: 1. Georgia 2. Scotland 3. Colorado 4. Sweden Four friends who I think will respond: 1. Dolorse 2. Kathy 3. Laura 4. Ka

When It Rains
Give me skies of black and blue, the way you make me feel Give me skies of green and red, cold winds that make it real Storms are brewing deep within of hurt and loss and pride It's good to see the world in pain when I take a walk outside When it rains, I don’t mind being lonely, I cry right along with the sky When it rains, I don’t pretend to be happy, I don’t even have to try When it rains, Some people get down, They’re sporting a frown, so I fit right in Yeah, the sun may brighten your day but if I had my way, I’d take the rain I don’t care about politics or the hypocrites on my TV I’m not mad at the girl who left because she couldn’t be with me So make up your theories about the scandals and the lies Start out depressed then everything comes as a pleasant surprise

Why So Young?
So I got off work today and I had a phone call from this guy that left me a message about my friend Chris. He had asked if I have heard the news about Chrris, I had no idea what he was talking about. When I was talking to him he had told me that Chris had died on Sunday during the day some time, which is crazy because I just talked to him on Friday when I was out to dinner with Amber. We were goin to try to find time to hang out and see eachother since we haven't hung out in a long time. I have knowen Chris for about 3 yrs now he was 26 yrs old and healthy. I just don't get how people my age are just dieing from natural causes. I had found out this past weekend that my friend Kristi from high school was in the hospital and then she almost died. Kristi has been my good friend for like 12 yrs now, she is one of Jazy's god mom and I was in her wedding when she married Matt. I just don't know what would happen if I found out she would have gone, I am having a hard time thinking about Chris

Military Honors To The Best Of The Best
This is from an email I recieved.. I can't take credit for writing it, but it was too good not to share.. Christmas is coming up and many of our nation's uniformed military will not be with their families this season. Again. Keep them in mind in your prayers and cherish the honor of this tomb. ---------------------------------------------------------------- On Jeopardy the other night, the final question was How many steps does the guard take during his walk across the tomb of the Unknowns ------ All three missed it --- Tomb of the Unknown Soldier 1. How many steps does the guard take during his walk across the tomb of the Unknowns and why? 21 steps. It alludes to the twenty-one gun salute, which is the highest honour given any military or foreign dignitary. 2. How long does he hesitate after his about face to begin his return walk and why? 21 seconds for the same reason as answer number 1 3. Why are his gloves wet? His gloves are moistened to pr

Senses
It's pretty amazing how we take for granted the most simplest things. I have been sick for a month now and couldn't smell or taste. Thanksgiving was so much fun I couldn't taste a thing. It actually got to where I got use to not smelling or tasting. Then tonight I was fueling the car with gasoline and I got a whiff of the fumes I literally started smiling because that tells me that I'm finallllly getting better. I then realized how much I missed the sense of smell. Not only the fumes that get you hig from gasoline just all smells in general. Shrugs I don't know I'm valuing my five senses and wouldn't want to lose any of them and I'm very greatful to have all of them. Ok so thats my out loud thoughts for the day .... Hope this finds all of you well Have a wonderful night love Me xo

Why
Why, Why, Why: *Why do we press harder on a remote control when we know the batteries are getting dead? *Why do banks charge a fee on "insufficient funds" when they know there is not enough money? *Why does someone believe you when you say there are four billion stars, but check when you say the paint is wet? *Why doesn't glue stick to the bottle? *Why do they use sterilized needles for death by lethal injection? *Why doesn't Tarzan have a beard? *Why does Superman stop bullets with his chest, but ducks when you throw a revolver at him? *Why do Kamikaze pilots wear helmets? *Whose idea was it to p ut an "S" in the word "Lisp"? *If people evolved from apes, why are there still apes? *Why is it that no matter what color bubble bath you use the bubbles are always white? *Is there ever a day that mattresses are not on sale? *Why do people constantly return to the refrigerator with hopes that something new to eat will have materialized?

Why Me?
After 7 long years the man I was supposed to marry has left me. Our daughter is upset and confused and I am trying my hardest to stay stron for her but I can't hold out much longer. She has already seen me cry too many times in the last 48 hours. This pain is unlike any other I have ever felt as this is the end for good. I can't possibly take him back after all the times he has cheated. And yes, I know that I shouldn't have put up with it at all but when you love someone as much as I do you tend to forgive. I love him so much. But I now know I need to look the other way and try to move on with my life. I guess it would be much easier if I didn't have to see him regularly as he comes to see our daughter. But I wouldn't give my daughter up for the world. I only wish that things could have been different. So please bear with me for a little while as I try to get my life back in order and my heart in one piece again. I thank all of my friends for the support and understanding.

Lover's Dance.....
Glistening bodies entwined in an ageless erotic dance, seeking pleasures from each other, seeking wonder and romance. She touches his face with tenderness. He draws her body near. Aching, needing hunger will make their destiny clear. Their lips meet in soft kisses, their tongues begin passion's war. Forgotten now, the outside world. All is here, behind this door. He strokes her body tenderly, she arches up for his caress. He finds her silken portal and her womanly wetness. She moans in fiery desire and pulls his hand away, wishing to end this exquisite torture and get on with passion's play. She straddles his waiting body, eases him into her feminine hollow. She leads him on a rhythmic dance, his thrusting hips must follow. She rides him faster, even then, to hear his wondrous sighs. She shows him all the delights she has between her womanly thighs. They stare into each other's eyes and gasp as ecstasy unreels, and tangles them i

Thoughts
How many times have I thought of you And the many things I’d like to do. I sleep at night with you on my mind, One night with you, would be just fine. Your white robe is what I see, I wonder, wonder, how it would be. If I could touch your lips with mine, The thought of this is so divine. I want to see you without that robe, Your body to touch, caress, and probe. I’d lay you down, your body to admire, One look at you, sets my soul on fire. I want to feel you, touch, and kiss, send you into . . . . heavenly bliss, I want you, need you, feel my desire, Me inside you, I would never tire. I could make love to you all night long, It would feel so good, it couldn’t be wrong, These are my thoughts, what I fantasize, You’re all too perfect in this man’s eyes.

Theodore Roosevelt
"In the first place we should insist that if the immigrant who comes here in good faith becomes an American and assimilates himself to us, he shall be treated on an exact equality with everyone else, for it is an outrage to discriminate against any such man because of creed, or birthplace, or origin. But this is predicated upon the man's becoming in very fact an American, and nothing but an American...There can be no divided allegiance here. Any man who says he is an American, but something else also, isn't an American at all. We have room for but one flag, the American flag, and this excludes the red flag, which symbolizes all wars against liberty and civilization, just as much as it excludes any foreign flag of a nation to which we are hostile...We have room for but one language here, and that is the English language...and we have room for but one sole loyalty and that is a loyalty to the American people." Theodore Roosevelt 1919 Theodore Roosevelt wrote these wordsin a letter

I Love You
Laying with you Indescribeable feeling Hanging onto every second Hoping it never ends Such joy inside you make me feel Looking in your eyes makes everything seem real Reminising now on the night we had Silently feeling every breath Falling asleep in your arms Safe from harm Everything bad you take away My love for you growing everyday

May I Kiss You!
I ask if I may kiss you. You just smile; no answer is necessary. My initial kiss is just a flirting of our lips. My tongue lightly flicking - Like I am asking, "Do you want me?" The tip of my tongue runs all around your lips. Touching every part, Inside and out - Over and over again. Tickling you, tickle, tickle, goes my tongue. Now I press my lips gently to yours. Rubbing your lips back and forth against mine. My kisses are hot and fast. I cannot rest long in any one place. I have such a need to go on. I trail kisses of passion all over your face. Then back to your mouth. Our tongues dance together. We are exploring. I circle your tongue with the tip of mine. You echo the pattern back to me. I lick the sides, underside and the top. You echo back. I suck your lower lip. You echo back. We repeat, repeat, repeat. The sensations are driving our emotions. We are wild for each other. You thrust your tongue in and out. The movements are rhythmic and stabbing. S

Our Protectors
THE FINAL INSPECTION The soldier stood and faced God, Which must always come to pass. He hoped his shoes were shining, Just as brightly as his brass. "Step forward now, you soldier, How shall I deal with you ? Have you always turned the other cheek ? To My Church have you been true?" The soldier squared his shoulders and said, "No, Lord, I guess I ain't. Because those of us who carry guns, Can't always be a saint. I've had to work most Sundays, And at times my talk was tough. And sometimes I've been violent, Because the world is awfully rough. But, I never took a penny, That wasn't mine to keep... Though I worked a lot of overtime, When the bills got just too steep. And I never passed a cry for help, Though at times I shook with fear. And sometimes, God, forgive me, I've wept unmanly tears. I know I don't deserve a place, Among the people here. They never wanted me around, Excep

Bush Is Selling All The Yellow Ribbons
so now i understand by bush and cheany felt that we should go to "war"...george bush owns a factory that produces yellow ribbons...in his factory they make yellow ribbon stickers, yellow ribbon decals, some say support our troops (like we wouldnt support someone who is being forced to fight in a stupid war), yellow ribbon shirts, anything that has to do with a yellow ribbon is made by bush...this is how i figure it all went down...one day bush was sitting in the oval office playing game boy when cheany came in and told bush we needed to go to war so all his stocks in halliburton would go up and he could make like 50 billion dollars so bush argreed but then he asked "dick what can i do with my yellow ribbon sticker factory?" so cheany told him they would tell all the stupid americans to buy these ribbons so we can prove we are real americans...he also told bush to tell everybody "were gonna fight um over there so we dont have to fight them over here, but if we do have to fight um over h

So True
THE FINAL INSPECTION The soldier stood and faced God, Which must always come to pass. He hoped his shoes were shining, Just as brightly as his brass. "Step forward now, you soldier, How shall I deal with you ? Have you always turned the other cheek ? To My Church have you been true?" The soldier squared his shoulders and said, "No, Lord, I guess I ain't. Because those of us who carry guns, Can't always be a saint. I've had to work most Sundays, And at times my talk was tough. And sometimes I've been violent, Because the world is awfully rough. But, I never took a penny, That wasn't mine to keep... Though I worked a lot of overtime, When the bills got just too steep. And I never passed a cry for help, Though at times I shook with fear. And sometimes, God, forgive me, I've wept unmanly tears. I know I don't deserve a place, Among the people here. They never wanted me around, Excep

Final Attack
This is a "real piece of me" write... this happened in 1994...and the son of a bitch finally went to prison for it. Please rate my blog and leave me comments! This piece is soon to be published in a colaborative effort put together by M Greene, and the proceeds will go to promote the fight against Domestic Violence. The Final Attack You hiding it from me Stuck in your disease Think I couldn't see The monster you released I knew something wrong Never stayin home for long Recreational drugs no fun Never playin in the sun Leavin me alone as one And when I decided I was done Then you turned to smokin crack Slippin around behind my back Talkin shit and shootin smack Then came the final attack Smashin in my face Blood all over the place My front teeth smashed in On my blood I'm choking Lips bleeding and broken From the crack you smoking But your cop Daddy won't fail And brother cop will post bail To

Holiday Shopping Tips For 2008
Holiday Shopping Tips for 2008 Since I've been working as a retail sales associate for the past four years, I thought I'd offer you these tips on surviving the holidays: 1. Please be patient with sales people! While most stores stress customer service, they do not staff the sales floor adequately due to two factors: A. No one can predict the store customer traffic other than to say Saturday and Sunday will be hell and the week before Christmas will be worse, B. Management typically gets performance evaluations and bonuses for keeping payroll down. We just get more work to do and angrier customers, while they get the benefits of working us like dogs. 2. Sales people do not control the ads or even the pricing. We can't help that you saw something cheaper on some unknown web site. 3. Every store does run out of product. No one has an infinite supply of anything and no amount of fussing, cussing or threatening will make product suddenly appear. We try to find

Baby It's Cold Outside!
As I sit here with a chill that won't go away, I dream of the time when Hubs and I can move to Charleston, SC. Oh yes... one day we will. Where it's warm and the southern charm is laced throughout the city. Meanwhile though...I'm here, cold, dreaming of spring and dreaming of a retirement that is many years off. Now if only I could scheme find a way to bring retirement on much more quickly than the course we are currently set on ;) Life my pretties, would be oh so grand :D

Shadow Walker
There are those who prefer the light, And there are those who prefer the dark I guess you could say I prefer the shadows It’s a dangerous business Being a shadow walker, my friend Dangerous business indeed I’m on the borderline The threshold always in my mind A balance beam’s width My only support Don’t stray too far Be careful not to fall Think twice before each step There’s no going back Just forward Follow the straightaway I can do what I wish The line doesn’t limit It just guides me To what I see My truth, and only mine The light lies on my right And the darkness my left I mustn’t stray I mustn’t lose myself Because shadows disappear In the darkness And the light a gift to the shadow walker

Risks Of The Heart
we have no choice who we love....even if we fight against the feelings eventually we are doomed to lose, resisting maybe gives you time to get to know them better but in the end you are at the mercy of the other person. unfortunately the wind can change, they can become scared by thier own feelings, sadly but no less painful they can die. there is no way to prepare for anyof it, and really no way to prevent it should it happen. you can live you're life alone and miserable or you can subject yourself to the mercy of another and hope for the best. you can try and say next time i will go in with my eyes open, but you are still as blind as the next person, pain strikes when you least expect it...you can choose to go on, or you can let it crush you. i have chosen to live and fight through the pain evntually i will heal, though my heart will always belong to her...

I'm Falling
A kiss from your lips, A warm sensuous touch, A display of devotion, I want it so much. When we cuddle, I feel so complete, What glorious fortune it was, For you and me to meet. You are so special, Comparable to few, I think you should know, I think I'm falling for you. All I want is to Steal your heart, And for us to be together, To never be apart. I promise my soul Will always be true, If only you allow Me to love you.

Tell Me The Truth!!!
I want you to tell me what you really think of me and how much I mean to you!!! I will do the same in return!!! The Holidays are here and I feel that everyone is gonna want to feel loved or atleast cared for or liked in some way!! So get to typing and Ill send ya some love back!!!

