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Cocaine Kisses
what is this want? the burning desire to feel your lips on mine i can almost taste your breath i dream of it so vividly your kiss a guilty addiction every other set of lips i kiss a weak echo of yours your cocaine kisses call me so clearly i can feel your lips brush mine the feel of your bottom lip between my teeth and your hair running through my hands as i pull you closer into the kiss i pray for a new addiction to chase your taste off my lips but sadly it is only your lips i dream of and only your kiss that sparks a deep heat inside me

Sin 101
Hello my name is Sindy. You can call me Sindy or Sin and here is what you should know about me. 1. I'm very sweet until provoked 2. I'm a writer by trade and work in the IT Field 3. I love Greek and Egyptian Mythology...they are my favorite subjects 4. My favorite color is pink 5. My favorite food is Sushi 6. I love music...especially rock, classical and contemporary. My favs are G N R, Metallica (not st. anger ) Jeff Buckley, Three Days Grace...etc 7. I love my family and my friend Miso (she's on my page) and spending time with them..it's my fav thing to do. 2nd and 3rd would be reading and listening to my ipod. 8. I'm here to make friends...not to help you get off 9. Respect me and I will respect you 10. I really do like to get to know people. What you like, what you don't etc...So if you're looking for a nice person to talk to and possibly make a good friend then hit me up. If you're just trying to talk about some dumb shit then keep going. 11. If i did not ask to see y

Love Aka Legs Open Very Easily
yeah she'll daddy's grown girl, once u tell them i love u and quickly notice how fast them leg open. that is y i say legs open very easily. u can have a fight, with fist and all. little while later, u say, i love u. it could b growled c how fast shit happen. (fear might play an factor, i don't know) some times best prospects r ur sister friends, who r married, cuz they can't fuck with u without fuckin up their shit. real talk, u know who u r or was, probably married 2 the 2nd 1 and the 1 u married first don't even know. and if u really grimey, ur homeboy's gf ain't off limits, just make sure u can 1. fight 2. shoot and 3 is an optional, if the 1st 2 don't work, 3. move out of state and start over. if u do it right u won't have no one 2 blame 4 ur f-up. it also work 4 ugly guys 2 about 20 % if u broke and got a date rape drug. 99.9% guarantree , if u have block money, corner cheese, or a hood star, with a wicked jump shot. i never had a problem hook'em like a shark and make'em fee

New Issue Found On Atlantis' Removed Et Feed-through Connector
A new issue with Atlantis' External Tank LH2 Feed-through connector hardware will require further investigation, after cracks were found on the glass seal below the pins on ET-125's removed external connector. Image Above: Space shuttle Atlantis stands on Launch Pad 39A at NASA's Kennedy Space Center in Florida. Photo credit: NASA/George Shelton 1-8-08 At present, engineers do not believe it is related to the Engine Cut Off (ECO) system anomalies, as the process begins at the pad to install a replacement Feed-through connector system into the tank, in time to allow STS-122 to launch in early February. The surface cracks were observed on the vitreous glass seal, via initial inspections over the weekend at the Marshall Space Flight Center (MSFC). Engineers used a magnification of x50 to gain imagery of the 'crazed' cracks. The concern relates to the potential that unacceptable amounts of liquid hydrogen could leak through those cracks during ascent, whic

Crow & Crab
Murinbata (Australia) Hamns once got to choose how they would die.Crow and Crab demonstrated the alternatives. Crab's way of dying was to shed her hard shell, then crawl in her burrow until her new shell hardened. When Crab reemerged, Crow complained that Crab's way of dying was too slow. "This is how you die," said Crow and he immediately fell over backwards. Crab attempted to revive him, but he was dead. Humans selected Crow's demise over Crab's rebith. Only the first ancestors know what they were thinking!

Come And Join
The newest Group of hotties is here... The "SOUTHERN SEX SYMBOLS"... Open to both Cowboys and Cowgirls... To apply go to the "Southern Sex Symbols Group" page and read the blog "how to apply" Southern Sex Symbols Group@ fubar

I Am Fat
I'm fat, phat, thick, rubenesque, zoftig, heavyset, chunky, fat fat fat and D*mn proud of it. If you're confident in your own skin, who cares what anyone else thinks? Love the skin your in. And love to my sisters and the men that love us.

Cizin
Mayan "The Flatuent One" who brings earthquakes and death. Cizin is often depicted as a skeleton who smokes a cigar as he dances. His special death collar consists of dangling eyes connected by nerve cords. He has been accused of ripping up trees planted by the rain god and accepts human sacrifices in the company of the war god. Christians converts identify him with Satan.

Proposal Would Ban Swearing In Bars
Proposal would ban swearing in bars St. Louis-area town considers proposal that would ban swearing in bars The Associated Press updated 4:19 p.m. ET, Tues., Jan. 8, 2008 ST. CHARLES, Mo. - What the ...? A St. Louis-area town is considering a bill that would ban swearing in bars, along with table-dancing, drinking contests and profane music. City officials contend the bill is needed to keep rowdy crowds under control because the historic downtown area gets a little too lively on some nights. City Councilman Richard Veit said he was prompted to propose the bill after complaints about bad bar behavior. He says it will give police some rules to enforce when things get too rowdy. But some bar owners worry the bill is too vague and restrictive, saying it may be a violation of their civil rights. Marc Rousseau, who owns the bar R.T. Weilers, said he thinks the bill needs revision. "We're dealing with adults here once again and I don't think it's the city's job or the gove

You
My heart beats for you, my mind dreams of you. The woman in me craves your touch, I was born for you as you were born for me. In the space of a heartbeat, I felt you in the deepest part of me. My heart beats faster,pulses leap with excitement, palms get sweaty,butterflys take flight. Your voice moves me in a way nothing ever has, Your touch is like fire on my skin branding me for all time. When you are near the world is warm and giving, Take me futher and deeper than I have ever been, as only you can.

Your Love My Desire.
Come now my love to my place of thought. The place where everything hinges on your love, My completion My dreams My hopes of everything, Where each caress Is out of love, And every kiss that of desire. The passion that fills me Is the passion of my pride. The pride that builds with your hand in mine, When at your side I do stand. I know that this was meant to be true. With every breath you pull My lungs empty For my life is yours To do with what you choose. Though know that this life, And the heart you hold. Is just as fragile as a snow flakes fall, For at the slightest wrong It could be gone. I trust your love, And the words you speak, But I pray that they are not just chimes in the wind. Softly spoken like a joyful song But gone from the mind once the wind has died in the sun.

Kmk
Say goodbye to a tangerine sky say hello say hello to tomorrow- when you say goodbye to a tangerine sky you lose your pain lose your fear lose your sorrow what if you were livin yours instead of hatin mine findin truth and spreadin love and searchin deep inside – see me glidin swiftly to that place I need to be that home grown irie zone harvesting my seeds I’m gonna live my life from day to night with no hesitation Make the best of every situation that I find myself placed in Decidin right from wrong, choosing my final destination Cause when it’s said and done, it’s just yourself that you are facin’ Say goodbye to a tangerine sky say hello say hello to tomorrow- when you say goodbye to a tangerine sky you lose your pain lose your fear lose your sorrow Say Say Say good-bye to tomorrow Wash your sorrow Live and learn Listen up and follow Do what you so let me rock it I be dammed if you think you gonna stop it Popo it drop it D-Loc get up on it Don’t you think y

Chontamenti
Egyptian A death god who appears in the form of a crouching dog or jackal. He lives beyond the setting sun and rules over the lands of the dead. The position has lent itself to fantasy: one pharoah wanted to become Chontamenti. His name means "He who lives in the uttermost west".

I Remember
I remember your laugh,I remember your smile, And all the things you'd say and do to me. How could I ever forget,when all I have to do to remember is close my eyes and there you are. You are in my heart and forever on my mind. I miss you so much,but I will never give up, The way you make me feel is worth fighting for. I love you more now than I did then, each day my love for you grows truer and stronger. I remember your laugh,I remember your smile, And all the things you'd say and do to me. I can't imagine ever loving someone else, My heart beats for you and you alone. With a smile you make my day brighter and my heart lighter, You are the most loving man I have ever known. Loving you is easy for me because I remember.

Hello All
Well this is my first couple hours here, so please excuse my dull profile. Give me a few days to learn my way around, and in no time I'll have the hang of it. LOL To all you that come to visit. I will get back to you I promise. In the mean time, I'll go to a corner and try and figure this site out. xx all

Southern Sex Symbols
The newest Group of hotties is here... The "SOUTHERN SEX SYMBOLS"... Open to both Cowboys and Cowgirls... To apply go to the "Southern Sex Symbols Group" page and read the blog "how to apply" Southern Sex Symbols Group@ fubar

The Art Of Love
The art of love is a strange thing, It makes you sweat and act like a school kid. You daydream and can't think of anybody else, Music isn't even playing and you are dancing. You're sweaty all over and your flushed, You're mouth goes dry when you try and speak. In their eyes, you see wishes for children born, The world around you passes away. Words fail to express how you feel, Small things remind you of the person. Romance is your name, You can't remember to do anything. Enraptured in them is where you want to be, You can't wait to be with the person. When you are,you wonder what took so long, Life is what you make of it. But when it comes to the art of love? Don't let it pass you by, you'll regret it.

Not My First...
Greaaaaaaat... another fucking blog to maintain. I cannot guarantee that I'll be any better at keeping this one up tan I am at any of the others I have had... the most successful of them being "The Diary of an Asshole" over on Myspace. I guess we will have to wait and see where I am when inspiration strikes me.

Come Party With Me Hell Yea Rock Out
WE WANNA ROCK YOUR WORLD AT THE BLACK DIAMOND LOUNGE WITH THE BEST IN ROCK, METAL, AND INDEPENDENT MUSIC AROUND CLICK ON THE PIC TO JOIN THE PARTY DJ BARTAB ON AIR TO TAKE YOUR REQUEST AND ROCK OUT YOUR FAVORITE TUNES (repost of original by 'DJ BOO BOO KITTY F*CK!~CHF~CO-OWNER OF BLACK DIAMOND~R/L WIFEY 2 FREAK ON A LEASH~!/~DB Crew ~3' on '2008-01-07 15:40:02') (repost of original by 'Renee..The Original Crazy Bitch~Elite DB!! ~Club F.A.R.~Greeter For Black Diamond~And C.W.P !' on '2008-01-07 16:16:25')

Doing Well (finding Soulmate Continued0
Things are going well. I am happy. Me and my soulmate are getting along well. We are actually planning on getting married in another year. I am really looking forward to it. In my past I have been engaged but never actually gone through with it. I have always been afraid to take the final step. With my current love that is not the case. He sets me at ease in a way that I have never experienced before. I hope everyone finds this kind of love. And as far as my past partners go?... I wish them nothing but the best and I harbor no hard feelings towards any of them.

Uncontrolable Pleasure
Come to the dark side with me, let your passion and imagination run free. I love for you to touch me that way, you heat up the night in a special way. I want to just let myself go, wild and free,let the pleasure flow. You have a tongue of satin,that melts me, deep within my spirit is set free. You lick me and I lose control, because of this desire I have lost my soul. I want you for a delightful treat every night I need you to take me in your arms tight. On the dark side there's hidden pleasures, your touch and kiss are my hidden treasures. You lick me inside and out, all I can do is scream and shout. Up and down and in and out, your a pleasure without a doubt. Turn out the lights and let your light shine, for you are the most desirable one of a kind.

As Requested
When you can write an essay that explains what makes me valuable to the world, I will accept your answer .........you seem to think the whole world should rember your name when your gone leave a mark for the whole world to see feed the ego while you neglect the soul....the only mark that truly matters is the one you leave in ppl you care abouts hearts in how you touch ppl does the whole world really matter? do you know these billions of ppl does it matter if your name is on their lips. verry few mark the whole world doesnt make them any less amazing because the world doesnt know their name they lived they touched ppl they and you are valuable to the world because each person you touch goes on to touch someone else every time you make a difference to one person it chains one person to another to another look a mark on the world your valuable ...you made a difference to me and ill go on to make a difference to someone else just as the ppl i touched went on to touch others each kindness w

New Year New Me New Everything
Current mood: animated SO FAR 08 ROCKS! I MEAN IT STARTED OFF BLEH N THEN AN OLD EX CAME IN N TRIED 2 RAIN ON MY PARADE UNTIL I FOUND OUT THE TRUTH WITHOUT EVEN TRYING BC THEY SHOUTED THEMSELVES OUT...SO IM CONTENT N NOW IM CALMER AGAIN N MORE HAPPIER THAN EVERZ.....IM FEELING GREAT IN MY NEW HEALTHY LIFESTYLE EATING CHOICE... I START A GROUP FOR NUTRITION TOMORROW N LAST WEEK I MET THE NUTRITIONIST FOR THE 1ST TIME N SHES VERY NICE N GAVE ME A WHOLE BUNCH OF USEFUL INFORMATION N DIAGRAMS N CALORIES COUNT ETC..I AM ALSO DOING A JOURNAL LOG OF WHAT I EAT N HOW MUCH AT WHAT TIME.. N LIKE THAT I KEEP TRACK OF HOW MANY CALORIES I CONSUME A DAY....FOR ME I NEED 2 CONSUME BETWEEN 1200 CALORIES TO 1500 DAILY WHICH IS NOT BAD LOL....SO IM EXCITED FOR THE GROUP TOMORROW. IM GONNA BE GOING TO MY MOMS GROUP THAT SHES GOING TO. SHE LOST MAD WEIGHT IN THEIR THATS Y I DECIDED TO GO WITH HER TO LEARN ABOUT OTHER HEALTHY FOODS I DIDNT KNOW ABOUT.... MY MOM IS MOTIVATION FOR ME..N I FEEL GOOD....

Charon
Greek/Roman/Christian A grumpy old man who holds the ferry monopoly across the River Styx. All who want to enter the lands of the dead must pay him or spend one hundred years wandering the banks of the river before he will take them across. He is the child of Erebos and Nyx (night). Dante assigns him to the Inferno, where he operates the service over the Acheron.

Black Curse.
Darkened is my soul by the darkness that reaps Peeling back my skin leaving me barren, Open scares bleed from cuts of yesterday Of all the pain and rage That burned explosively. Like passion afire with gas fumes lit. It consumes this mortal body, Leaving it crumbled and ash, Set free though it seems More torture persists Locked away in the realm where nothing leaves Just the laughs from those who enjoyed touching me, They poke and prod And cast there stones, My soul twists and turns, And is slowly torn, Kicked about by cruel little kids, And adults the same, All screaming "you’re worthless A corpse with no name, No one cries For no one cares, You where just a toy Placed upon the earth, They played with you, And told you lie. Did you truly think they loved you? Why? You were a fool we watched you cry. We enjoyed your torment We bathed in your pain, And when you took that knife! To your soul we clanged. For all eternity you shall suffer. For you were

My Day...
My Damn Day Well, my day started out alright. Normal by all standards. Get up, shower, brush my teeth, you know the routine… First sign of trouble was getting stopped not 50 yards from work by a million fire trucks, police cars and rescue trucks. I swear there was a million!!!! (Ok, well not really but there was a lot!) Well, I am sure the person that requested assistance needed each and every single person that was there so I felt guilty and waited in line to move an inch while the guy directed traffic. Ok, work was routine once I got there. Until… I got a the dreaded note. You know the kind. The anonymous kind. All the letter said was “Hi baby doll guess who!” First off, you don’t ask a question and end it in an exclamation mark (LOL!!). And second, OMG!!!! Why by so cruel! Not only am I paranoid now as to who in Gods name left me the darn thing, but now I’m freaked out about it… Oh God the list is endless… This can only end in a disaster. Oh well. Just wanted to sha

A True Hero!!!!!!
THIS IS A VERY DEAR FRIEND OF MINE WHOM I ADMIRE FOR HIS STRENGTH AND COURAGE FOR THE BATTLES HE HAS WON. HE HAS OVERCOME CANCER AT AGE 26. HE HAS ALSO BEEN TO IRAQ TWICE AND ONCE TO AFGHANISTAN. PLEASE DO ME THE FAVOR AND SHOW HIM THE LOVE AND AFFECTION HE DESERVES RATE/FAN/ADD AND SAY HELLO. I TRULY ADMIRE HIM AND HIS BRAVERY AND HE STILL SMILES THRU ALL HE'S BEEN THRU! CaseyMP - Support The Troops!! - Please Fan/Rate Me! :)@ fubar

Cernunnos
Celtic The horned god of fertility and wealth, symbolized by the wheel which also represents the sun. He is depicted sitting cross-legged, wearing a simple tunic and beads.Celtic graves often contain small wheels, placed there to light the way of the dead in the underworld. The Roman invaders of Gaul and Britain surmised that he was another form of Mercury who guides the spirits of the dead to Hades. Christians turned him into the Devil and inserted him into Hell.

Yet Another Reason Porn Is Bad
This is a story that happened to me a couple years ago that I have decided to tell everyone about. I am a telephone guy and I make a number of service calls each and everyday. Most are normal, some are strange and few are downright bizarre. People always ask me about experiences I go through when entering people houses. This might not be one of the wildest things that has happened but definitely one worth sharing. Off to my first job, it was a warm summer morning and I was ready to try to bust out some work before it got too hot. All is normal and I pull up to my first house. The order was written to put in an additional telephone line and a jack. No big deal, I do this each and everyday. I knock and to my chagrin, a very cute young woman answers the door. Maybe 23 or 24 years old, not wearing very much. I thought to myself "I love my job, I love my job". There was no need to rush through this job. It was going to get gold plated (telephone man term to stay as long as possible an

Bhairava
Indian The "terrible one" sprang from the space between Shiva's eyes and took up terrorizing humanity and enemies of the cosmic order. Large canines protrude from his mouth. Snakes cover his body. He has four to six arms. A bowl of blood and a skull necklace complete his fierce appearance. He keeps watch over the Universe, ensuring that the great cycles of Time, including Death, proceed unhindered.

The Kill...my Fav. Song
What if I wanted to break Laugh it all off in your face What would you do? (Oh, oh) What if I fell to the floor Couldn't take all this anymore What would you do, do, do? Come break me down Bury me, bury me I am finished with you What if I wanted to fight Beg for the rest of my life What would you do? You say you wanted more What are you waiting for? I'm not running from you (from you) Come break me down Bury me, bury me I am finished with you Look in my eyes You're killing me, killing me All I wanted was you I tried to be someone else But nothing seemed to change I know now, this is who I really am inside. Finally found myself Fighting for a chance. I know now, this is who I really am. Ah, ah Oh, oh Ah, ah Come break me down Bury me, bury me I am finished with you, you, you. Look in my eyes You're killing me, killing me All I wanted was you Come break me down (bury me, bury me) Break me down (bury me, bury me) Break me down (bury me,

Antichrist
Christian If you read the Apocalypse of St. John as a prophecy of the end days, the Antichrist is that tyrant who will rise up in opposition to Christ and his followers, exalting himself as divine. The impact of the title is but slightly diminished by an allegorical interpretation of Revelations, seeing it as an account of the trials that a Christian faces in this horrid little world of ours. Ever since the Middle Ages, Christians have made a sport of identifying one or another notable personage as the Antichrist. Crusades were preached against the Muslim occupiers of Jerusalem; their prophet, Mohammed, was identified as the Antichrist. Luther thought the Pope was the Antichrist. The Pope said it was Luther. These days televangelists draw followers and dollars by their warnings of the coming of this King of All Worldly Evil. (Some of us believe that conservative televangelists themselves represent the Antichrist, allegorically speaking.) Other famous people who have been identif

Ladies Please Read
if mr cooter eater bugs ya he is harmless and a perv...sorry if it alarmed any of you...i will speak to him tomorrow bout it....you can do as you like with his friend requests....as its not my concern hahaha...xoox my special girls!!!!

Anubis
Egyptian Jackal-headed god of the funeral cult, inventor of embalming, judge of souls, and guide to the underworld. By most accounts, he was the son of Osiris and Nephthys, though some say that this dog-faced boy was the progeny of Bastet, the cat goddess. He first practised embalming on his father Osiris, whose scattered body parts were collected and reassembled by Isis. Anubis probably employed the form of mummification used on the Phaorohs. It began with a dissection of the corpse. The four most important organs in Egyptian eyes -- the liver, the lungs, the stomach, and the intestines -- were extracted, washed in palm wine, and placed in herb-filled canopic jars. The embalmer then filled the body cavities with aromatic resins such as myrrh before stitching the incisions shut. The corpse spent the next seventy days buried in salpetre. When this period elapsed, the embalmer removed the body from the potassium nitrate, washed it, wrapped it in cotton bandages, dipped it in glue, pl

Abbadon
Hebrew/Christian The demonic personification of the place of downfall or ruin (cf. Job 26:2; 28:22), Abbadon is assigned management of a plague of locusts in the Apocalypse of John (9:7-11). His Greek name is Apollyon, leading some to confuse him with Apollo

Did I Pop Out Of His Birthday Cake?
I am taking a little break from my work for a few minutes. I have been working more then normal lately. A break here and there is nice. I made a cake yesterday for Peter's birthday and it turned out good! I never bake. When I do, it is always yummy but I always think baking is a pain in the ass. I make these cookies that are to die for but time consuming to make! One time I made a pie that was the best thing we all put past our lips! I made it once and never made it again. I still have the recipe but it was a pain to make the crust by scratch and so on. So....we must live with the memories of the best pie in the world! LMAO! Peter and I went out to dinner by ourselves since one of our kids was still not home and one of them was at his girlfriends house and the other didn't want to go! Nice kids we have! It was nice just going out to dinner ourselves though. I wanted to make him lasagna, something he loves that I make but I didn't have time. I haven't made it in a

Fucking Eh
Its like this Iam fixing to drop some F bombs on that ass, you feel me...Anyway alright Iam a fucktard I guess Iam trying to make a back ground thing right? ok well I know Iam I cant figure out how to fucking do it Iam like what the fuck dude are you that fucking stupid you cant figure out how to fucking work a computer you fuck...K so anyone whom reads this if you know how to fucking help me out that would be greatly fucking appretiated, O and I fucking forgot I cant fucking spell thanks for fucking listning..And while you are thinking damn cat is putting in fuck alot I told your ass in the beging..Thanks for the help holla at your fucking boy..

