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Every Woman Should Follow These Rules
From an Old Woman to a Young Woman Date: 2009-09-01, 1:22PM PDT 1. You are not a victim. No matter what happens to you, don't take the pussy route and blame the world for your misfortune. If you were sexually assaulted, verbally abused, etc and lived to tell about it; take your pain and help those who need it. Writing emo poetry isn't going to solve anything. 2. Invest in your education first, your looks second. Anyone can pay a plastic surgeon to look hot, but not everyone can read a book and do simple math. 3. No matter what you call it, having a 'man to take you shopping' is glorified prostitution. He wants you for your body, you want him for his wallet. Cut the crap and call it what it is. 4. Do not seek confidence in other people. Magazines, celebrities and most pop influences are there to make you feel like you're nothing. Don't buy into it. Those celebrities need your money to look fabulous. Invest in yourself, not hype. 5. Stop fueling gossip mongers [Perez Hilton, TMZ

Grandmothers & Grandfathers
can you relate to this GRANDMOTHERS and GRANDFATHERS Have you ever given any thought to the difference between a Grandmother and a Grandfather? Well, here it is, as best explained by a young Granddaughter. An older gentleman, who worked away from home all week, always made a special effort to be with his family on the weekends. Every Sunday morning he would take his 7-year old Granddaughter out for a ride in the car which provided them with some important bonding time. This was a time he set aside for just him and his Granddaughter. One Sunday morning however, he was suffering from a terrible head cold and was confined to his bed. He just couldn't make the ride on this day. The girls Grandmother, knowing how her Granddaughter looked forward to the weekly trip, came to the rescue. She said she would happily take their Granddaughter out for a ride on this Sunday.

"the Coat Hanger"
A woman was at work when she received a phone call that her small daughter was very sick with a fever. She left her work and stopped by the pharmacy to get some medication. She got back to her car and found that she had locked her keys in the car. She didn't know what to do, so she called home and told the baby sitter what had happened. The baby sitter told her that the fever was getting worse. She said, "You might find a coat hanger and use that to open the door." The woman looked around and found an old rusty coat hanger that had been left on the ground, possibly by someone else who at some time had locked their keys in their car. She looked at the hanger and said, "I don't know how to use this." She bowed her head and asked God to send her help. Within five minutes a beat up old motor cycle pulled up, with a dirty, greasy, bearded man who was wearing an old biker skull rag on his head. The woman thought, "This is what you sent to help m

Not So Fun When It's Your Mom Huh?
Lil Johnny walks in the bedroom and dad has mom bent over goin at it. Dad winks at Johnny and Johnny leaves. Dad thinks he better talk to Johnny. After lookin through the whole house dad finds Johnny upstairs with grandma bent over puttin it to her hard. Dad flips out. What the hell are you doin? Johnny winks and says... Not so funny when its your mom huh

The Heat
It was the heat that did it, she told herself later. She'd been riding home on the bus on one of those sweltering hot days that New York gets in August. Everyone else hated it - all she had heard all day was "It's a hot one, eh?" and "Hot enough for you?" But she loved the heat. She always felt sexy on a really hot day. It made her so much more aware of her body. It was sultry, it was tropical, it was steamy and humid and sensual. The bus was crowded as usual and she hadn't gotten a seat. She'd lived here long enough to not expect anyone to give up a seat, and she was right, but today she didn't mind. The plastic seats just stuck to your skin anyway. She liked the feel of the air on her body. She wrapped her hand in the strap and relaxed, letting her body sway easily with the motion of the bus. People were crowded close, but no one was actually touching her - New Yorkers' personal space was smaller, but just as carefully maintained. She liked riding like this. All the windows were w

War Of My Life
Come out Angels Come out Ghosts Come out Darkness Bring everyone you know I'm not running I'm not scared I am waiting and well prepared I'm in the war of my life At the door of my life Out of Time and there's no where to run away I've got a hammer And a heart of glass I got to know right now Which walls to smash I got a pocket Got no pill If fear hasn't killed me yet Than nothing will All the suffering And all the pain Never liked to label I'm in the war of my life At the door of my life Out of time and there's nowhere to run I'm in the war of my life At the core of my life I've got no choice but to fight 'til it's done No more suffering No more pain Never again I'm in the war of my life At the door of my life Out of time and there's no where to run I'm in the war of my life I'm at the core of my life Got no choice but to fight 'til it's done So Fight on, fight on everyone, so fight on Got no

Friends, Lovers Or Nothing
Now that we are over As the loving kind We'll be dreaming ways To keep the good alive Only when we want is not A compromise Ill be pouring tears Into your drying eyes Friends, lovers, or nothing There can only be one Friends, lovers, or nothing We'll never be the inbetween So give it up You whisper "Come on over" Cause your two drinks in But in the morning I will say Good-bye again Think we'll never fall into The jealous game The streets will flood With blood of those who felt the same Friends, lovers, or nothing You see There can only be one Friends, lovers, or nothing We'll never an inbetween So give it up Friends, lovers, or nothing We can really only ever be one Friends, lovers, or nothing Don't you know We'll never be the inbetween So give it up No we'll never the inbetween So give it up Anything other than 'yes' is 'no' Anything other than 'stay' is 'go' Anything less than 'I love you' is ly

I Will
i will find a women to love me for who i am, i will find a women who love my friendship, I will find a women who wont ask for anything, I will find a women who accepts for who i am, I will find a women even its not on earth, I will find a women in the after life, I will find the women i lost so long ago, i will find a women who wont lie to me, i will find a women who will love me forever. peace and good night my fu friends and family Bedrock

Burnt
Their ugly words pelt her skin like rocks!"Whore!" they callThe accustion stabs her pride over an overBleeding the truth from her wounds"Filthy Slut!" They just wont stopShe cradles herself to the ground as the blurred faces bring slurred anger to her earsTerrifying personas "Disgusting Skank!"Please make them stop she screamsBut noone cares for her wish right now"Burn The whore! Burn her alive!""Stop please dont. Im not a whore!" but she knows she isDeep down, she knows she deserves to be burnt______________________Her melting flesh fills the air.....................

Always Something There To Remind Me
I walk along the city streets you used to walk along with me, and every step I take reminds me of just how we used to be. Well, how can I forget you, boy? When there is always something there to remind me. always something there to remind me. As shadows fall, I pass a small cafe where we would dance at night. And I can't help recalling how it how it felt to kiss and hold you tight Well, how can I forget you, boy? When there is always something there to remind me. always something there to remind me. I was born to love her, and I'll never be free. You'll always be a part of me. If you should find you miss the sweet and tender love we used to share. Just go back to the places where we used to go, and I'll be there Well, how can I forget you, boy? When there is always something there to remind me. always something there to remind me. I was born to love her, and I'll never be free You'll always be a part of me. 'cause there is always something there to remind me. always something there t

Out To Sea
This song, Out To Sea by Smile Empty Soul, fits how Ive been feeling lately almost exactly. Im too apathetic to find a widget for it, but if you want to hear it I know you can find it on playlist.com. Here are the lyrics anyways: The air is cold im getting oldAnd going nowhereThis job is shitI wanna quitBut money is scarceI'm on my knees begging please but you don't careEveryday seems the sameAnother blank stareAll i want is to breatheTo feel like theres a part of meThat still believesin all my hopes and my dreamsTo know that theres a heart that beats inside of meAgainI hate this townAnd all the soundsThat drive me crazyI wanna run and buy a gunBut im too lazyI feel so deadI feel so numbWill nothing phase meI check my pulseBut nothings thereI think im fadingAll i want is to breatheTo feel like theres a part of meThat still believesin all my hopes and my dreamsTo know that theres a heart that beats inside of meAgainOut to seaNothing but waves to surround meAnd all i feel is painIts

Asking 4 Everyone's Help!! A True Contest!!
Can you Please send me a vote for a smile contest.. Only some of you know this but, one reason I done :D in my pictures anymore is due to a lot of dental issues I've been having as well as heart issues. I finally decided to put my insecurities aside and hope for the best for this contest. I will appreciate more than anything all the votes you can send me!! Thanks.. PK aka Smurfette!! http://www.1800dentist.com/my-smile-bites/christina-g-collinsville-il-dentist-fall09

Depressed
First of all i don't like to hurt anyones feelings, especially when i feel so close them. I only have a few real friends on fubar, and i hurt the feelings of one of my very very best friends. I need to find a way to make it up to her somehow someway because i feel like im such an ass for hurting her. I feel like crying even at my age and then being a soldier cuz men arent supposed to cry. Oh Please forgive me im so depressed for hurting you

Bi-partisan Bill To End Hepatitis Epidemic In America
http://www.aasld.org/journals/111209/Pages/RepHondaIntroducesBi-PartisanBilltoEndHepatitisEpidemicinAmerica.aspx Rep Honda Introduces Bi-Partisan Bill to End Hepatitis Epidemic in America | Congressman Michael Honda (D-CA), chairman of the Congressional Asian Pacific American Caucus, introduced the bi-partisan Viral Hepatitis and Liver Cancer Control and Prevention Act of 2009, to address a national Hepatitis B and Hepatitis C epidemic impacting America. The bill incorporates the monitoring, testing and research and education provisions contained in the Hepatitis B and Hepatitis C bills from the 110th Congress. Rep Honda’s bi-partisan legislation was drafted in strong partnership with Reps. Charles Dent (R-PA), Edolphus Towns (D-NY), William Cassidy (R-LA), David Wu (D-OR) and Anh “Joseph” Cao (R-LA). They are joined as original co-sponsors by Reps. Todd Platts (D-PA), Delegate Donna M. Christensen (D-VI), Barbara Lee (D-CA), Bobb

Zombie Types And How To Combat Them
Let's say you're walking along minding your own damn business one night when suddenly out of nowhere, a Zombie pops out and has the audacity to try and assault you. What is it you are supposed to do in this situation? You could run, but how do you know for how long, where to, and how fast? You could fight, but how do you know what to fight with, where to strike and how hard? You could plead, but how would you know if this Zombie has the capacity to understand what you are saying? You could play dead, but then you’d just get killed.Unfortunately there is no single answer to this question, as there are many different kinds of Zombies with just as many different methods of dealing with them. There are several varieties of the typical garden variety zombie, depending on what caused the people to become zombies, they may show different varieties of physical and mental strength, and naturally, the tactics used to fight each variant differ accordingly.Luckily for you I found this list o

Miss Her
miss her I miss her smile and her lovely face I miss her laughter that used to fill this place I've wanted to ask her so many things now There's things I dont know I need her to show me how I've been wanting to hug her and hear her chest beat I've been longing to see her hold my babies, so sweet She taught me so much like what not to fear Yet I keep forgetting what is safe to hold near I need her this very moment I'm confused and in disarray Pieces of me are missing and I want to fly away I miss her.... yet, even today I can say that someday I'll see her again ....I'll have had my last lonely day And even if its just for now I'll take some comfort from this stick through every tomorrow and cherish each one of my babies' kiss

Halo By Beyonce
Remember those walls I builtWell, baby they're tumbling downAnd they didn't even put up a fightThey didn't even make up a soundI found a way to let you inBut I never really had a doubtStanding in the light of your haloI got my angel nowIt's like I've been awakenedEvery rule I had you breakin'It's the risk that I'm takin'I ain't never gonna shut you outEverywhere I'm looking nowI'm surrounded by your embraceBaby I can see your haloYou know you're my saving graceYou're everything I need and moreIt's written all over your faceBaby I can feel your haloPray it won't fade awayI can feel your halo halo haloI can see your halo halo haloI can feel your halo halo haloI can see your halo halo haloHit me like a ray of sunBurning through my darkest nightYou're the only one that I wantThink I'm addicted to your lightI swore I'd never fall againBut this don't even feel like fallingGravity can't forgetTo pull me back to the ground againFeels like I've been awakenedEvery rule I had you breakin'The risk

Wonderland - 7/16/09
WONDERLAND Buried alive in your own mind. Dig it up and shove it down. Swallow whole the sediment, after riding the river rapids of colorless thought. Into the rabbit hole you go. But not just sliding on the curves; Ricocheting off the right angles of conflict. You attempt a quick move to the left And a desperate search for any and all crevices Has your digits doing their best talon imitation But you are then viciously jerked back to the right where Touching bottom leaves you instantly bereft As you discover your imagined plight was motionless Do you cover your eyes with your hands? To the subtle hues whispering in the back of your mind Or do you slap yourself to see where truth stands?

[thy Neighbour]
You should definitely do everything you can to have th cops bang on your door at three fucking thirty on a saturday morning within the first month of your stupid ass moving accross the street from me.What the FUCK?And why does it have to be loud enough to wake me up?Isn't it bad enough that I get woken with regularity now to the sound of gunfire? Now I'm gonna check one more time to see if that dip shit pig has gone home, put in some eyedrops because waking me up prematurely causes my entire system to slam into a wall, and go back to the room that I left my dog crying in.