Finally!
Well, I went to a new doctor today. He's the head Dermatologist and after seeing him today, I so wish that I had been able to see him from the start a few months back. First, for the many of you who are not aware of what I'm even talking about regarding my leg, I have had a problem with my leg (originally both legs) since the end of May. Hence, the reason for no leg pics in my albums for many months! :P It started out as Erythema Nodosum (inflammation of the deep tissue of the leg). My left leg cleared up but my right leg got worse and swelled really bad, to the point that I was having to stay off of it with my leg propped up and taking the major pain killers. After about 3 months, my doctor told me that he was referring me to a dermatologist because he had exhausted all he knew on me and didn't want to waste anymore of my time. (He's a great doctor but a family practicioner.) So, I started seeing a new Derm. who began me on new meds (that were very scary!) of which I have been tak

Sean Taylor
i find it very interesting that up until 3 days ago more then half of america had never heard of sean taylor before but by now im sure that you all know who he is...now please im not trying to make light of what happened to him at all...it was a senseless crime that took on of the up and coming superstars the nfl had and i hope they find the asshole who did that to him...but this ties into something that i have thinking about for a while and here goes i am tried of america rallying around causes the media tell them to...for example i was just on myspace leaving a comment on my brothers page and there were 2 people on his top friends list that changed there picture to some sort of RIP sean taylor thing (please understand im not trying to disrespect sean at all) but up until like a 3 days ago im pretty sure that these people had never even heard of him...this is something that ive noticed more and more lately another example was after the horrible events that happened at Virgina Tech i s

Why
I dont understand people, and i dont understand the system. I have recently got my kids taken away from me for some stupid shit. I have been with out them for three weeks now. What I dont get is there are people out there that gives their children alcohol and slaps them across the face to where it leaves marks, Or beat up their spouse, girlfriends infront of kids and nothing happens. I dont understand that. I have also been told i have friends and you know what i have found out is that the people who say they are your true friends just turn their back if its not about them. I have found who my ture friends are and i have found out that out of all my so called friends only three are standing here to support me and keep me going. I would like to say thank you to them. if they read this they will know who they are. With out you guys i dont think i would be making progress to get my kids back. Again thank you!!!!1

In The Dark
i see you sitting beside me and know i can walk the day your smile was the sun and your presence the dawn but you found another some form of light for yourself and even the pain you gave me was still a beautiful sunset so i slipped into the night and let darkness consume me my eyes lost thier light and my flesh grew pale no more would i show my eyes or move close to another's body shy of the break of dawn i would hide and wait again now i stalk the streets, a trechcoat in the wind hair to mask my face, and the past for company i turn to darkness in another's company and move away from the sunrise look, and you will find me in the night hidden by a shadow's embrace with only the soft touch of the moon to ever bring light to a ghostly face

Shadow
I am a shadow... Gliding across the earth... No one can see me... But I'm there. I slip right past you... My touch... A soft carress... That haunts you... In your dreams. My kiss... Is cold on your skin... But light as air. I am a shadow... You can't see me. I am the shadow... Who is as gentle... And as soft... As air. a gift by one who is dear to me

Best Of Me
I saw you again at the parlor, Crossing the walk with your lady, I caught your eye from a far off, I noticed she wore a ring, mmmm, I found a smile against my will Wish it was genuine. I put away my desire No more in love with you still, Look I'm moving on. Loved you, Lost you Thought I'd give you all the best of me, uhhh We departed, broken hearted, I need to be free What we had was oh so lovely I'll swallow my pain, It's my time to find the best of me Can't be the type to be begging Can't be the type to plead, My mama made me much wiser, What's mine will be just for me, yeah I'm trying hard to just focus, I'm trying hard to sleep, Promise I'm glad you're happy When it's my time it will be. Look I'm moving on. Oo hoo hoo Loved you, Lost you Thought I'd give you all the best of me, uhhh We departed, broken hearted, I need to be free What we had was oh so lovely I'll swallow my pain, It's my time to find the best of me Oh my, why have I been just

What I Am
Shadow Walker One who walks the line between light and dark, with no ties to either side. With no morals or emotions clouding their judgment, a Shadow Walker is able to accomplish tasks and solve problems in the most efficient and logical way. Shadow Walkers are also a small secretive sect of Force wielders which pull from both the light and dark side, giving them immeasurable power. I was once a man. Forced by those who could not understand me to depart from their realm. Now I walk alone, waiting, watching. I have no home and no family. I have nothing to lose. So try me if you dare for I walk in the shadows, where no one goes. I have seen that you cannot believe, So test me, if you dare, for you may not live to see tomorrow my friend.

Beautiful
I am just going to try my best to describe a wonderful woman that words can't really describe. She is a person with a heart of gold that helps out anyone in need. She gives me strength to get through my troubles. She inspires me to be a better man. I wait up all night just to hear her voice. I have never been so comfortable with a woman as fast as i have been with her. She is absolutely Beautiful, Gorgeous, Stunning, in everyway possible. Like I said words can't really describe thats why this is so short. She makes me feel things I don't think I ever felt or could ever feel. I thank god everyday and night that she is in my life. Sonya thank you for being you. You mean the world to me.

You Dont Love Me
As we lay there quiet I was reminded of all the reasons why I lust you Your smile and the way it teased at me seductively Your laugh and the way it tempted me Your eyes and the way they seem to hypnotize me As we sat there silent I was reminded of all the reasons why I love you Your smile and the way it brings such life into me Your laugh and the way it makes everything okay Your eyes and the way they seem to read my thoughts As we stand here now I am reminded of all the reasons why I hate you Your smile and the way it confuses me Your laugh and the way it seems to mock me Your eyes and the way they can look into mine and not feel a thing

At Night
At night At night I lay and think of you hoping my wishes and dreams come true At night I wonder can this be the end is this all that's left At night I wish we could go to the way things were At night I lay and cry about the things that happened and how it all ended At night I lay and think of us, I mean you and I At night I realize there's no more us At night I dream of us together again At night I wish for us to be together again But in the morning I realize it was all At Night

Adult Only
this shit is hella funny... Q.) Why does a penis have a hole in the end? A.) So men can be open minded. Q.) What's the speed limit of sex? A.) 68 because at 69 you eat it. Q.) What does a Rubix cube and a penis have in common? A.) The longer you play with them, the harder they get. Q.) What's the difference between your paycheck and your dick? A.) You don't have to beg your wife to blow your paycheck! Q.) Three words to ruin a man's ego... A.) "Is it in?" Q.) What do you get when you cross Raggedy Ann and the Pillsbury Dough Boy? A.) A red headed bitch with a yeast infection. Q.) How can you tell when an auto mechanic just had sex? A.) One of his fingers is clean. Q.) What do you do with 365 used rubbers? A.) Melt them down make a tire, and call it a Goodyear. Q.) What do bungee jumping and hookers have in common? A.) They both cost a hundred bucks and if the rubber breaks, you're screwed.

Nervious About Surgury
back in 1999 i was woke up on the middle of the night to a fight between a boyfriend and girlfriend it was 3 in the mornibng and she was bleeding really bad from her fave and then i noticed she had no bottom lip. he bite it off while beating the poor girl sensless well he saw me answer the door and his words to me were "come on hero i'll fuckin kill you too". naturaly me being a marine my response was lets play baby we began fighting and it was a long long battle he never felt a punch or kick that i landed on him. somehow we both fell and broke my right arm snapping my radius bone in half. he said i got you now bitch but i said guess again and we kept fighting me with one arm till he heard the cops coming and he ran. he wasnt caught till the next day but thats moving a little fast for now. the girl and i went to the hospitol dise by side in the ambulance and thats when i found out that her boyfriend was high on crack well when we got to the hospitol she got a brand new lip a

On My Own
You would think by now I would know my way around I shouldn't miss you so badly I should be on familiar ground How many more lonely years must meander by until I learn the lesson it does no good to cry What manner of iron will must some people possess to be always looking forward to never accept regress Perhaps if I was willing to let someone take me by the hand they could show me a happy place in this unfamiliar land Perhaps I'm only homesick for all the joys that once were mine I must accept that they and you belong to another place and time But I know that deep within my heart there's a place where only you reside and when the pain of loneliness comes it knows that is where I hide So if sometimes it seems to you I'm clinging to the past it's mostly because I can't yet accept that our love didn't last No matter how hard I try I've yet to get over you for the part of me that's still alive believes you love me too Maybe there will come a day when that part will finally

Raspberry Tilapia
Tilapia, which is a farm raised fish, can make even the non fish lover take notice. Great sweet taste and no fishy smell! Best of all it's on your table in 40 minutes. PREP TIME 15 Min COOK TIME 25 Min READY IN 40 Min recipe yield: 4 servings INGREDIENTS * 4 (4 ounce) fillets Tilapia (bream) * 1/4 cup olive oil * 1/4 cup raspberry vinegar * 1/4 cup honey * 1 teaspoon yellow mustard * 1/2 teaspoon dried dill weed DIRECTIONS 1. Preheat oven to 350 degrees F (175 degrees C). Grease a 11x7 inch baking dish. 2. In a mixing bowl, whisk together the olive oil, raspberry vinegar, honey, mustard and dill weed. 3. Arrange the Tilapia fillets in a single layer in the prepared baking dish. Pour mixture over the fish fillets, coating the fillets evenly. 4. Bake in a preheated oven, uncovered for 20 minutes or until fish is flaky with a fork. glitter-graphics.com Metric PREP TIME 15 Min COOK TIME 25 Min RE

And My World Come Crashing Down
as a few on here know i have been trying to get my youngest son back.(for a year now). he was put in foster care because of something his dad did.(his dad had custody of him). well today my world came crashing down, i was informed that the state of washington was not going to approve the icpc and that my son remain in long term foster care until he turns 18. there was also talk of both my ex and myself signing over our rights to him, (the ex did). monday in court it was stated that it would hurt and cause damage to my son if i had to, so really that is the only good thing at least i can still see my son, but i have to wait a year in a half before he can come home. this is why i am dyeing inside. that you all for taking the time to read this. adirah

You Were Gone
A warm sensation fills my body My heart races with every touch The softness of your voice soothes My soul As I lay there hoping the moment Will never end Calling out for you Praying that you'll never let me go The sensation so strong I can no longer feel my body Slowly I fade in and out of reality In an instant the warm sensation Fades away My heart empty My soul torn apart Lying there; wondering where I went Wrong Calling out for you, only to find there is no answer My mind invaded with thoughts So cruel and unrefined The sensation of fear of what's to come Slowly the reality over powering The lust and fantasy Leaving me empty Confused on how to think or feel The loneliness I feel So wretched and compelled Betrayal to myself Revealing the terrors of my love

Rules In Oklahoma
Rules of OKLAHOMA 1. Pull your droopy pants up. You look like an idiot.( my favorite) 2. Let's get this straight; it's called a 'gravel road.' I drive a pickup truck because I want to. No matter how slow you drive, you're going to get dust on your Lexus. Drive it or get out of the way. 3. They are cattle. That's what they smell like to you. They smell like money to us. Get over it. Don't like it? I- 35 and I-44 can get your ass out of here. 4. So you have a $60,000 car. We're impressed. We have $250,000 combines that are driven only 3 weeks a year. 5. So every person in every pickup waves. It's called being friendly. Try to understand the concept. 6. If that cell phone rings while a bunch of ducks are coming in, we WILL shoot it out of your hand. You better hope you don't have it up to your ear at the time. 7. Yeah, we eat oklahoma pork chops & corn on the cob. You really want sushi & caviar? It's available at the corner bait shop. 8. The 'Opener' refers to the

Tears
I look up as a tear rolls slowly down my cheek I think about better days and wonder if I'll feel that way again you look at me with those eyes I know so well always serious, so deep and insightful as though you're always in control But not today not now Now you look so scared like for once you don't have the answer I gaze at you looking deep into those hazel eyes Hoping to understand why you've said those things you did I wonder for a moment if this is all a dream if I shall wake in the morning and be relieved you look at me with a confusion I have never seen slowly pull me towards you and wipe the tears from my cheek

2 Years Ago
on this day 2 years ago i was married to love of my life...I cannot begin to describe how happy Joe makes me....He makes me feel things i never thought i would feel...I feel loved,cared about,wanted,seXy(wich has been something NOBODY has ever been able to make me feel about myself) HAPPY ANNIVERSARY baby Baby i love you with all my heart & soul....

What Makes A Friend?
A friend What makes a friend? A friend Is someone that everyone needs A friend Is that special one A friend Is someone you tell EVERYTHING A friend Is someone you never lie to A friend Can be a boy or a girl A friend Is someone that is always their A friend Will always listen to you A friend Always has input to give A friend Will never leave you in the dust A friend Will help you through the thick and the thin A friend Will always stand by your side A friend Will never let you down A friend Is someone everyone needs What would you do if you didnt have a friend?

What The Hell Am I Doin Wrong!!!
I would just love it if there was a way that someone could look at me and I not know it, to find out what i do so wrong. I mean i meet women, that say that they are honest and true to themselves and they want me to be me, which if you know me, or talked to me for 5 minutes youd know that im like a teddy bear, very nice, cuddly. Honest and warm, with a humongous heart. I have alot of love to give, and love to give it. But just as when i think that things are goin so well, BAM, it all blows up in my face. Do i love to much, i mean, i have slowed down ALOT, since i got divorced, and its been almost 2 years since. Why is this so hard to find someone that is true to themselves. for if they arent then they cant possibly be true to me. I just dont know anymore. Comments are welcome. Please dont hold back, tell me straight. Am i doomed, stupid, what. I will respect anyones point of view, cuz right now its kinda hard to fine the truth, not to mention reality.... shay

I Need Kisses
hey friends all you male lover want to bes want to impress me buy me a mistle toe... its easy just copy and paste this link order me a bunch of mistletoe...dont buy me drinks or gifts just mistletoe kisses mmmm come luv me with kisses http://fubar.com/blog/147861/619637

Yup, 'tis The Season.
Well, it's official, I will be on 6days a week starting the first till Christmas.. ack!! I'll be working 3am till 1pm and that's if I can actually get out of work at 1.. That's nice and all I'll get outta there at one and still ahve the whole day, but not really. If I plan to get any kind of sleep, bedtime will have to be at the latest 8pm and up around 1 or 2 am. I wonder if I'll be able to take a mini vacation when this is all over with. Just as an FYI, being in retail myself, please be kind to your cashiers and clerks at the stores. Try and be kinder and have more patience as everyone is trying to get their shopping done. Please oh please, don't let your children run amuck in the toy aisle. It isn't the babysitting section and remember before these people can go home for the night they still have to clean up the store before they leave, so be nice and don't just leave stuff anywhere.

Mad Rant!!
Well I've come to the conclusion that the last 6 years of my life aside from the twin tornadoes has been a complete and utter waste of my f-ing time!!!! A little back story forst...most of ya'll have read my blog regarding my work schedule...most of ya'll know I USED to go into BPI @ 1:30-2:00pm...now it's 2:45 due to honeywell. For the mathematically challenged...that's a loss of 1 to 1.25 hours. Now the loss of pay hurts but that's why I have Honeywell...the loss of time is what hurts....with that loss of time comes the realization that I noe have to cram more wor into less time. This can be a bit of an issue, but I'm already doing the impossible...why not just go the extra mile and make it the overly insane! 85% of my contact with my two youngest comes in the form of phone calls.....I cherish these even though they may only last 2...maybe 5 minutes tops. The rest of the time is getting updates from the Ex...hell of a way to be a parent...but hey, she got what she wanted...kids, a me

Hater Or Not?
Ok so theres this dude on here that gets all pissy cuz I wont let him view my cam. I deleted him from my yim and he still ims so I block his ass. Now hes on here rating my photos '1'. I really dont care, but I just want to know if he gets some satisfaction out of it or if he thinks I will change my mind and flash him....too bad I cant write mumms lol...would love to see comments on this one. Still I think hes a hater!