Liars, Skanks, Perverts Oh My
There are lots of dishonest people in the world and the sad part is I am the creator of one of them. That is very sad because she is my daughter. She lies, cheats and steals to get what she wants and expects everyone to conform to her. She is not going to graduate from high school, and her boyfriend is a complete loser that will be here till she figures out he's a loser. To compound my frustration she got arrested last September for shop lifting. I can't believe that this is my daughter. Granted I still love her with all my heart and would lay down my life for her. But I DON'T trust her. That scares me to death. I hope she realizes in this day and age that she can't make it in life with no high school diploma or a college degree. But live and learn she won't know until she tries. I just have to let her make those bad choices and hopefully she will see how bad it really is. The really sad part is .. I call the internet the INTER LIE because everyone on this thing

Tainted & Sultry
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John (cougar) Mellencamp - Justice And Independence '85 Lyrics
He was born on the fourth day of July So his parents called him Independence Day He married a girl named Justice who gave birth To a son called Nation Then she walked away Independence he would daydream and he'd pretend That someday him and Justice and Nation would Get together again But Justice held up in a shotgun shack And she wouldn't let nobody in So a Nation cried [Chorus:] Oh Oh When a Nation cries His tears fall down like missiles from the skies Justice look into Independence's eyes Can you make everything alright Can you keep your Nation warm tonight Well Nation grew up and got himself a reputation Couldn't keep the boy at home no no He just kept running 'round and 'round and 'round and 'round Independence and Justice well they felt so ashamed When the Nation fell down they argued who was to blame Nation if you'll just come home we'll have this family again Oh Nation don't cry [Chorus] Roll a rock across the Country Everybody come along When

Me
The Recap of the year Two Thousand and Seven The Year started off pretty smooth as it was not an indication on what was to come for the following twelve months. The idea of a perfect life was challenged many times though out the year. I made many bad decisions and the directly affected many people in my life, I cannot go back in time and change those things, but I can try and make the future better for me and the people involved in my life. I lost a huge part of my life this year when my brother decided to take his life, I will never be the same without him, he has made me mad at times, but nothing or no one can replace him, he was truly a one of kind. I still have some really tough days, there is not a minute that goes by that I don't think of him, I hope he is looking down on me and seeing how much I loved him, even though I didn't show it a lot of times. I also made some bad decisions that lead me to get arrested and get fired from my job. I hope in the New Year that I can t

Largerthanhims B-day
Its Largerthanhim's Birthday! Show Some Love! RATE HIM LÅrGërThÅnHïM~s BiRtHdAy!!!!!!!@ fubar FAN HIM! LÅrGërThÅnHïM~s BiRtHdAy!!!!!!!@ fubar ADD HIM AS A FRIEND! LÅrGërThÅnHïM~s BiRtHdAy!!!!!!!@ fubar Brought To You By Tesha♥ Married To Dino♥TaKeN AnD LoViNg It ♥ StAtUs:His ♥@ fubar

My Life
Ok I'v tried to explain why I am the way I am and people just aren't getting it so here it is in baby steps. A. My mother told me I was a mistake. And later tells me I'm her special little man. So yea I'm confused. I didn't get much love form my mother groweing up so it seems like a vaegu terratory for me. I try my hadest but It doesen't seem to work. The only unconditional love I get is from my Son.....when his mother let's me see him. B. I have had my heart bashed in, broken and shattered 37 times. C. all my relationships I'v been cheatd on and lied to and in my marrage I was beaten and almost killed by theperson that claimed she loved me always and forever. And women wounder why I get depressed and defencive. It's not because I'm looking for pitty. It's hard to get over the lack of love from a mther and beeing used and pretty much treated like you don't exist in a relationship. And it seems the harder I ry in a relationship the worse I fail.

Pioneer Kuro
Pioneer's Pure Black Kuro HDTV 01.06.08 discuss Total posts: 1 by Dan Costa CES 2008 Coverage Las Vegas—Today at the Consumer Electronics Show in Las Vegas, Pioneer announced it would take one the most important feature to look at when buying an HDTV and make it completely irrelevant. The company wants to eliminate contrast ratio. Developed under the company's Project Kuro code name, Pioneer plans to demonstrate a plasma TV that can show a black that emits absolutely no light. This so-called High Contrast Model will emit virtually no light in the very blackest area of any picture. The company claims this prototype display can achieve virtually zero idling luminance in more than six million cells—something never done before in a TV display. This would make the traditional measurements of contrast ratio completely immaterial. For HDTVs, contrast ratio is defined as the ratio of the luminosity of the brightest color (white) to that of the darkest color (black). Althoug

Identity Theft, You Mean Identy Mark.
is bad enough having five identities of your own making and volition but when I get ten emails to ten different people from ten different people every day then I am surprised I am not sitting here going Phwerble Phwerble Phwerble, Phwerble.. Have you ever conceived the name Isolde Perdekamp, no doubt she is called Izze for short and there is nothing wrong with that, believe me. Well, she has sent an email to dg Merriman all about the pesky Canadian Drug company or supplier of drugs. I wonder if it is pot, because the way this is going I might just as well succumb to the dreaded weed of my own accord and then not care about the intrusive strangers. That sounds German, Isolde Perdekamp, I am not saying anything. Do they not know that I am trying to give drugs up and had it not been or a minor hicough then by March I would have been off the perishing things for good. That is medicational and not recreational!!! Hey, if there was a natural way to do it then I would try that bu

Guess Who. . .
As most of you have been wondering; yes I am still alive. I made it back from Minneapolis a bit earlier than I had anticipated. The store I was working at closed the day after Christmas. So I took off at 2 a.m. Christmas Eve morning with one of my best friends. We drove all night to get back to our respected homesteads and only went in the ditch once. That is becoming a tradition either going or coming from Minneapolis; I should try and put a stop to that one. Luckily a nice family from Montana was headed to Fargo for the holidays and they stopped and gave us a pull. I got to the farm around 2 p.m. to the screaming and tears of my Mother. She had no idea that I was going to be there for the holidays. I had a really nice time with my family on Christmas Eve and Christmas Day. I had not seen most of them for several months so it was good to lay eyes on them and catch up on the latest family news. The day after I made my way to Minot to meet my roommate who had been up to see his

Fear And Loathing In New Hampshire
Now that the caucusses in Iowa are past, we my friends are in the beginning of what is sure to be the Shitstorm of '08. New Hampshire, one of the most conservative states in the union plays host today of thefirst primary. The fear? While true aficianados of american politics no longer place much faith in the substance of the caucusses, Huckabee's win there means republican hopefuls must give a greater ear to, and therfore voice to, ultra-right wing christians. Prior to Huckabee's surge, Romney and McCain were battling it out for the party's more centrist voters but their losses means both now will have to pander to the far right to regain their positions as front runners. Huckabee will most certainly fade from the front long before the party's nominating convention; but, his victory in Iowa will make an indellible mark upon the overall election. The longer Huckabee hangs on, the more power the dogmatic christian 'taliban' will have in determining the repuplican platform for the g

Slave Drewalicious
Ok so I won Drew in Club Poison's first Slave auction and I know I don't have to do this for him but I am putting his ass out on the corner. Not to many lounges give there staff recognition for there hard work and dedication but this guy deserves a lot more then this blog. He had just recently joined Fubar, got invited to Club Poison and instantly became a favorite among the ladies. Drew treats everyone in the lounge the same. He has worked hard pimping Poison out and bringing in new members. Drew I can not express enough what you have brought to the lounge you have a terrific personality, you greet everyone that comes in with respect and for that I thank you. I hope that you stay with us for a very long time. Ok enough of the sappy ass shit now it's my turn to pimp him out for all the hard work he has done for us. LADIES this guy is F-ing HOT click on his pic and go show him some sexy fubar loving. And for you guys, DUDES listen he is awesome and a great guy to B

Positioning
Creating and defining communication in relationships both personal and professional...What we call our communication is Masculine and feminine positioning....Which woman have forgotten b/c of their invisible education, invisible money, Or their invisible career... Do not go seeking any virtual relationship(s) either....I feel the internet can steal time from tangible unions among other serious dysfunctions....;) I must teach a woman how to Love me... my likes, dislikes, perks...I guide my woman; any woman within reach...not this internet shit....create, define, and polish the relationship you choose to experience. I must make sure she's willing to learn, teach, and exchange Greater energy...I (define) what occurs in my home, under my roof, among any association... I can never allow other people's burdens to SIT on my shoulders; someone else's disappointments, someone else's short-comings, someone else's shame, someone else's guilt, someone else's abandonment, and someone e

I Have Internet...for Now
um yeah.....my dad got netzero....kinda slow but oh well.....but yes i have my internet back for now....prolly won't be on as much cuz i have a new job...haven't started yet...gotta take 2 classes then i will...should be by the next week or so....working at an airport as luggage handler or w/e so yeah im back lol if ne1 missed me :p

The New Rules!
I'm So Stressed! I'm not giving a fuck. In a world where we all get stressed out the second we leave the house, you being overwhelmed means little to the rest of us, ESPECIALLY ME. If your my friend, and you can't find more then a single sentence worth of subjects to discuss that don't revolve around your inability to handle your life, DO NOT EXPECT TO BE MY FRIEND FOR LONG. We all go through hard shit, and if I'm your friend, I'm gonna be there. But if all you go through is hard shit, if everything that has ever happened to you is just as stressful as the last thing, then it is not the instances that need fixing, it's you. You are fuckin broken, and I am not glue. Buying your dog an expensive sweater, just means that he's gonna get blood all over it when he tears out your fuckin throat. You. Yes, you. The one that dresses the dog in fucking sweaters and hats. Go fuck yourself. Seriously. The dog is covered in fur, and your putting clothes on it. I understand that the barr

Ask A Stupid Question And See What Happens...
Stupid Question.... Stupid Answer Ask a stupid question, get a stupid answer. Yesterday I was buying a large bag of Purina dog chow for Athena the wonder dog, at Wal-Mart and was about to check out. A woman behind me asked if I had a dog. On impulse, I told her that no, I didn't have a dog, and that I was starting the Purina Diet again. Although I probably shouldn't, because I'd ended up in the hospital last time, but that I'd lost 50 pounds before I awakened in an intensive care ward with tubes coming out of most of my orifices and IVs in both arms. I told her that it was essentially a perfect diet and that the way that it works is to load your pants pockets with Purina nuggets and simply eat one or two every time you feel hungry and that the foods nutritionally complete so I was going to try it again. (I have to mention here that practically everyone in the line was by now enthralled with my story.)

Thank You God
My sister just sent me a text message, My niece's MRI came back clean and she is still doing well on the meds! Please keep her in your prayers though because it's still gonna be a while before she's in the clear, but things are looking a little better at least! Thank you to all who have been praying for my darling little niece!

I Know You
I know you you were too short you had bad skin you couldn't talk to them very well words didn't seem to work they lied when they came out of your mouth you tried so hard to understand them you wanted to be part of what was happening you saw them having fun and it seemed like such a mystery almost magic made you think that there was something wrong with you you'd look in the mirror trying to find it you thought that you were ugly and that everyone was looking at you so you learned to be invisible to look down to avoid conversation the hours days weekends ah the weekend nights, alone where were you in the basement? in the attic? in your room? working some job? just to have something to do just to have a place to put yourself just to have a way to get away from them a chance to get away from the ones that made you feel so strange and ill-at-ease inside yourself did you ever get invited to one of their parties you sat and wondered if you would go or not for

The Great Flood Science
"Just look what we've found!" shrieked Robert. Isn't this mind-blowing?" "On the seabed?" "Yes!... but they don't want to know it." "Why not?" "Because the implications are... shall I say... DANGEROUS!" HAVEN'T YOU HEARD??? Didn't you know? Hasn't anybody told you? It's about our planet's true age! Dangerous information." Oh, come on...what's threatening about that???? Well, if you really want to know... it mattered very much to two guys not far from here. Just last Tuesday they got into a real ding dong about this. Jack was insisting that a great disaster had occurred right across America... and, in fact, all over the world. And the scars it left behind do certainly look very old... except, said Jack, they're not. "You idiot!" protested Rusty. "All these things - beaches, coral, and what else, formed slowly over millions of years." "Can you prove that?" grinned Jack. "It's a cinch," beamed Rusty. "Magnetic reversals prove it. S

It's Time
Sgt.Raider of Sarge’s Bad Girls needs YOUR help, and I’M willing to pay for it! After all, two can play THAT game! For every 200 comments you bomb on the following picture, I will pay you 5,000 fubucks! The contest is over Wednesday, January 9th at 9:00 PM Central time so get bombing NOW! Send me a private e-mail advising me of your 200 comments. Yes they will be verified by ^Sin^. Thanks! Public service announcement brought to you by: Tulsa's Angel~ Club FAR Promoter/Sisterhood/FuBombers/SgtRaider's Bad Girl@ fubar

Stressful Life
Everyday I swear that i'm a day ahead and instead I wake up in the morning and i'm 2 days behind. Life for me always seems so hard I'm always in a rut. Now its different I feel as if i'm falling and I can't reach the top. I try so hard to make it and I keep falling. I think i'm finally reached despair for the first time. Behind the fake smiles and laughter. Is a girl struggling to make it through life. My mother is very sick with tons of pressure on her back and sides. Everytime I think about my life I would love to just sit and let out the tears but I know if I cry in front of her shes going to worry. Shes already sick I don't want her to get upset. But i'm falling in despair and I refuse to let her worry. I have to get our lives on track for the both of us. I swear that I'm going to succeed because there is no other option for me. I need to help her and myself. Tears build up inside me but i'm not letting them out. This isn't a time to feel sorry for

Stiletto Sex
She needs to fuck every night she needs to suck, she needs to lick, she needs to fight she likes it rough, she likes a tease electric dirty disco, fuck no, thank you please slips on her fishnets with painted toes smears on her lipstick, teases her hair and rips her clothes oh so electric with hair dyed black old jacket faded, complicated, now shes back she's fancy she's high class she's trashy she's celebrity she's hollywood a nice ass a tease, but still its not for free she's got the pills just name the kind she'll press a button erase, play, and rewind a dirty cunt you say maybe its true but shes out fucking him while hes out playing you she's got the blades and the stars approved her bruises go to deep for the past to remove you're so advanced she'll like it too twirl her and bite her lip thats what she likes to do

The Rules, Gentlemen
The rules 1. The Female always makes The Rules. 2. The Rules are subject to change at any time without prior notification. 3. No Male can possibly know all The Rules. 4. If the Female suspects the Male knows all The Rules, she must immediately change some or all of The Rules. 5. The Female is never wrong. 6. (If the Female is wrong, it is because of a flagrant misunderstanding which was a direct result of something the Male did or said wrong.) 7. (If Rule 6 applies, the Male must apologize immediately for causing the misunderstanding.) 8. The Female can change her mind at any given point in time. 9. The Male must never change his mind without express written consent from the Female. 10. The Female has every right to be angry or upset at any time. 11. The Male must remain calm at all times, unless the Female Wants him to be angry or upset. 12. The Female must under no circumstances let the Male know whether or not she wants him to be angry or upset.

The New Year
I guess the only thing that I can say is that the New Year has been kinda rough. I guess that things are always like that at first, but I'm kinda worried about my relationship. My boyfriend Corey and I have been together for just over a month and things seem to be going down hill. I guess that it could be my imagination, but sometimes I don't think it is. Well, I guess the only way to find out is to keep going and hope for the best!

My Decision...
In my last blog I said I was going away for a bit. Ive decided Im addicted (lol) and cant but Im SO done with the whole can "I see your pics question". So its simple really. My family is the people on here that mean the most to me. They take the time to look me up on yahoo and/or chat with me on the phone. I know they love me and they know I love them and so my pics are strictly for them. Dont ask me if you're not family. If u wanna take the time to chat and get to know me then we can pic share.... fine. But if you dont... then I really dont need to see yours so you really dont need to see mine.

To All Bucs Fans!!!!!
No matter what don't forget who you are!!! We need to be true to our team. WIN or LOOSE! We bleed Pewter & Red!!!! Remember we came far this season and although we have work to do we are still the number ONE Team in the NFL! WE ARE PIRATES AND THAT WILL NEVER CHANGE!!!! So hold your heads up high and raise the RED FLAG!!!! Be proud of our team and one day soon we will have our dream!!!! We will have another ring!!!!!!!!! To the fair weather fans just leave, join another bandwagon we don't need you! Only true real fans are allowed to call themselves BUCS FANS!!!!!!

How To Clear Your Cache, Temps And History
HOW TO CLEAR OUT YOUR TEMP FILES AND COOKIES 1) Go to the bottom left hand corner of your computer and find the word, START 2) Click " START" and then look on your opened window for the "CONTROL PANEL" and click that. 3) Next, look for the "INTERNET OPTIONS" incon, normally looks like a rounded world and click that. 4) Now, you want to go to the TEMP FILES and delete them, wait till that's all finished, then move on the delete COOKIES/CACHE and wait till that is finished. You can even clear your history. (make sure you want your history cleared before doing this) 5) Now , it's time to close your browser and reopen a new one. Hope this helped!

Lost My Hero
i lost my hero he was my dad no matter what i was going though he was there for me but he pass away yesturday so now he gone i will miss talking to him and asken him about things iam going though i did not allways do what he thought i should do but not matter what he was there if i fell down and help me get back up but he will allways be with me in my heart and prayers but now my friends on here have been so awesome to help me get though this so for this i say a big thank you for all the love you have showen to me and will pay you all back so i will be gone for a few days flying out tonight back to iowa be back on monday night ok ttyl hugs and kisses to all of you

The Challenge
For starters I'm in my new apt now.. its not all fixed up but its good enough and I have my net, cable and all that shit going for me too now.. yay me I'm back in the world. So anyways I'm reading this book in the Prey series by John Sandford (F'n excellent seies..great author...) and the main character in the book has gotten an ipod and 100 song gift certificate and he's taking it as a personal challenge. Only 100 songs and that's all he's putting on it. So it got me to thinking.. What are my "Essential 100" If I had an ipod *cough* hint *cough* and could only put 100 songs on it what would I choose? So there is where I turn to you my friends to help me out.. I know of some of the songs that have played such an important part of my life.. Safety Dance, Regulate, Bodies..etc..but what are some others that could be attributed to it.. leave a comment message me and let me know cause in a lil bit I will post my Essential 100 songs and maybe..just maybe share some of the stories b

Show Her Some Love
Ok you sexy fubarians come on and show some love to this wonderful and sweet fubarian, Here page was removed and need some help, please rate and fan her. 100%NSFW Sweetcheeks ur next wet dream!(NEW ACCOUNT GOT DELETED!)PLS FAN B4 ADDIN..@ fubar ALSO DONT FORGET TO STOP BY AND SHOW ME SUM LUV ALSO, PEACE Blaze/TCS Security(fu owned by Naughty)@ fubar

50k Comments For A Happy Hour....
Stop by and comment on my pic as you have time....don't want to be a pain to my freinds over this but if you have spare time the comments will be appreciated!!!! Need 50,000 to win...thank you all!!

Digital Foci's Pmp
CES: Digital Foci's Portable Media Player Sucks Content Directly Off CF & SD Cards And Memory Sticks Posted by David Berlind, Jan 8, 2008 01:58 PM » E-Mail » Print » Write To Editor » Digg » Slashdot DisplayLink may have one of the most killer technologies to be on display here in Las Vegas at the Consumer Electronics Show. But one of the killer products is Digital Foci's Picture Porter Elite. It's a hard drive-based portable digital media player for digital photos, videos, and music. So what you say? Everyone has something like that? What is really remarkable about the Picture Porter Elite is how it totally eliminates the need for a PC to copy content from something like your digital camera's CF or SD card onto its hard drive. How many times have you been in that situation where your camera's memory card is full and you need to clear it off so you can take more pictures or video. Normally, you need a PC to do this. You'd attach the camera to your PC, down

Time Has Come
The time has come, it's a New Year and I hope everyone is thinking of things to make their new year better. Remember don't let anyone make you fall down. Don't let anyone take away your smile or happiness. There are to many other things out there in this life that will bring you joy and happiness. Fullfill those dreams you've been wanting to have, and let no one stand in your way. Peace and God Bless you all

Our Military
Yesterday I read, voted and commented on a MUMM from some asshole that has no respect for our military and what they do. Let me just say this; If you don't like it here and you don't support our men and women of the Armed Forces then I'll help you pack your shit and get the F out. But, everyone has a right to their opinons. I fought for that freedoms as well as those before and those that will follow me. This person was speaking about the war in Irag. No, I don't like that our men and women are over there any more than any other person does. But they choose to do this job, when you wouldn't. Let me just add this, would you rather be fighting the insurgants on US soil instead??.....I DIDN'T FU-KING THINK SO.... I am a veteran of the US Army, I am the daughter of a US Navy Verteran, the Granddaughter of a Veteran of the US Coast Guard, the widow of a US Army Veteran, and MOST PROUD MOTHER OF A US ARMY SOLDIER in todays fighting team of men and women. We as AMERICANS have God tha

To Those Who Came To Help Me Last Week...
Thank you to each and every one of you who came to stand by me and help me last week. I appreciate it greatly, and will not forget any of you. Any time you need help, I am here for each of you. It proves to me that it's the members and some of the overworked and unappreciated bouncers, NOT the admins, that make this a truly great site. I am greatful to, and thank you, all.

Quite Angry...very Disappointed
I have been thinking about this for several days now, and I finally just had to blog it. And if I lose a couple of friends, or at least people I had called close and dear friends for a year, then I guess I'll just have to deal with that later. A few days ago, my points and fubucks were rest, no explanation, no answers to messages. After a lot of inquiring of other members, it seems there was a new policy instituted, but not posted until yesterday, regarding one account per IP. Well this causes me a huge problem since I have an anonymous network behind a cable modem which is firewalled...a normal procedure if you want a secure network, free from spamming and back door entries. My 24 year old son has (well had, I told him to abandon it) on his pc. Since the only IP seen is the cable modem, NOT my pc or my other pc's, I unknowingly violated this new, unplublished policy. Personally I could give three shits about the points, so long as I have my 'true' friends, the ones that know me and k

The Beginning
Lost in a sea of faces He looks, but can not see She searches for him, unknowingly Will she recognize his smile? The familiar tug at hear heart? They've met before; these two In another life. They journeyed to this point in time; Where fate puts them in place. Their soul mates Kindred spirits each others half Will they know the instant their eyes meet? He glimpses her auburn hair shining in the sunlight She sees his broad shoulders standing amongst the crowd Recognition registers Their eyes locked on each other This is the moment Their reason for being They both smile shyly He walks over to where she sits "hello" he says........