I Have A Rendezvous With Death
I HAVE a rendezvous with DeathAt some disputed barricade,When Spring comes back with rustling shadeAnd apple-blossoms fill the air—I have a rendezvous with DeathWhen Spring brings back blue days and fair.It may be he shall take my handAnd lead me into his dark landAnd close my eyes and quench my breath—It may be I shall pass him still. I have a rendezvous with DeathOn some scarred slope of battered hill,When Spring comes round again this yearAnd the first meadow-flowers appear.God knows 'twere better to be deep Pillowed in silk and scented down,Where love throbs out in blissful sleep,Pulse nigh to pulse, and breath to breath,Where hushed awakenings are dear...But I've a rendezvous with Death At midnight in some flaming town,When Spring trips north again this year,And I to my pledged word am true,I shall not fail that rendezvous.

Poem
If I could catch a rainbowI would do it just for youand share with you its beautyon the days you're feeling blue.If I could build a mountainyou could call your very own;a place to find serenity,A place to be alone.If I could take your troublesI would toss them in the sea,But all these things I'm findingare impossible for me.I can't build a mountainor catch a rainbow fair,but let me be what I know best,a friend who's always there.This is a Hug Certificate!

Love
I'm always amazed at how fast life can change. You would think with everything I've been through in my lifetime that nothing would cease to amaze me or catch me off guard anymore, but they still do. This has been the craziest, hardest, and best year of my life to date. It started off rocky. I honestly would have laughed in any and everybody's face had back in January or February they told me this is where I'd be at with my life. I wouldn't have believed them for as much pain and suffering as I was going through. I dont think any amount of combination of words will ever begin to describe the kind of pain Donnie left me in. I don't miss him. I don't even think about him when I see that silly engagement ring. Its when feelings I had for him, I find myself having for another person that I think about him. It's when all those same feelings I thought I'd never get to experience or feel again in my life start to surface again that I think about him. I've spent a lot of time trying to ignore

About Me. Haters: I Just Don't Care. Get Over It.
I'm a Straight Up, No beatin' around the bush, Blunt A$$ Bish. If you Can't handle the Truth - that's Not my problem. I'm as Real as they come and if you can't be real, then I have No time for you. I pity Nobody. Love me or Hate me - you're Still thinking of Me. I have NO remorse for my words or actions. Get on my bad side, and I'll roast you like a pig. I Fear NOBODY - I'm a 100% Jersey Girl. I Roll with the High Rollers. I don't hang with the dogs - period. So if you think you're some big bad dawg, Then go back to the Kennel where you belong. If need be, I'll even call you a Whambulance to get there. I try to be reasonable - but Sometimes Life Isn't Fair and Not Everyone has common sense OR RESPECT, and Need to be put in check. I have No jealousy, and No envy - Your Dreams are Likely My Reality. I LIVE the Salt Life - Hated & Envied. And if you Disrespect Me, my Significant Other, my Family, Friends, or Others I have Respect for... I won't think twice about Deleting you from

I Miss You (poem)
As I sit here listening to your Love-Song CD... i miss you more and more....... i miss the way i felt when i looked at you i miss the way you would say"awww your so sweet" i miss hearing you say"ur my lil china doll,my lil einstein" i miss feeling you next to me i miss the way you gave me the silly lil smile.... i miss the way you looked SO excited when Id pass you & give you THAT look i miss the way you would run into the bathroom,,just to be with me. i miss walking with you i miss dancing with you i miss seeing you in my bed i miss seeing you outside i miss the way you'd tell me that you love my cooking i miss the way you'd tell me I had to call you cause I'm a female & fragile... i miss holding your hand i miss holding you at night i miss looking in your blue eyes i miss the way you took my breath away i miss being able to tell you I LOVE YOU!!!!! i miss you, i miss ALL of you. I MISS MY WORLD WITHOUT YOU I MISS YOU !!!!

I Survived
I have survived the lose of my childhood, the lose of babies growing inside of me, of my innocence when I was young. I survided the lose of loved ones and the loss of friends. I will survive the loss of you. If I have to I will survive it Ok But My Love Theres always a way When things look like theres no way remember theres a way To do the impossible To survive the unservivable Theres alwaya a way and you, you and I have this in common we're inspired In the face of the impossible We're inspired So if I can offer one piece of advise to you Today if you become frightened Instead become INSPIRED.

Love Of A Vampire
Your tongue burns my cool skin like molten flame, As you pierce my soul I silently scream your name, I kiss your lips and taste your bloodied soul, Feel the blood engorge us and make our love whole, You come to me silently on wings of blackest night, Consuming my heart with your dark lover's bite. Joyously my blood gushes forth and splashes your face, As my fevered body you now so passionately embrace, My soul sings your black desires in endless refrain, My dark angel lover you make pleasure such sweet pain.

139 Pics
I went through some photo albums...picked out photos of memories that I didn't want and of him. The only pics I kept of him are ones with some friends and my cats when they were kittens. 139 photos. I only had 3 albums..I don't know where the wedding album is at....I found the honey moon album...I tosses some pics of him out from there but just taped up the album with tape and kept the rest. The photos...are being tossed in the garbage. His mom isn't here in town to dig into the garbage again to retrive any photos...Im sure he will see the pics or I will leave it in there for him to see...just wonder what he'd think..probably nothing which is fine.

Mexican Words!
MEXICAN WORDS!! The teacher told pepito to make sentences with his spelling words:1.*cheese*Maria likes me,but cheese fat.2*mushroom*Wen all my family gets in the car, there isnt mushroom3*shoulder*My friend didnt no how to make tacos so i shoulder4*texas*My friend always texas me fwds5*herpes*Me and my friend shared a piza,i got my piece and she got herpes6*july*Ju told me ju were goin to the store,and july to me!!julyer!!7*rectum*I had two cars but my wife rectum8*chicken*I was going to the store with my wife but chicken go by herself9*wheelchair*We only have one soda but its ok wheelchair10*chicken wing* My mom plays the lottery so chicken wing11*liver*A bully was messing wit my sister and i told him to liver alone12*body wash*I wanted to go to the bar but no body wash my kids13*budweiserThat woman over there has a nice body , budweiser face so ugly ?

Sitting Here Thinking ......
Sitting here with the ragging voices in my head well I dwell on myself being if everything in life has a purpose what does it all mean ??? to have loved to be loved to be left alone life remains a circle as it repeats time to time with past recognition an looking towards the future on a broad new horizon taking chances each time wile moving along not knowing whats next as I lift my head to hold onto my inner soul sometimes feel a loss as with the broken pieces of my heart an soul hope to reconnect to a time when valor honor respect honesty an love were true

High School Crush
You and a bunch of your friends from high school decide to get together and rent a beach house for a month. You pack up and fly to some exotic place to set everything up. The next day everyone starts to show up and you see her walking up the front steps. You've had the biggest crush on her since junior high. The two of you were practically inseparable all through high school. You couldn't remember but you thought she went on to become a supermodel. You duck into the kitchen before she sees you, not wanting her to read the lust in your eyes. You open the refrigerator and pull out a beer, hoping for a little courage. Your best friend comes into the kitchen sayin, "Holy shit! Did you see Kat? She looks like she stepped off the front cover of VOGUE." "Yeah, I saw her, why do you think I'm hiding in here." "Damn, you still have a thing for her, don't you?" "Is it that obvious?" "Only to those who know about it. Let's go hang out on the beach. I brought Spike so we can throw the frisby

To My Friends!
hankful Category: Life The words may always be the same, but the tone of voice, or time of day, or the changing situations in our lives give them thousands of different meaningsSometimes these 3 words are spoken in the heat of passion, when words are not needed at all. Sometimes they are whispered to reasure us, and to give us hope. They give us a boost in self-confidence, and they seem to help end our nasyt little fights."I Love You", does not always mean I’m in love with you, but maybe they mean "I care About you, or "I’m glad your in my life".I will never get tired of telling my friends "I Love You", because I do. Those are the 3 most important words I can say to you, and never once will I regret saying them.Thanks to all of you my "friends", who I Love, not only today, but for the rest of my Life! I LOVE YOU!!!!!

All About Me Scroll Down To See. Things Being Retarded
Name: DevinAndell Birthdate: June,25 1985 Birthplace: Rehoboth,Delaware Current Location: Orlando,Fl Eye Color: Blue Hair Color: Red Height: 5-11 Weight: 235 lbs Piercings: not yet Tatoos: not yet Overused Phraze: Fagbag!! FAVORITES Food: Chinese,Italian Candy: War Heads,and any Number: 69 Color: red Animal: Dragons and wolves Drink: pepsi Alcohol Drink: baileys irish cream Bagel: onion Letter: f Body Part on Opposite sex: eyes they are the window to the soul This or That Pepsi or Coke: pepsi McDonalds or BurgerKing: Burger King Strawberry or Watermelon: both

Everybody Poops
(9:41 AM) Steven: i got a poop question for ya sammie. have you ever had to go poop and while doing it, it smelled so bad you stayed in the stall until everyone left and decided you would tell the next person that came in that someone else did it? lol(9:41 AM) Sammie: lol(9:41 AM) Sammie: yes(9:41 AM) Steven: lol(9:41 AM) Stephie: lol(9:41 AM) Stephie: funny(9:42 AM) Sammie: when pooping i try to avoid coming out intill people are gone, its so akward to come out of a stall and making eye contact with some one, the look is like "Yup, i just pooped"(9:43 AM) Stephie: lol(9:43 AM) Stephie: *cough*(9:44 AM) Steven: lol(9:44 AM) Steven: that's how i feel sometimes lol(9:44 AM) Steven: it's like you step out and look at em and immediately feel ashamed lol(9:45 AM) Sammie: i know, and you shouldnt it healty, everyone poops, but ever one act like they forgot about Dre.......i mean they dont poop(9:45 AM) Steven: lol(9:45 AM) Stephie: lol(9:45 AM) Stephie: i want that book(9:45 AM) Steven: lol

The Chase
He watches me from a far. Never coming up to mejust sat back and watched as I danced and had fun. He fallows me in the woods but stays out of sight so I do not know he is there. The chase is on when I see him behind me. But it is not long before he has me in his arms on the ground. He growls at me and rips my clothes off me. He makes me get on my hands and knees. He then gets behind me and grabbes my hips. Then I felt him do something behind me. Next I felt something hard and long touch my pussy lips. He then pushes it in me making me scream and throw my head back. He grabbes my hair when I do that. I can hear him gurnt and moan with every thrust. It was turning me on when he did that Then out of no where he leans down and bits my neck I scream and he growles He did not let go but only bit harder making me cum He then let go to throw back his head and howled as he came in me When he was done he feel on me making me fall o n the ground I laid there not knowing what to

It's Been Awhile
It’s been a while since I’ve been around,It took a while to say that you I have found. It’s been a while since I’ve been walking this place, It took a while to find your face.I never would’ve thought that I would feel this way,I never would’ve thought that I would be writing this today.As I sit here and write, all I can do is smile.I think to myself, it’s really been a while.It’s been a while since I’ve had this feeling,For my heart- right now it’s healing.And being with you is different from being with the rest,You help me realize that it’s okay to be my best.It’s been a while since I’ve been as happy as this,Each day I wait for that flawless first kiss.I know it might be different because of what we are,But I know it will be amazing because of who we are.You understand me like no one else has before,And each day you make me laugh more.You talk to me like you’ve known me forever,It’s been a while

A Real Treasure
She has some beautiful eyesthat sparkle like the stars aboveShe has a big warm heartthat is filled up with goldShe has a beautiful smilethat shines like diamondsShe has a healing touchthat is also soft and warmGetting to know her is greatOne day this beautifulAmazing, Stunning, BreathtakingReal life treasure will be mineTo show off and flaunt

The Happy Sub
I come home and there you are waiting for me on your knees like a good boy. I smile and pat you on the head before I give you my foot to take off my shoes. When you take them off you rub slowly and softly knowing that is how I like them rub. When you are done I look at you and smile. You know that when I do that I am in a good mode. . “So slave boy, what have you been up to while I was at work today, since you had the whole day off and it all to yourself?” I ask you “I have been cleaning and cooking for you Dark. I know how you hate cooking and cleaning after working all day. I also made your favorite food, I hope you like it.” You say to me while sitting on the floor at my feet looking up at me with pride in your eyes. “Good boy, I am proud of you. For being such a good boy I will let you sit on the couch with me and relax for a bit before we eat.” I tell you while I run my figures in your hair when you sit beside me.