A Small Favor
Please help me get 43 more hits on my character page so I can earn a banner for my character page. Simply click HERE And it will tell you have been bitten by the Vampire Tiberius Constantine. Which is me, invisible don. If you ever need a vote on something let me know I’ll help you out too. Thanks, so much. Invisible Don AKA Tiberius Constantine the vampire

Back In Missouri
I back.. and my lappy is working again! Not only did the wireless not work, but this thing also reverted back to its troublesome self. So once again Brad to the rescue. I'm off work until Monday. Then I have a pretty decent schedule. That's good since it all means more $$. Christmas gifts from Cheryl are going to be limited I think. I have to buy a car. HAVE to. I can't put it off anymore.. and I can't afford it either. If anyone knows of a halfway decent car for very very cheap I'd love to know about it. Le sigh. So on Sunday I'll be 4 months along. I have my next appointment on the 18th. And I'll be 18 weeks then... which is EXCITED! Between 20 and 22 weeks is when I'm supposed to have my next ultrasound to find out the sex. To TRY to find out anyways. I hope this lil zombie cooperates! What else... hmm I don't know if I'm feeling the baby move and kick but I'm definately feeling things that I haven't before (or maybe not noticed?) I like to think it's the baby. That m

Her Heart
"HER HEART" Possesions do not make happiness. I could own the world and still I'd be lonely. I only want one thing that I can not have. I want her heart only. I'll die a pauper because I will never have the only thing that would make me rich... Her heart

A Mother's Prayer/ Affirmation After Miscarriage
A dear friend of mine informed me that her and her husband who is recently back from Iraq just lost their expected child after just 12 weeks and I have been consoling her with something I have kept after my own losses in the past. It is a sad day that another new beginning has already come to an end but I hope this helps others who have suffered as such... In this time of loss I call upon my spirit within to guide me to my strength so that I may find peace and completion. I will use this strength to demand of myself and others my need to grieve completely, for this will be my first step to healing. During my time of grief I will seek guidance not only from my inner spirit but from loving persons who may offer wisdom and comfort. I need to understand that the soul as well as the physical body needs healing and to pay attention to this. I will learn to accept that the soul may never heal completely. I will learn to live not in fear and once again see beauty in my world

I Am A Shadow Walker
I am the Shadow-Walker. On the spirit plane, there's an abyss. I've been trying to stop you all falling in. Maybe you think I'm a creature of the light Some days, you're hovering on the edge, When the pain in your heart's like a kick in the shin. Or then, a denizen of the night Other times, you're far from the depths, Forgetting the danger you were in. But I am a guardian of twilight Can't you see how much you've got? Even when you feel like throwing life in the bin. I'm only trying to do what's right I feel like a voodoo doll; Your pain is a pin- I won't let you slip without a fight Your anger and sadness Drive it deeper in. I strive so hard to keep you where it's bright, But I am doomed for the half-light

Just A Lil Update 4 Ya All Plz Read
ive changed my name n im makin some moves now im workin towards god mother by the end of Feb. I will be havin a happy hour next Thrusday for my Birthday so get ready to drink it up on me Much love to al of u n to all my close friends that i speak with all the time I LOVE U GUYZ MORE THAN U ALL KNOW!!!

Shadow Walker Touch
I am a shadow... Gliding across the earth... No one can see me... But I'm there. I slip right past you... My touch... A soft carress... That haunts you... In your dreams. My kiss... Is cold on your skin... But light as air. I am a shadow... You can't see me. I am the shadow... Who is as gentle... And as soft... As air.

Good Vibes
ok.. here is the scoop I want to move lol I live in town.. and my boys go to school about 15 minutes away from where we live. The schools close SUCK. Now I used to live in small Mayberry type town. Had a horrible shitty landlord. Kept raising the rent .. got it up to 650 for a 2 bedroom apt. So we moved.. came to this house. WELL... now he has a house for rent.. right across the street from my mom in Mayberry lol. 3 bedroom house.. big yard and across from my mom!! cant beat that right!!!! Well its the same asshole landlord. I sucked it up and called about it tonite.. and of course he figured out who I was. Does it sound hopeful? I HOPE!! This house wll save me so much in gas per month... a much safer small town for boys to be in. I can taste how much I want to be there. So pray for me..meditate.. light a candle. whatever you do.. send me good vibes for a good house!! lotsa luvin xox

Check The Article About Me Out
first let me say I love www.AINEWS.com , Steve Nelson is a cool cat and his website deserves major kudos, I just got the pleasure of meeting a new writer (Rebecca Anderson)at that wonderful site and she was kind enough to write a story about me. Now I don't usually use real names but she signs it that way on her article so I guess this should be fine. Below is her page and a link to the article, so add her and read away http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=54865021 article http://www.ainews.com/story/12596/ please check it out and the rest of the site, below is Steve's myspace page for adding as well http://www.myspace.com/readainews now for the long version of story, in question answer format, I ramble quite a bit hence why it was condensed but here it goes, oh and I think I typo'd quite abit so extra praise to Freaky Tiki (Rebecca) for making me look better WHAT EXACTLY DO YOU DO FOR THOSE IN THE ENTERTAINMENT COMMUNITY? ARE

Shadow Walker
Silently, with an unproud spirit she stands within her place. A joy to those who know her heart, They also see her grace. She is overshadowed By the boastful braggart talker She quietly just bows her head For she is Shadow Walker. Shadow Walker excels in life and love For she weighs out the truth. I am glad I know this Shadow Walker The epitome of youth Time will go by year by year And this I know she will find Hope and love from up above With a wonderful peace of mind.

Taking Fu-bets On Packers Vs. Cowboys
So here we are, big game tonight I am picking the Packers to beat the Cowboys tonight, if you wanna have a bet with me of any amount of fu-bucks you want than let me know and I will add it to this blog here. Serious bets only people---So come on people lets have fun.....I know the game started but there is lots of game time left so come and place your bets!!! Here is the link to my blog to place your bet!!! http://fubar.com/blog/130044/627271 Papi is down for 10k for the Cowboys!!! Big Papi ...JEDI MASTER..The MOST LOVED man on FUBAR~ Member of the {CC} Gang@ fubar Life Sez is good for 5k on the Cowboys!!! lifesez/*~?~*stalker@ fubar TewDope is good for 10k on the Cowboys!!! TewDope ™ GILF/FU wife to LarryB //Freedom Bombing/Leveling Family.....@ fubar Hoe Hunter is good for 10k on the Cowboys!!! HoeHunter ™ VEGAS@ fubar My Baby is taking me on for 25k for the Cowboys!!! Amelia ~Real Life Girlfriend & Fu Wifey to BrownEyedPapi~@ fubar

Opportunity
Been crossing my fingers ...i applied to the Federal Bureau of Prisons. Praying I get hired at one of the 3 prisons I applied for. almost 20,000 more a year than what I make now and I could really use it. Things are way to tight around here.

They Said No More Drama Part 2....
۞WÌLÐÇÄŦ۞® ŦRÄÌñ۞ THE MOST WANTED PEOPLE ON FUBAR 4 BEING REALLY BAD!!! TRAIN FARE INFO. 1~THIS TRAIN IS NOT FREE,IT COST 7 DAYS BLAST 2 PROMOTE U. 2~ YOU STICKY UR TRAIN. 3~IF U WANT 2 BE THE CONDUCTOR BRING A NEW MEMBER 2 SPONSOR THE TRAIN & U STICKY IT. 4~IF U WANT 2 BE A V.I.P.ITS 1 DAY BLAST OR MORE. 5~TO GET A V.I.P. CART & ADD 2 OF UR FRIENDS ITS A 3 DAYS BLAST OR MORE OR IF U CAN BRING ANOTHER SPONSOR & UR CART WILL BE FREE. 6~ALL NEW CARTS WILL BE ON THE TOP.U'RE FREE 2 ADD COUPLE FRIENDS FOR 1 TIME 2 PROMOTE THEM. 7~AND THIS GOES 2 ALL PEOPLE ON MY TRAIN: (((U have 2 rate,fan & add all the people on the train each time U're on it check 4 the new members,,,also rate all the conductor's pix and you have 2 rate as much as U can from the stewards & the VIP members 2.)))OR YOU'LL BE REMOVED!!! HERE IS SOME AWESOME & SEXY TAPPERS ON WILDCAT TRAIN THEY LOVE 2 FAN,RATE,ADD PEOPLE & SHOW SOME LOVE THEY'VE BEEN SO BAD LATELY,I MEAN

W000t!!! Tomorrow
after my work finish at 4pm!! I am going driving to Port Byron, NY to see my girlfriend and going out and watching DVD with her!! Can't wait to see my girlfriend!!! I love her so much!!! W00T!!! We will use my fubar with her to see all your new pics or blog or stash and everything!!! See ya tomorrow !!! Thank You Mike

They Said No More Drama Part 1....
۞WÌLÐÇÄŦ۞® ŦRÄÌñ۞ THE MOST WANTED PEOPLE ON FUBAR 4 BEING REALLY BAD!!! TRAIN FARE INFO. 1~THIS TRAIN IS NOT FREE,IT COST 7 DAYS BLAST 2 PROMOTE U. 2~ YOU STICKY UR TRAIN. 3~IF U WANT 2 BE THE CONDUCTOR BRING A NEW MEMBER 2 SPONSOR THE TRAIN & U STICKY IT. 4~IF U WANT 2 BE A V.I.P.ITS 1 DAY BLAST OR MORE. 5~TO GET A V.I.P. CART & ADD 2 OF UR FRIENDS ITS A 3 DAYS BLAST OR MORE OR IF U CAN BRING ANOTHER SPONSOR & UR CART WILL BE FREE. 6~ALL NEW CARTS WILL BE ON THE TOP.U'RE FREE 2 ADD COUPLE FRIENDS FOR 1 TIME 2 PROMOTE THEM. 7~AND THIS GOES 2 ALL PEOPLE ON MY TRAIN: (((U have 2 rate,fan & add all the people on the train each time U're on it check 4 the new members,,,also rate all the conductor's pix and you have 2 rate as much as U can from the stewards & the VIP members 2.)))OR YOU'LL BE REMOVED!!! HERE IS SOME AWESOME & SEXY TAPPERS ON WILDCAT TRAIN THEY LOVE 2 FAN,RATE,ADD PEOPLE & SHOW SOME LOVE THEY'VE BEEN SO BAD LATELY,I MEAN

Last Dream
I had one last dream before I died, Now that dream has been pushed aside. I can never see it happening, I guess it was really never ment to be. My dream is dead, Does it mean I will die soon. Is the lord finally going to take me home again. At least I know there, That I would be loved. Everyone couldn't blame me for everything. I would live in total serenity, No heavy mundane things to hold me down. Just a place full of love,Joy and happiness. Because spirit love is unconditional. Dee Parenti All Rights Reserved©

Ok Here Goes
NO I AM NOT DEAD!...... I am very much alive...and I would like to appologize to the jackasses that got my passwords and fucked with all my accounts.... my fubar myspace yahoo were all hacked into..... these accounts are mine again.... and once again I am very much alive....

Rant One: I Need To Vent!
~~People renamed to protect the stupid! LOL~~ Nameless: hey baby how r u Knows Better: I'm just horrible. Thanks for asking! Knows Better: didnt expect to hear from you Nameless: y not omg u deleted me Knows Better: omg... Knows Better: you kinda acted like you didnt want to talk to me Nameless: no i did but its cool Knows Better: sorry Knows Better: I know how it is to have someone do that to ya Knows Better: Im going thru it now Nameless: ok np Nameless: see Knows Better: Ive thought of deleting my fubar acct Nameless: y? Knows Better: all the BS Nameless: baby just have fun with it Knows Better: he invited me and now is acting all weird... seems like he is avoiding me Nameless: oh Nameless: dont push on him he is probably not even worth it Knows Better: sh*t he even took me off fubar friends Knows Better: told me not to leave personal comments cuz his private life was just that Nameless: lol Knows Better: So

Fooking Downraters
well I just had my first lovely experience with a downrater please lets show him the love he just showed me because I wouldn't give him my messenger info Da White S...: whatever, you're fuckin ugly anyway ->Da White S...: sorry I dont give that out to just anyone especially people i dont know Da White S...: to chat on there, why else? ->Da White S...: why? Da White S...: k, what's you yahoo or msn? ->Da White S...: yes Da White S...: DO u have yahoo or msn messenger? ->Da White S...: k Da White S...: questionf or u ok? Da White Sox rated you a '1'! · Sorimar just walked into the bar! · Da White Sox just checked you out

Important Please Read :-)
Hey Everyone! I hope everyone is doing well. I don't get a chance to actually write to all of you, but I appreciate all of the comments, etc. The reason I am posting this bulletin is because I am considering offering some part-time child care on the weekends to make some extra money. I have a large home, no pets, and plenty of toys..lol..my back still hurts from picking them all up..lol Anyway, if anyone is interested let me know. For the record, I don't do drugs, rarely drink anymore(New Years does not count..lol) and have a clean record. I am also certified in First Aid/CPR with over 6 years of direct care experience. Also, for those of you who are interested in Mary Kay, I am putting in my last order before Christmas December 10th to ensure everyone gets those important gifts. If you have things that you would like to purchase, keep in mind I am giving people a $10 off a $25 order gift certificate for referrals. I am also giving the people whom you refer the same gift ce

Find Me On Myspace
Hi, I kind of find this website a little confusing.... I have links over links so I am not going to be on here much.... I'm not able to see much on here. If you'd like to chat I'm on Myspace http://www.myspace.com/boobsbusiness

Day Off For Once
as of saturday i have a day off but still busy busy going to go get my *little* haha man *mr* MoJo Risen.( you'll know what i mean as soon as i get the pics up) grabben my comp so im not hoggen my freinds all the time hehe Cheers ..

*jealousy Is A Motha Fucka*
It's a shame I have to be at work so early because I should be at the hospital. My friend Ryan was hit by a truck about 2 hours ago. Not on accident either. Some friends of mine were hanging out in their neighborhood just shootin the shit and stuff. And someone decided to take something in their own hands and were gunning for someone else when Ryan pushed them out of the way and took the hit himself. Ryan flew up onto the hood of the truck and cracked the windshield with his forhead. The driver then slammed on his brakes to throw Ryan off and then gunned it and ran over him. Ryan then tried to stand up to give chase and immediately fell to the ground. My brother is at the hospital now and Ryan's been in X-ray for about half an hour. They said he was conscious in the ambulance and everything so hopefully he'll be ok. He's a tough guy I just didn't know he was this tough.