Hi An Bye
I will leaving fubar for awhile . Im moving to a state with a friend there is lots of work there an I really need to go to work. To my friends I will miss you alot. TO MY BESTEST Friends I will miss you dearly. I will get back on when I can to ck on how everyone is doing I wish you all the best an I hope this new year brings you happiness an good fortune!! Love Donna

Misterfeet's Guide To Screen Captures.
Screen captures are very cool and a great way commemorate your fubar moments.... you see your blast, the first time you see a friend scroll on top of the screen, or your arch-enemy says something embarrassing that you want to blackmail them with later, a screen capture is a quick and easy way to keep that moment forever. ok so the first thing you need to do is find the key that says PRT SC. it will be located at the top of your keyboard, to the right of the numbers. If you are using a laptop, you may notice that the PRT SC is inside a box or perhaps even blue. If this is the case, you will need to find a second key that is also with that box or blue, as shown. In this case, you would press both buttons at the same time. ok, now the moment of truth! Press the PRT SC button (and the 2nd key simultaneously if needed). Now, you are saying to yourself... "self, nothing happened. misterfeet is full of shit!" Not so, my friend. What to do now is to open up paint shop. You may ha

Random Curves
Her eyes told a story, betrayal and longing. Lucid dreams stolen and beauty passion steams refullfilled belonging two paths entertwined His eyes lovingly hold hers. Beauty trasnformed by a newfound love, consumed by passion and stilled by the quiet heartbeat of ten thousand comfortable silences. Her slender frame his arms. How can the act of her casually brushing herself against his side ignite wanton lust need more powerful than naked acts undulating desire. Where does it say that confronting your fears creates no choice but to face them and recover in what ever way you can or fuck everything and run for the hills. All the lines in his face told a sad story of lost love and cold fear. A smile on his lips bespoke of the carefree desire of hope.

Whats Been Going On
This is whats up!! I live in MS now. Me and Rodger. Its great. I tried to get into active duty but they declined me for another 7 months. Like 7 months is going to make a difference. I got the child custody thing done and overwith...thank god. Just waiting on life to take me and Rodger to the next spot. Talk to ya later

Call Me What You Want...
did you ever take time out of your busy day and think of the world around us. it doesnt matter who is in charge of it,,there will always be a danger out there. who are the people who have to protect us all of us who live in the usa from this danger? its our armed forces. the men and women who if you ask them ,they will just say its just their job. if you stop and think about it,,it is more then just a job. is it just a job when it sends them out to foreign lands away from thier family,friends and their homeland. it takes them away for long periods of time. just a job that puts thier lives out on the line everday. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! just a job is a job like i do i work for the post office, or walmart, or stop and shop! i am knocking any of theses jobs, so please dont think i am. i would just like people to really stop and think about the men and women who are in the armed forces. they are out there in foreign countries doing a very dangerous job. PEOPLE THEY ARE RISKING THIER LIVES FOR

*super Package* Give Away
Hey friends!! am currently in a give away. this is a super pack give away which contains 1 year VIP 1 Happy Hour 1-30 day blast 1 ticker package. all of the above for just 140.000 comments. so all i ask for you if you can spare me some comments to help me reach my goal. if not then it's fine if you do it's highly appreciated. just click any of the pics below and try to leave a few comments (1 /2 or bomb if it's possible) ♥HOT Marina♥Lust goddess♥lover to Gary *2nd Alarm Hottie* ♥ Club F.A.R♥@ fubar

Childish
My heart beat quckening as you stroak your palm on my thigh my breath faster and deeper as you kiss me and all I want is for you to touch me, sure but I beg you to stop before Im screaming back for more SO wet I am before you take me away theres too many emotional feelings which always persuades me to stay and all I want is to feel you inside again give me all the things that I want I just want to see your eyes looking back at me I thought Id given up on this I wish I had you kiss my neck once again all I want is to hear the words "I love you" I wish I wasnt a stupid little girl but I just want my fantasy my fairytale to come true.

Golden Ticket Week Long Special
GET YOUR GOLDEN TICKET TODAY!! *****GOLDEN TICKET SPECIAL***** Starting tonight (Jan.7th) at midnight fubar time, until Friday at midnight, we will be running a buy one get one free special. For every ticket you buy, you will recieve another one free. 50 tickets bought = 50 free tickets!!!!!!!!! Take advantage of this great Golden Ticket special and most of all....Have fun! :) ************************************* From December 30th to January 30th we will be holding a Golden ticket contest. Each golden ticket costs 500 Fu-bucks and counts as one entry. You can purchase them for yourself or for others. When doing a Fu-pal to pay for your ticket(s) Please make sure and put how many tickets you are buying as well as the name and link to the persons profile. We will update the results daily. For every ticket you purchase, you will be given a number. Now although you won't get a seperate ticket for each individual entry..you WILL recieve your numbers for every entry.

Please Join Us
I look at you and think: I cannot live Without you; you're the person of my dreams. Of course I know I can, but I must give My heart room to tell it as it seems. Romance must have a language fit for feeling More than fits between the earth and sky. For love there cannot be a floor or ceiling: My love goes down too deep and flies too high. So when I say I cannot live without you, Know I can't imagine so much pain; And when I claim to always dream about you, Well, know the moon is happy once again. The sun reveals cold truths for all to see, But I must light my love with poetry.

Golden Tickets Part 9 And 10
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01/08/08
"Forgiving is not forgetting; it's actually remembering--remembering and not using your right to hit back. It's a second chance for a new beginning. And the remembering part is particularly important. Especially if you don't want to repeat what happened." Desmond Tutu

Branded
Is it abuse or just a violent metaphor for love? a scream tore itself from my lips as hot metal touched my skin i kicked i scratched i fought with all my breath still it scorched my body my soul my body racked with pain and anger as he left me i lying cold and numb the hard cement floor chafing my back my shaking hand touched my chest touched the spot where he embedded the iron my fingers move over the still-fresh wound an eternal scar that would always haunt me i curled up like a fetus in its mother's womb and i await for his return

U Almost Knew Me
You Almost Knew Me You almost knew me Yet you never let me close enough to know you. Shatter dreams before we could create them together. Hope fading likes a lost horizon upon yesterday love that will never bloom into tomorrow. Once we talk upon tomorrow dreams. Today, there are no words of kindness or hopeful dreams for us to share. You never dare to reach out too me. Fake reality was what you were chasing. You say I almost knew you, But In reality, I did know you, Better than most in your life. I felt you pain upon my heart as you cry alone in the dark. It was never shadowy thing about me to dare love for you, Yet Once again, You tell me, I almost knew you. When in fact, I knew you better than you knew me. Fading hope of what we could have shared. Dreams will never being real for you and me. What did you give up for all the fakeness within your reality? You gave up on knowing me. &Copy2008 Firestar written for David aka Darkangel6

Feeling Dooped
Ok...so I never write about what's going on in my personal life, but had to get a few things off my chest. This should be a mumm actually...lol. I have been in a relationship with a man for a little over a year now. We met online. Fell head over feet for him. He says that he is going to move here to be with me, and yet he seems to have a few excuses as to why he can't come when he says he is. I am starting to believe that I was rooked...BIG TIME!! A HUGE ASSED cell bill, to add to it as well! I just feel wronged is all. Kinda blows my trust for ppl. I told him that I was not willing to wait for him anymore and he said to me...well do what you want to do. Now...if he truly loved me don't you think that his response should have been different than that? Anyhow...that's enough for me for one blog! Thanks all for reading...Becky Leanne

Skin
I feel your fingers go across my back's skin. I shiver at your lips on neck. You nibble on my ear and i moan a bit. My hand goes up the back of your shirt. You lean in and kiss me hard and strong. I grab your sholders and start to tighten my grip. You then wrap your arms around my waist and drag me down. I giggle at you catching your breath. Am i really that much of a handful? You grab my head and put my ear by your lips. You whisper "Im going to lock you away and keep you all to myself." I feel your hand slide down my side to my thigh. You slide your head inbetween my neck and sholder. You start to move your lips up and down. I shiver at the feel of lip on neck. I arch my body up against yours. Your skin is burning into mine and the passion is intense. I dig my fingures into your back. I want your skin for my own selfish desires. "All mine'', i whisper into your ear as you kiss my neck again

Just How It Is.
Touch the Darkness Well I am sorry, but I am done with men. I thought I was strong, but I was wrong. I am meant to be alone, so I am here for just friends.. My heart can only take so much!!! Friendship is all I can offer. I have never lied and I have no reason to start now. But lies and deceit seem to find me. I have been played to many times. My walls are now to high to be broken down. The door is open for friends though anytime! Anything else and you will only find trap doors. I can't do it anymore.. giving my heart and having it torn to shreds. And for what? Basically to be screwed over. Why do men feel the need to keep two, three, or more women around at one time? Can someone help me understand? I mean.. is the truth that hard to tell? Being open and honest should be the most important. Sure sometimes the truth hurts, but we can deal with it and move on, but lies can never be moved on from and causes a lot more hurt. Just remember.. that girl or that

Passionate Kisses
You walk into our room already lit with candles, satin sheets outline my voluptuous body, ready for you to take in your arms...you hear me moaning already and anxious to know why, You get closer and as you see my nipples aching for your lips, you stand there staring at me...my body in rhythmn with the background music...you lean over and kiss me, you take me in your arms and you let me know how much you wanted this day to come....as I whisper your name in your ear, you can't help it any longer so you reach down and feel my warmth, my delicate sweet pussy already in heat, fire coming out of it, waiting to erupt with pleasure with you inside of me... We kiss with intense passion, our bodies shaking and our hearts beating rapidly....I get on top of you, oh yes I want to suck on your throbbing cock but I can't take it anymore, I want to feel you, I've waited for so long, I get on top of you and I see your reactions....To see your face in pleasure is a big turn on to me, as you see

Dr. Hook & The Medicine Show, I Got Stoned And I Missed It
(Shel Silverstein) I was sitting in my basement I just rolled myself a taste Of something green and gold and glorious to get me through the day Then my friend yelled through the transom "Grab your coat and get your hat son There's a nut down on the corner, givin' dollar bills away" But I laid around a bit Then I had another hit Then I rolled myself a bauma Then I thought about my mama Then I fooled around, played around Jacked around a while and then I got stoned and I missed it I got stoned and I missed it I got stoned and it rolled right by I got stoned and I missed it I got stoned and I missed it I got stoned oh me oh my Now it took seven months of urging just to get that local virgin With the sweet face up to my place to fool around a bit Next day she woke up rosy and she snuggled up so cosy When she asked me how I liked it Lord it hurt me to admit I was stoned and I missed it I was stoned and I missed it I was stoned and it rolled right by I was s

Forgotten
I forget the word for describing something with incongruent senses the way color has a taste But I can feel your words Hot but not burning Liquid and thick They seep through my veins and thrum in my chest making my shoulders sink Your words are like alcohol warming my blood and melting my inhibitions You make me lose my judgment with a pen Lines work their way through my ribcage and squeeze my cynic’s heart tight enough to make my breathing heavy and my muscles clench cat-like and purring You make me love my curves and collarbones and crave the look in your eyes when you see what your poetry

Does It Hurt?
Does it hurt every time you close your eyes and see her? Does her voice wake you up at night and haunt your dreams? Do you feel her fingers on your skin? Just as soft as her lips were on your neck… Would she be the same? There was always just something about her. There always will be… Would she make you fall again? Ohh the spell… The spell… Do you remember her scent? Or has that faded with time? Crawling in her bed at night to sleep, In the comfort of her legs that were wrapped so tightly around you. Where was her favorite spot? How did she feel, pressed against the wall? Her teeth scraping at your flesh… As she barely whispered your name. You didn’t forget that, did you… That spell…

Falling Hard
i found you and now i dont want to let you go darling. i honestly have never felt this way before i have opened up to you more than anyone else throughout my life i know there are obsticles in our way but we will meet. when we meet i just hope i can take it cause i know how much i love you. you know who you are

Thoughts
Perfection in my Eyes All I ever wanted was to be part of your heart, And for us to be together, to never be apart. No one else in the world can even compare, You're perfect and so is this love that we share. We have so much more than I ever thought we would, I love you more than I ever thought I could. I promise to give you all I have to give, I'll do anything for you as long as I live. In your eyes I see our present, our future and past, By the way you look at me I know we will last. I hope that one day you'll come to realize, How perfect you are when seen through my eyes. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- When I'm with you, eternity is a step away, my love continues to grow, with each passing day. This treasure of love, I cherish within my soul, how much I love you... you'll never really know. You bring a joy to my heart, I've never felt before, with each touch of your hand, I love you more

You Know Who You Are
everytime i talk to him it get harder not to think about him and it get harder not to miss him wish he was here with me and i wouldnt have to be wrting this he has helped me with so much and i know i wouldnt be this sane if it werent for him i had a rough year last year but thsi year it will be a lot better now that he is here in my life i know that it sounds corny but you know what he hasd always told me to be myself and say what i am thinking and what is on my mind so i am and if you dont like it then quit reading my shit cause i am who i am and aint no one gonna change me

Need A Job
Deer Sir, I waunt to apply for the secritary job what I saw in the paper. I can Type real quik wit one finggar and do sum a counting. I think I am good on the phone and no I am a pepole person, Pepole really seam to respond to me well. I´m lookin for a Jobb as a secritary but it musent be to complicaited. I no my spelling is not to good but find that I Offen can get a job thru my persinalety. My salerery is open so we can discus wat you want to pay me and wat you think that I am werth, I can start imeditely. Thank you in advanse fore yore anser. hopifuly Yore best aplicant so farr. Sinseerly, Peggy May Starlings PS : Because my resimay is a bit short - below is a pickture of me taken at my last jobb. Employer's response:...... Dear Peggy May, It's OK honey, we've got spell check

Thoughts...
I went away this past weekend... totally unplanned, unprepared, and last minute on everything... and it was wonderful. I came home Sat morning and told the kids... lets go out of town... we packed up... and left. I usually map out my road trips and plan stops for gas, food and such... I make sure directions are given on how to get anywhere I am off to, and this time, I didn't. We just got in the car and took off. I only knew that I take 85S to 65S to 10E and had no idea how far on any of these roads I go. Which exits were where I need to get off... no idea what exits may be good to stop at for gas, food and bathroom breaks... and I just did all this for the sake of sanity to get out... me and the kids. We stayed at Keesler AFB and watched movies that night after eating pizza. Sunday morning we got up and got a late start as we were going to New Orleans... (the price of the room... was way better than I could have gotten in New Orleans... drove in... and then realized I had no

Date For Sex
I just don't understand what the problem is, when you decide that you are going to met someone just to basically hook-up, that you just can't know them just a little bit first!! I am by no means a prude, but my god, I would love to be able to at least have a connection of some sort with the person that I might hook-up with. I don't by no means what to marry the dude, just have some sort of something, I don't know, something. I just didn't think that was to much to ask, maybe I'm wrong. Let me know!!

Online Mistress
It all began with a “Hi” on the internet. Matt approached the innocent looking Sandy and struck up a conversation online. She was hesitant at first but eventually she opened up to talking with him. As talk progressed they slowly moved to the topic of sex and desires. Just before Matt had to leave she revealed that she enjoys being dominate in the bedroom. This perked his ears and his interest dramatically. They said their goodbyes and agreed to talk later. That evening they again met online and picked up their conversation where they had left off. Sandy revealed that she loves to bend guys over her knees and spank them like the little boy in trouble. Matt’s cock began to twitch slightly from hearing this. They talked more and more in detail about the roles of sub and Dom. Sandy realized that Matt is eager to learn more about being submissive to a partner. He desires to be told what to do and to have his partner do as they wish to him. Sandy decided to ask him a few que

Being A While.
It has been a while since I have got to post a blog on here. Since the end of Dec. 2007 and beginning of Jan. 2008, I have traveled from AZ to my hometown of Richmond, VA. I got here by flying from AZ to Utah, then from Utah to Maryland. My sister then drove me from here place in MD to my parents place in VA. The trip was interesting in that I got to fly both Business/Coach and First class in a communter and airliner respectively. Now at my parents place, It is boring at times since they have no cable tv, dial-up internet and don't go out much. I have suffered from jet-lag and getting adjusted to the cold weather here. Well that is how I have been.

$250 Piece Of Paper :/
Click On Pic I FINALLY got my certificate last week. It had been "lost in the printing process" so I raised hell till I got it. I'm a certified Special Effects Makeup Artist. Yay. Officially! I'm still in the process of getting my name on certain lists and contacting the right people to be put on the union for Arizona. Meaning, whenever a movie is filmed in Arizona, I'm suppose to be one of the first called to work. However, being on the union costs lots of money :/ We'll see. Keep hope alive! REL

Big Changes To The Top 30 Fubar Levels 2008
THE NEW LEVELS FOR FUBAR 2008. LVL-1, I'M NEW HERE. LVL-2, WHAT DO I DO? LVL-3,HEY NEW FRIENDS!. LVL-4, THIS PLACE IS COOL. LVL-5, PARTY TIME. LVL-6, RATE LIKE HELL. LVL-7, ADD LIKE HELL. LVL-8, RATE,ADD AND FAN LIKE HELL. LVL-9, GETTING THERE. LVL-10, FUBAR'S FRIEND (SO HAPPY). LVL-11, OVER THE HUMP. LVL-12, ADD STASHES/BLOGS FOR POINTS. LVL-13, PIMP MYSELF! LVL-14, SHOW MY BITS!. LVL-15, SHOW MINE AND OTHERS BITS!. LVL-16, BECOME A DJ. LVL-17, OWN MY OWN LOUNGE. LVL-18, PIMP THE HELL OUT OF OTHERS. LVL-19, BLAST AWAY LVL-20, YEAH BITCHES!!!! KNEEL BEFORE ME! LVL-21, DID I FEED THE KID? LVL-22, I REALLY NEED TO DO SOME WORK!. LVL-23, BUT I'M SO GOOD!. LVL-24, SCREW THE WORK LVL-25, THE KID CAN FEED IT'S SELF. LVL-26, SINGLE AGAIN. LVL-28, MY LEGS HURT. LVL-29,ASK FOR MORE VIP MEMBERSHIPS. LVL-30, OH FUCK WHERES MY FAMILY?.

My Ding A Ling
My Ding-A-Ling-A-Ling Artist: Chuck Berry When I was a little biddy boy My grandma bought me a cute little toy Two Silver bells on a string She told me it was my ding-a-ling-a-ling My Ding-A-Ling My Ding-A-Ling won't you play with My Ding-A-Ling My Ding-A-Ling My Ding-A-Ling won't you play with My Ding-A-Ling When I was little boy In Grammar school Always went by the very best rule But Evertime the bell would ring You'd catch me playing with my ding-a-ling Once while climbing the garden wall, Slipped and fell had a very bad fall I fell so hard I heard birds sing, But I held on to My ding-a-ling Once while swimming cross turtle creek Man them snappers right at my feet Sure was hard swimming cross that thing with both hands holding my dingaling Now this here song it ain't so bad Prettiest little song that you ever had And those of you who will not sing must be playing with your on Ding-a-ling

Contraband Comics Inc
I am helping start a new company that will provide publishing and distribution services to independent comic book creators. If you are interested in having your work published or have any questions feel free to contact me.

Smart Ways To Use Mozilla Firefox
Read More About: Mozilla • Mozilla Smart Ways to Use Mozilla Firefox Want to make Firefox jump through hoops? Steve has things to read and add-ons to download. Steve Bass Tuesday, January 08, 2008 10:00 AM PST Recommend this story?Yes 0 VotesNo 1 VotesPlease Wait... My buddy Mike M., from Dripping Springs, Texas, started pestering me. "You're still using that pile of junk browser?" he wrote, referring to Microsoft Internet Explorer. Yes and no, I told him. I'm still using Maxthon 1.0, that marvelous browser that sits on top of IE. It works fine, I said, and no, I insisted, I'm not switching to Mozilla Firefox. It didn't stop him from telling me about two add-ons to Firefox that he finds extremely useful, so I decided to pass along Mike's pearls. The first is CoolIris, an add-on that allows you to preview a page by floating your mouse over a link. Once you're floating, a smaller, resizable preview window pops up, saving you from having to fully open another page.

Fallen
Words that never left her mouth but screamed behind her eyes called out to you urgently in desperate cries When they knew, how they knew as she stumbled and fell They awkwardly died sprawled on the ground scarlet stained dreams fires of Hell Mouth barely open to late to speak legs and arms broken Anubis fallen and felled Isis fallen and felled her lips sewn shut her heart flutters It’s weak against the corset laced tight stained by tears that leak from eyes white and blinded to hands drained and tied close to her chest femininity found and once again lost in the whimpers and sighs broken feet bound so she can’t run away a promise of freedom to entice her to stay like she’d ever run anyway…

Excitement
Im so excited..and I just can't hide it. Im about to lose control and I think I like it! Well if you didn't read lastnights blog.. I won a 2005 Pontiac Vibe on ebay. It has 35, 000 miles..and is grey. I feel like a new momma.. wanting to show it off. So go look.. its in my default pics. I have moved up from minivan momma! So this morning, I was outside cleaning out my van.. ready to get rid of it. lol. Boy, all the junk in it. Anyways.. my new year resolution is to take pride in my vehicle..and to keep it spotless.

Thawing Out...
yup got a few major storms and now we are going through the seasonal Jan. thaw out that lasts for about 2-3 weeks at most then it gets cold and snowy again...im actually in no more than i t shirt right now...ok im wearing more than a t-shirt so ladies dont get to happy *smirk* anyway...here is something to keep you occupied.... I just want to thank you For the joy you've given me These words don't even come close to What I feel so deeply So many things to say If I could only find the words My own thoughts get in the way And I just end up sounding absurd But I shall do my best To explain how I feel For I've been truely blessed At times it seems surreal I never thought I would find Something found by so few So between your heart and mine I just want to thank you

Isis
I am Isis, daughter of Nut, the goddess of the sun, moon and heavens, and the Earth-God Geb. I was sister to Osiris—future lord of the underworld, Set—who would come to be known as the god of chaos, and Nephthys—future goddess of death. Like my siblings, I would come to be revered by all of Egypt, and they would call me the mother goddess and protector of pharaohs. However, a great many events took place before we came into our divine titles, and this is my recollection of it. From the moment we were conceived, my sister and I were like one soul living in two bodies. We were side by side in everything we did. We were twins completely identical in body, and nearly identical in soul. Only small differences separated us. Though we both loved the moon’s glorious silver radiance, a symbol of our beloved mother, Nut, Nephthys adored the dark, crescent moon, whereas I loved the full moon, fat and round. Osiris and I were equally close, perhaps even more so. W

Mood Swing
So ive gone from very very upset to very very pissed off..... I have a message for this person... who has used their power in the wrong way... Lets play truth or dare.... I DARE you to mess with me =] dont lie to me dont mislead me dont use me dont manipulate me JUST DONT in the end the TRUTH WILL COME OUT

Today's Crap From Me
No matter how you slice it, it's still baloney. simple enough There was a young fellow named Bliss Whose sex life was strangely amiss, For even with Venus His recalcitrant penis Would never do better than t h i s . Jokes I'm dating a homeless woman. It was much easier to talk her into staying over. Why is it a mistake to date a necrophiliac? He just wants you for your body. I think you've been punished enough. :)

Ecstasy
Slip into something more uncomfortable, Let me rip my nails down your back. Let me bite into your naked flesh, I know the way you like it. Harder, harder, harder 'til you beg, No more, no more, harder still. I'm a tease, but you love it, I crave your skin, once again. Red dripping down your back, Falling into the bed beneath. Still i bite harder, until you scream, You've had enough, but I'm just beginning. The look of insanity in my eyes, Sends you wild, and you kiss me until it hurts. I push, harder, deeper, wanting more, Then i stop. Abrupt. Dead still. I listen to your breathing, As it shallows, as you calm. Then i attack one last time, ferociously With a look of pure animal. A whole new side of me, A side hidden from all apart from you. I love it, I crave it, I need it, Look at the beast you've turned me into.