Blood
I am hungry and wanted fresh blood. I decided to go hunting for same prey and have some fun. I found my prey at a party, a tall dark brooding male that looked like he was bored and was off to himself watching people dance. I could tell that he was not like most humans and it made me want him more. So I walked up to him and looked right into his eyes. "You want some fun with me or do you want to just stand there and watch people? I will make it the best you ever had, just like you I am not just like these people." "I know you are different, you are a vampire whore and I want nothing to do with you. Leave now, before your stench makes me sick." I stood there for a second before sinking my nails into his arms and scratching him from elbow to wrist. I laughed before walking away and licking my nails clean of his red sticky blood, that is when I tasted what he was, he was a were-wolf and now I wanted him even more. When I get outside I felt him right behind me, I smiled an

Ashes To Ashes
ashes to ashes dust to dust the misery i have felt so long starts to fade away all because of you.ashes to ashes dust to dust the pain i have carried for so long fades away all because of you ashes to ashes dust to dust the cold i have felt for so long starts melt away all because of you ashes to ashes dust to dust i can see the sun the moon the stars again all because of you. Since my lover, my life, my soulmate, the one i want to marry is who I owe my undying love and life to for he has brought me back to life.. This is my out look on true love if it is really out there...

As We Lay Close
As we lay close together I feel your heart beating I feel so alive again,When we kiss i am able to breathe again,When we make love i feel such a raw passion like I have never known or felt before,When we touch i feel a shiver all the way to the bonemarrow,When I look into your eyes I fall to pieces.

Utterly Alone
I am utterly alone locked away, i'm nothing to no one not even you, you said you would protect me and when you were needed you weren't there, I am utterly cold and alone, I have bled for you for us but you don't care, I'm a sceret from everyone, I am purely nothing or even wanted not even by you, I am drowning in sorrow and darkness with no life raft or a light to show me the way back not even you, I am utterly alone and lost in darkness, you say you want to be with me. but ii can't tell,Because I am a sceret that no one knows, i am utterly alone and cold, I am unwanted,unloved,embracing the darkness thas is all around me, Dancing with my sorrow to trap me in the darkness, I am utterly nothing, I have nothing left to have love bestow upon me, I am not able to be loved for the pain is to unreal to bare anymore. I AM UTTERLY ALONE AND COLD

A Stupid Fact About Me...
I have come to terms about the loss of my children n my failed marrage. that should be the end right there, Right? well thats not true. I have found more to me. I can't stand the thought of me being happy... Its just disturbing to me at all levels. If I let my guard down I might get stepped on again. 2 lovers and many ex friends later, I just can't stand the thought of getting close to another.Yeah people might argue that thats not the way to go. But in this past year all I have learned from people is that everyone has a price and they want more. I ended up being homeless again cuz of that crap. Then my moms house started on fire and she had to basically work as a slave for a man she thought was her friend. I just can't seem to let my guard down to anyone. I am just to jaded...

One Within One
As the waters of love lay still and untouched, As the moon of passion rises from its deep slumber, The rays of moonlight hovers over the still waters of love, As the waters awaken to the moonbeams, they dance and embrace and melt into one another,as the light intertwins with the waters the love flows into one another,The waters breathes love into passion and the moonbeams breathes passion into love as they become one within one. As I pray that we are one within one

Issues
Sometimes you're so sure Got the metal pressed against your headFinger is itching on the triggerSometimes I'm so damn sureJust a few ounces of pressureI'll create a portrait of red and matter on the wallsA big exit from the stage of a play called "Life"Wasn't it interesting?Wasn't it so much fun?

Girls On Bs.
Now to start off saying,i'm a real man that aint on BS.Not a fake or phony guy.If i say something i'm going to do it.Women these day's i dont't know what happened to them,but they start being fake and dont do what they say.Now i dont know what makes you think that you can say things and not come correct,but you act all shitty and fake to me you will get the cold shoulder.Women say they are real,where the hell is the real women?Some of you want to know why you get cheated on and be treated like shit.This is why,us men will find out what kind of person you are.If not your nothing but a lying ass bitch.women ger your mind right,and you come at me with shit,you will get just that.If you have something to say to me,leave a message.If you have bs on your mind,get a life.

I Wonder What This Means To Me.....?
It's possible that you will feel a little cornered on the romantic front, Gemini. If you are attached, someone may be seeking a commitment from you that is larger than you are willing to give. Do not allow yourself to be coerced into a situation that you will regret later, as this is only going to rile your irate temper. If you are single, you've been wondering about a specific issue with that certain someone. Trust always seems to come in the middle with you, but this time you will need to hold your ground if you expect your own needs to be met.

Tasteless Jokes!
Dad is at home watching TV, when his 9 year daughter comes home from school. He looks up and she is in tears. Her school blouse is ripped open and her skirt is hitched up and dishevelled."What the fuck happened?" He demands"Well" she replied in tearful sobs and almost hysterical, "I was walking home from school and I took the shortcut through the back lanes""AND? AND?" screams Dad trying to get more infoSob Sob said the little girl "Some man dragged me into the bushes and tore at my blouse""OMG, What happened?" asks dadsob sob cried the poor little girl "He then put his hand up my skirt""NO!" shouts Dad "Then?"Crying through heavy sobs she replies "I cant remember, I blacked out""WELL MAKE IT UP, MAKE IT UP!!!" shouts dad as he starts wanking. ********************************* Lady and her best friend go on holiday to the caribbean and meet a musclar Black guy. After a week of fantastic threesome sex they ask his name. He says my names 'Snow' The ladies start laughing, he asks why

Australians Don't Just Know Their Beer!
It took a lot of courage for this man to speak what he had to say for the world to hear. The retribution could be phenomenal, but at least he was willing to take a stand on his and Austrilia's beliefs. Whole world Needs A Leader Like This! Prime Minister Kevin Rudd - Australia Muslims who want to live under Islamic Sharia lawwere told on Wednesday to get out of Australia , as the government targeted radicals in a bid to head off potential terror attacks.. Separately, Rudd angered some Australian Muslims on Wednesday by saying he supported spy agencies monitoring the nation's mosques. Quote: 'IMMIGRANTS, NOT AUSTRALIANS, MUST ADAPT. Take It Or Leave It. I am tire

Throwin Heart Into It.
Thoughts At this point and time in my life, I have been talking to God a lot!! When you don't understand your own circumstance its hard not to want to take it into your own hands...the thing is...the IMPORTANT thing is ... you can take it in your hands ... take it in your hands and hand it to the One who makes sense. Praying in times like these I have found can almost be as awkward as a blind date. Its like ... well, uh...so....hey...I uh....don't really understand this all that much and uh.... hmm..... help? But I have also found that its okay to do that. Because even a help with a question mark, God hears. And the fact that there's prayer in the first place means you are opening your heart and extending FAITH! Which I believe God acknowledges. I have also been catching myself cursing lately... I am just bein real... yes...those who follow Jesus slip... but I am being ministered to, to watch my mouth... even if its only every so often foul things slip. Because I will never know if th

How?
It thore out my heart,It shred it apart.I lost all my faith...I even lost trust. I miss all friends,I miss all thouse timesWhen happiness strived,When I felt so free. Now even when homeI cant get awayFrom all of that hazeAnd mud on face. I live with my guiltMy filthy old handsAre covered in bloodAnd scars cover heart. How do you explainThe war to some one?How can u tellThe loved ones your done? So dead on the inside,So thorn and so gone,So tired of pain,So sick of regrets. How do you explainThe death someone?How do you reclaimYour heart that's far gone? Pretend to be strong...While dieing inside.And being so tough...While feeling so gone. Pretending to laugh...While crying inside.Pretendin to beWhat they wonna see.

Two Horses
Two Horses Author - unknown Just up the road from my home is a field, with two horses in it. From a distance, each horse looks like any other horse. But if you stop your car, or are walking by, you will notice something quite amazing.... Looking into the eyes of one horse will disclose that he is blind. His owner has chosen not to have him put down, but has made a good home for him. This alone is amazing. If you stand nearby and listen, you will hear the sound of a bell. Looking around for the source of the sound, you will see that it comes from the smaller horse in the field. Attached to the horse's halter is a small bell It lets the blind friend know where the other horse is, so he can follow. As you stand and watch these two friends, You'll see that the horse with the bell is always checking on the blind horse, And that the blind horse will listen for the bell and then slowly walk To where the other horse is, Trusting that he will not be l

My First Letter To God I Wrote After Losing My Baby Boy Many Yrs Ago.....
My first letter to God(In a form of poetry)....after Christians passing. Current mood: calm Category: Life Dear God, You took my precious little baby!Treat him well and love him as I would,with tender loving care. Give him hugs very often and kiss his little face,let him feel loved by the arms holding him in a warm embrace, Bless his little hands and feet,and bless his little tender heartbeat.My precious baby was meant for me, I had him in the hopes to be,A loving mommy and tender too!!To give hugs and kisses and security like he never knew. But,Lord Jesus,you had bigger plans for my precious son,its just that its still so hard to let go,as for my heart,He has won!!xoxoxo I Love You Christian, Mommy

Naughty Dream
You trail your lips along my silken skin as we lay there in what seems like forever. Your fingers caress my senstive areas like never before, sending erotic pulses through my body, making me quiver in sheer climatic bliss. Kissing ,caressing each other, licking, tasting, teasing..making one another climb that wall and never coming back down. You bind my wrists to the bed with silk , kissing my lips tenderly as you tie one wrist then the other. Kneeling between my legs i feel you, i want you in me to take me to devour me, but instead you lean in only to trail your tongue once again on my wanton mouth..letting a moan come from them as i feel you almost enter me but then you pull away..leaving me heavy panting and wanting for more. I almost wrap my legs around your waste but you grab my legs.. lifting one of them in the air.. i watch you as you bring one leg close to your lips.. feeling you kissing then trailing your tongue down my calf..passing my knee, up my inner thigh..only to bite m

Some More Jokes!
A blonde couldn't get on the internet, so she phoned the Helpdesk Helpdesk: Are you sure you used the right password? blonde: Yes I'm sure. I saw the guy, who set it up do it. Helpdesk: Can you tell me what the password was? blonde:yes, six stars. *********************** An Indian man dies and arrives at the Pearly Gates."Yes, how can I help?" asks St Peter."I'm here to meet Jesus," says the Indian man.St Peter looks over his shoulder and shouts, "Jesus, your cab is here!" ************************ Guy walks into a bar and sits down for a drink and sees Hitler sitting at a table in the corner.So the guy asks the bartender if thats Hitler and the bartender says yep. Bartender also says that he'll tell you anything you want if you buy him a drink. So the guy gets another drink and sits down with Hitler and hands him the drink. The guy: "So exactly how many people did you kill?" Hitler: "About 600,000 jews and 7 circus clowns" The guy, suprised replied "7 circus clowns!?" H

Why I Won't Stay "down" On Myself For Too Long...
I guess I'm feelin' a bit bloggy, so I'll write one. I was sittin' here on one of my unexpected days off (gotta love the job market, eh?), starting to feel a bit down, pessimistic about my life and all that. Why I'm not at the "place" I expected to be at my age, why I find myself associating with the same deadbeats and ne'er-do-wells I have been since college. And then it hit me. There are so many people I know that have it sooooo much worse than I do (and sadly, most of their problems are self-imposed), that I have to count my blessings. Hell, I have a friend who has so many health issues, it's hard to figure out which medication she has to take this hour. Have another friend who just ended a 9 year relationship over a man she met on the 'net', and just realized all the sweet and passionate things that guy was doing and saying to her, he was basically copying and pasting to other chicks with substantially larger breasts than her. I have a friend who is trying to kick a binge-drinkin

You Call Me A Racist - My Comments To This Message That Was On Someone's Profile Page Are In Bold
I sent post in a private message to http://www.fubar.com/user/2747175 SueBee - SYLB. In fairness to her, I chatted with her a little and she seemed pretty nice. But, I couldn't let this go. The **** line items are my comments to her. I tried to let this go, but I needed to insert my commentary. You call me: "Redneck", "Hillbilly", or "Slacker" "Cracker" or "Cracker Jack" "Honky", "Whitey", or "Gringo" "Betty Crocker" or "Martha Stewart" "Casper", "Jed Clampett", or "Crisco" "Elvis", "Eminem", or "Gilligan" "White Devil", "White Bread", or "Gomer" "Forrest Gump" (Gump), "White Trash" or "Johnny Reb" "Opie", "Poppin Fresh", or "Peckerwood" "Wigger", "Trailer Trash", or "Vanilla Ice" "W.A.S.P", "Slim Shady", or "Skinhead" and you think it's OK.