Money Is The Root Of All Evil!
Yes it does rule everything, because money = power sad but true... and theres nothing really that we can do about it, its like blocks that keep falling on top of each other its like you know what you have to do but yet its so hard! You don't have any skills cause you don't have in school and you don't have any school cause you dont have any money and you dont have any money cause you don't have a job... you see what I'm getting at? Sometimes I wish we were in the Little House on the Perrie days... Chea that was fun... now money controls everything and Love gets crushed down like a 5000 pound truck... it sucks and trully if it wasent for all my friends and family and hopefully one day the chances of winning the lottery or inventing something that will make lots of cash flow... I'd choose illegal injection!!!

Sisterhood Lounge Is Now Open!
Come hang out!! :D Great friends and great music, who could ask for more???! Click the banner at the bottom to come hang out with us!! ™ Females Only! ™ ™ Please add "The Sisterhood" to your name... somewhere, anywhere. Last, first, doesn't matter. Once you add us, let me know and I will add you to the list. ™ After you are added to the list, you should rate, fan, and add all sisters that are listed before you. ™ You should be at least a level 5 to join. ™ You must have a salute pic. ™ If there is a female on your friends list who is a good friend to you, by all means go ahead and ask her to join us. ™ Member Pinkouts are a great way to show Love! ™ If you are not an ACTIVE member I will delete

Infinity And The Aleph Numbers
To view the symbols in this blog, click here for the source. "Aleph One" redirects here. For other uses, see Aleph One (disambiguation). In the branch of mathematics known as set theory, the aleph numbers are a sequence of numbers used to represent the cardinality (or size) of infinite sets. They are named after the symbol used to denote them, the Hebrew letter aleph (). The cardinality of the natural numbers is (aleph-null, also aleph-naught or aleph-zero) the next larger cardinality is aleph-one , then and so on. Continuing in this manner, it is possible to define a cardinal number for every ordinal number ƒ¿, as described below. The concept goes back to Georg Cantor, who defined the notion of cardinality and realized that infinite sets can have different cardinalities. The aleph numbers differ from the infinity (‡) commonly found in algebra and calculus. Alephs measure the sizes of sets; infinity, on the other hand, is commonly defined as an extreme limit of the r

Great Band
I recently discovered a band from roadrunner records. The name of the band is Airbourne. They have a new album coming out in January. The album is "Runnin Wild". The band is from Australia. They kick ass. I have 3 videos from the opcoming album in my stash. I highly recommend you listen to "RUNNIN WILD FREE" & " DIAMOND IN THE ROUGH".You will not be dissapointed

Feeling Betrayed
You came to me for help, i gave you my all. I went out of my way to help you and for what. You got what you wanted now your friend is pushed aside. You used some one's friendship to achieve your goals i hope your happy with the results. If thats your kind of friendship no thank you i will pass i dont need it. It is better to be alone then have so call friends abusing friendship. proves my point alone in darkness is by far better then the so call light. my destiny was the cold path of darkness and it is what i shall follow. Dont claim to be my friend you are not nilla is not for this dark one. Cold and hard is what you push me to now live with it. Some may not like this blog and at this point i dont realy care any more. Enjoy my art but no more will be given this dark one shall go where it was writen . I am a Dark Master and that is what i shall be. I wish you the darkest of nite CreedOne Last BreathMusic Video Codes By Music Jesus.com I

Emotions Were Many!
I finally after 5yrs I was reunited with my children. At first I was really upset and ready to cry because it was hard for me to see them after so long. The first couple seconds were rough but I pulled myself together to be strong for the kids...they looked so great and they were just smiling and excited as I was, especially my daughter Bryana. I didnt want the moments with them to end so i talked to them as much as possible. I only got about a half hour with them but i was so relieved to have that! I felt like i was on cloud 29..so excited that i couldnt even sleep later that night...i was wondering for the last 5yrs how they sounded and how they were and now I know how they are...The best feeling in the world is feeling your kids put their arms around you and be glad that you are there! I just have to thank god so much for the second chance with my kids! And of course their Father who made it possible....It was the best!

Traumatic Thursdays!
Attention Listeners!!Freddie (Breaking Benjamin's Road Manager) continues hosting his own show on CageRattleRadio which started last Thursday and runs every Thursday from here on out. The show starts at 7pm eastern and since as most of you know we are an internet radio station so anyone can tune in from all over the world. That means TELL YOUR FRIENDS, just keep reposting this bulletin.Make sure you tune in, you never know what Freddie is going to say, who might call into the show, or what he might want to give away to the listeners. Its simple, at 7pm est just click the Listen Live button on this page.Show producer, Donkey Punch, will also be joining him on the air.

Darkness
Darkness is slowly creeping up on the world, casting it into shadow, filling it with all the nightly terrors. In this growing darkness I find my comfort when others run and hide to light candles and fires. They lock and bolt their doors praying for protection from nightly demons while I, I roam the silent darkness searching for someone. Through the darkened woods I silently pass not fearing that I should wake any inhabitant spirits lurking in the shadows. Beyond this darkened wood rests a lonely graveyard planted in the heart of a dale. I wander down into this dale and lock myself in that quiet graveyard to be alone. I long to find my addiction leaning against one of the stones waiting for me. I've spent hours wandering up and down the peaceful rows only to find that my addiction is nowhere to be found. Peering into the darkness I find myself alone and my head, once held high, drops. I continue to walk among the cold, crumbling stones, with my head lowered, gently grazing my hand over

Next Time Your Dear Old Granny Asks For A "rocking Chair"
The "Rocking Chair" It's on sale in the for $99.00. It looks like a seat. But what is its intended use? "The HAMMER""THE SHAFTER""THE BLISS BOX" "THE DOGHOUSE":THE FLEXOR"THE PLUNGER""THE TROT"

11-29-07 41st Entry
I've been trying to come up with things to write but am not having much luck. Things are basically at a semi stand still with the doctor situations due to having 3 more weigh ins to go until my case goes to the insurance company. I guess I'll write a bit about clothes. I realized today when I got my new clothes (had to get an outfit for New Years as it was part of the bargain for a $ loan I got to help me through until I get my temporary disability. Thrifty me got 3 full outfits and a couple extra shirts for the price of 1 full outfit lmao. Clearance shopping is a good thing.). Anyway I got the clothes and tried them on. I realized then just how much I hate the clothes I've been stuck with for so long. I know I've realized before but when I put on the leggings they felt awesome, something I've not felt since I got too fat for normal clothes. I look good in them too. I prefer leggings and jeans but am (or I should say was as I have lost enough weight to get leggings)

Prayers Are Really Needed Now
Update...I just received a phone call from my sister letting me know that my cousin David Dutrisac Jr. has stage 3 brain damage and is still in a level 1 coma...which means that he more than likely will never wake up. I ask that you all pray that my aunt does not have to make the decision to cut off life support. I Thank Everyone in advance for your prayers. MyHotComments Get More at COMMENTYOU.com

Enslaved
"Feed your psychotic agression Your neurotic obession This patience left is wearing thin Helpless, to stare at such a heartless grin For all that we had It's come to this Mental mutation Satanic bliss Grasp the rope, tighter now, dont let go Strike the match against my cheek Ignite such futile hope Drop the match before my feet Arose a flame, that never burnt so sickly sweet Engorge such heartfelt abominations No more disease, no more temptations Nothing to lose Nothing to gain Loveless, heartless, enslaved in my heart You shall remain "

Unanswered Questions
Never Forget i'll never forget the way your touch felt or the way your smile could always make my heart melt i'll never forget the way your body felt pressed against mine or how when i was with you i lost all sense of time i'll never forget how safe i used to feel when you held me in your arms or how you would never let me suffer from any harm i'll never forget how when i got sick you took care of me or how You were able to help me feel free i'll never forget the way you were there when i was down or how you could always put a smile onto my face instead of that frown i'll never forget how it felt to be truly happy or i'll never forget how good you always were to my daughter or how you were able to show that she does have a man who will not hurt her i'll never forget all the fun times we used to have or how you helped me feel alive again when i was so sad i'll never forget how you treated me with respect and lik

Never Forget
Never Forget i'll never forget the way your touch felt or the way your smile could always make my heart melt i'll never forget the way your body felt pressed against mine or how when i was with you i lost all sense of time i'll never forget how safe i used to feel when you held me in your arms or how you would never let me suffer from any harm i'll never forget how when i got sick you took care of me or how You were able to help me feel free i'll never forget the way you were there when i was down or how you could always put a smile onto my face instead of that frown i'll never forget how it felt to be truly happy or i'll never forget how good you always were to my daughter or how you were able to show that she does have a man who will not hurt her i'll never forget all the fun times we used to have or how you helped me feel alive again when i was so sad i'll never forget how you treated me with respect and lik

Love Is ....
Love is a basic dimension of human experience that is variously conveyed as a sense of tender affection, an intense attraction, the foundation of intimacy and good interpersonal chemistry, willing self-sacrifice on behalf of another, and as an ineffable sense of affinity or connection to nature, other living beings, or even that which is unseen. It manifests itself in feelings, emotion, behavior, thoughts, perception and attitude. It influences, underlies and defines major patterns in interpersonal relationships and self-identification.

Drowning
Alone tonight with only dark and lonely thoughts to keep me company. I long for love... For someone to caress my soul to hold my heart in her hands and reawaken passions that have long been dormant. I have forgotten how it feels... the sweet touch of desire, the delicate taste of a forbidden kiss, the saintly sins of intimacy. oh, I am lost... forsaken... destined to live out eternity drowning within my own imagination. Remembering how it felt to hold someone within my arms and to have someone hold me. I am a wretch... a leper of romance constantly reaching for something I can't find. I can't have... but longing for it. I am drowning... drowning in regret... drowning in loneliness... drowning... Will somebody... anybody... save me?

Torchwood Season Finale - Saturday At 9pm E/p On Bbc America
End of Days - Saturday, December 1st at 9:00pm & Midnight ET/6:00pm & 9:00pm PT on BBC America. The rift has been opened, and time is splintering all over the world. As events spiral out of control, the Torchwood team members are faced with fragments of their pasts – and terrifying visions of their futures. Can Captain Jack save the world?

Release
This is a collaboration I did with my friend Steven. By Ambur: Like the first drop of rain after a drought, A solitary tear falls from the corner of my eye, Destined for locks of golden hair. Cool and revitalizing, A tear abundant with ecstasy. It is dark. I need not my eyes to see. His body I remember. His scent brings serenity. His flesh - warm and secure. We commune. Incoherent words to a stranger. Poetry to a lovers' ear. Our hearts provide rhythm, Our bodies - the words. My arms form his collar. He wears this with pleasure. Blankets of heat surround our movement. I feel him in his entirety. An essence of love lingers. His thrust overwhelms me. My heels drive into the disheveled sheeting. The warmth of his lust fills me. For the first time I feel the weight of his body. Could it be; my satisfaction is greater? By Steven: She came to me like a whisper in the night< SPAN> une

Waterfall
In my childish ignorance I had no expectation No prior knowledge Of you Your power Your beauty I wept As I witnessed In one of those moments Where I felt grateful To be alive Water The most powerful Of elements Creating my own waterfall As tears fell from my eyes This wasn't the earth As I knew it It was a higher source This was mystical This was magical As rainbows criss-crossed I was alive At one with your energy I surrendered I was bewitched Never wanting to leave Wishing to stay forever Watching white horses cascade Listening to the thunder No photo could do you justice You had to experience The most awesome sensation That left an imprint on me That will last eternally My spiritual home In Iguassau Falls "Stay...be one with me." You are a fountain forever unbroken just a river of silver rushing over the luminous peak of my imagination. You are the spring always alive in passion in emotion showering me in a delicious mist while she

Tonight On Jody's Rockin Rodeo My Open Talk With Brandon Lynn Shane
----------------- Bulletin Message ----------------- From: Brandon Lynn Shane Date: Nov 29, 2007 2:57 PM ----------------- Original Message -----------------From: ~Cowboy Haven~Date: 28/11/2007BE SURE AND TUNE IN 9 PM EST TO ROUND UP RADIO, SIMLCASTING ON HARLEY RADIO & DIXIE RADIO INDY,IT'S HAMMER TIME !!!! I AM HAVING MY FIRST OPEN TALK SHOW WITH BRANDON LYNN SHANE " TOPIC IS EXPOSING A SHARK " BE SURE AND ADD BRANDON LYNN SHANEwww.myspace.com/brandonlynnshane2Jody's Rockin Rodeo on Round Up 9 est come turn me on join the ranch party in our new chat room click on the banner

Reflection
Look deep into my eyes... No, no...deeper. Can you see it? That tiny spark There, there In the corner! Yeah, that's it. What is it, you ask? You really don't know? But, how can you not? You put it there, it's hope. Yeah it's only a glimmer for now... but every time I talk to you every time I see your smile it grows. And soon... very soon it will be hard to contain. Already I can feel it... lingering, building into something wonderful. How did you do it?

Zephyr
What is it that makes me who I am? Why so often do I feel lost? Listless... Like I'm floating on an angry ocean alone... with nothing to cling to but the last remaining logs of a raft that is held together by my fast and fading dreams. I don't know... I don't have any answers and every time I think I find one it's really only another question masquerading as some small piece of insight. I have a sail but it hangs lifeless motionless... as if time has forgotten that it even exists, as if I exist. It has been so long since I have felt the winds of hope brush against my cheek, the breath of love blow into the fabric of my heart. Aeolus, make me a zephyr so that I may fill my own sails and breeze back into the truth of who I am, so that once again I can experience life without the constant swells of the judgmental seas. Free me so that I can dream.

Amen To This! " I (nsfw ) Just In Case It Was Offensive To Some"
*Twas the month before Christmas* *When all through our land,* *Not a Christian was praying* *Nor taking a stand.* *See the PC Police had taken away,* *The reason for Christmas - no one could say.* *The children were told by their schools not to sing,* *About Shepherds and Wise Men and Angels and things.* *It might hurt people's feelings, the teachers would say* * December 25th is just a "Holiday ".* *Yet the shoppers were ready with cash, checks and credit* *Pushing folks down to the floor just to get it!* *CD's from Madonna, an X BOX, an I-pod* *Something was changing, something quite odd! * *Retailers promoted Ramadan and Kwanzaa* *In hopes to sell books by Franken & Fonda.* *As Targets were hanging their trees upside down* * At Lowe's the word Christmas - was no where to be found.* *At K-Mart and Staples and Penny's and Sears* *You won't hear the word Christmas; it won't touch your ears.* *Inclusive, sensitive, Di-ver-si-ty* *Are words that were used to int

Strangle Hold
Here I come again now baby like a dog in heat tell it's me by the clamor now baby I like to tear up the street, now I been smokin for so long, ya know im here to stay got you in a stranglehold baby you best get outta the way road I cruise is a bitch now baby but no you cant turn me round and if a house gets in my way baby ya know I'll burn it down you ran the night that you left me you put me in my place I got you in a stranglehold baby you gonna cross your face sometimes you wanna get higher and sometimes you gotta start low some people think they gonna die someday I got news ya never got to go c'mon c'mon c'mon c'mon baby c'mon c'mon c'mon c'mon up c'mon c'mon c'mon c'mon baby c'mon c'mon c'mon road I cruise is a bitch now ya know ya cant turn me round and if a house gets in my way ya know I'll burn it down you ran the night that you left me you put me in my place I got you in a stranglehold baby that night I crossed your face

Illusion
I am not real... I do not feel what I feel. I am not me... and I can not be what I see. I am an illusion... a ghost of time haunting my own dreams. A whisper of absolutely nothing, constantly screaming in unbearable silence, and scattering memories to the wind. I am a shadow... a sadness only truth can feel. A specter with his immortal scythe, that is tearing a hole in the fabric of love, to uncover what I truly am. I am a myth a wisp of smoke that almost was, but really isn't. A phantom of the unwilling, a figment of my own dying imagination, an arrogant ghoul that knows nothing of the fool he thinks he is. No, I am not real... I do not feel what I feel. I am not me... and I can not be who I see. No, I am not here... I am just an illusion... But who are you? Are you an illusion too?