Flaming Devil...
*This is a short story I wrote when I was in my junior year of high school, I hope you like it* A sense of sorrow and fear gripped my heart tightly as the dispatcher's words constantly ran through my mind, "Station 70, two story structure fire on Williams Road with entrapment of a four year old male on the first floor." Mesmerized by the blaring sirens from the fiery red fire truck, warning vehicles of our speedy approach to disperse and let us through. I began to think of that terrified little boy surrounded by blackening smoke, crying for his mother. The agonizing ride seemed endless until we pulled into the bumpy dirt covered driveway leading towards the burning building. Stepping off the truck, pulling on the rest of my turn out gear, I stood praying outside the burning building, shooting flames from all directions towards the sky, darkened with thick smoke, that God would allow me to return home tonight Bravely walking towards the glowing building prepared to face every

Fubar Wife App.
You know what to do. It can be for fun if you are spoken for. Or if you are single and serious. Fill it out and send it in a private email 1. Your Name: 2. Age: 3. Fave Color: 4. Whats your sign? 5.Phone Number: 6. Location: 7. Height: 8.Hair (color and style): 9.Piercings/tattoos: HERE COMES THE FUN ... ... ... 1. Are we friends? 2. Do you have a crush on me? 3. Would you kiss me? 4. ...with tongue? 5. Would you enjoy it? 6. Would you ever ask me out? 7. Would you make a move on me in a movie theater? 9. Would you take care of me when I'm sick? 10. Do you want to tell me something that you couldn't before? 11.Would you walk on the beach with me? 12. If you heard a rumor about me, would you defend me? 13. Do you/have you talked crap about me? 14. Do you think I'm a good person? 15. Would u take a nap with me? 16.Do you think I'm cute? 17. If you could change anything about me -would you? 18. Would you

Friggen Gross
Ok I know I'm not that young anymore but come on. I'm so sick of friggen old guys trying to hit on me and by my friend if you are over 40 please dont bother. I dont think we have anything in common. I dont find you attractive and If your closer to 50 that's just gross cause your old enough to be my dad. ok let me fix this since I do have alot of friends that are 40 to 42. Ya'll I don't mind. It's the nasty guys that are like late 40's. Hello I'm just barely turning 29 that's wayyyyyyyy to old for me

Sex Vs Structure Firez
When asked the question what was more exciting...having sex or being on a structure fire...I simply answered hell if I was in the middle of having sex and the tones and siren went off for a structure fire I'd just get up, throw my clothes on and rush out the door without finishing....yes leaving the guy behind...however I was told I needed to have some options, therefore I came up with this... If the following things came across the scanner while I was having sex...the following would occur... If it comes across the pager/scanner as unknown type fire-take it nice and slow, allow time to finish until unknown type fire becomes identified. If it comes across the pager/scanner as a fully involved structure fire-better hurry up and get your ass in gear and finish so I may go on the fire. If it comes across the pager/scanner as a fully involved structure fire with entrapment-you best be getting the hell off me, fuck finishing the job cause I'm grabbing my clothes, running o

Ferst Nite Back
At last, we're alone. Ever since your return, we've been surrounded. Your friends, my friends, our friends. All day long, I've been looking at you. Relearning the way you look, the way you move. Wanting to have you to myself as soon as possible. Well, now it's possible. We've seen everyone off, and it's bedtime. So now, behind three sets of closed doors, we are alone. We stand by the bed on the cold hardwood floor. I turn off the light and look at you in the cool moon glow streaming through the windows. I've never told you how wonderful you look in your nightclothes, even though you're only wearing a T-shirt and sweats, the same as me. I think you can tell from the look in my eyes how much I love you, how much I've missed having you with me. We move to each other, and my arms wrap around you as yours encircle me. We stand, unmoving, feeling each other's warmth, glorying in having something substantial to hold on to. No more dream-hugs, waking to find my arms clenched tightl

Do I Say It Enough?
Just in Case – if I do not say it… What do you say when you think “I love you” is not powerful enough to convey what you truly feel for the person receiving the words? How many times is too many to say “I Love you?” One, One Hundred, or One Thousand? Are there never enough times to remind the one(s) we love that we do love them? Well, after much deliberation, I must tell you that “I love you!” Not just a little, but bunches and bunches, and it just seems to be growing. I sometimes find myself sitting, and staring off into space, I know I know, me spacing out, what a ridiculous statement; but for many that know me, very rarely can see inside these hazel, sometimes green, and even more rare, blue eyes of mine. The love that I have inside me, does not feel pressured, pushed, or even worries me that I have this for you. It feels as if the love I do have for you; that it has been here my whole life, no memory of it forming, no memory of it taking shape, as if I have always

Daddy Dom
I have been asked several times what a Daddy Dom really is and how that differs for any other Dominate. First, I want E/everyone to know, it has NOTHING to do with incest, and it isn’t age play or any fetish for or with children . Daddy Dom : I can only say what it means to me, others may have a different impression and there are several web pages that define it in different ways. Just do a search on Yahoo there’s plenty. In my view a Daddy Dom is the most tender of all Dominants. He loves His little one with an undying passion. He always has his submissive’s best interest in mind, even when it conflicts with his personal desires. That doesn’t mean that he gives into her every whim. There can be a huge difference in her desires and her real needs. He has to be able to make that sacrifice for her if needed. And yes, at times he does punish her. This usually hurts him just as much if not more than her, but he will always do what’s best for her. He helps her set and reach her

The Plastic Babe Obsession
How many times have you been walking with your man and he has turned his head to look at something like this? It's infuriating isn't it? I mean, that son of a bitch is drooling all over a shirt you just washed for him right in front of your face. And her? What a slut bag! Shes got her tits hanging out everywhere, probably lives in a gym, never had kids, and has fake everything. Nails, lips, tan, hair, and of course...boobs. But you, a real girl, who puts up with his beer gut, messy bathroom, and dickhead friends all of the sudden, feels invisible. I am going to shed some light on why guys fawn over these plastic girls. These girls are candy. Like skittles almost. They may taste sweeter than anything you ever put in your mouth...pun intended. They try and make sure they appeal to every primal urge a man has. When they walk by they want every man to undress them with their eyes and think about having sex with them. And we do, its a fact of life. These are the kind of girls guys

The Speeding Ticket
Older Woman: Is there a problem, Officer? Officer: Ma'am, you were speeding. Older Woman: Oh, I see. Officer: Can I see your license please? Older Woman: I'd give it to you but I don't have one. Officer: Don't have one? Older Woman: Lost it, 4 years ago for drunk driving. Officer: I see....Can I see your vehicle registration papers please. Older Woman: I can't do that.. Officer: Why not? Older Woman: I stole this car.. Officer: Stole it? Older Woman: Yes, and I killed and hacked up the owner. Officer: You what? Older Woman: His body parts are in plastic bags in the trunk if you want to see The Officer looks at the woman and slowly backs away to his car and calls for back up. Within minutes 5 police cars circle the car. A senior officer slowly approaches the car, clasping his half drawn gun. Officer 2: Ma'am, could you step out of your vehicle please! The woman steps out of her vehicle. Older woman: Is there a problem sir? Officer 2:

Food For Thought
When your personality starts getting ugly, you know it's time for some beauty sleep! Some things are better given away - love, hugs and smiles. There is always hope. You know you've had too much to drink when your eyeballs feel like they're about to float! Thankfulness is an attitude we choose to have, it is not based on what we have or where we are in life. Being a modest good winner is just as important as not being a poor loser. The prettiest thing you can wear is a smile. Your home should be your haven of rest. Take time to be loving every day. If you think you've learned all there is to know then you're dumber thank you think! Always keep learning and keep trying. Hang around quality people. The gift of love is far more valuable than anything money can buy. If you're too busy to take care of yourself, then you're too busy! Be a blessing to others. Always try to do the best you can with what you've got. Like yourself. In order to s

What Kind Of Sex Do You Have
What Kind of Sex do YOU Have? SOCIAL SECURITY SEX Two men were talking. "So, how's your sex life?" "Oh, nothing special. I'm having Social Security sex." "Social Security sex?" "Yeah, you know: I get a little each month, but not enough to live on!" LOUD SEX A wife went in to see a therapist and said, "I've got a big problem, doctor. Every time we're in bed and my husband climaxes, he lets out this ear splitting yell." "My dear," the shrink said, "that's completely natural. I don't see what the problem is." "The problem is," she complained, "It wakes me up!" QUIET SEX Tired of a listless sex life, the man came right out and asked his wife during a recent lovemaking session, "How come you never tell me when you have an orgasm?" She glanced at him casually and replied, "You're never home!" CONFOUNDED SEX A man was in a terrible accident, and his "manhood" was mangled and torn from his body. His doctor assured him that modern medicine could give him back his

The Power Of Goodbye
Your heart is not open so I must go The spell has been broken, I loved you so Freedom comes when you learn to let go Creation comes when you learn to say no You were my lesson I had to learn I was your fortress you had to burn Pain is a warning that something's wrong I pray to God that it won't be long Do ya wanna go higher? Chorus: There's nothing left to try There's no place left to hide There's no greater power Than the power of good-bye Your heart is not open so I must go The spell has been broken, I loved you so You were my lesson I had to learn I was your fortress Chorus2: There's nothing left to lose There's no more heart to bruise There's no greater power Than the power of good-bye Learn to say good-bye I yearn to say good-bye (chorus, substituting "no more places" for "no place left") (chorus2

In Love With You.....
Just a gentle whisper Told me that you'd gone Leaving only memory Where did we go wrong? I couldn't find the words then So let me say them now I'm still in love with you Tell me that you love me Tell me that you care Tell me that you need me And I'll be there I'll be there waiting I will always love you I will always stay true There's no one who loves you like I do Come to me now I will never leave you I will stay here with you Through the good and bad I will stand true I'm in love with you Now we're here together Yesterday has past Life is just beginning Close to you at last And I promise to you I will always be there I give my all to you Living life without you Is more than I can bear Hold me close forever I'll be there.... I'll be there for you I will always love you I will always stay true There's no one who loves you like I do This I promise... I will never leave you I will stay here with you

Crazy
so you think Iam crazy you ain"t seen nothing yet. Step to me and see what happends. I can get a hole hell of a lot more crazyer then what you think. You may think you have seen it all. But not realy. I have held a lot of it back mess with me and see what happends. I can get pretty dirty if I need to don't push me over the edge or you will be sorry. Step to my face and then tell me how crazy iam afater i show you what crazy realy is. I mau not look like I can do some damge. But I can dodamge in more then one way let me show you with my words let me show you with my body let me show you how i get down and how crazy i can get.

My Sisters Evening In Jail, Lmaooo, Its Sad I Know
Wow. So I ventured to a new unknown territory. The place : Midwest City Jail . This is my story. It's a true story. The names of the people and places were not changed to protect the innocent. It was a Saturday evening. My son, Caleb, spent the day with his father while I was working. This was a very unusual experience for me because his father is always too consumed with work and his future wife ( Jenny ) to have time available to spend with his first son. I say first because Jenny is expecting to deliver his second child, also a boy. All I can say is good luck to her. I was also once a future wife of David's that was expecting his child. Never in my life will I voluntarily experience that much hell again. I arrived at David's around four fourty five. I stayed briefly; just long enough to pack my son's things and ensure his father that his recent announcement of engagement had minimal effect on me. I am completely happy as long as she doesn't expect to be special to my son.

My Week In The Belly Of The Beast-the Psych Ward
i was hurting myself for a long time--during my recent dark cycle i needed to feel something better than that darkness--so i hurt myself pretty frequently. i went to the doctor -i couldn't hide neither my physical or mental wounds-so she sent me to the psych ward. while i was in the emergency room i went to the bathroom and beat myself bloody cause i was so sad. they upped my meds to a pretty intense level--it takes me a full hour now to--you know. i was not allowed a computer, cell phone, cd player, cigarettes,coffee etc--i needed to 'play the game' to get out on 'good behaviour'and i did just that.i got a big problem with eating in public so i went on a hunger strike the last 2 days. when they asked me why i wasn't eating i attributed it to religious fasting. they put me on suicide watch for some reason the last night there. someone came in and physically removed the belt from my pants. i promised to go to weekly therapy-i played the game-and that hurt-i had to give up my rebel

Numb
I use to see the smile you gave to me. I use to feel your touch. I use to feel somthing for you. I use to feel the pain yuo caused me. But now iam just numb I cant feel you I can't feel your touch Iam just numb to it all. I use to let you get to me. I use to feel you cut throw me. Now I can't feel the blade. I see it cuting in to my skin but iam so numb. I can't even feel the blade you try to cut me with. But now iam just numb I can't feel you I can't feel your touch I am just numb to it all. Over time I got use to all the pain you tryed to cut in to me with. But I just became numb to it all over time. But now iam just numb I can't feel you I can't feel your touch I am just numb to it all. I let you stay even thow I can't feel what you do to me I think it cause I like the numb feeling you give to me, cause I just got so use to it. But now iam just numb I can't feel you I can't feel your touch I am just numb to it all. You can try to break me down but I don't t

Yes This Is So True,,,
Nobody loves me Nobody loves me, nobody cares If life is empty and full of tears I longed for true love, searched everywhere Nobody loves me, nobody cares Seaching for true love has been in vain Two years my heart has suffered with pain Lifes lonesome burden now I must bear Nobody loves me, nobody cares Nights on my pillow, I dream of love though space I gaze at the stars above They seem to whisper from way up there Nobody loves you, nobody cares A lonsome heart and a troubled mind In this old world now is all find I look to heaven for I know there Someone will love, someone will care

Lounging
I was lounging on my couch half-watching TV, half-dreaming of you. When suddenly the phone rang. It was you, you always seem to read my mind. I said to you I wanted to see you and I would be right over, I made only one request, that you greet me with no clothes on. I rang the doorbell…. the door opens...a soulful, seductress stood there…….my palms begin to tingle and my pulse quickens. Each time I see you, you take my breath away. Your smooth skin, flawless complexion, chiseled good looks and firm glare……you can see that I came for one thing, “What did I tell you about wearing clothes,”I said softly. But before you could respond, I pulled you in. I lift up your chin and roughly pulled you in for a kiss. My mouth is hungry for your lips, my tongue begins to search, my dick is rising and you can feel it pressed firmly against you……mmmmmmmm….Now my fingers go to work. They trail your thighs and move upward, to the soft warmth inside. My mouth never leaving yours. I lift you up by you

Many, Many Thank You's
For all of you helping me level..I'm greatful.I m trying my hardest too return the love.But on dial up is very hard too get too you all. Please if I dont get you back now Ill be there when you need too level up.Just shout me and say I need help leveling and you know I'll be there as soon as possible. Thank you all for all the rates and love you have shown me..Have a great day..Im off too work ill see ya tonight..

People
people, most u have 2 put ur back on alert, cuz they around. it is not just anybody, but certain people will destroy the comfort zone instantly. here they come, hurry up put up the force field. do it quick, got it! that was close. now it is nothing 2 do 2 get rid of this feelin. as a matter of fact i feel betta when i do feel like this. it imploys me with the ability and acceptance 2 know this had 2 b demised. y life b so pretty, until the people that invade it finally blossoms and then they spoil. make curled milk seem editable. it is too hard 2 judge a book by it's cover, but why do u have 2 get deep into the book 2 find out, put it back on the shelf. can't we all just get it on, if we can't get it on. most times if words wasn't shared, just the bed, some people would b awesome. definitely can't b dressed by vera wang, with a k-mart lable. that shit definitely won't float 2 the top. just don't shit where u sleep at, so void them mf's on instinct. don't and u'll fiend 4 peace in

Birthday Poem From Nite Hugs Girl
Happy Birthday to a special freind She is always there through thick and thin. Many spend life times to have that bond. I was so lucky not have to wait so long. Through good times and bad even when Im sad. You found ways to make me happy and glad. Didnt realise what I have had a freind to the end. Fate and destiny brought you back again, a dark soul looking for the light I found a heart so big and bright. A freind to the end they say but, For us it will go for many life times. To no end............ written by nitemusic3 1/8/08 love ya girl

True Love
Love takes time. It needs a history of Giving, receiving, laughing and crying . . . Love never promises instant gratification, only ultimate fulfillment. Love means believing in someone, in something. It supposes a willingness to struggle, to work, to suffer, and to rejoice. Satisfaction and ultimate fulfillment is by-products of dedicated love. Love belongs only to those who can reach beyond themselves; to whom giving is more important than receiving. Love is doing everything you can to help others build whatever dreams they have. Love involves much careful and active care & understanding. It is doing whatever needs to be done, and saving whatever will promote the others happiness, security, and well-being. Sometimes love hurts. Love is a constant journey to what others need. It must be attentive, caring, and open, both to what others say and to what others cannot say. Love says no with empathy and great compassion. Love is firm, but when deeded, it m

Arise!!
The word "arise" simply means to get up and get going. Maybe that's the answer u have been looking for. Sometimes I make overcoming my difficulties a bigger problem than it needs to be. Seems that I ask God, "What do u want me to do?", "How can I overcome this?". God's answer is: ARISE!! There's a verse in Micah that I love, "When I fall, I shall arise." To get up and stand up is the decision I have to intentionally make, not something that just automatically happens. I have to chose to get up and not be trapped in the past, even if it is something that happened 10 minutes ago. I have days I'm so discouraged and want to give up. It's hard being a single mother of 3, going to school full time and trying to balance life and do what's right for me and my children. Alot of people don't understand. They have no idea my struggles. I've realized though after thinking about my life that if I refuse to "Arise". God won't do his part either. I have to have enough faith to get up and k

Sad Me Today
It is always so nice to see that your family is a POS. So, I am on line this morning looking at the newspaper from my hometown (there were tornadoes yesterday and I wanted to see where abouts they hit.) Well, as I used to do I checked the obits. WELL what do I see.. only that my great uncle passed away on Sunday. I would assume that if my mom had known about it she would have told me, so I am brought to the conclusion that nobody had told her about it. Which just goes to show me that the family doesn't really care, which is not fair. Now... I doubt that I am going to be able to go to the funeral (which is tomorrow) because I don't have enough time to take time off of work. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRr

I Am Just A Lonesome Cowboy
I am just a lonesome cowboy And I'm travelling all alone I ain't even got a nickel To call my baby on the phone Just beyond the mountain lies a city And I hear it calling me Saddle up and ride you lonesome cowboy Here is where you'll find your destiny In my dreams the lights shine bright and pretty Near to me and yet so far Will I always be a lonesome cowboy Am I only reaching for a star Ride. Ride, ride, ride along cowboy Sing, sing, sing, sing a song cowboy Will I ever leave this lonesome valley Really see the lights that shine Gotta find what lies beyond the mountain Gotta rope and tie that dream of mine I am just a lonesome cowboy And I'm travelling all alone If you don't call me baby Then I'm never coming home

The Truth About The Da Vinci Code By Wayne Jackson
The Truth About The Da Vinci Code January 8, 2008 by Wayne Jackson The so-called Da Vinci Code has been the topic of animated conversation for some time. What are the fact about this mysterious “code”? ”The Da Vinci Code” theory (both the book and a subsequent movie of the same name), has generated significant publicity over the past several years. Of course the crackpot journalists, TV talk-show hosts, and liberal theologians are vigorously promoting these productions as the “truth” about Christianity. Even some naive folks, who ostensibly are associated with “Christendom,” are encouraging their friends and associates to read the book and see the movie, and to use the information as a “tool” for evangelism. As a “tool,” these productions have the value of a one-handle pair of pliers! Most nominal “Christians” will not have two-cents worth of discernment in being able to separate biblical truth from error. The author of The Da Vinci Code book is Dan Brown, a former schoolt

Erring
Don't fret too much Cathy. Like a lot of us, you deserve better, and you WILL find better.... I know sometimes, when the pain is intense, it doesn't FEEL like it, but Karma DOES exist, and those of us that are worthy, eventually get what we deserve, and those unworthy, reap their reward as well........... Just hold onand you will seeyou are better offthan he.He was a lesserman and knewHe had no nerveto follow thruYou cannot make himfeel the hurt nowhe won't feel it 'tilyou've long ceased caring...The loss hurts morefor you right nowbut it shall pain himfar longer for his erring....

Some One Better?
well theres is this wonderfull young lady that i started talking to again. see i mess things up with her when i was suposse to me t her at the train. but that never happen. so i am trying this again. see i never thought that it would be able to work one more time. and i still dont know. but wish me luck and i hope i dont lose this wonderfull women again

Hard To Deal
its so hard to deal with the loss of my son, you can believe in heaven, god, better things and none of it takes away the hole in your heart. i smoke my brains out to numb the pain, i want to hold him again, see him again. will i ever feel that kind of love again??? does he know i miss him sooo??? if u have ever lost a child please tell me how u deal, please tell me!! this place is such a good outlet, its a start, its all i can do right now, one minute at a time.