Up0n A Shelf
Upon a shelf My wisdom sits Dying from decay Spoiled by the stains Put at risk by great change A sickness from within Has seeped through my skin Irrevocably broken I am Such things I lament Those that love me Do so at undeniable risk Destruction is my God My one truth in a world of lies All that I hold close I crush under my thumb I do so as a form of self-preservation There can be no other way I scream in silence I will get them Long before they get me How dare they make me feel How dare they try to enslave me I will not allow myself be fooled By all of their promises Life has taught me much Most of all to be prepared To do what it takes To isolate myself from The possibility of happiness I have often wondered of such things After all I was once human Now I fear I am something else Things such as happiness are fruitless Endeavors perpetrated by the weak I

My Babygirl!
My little angel Gabriella D. is in the baby battle contest! We could use some votes! Voting is easy, go to the link below to voting gallery F-Jal (make sure it says Gabriella D.) and click for her! You have to enter your email then register (takes a minute and they don’t send unwanted emails) Thanks for your support and as you vote let me know so I can show ya some lovers!

11/17/09 Part 2
Full Frontal Nerdity: The condition or act of engaging in acts of extreme nerdhood. Nerdboner: An event, activity, object, idea, movie, comic book, TV show, theory or anything else creating nerd obsession to a moderate to high degree Dildork: A dork with the personality of a dildo

Just Fillin In The Blanks
It has been a long time since I typed anything. I'm not really sure what is going to come out now. I'm just typing and going with the flow. Feeling a bit lost lately. A little disengaged. Day after day, night after night surrounded by my own thoughts. My friends have their own life, they aren't interested in mine. Then again, I have a hard time letting anyone past my barriers. Just when I think I have my emotions in check, a tear finds its way down my cheek. I capture it with my sleeve of toughness but another one just replaces the captured one. It becomes a never ending cycle. No one sees this, of course. This is my own private nightmare. A nightmare I can't seem to awaken from. Someone needs to shake me or something. sheesh

The Heart Of Unknowing
The Heart of Unknowing Who Am I? At some point in our lives, or perhaps at many points in our lives, we ask the question, "Who am I?" At times like these, we are looking beyond the obvious, beyond our names and the names of the cities and states we came from, into the layers beneath our surface identities. We may feel the need for a deeper sense of purpose in our lives, or we may be ready to accommodate a more complex understanding of the situation in which we find ourselves. Whatever the case, the question of who we are is a seed that can bear much fruit. It can send us on an exploration of our ancestry, or the past lives of our soul. It can call us to take up journaling in order to discover that voice deep within us that seems to know the answers to a multitude of questions. It can draw our attention so deeply inward that we find the spark of spirit that connects us to every living thing in the universe. One Hindu tradition counsels its practitioners to ask the question over and

"okay"
Please Note: I did NOT write this. I found it looking through my old theatre papers.It was written by someone in that class, no name was on it.However, I can relate rather well."Okay"Her smile starts to dimAnd her happiness fades away.I'm the one being torturedtrying to make her okay.She's not sad from what I did,but what I couldn't do.The marks on her arms..They're my only clues.She needs me morethan she could ever show.She needs me nowto soften the blow.She says "It's hard to handle.And life shouldn't be this way."But when I ask her how she is,All she says is "Okay."-Anonymous-

Some Help And B-day Love On The 19th
Hey to all, pls go check out my friend. Its his b-day on the 19th. Go check him out and help him level and show him some b-day love. Thank you Defenderhttp://b.pcb1.fubar.com/59/67/2027695/tn_2903979428.jpg">@ fubar

A Way To Live
The Best way to LiveLive like today is your last. Dream like your life has no end.Love like you'll lose them tomorrow.Always wear your courage on your chest.Ignite your eyes with hope.Exist to create a legacy.Influence the world.Make a change for the better.And When you go out...Go out with a bang!-Poet--11/16/09-

Http://www.fubar.com/2312476
Just a hater He lives in my city hes fat and atrociously hideous to look at, almost to the point of making me gag But he comes on MY page (as everyone is welcome to do) posts nasty comments about how Im so ugly, so digustingly gross, how i look like a 20 dollar vegas hooker, and then blocks me. I didnt even have a chance to send the LMAO I was typing in SB before he rated me several ones and BAM - BLOCKED!! Chickensh*t

Stole It From Deacon
Let's start off blunt, have you done anything sexual in the last 48 hours?newpYour phone rings, it's the person you fell hardest for, what do you say?hello. Where is the person you have feelings for?aroundWhat color are your eyes?blue and greenDo you like the snow?hell yeah!Have you ever slept on a couch with someone else?many timesWhich did you discover first, myspace or face book?myspace.What/who woke you up this morning?five finger death punchWhere did you sleep three nights ago?In my bedWhat color is the shirt your wearing?BlackThe past 72 hours have you been under the influence?nopeWhat are you doing at this very second?taking this retarded survey (Deacon, you suck btw)Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone?nopeWhat are you listening to?classicalIf the year consisted of only one season, which would you choose?fall Do you think your past mistakes made you into a better person?Yes, most definitely What are you planning on doing after this?back to workDo you have any pet

Stolen From Gallo Hehe
Let's start off blunt, have you done anything sexual in the last 48 hours?Yep sure have i usually cant go 24 hours lmao! Your phone rings, it's the person you fell hardest for, what do you say?Hi baby gotta go working:P Where is the person you have feelings for?At work i persume What color are your eyes?Hazel, they turn blue, green, gray, yellow, orange, gold and red if im that pissed off Do you like the snow?LOVE IT!!!Have you ever slept on a couch with someone else?well yes i have, not comfy if the couch isnt big enough though Which did you discover first, myspace or face book?myspace.What/who woke you up this morning?My stomach from drinking entirely too much strawberry bacardi last nightWhere did you sleep three nights ago?My bed What color is the shirt your wearing?Black and white stripes The past 72 hours have you been under the influence?Fuck yeah i got drunk as hell last nightWhat are you doing at this very second?Typing this Blog and working Ar

Desertoutlaws 1st Happy Hour Thursday 19. November 2009 @ 6pm
THE AWESOME DesertOutlaw WiLL HAVE HiS 1ST Happy Hour Thursday @ 6PM make him do the DesertOutlaw HappyDance and Fan/Rate/Add Bling&Bomb the hell outta his profile before he throws me to the crocodile NOW GO & CHECK HiM OUT SHOW HiM LOVE Desert Outlaw owned by the Scrumptious ~ ☥ RisingPhoenix ☥ ~@ fubar & DONT FORGET ON Thursday @ 6PM is his 1st HappyHour This was brought to you by the One & Only Rმinხ☻wBritεKillმ©@ fubar

Untitled ?
Master Perverte...6 hrs agoI raised my head and saw you thereAcross the room from me.A smile had started in your eyesAnd it was good to see.One moment, then it reached your lipsAnd lingered for awhile,I wonder Do you know the joyThat traveled with your smile?A smile is such a little thing,And used so sparingly.Sometimes it's awfully hard to do,But Oh it's good to see.When I feel tired, or low withinAs I often do,It's good to look across the roomAnd have a smile from you.

Slipped Away
I miss you Miss you so bad I don't forget you Oh it's so sad. I hope you can hear me I remember it clearly. The day you slipped away..... Was the day i found It, won't be the same I didn't get around to kiss you Goodbye on the hand I wish that I could see you again I know that I can't I hope you can hear me Cause I remember it clearly The day you slipped away... Was the day i found It, won't be the same I've had my wake up Won't you wake up I keep asking why. And I can't take it It wasn't fake it It happened you passed by Now you're gone There you go Somewhere I can't bring you back Now you're gone There you go Somewhere you're not coming back The day you slipped away Was the day i found It, won't be the same I miss you.

How To Handle A Husband **** You Have To Read This ****
How to Handle a Husband A couple was celebrating their golden wedding anniversary on the beaches in Montego Bay , Jamaica Their domestic tranquility had long been the talk of the town. People would say, "What a peaceful & loving couple" The local newspaper reporter was inquiring as to the secret of their long and happy marriage. The Husband replied: "Well, it dates back to our honeymoon in America explained the man. We visited the Grand Canyon, in Arizona , and took a trip down to the bottom of the canyon, by horse. We hadn't gone too far when my wife's horse stumbled and she almost fell off. My wife looked down at the horse and quietly said, "That's once." "We proceeded a little further and her horse stumbled again.Again my wife quietly said, "That's twice." We hadn't gone a half-mile when the h orse s tumbled for the third time my wife quietly removed arevolver from her purse and shot the horse dead. I SHOUTED at her, "What's wrong with you, Woman! Why did you sho

New Video Only For 21 Days!
Ok here is a video of me in the shower. Toying around with a new Flip Cam a little bit on the shaky side cause he kept getting wet . Its only going to be on this site for 21 days. If anyone knows a free hosting site let me know so i can upload it there. Enjoy! http://www.megaporn.com/?d=T0E0SUIZ

Peace And Love By Blessed Union Of Soul
May every star you wish apon and every hope your hangin' on come true out of everybody in this world there is no one who deserves them more than you I hope you find everything you've been dreaming of only good things no inbetweens just, Peace and Love These words did not come easily Still you know I had to write them down You must know what you mean to me I wish that you could always be around I hope you find everything you are worthy of I'm gonna miss you I only wish you, Peace and Love Peace and love tears of joy kindness of strangers All of your roads paved with gold by gaurdian angels whereever you may bein this world my salutation says it all May you always have enough Peace and Love I let you go unselfishly Cause eveyone needs time to be alone well maybe time will bring you back andif it does, you'll always have a home I sign my name no one to blame it on be

Sometimes I Hate My Life
Ok check this out im going to be alone this thanksgiving and x-mas again i mean 4 real i had a girl that i though loved me as much as i still love her and i cant beleve that im such a fukin goob i just dont know what to do im so lonly and iv been so lonly 4 so long i ust cant seem to let her go i know that she has let me go and she tells me that she still wants us to talk but yet she makes no efort some 1 tell me what i should do and where im living is complet hell and my hole life is fuked up and i was so looking forward to starting a life with her she knows how much i care about her i was gonna give up every thing 4 her EVERY THING im just about to loose my mind so hoo ever reads this plzz help me with a comment

Issues
People have some serious issues here ! I can't believe how there are so many people caught up on being re assured on just how they appear to others seeking approval by taking on so many friends just for points rates bling how sad ! Theres people with friends in the thousands ,friends? I don't think these people know the meaning of the word Friends a friend is someone you share a part of your life with simple things like wow i'm feelin bad or great today or I sure could use someone to talk to rite now! I'd like to challenge those with so many friends to try and visit each one and say hello to each one ! I don't think you can do it and I also think your just using people to gain only for yourself. How much more insecure do you need to be before you realize that your not a friend your a sad example of the word! Don't include me in your game because I'm not here to make you feel better about yourself by rating you everydayhelping your self esteem. And for those with whom I chat with or

The Red Shirt.
If the red shirt thing is new to you, read below how it went for a man....Last week, while traveling to Chicago on business, I noticed a Marine sergeant traveling with a folded flag, but did not put two and two together.. After we boarded our flight, I turned to the sergeant, who'd been invited to sit in First Class (across from me), and inquired if he was heading home.No, he responded.Heading out I asked? No. I'm escorting a soldier home.Going to pick him up?No. He is with me right now. He was killed in Iraq , I'm taking him home to his family. The realization of what he had been asked to do hit me like a punch to the gut. It was an honor for him. He told me that, although he didn't know the soldier, he had delivered the news of his passing to the soldier's family and felt as if he knew them after many conversations in so few days. I turned back to him, extended my hand, and said, Thank you Thank you for doing what you do so my family and I can do what we do. Up

I Love Jokes!
Husband asks his wife "What would you do if I won the lottery" The wife said "I'd take half and leave you" He said "Excellent! I won 12 bucks, here's 6 now get the fuck out" ********************* Why can't lesbians diet and wear make-up at the same time?Because they can't eat Jenny Craig with Mary Kay on their face ********************** Sally from the reservation asks Dad for $100 for a new grad dress.-Sorry dear. I don't have dat kinda money.But Dad, I'm the only one of your eleven kids to graduate high school. I can't go to graduation in old clothes. I need $100 for a dress!-But hunney I only got a couple hundred until welfare day.Daddy! C'mon I'll do anything, but I REALLY NEED a new dress.-OK den, blow me!So Sally gets down on her knees and takes Dad's cock in her mouth. BLEAGHH! Daddy your cock is gross, it tastes like shit!-I know hunney, your brudder REALLY NEEDED the car tonight. ********************** what do you call a black women who has an abortion.....a crime stop