I Love You
I LOVE YOU: THERE IS A MUCH GREATER MOTIVATION THAN SIMPLY MY SPOKEN WORDS. I WANT TO LOVE, TO COMMIT MYSELF, FREELY AN D WITHOUT RESERVATION. I AM SINCERELY INTERESTED IN YOUR HAPPINESS AND WELL-BEING. WHATEVER YOUR NEEDS ARE, I WILL BE THERE. If YOU ARE LONELY AND NEED ME, I WILL, BE THERE. IF IN THAT LONELINESS YOU NEED TO TALK, I WILL LISTEN. IF YOU NEED TO LISTEN, I WILL TALK. IF YOU NEED THE STRENGTH OF HUMAN TOUCH, I WILL TOUCH Y OF. IF YOU NEED TO BE HELD, I WILL HOLD YOU. I WILL LIE NAKED IN BODY WITH YOU IF THAT BE YOUR NEED. IF YOU NEED FULFILLMENT OF THE FLESH, I WILL GIVE YOU THAT ALSO, BUT ONLY THROUGH MY LOVE. I WILL TRY TO BE CONSTANT WITH YOU SO THAT YOU WILL UNDERSTAND THAT CORE OF MY PERSONALITY AND FROM THAT UNDERSTANDING YOU CAN GAIN STRENGTH AND SECURITY THAT I AM ACTING AS ME. I MAY FALTER WITH MY MOODS. I MAY PROJECT, AT TIMES, A STRANGENESS THAT IS ALIEN TO YOU WHICH MAY BEWILDER YOU OR FRIGHTEN YOU. THERE WILL BE TIMES WHEN QUESTION MY MOTIVE

Time Is Short
Why did you have to go? There are still things I would love to learn from you. Things I wish I knew about you. The longer your gone, the more I miss you. Little things I do reminds me of you. People say we look alot alike. I long to be hugged by you again. So many things you will miss in my life. You will always be in my heart. I know you will watch over me. Oh, how I'll miss you. I'll always love you. Im truely greatful for a wonderful Grandma like you. *~*In memory of my Grandma Marge*~*

Scars Too Deep
It's a mystery of cool winds and false gods blowing forever in a hurricane of broken down promises. It's unsolvable and locked in a prison of misconceptions constantly screaming a banshee soul of endless tortures. I have fallen no longer something I used to be secretly dying destined to lie in forgotten dust. Death becomes me but does not ease the pain I suffer for these bleeding scars are way too deep within my heart

A Duck Named Skippy
this morning was a rough morning i got up to find out i had to rewash all my clothes then i took michael to work and justin to school the teacher came out to talk to me about justin acting up in class so i was all up set so i went to my favorite park City Park and their is this duck that i love to feed their he comes up and eats right out of my hand but skippy dosent have a bottom beak i wish i could take him home the other duck pick on him but today skippy had a friend with him i think she found a boyfriend he is a mallard duck his has a dark blue head after i feeded all the ducks and played with skippy & her friend i watched the tow of them swim away togather their little web feet kicking away and wounder what do these duck have to worrie about each day then i watched the geese about 25 landed on the ice and started laughing because they slid on the ice then go in to the water one right after the other and relize everything is alright so think about the little things today and laugh

It Flew Away
I lost my soul today. It seems that as I was walking along the shoreline with the waves crashing down upon my feet and the outgoing tide lapping at the essence of my being it flew away. I didn't see it go and at first I felt no different but as the sun set below the surface of the endless ocean so did my heart. Will they rise again in the morning? Or are they gone forever? Only time will tell. I lost my heart today. It sank beneath the frozen waters of tomorrow leaving behind a forgotten sunset hidden within the astral droppings of my fleeing soul as it flew away.

Do You See Me?
Do you see me? Do you see the real me? Do you see the pain hiding in my eyes always just below the surface collecting in a pool of crystal blue tears? Do you see the broken heart hidden behind the quiet masquerade of a misshapen and sunken smile? Do you see the forgotten promise of a love that should have been forever etched in the dusky wallows of my soul? Do you see me? Do you see the real me? Because I can't… …not anymore.

Noah In 2007
In the year 2007, the Lord came unto Noah, who was now living in the United States , and said, "Once again, the earth has become wicked and over-populated, and I see the end of all flesh before me. Build another Ark and save 2 of every living thing along with a few good humans." He gave Noah the blueprints, saying, "You have 6 months to build the Ark before I will start the unending rain for 40 days and 40 nights." Six months later, the Lord looked down and saw Noah weeping in his yard - but no Ark. "Noah!" He roared, "I'm about to start the rain! Where is the Ark ?" "Forgive me, Lord," begged Noah, "but things have changed. I needed a building permit. I've been arguing with the inspector about the need for a sprinkler system. My neighbors claim that I've violated the neighborhood zoning laws by building the Ark in my yard and exceeding the height limitations. We had to go to the Development Appeal Board for a decision. Then the Department of Transportation dema

An Impossible Puzzle
I've grown accustomed to the pain it's always there forever a part of me. It's like a river endlessly flowing through nothing between the heart and the moon, and suddenly blocked by a dam of unbreakable tears built on broken promises and tender lies. Who am I to know what I want? What I need? Or what it even is that I feel inside of me? I couldn't tell you the last time I was touched by someone who loved me and wasn't pretending. I can't remember what it feels like to be held by a beating heart that sang just for me and me alone. I feel deserted, abandoned in the middle of no where with not one bread crumb to follow back to where I left my heart shattered and in a million jagged pieces of an impossible puzzle. And then I wonder even if someone came along to put me back together, would they even be able to find all of my pieces?

Cry
I want to cry. Let all the hurt go. I want to cry. To release the sorrow. I want to cry. To see if it will help me feel better. I want to cry. Because I have no joy. I want to cry. Because I don't feel whole. I want to cry. For I feel lost. I want to cry. Maybe it will help me get over you.

In You, Everything
In you I am whole… For in your eyes I see eternity right there lying just behind an eclipse of emotion. In your smile there is infinity within a whisper of burning love and firefly desires. In your song I hear the moonlight as it touches my skin in a gentle embrace of constant creation. In your kiss I know perfection as it washes over me a cascading waterfall of triumphant roses. Yes, in you I am whole. You are everything… For you are the summer the heat of inner passion the warmth that resides in the truth of my heart. You are the autumn the beauty of life in it's splendor as colors change to breathe in the taste of time. You are the winter the cool breeze of fresh possibilities dancing within the secrets of falling snowflakes. You are the spring the rebirth of hopes and dreams floating on the new scent of innocent flowers. Yes, you are everything. So, here it is I place my heart in your hands embrace it, adore it, cherish it, o

Broken
The heart is a deceiving thing Leads you to put people on a pedestal You think you have a grip on it But it comes up and smacks you in the face Clipping feathers Breaking wings Shattering even the purest of dreams Causes hate filled words to flow Halos crash to the ground Angels cry Hearts wither and die Feet cross egg shells No words known to say Imperfection rears its head Noticeable Frightening Thrashing dreams Anger flows Depression looms Playtime is over No more attention paid to those who don't want it Life has to mean more than hurt Angry words Calmly focused No more tears No more pain Darkness dwells Light ceases Broken Plucked Featherless Open wounds need no salt Don't add to the hurt I no longer care Love is evil Pain is pure Love is worthless Pain is eternal Pain is real I will let the pain flow from me like blood down a drain I NO LONGER CARE You have broken me beyond repair

Invisible Tears
Kiss me dive into my healing heart swim the crystal waters of my flowing soul and shower me with your invisible tears. Follow me into the dreams of tomorrow let us bathe in its naked moonlight as we dance beneath stars of satisfaction in a lovers embrace only angels remember. Listen to the music of my heart feel the breath of my lasting emotions trust the faith you see deep in my eyes and understand I wish only to love you. These invisible tears of undying love they're always here never seen but always felt within each and every kiss. Invisible tears.

Would You?
Would you kiss me if I asked you to? Would you take my hand? Would you hold me close? Would you share your dreams every single one? Would you could you love me if I asked you to? Would you sit with me upon the beach beneath the setting sun as waves relentlessly kiss the shoreline each one searching for perfect love? Would you whisper my name on the dark and lonely nights just to let me know that you're still here if I asked you to? Would you let me love you as we lie in bed my head resting upon your chest counting heartbeats as our heated passions subside? Would you let me have you once again in the early morning after we wake if I asked you to? Tell me, would you let me kiss you if I wanted to? Would you?

In The Middle
In the middle of nowhere. In the middle of nothing. In the middle of sadness is the untold story of a broken soul. I wander lost in a lonely desert passing oasis after oasis but too afraid to drink as the water will fall through the many holes of my cracked and imperfect heart. I keep walking further into the cold abyss of my sad and eroding self alone and forgotten never looking back and not knowing where it is that I am headed. In the middle of nowhere. In the middle of nothing. In the middle of sadness is the untold story of this broken soul. In the middle of somewhere. In the middle of something. In the middle of hopeless I'm dying...

In Pieces
I am a forgone conclusion a mystery of sadness a whisper of forgotten wisdom wrapped around a shell of broken waves shattered by the jagged shoreline of yesterday. I am an empty halo a frozen shadow of listless emotions a wayward vessel lost and sinking beneath a cold and endless ocean drowning in a lonely abyss of eternal misery. I am an unasked question an answer of something discarded a confused soul of battered devotions chained inside a prison of uncertainties shoved aside and left to die in a nightmare of my own fears. I am nothing but a vision a ghost of forgotten memories a burning dream of misguided hope stolen from the beats of my dying heart and ripped from the truth of what I used to be. I am me I am shattered I am broken. In pieces…

You Are My Dream Come True
YOU ARE MY DREAM COME TRUE Always in my heart you make me feel more loved than I've ever felt and happier than I've ever dreamed. The love and understanding you have is something I have searched for my entire life. Always in my happiest and saddest moments, you are my best friend and confidante. I come to you for everything, and you listen to me without judgment. Always, deep within my soul, I know we have a love like no other. What we share is something others only hope for and dream of, but few ever experience. Our love is magical beyond belief. Always, without hesitation, you give of yourself completely. You have reached the very depths of my soul, bringing out emotions I never knew I had and unveiling an ability to love I never thought possible. Always and forever you will be my dream come true, the one I have waited for all these years. From now until the end of time, I will love only you. We will be together always.

Window On My World (here's Bits And Pieces Of The Poem Ya Ain't Ready For This)
if i listen carefully i can hear the beautifull sounds of the world. if i want to, when i close my eyes i can see ne thing i want to. i understand everyone makes mistakes and it only makes you strong when you learn from them. i like people who take time out there day to help the less fortunate.

Please, Break My Heart
Go ahead, break my heart I'm used to it. There's nothing left inside of me. I'm empty a broken shell of something lost forever thrown away hurt one too many times and left for dead on the side of the road to nowhere at all. There's nothing left outside of me. I'm forgotten a blackened stain of shattered hopes ripped apart fooled one too many times then pushed away to fall into an ocean of my own poisoned tears. So, go ahead, break my heart I'm used to it. Go ahead, break my heart I expected it.

Naughty Application
REPLY IN A PRIVATE MESSAGE TO ME WITH YOUR ANSWERS. DONT BE AFRAID. YOU NEVER KNOW WHO WILL REPLY OR WHAT ANSWERS THEY WILL GIVE. EVEN IF YOU HAVE A BOYFRIEND OR GIRLFRIEND OR HUSBAND OR WIFE - REPOST THIS! LET THE FUN BEGIN........ 1.Your Name: 2.Age: 3.Favorite position: 4. Do you think I'm cute? 5. Would you have sex with me? 6. lights on or off? 7. Would you have to be drunk? 8.Would you take a shower with me? 9.Have you ever thought about having sex with me? 10.Would you leave after or stay the night? 11.Do you like cuddling afterwards? 14.Condom or skin? 15.Have sex on the first date? 16.Would you kiss me during sex? 17.Do you think I would be good in bed? 18. Would you use me as a booty call? 19.Can I use you as a booty call? 20.Can we take pictures of the act? 21.How long would we have sex? 22.Would you tell your friends about me? 29.Will you post this so I can fill it out for you? SEE HOW MANY PEOPLE SEND THIS BACK TO YOU! TITLE IT-Naughty Appli

Breathe
Breathe Walk with me along an empty beach of roaming desire. Take my hand let us shed this husk of guilty hesitation. Lie with me in sculpted sand of rhythmic passion. Make love to me as the delicate surf explodes all around us. Breathe Let go Taste the essence of who I am. Touch Release Feel me as we are one. Breathe.

Poem
This lonely heart lies shattered beneath the empty clouds of a broken sky. Raindrops splash upon my face bleeding into shallow pools of breathless tears. Time stands still, the world no longer turns, and I am fading becoming a translucent image of something long forgotten. Just a shroud of ethereal mist dissipating into nothingness, alone and forsaken. This lonely heart lies dying beneath an endless flood of weeping lies. I am nothing I am lost and alone. Save me...

In My Heart
IN MY HEART In my heart, I hold your love close, It's your love that I need the most. I sit here as I watch the sunrise In the morning dew, I see the tip of it looking like a flame, As I'm feeling this burning love for you. I sit here alone with all my thoughts of you, Watching the sunlght begin to fill the room. Thinking of our future, And all the things that we will do, You holding me in your arms, Your heart beating against mine, As we get lost in time. As I dream of that distant place, Where you will always be mine. In my heart you will always be, The one, the only one for me! I don't look forward going through the day, Knowing you're not here with me. Thinking of the endless hours, And the days dragging by. Why does it have to be this way? I have a wish for you and me, And I hope that the good Lord grants it, For you see, I wish that you would bring your love to me. In my heart, You will never leave, So I don't have to grieve, In my heart, You're

Whisper
She's just a whisper riding the tails of shooting stars falling from heaven to earth like an Angel blessed with unbroken kisses hidden deep within the gentle breath of a tempting summer breeze. She's just a whisper an immortal secret of intimate desire found in the quiet moment of a shared glance that lasted but a second but will haunt me for eternity for I never got to love her. I don't even know her name just her unspoken whisper. I'm just a whisper.