Poetry Disclaimer ....read It!
My Poetry, songs and short stories: I have written hundreds upon hundreds of poems and a few short(erotic) stories through the years. The first poem I had submitted was published and is now in the library of Trinity High School in Euless, TX. Due to some stupid acts on my part, almost half of them have since been thrown away never again to be seen. Some of them I do remember, Some I hold dear to my heart. Others were just for the fuck of it, shock value, and some just really made no sense at all. If you have ever written poetry you know how this works. This shit just pops in your head and you have to write it down or you can't think of anything else, or you forget it. I honestly believe it's a gift.... I just don't utilize it nearly as much as I should. By the way, some of this shit can and is a bit off the wall.. NO I'm not some fucking Emo kid who wants to slit my wrists and beg for attention... It's just words... some with no meaning to me what-so-ever. Either

Re: Vote Fraud Expert Warns Of New Hampshire Chicanery
RE: Vote Fraud Expert Warns Of New Hampshire Chicanery ----------------- Bulletin Message ----------------- From: Paul Joseph Watson Date: 08 Jan 2008, 13:46 Vote Fraud Expert Warns Of New Hampshire Chicanery Vote fraud expert Bev Harris has warned that New Hampshire's electronic voting machines are wide open to fraud and that even modestly skilled computer programmers were able to identify key vulnerabilities within ten minutes of assessing them as key Democrat and Republican primaries unfold today. http://www.prisonplanet.com/articles/january2008/010808_vote_fraud.htm

Theatrical Symphony...
Skeletal trees dance in the theatrical light storm; swaying and appearing only on queue. The trees sing their song of the ocean waves. The rain tenderly caresses my face while the trees invite me to dance with its breeze wrapping my body in its physical embrace. Stars are hidden in the blanket of clouds giving way to the backdrop of pulsating lights. The rain begins to sing its own song creating a symphony with the trees. Each has its own part in this symphonic soundgarden of rain and wind. My own sounds of walking alone are hushed by the wind as it begins to roar like a lion after its kill. A terrific battle of light against the dark sky slices the imagination with a heart pounding explosion followed by the rumbling sounds of thunder. The great ancient Gods prepare for battle as light and dark, silence and thunder, good and evil battle and dance hand in hand. Every action creates its opposite reaction as the light creates day in the evenings slumber. Waves of sound from the trees the

Here's The Deal
Ok I know alot of you noticed that my account was changed ALOT yesterday. I just needed to take a short break from FU. For some reason I've been getting hit alot with flaggers. I'm used to it once in awhile but damn I was just having an unusual high amount. And I'm not even popular!! lol Well on top of that I had decided to delete a few of my nsfw pics...noticing some of the comments left on them. Some people are just N-A-S-T-Y!! I mean yeah I can be a big pervert, too. But mine is more of a dirty mind kinda thing and it's funny but some of those comments really made me want to puke. They were not only on my nsfw but some on my sfw pics as well. I expect nasty sexual things to be said but DAYUM!!! If you see 50 other people have said something remotely the same then PLEASE do not say it. Leave it for the whores on this site that like that sort of thing. Maybe it will boost their pornish ego a little more but I have a little respect and dignity left for myself. It's why I won't p

It Was All Worthwhile
Through all the laughter even after All the tears. You chase away all my fears. You've always been there. I will always care.. No matter where life will lead we will always need friends to help see us through and in the end, I hope that we will always be the best of friends. I'll never stray or be that far away. So for every smile through the miles, know that I am thinking of you. For every seam that comes undone know that I will always be here. So never fear you're not alone, I've always known from the start you'd always be in my heart. Through the laughter and even after all the tears I will always be here to help chase away all your fears, and wipe away all your tears. So for every smile, through the miles i know it was all worthwhile.

Silence
Every night and every morning; Some to misery are born. For the crown of our life as it closes…. Is darkness, the fruit there of dust? No! Thorns go as deep as the rose’s. And love is more cruel than lust. Solitude is restitution for a heart made of glass. Is it heaven, a prison, or an escape at last? As I sit, I smile….. Sometimes reminiscing in the past. I often ponder the reasons as to why love never lasts. Reality hits me like a ton of bricks. My heart, my soul….. They’re closed… Barely ceasing to exist. I yearn for love, That’s without a doubt. Yet fear consumes me, quickly I bail out. Emotions are concealed. The tongue always silenced. Hmmmm…..... I wonder who noticed? *All of these poems have been copyrighted and are published on the Internet as my original work and under my own copyright by The International Library of Poetry (poetry.com). Copyright ©2004

World Of Dark
crack the whip on my back try to tear down whats inside me turn the screw unleash the power set me free all along its always been me i'm the one that kills the pain i'm the shield from what remains i'm the glowing heart the light in your world of dark blinded by all the things you've seen guided by the thought of being clean close your mind and your veins sins wash away with pouring rain I keep you from falling down i'm your flowered thorn on your holy crown i'm your glowing heart the light in your world of dark

Pics...rating
For anybody that cares about rating/helping people level, I changed the pics in my "NSFW" folder except the one that was marked by the site to NOT NSFW so they'll count for points. I don't think they're bad at all... :-p So if you haven't been there and you will rate...I'll get points now lol. Still friends only so hopefully that keeps 'em to people I will let see 'em.

An Idea Whose Time Has Come?
(Originally posted at my blog, The Seeds Of Utopia.)I figured it out. There's a great way for the American public to figure out for whom their Congresscritters work.A new dress code for Congress. Or maybe even all politicians.And what would this dress code be? Simple.Jumpsuits with patches from their corporate sponsors.Now hear me out before you scoff.Each Congresscritter would wear a regulation jumpsuit. On these jumpsuits would be sewn patches from the corporations/individuals who gave a donation of over "x" dollars. The area of the patches would be big enough to cover the entire front torso of the Congresscritter. The percentage size of each patch would be the percentage of the total money donated to the campaign.For example, let's say Company A donates fifty percent of the Congresscritter's campaign budget. The patch for that company must be of a size that would cover half of the Congresscritter's front torso, although it can be placed in any location easily visible for the

Deeply
I'm sorry this is sort of like a diary for me. I'm just feeling very alone in a world full of people around me. I'm currently dealing with a soon to happen divorce. Not many in my family have ever had to deal with one and I'm getting lost in a world of do this and don't do that. Family is great don't get me wrong. But I want friends. All my friends are in other towns and i don't see them very often. I never thought that i would have to start my life over after 30. I have been married for over six years now and i've been with the same woman for over eight. It's so hard to think that i'm been thrust into a world of being single and i don't know what i'm going to do. I have a daughter that is will be turning five this new year and she is so smart and funny. It makes me so sad to think I will be raising her without her mothers help. We currently trade my daughter back and forth every week. I don't really know what is actually fair concerning her anymore. I miss her and then somet

Rip Nina Rachel
So today is my Nina's funeral service, it's not a good day, but I we will be driving to Redlands to pay our respects. She was a wonderful women. My Mom tells me that when She was 20yrs and pregnant, Her and my dad came to the US. My Nina was the first and only friend She had here. She always looked out for my Mom. It sucks knowing She is gone, and Im really gonna miss Her. I love you Nina. If there's one thing you do today, let it be that your thankful for your family and for yourself. We never know when its our timeto go, don't let it be too late. xoxo......Laura

Just Another Day Of Misery And Sadness...
Another day has gone by since she left...its funny how people tell me to just move on....if they only understood HOW MUCH MORE difficult it is for one sich as me to let go....aside from being bipolar, but also the fact of how I much I truly love her... Just another day...another day of nothingness...loss of interest...sitting or lying in bed listening to sad music thinking of suicide as sweet bliss

Verbal Abuse
Visit www.hostdrjack.comCLICK HERE! I always thought after spending time being a volunteer victim advocate that I knew all types of domestic violence that there were as I spent plenty of time educating others. I got out of doing that sort of work because seeing the people who were the victims just upset me too much. Especially when some were very intelligent, recognized the cycle, and still fell onto the lure of the honeymoon period. I have found that I was wrong. I did know all types of abuse, but it took learning about them first hand to understand all types fully. I always kinda pushed aside the verbal abuse, and said that if you didn't have a backbone, that would be the only time that it would effect you. But I have discovered that in fact, it gets worse when you do have a backbone, because it takes more of it to break you. The cycle of domestic violence is a simple one, comprised of three parts- the buildup phase, the blowup phase, and the honeymoon phase. My focus was

Lost
The one person i never thought would ever put me second best has and what a horrible feeling it is...I look back and remember the days when nothing stood between us, the days where anything could be going on and it didnt stop the fact that i was important enough to set it to the side so we could have time together. Now those days are past and there is always something more important or just plainly no time for me. I think my time here needs to end so i can allow room for him to move on, he has new friends, new everything and i don't fit into that place, sitting online waiting my turn isnt what i want, and i sure don't want everything to be on my time and i don't want to be demanding, so walking away seems the best way to do things. It sucks that ppl forget who actually care and would be there no matter what, just because they found a new few friends and forget how much there hurting someone else cause of it! My rant for the day!

Got A Newjob
I started my new job yesterday, finally, after waiting through the holidays for Dr.'s offices to be open and getting my TB skin test read as it is required for my job. I was nervous atfirst going in to work yesterday given where I work, but as the day went on I felt better about it as I gained confidencein myself that I was gonna do fine. My job consists of a lot of standing around doing nothing and in a sense, babysitting, there is also alot of paperwork that needs done. This is my first job that has benefits, finally a real job that has a guaranteed paycheck so I won't have to bust my ass to make tips just to pay the rent anymore. I am excited about this job and my family seems excited as well.

Existence
Even the intellectual understanding of the in-existence of our 'selves' is a rare and bitter attainment which few even attempt. And that is only the elimination round which qualifies us for access to Reality... Intellectual understanding should be not indispensable to a 'simple' mind, but, with our conditioning, it would seem to be an almost inevitable preliminary. - Why Lazurus Laughed by Wei Wu Wei

Too Funny
i guess this person is having one of those days. or maybe they need to list their location as land of confusion.....lol. just got this in the bar tab and it gave me a really good case of the giggles: · hittablunt re-rated you a '10' from a '5'! · hittablunt re-rated you a '5' from a '10'! · hittablunt rated you a '10'! · hittablunt just checked you out! now i have to decide whether to be friends or not...lol

I'm Your Angel
! No Mountains too high, for you to climb All you have to do is have some climbing faith, oh yeah No rivers too wide, for you to make it across All you have to do is believe it when you pray And then you will see, the morning will come And everyday will be bright as the sun All of your fears cast them on me I just want you to see... I'll be your cloud up in the sky I'll be your shoulder when you cry I'll hear your voices when you call me I am your angel And when all hope is gone, I'm here No matter how far you are, I'm near It makes no difference who you are I am your angel I'm your angel I saw the teardrops, and I heard you cry All you need is time, seek me and you shall find You have everything and you're still lonely It doesn't have to be this way, let me show you a better day And then you will see, the morning will come And all of your days will be bright as the sun So all of your fears, just cast them on me How can I make you see... I'll

010808 Horoscope
Today's New Moon in your 5th House of Fun suggests that the next couple of weeks may be filled with more joyful activities than you expect. But paradoxically, spontaneity can now require careful planning and hard work that should pay off later. Don't take any frustration out on others by being too critical. Your laser-sharp delivery can hurt someone with the truth even if your actions are motivated by well-intentioned love.

Dr. B....
turned my life around.... fucked it up... now i have to deal with him again. after being fucking happy for a while. im sitting here with a runny nose, watery eyes and purple lips. i want nothing else to do with this ur wrongs have driven me to insanity AND U DIDNT GIVE ME A CHOICE TO BE INVOLVED IF I HAD A CHOICE I WOULDNT BE DOING THIS RIGHT NOW JUST MAN UP AND ADMIT YOU WERE FUCKING WRONG i want my baby damnit....

December 2007. Going Backwards To Go Forwards Again. That Is What Happens When You Run Before You An Walk
DECEMBER 2007 Well, it is agreed and a relief really to know. It was a seizure and my husband had, unbeknown to me, recorded the part from my last black out, which I was unaware of. Following an appointment with my Neurologist it has been confirmed that it was an epileptic seizure due to how my eyes were. They seemed strange on the video when I looked at it and there was the abnormal breathing, if you could call it breathing. It was more like gasping and spluttering. Yet I remember doing that breathing but was unable to actually stop doing it. It seems that following surgery the course of a seizure can indeed change. My Neurologist was straight to the point and said that these seizures needed halting now before the brain got into the habit of it. This I assume to mean that there is a pathway that messages travel causing whatever action is needed to cause a seizure and once the seizure pathway has been established then it will be easy for it to reoccur again and again, if

Almost Destroyed The Tv.
Yesterday I was bowling on my Wii trying to get to pro, which by the way I did. Anyway I like to "throw" the ball with conviction and I kinda threw it at one point with a little too much conviction. I wound up letting go of the remote. THANK GOD I had it strapped to my wrist, otherwise I would've been a sad panda last night when it came to TV time. lol

Photo Update !
Happy Tuesday I hope your week is going well. I have added photo's to my 'allsorts', 'animals', 'lurve' and 'pretty things' albums. Plus i have updated my 'dunno' section of my stash. Please stop by and leave love. Thank you kindly Lurve Lin xx

Wow...
So I've been chatting with this guy on here pretty much since I got on fubar. Well, I was coming to Charlotte to visit my dad and he lives in Charlotte. We talked about finally meeting for weeks. Then the night before we're supposed to go to lunch he is no where to be found. And then on the day of he blocks me on fubar and I guess yahoo messenger. This has been all this loser has talked about to me. Then all of a sudden he becomes the shadiest mother fucker. I mean no explanation, no fuck you, NOTHING! I just can't see why I always seem to attract these kinds of losers. On the net and in "real life". I fucking give up. This is just fucking ridiculous. Feel free to go down rate him :P http://fubar.com/user/1066290

Ghost Filled
GHOST FILLED WRITTEN BY: CHESTER T. REESE II 12/20/07 One day my heart is filled with the Ghost, so I sit down to pray, But the funny thing is I don’t know what to say, So I say Lord give me the utterance to be able to pray, God comes to me and says my son don’t worry, When the ghost comes upon you be in no hurry, For sometimes it takes to know what to do, But know through that time, Just know that my son and I are forever with you, My Lord thank you Father God, Before you saved my soul, Hell is where I trod, Then I opened my BIBLE, and I realized where I stood, I realized that you sent your son to die on a piece of wood, By the stripes on his back I know I have been healed, When I step in a church my heart is Holy Spirit filled, I know that by his blood I have life ETERNALLY, I never knew a God that could love so thoroughly, My son I have always been with you, Before you were born I knew what you would do, I knew the stumbles in life you would someday

Who Will Control Your Thermostat?
January 04, 2008 Who Will Control Your Thermostat? By Joseph Somsel "There is nothing wrong with your thermostat. Do not attempt to adjust the temperature. We are controlling your power consumption. If we wish to make it hotter, we will turn off your air conditioner. If we wish to make it cooler, we will turn off your heater. For the next millennium, sit quietly and we will control your home temperature. We repeat, there is nothing wrong with your thermostat. You are about to participate in a great adventure. You are about to experience the awe and mystery which reaches from the inner mind to... SACRAMENTO!"* Building codes and engineering standards are generally good things. Updating and improving codes and standards better protect us against earthquakes, for example, as we better understand the weak points and failure modes of existing construction techniques. Requirements that ensure proper handling of sanitary wastes can be largely credited with the increased life spans

Tesatmony
TESTAMONY WRITTEN BY: CHESTER REESE II 12/23/07 If people knew where I’ve been in this world, They would be scared of me, For a long time nobody could see what it is I see, I had no idea what it was that God wanted me to be, I knew the story of how Jesus gave his life for my very soul, I had no idea that God’s love could make my broken heart become whole, Then one day I came to bad place, a place called Jail, God knew this was the time to show me I was on the way to Hell, Even though I knew the story of God’s love, My heart was still filled with pain, I knew how I was living, I also knew it was in vain, All my life; I never cared about God and his only son, In my eyes I hated God for the things people had done, As far as I was concerned, I was happy living in sin, I knew where I was, and I knew where I had been, But see that is the greatest thing about our Lord Jesus Christ, He not only forgives once, but also way more than twice, God knew to let me live

Romantic Jan 8
Dear Tawnya, Here is your couple's love horoscope for Tuesday, January 8: If worries and doubts are coming up about your relationship, just watch them. Don't try and get rid of them or fret neurotically. Observe them instead, and you'll see that they rise and fall of their own accord.

Hey All Update!!!
Ok so it is a new year here is a recap on the old... I got married on October27th of last year and am now due with a baby in May. We are going to be moving again permanently hopefully this summer ;) well that is all for now stay tuned

A Poem I Wrote For What I Did May Of 06
"Pain" 2 go down I feel nothing 5 more go down Still feel nothing 10 more go down Still feel nothing I pick up my phone Dial his number I say Hello He says why are u calling I tell him what I am doing He tells me I am stupid I start to cry harder then I already am He tells me to stop I say I can't He says just shut up Then he hangs up the phone on me I go to my medicine cabinet Find the Tylenol 3 with codeine I hold the bottle in my hand Just looking at the label It says take for "pain" I take the cover off There are 15 left I put them in the palm of my hand I separate them into 3 groups of 5 I take the first 5 Still nothing I take the second 5 Nothing yet Finally I took the last group of 5 Still nothing I go back to the bottle that I started with Which is a bottle of Ibuprofen I started with 200 in the bottle I already took 17 I keep on taking them Until there is 50 left in the bottle At the end I took 150 Ibuprofen and 15 Tylenol with codein

The New Levels For Fubar 2008.
THE NEW LEVELS FOR FUBAR 2008. LVL-1, I'M NEW HERE. LVL-2, WHAT DO I DO? LVL-3,HEY NEW FRIENDS!. LVL-4, THIS PLACE IS COOL. LVL-5, PARTY TIME. LVL-6, RATE LIKE HELL. LVL-7, ADD LIKE HELL. LVL-8, RATE,ADD AND FAN LIKE HELL. LVL-9, GETTING THERE. LVL-10, FUBAR'S FRIEND (SO HAPPY). LVL-11, OVER THE HUMP. LVL-12, ADD STASHES/BLOGS FOR POINTS. LVL-13, PIMP MYSELF! LVL-14, SHOW MY BITS!. LVL-15, SHOW MINE AND OTHERS BITS!. LVL-16, BECOME A DJ. LVL-17, OWN MY OWN LOUNGE. LVL-18, PIMP THE HELL OUT OF OTHERS. LVL-19, BLAST AWAY LVL-20, YEAH BITCHES!!!! KNEEL BEFORE ME! LVL-21, DID I FEED THE KID? LVL-22, I REALLY NEED TO DO SOME WORK!. LVL-23, BUT I'M SO GOOD!. LVL-24, SCREW THE WORK LVL-25, THE KID CAN FEED IT'S SELF. LVL-26, SINGLE AGAIN. LVL-28, MY LEGS HURT. LVL-29,ASK FOR MORE VIP MEMBERSHIPS. LVL-30, OH FUCK WHERES MY FAMILY?.

Hitachi's 1.5" Lcd Tv's
Sick of hearing that phrase yet? I know I am, but I digress. Most major manufacturers are debuting HDTVs that are super thin. How thin you ask? The most impressive display I had the pleasure of laying my geeky eyes upon is Hitachi’s Ultra Thin 1.5 series. Hitachi says these new HDTVs are not for the average consumer, but rather the "luxury consumer." Hitachi even claims the frame on the display has a "subtle bevel to present the picture as if it were a work of art." Clearly, lots of work went in to designing these new displays. And I must say, I'm a hard critic, but you have to give credit where credit is due. And Hitachi certainly deserves praise for their new line of thin HDTVs. The displays will be available in Hitachi's Director's Series, V Series and S Series. The Director's Series and V Series will feature one HDMI 1.3 and one RGB input with audio input. The S Series will have a built in ATSC/NTSC tuner, three HDMI 1.3 ports and two component inputs. Each series will ha

Fubar Excuse
HERE IS THE ANSWER I GOT WHEN I WENT TO THE SUPPORT LOUNGE AND ASK ABOUT ACCOUNTS GETTING HIT WHEN YOU HAVE MORE THEN 1 ACCOUNT WITH THE SAME IP ADDRESS LIKE WIFE AND HUSBAND WITH THERE OWN ACCOUNT BEING 2 ACCOUNTS ON THE SAME IP Contrary to popular belief, you will NOT get reset if you and your spouse share a computer. The rumors are false...you can't believe everything you hear! However, fubar utilizes a fraud detection system that generates a daily report of all accounts that have fraudulently set up accounts under their own to generate points for themselves. This activity has increased since the 10K referral bonus, and fubar will not tolerate this. We call this CHEATING. If you have created fake accounts to generate points at any time under your own account, the system will reset your level, points, and fuBucks. This is not arguable, nor is it reversible. If you choose to cheat...don't be upset when you get caught. Please, we urge you to play fairly and by the ruleboo

She Needs The Luv
LuvDalejr.. Had back surgry on Monday Morning, I know it would help her with recovery to see that people care... I dont know when she will beable to get back online..I wish you a speedy recovery.. and soon we will be out drinkin beer and shackin our asses again. ~LuvDaleJr~@ fubar

Going Offline
Im gunna be offline for the next few days or so.This weekend didn't go well for me, my computer is stressing me out, and people on here are stressing me out. Im having trouble controlling my anxiety/panic, feeling agorophobic, and Im finding myself rather self destructive. Im sorry if im being neglectful or a bad friend.

Madness
Bend me Break me Make me bleed Use me for your twisted needs Love me Hate me Its all the same For one who wishes to play the game Your games though twisted fill my mind Waiting for the proper time Just one error its all it takes For a fragile mind to twist and break I only wish to come inside An tip-toe in your sickened mind We will play hide and seek I will push you You will see That I am you and you are me Nixy

Lust
Laying there beside you - Your fingers trailing along my skin. The anticipation building... I want you again. Body temperature rising, my pulse begins to race. Looking for your eyes, I notice the intensity on your face. I wonder what you're thinking - Will you make me your wet dream? Can I fulfill you fantasies... Be your personal porn queen? Hot breath upon my neck, your teeth meet my skin, Another bruise of lust.. As you bite me once again. I suckle your fingers in my mouth.. I taste myself on your skin. One quick thrust you take me... Forcing yourself deep within. Moments lasting an eturnity, the intensity begins to grow... My body moves in sync with yours, I feel myself letting go. You know how to push my button.. You make me loose control. I beg you to repeat this movement.. Fuck my body!! Tease my soul. :P

Submerge
Bring me into your world... Submerge yourself into my soul. Mesh with my flesh, Take Me! Force me to my knees in submission. Own me for a moment - Let your eyes burn me with intensity, while your hands explore my universe. Deep within me, borrow my everything.

Love
I long for your kiss, the feel of your lips against mine. I long for your touch as you caress my body, The look in your eyes when we gaze upon each other lost in the feeling of love. I long for the feeling that fills my body as we hold each other in a loving embrace, The sound of your angelic voice as you whisper sweetly the words "I love you", I long for the feeling I get when I wake next to you, The feel of you body against mine as we make sweet passionate love all the night long. Most of all I long to just be there with you and holding you in my loving arms.

Patti Labelle
Love, Need, And Want You - Patti LaBelle, 1983 ... (more) Added: November 04, 2007 Love, Need, And Want You - Patti LaBelle, 1983 Label -Epic/Legacy. ------------------------ I love you I love you honey I Love you I do More than you ever know it's for sure you can always count on my love for ever more I Need you I need you baby I need you right now say can you understand your my man and my one desire is keeping you satisfied Bridge Baby when we when we're together say I'm alright and your alright it's like paradise I just want you to know how I feel How I feel Oh I want you I want you sugar I want you so bad I got a burning desire my soul's on fire can't you see you are my everything Baby when we when we're together say I'm alright and your alright it's like paradise I just want you to know how I feel How I feel Oh I love you I love you honey I Love you I do More than you ever know it's for sure you can always c

Huh
my aunts ex husband called a few minutes ago. i told him where she was and then she called me and said for me to be ready to go to columbia when she got home. i guess my uncle joe is coming for a visit who knows how long of a visit. He can keep her straight which is not something that just anyone can do. Mike tried and did a damn good job, but my uncle jo jo is just the shit. Uncle joe loves my aunt but she will not admit she loves him. I told him about what she is going through and he already knew because she told him. he said he take care of her, and he will. I am just waiting on my bitch of an aunt to get home so we can go. yeah shes the bitch dont ever question dat either. peace out dogs

Special Beauty
What is beauty? Where is it found? Is it trapped in our soul? Is it in our heart bound? In the mind of the artist In the eye of the beholder Either beauty erupts Or it fizzles and smolders. Beauty comes from within and yet is external beauty is heavenly and yet, infernal.