Never Settling
never settling who am I ? where did I go? how did I come to be a stranger in a mirror looking back at me? I remember a younger face that once looked back. this other person has enjoyed life though, seen many wonderful things, and have a happiness inside that shines through the wrinkled face looking back at me.. yet I search for that which seems missing my head hurts because, but still I sample the chocolates taking a bite and if it is offensive leave half behind poet

I Will Always Be There For You
I will always be there for you,I am your little friend..I will always be in love with you,all the way till the end..I will always care for you, I will never leave...you are one person,I can never deceiveI shall go off to sleep,much before you think,Maybe I’m not with you,The next second you blinkThe day, when I'm not with you ,Just close your eyesand take my name,I promise you dear.Your life will be the same.I will love you more & more, with each rising day ,I will always be there for youeven if we are far away

Moshe's Little Heart Still Beats For Home
Moshe still thinks of Mumbai as home. The little boy believes his parents live there, and often asks about them. His little world revolves around school and play, drawing and colouring, climbing and falling. Terror and bullets don't mean anything to him. Not yet. Moshe's life appears like that of any normal three-year-old—comfortable, secure and engulfed by love. But behind the surface lies a horrific tragedy that could haunt him as he grows older. Moshe lost both his parents in the Mumbai attacks last year, as terrorists laid siege to the Chabad-Lubavitch Jewish Centre in a determined attempt to target the community. He had stood crying near his parents' fallen bodies, as terrorists stalked up and down, killing four other Jews in the building. That Moshe is alive is a miracle, largely engineered by his devoted Indian nanny, Sandra Samuel, who ran to him when she heard his cries, scooped him up and hid in the kitchen until the nightmare was over. For hours they sat wedged between

2009: The Thanks I Am Giving
I can honestly say that 2009 has probably been the best and worst year of my life and that this year, I have been through more and learned more than I ever have in my entire life. Right after New Year's I experienced a tradegy that left me in the hospital and took a lot of counseling to get over, but I did. On Monday, November 16th 2009 I had the scariest moment of my life. Around 4:48 p.m. I was on the way home from the gym. The road I live on is already extremely curvey and dangerous and to add to that, the city has loose gravel and tar on it from where they are fixing it. I was driving on the road and my tires slipped on some of the loose tar. I swerved into the other lane and immediately tried to correct myself to avoid a head on collison with another car. Instead of correcting myself back into my lane, I lost control of my car and it swerved off the side of the road, and flipped twice down a hill and landed upside down in my neighbor's yard. When the I felt the car flip the first

Let's Live Like Outlaws, Honey
You have been watched from a distance for some time now and now you are being watched from even farther away. Anyway, you’d like to believe it’s true. Who wouldn’t? Just because a thing’s invisible doesn’t mean it don’t exist, you think to yourself, but still, there is no valid way to test it. And then one day you fall asleep on the train on the way home but you get home anyway. You close your eyes and nothing happens. You close your eyes every now and then, just to test the waters, and find you’re still moving, being moved, walking through the tunnel with your eyes closed, held up and carried along by the crowd. Not love or joy in any traditional sense, but a gentle kind of peaceful rocking that gathers together the single flowers to make a garland. The lights flicker and the wheels clack. No one on the train can tell who’s driving, so you let go of the imaginary wheel. You lean back in your plastic seat and let your shoulders relax.

Leave: A Story Of Glycerine
I remember you.We danced transcendentlike angel tonguesand you tasted like copper coinsand penny candy.I forgot youbecause the irony wastoo delicious for condimentsthat sweet. But your eyeslooked so familiar.I remember youkissed like cherry glazedripping down mymouth and decayingmy thoughts.I remember youtold me aboutBronteand howshe hadca denceI remember youlistened whenI toldyou about;cummings who had ittoo.I remember you looked like catastrophe as I wrapped you in bad polyester and lies, when you seemed like a million miles but you smelled like dogwoods and kerosene.I remember youtasted like smoke and mirrorsglass on my tongue from the inside.You I press naugahidewhile Dylan asked me how itfelt.I remember youfumbling and cold but youweren't sickjust tiredlike youso often were.I remember youasked why I had to berate you with theheavens that ached hazy greys through the pretty prettyspectrum.I remember younever smelled like gin but your facesaid you smelled it too.Even more was gone t

Wet Breathing
He strikes me silentlyThe scars on his face tell too many stories...he doesn't want to tell.Where do you come from, horror kingDoes the ground still burn when you whisper to theBreathing jungle? Are you steps behind in your mindbreathing still ragged, like the searing, humid wind?The monsoon will bring Naiad to thetrees but it won't compare to the stormfrom the bellies of the beasts. Rain down in torrents of rage, and or-angePhosphorus built for bones.Did Joe smile coolycru el ly? Or did he look like you?Scarred sharp slice on the inside. Oh, but he doesn't look like yousee like youbut for one momentyou shared the same eyes. Horror King, and the soft faced boyyet you feared him.Know a secret?He feared him too. You wear your scars so well...on the outside.You'll never forget the pain.He'll never forget your faceor the fact that it was hiswhen the sky burnt the whole world or-ange.

Soulmate2
If you want to attract a life partner as your soul mate, there are several illusions you will need to relinquish. One is that your soul mate is someone you will be with for the rest of your life. You can have a soul mate relationship that lasts a few weeks, months, or years. Time has nothing to do with the quality of your connection and its importance in your life. You may be in a soul-mate relationship with someone that lasts for the rest of your life. Or, you may have learned all you came together to learn and fulfilled the higher purposes of your relationship in just a few months or years. Do not measure the importance of a relationship based on the length of time you are together. Another illusion is that there is only one soul mate who is your true life partner. You may have already had a soul mate connection with a life partner, sharing a caring, loving bond that created much growth for you. Just because your outer connection has ended does not mean that this was not a soul-mate

Sidelong Girl
Would you like to dance? Sidestep trance taken, shaken pulled and tornworn, long forelorn for what's not warned. And warmed. Or scorned...shields of steel, but the beat..the heat from inside.do you feel? Or are you as hard inside as how you hide? Lie to me. Hide from me, and all to see, your peeling smile won't fuck you free.But you'll bite your lip, play plush...push for pain again...again. Careful not to feel you steal with zeal. But do you take, or merely reel.Seraph eyes, ink grin, but you're not a sin, you're lost within. What shapes you make with shallow skin. What shadows play on puppet strings.You're amazing in the daylight, but so suited in the dark. Or not..for when you're unsuited... Your flesh sings of spice and smoke. It smells of juniper, and crushed flowers.But it's not in your skin that you spend your hours. Elated, grated...you lie to me, you're all you've hated. And you hate me..sate me...open up your mouth..taste..waste...skin..sin...grin...and all the things

Echoes Interium
She said to me once, that there's truth in silence. "The only time you can hear the whispers of what's really real....what's really real honey." She usually trailed off after that. It was probably a Saturday, though the days seem to run together then. I remember I tucked her into anything but silence that night. Outside the window, eleven paces from me, the sound of a far off ambulance echoed...for a moment anway. I stopped for a second, to recognize the end of the siren, and then I melted back into the familiar. The wafting sonics of low car horns, people in groups discussing the level of their personal escape, gentleman rubbing late night elbows with knaves on a too hot night. I think it was a Saturday. The curtains danced with a preternatural rhythm, nearly rubbing the edge of the formica, aluminum ridged table, nine paces off. The low hum of broken air conditioners, and seething madness vibrated on the puffing wind. Every wisp of air was fetid. Damp heat whispered in on feathere

On The Move Again....
Greetings Fubar folks and friends: As a victim of the housing crisis, my wife and I are on the move again. Going from a house to an apartment. So, I may be gone for awhile and that's OK. We all need an internet vacation once in awhile. Yet, I am writing this to ask a question. We live in a credit bearing society, should we be going after things we cannot afford? It took almost a year and a half to convince myself and my wife that we could not afford this house as it was more of money pit than anything else. We are not alone as the banks or the mortgage lenders did not give out the true cost of the home. Whose responsibility is it to discover the true cost of owning a home..the lenders with the money or the people trying to procure it?

I'm So Horny
Ive been so horny lately, and just cant find a man to keep up with me. I really like older guys, but at this point any age will do. As long as he has a penis.I just cant wait to get rammed by pretty much anyone.

A Lyric Poem I Wrote This Morning (was Inspired By A Show I Watched)
You say I never believe you But Baby you know I'll always love you Darlin' You know I'd never leave you You are mine I would cover your body in kisses And this is true Oh I love you You ask me why I do this for you And I tell you time and time again I do, Oh I love you I'll give you my trust and honesty and you know this is true How I love you I love you

The Stage : Because She Said
Sit at the front of the stageRemove your shoes and coat. You might want to settle in, get comfortable, turn the light just a little lower.James O'Barr said that what we witness is an Atrocity Exhibition, and it really is. What he never said, is that you like it. Glued...eyes wide open, you'd flinch, but flinching died with shock, didn't it?I bet you're jaded, somewhere, while you sit there watching me type these words. That's what you're doing by the way, inside your mind, you're watching my fingertips form words, like tiny mouths from under my nails, making you watch this. You'll blame me after this, repulsed that I would force you to read such drivel.But you could have turned away, couldn't you? You still can you know...turn away. Point your browser to somewhere safe, somewhere that rubs your status quo like a filthy finger, and settles your heart back to cadence.You're still here, of course....because we're connected...you and I.That disturbs you, doesn't it? That, words that I whis

The Halls Of The Damned
I. Abandon Hope, All ye who enter here. All is not silent, In these Halls of the Damned Nor is all dead, In these forgotten sepulchural Halls of the Damned. (There never WERE rats, in these walls. Only this Ghost, in this wrecked, wrack'd Machine.) The wine tastes of ashes here, (I WILL show you fear in a handful of dust!) And the runes, writ in red. (My second thought was not that he lied, with every word, but that the world had.) (This never was about vengeance, Runic or not.Only death lives here.) I am rising from the East. Upon my leaden brow the Madness Divine grows oh so Cold. My tattered wings ascend me to Powers, As promised in days of Old. (We do SO float, down here. And I may serve, while becoming more terrible than the Nameless ones. One may indeed summon Tools. And I grow greater than my Prison.) You MUST NOT let me happen! I implore ye, dinna fail this Test. I'm consuming all, from best to rest. Becoming, I, this long, d

There Is A Lady Sweet And Kind
There is a Lady Sweet and KindThere is a lady sweet and kind, Was never a face so pleased my mind,I did but see her passing by, And yet, I'll love her till I die.Her gesture, motion, and her smiles,Her wit, her voice my heart beguiles,Beguiles my heart, I know not why,And yet, I'll love her till I die.Cupid is winged and he doth range,Her country, so, my love doth change:But change she earth, or change she sky,Yet, I will love her till I die.

Oh You've Got Jokes
A catholic priest and a rabbi are driving down the road one day when they happen upon a little boy riding his bike. The priest looks at the rabbi and says, "Hey, let's fuck him!" and the rabbi smiles back at him and says, " Yeah....out of what?" ****************** what did the blonds right leg say to the left?nothing, they have never met ******************* A doctor in the maternity ward takes a baby from a cot and starts spinning it around by its ankles, smashing it into walls, drop kicking it down the corridors, etc. The mum runs after him, hysterical, screaming and crying and asks him what the hell he is doing. He says "Aah April Fool! It was dead anyway!" ******************* A sadist, a masochist, a murderer, a necrophile, a zoophile and a pyromaniac are all sitting on a bench in a mental institution, bored out of their minds."How about having sex with a cat?" asked the zoophile."Lets have sex with the cat and then torture it," says the sadist."Lets have sex with the cat,

The Unforgiven/dance Of Judgement
Known as the Lady of the Evening, She sits quietly, waiting for her next casualty. Who will it be? A young frivolous boy, or maybe a strong, distinguished wealthy man? She keeps watching. A hand grabs her own and whisks her away. A man. A handsome Prince Charming. In the dark they dance, fiercely impassioned. Suddenly he vanishes. A spotlight now on her. Her judges have arrived. ''DANCE!'' they order her, ''DANCE FOR YOUR SINS!'' Slowly she raises her eyes and begins to dance alone. Hands in the air, head back, she spins, dancing for her life. Twisting, turning, for what seems an eternity. She starts to ache, but she dances still. She dances until she can dance no more. Yet her judges, they have forsaken her, and they too quietly disappear. She is left to herself and the darkness. Looking around at the endless isolation, she brings herself to dance again, silently screaming for salvation from her body. The thing that brought her to her own tormenting hell.

