I'm not sad,nor am i angry just lost confused and its not making any sense to me. I get offers from men who want to rock my world but no offers to give me what i want what i really want i want someone to share my heartbeat. Not to marry just someone who can love me for me think i am the sun and moon i am more than willing to give my heart to someone it still has room for it and no its not the holidays that i feel this way. i feel this way everyday. i know i can give that man my friendship the love that he wants i proven it many times. its so easy to give your body away but so difficult to give your heart away. i know, i know that when i fall in love it took me a long time to feel it but when it finally came it was over, too late or never entered that mans mind. i want a man to get it, one who understands me or a woman for that matter a man that can rock my world and i would rock his the same. Many are looking for the same but i can't do the sex for need or the moment anymore i walk away even more lonely wanting more. yes it filled the moment but was it worth it no. i can't shrug my shoulders anymore and say it was good and move on to the next moment can't do it. won't do it. no want to wake up and after he leaves to go to work i can lay they're and still smell his scent in my bed sheets and i close my eyes and remember every touch and word.
the Men i met here the ones who get it who know already have what i long to have. your women are very lucky to have you and you them. bless you all.
Yes I've been bad but' its got to stop. i can be a bad girl but i am very girl girl too. to nice sometimes to giving a flaw that i can't let go of and the men that know that know it too well and walk away thinking so. And don't flatter me anymore yes it's nice to my ears but I'm average just average. there is nothing extorinary about me other than who i am.