No Other
If I could have just one wish, I would wish to wake up everyday to the sound of your breath on my neck, the warmth of your lips on my cheek, the touch of your fingers on my skin, and the feel of your heart beating with mine... Knowing that I could never find that feeling with anyone other than you.

Prayers
I have an update for all of those who care... my aunt whom recently passed away in Florida did in fact commit suicide. She called her brother and asked him if he would pick up her baby for a little while and by the time he got there she had shot herself in the head... I appreciate everyones prayers and ask that you continue to pray for my cousins and the rest of my family. hugs to all! Sabrina

Wwe Wrestling Fans
i have started a wwe wrestling fans lounge its been rocking every night since i made it the 19th of november. we got tons of wrestlers entrance theme music and wrestlers videos to watch plus a great group of wrestling fans. click on jeff hardy he loves to play ruff, check out my wrestling lounge below

A Promise Of Love
GOD IS LOVE, HE DOESN'T HAVE IT, HE IS LOVE. GOD HEARS OUR PRAYERS AND IF WE KNOW THAT HE HEARS OUR PRAYERS THAN WE KNOW WE HAVE WHAT WE PRAY. GOD'S WILL IS HIS WORD WHAT DOES THE WORD THE BIBLE SAY? HE WANTS US HEALED, PROSPEROUS AND TO HAVE LIFE MORE ABUNDANTLY. Poverty is not the will of God for any believer. Despite this truth, some people have taken a "vow of poverty." Some Christians believe that poverty is part of being holy and righteous. This is far from the truth. Poverty has nothing to do with godliness. To be poor or impoverished means, "to be without; in lack; deprived." You and I don't serve a God of lack and insufficiency. He's the God of the exceeding and abundant Who wants to lavish you with His goodness (Ephesians 3:20). From Genesis to Revelation, the Bible proves that poverty goes against everything God desires for believers. Poverty is a spirit designed to keep believers in financial bondage. The devil uses this spirit to hinder Christians from prosperin

Lokkin For A Fu-wife!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hey ladies.....im lookin for someone to be my Fu-Wife.....now its not gonna be that simple.....there r certain qualities im looking for.... 1) u have to be good lookin 2) u cant be a bitch 3) u cant have another Fu- anything 4) u must have a badass personality 5) u must have quite a few pics (at least 20) 6) u have to be real with me thats about it....i will announce the winner in another bulliten next friday......so send me comments or messages or anything u think will win u the right to be my Fu-wife...........let the games begin!!!!!!

Ronpaullibrary.org
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Always Love You
Before I met you, I was badly hurt from relationships that fell apart, I didn't wanna live no more I just wanted an end, I thought nothing could cure me, My heart would never mend. You walked into my problems and made them go away, I didn't wanna be with you, 'Cause I thought you'd hurt me someday. I gave you a chance to see if that was true, But something was different and you were something new. Now, I know what your love is truly about, your sweet, honest, and loveable, something I can't live without. I hope that this love will last, Because you know I'll always love you, I hope we'll never part, because I know you love me too...

The Words That Are Simplest
The words that are simplest And easiest to understand Are the most powerful: I love you, I want to be with you always, You're the best thing that ever happened to me. My heart flows like a river, Spilling its emotions into a sea In which the truth moves unseen, Swimming with silent grace, Too monstrous for light or land. The truth feeds on words, The most powerful words, The words that are simplest And easiest to understand.

Worst Day Ever
Ok...where shall I start? Well, a couple days ago, I was basically molested by someone I work with. I trusted him and he took advantage of that. I wasn't going to say anything because, well, I just wanted it to all go away. Yesterday someone I am really close to came with me when I reported it. Now, there is an inquiry open here at work and I will be meeting with our Employee Relations department sometime soon. Basically, I realized that I'm too nice. People always seem to misconstrue being nice with flirting.

My Nsfw Pics
OK, get this, I had to delete my NSFW pics because MY finacees EX-FUCKING-HUSBAND invades her privacy, he got on HER profile and snooped thru MY profile! I am the one that gets yelled at! All I have to say is, IF SNOOPY MOTHERFUCKERS WOULD RESPECT OTHER PEOPLES PRIVACY, WE WOULD ALL BE MUCH FUCKING HAPPIER!! JESSE, STAY THE FUCK OUT OF MINE AND TESSA'S BUSINESS. YOU ARE HER FUCKED UP EX-HUSBAND, DEAL WITH THAT FACT YOU STUPID DUMB FUCKHEAD!!!! I don't like the fact that I am the one that gets in trouble because of him. That is not really fair! I am not the one that left my profile open, I am not the one that poked my nose in where it did not belong nor was it wanted there! It is not fair that I don't get to see my fiancee till God knows when now. It is not fair that I have to sit here all goddamn day long wondering what is going on. No fucking wonder I feel forgotten! WHAT EVER!!!! OK, here is the update! Tess jumped his fat ass last night for invading her privacy (applau

The Day When "i" Becomes "we".
The day when "I" becomes "We". May be soon, maybe in a few years. I just hope that I maybe one who my "I" may become "We". I don't want to stay an "I" forever. I hope when that day comes it maybe the right "We", That it may never become "I" again. That it may be "ours" and not "mine". It's never fun being an "I"/ For the best day of my life will be when the "I" becomes "We" and "I" will never be.

My Birthdate
Your Birthdate: December 22 You don't love lightly. For you, love is always a serious undertaking. However, you are able to love many types of people. You can bring out the best in almost anyone. Love surprises you often. You never know when or where you'll find it next. Number of True Loves You'll Have: 4 Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 5 You are most compatible with people born on the 4th, 13th, 22nd, and 31st of the month. What Does Your Birth Date Mean For Your Love Life?

Perfect Love
Perfect love, Perfect trust, doesn't exist in a world of lust. old fasioned desired outdated by foolish games holding hands means nothing when you can't remember names. lips on cheeks, fingers in hair, are no longer gestures, to show you care. illusions of love, destroyed by what's real... teaches us to not trust what we feel.

So C@lled Luv
Life without you is cold I wish I had you here to hold Ever since you left me I've been so alone I see you watching me wheneva your around But instead of looking back at you I look at the ground,or i look awy, knowing your bitch ass won't stay (Yeah and I know your scared of commitment!)

Air
AIR I don’t care that you’re five I don’t care that you’re fifty Because I am more than just thrifty To the new I’m a donor To the pro I’m a shark I float them I sink them in the day and in dark I shine in the light Yet also when not And carry this rhythm that one can not stop I come to the mother lying in bed And go with the father when eyes blood shot red Due to the time I now can be mapped With your resources I’m purged and or trapped A love that is stronger more devoted than mine Came with me at time now you can ask why Michael T

Doin' It In The Shower
How To Shower Like a Woman: 1. Take off clothing and place it in sectioned laundry hamper according to lights and darks. 2. Walk to bathroom wearing long dressing gown. If you see your husband along the way, cover up any exposed flesh and rush to the bathroom. 3. Look at your womanly physique in the mirror and stick out your gut so that you can complain and whine even more about how you're getting fat. 4. Get in the shower. Look for face cloth, arm cloth, legcloth, long loofah, wide loofah and pumice stone. 5. Wash your hair once with Cucumber and Lamfrey shampoo with 83 added vitamins. 6. Wash your hair again with Cucumber and Lamfrey shampoo with 83 added vitamins. 7. Condition your hair with Cucumber and Lamfrey conditioner enhanced with natural crocus oil. Leave on hair for fifteen minutes. 8. Wash your face with crushed apricot facial scrub for ten minutes until red raw. 9. Wash entire rest of body with G

Oh Big Deal
WELL I GOT THE DAMN LAWER TO SEND ME TEN K OF THE 130 K THAT ARE THE PROCEEDS OF THE SALE OF MY OLD HOME, GAWD IM GETTIN HOT, HE TRYING TO CONVINCE ME THE CHECK HAS TO CLEAR BUT THE TITLE CO CALLED ME BACK AND HE DEPOSITED IT AND IT CLEARED LAST TUESDAY. A GUESS THE THE STATE BAR ASSOCIATION IS MY NEXT MOVE , I BELIVE THE THIS WOULD BE CONCIDERED AN ETHICS MATTER.

St. Peter's Spicy Christmas!
Three men die in a car accident Christmas Eve. They all find themselves at the pearly gates waiting to enter Heaven. On entering they must present something Christmas-y. The first man searches his pocket, and finds some mistletoe, so he is allowed in. The second man presents a Christmas card, so he is also allowed in. The third man pulls out a pair of panties. Confused at this last gesture, St. Peter asks, "How do these represent Christmas?" He answered, "They're Carol's."

Become A Man
Why do you hide and run? Was it because we were getting close? Maybe you need to get over it. Become a man and stop hidding! Is it beacause you can't truely admit your feelings? Was it because you felt threatened by others? Maybe you need to grow up, become a man! I don't know why your acting this way But deep down I know what you need to do. You need to become a man. A man who doesn't feel threatened by others. A man who wont run and hide. A man who will tell me what is going on. A man who will tell me the way he truely feels. But what I truely want is the man I fell in love with.

Bullshit Intolerance
Oh my fucking God!!!! I am about to fucking snap. I am a gimp, more or less, depending on whom you ask, so why do I have to work so damn hard? My landlord don't do the work that he's required by law to do, and when I ask, he gets pissy. I offer to do the work if he provides materials, again, pissy. Well, I ain't playin' no more fuckin' stupid-ass games. I ain't got time. I'll fight to the death with the next fuck who doesn't wanna step up and do their respective job. Now I got issues with the in-laws, fuckin' bullshit storm in the works. They gave my sister-in-law, a fuckin' drunk, whore, crackhead $4,000 for bail money. These asswipes STOLE $30,000 from my wife, but now, when we need some help, they tell her to fuck off. And I'm NOT supposed to get pissed? Hello, is this Earth? What the fucking hell? To think I promised NOT to kill.......

Who Would Want This Sent To Them...
"love when lites down low like this i get to find ur places u love to be touched huh bet i can find ur g spot 3 min and have u cumin in my hand in 5 smile what ya think baby" i was left this comment on a msg of my face.....i was not happy adn wonder, do women get off getting comments like this....i was disgusted....and let him know..

Top 10 Things Only Women Understand
10. Cats' facial expressions. 9. The need for the same style of shoe in different colors. 8. Why bean sprouts aren't just weeds. 7. Fat clothes. 6. Taking a car trip without trying to beat your last time. 5. The difference between beige, off-white and eggshell. 4. Cutting your bangs to make them grow. 3. Romantic stuff like mushy cards and flowers. 2. The inaccuracy of every bathroom scale ever made. And the number one thing only women understand: 1. Other women!

Journal 11/29/2007
Hey all. Nice to see some new and some not so new friends on my page. Wish someone would comment and say hi. I am getting a little lonely here! What's the deal people! Holidays around my house have been going pretty well. I am trying to be a jovial person. Some times that is hard because I don't really get along with my "outlaws." They are just not my kind of people. They are always concerned with money, material things and also what people think of them. To tell you the truth, sometimes I really don't care what people think of me. I guess it depends on the situation. If it has to do with the way people see my at work, then I guess I do care. But if it has to do with how people see me in my personal life, well then, I am a bit less concerned. One thing is for sure, we are not going to please or be liked by everyone. In fact, probally most people will have a problem with us if we are not the way they want us to be. Life is not always the way we want it to be. At least for me i

Something To Ponder
In life, it is so easy to forget the small things that are so important. We instinctively focus on the bad. If we could all, for just a moment, step out and away from ourselves, and just be thankful for the simple things that we have been given, it would make such a huge difference in our lives. We all make mistakes, we all have heartaches, but it can only make us stronger. Live for the future, don't live in the past. Take every waking moment and live life like there will be no tomorrow. There is only so much that can bring you down yet so much more that can bring you back again.

The Real Life Exboyfriend
yeah thats right he's been harrassing me on here for a while now so its time to add his dumbass to the pervs and jerks of fubar. his name is robby and he refuses to accept that ashtin is his and hasnt paid a lick of childsupport since ashtin was born. he keeps dodgeing the childsupport people and postponeing court dates for whatever reasons they wont tell me. i suggest just block him my friends before he moves on to harrassing ya'll. prelude mad man@ fubar

Do More
Do more ~Tony Martinez I sit here Lump in my throat My mind races My body aches I want to reach out to you I want to Do more You ask for time and nothing else Take all the time you need i'm not going anywhere I still feel so helpness So powerless So here I remain In the dark Always behind you Ever ready to catch you To support you To love you I just wish I could Do more.

Horoscope For 11/29
You've got easy days sometimes and then there are days like today. People are recalcitrant, the buses don't run on time and those pigeons seem to be looking at you funny. Things get better soon! ****well the way the last few days have been it couldnt be too much worse lol

You Are My Love
When you smile The whole world melts away My worries disappear If only just for a moment And my heart warms Nothing else matters When you smile When you hold me There’s nowhere else I’d rather be Time comes to a halt You are the only one That captures my gaze I pray you’ll never let go When you hold me When we kiss The planets collide The earth trembles And sparks still fly Each time our lips touch I am at your mercy When we kiss. You are my love You hold the sun and moon And the stars in your eyes You stole my heart With one look And it will always be yours You are my love.

Surveys And Offers
***REPOST FROM SCRAPPERS BLOG*** I hear a lot of whining going on about surveys and offers, so I'm going to attempt to inject a little common sense here: *What does "pending" mean?* Pending shows up in your fuBank after you have clicked on a survey or offer. This DOES NOT mean that you completed the offer and are waiting for the award. You may even take a half hour to try and prequalify for the survey, but it tells you you did not qualify. Unfortunately, you will not receive points for this, even though your fuBank will report it as "Pending". *****copied from Tiffany "The Intern's" blog!***** As a safeguard, if you complete a survey or offer, take a screen grab of the completed offer that shows you have COMPLETELY AND FULLY finished the entire survey and will be awarded the points. Just as if you were going to purchase something online, you need to print out or screen grab that page as your RECEIPT. This is really your only proof that you finished the survey if you need t

How Can Life Get Any Better
You sit and think to yourself. How can life get any better? Then your walking hand in hand with the one you love. You stand in amazement and say to yourself, How can life get any better? Then your there in his arms. Then you sigh and ask yourself, How can life get any better? Then he slowly lifts your chin and softly kisses your lips. In a breathless voice you ask him, How can life get any better? With a slow smile, he goes down to one knee, How can life get better? Marry me! and Ill show you how. With a tear in your eye, you say yes! Life can only get better now.