Roundabout
Poetically, I am crowded, suffocating and surrounded by the endless hounding of my mistakes. They repeatedly break my self-esteem, seemingly determined to bring me to my knees while I wallow in the twist of my memories. These Terrors are pleased by the sweet echo of my screams, and I constantly shout with no dignity, pleading for some sort of easy release from my blistered beliefs that I am naught but flesh, a wounded heart enmeshed in hardened grief. But there’s a slender side of me, a tender side of me, that quiets my soliloquys with a mono-syllabic metronome babble, little sounds that dabble in my darkness. It’s an artistic side of me that accepts my regrets and smothers the other emotions I get until I am left with nothing more than an aching chest. By then, I’m just lonely, living in a world where only the beautiful are heard and every word from my mouth is soundless. I’m bound to this silence until my mistakes pry the calm from my lips and I trip. The

Something Wrong With Me?
My life is such a waste begging on something to work this time But why can't I relate? Feeling all I do is get what's mine Holding on to faith, never gave me nothing but despair So why do I create just to be swallowed? I cannot take this place burning up inside, this space of mine so why can't I replace, feelings I find hard to really find? I try but I can't taste Memories they always come haunt me. All my feelings have been eating onto me Feed inside, is there something wrong with me?

Food For Thought
"Peach." Donna waited for a response. She felt fairly certain that she was correct but under the circumstances she just couldn't be sure. The delay, a few seconds that felt like minutes, increased her apprehension. Was she right? What was going to happen? She felt his tongue gently licking at her nipple. A sense of relief came over her as a warm glow spread throughout her body. Her guess was right. She smiled. Everything else faded out as she experienced the joy of having her sensitive nipples pleasured. All that existed was the feeling of his wet mouth and saliva soaked fingers sucking and pinching at her taut nipples. She moaned. She wanted to speak, to tell him how good it felt but she couldn't. Ten words. That was all she was allowed to say during this session. Obedience was paramount. Donna gritted her teeth to keep the words from escaping as the sound of her moans and labored breathing filled the room. The buzz in her brain continued even after he pulled away.

The Dark Corner
You have always watched me from afar wanting me but never dare touch me let alone talk to me. But then one day you finally get the nerve to ask me for my name. You blush when I smile at you and tell you my name. You mumbled your name when I ask you for it. I smile and told you that it was nice to meat you, I go to walk away but you stop me by grabbing my hand. You ask me a few questions trying to make up excuses so you can hold my hand more. I answer your questions and I let you keep hold of my hand thinking nothing of it. But then you kissed it and I do not think you even realized that you had done it when you kept talking like nothing happened. I smile at you and tell you I have to run. “Please don’t leave. I have wanted to talk to you for some time. Please let me by you coffee or something else to drink so we can talk some more please.” I look at you and sigh. “Okay I have a few minutes I can spare you, I will drink some tea with

Fair Tax
At a business conference in Montpelier, Vermont, the state tax commissioner asked the audience which sort of taxation they found fairest. There was a pause, and then a white-haired man in the back raised his hand. "The poll tax," he said. "But the poll tax was repealed," replied the commissioner. "I know," declared the man, "that's what I like about it."

I Am A Slave
slave is who and what i am -- i exist for my Master... Master owns my body, my mind, my will, my health, my well-being, my communications, my actions, even my very breath. slave is who and what i am -- i exist for my Master... Master allows my existence to continue in order that i may obey Him, serve Him, please Him, amuse Him, entertain Him, and care for Him. slave is who and what i am -- i exist for my Master... Master, also, allows my existence to continue in order that i may tend to His needs, to His wants, and to the multitude of duties He may assign me, regarding any and all aspects of His life. slave is who and what i am -- i exist for my Master... Master has absolute and total Ownership and Control of every facet of my life. slave is who and what i am -- i exist for my Master... Master values my gift of submission. He cares for me and is proud of His ownership of me. He likewise requires that i take pride in myself and in my position as His slave.

I Get It We Are Talking About Comp Viruses.....
OK NINE WHAT ELSE SHOULD I KNOW THIS: 0 comments Read How to remove Winsecurepro2009.microsoft.com (Winsecurepro2009.com) hijacker 20.11.2009 | Malware Type: Browser Hijackers Malware Description:Winsecurepro2009.microsoft.com (or Winsecurepro2009.com) is another malicious domain involved in Antivirus System PRO rogue anti-spyware distribution schemes. It’s quite curious that Winsecurepro2009.microsoft.com does not actually exist unless you are using a computer infected with Antivirus System PRO scareware. That might sound a bit confusing so let us elaborate a bit on this issue. Winsecurepro2009.microsoft.com domain appears to be an outcome of the hackers’ blackhat tactics which result in changing the Hosts file on the injected computer. Having modified your Hosts, the virus correlates the trusty-looking domain name ‘Winsecurepro2009.microsoft.com’ with a scam IP address serving the malvertising of Antivirus System PRO. So much for the way W

Gang Kill Lonely Obese People, Sell Their Fat For Cosmetics
In a story that can only be described as made-up-but-not, police have busted a gang in Peru who targeted fat people on "lonely roads," killed them, extracted their fat and sold it, possibly to make anti-wrinkle treatments.The extracted, liquidized fat sold for $15,000 a liter, report the BBC, and it apparently went to "European countries." Four people have been arrested and five, adds the journalist with a straight face, remain "at large." Some of those captured were carrying soft drinks bottles of human fat. To reiterate: bottles of human motherfucking fat. One of them admitted that they'd been luring the chubby with fake job offers, then bumping them off, in the Huanaco and Pasco regions for up to three decades. Police estimate that they may be behind the disappearances of up to 60 people.The gang has been referred to as the Pishtacos, after an ancient Peruvian legend of killers who attack people on lonely roads and murder them for their fat.The genesis of this ancient legend is not

Diferent Drive
If i could show u all the pain I endured... I wouldn'tIf I could make u understand what I've been thru... I could't If u been where I have been... you wouldn'tAct the way you act... You couldn't But life goes onI carry onWith heavy heartAnd broken soul My life simple nowIt's black and whiteAnd yet some thing's amissI dont feel right Like part of meIs thorn awayLike all i need is hereAnd yet so far away And like a tiger at the zooI'll never be freeAnd i did my best to fake itBut I'll never feel free So I stay up at nightLost in side my fightIm scared to close my wicked eyesBecause the dreams arent so nice And only remeberence of deathStays scared into this faceAnd it's that painful knowingThat to this day keeps me going

More Speed For The Internet Just More Speed Give Me More Speed Speed
How To optimize DSL-CABLE connection speedFirst, u need to goto Start, then run. Type in regedit in the box. Next, goto the folder HKEY_LOCAL_MACHINE\System\CurrentControlSet\VxD\MSTCPNow, find the string DefaultRcvWindow . Now, edit the number to 64240 then restart your computer. There you go. High speed cable modem now with out dloading a program. Original value is 373360

Expression. Written Nov. 21 2k9
I wish I could explain the way you make me feel inside. Until you, my feelings did not show they would run away and hide. But now, I do not know what you did but I suddenly feel the need, To tell you without a doubt, you are the best gift I have ever received. My eyes have been opened to a whole new world; I can see it as clear as day. I love this new world you have given me. All my problems have gone away. I will show you I am the one for you if you just give me a chance. I will treat you like the queen you are, give you a life filled with romance. It may take a while to get my chance; maybe a year, or two or three. But that is ok, for you my love, I would wait an eternity.

Never Look Back.
-Never Look Back-Life is SpontaneousSo walk through it blindYou'll find all the wondersWhich others pass by.You'll know when you find themFor they'll steal your heartAnd you'll be so happyyou'll never wish to part.And when times get toughdon't look back.For when you look backyou'll remember the scars.remembering the woundsbrings back a fearand when you listen to your mindyou'll wind up here.."Did I make the right choice?"A question to be forever in your thoughts.Haunting you..Leaving you full of remorse..So heed my advice..It's just as simple as that.The past has passed.So let us leave it all behind.Keep it out of sight.Keep it out of mind.Never look back,Don't ruin what you have.Keep walking blindYou're on the best pathDon't pass up the oppourtunitythat you are unlikely to get again.Because if you throw it away,there can be no amends.

Heart Broken And Alone Again
What do you call a guy that never talks to you , but says he loves you and tells you that he will be with you in jan, but then all of a sudden deletes off here with even say good bye to you or anything?? I trusted him. I told him all person stuff about me and my son. and he just walks away from us. Guess he is like alot of guys on here. Play head games to get thier kicks and when thier done, just walk away from the hurt they caused and move on to someone eles to hurt and play head games with!!! Just so who ever reads this his name was dj rockerrprince aka Jd, i really thought he loved me cause i gave him my heart and he walked all over it like it was nothing.

Relationships
It's been over 2 yrs since my last relationship. When I met her, I was on cloud 9! after a few months the relationship ended & in a bad way. Ifelt like I could never trust her. Sucks when you can't trust someone you are in love with. Now I am beginning to wonder if I will ever find love again. I've tried but something always came up when it was time to meet someone. Next week is my class reunion. I'm really looking forward to going but then I feel sad because I know I will be the only one there without a date. I'm sure I will have a good time but really wish I had someone to go with. Who knows. Maybe I might find someone who is single there. Time will tell.

Regrets
Life is too short to wake up with regrets.So love the people whotreat you right.Forget about the one's who don't.Believe everythinghappens for a reason.If you get a second chance grab it with bothhands.If it changes your life let it.Nobody said life would be easythey just promised it would be worth it.

The Night
Still a mystery,I can’t figure out;Race home from work,Where life is without.*****I race to see you,And hold you to me;My mind says you’re there,And my heart won’t see.*****I open the door,It’s still a surprise:You’re not there,And tears fill my eyes.*****I need someone,Or call on the phone;But nothing breaks the silence,Of these walls made of stone.*****I punish myself,By refusing to eat:Depression is silent,I hear my heart beat.*****Where can I go,Or should I stay:Shy to choose,In bed I lay.*****Time will pass,And the dark sets in;Laying there wishing,I could still touch your skin.*****Lying there hurting,I wish I could die;Missing you so much,Again I start to cry.*****Sometimes I wonder,If you even know;The way that I need you,Would you still go.*****I can’t sleep now,Again a long night;Are you this lonely,Do you share in my fright.

I Have Lost My Will To
argue stupid fucking things in the mumms.I cant bring myself to it.Why?I will only get the same half idiotic/half copy and pasted response.No matter the mumm.The words might not be the same,but the idea is.I no longer enjoy it.I think I am ill and should seek help.Pissing people off used to be so much fun.Now I yawn.PK is asleep and I am bored.This blows.More punk music and shitty comments I guess.

For You
I know sometimes it is hard to see things the way others do especially about yourself. You are honest, caring, passionate, dedicated, loyal, very respectful and a great loving father. When I think of you many things come to mind. I love you , I value your opinion , I trust you wholeheartedly and I know you would never intentionally hurt me. I would never hurt you either. You Know we all have inner demons and fears we need to conquer. I know it's hard to look from the outside and see things as they are. Seeing the whole picture isnt always easy, but in order to figure out the future we have to see what is truly there . We have to be able to embrace and communicate it. We cannot turn our back on friendship, love or any other amazing connections we may make in the crazy game of life. You and I have made a true connection since we have gotten to know one another.I thank heaven for you every night. So, for a moment sit back see yourself as the man that I do

Rawr
MysteryI wish you could know how it feels to be me,Why I appear so intoxicated,When I let you inside to seek,Looking for what you seem to need.Some nights you enter ever so tenderly,Others you ravage and plunder,Pervading primed lips, as I silently wonder,As host, which pair you like most.Occasionally you command my head,Forcefully pushing down,Saturating my mouth with your entirety,As I succumb to the rhythm that you need.Intensity enflames me,When you speak my name in ecstasy,Igniting a craving, insistent that I mount,To fuse us with its heat.At times you are a hungry lion,Stalking, as soon as I step through your door,And I fear being torn apart, resisting,As savagely you thrust, the moment tasting.Desperately searching,Exploring for something I hide,You tunnel further with every stride,Into the cave that houses my soul,Digging for a treasure to make you whole,One you think is buried within,Beneath my skin.Although, I know not what you're mining for,And so you are,And forever will re

Never Look Inside Your Own Mind
I've started looking into my own mind, and it's a place I really don't like. The week I had last week, followed by this week end of silence has caused me to really examine myself. One should never do that, unless they are prepared to see themselves as something less than they are. In searching my self, I've found I don't even know me anymore. For years, I have buried the person that I once was, and have left them far behind. Who am I now? This is something that I don't even know. I look at who I have become and wonder if I could even like that person. I have accomplished goals that I have set for myself, but at what cost? I've lost myself along the way, and I don't know if I can go back. I don't even know if I want to go back. All I know is that some how, I have to reconcile who I was, with who I am and find a way to keep what little sanity I have. Happiness is something I don't know if I can ever find, I'll settle for contentment. To be strong for my son, that is al

What Shall I Do Now?
As you probably know by if you've read my previous blogs or mumms, I was in a bad relationship. Been over 2 yrs. I'm ready to move on & what happened in the past is past. Looking ahead to what the future holds. Just because 1 person ruined my faith in females does not mean all females will be like her. GOD I sure hope not!! LOL I've been off & on here. Can't say if I am looking for Miss Right on here or not. I guess I am just waiting for her to fall out of the sky & say "Here I am. The woman you've been looking for all your life" If I think that is gonna happen I might as well keep dreaming. I guess I'm looking for someone to just pop up & tell me I've been looking for someone like me. Really looking forward to my class reunion next weekend. I'll probably be the only one there without a date but it wouldn't be the 1st time I went alone. Too late tho to find someone to go with me. Only God & time will tell me what will happen in the future. Until then, life goes on & so does my search

Little Johnny Strikes Again
The teacher asked the class to use the word 'fascinate' in a sentence.Molly put up her hand and said, 'My family went to my granddad's farm, and we all saw his pet sheep. It was fascinating.'The teacher said, 'That was good, but I wanted you to use the word 'fascinate, not fascinating'.Sally raised her hand. She said, 'My family went to see Rock City and I was 'fascinated.'The teacher said, 'Well, That was good Sally, but I wanted you to use the word 'fascinate.'Little Johnny raised his hand. The teacher hesitated because she had been burned by Little Johnny before.She finally decided there was no way he could damage the word 'fascinate', so she called on him.Johnny said, 'My aunt Gina has a sweater with ten buttons, but her tits are so big she can only fasten eight.' The teacher sat down and cried.