Add Kindness
Tuesday, January 8, 2008 Add kindness Whatever can be done, can be done more effectively when you add kindness to it. Whatever is said, becomes much more convincing when expressed with genuine kindness. The kindness in just one moment can have a positive impact that lasts for years and years. Kindness is a gift that keeps giving for a lifetime. Kindness is not complicated, and it comes naturally when you open your heart to life. Kindness brings new light and hope to the darkest of days. Act with kindness, and you will have no regrets. Kindness is an easy, modest investment that pays generous dividends in the sense of fulfillment it brings. Kindness dissolves the pain and speeds the healing. When logic and reason say there is no hope, kindness can pave the way forward. This day will be brighter when you add kindness to it. Choose kindness, and you're truly choosing to live in a better world. -- Ralph Marston

Mission Possible
Crawling forward, back curved and head slightly down My eyes are lookin up at you...can you see the light? Wearing nothing but high heels & my crown What do you think of this woman in your sight? I'm heading in your direction Hear the miniscule sounds of pulsing, thumping, throbbing Behind these eyes you can see my temperature's reflection Tonight its not only your heart I plan on robbing A mission that must be completed However there's no rush I know how you like & deserve to be treated Oh don't be embarrassed, I will make you blush. Give me your lips, arms, heart, body, soul and that which no one's ever shared There's no inch inside and out that I won't sign Pleasing you in a way that can never be compared Tonight you will be all mine. By: Me 1/8/2008 {To a certain someone}

For Blade And Lady T
THATS WHAT BLADE SAY TOO T AND HE ASK HER TOO MARRY HIM..I WANE DANCE WITH YOU TONIGHT THURSDAY BLACKBLADE AND LADY T ARE GONE BE FU WED...BYE ..... 'Dubura21{Owner of Dubura's Den{ pastor }and Enforcer at b*thes r us'... Lady*~T~*W,I,S,E U,K Friends♥Getting FuWed to Blackblade2010♥staff at VIIBRATIONS & DU@ fubar AND Blackblade 2010 getting Fu married to Lady T@ fubar JUST SOME EXTRA INFO .. THE TIME WILL BE.. BLADES TIME GONE BE 10 AM LADY T TIME WILL BE 4 PM DUBURA21 THE PASTOR WHO WED THIS COUPLE TIME WILL BE 11 AM AND THATS THE TIME THE WEDDING WILL BE HE HE EH DUTCH TIME IS THEN 5 PM SO DON'T FORGET 11 AM THE WEDDING WILL BE HOLD IN THE ~VIBRATIONS LOUNGE~EVERY ONE IS WELCOME TOO JOIN AND HAVE A GREAT TIME FOR THIS 2 PEOPLE SHOWER THEM WITH LOVE ON THERE SPECIAL DAY... Visit www.hostdrjack.comCLICK HERE! Music Video:IT'S ONLY LOVE (by Tina Turner)Music Video Code provided by Video Code Zone THIS BULLETIN IS

Throws The Soap Box And Screams
The inability for people this country to care for their elders makes me sick!Caring for them is not just footing the bill for their care. How about a card? a letter? a visit? Age is not a disease! Its a stage in life disguised by media as the "golden years". I work with the elders everyday and see things which turn my stomach and break my heart. Sometimes it is just a moment of your time which they are craving. A simple smile or a warm hug when they are scared. No time?~ sigh life is nothing but time. Make the best of this time you have been granted. Kicks the damn soap box and frowns~ walking off

If You Have A Stocker On Fubar Try These
Lights on, door open, nobody at home. As confused as a hungry baby in a topless bar. About as welcome as a fart in a telephone box. She's got more wrinkles than an Elephants scrotum. As tight as a Camels ass in a Sand-storm. She's stroked more wood than a Furniture Polisher. I've seen better looking bodies at a scrapyard. I've seen better hands on a clock. As confused as a blind lesbian in a fish market. He's as baffled as Adam on Mothers Day. She's seen more ceilings than Michelagelo. She ran off quicker than shit off a shovel. She's as fit as a butchers dog. She's got a face squeezed like a squeezed tea bag. Uglier than a hatfull of assholes. This guy is all foam, no beer. I never forget a face, but in your case I'll make an exception. I hear you're connected to the Police Department - by a pair of handcuffs... I heard when you were a child your Mother wanted to hire someone to take care of you, but the Mafia wanted too much. I

California...
Big Joe made it to California for his brain surgery!!! He is scheduled to be operated on today, January 8, 2008. All prayers are appreciated for Joe. I pray he comes home the same old Big Joe!!! The surgery could leave him deaf, blind, unable to speak, or unable to walk... I spoke with him before he left and he was scared. I told him everything would go exactly as it was supposed to, and to have faith... I also told him to remember how many people loved him and will be there for him when he gets back, no matter what!!! Just when I think my life has all these problems, someone always comes along in my life with something worse than what I am going through. I must remember to remain grateful even on the most miserable of days... Love you Joe! (((HUGGGZZZ)))

The New Levels For 2008
Saw this in a bulletin and loved it its so true lol LVL-1, I'M NEW HERE. LVL-2, WHAT DO I DO? LVL-3,HEY NEW FRIENDS!. LVL-4, THIS PLACE IS COOL. LVL-5, PARTY TIME. LVL-6, RATE LIKE HELL. LVL-7, ADD LIKE HELL. LVL-8, RATE,ADD AND FAN LIKE HELL. LVL-9, GETTING THERE. LVL-10, FUBAR'S FRIEND (SO HAPPY). LVL-11, OVER THE HUMP. LVL-12, ADD STASHES/BLOGS FOR POINTS. LVL-13, PIMP MYSELF! LVL-14, SHOW MY BITS!. LVL-15, SHOW MINE AND OTHERS BITS!. LVL-16, BECOME A DJ. LVL-17, OWN MY OWN LOUNGE. LVL-18, PIMP THE HELL OUT OF OTHERS. LVL-19, BLAST AWAY LVL-20, YEAH BITCHES!!!! KNEEL BEFORE ME! LVL-21, DID I FEED THE KID? LVL-22, I REALLY NEED TO DO SOME WORK!. LVL-23, BUT I'M SO GOOD!. LVL-24, SCREW THE WORK LVL-25, THE KID CAN FEED IT'S SELF. LVL-26, SINGLE AGAIN. LVL-28, MY LEGS HURT. LVL-29,ASK FOR MORE VIP MEMBERSHIPS. LVL-30, OH FUCK WHERES MY FAMILY?. Have a great day all

A Joke To Make You Laugh
A young woman in a coma is moved to a new room in the hospital. After a few days her nurse notices that every time she sponge bathes the patient around her crotch, the nearby monitor indicates that the patient's vital signs increase significantly. The nurse gets the bright idea that oral sex might just provide the stimulus to bring the woman out of her coma. She calls the woman's husband, tells him she thinks oral sex can revive his wife, and he agrees. When he arrives at the hospital, the nurse ushers him into the room, closes the curtain around the bed, and closes the door. Five minutes later, the husband comes running out of the room screaming that all of his wife's vital signs have plummeted to zero and that she needs a doctor immediately. The nurse, upset that her idea not only didn't work, but seemed to be threatening the life of the woman she had sought to save, asked the man what had happened. The husband replied. "I'm not sure, but I think she c

Is It Spring Yet
i was just wondering if it was spring yet, i miss riding my bike and wanna go uncover it so i can go riding, well i think i am gonna go get some fox racing stickers for it today, help spice up the body a little bit, vote on my mumm and tell me what i should do

No Stealing The Joy!
This is the first morning that I have felt half way awake since I woke up on Saturday afternoon b/c I then left Saturday night to work a shift from 6pm Saturday night until 2pm Sunday with an Alzhiemers client. When I arrived her, there was a new shift person that was there for the first time and it had made her extremely nervous and frustrated. I managed to settle her down that evening and she awoke refreshed and rearing to go, while I awoke with a backache from hell b/c I had slept on the wooden futon bed all wrong. It took me a while to get moving and she hopped in and out of the room I was several times asking me what was the agenda today. Finally, I got her engaged in the Joel Olsteen preacher from Lakewood Church in Houston TX on the television. I told her that he was a powerful speaker and she sat and listened with great intensity. He spoke about frustrations and not letting people get under your skin and get the best of you -- in another words, not to let other people s

Sir&sis
i give myself to Sir and Sis i give my self to you and you alone i know i have a long way to go but hopefully,the right way u will show I hope they give me the chance to show them what i can be then maybe they will see what they mean to me i will give myself whole heartly my soul,everything i got us three as 1. i dont want to stop i want to please them be apart of there family so together us 3 we will be

A Cynical Willyism For The Fuckin' Day 1/8/08;
Everybody says they look for personality over looks and money! That is pure unadulterated bullshit! Can you be happy with a fuckin' ugly guy in a refrigerator crate? But let's not forget it takes money to bury the dead!

Custody Hearing Tomorrow
My daughter is going to the custody hearing for her daughter tomorrow...at the moment her and her ex boyfriend have joint custody of the 4 yr old. In recent days he has been telling the child all kinds of things ... Like she was born in Texas. This child was born at the University of Tennessee Medical Center. I was there so I know where she was born. According to my daughter, her had the child were sitting talking one day and he told my daughter that her dad was going to Kill my daughter. only thing is we cant prove it ... these were said out of the blue ... But they will be brought up in the court I am sure ...I just hope that this judge sees him for the pathalogical liar he is. Lets not forget the past 2 times she has gotten Karina from his care and she smelled like she had peed on herself or the time she got her back and there was chewing up all in her hair ad it took 3 hours to get it out...for these we have witnesses

Time To Open My Eyes
So This year hasnt started out the way i hoped it would, just as all the others have, something ends up going wrong in some way or another, but this year was a real eye opener. Of course being that my birthday is on Jan. 1st i usually bring in the year with a bang. and this year wasnt gonna be any different. Granted i didnt drink and do as much as i have in the past but i was gonna make sure it was one to remember. Well needless to say i did enough to land myself in ICU for 3 days. i just came home the other day and i still feel like shit. i cant eat i cant sleep i cant really move that much right now but im still alive, and dependin on who u ask, some say its a good thing. Ive gotten sick before but this one has really gotten to me, seeing my lil girl cryin cause i was in so much pain and hurtin really made me think that its not really worth it anymore, It time to open my eyes and not wait around anymore. ive got all i need right in front of me and i need to start living for that

Beer ~vs~ Putang
Beer vs. Pussy . . . 1. Beer is always wet. Pussy needs a little work. 2. Warm beer tastes awful. 3. A really cold beer is satisfying. 4. If after taking a swig of your favorite beer you find a hair between your teeth, you may vomit. 5. Ten beers in one night and you cannot drive home. Ten Pussies in one night and you do not want to drive anywhere. 6. If you have a lot of beer in a public place, your reputation may suffer. If you eat any Pussy in public, you become a legend. 7. If a cop stops you and you smell of beer you may get arrested. If you smell of Pussy he may buy you a beer. 8. You normally do not find old beer. 9. Too much beer and you will think you see flying saucers. Too much Pussy and you will think you have seen God. 10. In most countries there is a tax on beer. 11. If you have another beer the first one never gets pissed off 12. You can always be sure if you are the first one to open a bottle or can. 1

Yahoo Mobile Services May Run On Google Based Phone
Yahoo mobile services to run on Google-based phones Reuters Published on ZDNet News: Jan 8, 2008 5:14:00 AM TalkBack Share Digg Del.ico.us Print Email 0 0 Tags: Reuters, Wireless, Google Inc., Phone, Mobile, Yahoo! Inc., Viacom Inc., Advertising & Promotion, Telecom & Utilities, Marketing Yahoo will create versions of its mobile Internet services to run on various phone platforms, potentially including Google's phone software and the Apple iPhone, a top executive said on Monday. Yahoo is ready to demonstrate its commitment to mix and match services of its own with those of rivals in a new, more open strategy, mobile chief Marco Boerries told a meeting on the sidelines of the Consumer Electronics Show in Las Vegas. By offering Internet services that work on existing phones rather seeking to compete with mobile phone software of its own, Yahoo can reach hundreds of millions of phone users, Boerries said. Sunnyvale, Calif.-based Yahoo announced a series of enhancements

New Fubar Levels 2008
BIG CHANGES TO THE TOP 30 FUBAR LEVELS 2008 HERE ARE THE NEW LEVELS FOR FUBAR 2008. LVL-1, I'M NEW HERE. LVL-2, WHAT DO I DO? LVL-3,HEY NEW FRIENDS!. LVL-4, THIS PLACE IS COOL. LVL-5, PARTY TIME. LVL-6, RATE LIKE HELL. LVL-7, ADD LIKE HELL. LVL-8, RATE,ADD AND FAN LIKE HELL. LVL-9, GETTING THERE. LVL-10, FUBAR'S FRIEND (SO HAPPY). LVL-11, OVER THE HUMP. LVL-12, ADD STASHES/BLOGS FOR POINTS. LVL-13, PIMP MYSELF! LVL-14, SHOW MY BITS!. LVL-15, SHOW MINE AND OTHERS BITS!. LVL-16, BECOME A DJ. LVL-17, OWN MY OWN LOUNGE. LVL-18, PIMP THE HELL OUT OF OTHERS. LVL-19, BLAST AWAY LVL-20, YEAH BITCHES!!!! KNEEL BEFORE ME! LVL-21, DID I FEED THE KID? LVL-22, I REALLY NEED TO DO SOME WORK!. LVL-23, BUT I'M SO GOOD!. LVL-24, SCREW THE WORK LVL-25, THE KID CAN FEED IT'S SELF. LVL-26, SINGLE AGAIN. LVL-28, MY LEGS HURT. LVL-29,ASK FOR MORE VIP MEMBERSHIPS. LVL-30, OH FUCK WHERES MY FAMILY?. LMAO REPOST THIS SO EVERYONE CAN HAVE A LOUGH!!!!

Dr. Phil Criticized For Britney Brouhaha
LOS ANGELES - Dr. Phil's public brand of tough love sometimes makes him tough to love, particularly among mental health professionals who are accusing television's self-help guru of making an uncalled-for house call on Britney Spears this week. Although Dr. Phil - whose full name is Phillip McGraw - announced Monday that he is shelving plans for a show on Spears' latest breakdown, some in the mental health community say just showing up at her hospital room last week was going too far. "It's true people sometimes need to be placed under involuntary mental health treatment because they can't take care of themselves," veteran psychiatrist Dr. Jeffrey Sugar said of the 26-year-old Spears. "But there's a difference between being detained involuntarily for psychological treatment and being forced to endure Dr. Phil involuntarily." Spears, who appeared to have enough trouble already, saw McGraw barge into her life Saturday when he showed up at her room at Cedars-Sinai Medical Center

Intel Unveils First Mobile Penryn Processor
LAS VEGAS -- Intel unveiled today the first Penryn laptop processors, a follow-up to the Penryn desktop processors that began to appear late last year. They mark a refresh to the fourth-generation (Santa Rosa) Centrino laptop platform and should begin to appear in new laptops next week. The refreshed Centrino platform uses the Mobile Intel 965 Express Chipset, which supports the new Penryn processor, wireless components, and graphics subsystems. Intel will introduce hardware support for Microsoft Vista's DirectX 10 graphics later in the first quarter of 2008. Intel will also introduce an upgraded Centrino platform (codenamed Montevina) later this year. Greener Chips The five new Penryn mobile processors --one Extreme and four mainstream--use Intel's new 45-nanometer microprocessor architecture, which is more energy efficient than the previous 65nm architecture. They still bear Intel's Core 2 Extreme and Duo branding with clock speeds ranging from 2.1-GHz to 2.8-GHz. Although

Angry Diary!
Nicole's Angry Diary entry: "I'll tell you where to shove your Iron!" (warning: This is Political and all opinion, I don’t expect anyone to have or see my personal opinions as I do. I do however want to rant, I do however wish gender rules didn’t apply. I do wish people were evolved and had their priorities straight. If this offends you in any way shape or form then don't bother reading this. If you're some radicalism or are going to see that this has some party line drew out in the sand let me tell you straight up that is not the case. I am merely pissed off about some caveman thinking here and this is NOT a right or left wing deal. This is me tired of hearing scenarios of when a woman shows she's passionate, has drive and is dedicated...Knows what she wants and how she wants it she's a bitch. If she shows some sort of emotion she's merely a weak woman. HA) "Iron my shirt!" What you think she couldn't Iron your shirt and run the country at the same time? You've got to be ki

Microsoft Bids $1.2b For Fast
Microsoft bids $1.2 billion for Norway's Fast Reuters Published on ZDNet News: Jan 8, 2008 4:43:00 AM TalkBack Share Digg Del.ico.us Print Email 0 0 Tags: Reuters, Corporate & legal, Crown, Goldman Sachs & Co., Microsoft Corp., Fast Search & Transfer, Business Structures, Financial Accounting, Tools & Techniques, Finance, Management Microsoft has offered to buy Norwegian Internet-search software firm Fast Search & Transfer for 19 crowns (about $3.54) per share, valuing it at about $1.2 billion, the companies said on Tuesday. Fast shares, which had been suspended all day on Monday, jumped to the bid level and then eased off slightly to 18.90 Norwegian crowns ($3.53) in early trading on Tuesday. "Fast's board of directors has unanimously recommended that its shareholders accept the offer," Fast Search & Transfer said in a statement. "This offer represents a 42 percent premium to the closing price on January 4 (the last trading day prior to this announcement) and values

Bill Cooper: "alex Jones Is A Coward And Liar!"
BILL COOPER: "ALEX JONES IS A COWARD AND LIAR!" Body: This is just before William Cooper was murdered. Now Alex is running around safe and sound while a real truth teller is murdered...

For Your Information - Additional Resource
There is a website that I have found very helpful for me in keeping track of what is happening energy-wise. It's called What's Up On Planet Earth? and is the cyber-child of Karen Bishop - not sure on the last name, lol, but Karen is her first name. Since I haven't figured out how to link anything yet, you can cut and paste: http://www.whatsuponplanetearth.com You can sign up to receive her Energy Alerts. These come out monthly, sometimes sooner, depending on what is happening with the energy around us. Subscribing to the Energy Alerts is free! This will be brief, but I thought all of you would like to know that the fatigue and disconnection most of us have been experiencing should dissipate at the end of January. Much will change as the excavation ends and the restructuring begins, lol. I, for one, will be happy when this occurs!! Much love and warm hugs for everyone! Blessings, one and all, all over the world. You are loved! Later! Muah!

Fubar Baby Pool Contest
EmilyIMAX and BrokenCondom are hosting a Fubar Baby Pool for the date, time, weight, length and gender of the baby we are expecting. This contest will run through January 31, 2008. EmilyIMAX™@ fubar BrokenCondom™@ fubar We are expecting a girl on March 6, 2008. The ultrasound is about 90% positive. There will be 6 prizes: 1. Closest to the exact date wins 50,000 fubucks* 2. Closest to the exact time wins 50,000 fubucks* 3. Closest to the exact weight wins 50,000 fubucks* 4. Closest to the exact length wins 50,000 fubucks* 5. Closest to all 4 combined wins 200,000 fubucks* 6. Closest to all 4 combined plus the error in the ultrasound of having a boy wins 7 day blast or 1 month VIP ~ The pool costs 500 fubucks** to enter for one guess, to either EmilyIMAX or BrokenCondom. ~ Each guess is 500 fubucks, up to 5 guesses per person. Any additional guesses will be removed as will any names that are not recognized. ~ Upon sending your fubucks to either EmilyIMAX

A New Day
good morning friends~! I am awake this morning....that's about it. I have no motivation at all. I laid in bed till 7:30 till I HAD to get up and get my daughter to school. My son is no better. I had to go up and get him dressed to go. But we did get her there on time so that is all that matters. We have eaten our breakfast and he is up in his room playing and watching tv while I check the news online this morning. I'll go upstairs later and watch tv or a movie with him. That's about it this morning. Yesterday I made a mumm and asked about my hair......well, I think I am going to get it cut this afternoon. I am on a blood pressure medicine and all this stress...it's making my hair fall out pretty bad. I have never had thick hair but now it is even worse. And with having to take chemo in a few months, well, it's gonna fall out anyway. So I'll get a new sassy cut (as some people called it) and I'll make sure I get Jeff to take a pic so I can post my new look. Well, that's

Best Bombing Family Ever
Want to meet some new friends and family? Have you ever thought about joining a bombing family? I joined FU-Bombers about a week ago and already I have met some great people who are willing to help you out when needed. No more begging for help to level or for comments or rates in contests. We are a huge online family and are there to help each other. We are always looking for new family members. Please come check out the FU-Bombers family and read the blog on our main page. If you are interested in joining, send a friend request telling Peggy that Insane Beauty sent you. Here is the link to the family website. > FU-Bombers@ fubarWhat is bombing? Comment bombing means leaving as many comments as you can on a picture. The comments do not have to make sense. Most of our bombers just hit random letters on their keyboards and hit enter. The most effective bombing is done when you just hit a few keys and hit submit and do this until you are out of comments.I stress that you read the family

Haircut Request
When a customer slid into the barber chair, the barber asked him how he wanted his hair cut. "Make it short," the customer replied, "with a bare patch above my left ear, but longer on the right side so that it covers my right ear. I also want my left sideburn above my left ear and the right sideburn below my right ear." The barber looked puzzled and said, "I don't think I can do that." The customer replied, "I don't know why not--that's the way you cut it the last time I was here!"

My Daughters Surgery
I just wanted to let u all know that I wont be on as much as I usually am for a few days because my 16 month old daughter Janessa had to go to Childrens Hospital of Pittsburgh to have surgery. She fell and cut her self between the legs and they had to put her to sleep and numb her to get stitches. She went to the hospital on the 6th and had the surgery yesterday. She is home and doing pretty good so far. So please pray for her! She definetly needs it! Oh by the way there are pictures of her in my me folder while she was there!