Martial Law In A Nutshell--15 Questions
Martial Law in a Nutshell--15 Questions By Mary Maxwell, Ph.D. Online Journal Contributing Writer http://onlinejournal.com/artman/publish/printer_160.shtml Nov 9, 2005, 00:21 1. Q: Is it likely that martial law is imminent in the U.S.? A: Yes. The way has been partially cleared for it legally by the Homeland Security Act, that 'grandfathered in' the whole of a secret 1979 executive order dealing with emergency rule. One legal hurdle to martial law still remains, namely, the Posse Comitatus Act of 1878, which explicitly forbids soldiers to participate in domestic law enforcement. However, Congress could easily annul the Posse Comitatus Act, and is being pressured by the attorney general and the Pentagon to do just that. 2. Q: What is martial law? A: In popular usage, martial law means that some or all civil liberties are suspended. For example, there could be a curfew, which would prevent people from exercising their normal liberty to walk around after 9 p.m. Legally,

Re: New Bin Laden "confession" Tape: Fake Like The Rest?
RE: New Bin Laden "Confession" Tape: Fake Like The Rest? ----------------- Bulletin Message ----------------- From: Paul Joseph Watson Date: 29 Nov 2007, 22:14 New Bin Laden "Confession" Tape: Fake Like The Rest? In a "new" audio tape broadcast today on Al-Jazeera television, Osama Bin Laden confesses that he was solely responsible for the attacks on 9/11 and that it was unjust for the United States to have invaded Afghanistan. http://infowars.net/articles/november2007/291107Laden.htm

Acceptance
Silver pieces glitter in the moonlight as she walks the pathway alone. Familiar pieces of silver yet they are not silver but pieces of her shattered mirror of her world. Scattered throughout the path on the day that Shadow broke it when an act of betrayal damaged her soul. A soul many say is wonderful yet she feels so alone. Some say she is their light, however she wonders how could she be that. They see something she is not sure of anymore. Not sure of what to believe, how to believe, or even feel. Moonlight hits the path, trying to guide her even though she has walked off the path to turn away from a memory in that shattered mirror piece. As she would step off the path, her wolf with those majestic amber eyes would brush his head against her leg to make her look at the mirror piece. Shadow would glance then turn away still not sure of what she saw. She strokes Hunter's head and looks up at the midnight blue sky. So blue. Blue reflects so many aspects: lonliness, happiness, sadness

Points Not Accumulating And Stuck At 99%
***REPOST OF SCRAPPERS BLOG*** Fubarbarians! Points not adding up?? = VERIFY YOUR EMAIL or SUBMIT A SALUTE! fubar will not allow members to accumulate points when "stuck at 99%" because it caused a problem with leveling up. NOW, your points will FREEZE until you submit one of the level requirements: by level 3, you need to have a verified email, or your account will FREEZE. By level 10, you need to have submitted a salute and have it approved, or your level will FREEZE. If your email gets blacklisted and thus unverified, at any level, your level and points will freeze until you reverify. Any points/fubucks earned while you are frozen will NOT be added retroactively. This includes all points earned by rating, completing surveys, and the like. If you purchase blasts, tickers, and happy hours while you are frozen, and do not accumulate points while they run because you are frozen, they will not be refunded. If you really care about your level, please be aware of it at

Nsfw Flagging Abuse And Guidelines
REMEMBER..this is a repost of blogs written by Scrapper. Please don't leave me NSFW comments here, they will be deleted and you will be blocked. This is me trying to clarify for you, the NSFW guidelines. You may also refer to the FAQ sections for this. If you have a question about this, please feel free to leave it here in the comments section and I will do my best to reply to it. If you have something constructive to say then by all means leave it here. I'm counting on you all to behave as adults. ***************************************************** The first part to this is a repost of SCRAPPERS blog. The second part is additional information that should help you flag NSFW pics properly. *************************************************** Fubarians: Most of you are smart enough to use common sense here, but for the those of you who need more clarification. 1. DON'T Maliciously flag photos or you will be deleted. We have a NO tolerance policy. If you see an excessi

Let The Tears Come
What do you do when you relize he is slowly slipping away? You just let the tears come. Then you hope and pray that the tears catch him. And if that doesnt work then you just let him go. What do you do when life seems to be going against you? You can let the tears come. Then you can just go with the flow. Or you can fight with all your might and get to where you want to be. What do you do when you feel as if your invisable? You let your tears come. Then you can stay in that invisable state. Or you can make yourself seen!

As Ive Matured
As I've Matured... I've learned that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is stalk them and hope they panic and give in... I've learned that one good turn gets most of the blankets. I've learned that no matter how much I care, some people are just jackasses. I've learned that it takes years to build up trust, and it only takes suspicion, not proof, to destroy it. I've learned that whatever hits the fan will not be evenly distributed. I've learned that you shouldn't compare yourself to others - they are more screwed up than you think. I've learned that depression is merely anger without enthusiasm. I've learned that it is not what you wear; it is how you take it off. I've learned that you can keep vomiting long after you think you're finished. I've learned to not sweat the petty things, and not pet the sweaty things. I've learned that ex's are like fungus, and keep coming back. I've learned age is

Cheesy Chicken And Rice Casserole
NGREDIENTS * 4 skinless, boneless chicken breast halves - cut into bite size pieces * salt and pepper to taste * 2 cups cooked white rice * 1 (10.75 ounce) can condensed cream of chicken soup * 2 cups shredded Cheddar cheese * 3 slices soft white bread, cubed number of stars READ REVIEWS (136) * Review/Rate This Recipe * Save To Recipe Box * Add to Shopping List * Add a Personal Note * Post a Recipe Photo * Post a Favorite Food List * Create a Menu DIRECTIONS 1. Preheat oven to 350 degrees F (175 degrees C). 2. To Cook Chicken: Season chicken with salt and pepper to taste, place in a microwave-safe dish, cover and cook in microwave for 5 to 6 minutes. Turn and cook another 2 to 3 minutes or until cooked through and no longer pink inside. Let cool. 3. In a 9x13 inch baking dish, combine chicken, rice and soup and mix well. Top with cheese, then with bread cubes. 4. Bake at 350 degrees F (175

Opening Up About My Illness
y: Today like many days is not a good day for me. As I prepare to go sit in a tub of extremely hot water to try to get some type of relief my spirit is weak and tired. The pain is often intense and has not subsided since I was stricken with this disease. When I was 23 years old, I was diagnosed with Interstitial Cystitis. Interstitial Cystitis (IC) is a chronic inflammatory condition of the bladder, its cause is unknown. Unlike common cystitis, IC is not caused by bacteria and does not respond to conventional antibiotic therapy. IC can affect people of any age, race or sex. Recent epidemiological data suggest that there may be greater than 700,000 cases of IC in the US. The disease has left my bladder scarred, stiff and thin and because of this, urine toxins leak into my surrounding tissues. I experience the following symptoms daily, day frequency of urination, the sensation of having to urinate immediately, which may also be accompanied by pain, pressure or spasms, testicular, scro

The Entire Story.....
Ok, Ive debated this off and on all damn day. Didnt know whether or not to blog it but oh freaking well. This is my blog lol Im not a very well person. It's no wonder Im single and stay that way. I just got another call from my respiratory specialist today. I guess she didnt like the oxygen test she got the other day so the doctor ordered a more extensive test to be done tomorrow. This is just not gettin any better. This list of things wrong with me just keeps growing and growing. Here we go: I have GERD, hiatal hernis, damaged lungs, a blockage in one of my lungs, sleep apnea (I sleep with a CPAP machine now) and this is on top of the problems mentally that are already wrong with me. It seems it is getting worse instead of better :( Im about to the point of saying to hell with it and giving up. I make changes to make things better and it only seems to get worse. I dont get it at all. I know this sounds like a bunch of whining and it very well may be lol It is however NOT a cry f

Florentine Curried Chicken
NGREDIENTS * 2 (10.75 ounce) cans condensed cream of chicken soup * 1/2 cup creamy salad dressing * 1 tablespoon lemon juice * 1 tablespoon curry powder * 3 (10 ounce) packages frozen chopped spinach, thawed and drained * 8 skinless, boneless chicken breast halves * 1 teaspoon paprika * 2 (8 ounce) packages shredded Monterey Jack cheese number of stars READ REVIEWS (22) * Review/Rate This Recipe * Save To Recipe Box * Add to Shopping List * Add a Personal Note * Post a Recipe Photo * Post a Favorite Food List * Create a Menu DIRECTIONS 1. Preheat oven to 350 degrees F (175 degrees C). 2. In a medium bowl, thoroughly blend soup, creamy salad dressing, lemon juice, and curry powder. 3. On the bottom of a 9x13 inch dish, spread squeezed spinach evenly. Place chicken on top of spinach. Pour soup mixture over top of chicken so that all is covered, then sprinkle with paprika. Spread cheese o

A Girls Tears (girls Relationship With Guys)
No need to ask what the tears are for. Each tear explains the reason why they are there. They start to come a little faster. No need to ask who caused them. Each little tear shouts the name loud and clear. They start to come a little faster. No need to ask what each tear is trying to do. For each little tear is trying to help mend the broken heart. They start to come faster. No need to ask how the tears can be stopped. For each little tear is pleading for someone to help them. They start to fall a little faster.

Old Relationships
Im tired of guessing how people feel.I know how i feel well most the time any way.I think im gonna give up on the whole love thing and just stick with wat i got. I think ex's are ex's for a reason and should prabably stay that way and well since i am married i probably should put my effort into this relationship instead of hoping to find somethin better..

My Grandma
My Grandma may not have been pretty to the world, But she was a million bucks to me. My Grandma may not have been the world's hero, But she was my hero. My Grandma may of not fed the world, But she fed me much. My Grandma may of not taught the world how to live, But she taught me how to live right. My Grandma may of not taught the world how to love, But she taught me a great deal on how to love. My Grandma may of not been perfect in the world's eyes, But she was the most perfect person in my eyes. For she may of not been the world's Grandma, But she was mine! *~*In memory of my Grandma Marge*~*

My Opionon
ok 1st i posted a a photo of ppl picketing with signs about deads and thank god for dead soldgers i thank those ppl are idiots and it is wrong to say thank god dead soldgers thay r the ones who give us our freedom nobody else we all should be greatful to them 4 it . so to all of you who have thougt your self so smart by chowing my ass next time no what the hell your talking about before you speak . and for the ones who never learn that lesson fu if you don't know by now how i stand on this subject delete me and kiss my ass . thanks for listening ann

Far Away
Even though you're faraway You have been near. You're in my heart Where I hold you dear. We share the laughter We shed a tear. Separated by land A thousand miles apart. Yet close in our hearts God wont let us part. He brought us together Far In our time of need. We're so alike You and me. Like the stars above I will shine With your friendship And love for all time

Elf-zilla
So in my manic attempts to be a fun and winsome step mom I signed onto the committee for the children's Santa Ball Luncheon @ work. Planning and plotting begin- wicked crazy fun cool stuff in bloom. Costumes purchased. I laugh (suckers!) Am drawn to Gingerbread man full body foam-y suit with the primary desire to scream giggling "Not my gumdrop buttons" & "You monster!". Was rebuffed in that eerie Jedi way by the panel of uber mom. (Jedi being that it takes about 4 hours to go- "Oh man- that's my dick in the dirt"...) Minutes of meeting come out and to my horror and dismay realize that I was elected Santa's special helper elf. Ummmm ok. I'm 6'0", and amazon with an array of tattoo's and funky dyed black hair. Why me? Tonya claims irony. Jen claims Sadism. I'll be Elf-zilla, if only for the curly toed belled shoes that tinkle jingle ring as I walk. Oddly it seems that I have convinced a vast majority of the Polish mafia to bring their lil' people with the lure of Lizzzylock elfzilla & c

Taser Test
I know people who would do this!!! Maybe this should be titled “Are you smarter than a 5th grader” Taser Classic...don't tell me you can read this without laughing... (Only a guy would do this!) A guy who purchased his lovely wife a pocket taser for their anniversary submitted this : Last weekend at Larry's Pistol & Pawn Shop I was looking for a little something extra for my wife Toni. What I came across was a 100,000-volt pocket/purse-sized taser. The effects of the taser were supposed to be short lived, with no long-term adverse affect on an assailant. The idea is to allow my wife -- who would never consider a gun --adequate time to retreat to safety. WAY TOO COOL!! Long story short, I bought the device and brought it home. I loaded in two triple-a batteries and pushed the button. Nothing! I was disappointed. But then I read (yes, 'read') that if I pushed the button AND pressed it against a metal surface at the same time;

My First Grandson April 18, 2001-july 15th, 2001
This story is going to be about Elijah, his mother and his low life dad. The day Elijah was born Penny (my girlfriend at the time) and I were the first ones to the hospital. When we got to the room she was in the door was closed and the nurse caught us at the door and said John (the father) and my daughter were talking and could we wait a few minutes. We stood outside the door a few minutes and all we could hear was him yelling at her for having him. He had wanted her to have an abortion. I was pissed and finally just walked in and told him to get the fuck out of here and don't come back till we leave. We started getting Elijah when he was 2 weeks old and would get him for the weekend every 2 weeks and sometimes we would just go get him whenever. He was my pride and joy. We went and got him the weekend before we left to go to Gettysburg for our vacation and a few hours before his mother came to pick him up I laid him on my chest on the couch and we took a nap together. It w

Yeah...
I'm putting up another Improv song I did, better quality then the other one, but not by much, its a min. longer, it sorta flows but not really, its more a part by part piece rather then it all connecting... probably because I didn't put any thought into it like always... -_- I dunno, I hope at least a couple people listen too it, and tell me what they truely think of it. If it sucks, it sucks, if its good, well, yay, either way lemme know people. Thanks! :)

Want To Say To The Sisterhood
This lovely family made a 100 sisters yesterday tho I am no longer a sister of the family (my choice) I want to tell SuperStarrPrincess, Drkreflections, Sweetheart Princess, Agem4life you all have done such a wonderful job and I love you guys and I am sorry I couldnt make it to the lounge last night to help celebrate I wasnt one....I will stop by one night soon

The Night Before Christmas – Naughty Version
The Night Before Christmas – Naughty version Twas the night before Christmas, and God it was neat. The kids were both gone, and my wife was in heat. The doors were all bolted, the phone off the hook, It was time for some nooky, by hook or by crook. Momma in her teddy and I in the nude, Had just hit the bedroom and reached for the lube. When out on the lawn there arose such a cry, That I lost my boner, and momma went dry. Up to the window I sprang like an elf, Tore back the shade while she played with herself. The moon on the crest of the snowman we'd built, Showed a broom up his ass, clean up to the hilt. When what to my wondering eyes should appear, But a rusty old sleigh and eight mangey reindeer. With a fat little driver, half out of the sled, A sock in his ear and a bra on his head. Sure as I'm speaking, he was high as a kite, And he yelled to his team, but it didn't sound right. Woa Shithead, woa Asshole, woa Stupid, woa Putz, Either slow down this rig or I

Music Reaching Your Soul
Sometimes you find that one song or one artist that really gets you right in your soul. Sometimes it's the entire album.. not one bad song.. every song has a deep meaning to you. It's so deep you're in awe every time you hear it. Amazed that someone could be so talented. So deep. So full of powerful energy that you can't stop listening to them. You keep playing it over and over and even when it's overplayed by radio standards, you still get the same feeling you had the first time it hit you. It's like a drug. Overtaking your mind for the 4 minutes it plays. It changes your entire mood even if only for those 4 minutes, but hopefuly longer. If you are lucky enough to find this music, embrace it. I'm not talking about that one song on the radio that's cool at first then it's overplayed til you hate the artist. Commercial crap is okay.. don't get me wrong.. but I'm not talkin that.. I'm talkin the true artists. The real singers n poets. Not the bullshit studio*only*can't*perfor

'twas The Night Before Christmas - Ebonics Version
'Twas The Night Before Christmas - Ebonics Version Twas da night befo' Christmas and all in the hood Not a homie was stirring cuz it was all good The tube socks was hung on the window sill and we all had smiles up on our grill Mookie and BeBe was snug in the crib in the back bedroom cuz that's how we live and moms in her do-rag and me with my nine had just gotten busy cuz girlfriend is fine All of a sudden a lowrider rolled by Bumpin phat beats cuz the system's fly I bounced to the window at a quarter pas' Bout ready to pop a cap in somebody's-- well anyway I yelled to my lady, Yo peep this! She said, Stop frontin just mind yo' bidness I said, for real doe, come check dis out We weren't even buggin, no worries, no doubt Cuz bumpin an thumpin' from around da way Was Santa, 8 reindeer and a sleigh Da beats was kickin, da ride was phat I said, Yo red Dawg, you all that! He threw up a sign and yelled to his boyz, "Ay yo, give it up, let's m

Twisted Lyrics . . . . When The Saints Come Marching In
When the Saints Come Marching In (Sung to When the Saints Go Marching In) Oh when the saints, come marching in, all wearing red and drinking gin. You'd better stand back, Mr. Shopper, When the saints come marching in.