Aches
my heart is full . my soul aches . you touch i await , im so scare to hope , been ther before , shot down badly . i dream of being happy of being with you . but i know what i desire might never be true .i sing in my heart and cry with my eyes ... i never felt more like hiding away from everyone , so they cant see how easy it would be to make me shatter in a million pieces , if you ripped my heart out . i think imi just dying ,my heart crying to have you here with me , can i go on by myself ...i hate it sooooooooo much .

Naughty
As i gaze in your eyes Ill take you holding you ever so close Ill slip my tongue inside your mouth as our tongues circle sensually togeather in a heat of passion Ill take my tongue as I glide my tongue up along your neck kissing my way up to your ear Ill flick the tip of your ear with my tongue and then playfully nibble and tug your ear Ill softly Whisper "I want you" ohhh yess my love I want that you feel my words of passion and know my hearts desire is to please you I want nothing but to take you to worlds of intense pleasure and sensual seduction "Ill gently lay your body down under the full moon stary sky my my hands gracefully running up and down your warm soft beautiful body caressing you with my touch my tongue now circling along your shoulders placing warm passionate kisses and bites along your shoulders Ill take my hand as I let my finger tips graze along your thigh and up and around in between your inner thighs Ill open your legs wide enough to allow my figers to gracefully

See How Many You Can Find..
LETS SEE HOW MANY SPELLING ERRORS U CAN FIND.lol I AM VARY BOARD IS THIER ANYTHING FUN I CAN DO HEAR ON FU? SHOULD I LISTNE TO MUSIC MAYBE BLACK LABLE SOCIOTY? HOW ABOUT IF I GO MAKE RAINDEER PICTIRES AND ZOMBE PICS. I CAN'T SPEL VERY WELL ,MAYBE TOMMORROW I CAN. THERE ARE 12 MISTAKES CAN YOU FIND THEM? LOL YEAH I BET MY FRIEND CHRIS CAN LMFAO...

All Moved
Moving went pretty smooth. Not even a drop of rain. It rained the day before and after I moved, which was nice. I had a few people helping me. Kari unpacked for me. Myke was there for a few hours until he had to go back to work. Turtle was there for a couple hours but wanted to go home early. Randy came and helped which was nice. My dad even helped and brought his good son over to help bring in a couch and help mount my tv onto the wall. I had bought a 32 inch flat screen tv. Yay..so I have a nice tv in the living room...a old tv in my bed room that was given to me. I have the net and cable set up today. It's been way too quiet without anything and I been real bored. I am waiting for the ex to move his stuff out. I asked him when he planned on getting his crap out..he said he wasn't sure...either monday or tuesday. I told him, to get his stuff out by Tuesday night or I will be tossing it. He has all this time to be packing and moving shit over. I need time to clean up the place before

A Small Update
Hi all,At the moment I still have no internet access. I am currently at a friends house so I am able to use theirs for a few seconds. I am currently looking to get a new laptop (mine finally died) and establish some sort of an internet connection. I am still alive :) Thanks for all of the love while during my time offline. I hope to be back on soon. xoxo Lanah Layeau

Two Become One.. Redone
Tonight As darkness falls Upon a moon kissed weary earth Stars sparkle in ebony skies Dancing in sweet rhythm To our whispered words of love Two bodies wrapped together In a sensuous lovers embrace A deep hunger for each other So plain to see upon each face Each heated touch Each fevered kiss Kindles white hot passion Brings oh such bliss Two hearts come together Now to beat as one Two souls joined forever Two bodies become one

My Heart
My heart is full of broken fragmentsFrangments so small you can't see themThey're like sandSand thats wearing away at what remains Every time i start to healEvery time the pain starts to fadeYou come around and rip at the scabsTearing open old wounds My heart has become so fragileIt can't take another breakIt can't handle another tear You've left my heart in a sad stateStop tearing it apartPlease

Sitting Here
I don't often think about the things I'm grateful for I don't often remind myself of how well I have it I often look upon the negative side of the day I often see what faults I possess I rarely find the answer to my questions I rarely remember what I said a week ago I'm not sure what I will be doing tomorrow I'm not sure if I'll be here in three hours I do know that I am sitting right here I am currently thinking about you I can not do so much except think I think about the decisions I have I am sitting here wondering about it all I am sitting here hoping for a truth I sit to keep my mind at calm I sit so I do not think I'm sitting here because I miss you I'm sitting because this feeling isn't new I'm sitting because I miss you....

So Today's Dilemma...
So today's dilemma is, how to get a hold of US taxpayer dollars...to buy a bull...to sacrifice. No shit. As it stands, we're dropping 600 bones of our own money to do this. Basically as a traditional gift to the needy, in this case, the Pakistani cops how risk their lives to protect us, for the the equivalent of $36 a month. Still, I can't believe my life sometimes.

Just Something On My Mind Again
when a man admits he crys himself to sleep at night over a woman is it a sign of weakness ? When a man say he would get on his stomach and knees and crawl back to a woman for forgivness is that a sign of weakness.. is it a sign of weakness when a man lets everyone know that he loves a woman so much he will do anything in the world for her. or is it a sign of weakness when a man wont admit any of this to himself or anyone else.

My Love For One Person
i lay in bed at night cry myself to sleep everynight since i have lost you in my life. i look at your picture several times a day and the tears start like water works. i relized i had ruened any chances of correcting my biggest mistake in the world of letting you go. i openly admit to all my freinds that i am still in love with you and miss you so much. fighting back the tears each and everytime. i am either weaker now that i have lost you in my life. i get on my knees and gut and crawl accross hot burning coals to tell you sorry if it would help. I LOVE YOU MY ANGEL.

The Ultimate Insider Black Friday Guide
With a slowly recovering economy, retailers are looking for ways to lure wary customers into their stores on Black Friday. Some retailers are attracting shoppers by staying open on Thanksgiving Day, in addition to extending their hours on Black Friday. Wal-Mart leads the pack, with most of its stores remaining open for 24 hours on Thanksgiving Day as well as Black Friday. On Thanksgiving, the Gap will open at 9 a.m., Banana Republic at 11 a.m., and Old Navy at noon. Toys "R" Us stores will open their doors at midnight before Black Friday. Others are employing social media contests to draw in customers, like J.C. Penney Co.'s Facebook sweepstakes, in which winners will receive a Penney's $500 gift card, assistance from personal shoppers, and a limo ride to the store. Here's where you can score some impressive Black Friday deals: Wal-Mart will allow customers to camp out next to their desired items beginning on Thanksgiving Day, and Black Friday specials will last from 5 a.m. to 11

Boo
I went to the casino earlier today. Spent a little over an hour there....didn't win big..boo. Broke even liike usual. I think I only played with 20 bucks and came out with 38 bucks. Oh such a big winner. At least I didn't lose all, right? Grabbed some seafood for lunch. Yum. Went to a German store. Been a while since I've been in there and grabbed some groceries. Prices have changed since I been there last, a lot more expensive. But their meat is sooooo good. I don't know what I'll be doing the rest of the day...

Into You
The world is cold and thunderousAs one dark day follows the nextFrom high up in the heavensShadows fell like rainDrenching me in sorrowDrowning me in painPulling me deeper Spinning me faster Into turbulanceEverything turned to blacknessFor my eyes had closed before meI tried to hide from my sadnessBut there's nowhere to hideIn an empty worldJust as hope seemed to have faithThere appeared a shelter in the distanceThat shelter was loveThat shelter was youIn cover from the tourment I felt warmthI turned and saw a glow risingNothing like anything I'd ever seenSpellbound I was drawn to itSlowly giving myself to itEverything was stillFor this new life lay within me nowFrom this light beauty grewAs my heart stirred music lived in my breathSoared from my lips in a song of loveEven from the depths of my memoryShadows and death fledFreely I fellDeeper into this world of blissFaster Into youThere I stoodBeneath heavens cloudy veilThreatening in its darknessI tried calling outVivid sweet songsOnly

I Am Weak
In every heart there is regretBut they soon repair and don't forgetThe deepest songs that life then fears Through the pain, through the yearsThese are the thoughts that I concealThough my eyes can't hide the way I feelThere are no angels at my sideI am weak, I am tiredI am afraid of what I seeWhen my world is safe, what I dreamI do not shed a single tearWhen I sleep, you are hereYou know it's trueI am brokenCan we recaptureThe life we knew?I am missing you

Will Be Gond For A While
AS MANY OF MY FRIENDS KNOW I BEEN DEALING WITH BEING SICK FOR A LONG TIME WELL I AM GOING OT BE HAVING SURGERY TOMMORROW MORNING SO I WILL BE GONE FOR A WHILE MY SURGERY IS AT 9 AM I AM HAVING MY APPENDIX AND SCAR TISSUE FROM PREVIOUS SURGERIES I HAD WHEN I WAS A KID SO IF U KNOW ME GOOD AND WANT THE NUM TO THE HOSPITAL U CAN CHECK UP ON ME PLEASE FEEL FREE TO SEND ME A PM AND I CAN GIVE IT TO U SO PLEASE PRAY FOR THINGS GO SMOOTHLY

Wonder
I'm wondering when my new life will actually begin or has it begun already? I feel so proud of myself when I get one thing accomplished that i've been wanting to be done but I am wondering why I am still down. I'm happy that I've lost the pounds that I've lost, amd still wanting to lose more cause I still feel that I'm a whale. I'm happy that I"m finally away from that asshole and living on my own, but yet..I'm lonely. Real lonely. I talk to my cats a lot...I feel like I'm gonna be some insane person...heh...I'll talk to people online...every now and then I'll hang out with some friends, but...I still feel so lonely and hurt inside. I am wondering how long this feeling will last. I'm trying to erase things from my life that wouldn't bring painful memories. Whether it be the times with my ex or other things. Sometimes I'll think of things or things would come into my mind and I have to yell at myself to get that thought out of me. Afraid of being hurt, bad memories or whatever. After

Solitaire - 7/30/09
SOLITAIRE This game did not yield multiple personality excuses to an only child whose misery did not love company Shuffling the cards incessantly in the desperate hope that chaotic silenced emotions could be so easily tamed Masterful acrobatic digits had cards tumbling smoothing furrowed brows with semblances of control via accelerated snapping arcs that rose and fell Knowing any real control popped like bubbles prophetically leaving you with a wet sticky mess Smooth textures belied its rough edges as you methodically thwap each card down in military precision Smirks linger for each and every slap of triumph eradicating for mere moments ignorance’s smackdowns Bittersweet irony for a girl perpetually thumbing her nose at empty authority to mark Kings to serfs in an unforgiving lineup Only in this game do victory and failure have fleeting tastes So comfortably addicted to effortless do-overs leaving only the question of why we yearn to co

Physical Exam
Physical Exam Dreams of physical examination often occur at times when we feel our lives may not be as well-ordered as they could or should be. Close scrutiny often reveals trouble where we thought everything was fine. Or, conversely, it reveals that we are fine when we were having vague feelings that there may be trouble. Who did the examining and what was the nature of the problem discovered, or were you fortunate to be given a clean bill of health?