Update: 1/8/08
Hey everyone, I am sure that my true friends have noticed that I haven't been around much. Well I was taking care of my grandmother and Sunday night she passed away. While she is no longer suffering and in pain, this doesn't really make it any easier to deal with. I am sad that she is gone, but that sadness is laced with a bit of relief that she is no longer suffering. I should be around a bit more after this week and please know that I have missed you all. I hope you have all had a good new year beginning and my love to all of you!! Love Jen

Lessons Learned
I have learned... that nobody is perfect... until you fall in love. I have learned... that life is hard... but I am harder! I have learned... that opportunities should not go wasted. Those which you let go... someone else will take advantage of. I have learned... that when you feel sadness, happiness goes in the other direction. I have learned... that you should always use good/kind words... because tomorrow you could end up eating them. I have learned... that a smile is an economic way of improving your appearance. I have learned... that I can't choose how I feel... but I can always do something about it. I have learned... that when your newborn baby holds your finger in his little hand, he has latched onto you for life. I have learned... that everybody wants to live on top of the mountain... But happiness and growth occur during the climb. I have learned... that you should enjoy the journey and not only think about the destination. I have learned...

I Dreamed I Killed God
Dreamed I killed God and woke up I dreamed I killed God and woke up He was begging please, please, please, no dont I dreamed I killed God and woke up Rain on me in my dream, ah and time drive, and time drives my mind oh Im not safe and no one can save you for some reason talk to me I talk to you, I talk to myself talk to someone else oh, yeah, yeah I want you to follow, just follow its only a, its only a dream, its only a I dreamed I killed God and woke up He was lying, bleeding wishing she was, she was here now, yeah, yeah He died, its passing its passing, hopefully hopefully, do what I did I dreamed I killed God, I dreamed I killed God I dreamed I, is he dead I remember thinking so, they said he was, he was, he was dead couldnt have been I dreamt it again Oh,yeah

I Want My Fucking Leash Back!
To go into something blindly is bad, to lead a prospective loved one out of the loop but down the same path is a lil pathetic. A trusted 'shepard' weaving a trail of lies, while leading through the hills. With good faith front and center, the sheep know your intent is good, but fail to see why they tread such trecherous path. When the taken path's destination and all that it holds is known, one questions the qualifications of the shepard. Why must life-altering secrets be withheld to gain trust? To break away from the heard is deadly, but natures best instinct. I see the path more clearly now, but my mind is too clouded to strategize my next move. Stepping with wreckless abandon, I flee. Ashamed to face facts that I could not make it, ignorant of my leader. So many questions unanswered, so much time already lost. Shepard had to have his secrets, but with no reguard to final cost?

.:good Night:.
So much to say, but no words can be put in place to define what needs to be said. The sorrow of the day weighs heavy on my shoulders as I lay down to ease the tension with fairytale fantasies at night. Clinging to the cold steel beneath my pillow I rest easier. The silence grows thicker as time passes, its suffocating. I lay my head atop pillows, drenched in tears shed over causes long lost. Drifting in and out of reality, I fill my head with comforting memories. Facing the door and the window, I invite the warmth of the blankets to my soul, while I watch shadows dance about my room, like fairies causing mischief. Losing the security that drives me to meet the waking hours full force, I drift away.

:):):)
Your eyes which first held me captivated where I stood. Your smile to dazzle the sun and warm every corner of my soul. Your voice like a sparkling mountain stream which flows into my heart. Your walk and the way your gracefulness takes my breath away. Your hair about which I dreamed cascading into my face as you leaned over me. Your hands whose caress I crave to hold my face in their tenderness. Your arms I long to have around my neck as you pull me close to your warmth. Most of all everything you are changed the way I feel about my life. I love you.

Why Is It Like This
why do people like to say there are u friends and turn around and stabb u in the back when u need them the most they arent there i wonder why they even consider themself ur friends i dont understand why someone that says they are ur frineds turn there backs on u

Psych!!!
I feel myself changing as a person... not better or worse off... just different. I catch myself day dreaming randomly about some particulary grusome, yet amusing prospects. I've been seeing red again also... maybe I should tell someone, but i wont. I feel the time bomb ticking in the pit of my stomach as if implanted by some foreign scientist as a sick joke. So much has gone wrong, and so much more is failing by the minute, that I can only amuse myself by wondering when it'll go off. What really IS my limit. Im starting to feel like a caged animal... one thats being antagonized and pushed... everyone has a breaking point and im starting to crack. Tomorrow is NEVER promised today, and 'later' may just be too late. I find myself itching for life... craving it like an addiction. I feel as though im missing out on something AMAZING by doing 'nothing'. I have bigger dreams and aspirations than most; their just in a different catagory. I want a one-way bus ticket to vegas and 50 bucks to

Self Reflective Rant
I am beginning to accept the fact that growing up leads to seclusion. I can't talk to friends anymore about things going on in my life, nor can i ask advice about it, all i get is solutions i've already thought of and disreguarded for one reason or another. It seems I cant even talk to older friends because they feel they know whats best for me even though it doesn't make me happy, or fit who i am. I have no one that i can talk to thats on my level. Friends are supposed to be empowering, helping to bring you up not drag you down right? I feel the need now more than ever to dissapear for a while, but in the back of my mind i know that when i come back i will have no one. Im stuck between leaving everyone behind me and being completely alone to suceed in life, and forgetting who i am, becoming lost in adolesence which will get me nowhere... My friends have always been my life but at the same time, i always carried them through their storms and fought alone through my own. I feel a

.:the Sweetest Dreamer:.
While surrounded by a cold bleak world, I dream... My dreams take me to a better place, over-ruled by love. Reality should be so much better than it seems, It kills me to know that for the human race, there is no hope. My dreams make the pain futile, they take me from the fright. Dreams of you, curled up beside me, My precious dream catcher throughout the night. I know not the warmth of your touch, or the feel of your body next to mine, but I know we wont have to wait much longer, for in my dreams its you I find... You are simply too good to be true, but I know how you make me feel, I know i've fallen for you. You've plagued my dreams with your world... and it draws me in..., I cant let go. You are simply stated, the most amazing person that i have ever known. In my dreams I feel so loved... Just to know im not alone ~Cause:Unknown~

The Real Me
heres the real me, There are two sides to every coin, hate and love, life and death, friend and foe. I hang in the balance of it all. Wicked thoughts with angelic intentions, and endless hope amongst a crushed reality. Pure intentions with human outcomes. As my name states i am simply the sweetest of contradictions, living day to day, and fighting the battle between good and evil. Not many people understand me, and not many ever will. Either you get me or you don't, there is no kinda sorta. I am a complicated person that likes to have fun. My biggest downfall is my maternal instincts. I think i can save the world sometimes and it never fails to cause trouble but such is life... thats it for now and btw if you read this tell me the penguins stole your soul:.

Lmfao
One would think that a lounge who is advertising WET T SHIRT CONTESTS would have a bit more of a sense of humor. Not so. Relentless Radio sent out a HUGE bulletin advertising prizes and such, so I thought I would go check it out. Even subscibed to the lounge as soon as I entered. Just as I entered, some stupid b@tch named mami something or other "hit" me with an amish buggy. WTF? So I joked back saying that was just foreplay. What the hell am I SUPPOSED to say? I haven't even gotten my seat warm and that's how I am greeted. She then kept on, 'hitting" me with various objects such as a homemade house. I retorted with "Tell you what, Mami, you raise my silo and I'll fill your barn." Admit it, it's a funny line. That line was immediately deleted. So I said, "F@ck this, I'm outta here." and unsubscribed and left. Then I have some idiot from the room thinking that rating my profile a "1" http://www.fubar.com/user/1418189 You gotta love someone that thinks something like th

Tuesday Opie And Anthony Links: Rock Scream Tuesday, 80's New Wave Tuesday, Harvey Levin From Tmz, Rich Vos, Paltalk Cameras Are Live, New O&a Vid
LISTEN TO TODAY'S OPIE and ANTHONY SHOW ON AUDIBLE (link usually active by 3pm EST) O&A ANIMATIONS ARE ON iTunes NOW!! (Watch Anthony the Italian Stormchaser!) It's Rock Scream Tuesday and 80's New Wave Tuesday on the Opie and Anthony Radio POgram, and we're hanging with comedian Rich Vos today, who is promoting his gigs at Penguin's in Davenport, Iowa. Harvey Levin from TMZ.com is also checking in to the show to tell us all the latest celebrity dirt. Remember, if you want to see any of the in-studio goodness, breakfast and booger-eating, just turn on your PALTALK and go to the 'Opie and Anthony LIVE' room. Of course, you might want to check out the Ladies Of PALTALK, who spend their mornings showering, sleeping nude, getting dressed, having the morning sex, or having a morning dump (scratch that last one). In honor of the Rock Scream, you can crank up some Jim Gillette, call up the show (new number: 877-212-OandA), and do your best Frankie Goes To Hollywood impression (you know

I Feel Like I Am At Coyote Ugly's
Good Morning. I see where an Oregon Mayor is in trouble over a My-Space page she has. Apparently it’s a bit too racy for the residents of that Oregon town. The Story: ARLINGTON, Ore. - Some residents of this small town wish their mayor felt like she had something to hide. Mayor Carmen Kontur-Gronquist created a stir with her My Space page, where at one time anyone could see photos of her on one of the town's fire engines, clad only in a black bra and panties. Now only her friends have access to the page, but some people in this eastern Oregon community of about 500 are still upset. No need to go any further, I do agree with her. But, I also somewhat agree with the residents of the town as well. She should be able to have a my-space page, just because you are voted into an office and represent the people it doesn’t mean you give up life and liberty which we still each of us have. Although, and I shutter to say this being a man. Perhaps the Panties and Black Bra are a bit racy. Gosh… I

Ignorance!
Coming out of the store and I see a woman take her cart and push it right against the back of my Durango!The cart return was only two more spaces down.She simply turned around and went to her car like no big deal!When she had turned and seen that I saw her, she made no attempt to get the cart or apologize for what she did.What happened to common courtesy and just asking for help if you need it? I of course bitched the woman out which wasn't that polite,but hopefully embarrassed her enough that she won't do that again!Please if you need help just ask and if your going to just half ass something then don't bother!!!

Redneck Subbies
I found this years ago and then modified it by adding more to it, just a little humor I wanted to share.. Redneck subbies.. If you have ever gone to a play party in curlers and a kerchief, you just might be a redneck sub. If you count your spankings "1...2...3...the next number...the next number...the next number...", you just might be a redneck sub. If your safeword is "cut it out or I'm tellin' Maw", you might just be redneck sub. If you know what your Master expects from you by the way He belches, you just might be a redneck sub. If your Master tells you to fix him a steak, and you start by loading the shotgun, you just might be a redneck sub. If fulfilling your Master's every whim means picking up a 12-pack and changing the TV channels for Him, you might just be a redneck sub. If you have ever been bound and gagged in the bed of a rusty pick up truck,you just might be a redneck sub. If you have ever tried to brighten the dungeon decor with a p

This Was Written For Me
I love that sexy look in your eyes I wanna give you something, yep a surprise I'm gonna rip off your clothes, and give your butt a smack You so damn sexy I don't know how to act I'm gonna kiss you on the neck, and bite it a lil bit Toss you in the bed and start sucking your tits I'm gonna suck and suck till you can take anymore I wanna hear you say "stop it baby they are so sore" I kiss my way down you till I get to your lips Fingering you as I suck your clit I pull my finger out and turn you around I slide my dick in and start to pound I spank your butt and pull your hair I smack your butt harder and you don't seem to care I'm going fast and deep, my balls are beating your clit Your pussy feels so good wrap around my dick Your moans are hot and they make me fuck you harder You are so wet,it feels like I'm being splashed with water I grab your hips and I start fucking you faster and faster until you can't take anymore But I keep on fucking till your

First Day Of Work Was Fantastic
wow the first day of work was truly fantastic... firstly cause it was only for 3hrs *a normal work day for me will be 4hrs in future*, secondly cause i got to sample the products that i'll be making in future *i smell sooooooo nice*:) & also when i left home this morning i told Taylah i'd be happy if the washing was brought in off the line & the dishes were put away... not only did she do that but she also did 2 extra loads of washing & hung them out *no you can't borrow her she's my house maid LOL* i really do have the best job & the best daughter in the world today:D

Nsfw
i have a son with down syndrome and we are having trouble figureing out how to get him potty trained. he is 4 years old but he can't talk and tell us when he has to go to the bathroom. if ther3e is anyone on here who think that they might be able to help me with this problem. please send me a message. sorry about the nsfw but i just wanted to get everyones attention. sending love shorty.

Ready For Love
Ready For Love Take my hand and lead the way; tell me all you want to say. Whisper softly in my ear, all those things I want to hear. Kiss my lips and touch my skin; bring out passions deep within. Pull me close and hold me near; take away my pain and fear. In the darkness of the night, be my beacon, shine your light. In the brightness of the sun, show me that you are the one. Give me wings so I can fly; for I can soar when you're nearby. Enter my heart, break down the wall, it's time for me to watch it fall. I've been a prisoner, can't you see? Break my chains and set me free. Strip me of my armor tight; you'll find I won't put up a fight. Release my soul held deep within . . . I'm ready now, let love begin.

Peace
Happiness is in the heart of the beholder. So with this I smile because God has my heart. In the world we live in, we often forget the most important thing in life.... God. We get busy, trying to please those around us, family, friends, boy friends/girlfriends,or husbands/wifes. We often push away the one who is always here for us no matter what. The one who has never hurt us. Why do we do this, I don't know, nor am I going to justify it. I'm guilty of it beyond a question of a dought. tho I'm not proud of it, I am neither ashamed to admit. When we push God off to side, it is at that moment that life as we once knew it is no more. This is the moment when things go from bad to worse. I know that with me, I ofter forget to thank God as soon as things start to head south. and everytime this has happened I have notice that things then began to spiral out of control, and I just wish I where dead. Sometimes it is easy to submit back to God, other times this isn't so. This last tim

A Love Story Compared In Poetry To Art.
A love story compared in poetry to art. Poetry is like painting. A poet''s work is never done. Strokes and words keep rearranging. Fresh beginnings that have begun. Beauty comes in many colors. Hues splashed across my heart. Each brilliant shade glimmers. Words giving life to Michelangelo''s art. Passion brings rise to new feelings. Feelings of love that grow. Colors begin revealing. Words begin to flow. Come paint a love picture. Paint across the canvas of my heart. Each loving stroke Is brighter. As love grows from the start. Tenderness guides each stroke. Love brings life to every word. Magnificence begins to uncloak. The sweetest poem ever heard. A love story continues to play, On the canvas of my heart. Beauty in a portrait conveys, Devotion that will never impart. Words are incandescent. Paintings of glorious splendor. Penned with love so vibrant. Painted on my heart''s canvas full of color. Paint this lov

Dela-johnny Clegg
One day I looked up and there you were, like a simple question looking for an answer. Now I am the whale listening to some inner call, swimming blindly to throw myself upon your shore. What if I don't find you when I have landed? Will you leave me here to die on your shore stranded? I think I know why the dog howls at the moon. I think I know why the dog howls at the moon. I sing dela, dela ngyanya dela when I'm with you, dela, sondela mama sondela, I burn for you. I've been waiting for you all my life hoping for a miracle, I've been waiting day and night, day and night. I've been waiting for you all my life waiting for redemption, I've been wating day and night, I burn for you. A blind bird sings inside the cage that is my heart, the image of your face comes to me when I am alone in the dark. If I could give a shape to this ache that I have for you, If I could find the voice that says the words to capture you. I think I know, I think I know, I think I kno

Being In Love
Being in Love I’m in love—utterly and completely, Without the slightest doubt! It took an awful lot of painful practice; Lots of bleeding, bumps and bruises. Heartache after heartache, Heart growing all the time, Searching feverishly for my one true love; Not realizing all along, I was moving in the right direction— Getting closer each moment, following the clues; Until I finally awoke to what I had dreamed, Just to see that dream come alive with love— A love that just grows into a future, With few fears; scared but safe, To experience love not from the sidelines, But from the inside out, Top to bottom and front to back; Letting go and giving in to the true love That was always there, Waiting patiently to be seen and taken in And then given back. Loving, from now on, forever and then some; Knowing very well where it a

Gurl Confessions
1. Do you sleep in your bra? no 2. Have you kissed any one on your top list? ya 3. Are you happy with your looks? yeah somewhat. 4. Do you enjoy drama? hell nah 5. Are you a girly girl? yeah 6. Who was the last person you hugged? chris 7. Small or large purses?' depends 8. Are you short? average 5'5 9. Do you like someone? LOL 10. Do you care if your socks are dirty? yes 11. Do you think you’re conceited? no! 12. Are you a bitch? i can be 13. Do you dress up on Halloween? sometimes. 14. Are you double jointed? just 2 fingers on my right hand. 15. Where is the weirdest place you have slept? my moms minivan with my bestfriend at the time tim, LOL. 16. Has anyone touched/smacked your butt in the past 24 hours? ya 17. Is there any type of rumor going around about you? im sure, lol. 18. Do you call anybody by their last name? ya 19. Have a Fubar account? ya. 20. How many guys do you think will end up reading t

Able To Feel
I may be repeating this one accidently but its worth repeating.... Able to feel Sometimes your feelings can hurt profoundly. Yet wouldn't you rather have those painful feelings occasionally than never having any feelings at all? Your feelings let you know you're alive. They tell you, in ways that words cannot, who you are. Through your feelings, you discover what means the most to you. With your feelings, you're able to build rich, rewarding relationships. Feelings can indeed be messy and inconvenient, yet they're certainly nothing to be ashamed of. Without feelings, life would be terribly flat and empty. When a feeling seems to be uncomfortable or even unbearable, choose to dive more deeply into it. Somewhere in there you'll find something very positive, comforting and affirming. You feel because you are, and you feel because you care. Those are things about which you can genuinely feel great. -- Ralph Marston

Check Out Da Picture Of My Girlfriend, Aint She Hot?
usually i dnt do this but i searched it up on google 5 minutes ago and it scared me so im reposting this... check 4yerself it really did happen, for once, a real live true chain letter... creepy Don't stop reading you will regret it! girl meets a boy on a messenger crazy1 86: hey baby!!! h0tNsPiCy91: who is this??? crazy1 86: ur secret admirer!!!!! h0tNsPiCy91: oh really.... quit lyin! who is this??? crazy1 86: i loved u the first time a stared in your eyes... crazy1 86: i think about u everyday... you are my dream come true. crazy1 86: we met once! i dont think u remember tho. crazy1 86: i cut myself because the pain takes away my feelings of u. crazy1 86: u will see me sometime tonight.... h0tNsPiCy91: ..WHO IS THIS!?!?!? crazy1 86:dont worry.... ill take very good care of you... crazy1 86 had signed off. The girl was so scared she locked all her doors and windows. She made sure her room was secured. She wasn't sure i

Lounge Disaster
OMG my friend that was going to help code my lounge dipped on me sooooo.... PLEASE excuse my lounge for now... join and i SWEAR you WILL love it when I am done.. ANYONE who is good with creating them PLEASE feel free to get at me... MUAH To you all, thanks in advance for you support

Why Are Some People So Rude!
So i posted 2 mumms tonight one about touching ok no problem but then i do one about my son being so hyper and and his mood swings and i get called a bad parent, i can take being called a bitch or anything else but dont god damn call me a bad mother these people dont know me well enough to call me a bad mother, since when is worring about your kids a bad thing! Im not tryin to med him just because he is hyper that kids but if there is something serious wrong i wanna find out is that such a bad thing? not tryin to be a baby about it but it just pisses me off its like serious mumms people wanna be all shity and the sex mumms its a totally differnt thing.. I could never be that rude to someone

Life
i hate to tell u all, but i am totally happy with the way my life has turned out, yeah i've lost one ot two of my best friends along the way,.. but i also know that if i asked any of my remaining friends for help they would be right there. I may not have made many good decisions in my past but i always knew who my friends were and made sure they were taken care of. Therefore i consider myself to be one of the luckiest people in the world. Literally between my friends and family i know i WILL make it thru ANYTHING. So i feel sorry for any of u that can't say that cuz yeah i would die for my family and friends no questions asked! We are THAT DAMN CLOSE! honestly, i wish you all that kind of relationship and life!

Danie 101
ARE YOU: 1. Obsessed with sex? At times... 2. Are you tall? Not too tall & not too short :) 3. In your pajamas? Night gown 4. Left handed? My dad is... me not so much LAST: 1. Friend you saw: Darrin 2. Talked to on the phone: Diablito 3. Person to text you: Diane 4. Was today better than yesterday: Ummm not so much... bout the same FAVORITE: 1. Number: 3 2. Season: Spring/Summer QUESTIONS & ANSWERS: Q: What was the first thing you did this morning when you got up? A: Stretched out in the recliner Q: Do you have anything bothering you? A: A lil bit yeah tho its not just one thing... Q: What's the last movie you watched in theaters and who'd you watch it with? A: National Treasure: Book of Secrets; My younger brother, Older sis with her hubby & nephew Q: Where is the last place you went? A: Movies Q: Do you smile often? A: Some days Q: Do you wish upon stars? A: Every once in a while Q: Where did you sleep last night? A: In a recliner Q: W

Contest Update!
At this exact moment, I need a little over 10,000 more comments and rates on my pic for the contest! Thanks so much to everyone that's helped me! If you want to help more, or have friends that might, feel free! Thanks again everybody!

Friendship
Friendship . . . . . . is you. . . . is love. . . . is shared. . . . is forgiving. . . . is understanding. . . . is shared secrets. . . . heals many hurts. . . . is not judgmental. . . . is shared laughter. . . . is slow and steady. . . . can be angry at times. . . . is dependable and true. . . . is more precious than silver or gold. . . . is meant to be savored like fine wine. . . . is not perfect, much like we are not perfect. . . . does not hold grudges or demand perfection. . . . makes all the wrong things in life, right somehow. . . . is meant to be gulped like lemonade on a hot summer day. . . . is always there, through times of trial, happy times and hard times. . . . just happens, but once discovered, needs to be tended like a beautiful garden. . . . is a road to be traveled slowly, remembering the sights and sounds. . . . is strength when you are too weak to notice its there. . . . is a cherished moment of mutual understanding. . . . reaches into your

My Angel
My Angel by Melissa Miller What do you dream of, my angel? Do you dream of starless nights, or of the sun? Maybe even summer breezes? Or do you dream of cold winters, Being alone and afraid? What do you dream of, my angel? Do you dream, like me, of happiness? A place where everything asked is served And everything deserved, given? Do you dream of hope, my angel? What do you pray for, my angel? I pray for you. I pray that you are loved and happy. For you see, my angel, I am only human And cannot repay what you have given me. So, what do you pray, my angel? And what do you dream, my angel? For I hope there is nothing less you receive

Liers
im guessing 95% of women on here a liers your cool sub not you realy ive talked to women here then they turn out to be too faced liers im so tired of it realy fucking tired of it fubar is now called lierbar most are fake cheaters sluts rember this isent everyone im going by people ive talk to thought were friends your a bunch of fake asses

Oh Valentine, My Valentine
Oh Valentine, my Valentine, are you out there on this earth?I need you, I long for you, I've wished for you since birth. So much love to give, my heart pure as gold.I want so badly to find you, to hold you,and be with you till we’re nice and old. Please tell me that you’re out there, I've waited for so long.I need you oh so badly, to share with you my hearts song. I long to hold you in my arms and tell you that I love you.But most of all I long for, you to love me too. Oh Valentine, my Valentine, there’s no words to express.The love that I have for you,my feelings I know not how to confess. I hope you're out there somewhere, I hope one day I'll see.That there truly is someone out there, someone just for me. ~Michael~ Click the above image to rate / rip / comment!