I'm Happy
OK.. so little things make me happy lol. I just got an Email from one of the main writers for baseball on ESPN.com. He liked my thoughts and comments I had made about the upcoming Mitchell Report and wanted to tell me. I am such a baseball nut lol.

Twisted Lyrics . . . . Favorite Things
Favorite Things (Sung to My Favorite Things) Halogen uplights and big-muscled fellas Pink puffy draperies and drinks with umbrellas Brown Puerto Rican boys tied up with string These are a few of my favorite things Penthouse magazine and silicone breasts Girls dressed in leather with tatoos on their chests Blonde lesbo orgies, a quick mid-day fling, These are a few of my favorite things. When the whip cracks (oww) When the cane stings (ooo) When I'm feeling bad I just think of a few of my favorite things, And then I get hard...for Dad.

Big Things In The Small World
You know I always say it's a small world and that's why I don't lie about ish.. you always know someone that knows someone or see someone in a place you wouldn't think you'd see.. I don't need to get all caught up! lol! The small world gets a lot of people in trouble (not me.. I'm a good girl)... but it also works in good ways... One little hello can lead you into a whole new world of friends and experiences. Finding things you never thought you'd see, hear or feel before.. being touched in ways you never have been touched.. finding some of the best things in life.. ~M

Male Beer Warning!
WHEN YOU GET TO THE END, CLICK ON THE LINK FOR THE DEMO! Police are warning all men who frequent clubs, parties & local pubs to be alert and stay cautious when offered a drink from any woman. Many females use a date rape drug on the market called "Beer". The drug is found in liquid form and is available anywhere. It comes in bottles, cans, or from taps and in large "kegs". Beer is used by female sexual predators at parties and bars to persuade their male victims to go home and sleep with them. A woman needs only to get a guy to consume a few units of Beer and then simply ask him home for no strings attached sex. Me n are rendered helpless against this approach. After several beers, men will often succumb to the desires to sleep with horrific looking women whom they would never normally be attracted. After drinking beer, men often awaken with only hazy memories of exactly what happened to them the night before, often with just a vague feeling that "something bad" occurred

Long Survey
A Long Survey By MeThe BasicsName::Christine Nicknames::Lucky, Shorty Age::19 Birthday::4/18 Place of Birth::Ogden, UT Gender::Females Eye Color::Blue Happy with it?::Yes If not, what would you change it to?::Red Hair Color::Black Happy with it?::Yes If not, what would you change it to?::I already have Hair Length::Sholders Nationality::Hispanic Height::5 ft Are you happy with it?:Yes Weight/Body Type::Normal Are you happy with it?:Yes Best Feature::Eyes Shoe Size::7 Woman Ring Size::7 Piercings::13 Tattoos::2 Where you named after anyone?:A Killer Car What hertage is your last name?:German Do you have any siblings?:Yes, an older and younger sister How many?:2 How old are they?:16 & 20 Parents still together?:No Live with parents?:No Do you get along with your family?:Yes, for the most part

I Know, And I'll Be Back
If actor Harrison Ford hadn't adlibbed his line just before the character he played, Han Solo, in 1980's "The Empire Strikes Back" (the second released, but the fifth in chronological order Star Wars film) was lowered into the carbon freezing pit, he might be known for saying "I'll be back" rather than Arnold Schwarzenegger's Terminator in that 1984 movie. Just before Solo was lowered -- in real life, this was to eliminate Ford's character in the possible event he couldn't come back for the 1983 sequel "Return of the Jedi" -- for cold storage, Leia shouts out "I love you" to him and in the movie Solo replies "I know". George Lucas et. al. must have figured the adlib worked better than "I'll be back" which was originally in the script, because Han and Leia have the same exchange at the shield bunker in "Jedi", but he initiates it! That's one of many interesting things I didn't know about the Star Wars saga revealed in Stephen J. Sansweet and Peter Vilmur's "The Star Wars Vault" (IS

Twisted Lyrics . . . . Crashing Thru The Snow
Crashing thru the snow (Sung to Dashing through the Snow) Crashing through the snow In a one horse open sleigh O'er the cliff we go Shreiking all the way Bells and sirens ring Marking where we crashed They put us in intensive care They don't think we will last Jingle bells, funeral bells, ringing all the way Oh what fools we were to ride in that one horse open sleigh Jingle bells, funeral bells, ringing all the way Oh what fools we were to ride in that one horse open sleigh

A Different Christmas Poem
The embers glowed softly, and in their dim light, I gazed round the room and I cherished the sight. My wife was asleep, her head on my chest, My daughter beside me, angelic in rest. Outside the snow fell, a blanket of white, Transforming the yard to a winter delight. The sparkling lights in the tree I believe, Completed the magic that was Christmas Eve. My eyelids were heavy, my breathing was deep, Secure and surrounded by love I would sleep. In perfect contentment, or so it would seem, So I slumbered, perhaps I started to dream. The sound wasn't loud, and it wasn't too near, But I opened my eyes when it tickled my ear. Perhaps just a cough, I didn't quite know, Then the sure sound of footsteps outside in the snow. My soul gave a tremble, I struggled to hear, And I crept to the door just to see who was near. Standing out in the cold and the dark of the night, A lone figure stood, his face weary and tight. A soldier, I puzzled, some twenty years old, Perhaps a M

Twisted Lyrics . . . . The Christmas Song
The Christmas Song (Sung to Chestnuts Roasting on an Open Fire) Claymore bursting on perimeters, shrapnel ripping through the snow, Santa Claus clutching a hole in his side, and elf parts with mistletoe. Looks like Santa didn't know the password, or maybe Rudolph tripped a wire, there's bloody toys and goodies, all roasting in the fire, in what was Santa's sleigh. Napalm streaming out of F-16s, tracers light up the sky, that'll teach you a lesson, you fat S.O.B., Merry Christmas, now die!

Twisted Lyrics . . . . Rudolph The Red Hosed Reindeer
Rudolph the Red Hosed Reindeer (Sung to Rudolph the Red Nosed Reindeer) Rudolph the red hosed reindeer had a very shiney hose and if you ever saw it, you would really say oh WHOH! All of the other reindeer, used to cringe and call him names (like Stiffy) they never let poor Rudolph play any kinky reindeer games (your too big!) Then one foggy christmas eve Missus Santa came to say, Rudolph with your hose so right wont'cha hose me down tonight Then how the reindeer loved her and as they shouted out in glee santa came in to say Rudolph you're History Rudolph you're history

How Sweet Is This...
This was created for me by my friend Robert. "Special eyes of a friend" Bright and sparkling Perfect in every way Beyond all description Portals into your heart Blazing and brilliant Full of sweetness Compassion abounds So clear and like mirrors Shimmering and glimmering Painting a special picture Sensitive, caring and kind Just like two perfect flowers Intense and warm Twin eternal flames flickering Love and compassion alive in them Showing life's greatest pleasures Gazing into them brings thoughts Of a very special lady One of kind miracle A very special friend

Twisted Lyrics . . . . White Christmas
White Christmas (Sung to White Christmas) I'm dreaming of a white Christmas Just like Hiroshima and Nagasaki Where a nuclear holocaust Creates a global frost And rats sit in hot tubs drinking sake I'm dreaming of a white Christmas With every billion people born May you view overpopulation with scorn And my all your Christmases have porn

Twisted Lyrics . . . . White Christmas
White Christmas (Sung to White Christmas) I'm dreaming of a white Christmas, just like the ones I used to know. Where the tree stumps glisten, and the children listen, on cell phones for good deals on blow. Everybody knows, somebody with missing teeth. Piles of trash out on the lawn, tiny tots beaten black and blue, and Mama selling men her soul. Street gangs drive by and open fire, officer blue blows off your nose. And though it has been sad, many hours of the day, Scary Christmas to you.

Are You Livin Your Dreams?
*Written on 5/24/07* Are you???? Sometimes I think about my friends and how some of them are truly living their dreams and how that must feel. It doesn't necessarily mean they are totally happy with their lives or themselves but that can be worked on.. what's important is that they are doing something they love to do and they set their mind to do it and made it happen!!! It doesn't have to be some crazy dream.. I don't know any astronauts or elephant trainers.. but they are truly doing something that makes them happy and very special. Money has nothing to do with it.. some are not livin large.. but they are ENJOYING what they are doing. I'm so incredibly proud of my friends!! It blows my mind what some of them have accomplished!! Sometimes I'm jealous! lol. Who wouldn't be.. It's time for me to start living!!! Eff this workin to live shit!! I'm tired of not living to live!!!! Ohh.. don't worry.. I'm not quittin my day job.. yet. lol. I'm gonna pick one of my dr

Another Update!
Ok so i thought it was time to do another blog. The last one i did was right after my real life boyfriend broke up with me..At the time i was having weird dreams about him and his new gf..i still am a lil..But its just me beatin the crap outta her..Nothing to do with him. I still got alot of stress in my life atm but it isnt as bad as it was while we were together. If you guys are unsure what happened read my last 3 blogs called comming to a end, continued and update. It gets easier and easier each day! I realized that i didnt miss HIM..i just missed someone being around!..Like i said in prior blogs..Hes HER problem now.. Sooo anyways..i met a really great guy on here. Hes simply amazing. I know the whole online thing dosent usually work but i guess its all up to the ppl in the relationship. If you want it to work it can!..Its not like we are 12 yrs old ya kno...anyways..he helped me through alot of the tough times..listened to me bitch about my problems and no matter how down i was

Three Bears
Baby bear goes downstairs, sits in his small chair at the table. He Looks into his small bowl. It is empty. 'Who's been eating my porridge?' he squeaks. Daddy Bear arrives at the big table and sits in his big chair. He looks into his big bowl and it is also empty. 'Who's been eating my porridge?!?' he roars. Mummy Bear puts her head through the serving hatch from the kitchen and yells, 'For God's sake, how many times do I have to go through this with you idiots? It was Mummy Bear who got up first. It was Mummy Bear who woke everyone in the house. It was Mummy Bear who made the coffee. It was Mummy Bear who unloaded the dishwasher from last night and put everything away. It was Mummy Bear who swept the floor in the kitchen. It was Mummy Bear who went out in the cold early morning air to fetch the newspaper and croissants. It was Mummy Bear who set the damn table 'It was Mummy Bear who walked The bloody dog, cleaned the cat's litter t

Twisted Lyrics . . . . Wreck The Halls
Wreck the Halls (Sung to Deck the Halls) Wreck the halls with bricks and hammers Fa-la-la-la-la la-la-la-la 'cause we're so mad at the landlord Fa-la-la-la-la la-la-la-la Don we now our shrapnel jackets Fa-la-la fa-la-la la-la-la Get the weapons, let 'im have it Fa-la-la-la-la la-la-la-la

Twisted Lyrics . . . . O Come All Ye Perverts
O come all ye perverts (Sung to O Come All Ye Faithful) O come all ye perverts Come and have an orgy O come ye, o cum ye In brothels galore Come and get plastered And let's find some ho-girls O come let us enjoy them O come let us enjoy them O come let us enjoy them In brothels galore

Gone Again.........
Wow...what a fast day off....Well looks as though I'm off for Dallas, TX. tomorrow morning. See you all On the Road!!!!! Be Good, and if you can't be good be CAREFUL!!!!!!! And to my Special Coloradian.... W-H-A-T-E-V-E-R! LMAO

Twisted Lyrics . . . . We Wish You A Merry Xmas
We Wish You A Merry Xmas (Sung to We Wish You a Merry Christmas) We wish you a Merry Christmas We wish you a Merry Christmas We wish you a Merry Christmas now bring us some beer! Refrain: Good tidings we bring to you and your kin; Good tidings for Christmas and we really do want some beer. Oh, bring us a frothy cold one; Oh, bring us a frothy cold one; Oh, bring us a frothy cold one; and some shots of good cheer Refrain We won't go until we get some, We won't go until we get some, We won't go until we get some, So bring some right here! (Repeat, repeat and repeat as often as necessary and with staunch determination until desired result is achieved!)

A Poem Of Sorts
emotions run high not enough time but a lifetime as well hard to express the feelings that i get complications surround me on a daily basis have to concentrate on things old and new trying to keep track of the things that are way past due a heart full of pain and some happiness as well sometimes life seems like such hell a big dark hole filled with confusion almost like a slap in the face at times too a huge fantastic part has begun a huge part that i would love to welcome another one too please let this be the end to such madness that has caused so much pain and suffering i long for the day when the tears fade away and the big bright sun shines down in my face.

Stainless Steel Rust
The laptop has been fixed and restored to its former glory. This time, im not going to piss about with it by trying to install XP on it, ill make do with ME.... So, only 9 days till we go on honeymoon to Spain. Its really strange because the time is flying by. Its just like when we were preparing to get married, the time just seemed to disappear, and the day ended far too soon. We wished it could have lasted forever, but alas, it didnt...life just doesnt work like that. And considering we're going on holiday for 5 days, its gonna zip by! I personally have never been on a plane. I dont think i'll mind flying, its the crashing that bothers me! Im sure all will be well but i cant help feeling a little nervous at the prospect of screaming through the skys in a huge metal tampon with wings....still, i cant really complain, at least I'm getting the chance. Yvvy's a bit more laid back about it, but she's still nervous...but not to the extent I am! I'm not even sure the plane