Eden
One day in the Garden of Eden, Eve calls out to God. "Lord, I have a problem!" "What's the problem, Eve?" "Lord, I know you've created me and have provided this beautiful garden and all of these wonderful animals, and that hilarious, comedic snake, but I'm just not happy." "Why is that, Eve?" Came the reply from above. "Lord, I am lonely. And I'm sick to death of apples." "Well, Eve, in that case, I have a solution. I shall create a man for you." "What's a 'man,' Lord?" "This man will be a flawed creature, with many bad traits. He'll lie, cheat, and be vainglorious; all in all, he'll give you a hard time. But, he'll be bigger, faster, and will like to hunt and kill things. He will look silly aroused, but since you've being complaining, I'll create him in such in a way that he will satisfy your ah, physical needs. He'll be witless and will revel in childish things like fighting and kicking a ball about. He won't be too smart, so he'll also need your advice to thi

Angels In My Life
There Have Been Angels In My Life There have been Angels in my life, while they haven't arrived with a blast of trumpets or a rustle of wings, I've known them just the same. They performed their acts in human guise, sometimes borrowing the faces of family and friends, sometimes posing as well-meaning strangers. You have known them too, when just the right word was needed, when a tiny act of kindness made a great difference.... or perhaps you heard a voice whispering in the night of sorrow, the words not quite clear but the meaning unmistakable......"There is hope...... There is hope."

Just Writing
abandoned again, forsaken,forgotten unwanted and unnecessary, again the world makes me Fight to keep whats mine. I'm growing cold again and I cant stop it this time. I don't know How any more. My strength is fleeting and my will is wavering. I want to fight but then again I want to Die. I have lost my faith and it takes more to wake i the morning to face what I have become then to take the cowards way out. I fight to keep my self sane and to keep what belongs to me. I don't know how long I can bare this burden alone? I try my best but I guess thats not good enough any more . I'm invisible to most and to the rest I'm merely and object to lust after. I guess I have no right to want any thing for myself . I guess Im wrong in the fact that I think I dersive to be loved needed or wanted. I guess for now I will find peace in the shadows with my demons to keep me. bec

I Will Think Of You
When the sun sets like fire, I will think of you, when the moon casts its light, I'll remember too, if a soft rain falls gently, I'll stand in this place, recalling the last time, I saw your kind face. Good fortune go with you, to your journey's end, let the waters run calmly for you, my dear friend. - Brian Jacques

Real Women
Real women know that you can't win by trying to out-shout a man; relationships are like judo, and the key is to use the man's energy against him. Real women never beg. They allow their men to serve. When her man says, "I need a little space right now," a real woman goes on a cruise. When her man says, "I don't want to talk about it," a real woman hears: "I'm afraid of looking small and foolish in your eyes." A real woman never allows her man to believe she is dependent on his high opinion. The Real Woman's Credo: He is what he is because I allow him to be that way. A real woman doesn't try to change her man. She uses her feminine wiles to get him to change himself. A man really doesn't need to be the boss. He only needs others to think he is. A real woman knows to keep up appearances for his sake, while she gets her way behind closed doors. A real woman tells herself every day: "He doesn't know how lucky he is." A real woman generally hides her claws but give

Long & Short
Don't usually do blogs, always been told the less people know about you the better off you are, but im the type to always do something at least once, so i'll give this a go... I am 25 years old, and have been through more shit in my life and seen and done more then almost everyone i know. I have watched 2 very close family members take there last breath and currtly fighting to keep my mom alive. Me and my mom are like best friends, always there for each other, have no secrets, tell no lies. Though it would probly kill me along with it, if it comes to it, i will stand next to her bed and watch her take her last breath, she watched me take my first breath, so the least i could do is be there for her till the very end, i just hope that aint soon. I have lost my Aunt and Grandpa both to cancer, and that is currently what my mom is fighting. I have been in 4 accidents i should have died in and walked away from all of them without a scratch (why i go by Lucky). I have pics from a few o

White Rose
White Rose by Walter Poe In the storm Stands the white rose tumultuous waves of destruction abound her Yet tall is the white rose strong in the face Of the sensed doom around her And she does not bow down Pure is the white rose In the compost earth growing eternal strength in the nights that so hurt I see not the white rose She is so far away But I long to protect her But only the words can I say So I send her my words And my poets heart To help her when there is hope to see her through Be Strong little flower Your heart will guide true And as long as you want I will always talk to you

Learn You Some Poetry, Part Deux
You, my ever-gracious throngs of adoring fans, must be eager with anticipation for my upcoming blog about the presidential campaign. The primaries are underway. Mudslinging is in no short supply. Media pundits are in political orgasmic ecstasy. (Eeewww. Perhaps I should not have let my mind stray that far!) In any case, my essay will be nothing short of hilarious, insightful and rather vitriolic. I'm gonna tear a few people some new ones 8-P Be patient. My wisdom and wit is forthcoming, my future minions and underlings ... er, I mean friends, Romans, countrymen! For now, I entertain the masses with poetry courtesy of one of my English courses at The University Formerly Known as Southwest Texas. Enjoy. Remember: it's polite to laugh WITH me, not AT me ;-P LOL Understand a gap is not a nothing the temptation of an open space is to fill it of a silence to break it of a look to speak it and still solitude may foolishly be constructed as loneliness. Was N

How Do You Go On?
What do you do, when are sitting there finding yourself, an asking yourself what did i do wrong? Being a 24 year old guy already been married an divorced before 1 year. You dreams an everything that you work so hard to get just seems to be falling apart. An the only person that you though that would be there to help you out no matter what, is dead. An you are left there asking your self how can i keep this up, it seems like for ever 1 step you take head you are taken 20 backwards in its place. An you life seems to be like a book thats just getting dull an you wish it was over with. My questions is this why do it happens to people an how. Is it just that you are getting old or is it that you needs to find something to make you happy or what? if anybody know the answer please let me know i am all ears.

Meet Me In The Stars
Meet Me In The Stars As I am saying good night, at the end of the day, And you are not here but many miles away, My heart is so empty and so lonely inside, As I wipe away a tear I am trying to hide. I close my eyes and try to go to sleep, But with the sadness inside I begin to weep. Suddenly I remember what you once said to me, Just meet me in the stars, waiting for you I will be. When distance tends to keep us apart, Remember, I still hold you near in my heart. When the night together, can't be ours, Just close your eyes and meet me in the stars. Remembering those words, I begin to smile, And gently close my eyes, lessening the miles. I can see the stars, oh how beautifully arranged, But you are not there, no hug to exchange. I sit alone waiting with hope in my heart, No longer wanting to be kept apart. Suddenly in the distance a shadow appears, A tear rolls down my face and the image is clear. There is no question it is you who I see, Waiting in the

Last Breath
From those around I hear a Cry, A muffled sob, a Hopeless sigh, I hear their footsteps leaving slow, And then I know my soul must Fly! A chilly wind begins to blow, Within my soul, from Head to Toe, And then, Last Breath escapes my lips, It's Time to leave. And I must Go! So, it is True (But it's too Late) They said: Each soul has its Given Date, When it must leave its body's core, And meet with its Eternal Fate. Oh mark the words that I do say, Who knows? Tomorrow could be your Day, At last, it comes to Heaven or Hell Decide which now, Do NOT delay! Come on my brothers let us pray Decide which now, Do NOT delay! Oh God! Oh God! I cannot see! My eyes are Blind! Am I still Me Or has my soul been led astray, And forced to pay a Priceless Fee Alas to Dust we all return, Some shall rejoice, while others burn, If only I knew that before The line grew short, and came my Turn! And now, as beneath the sod They lay me (with my record flawed)

Too Cool
Ramones - I Wanna Be Sedated Lyrics Twenty-twenty-twenty four hours to go I wanna be sedated Nothin' to do and no where to go-o-oh I wanna be sedated Just get me to the airport put me on a plane Hurry hurry hurry before I go insane I can't control my fingers I can't control my brain Oh no no no no no Twenty-twenty-twenty four hours to go.... Just put me in a wheelchair and put me on a plane Hurry hurry hurry before I go insane I can't control my fingers I can't control my brain Oh no no no no no Twenty-twenty-twenty four hours to go I wanna be sedated Nothin' to do and no where to go-o-o I wanna be sedated Just put me in a wheelchair get me to the show Hurry hurry hurry before I gotta go I can't control my fingers I can't control my toes Oh no no no no no Twenty-twenty-twenty four hours to go... Just put me in a wheelchair... Ba-ba-bamp-ba ba-ba-ba-bamp-ba I wanna be sedated Ba-ba-bamp-ba ba-ba-ba-bamp-ba I wanna be sedated Ba-ba-bamp-ba ba-ba-ba-bamp-ba I wanna

Guess What I Can Do The Same.....
I'm tired of people singling people out ,I'm going to start marking pics NSFW just for the hell of it ,I'm sorry if you live in the past or are jealous ,you need to get a life. I've had pics where I'm completly clothed not even showing my bra marked nsfw that bull crap. Haters beware...thats all I have to say.

Packing For Vegas . . .
Well, it's that time of the year again . . . AVN Convention time 2008! This year should prove to be better than ever. My studio partner and I have rented a 6 Bed Room, 5,500 sq. ft. loft with a game room, hot tub, wet bar, and all the extras. It's only three blocks east of the middle of The Strip. My partner, others, and I packed the van over the weekend with enough lights, gear, and equipment for us to produce some major content over the four days of the Convention. He left today, Monday with the van and I fly in tomorrow afternoon, Tuesday. AVN starts Wednesday at 9:00 with a huge opening day party that night and runs through Saturday. Saturday night is the big AVN Awards dinner followed by a closing party from 10:00 PM to 10:00 AM Sunday. What I'm really excited about, besides the huge crowds and all of the Studio's Contract Girls is being able to use the new 1080i HD cams that we've just bought to shoot video with while we're there (that's what the big loft's for . . lol)

Into The Unknown
Into The Unknown THIS HARD TRANCE & OLD SCHOOL RAVE SET WAS CONSTRUCTED IN 1994 FOR A NATIONAL DJ COMPETITION WHERE I MADE IT THROUGH TO THE FINAL. MIXED ON BELTDRIVES. http://www.esnips.com/doc/9af7b106-6434-4987-9b90-1c7ba2b23906/DJ-Muzik-AL---Into-The-Unknown_128

Exposure Of Fox Pollster Betrays Media Slant Against Ron Paul
Exposure Of Fox Pollster Betrays Media Slant Against Ron PaulCongressman's supporters confront Frank Luntz Steve WatsonInfowars.netMonday, Jan 07, 2008 Frank Luntz, a political pollster who regularly appears on Fox news' presidential race analysis and has been heavily criticized for his manipulative methods and slanted coverage, has finally been exposed for the fraud he is after it emerged that his "randomly selected" and "undecided" focus groups, that constitute the figures for his news features, are being populated by the same people months apart from each other. Watch the following video for the evidence: The same man appeared twice, four months apart, as part of Luntz's and Fox's post-GOP debate "random" focus group! Luntz describes his profession as "testing language and finding words that will help his clients sell their product or turn public opinion on an issue or a candidate." He has won hundreds of polls for private corporations and lobbying groups but is better known fo

Record Breaking Temperature Jan.7,2007
yesterday, it was a record breaking 68 degrees. it hasnt been that warm in January since 1901 when it was 64 degrees. along with this record breaking temperature brings freakish weather conditions for this time of year. so instead of snow on tuesday we will have severe thunderstorms, high winds and isolated tornados. oh fuckin' yea..( sacastically) I fuckin' hate it when we are under a tornado watch. seriously. i believe that and the humidity is what makes me hate this state and being out east. fuck all this shit. right now it is 62 degrees and its after 1 am maybe 2 am, i dont really know at this point, i cant sleep or stay asleep, had the weirdest fuckin scary dream since like forever. I hear people arguing outside, bout to go put the chain lock on muh door, d/k what good that will do if they can get passed the dead bolt. Yea, I can already tell this is gonna be yet another bad fuckin' day. im constemplating on whether we should go to unemployment tomorrow or not, depends if it s

Eden Conner Odonnell
Was born tonight at 11:58pm in Trumbull Memorial Hospital In Warren Ohio Baby is 6 lbs .02 oz and 19.5 inches long Mom had a long labor and had baby by c section Baby is gorgeous and well and mom recovering .. Please pardon my absense for a few days as ill be at the hospital

~*~update~*~
Ok let me just say that this is not because of any one person, but rather to just clear the air! I am not cold bitter person nor am I so miserable that I just stay depressed all the time. Yes, there have been somethings that I have been dealing with that haven't made me to happy but other than that, I am a happy person for the most part. I apologize if that is the way you see me due to my poems, but if you can only see me the way I described above, then you don't know me at all. I have been writing for quite a long time, yes I will be the first to admit that some of the later ones have been kind of down, but contrary to what some might believe, the things that I write comes from the heart but not all of what I write has a thing to do with myself, but it comes out for others around me. I am a great friend to those that I hold close, when they hurt, I hurt. So with this all being said, I want to wish you a great day/night which ever it might be for you. Thanks for taking th

I Am Bill.
AIGHT SO I SO I AM LEGEND. EXCELLENT FUCKING MOVIE. SEEN IT THREE TIMES NOW. THING IS, IN THE MOVIE, WILL SMITH HAS A HARDCORE OBSESSION WITH BOB MARLEY. IN ONE SCENE, HE'S WASHING HIS DOG, AND HE PUT'S ON THREE LITTLE BIRDS AND STARTS SINGING, AND I HONESTLY HAVE TO SAY THIS IS MY FAVORITE SCENE IN THE ENTIRE MOVIE!! NOW ME, I HATE MARLEY, THE MUSIC IS FAR TO SAPPY, AND I HATE THE RASTAH WANNA BE'S THAT GET HARDCORE INTO HIM. YET LISTENING TO THE MOVIE, AND HEARING THE SONG I HAVE REALLY GOTTEN INTO IT. NOW I'M GOING TO MAKE YOU ALL SUFFER LIEK ME AND POST THE SONG. ENJOY AND IF YOU HAVEN'T SEEN THE MOVIE I HIGHLY RECOMMEND YOU CHECKING OUT. PEACE OUT AND SHIT.-COLOR BLIND CRIMES. P.S. NAKED AND RASTAH!! NOW SUFFER!!

Appology
I know this is prolly gonna make a few people mad, but this is somethin I feel I have to do. I must appologize to Lord for leavin the KOW the way I did. Although my feelings haven't changed, I will continue to be an independent bomber (bombin on my own)helpin anyone out that I can. This was prolly not needed, but I felt it was. I shouldn't have just left the way I did, but as I said before, I will not be dragged into any drama, I have enough in my personal life, I don't need it online either. I will help anyone in any way I can, just as I have always done throughout my life.

I'm Still Working On This One
She forgot how to live Forgot to love She hides in darkness Holds her heart in hands Seeing the blood from her eyes Hears the voice of those who put her there Dark room of madness Feeling nothing Lost You can see hell in her eyes Laugh is meaningless Her thoughts have no ending She lies behind a smile of pain No one knows the laugh and smiles are lies to hide what is real Her looks are deceiving and she is an arties At one time Her eyes like angles in the sun Her smiles can go for miles Her laugh as sweet as summer’s day Her hugs so warm Her voice ever gentle She lights a room with her glow

True Love!!!
TO WHOM IT MAY CONCERN, FAMILY FRIENDS SO ON AND SO FORTH, WIKDCLOWNZ69 AND I ARE A REAL COUPLE AND DO PLAN ON BEING TOGETHER IN THE FUTURE!!! TO ALL OF OUR FAMILY AND FRIENDS WHO SUPPORT US AND HAVE OUR BACKS, WE LOVE YOU AND THANK YOU... AND TO ALL THE HATERS AND PEOPLE THAT DON'T BELIEVE IN US AND DON'T BELIEVE THAT IT WILL EVER HAPPEN, PLEASE FEEL FREE TO REMOVE YOURSELVES FROM OUR FRIENDS LIST, AND JUST LEAVE US ALONE!!! MMFWCL TO THE MAFIA FAMILY AND MUCH CLOWN LOVE TO ALL OF OUR CLOSE FRIENDS!!!

What's Up?
I wonder how I begin to describe what the past few weeks have been like for me? It truly is not easy, especially since right now I know I am not dealing with my usual self. Not only dealing with all the after effects of surgery, but losing one of my best friends of the last 12 years and not knowing where the ones I call my "best friends" are. I guess with some I was blind when it came to some friends and with others I was ignorant. I truly don't know what has become of me. I do know that a lot of the changes has to do with the surgery. The cancer was all over my cerebral cortex, thus that is where they had to perform the procedure. Now for those of you who do not know, the cerebral cortex is the behavioral center of the brain. With me, having a cancer crawling all over it and then having it cut into during the procedure, an effect on my personality was almost inevitable - it changed my behaviors in many ways. My neurologist has noted I may act like a 12-year-old instead of a

Bulletin
Come Join the Fu-Bombers !!! Want to meet some new friends and family? Have you ever thought about joining a bombing family? Since joining the FU-Bombers, I have leveled key values of fam. I have also become very close with some of family members. We are a huge online family and are there to help each other. We are always looking for new family members. Please come check out the FU-Bombers family and read the blog on our main page. If you are interested in joining, send a friend request and be one with the best bombing family around. Here is the link to the family website. What is bombing? Comment bombing means leaving as many comments as you can on a picture. The comments do not have to make sense. Most of our bombers just hit random letters on their keyboards and hit enter. The most effective bombing is done when you just hit a few keys and hit submit and do this until you are out of comments. Click The Picture For Link To Main Page Of the Fu-Bomber Family

Why??
What is the point of stopping by and not say hello?? I think that is pretty damn rude..I could less about the points..but is it really that difficult to be nice and say hi??....I noticed that 98% of my profile viewers didnt bother to say hi..Not even calling me a bitch(which has happened)... So that had me thinking..There is like 400 + on my friends list and I maybe talk to 20 regularly...That just tells me that the rest are either just there to earn a few points or simply an "attention whore"..Or both...I am neither and thats why I could less about points and wont lose any sleep over deleting peeps that are just taking up space... Well thats all folks..Im done with my rant...for now anyway..lol Time to finish up the deleting...

The Way Life Is.
Life is so hard as nuch as u make it out to be. But if u have the people u love around u and the ones that make u happy life will only get as easy as u make it. so make life as fun and full as u would want someone else to be.

My Heart
I dont know what it is about me but for some reason or other I have this huge heart and no matter how many times I get burned in the process I am still a very loving and caring person and I would give a total stranger my last dollar if it would help them out.. I am one of tose hopelessly romantic types a cuddlewhore ive been called.. Id rather hold someone in my aarms than sex i mean dont get me wrong love sex im a natural nympho but its just the fact of I like holding somone close to me I dont know if its just because of how I was raised or maybe seperation issues from a young age but I want to please my woman and make sure shes happy no matter what the cost might be.. as long as shes smiling im happy and thats the way I am with not just my woman but an of my close girl-friends and im that way with my guy friends to but not the whole holding thin im a complete homophob... im saying I want the best for them and whatever they need im more than willing to give them... Im always at the en

Use Less Gasoline??
Bush wants us to cut the amount of gas we use..... The best way to stop using so much gas is to deport 11 million illegal immigrants! That would be 11 million less people using our gas. The price of gas would come down..... Bring our troops home from Iraq to guard the Border....When they catch an illegal immigrant crossing the border, hand him a canteen, rifle and some ammo and ship him to Iraq ...Tell him if he wants to come to America then he must serve a tour in the military..... Give him a soldier's pay while he's there and tax him on it..... After his tour, he will be allowed to become a citizen since he defended this country......He will also be registered to be taxed and be a legal patriot......This option will probably deter illegal immigration and provide a solution for the troops in Iraq and the aliens trying to make a better life for themselves...... If they refuse to serve, ship them to Iraq anyway, without the canteen, rifle or ammo..... Problem solved.....

The Irony Of It All
It seems the more advanced our society becomes, the more primal behavior we exhibit... I have never understood the ways of our world. Where selfishness, greed,and violence, the infliction of pain and brutality on the helpless is complacently accepted. When did "homeless" become acceptable? When did a divided family prove to be the best thing for all involved? Give the kid a 300.00 xbox and all will be well. He can learn all he needs in life. Ever wonder how your mother is surviving her retirement on $700.00 a month graciously given by the government for all her hard work? While we find our own little way to shut it all out,telling ourselves that it is someone elses problem,laughing at the pain displayed on our airwaves, the plague continues to grow worse. Where does a 12 year old child learn that to stop a baby from crying, you beat it with a baseball bat? Who protects the abused? When do we put down the cell phone, or the game controller and see the world as it truly is? We have

The Night
It was not a dark and stormy night. There was nothing about this night to distinguish it from any other. The wind didn’t gust so much as it meandered, too weak to rustle leaves or slap against windows in contempt. The sundown activity of this small community was listless, as if the sunset were no miracle at all. It was one of those nights that you go to the bar not because you’re looking for fun -- there’s no hope of that -- but because you are trying to anesthetize the boredom. Hemingway once wrote, "It’s awfully easy to be hard-boiled about things in the daytime, but at night it’s a different story." He was right. It’s the nighttime when the mind begins to swirl: Where am I going? What has my life become? It’s why bars are for the evenings. But I wouldn’t even call this night an "evening." An "evening" has character, some class even. It was simply a night. And this was a bitch of a night. Two guys were playing pool, shooting as though neither c

Show Me I Can Trust You
I'm trying to give you my trust Because you've got my heart Please don't play with it I'm tired of the same games I want you to know I really do have something for you I hope you feel the same way to. Can we make this work? I honestly don't know Where this is gonna lead us I barely know you But you got me dreamin of u every night Do me a favor babe? I'm gonna try to give My trust to you Just please... show me that I can

~god Called One Of His Angels Home~
Just wanted to let my dear friends know~ that My sweet granny went home to be with her Heavenly Father~ She passed away this morning at 10:37am, at the Hospice House... We moved her from the hospitol Sunday evening, to the Hospice House, so we could make her as comfortable as possible... And to lesson her suffering~ We all are pretty much okay~ the hardest part right now is seeing my grandpa cry.. We will celebrate her life on Thursday.. So I just wanted to share this with my dear friends.. The next few days will be really crazy~ So just wanted those of you who care to know.. that I will be off and on as time permits..... Thanks for everything....