Christmas
I think this is the first year in I don't even remember how long that I've been excited for. I think the last time I was excited for Christmas I was 14 and I was excited cuz the day after Christmas I was leaving for Orlando and Miami, Florida. The last 3 or 4 in specific have been awful. I've been dreading this time of year all year. That's why I picked up so many hours at work. Ever since I took this job, the days fly by. The MONTHS fly by. Fuck I swear I just took the boys to a Halloween dance the day before Halloween like last week. And now it's almost December! Matt's now planning on maybe being here for Christmas. Of course, I have to work Christmas which is fantastical. I'm hoping maybe I can trade my coworker Christmas Eve for one of her days so I can at least spend SOME time on Christmas with him if he is here. And my family and I'll take a few hours of paid leave. I'm sure she'd like the double time anyways. So, needless to say, I'm excited. Matt might be here on Christmas a

Its All Over ~ By Jd
Look at this real close, Understand this is not what it seems, Think of all the tmes you had your chances, Look down upon all wasted time. Fate is cold blooded, Yes that is right fate can be a killer of dreams, Push yourself past all the insecurities, The risk is meant to either make or break. Do what you do, See when it comes to me i travel the unbeaten path, The seperate can come to be a good thing, Either way right now your wings are clipped. Battered and broken, Obviously you need to find a new way to feel alive, Handle this situation with care, This may be your last shot to survive. The words hurt but only create surface wounds, You never puncture till they cut the vein, So maybe this time your ready to call it quits, Do not let the guilt restrain your choice. Sometimes in life we get so used to what we used to know that we forget we also have a voice, Time to speak up, Matter of fact shout it out loud and clear, All doubt is about to dissapear. I dont want to

Glimmer Of Hope
A glimmer of hope, in eyes used to pain.Don't trust your heart; love is a game.Yearning to find love; love that will last.A glimmer of hope; sparks from the past.The past is your present and the future is unclear.Being alone is your greatest fear.Will happiness come? Or does loneliness stay?A glimmer of hope; you will find a way.

Live Auction @ Coyote Ugly
LIVE AUCTION @ COYOTE UGLY!!!! WE ARE HAVING A LIVE AUCTION IN COYOTE UGLY NOV 27TH @ 10PM EST IF YOU WOULD LIKE TO BE IN THE AUCTION LET ME KNOW BY THURSDAY NOV. 26TH. & WHAT YOUR OFFERINGS ARE GOING TO BE. (OFFERING EXAMPLES: ADD TO FAMILY, SALUTE, RANDOM BLING ETC.) WE WOULD LOVE TO SEE YOU THERE!!!

Life’s Tough When You’re Stupid...
Life’s Tough When You’re Stupid... A classroom full of first year Veterinary students were participating in their first day of anatomy class. For the lecture, the professor begins by unveiling a dead cow under a white sheet laying on an operating table. The professor tells the class “In Veterinary Medicine, there are two qualities you must possess as a doctor – the first of which is a strong stomach. You cannot, under any circumstance, be disgusted by anything involving an animal’s body. For example, the Professor pulls back the sheet and sticks his finger right up the dead cow’s hindquarters, pulls out his finger and sticks it in his mouth. The students just stand there, paralyzed at what they see. “Now, go ahead and do the same thing, each of you,” the professor says. Freaked out, the students take several minutes but eventually take turns sticking their fingers up into the anal cavity of the dead cow, and then sucking on them. Once eve

The Foo Fighters........
HelloI've waited here for youEverlongTonight I throw myself intoand out of the red out of her head she sangCome down and waste away with medown with meSlow out you wanted it to beover my head, out of my head she sangand I wonderwhen I sing along with youIf everything could ever feel this real forever If anything could ever be this good again the only thing I'll ever ask of youyou've got to promise not to stop when I say whenshe sangBreathe outso I can breathe you inHold you inand nowI know you've always beenout of your head out of my head i sangand I wonderIf everything could ever feel this real foreverIf anything could ever be this good againthe only thing I'll ever ask of youyou've got to promise not to stop when I say when love this tune....i hope you do too

My Health
So, today was the last day of my treatment, and I am completely clean now. It hurts when ppl say that crabs ar for hookers and druggies only cause I got em, and I am none of those. It can happen to anyone and people should get a life before judging. Its not like its aids or somethin, so whatever. I am completely done with all the medications they gave me, and I have a clean billl of health as of today. For advice: just cause you use a condom doesnt mean you cant get crabs, I used one but I guess the guy had em. I wish I knew right away, but. Its not worth the hassle and money.

To All Of You Who Care Lol
My site lolosky(dot)cjb(dot)net is now open its still under construction but its now open for viewing. so go check it out and let me kno what u think as I work harder to make it the best.. xoxo

Not Always Right | In The Land Of Milk & Money
Meat Packing Plant | Minnesota, USA (I am working at a packing house, cutting checks for local dairy farmers who sell us one or two cows at a time. They are given a scale ticket in the barn, which I use to cut a check.) Me: “Hi, can I have your scale ticket?” Farmer: “I’d like him to help me.” *points at a USDA associate* Me: “Sorry, sir, but he doesn’t work for us. He works for the USDA.” Farmer: “Well, I’d like you to find a MAN who can cut me a check for my cows.” Me: “I’m sorry, but none of the men that work here know how to cut checks. All our office staff members are women.” Farmer: “Don’t lie, you little hussy! Only men can run a business! You go back to making coffee!” Me: “Sir, you run a dairy farm, correct?” Farmer: “Yeah.” Me: “And you make money from the milk you sell?” Farmer: “That’s how a dairy farm works, swee

Not Always Right | Wrong About The Right
Jewelry Store | Leicestershire, UK (I’m filling out a return slip for a customer.) Customer: “Oh! You’re a lefty!” Me: “Err no, this is my right hand.” Customer: “But it’s on my left!” Me: “It’s still my right hand.”

Not Always Right | Latte In Translation
Coffee Shop | Minneapolis, MN, USA Customer: “I want a vanilla iced latte.” Cashier: “Okay, anything else?” Customer: “No.” (I make the drink for the customer and give it to her.) Me: “Here you are, ma’am.” Customer: “What is this? It isn’t a vanilla iced latte!” Me: “Yes it is, ma’am.” Customer: “What? No! I said I wanted a vanilla iced LA…TEA!” Me: “I’m not sure what you mean… we do have iced tea.” Customer: “I wanted a LA-TEA!” Customer’s husband: “She wants an iced coffee.” Customer: “Yes! Why are you people so stupid?! I always say the wrong thing. You should know by now what I want!”

Not Always Right | How About Some Techiflu?
Tech Support | Torrance, CA, USA Customer: “Hi, I had my computer looked at there, and you guys said that it’s running slow because there are probably bugs in it. Well, I sprayed some bug spray in it and now it won’t turn on.” Me: “Ma’am, when they tell you bugs, they mean computer viruses, not an actual bug.” Customer: “Well, what can I spray it with to get rid of the viruses?”

Not Always Right | Fast Food For Fast Thinkers
Fast Food | Maryland, USA (I am working as a cashier and two customers come in talking loudly about how dumb minimum wage fast-food workers are. One of them decides to prove it…) Customer: “Let me ask you a question. What’s 7 times 7?” Me: “49.” Customer: “What’s 8 times 8?” Me: “64.” Customer: “E equals MC squared?” Me: “What about it?” Customer: “What does it mean?” Me: “Energy equals mass times the speed of light squared.” Customer: “Uhm…” Me: “Would you like fries with that?”

Not Always Right | A Sign Of A Long Day
Grocery Store | Mississauga, ON, Canada (Note: I am a self-checkout attendant.) Customer: “Miss, my debit card doesn’t seem to be working.” Me: “Are you sure you’re swiping it the right way?” Customer: “Which way is the right way?” Me: “Stripe facing outward.” Customer: “Miss, it’s still not working!” Me: “I’m sorry sir, but that debit machine is currently out of order.” Customer: “I want to use this one. Why isn’t this one working?” Me: “I’m sorry, but we called tech support. If you’d like, I’d be more than happy to suspend your order and–” Customer: “It’s your responsibility to put up signs if something isn’t working! I want to speak to your store manager.” Me: “There’s no sign on that machine? I’m sure I put them up just a couple of minutes ago.” Customer: “Do you SEE

Not Always Right | Baaaah-laboring The Obvious
Shoe Store | Baton Rouge, LA, USA Customer: “Do you have any kid’s shoes?” Me: *thinking she’s referring to a similar-sounding brand* “Yes. They are right over here.” Customer: “No, not these. Kid’s shoes!” Me: “Oh, I’m sorry. The youth department is over here.” Customer: “No, not kid’s, kid’s!” Me: “I’m sorry, are you looking for the brand, or kid’s shoes?” Customer: “Kid’s!” Me: *showing her the brand* “Is this what you are looking for?” Customer: “Yes. Do you have them in kid’s?” Me: “No, we do not have kid’s sizes. Customer: “I am not looking for kid’s sizes! I am looking for some to fit me!” Me: *confused* “These are our adult shoes…the youth section is over there.” Customer: “Do you even know what a kid is?” Me: “No?” Customer

Ive Been Tagged
my friend jen asked me to write 10 unusual things about myself an than ask 5 friends of mine 2 do the same, here goes: 1. When i was young, my mother chased me around the house with the turkey neck an stuff u make the gravy out of. It grossed me out ! So now i only eat ham on thanksgiving. 2. My son says i talk to myself an dont even realize it. 3.When i grow up or retire, I would like to treasure hunt for gold and jewels or own a nut tree farm. 4. Parrots always attack me but i get along with almost all dogs and cats. 5.When im worried about something, I get a rash around my neck and ears. 6. Most of my close friends all have the same astrology signs. 7.I cant keep a secret an dont understand why people have them? 8.I like to read about people who say they can channel the higher mind (edgar cayce ect..) I dont know if they really can but they have some imaginative things to say! 9.Ive worked for room and board an entire summer just because it

Rain (was Written In 1988, Middle School)
I am cold and clammy to teh tough I am wet and warm and hot I float down to earth in many forms and sometimes I help wood rot I spoil some peoples day others dance with joy for flowers I am a treat and make mud puddles for little boys I travel from city to city and leave a part of me behind Sometimes when I come the skies darken and people scatter and hide Though you have your own opinion of how good I am to you I don't really want to make your day sad and blue I mostly come when you need me although not all the time I actually try and wash the earth and rid it of its grime

Grrr Grr Grumble
These tears flow from my eyes As I say my goodbyes I forgot how it feels to cry from hurt Maybe Im just being curt? But this is how I feel You made this real Let you in and you stabbed me straight through the heart Yes we are seperated by distance but this stunt tore me apart I feel destroyed And yet again there is that stupid whole in my heart Maybe this was all ,to you, a game Maybe Im just another stupid dame You tell me Wait! How will I know its not another false guarantee?

13 Xmas Things That Sound Dirty
Did you get any under the tree? I think your balls are hanging too low. Check out Rudolph’s Honker! Santa’s sack is really bulging. So…What’d you get in the sack? Tying the legs together keeps the inside moist. Lift up the skirt so I can get a clean breath. Did you get a piece of the fruitcake? I love licking the end till it’s really sharp and pointy. Polly Pocket really is a kids toy. From here you can’t tell if they’re artificial or real. Can I interest you in some dark meat? To get it to stand up straight, try propping it against the wall.

Eveyone Is Invited
Everyone is invited witness Shaniya and Kent getting Fu-Married... God could not have made you people more perfect for each other... It was love at first sight and since then it been getting better and better... Come be apart of this wedding at the Se7en Sins Lounge

The Pirate In Me 2
It was two months since I meet Captain Ron and I was starting to think that I would never see him again but then after we docked there he was standing right in front of me with a huge grin on his face. He grabbed my hand and pulled me along to the hotel. I did not get to say a word before we were in a room and he was stripping me. I tried to stop him but he just slapped my hand and then went back to my cloths. When I was finally naked I stud there glaring at him he only smiled and started to strip himself. “What the hell do you think you are doing Ron, I have work to do. I docked to unload and get stuff not to have fun with you. Now let me get dressed and go back to my ship.” I went to leave but he stopped me by grabbing my hair and dragging me to the bed. He then jumped on the bed and wrestled me down to where I was pinned and could not get up. He then licked my neck and chest before biting my nipple. I scream but he stopped me by kissing me again.

Not That This Will Do A Damn Bit Of Good, However One Must Continue To Try....
Sent to the President of these United States of America via E-mail Dear Mister President, I had a dream last night, not an uncommon event and in this dream I found myself sitting in a military induction physical center waiting my turn to be examined by the staff. One of the doctors present came over to me somewhat upset. “I remember you! You were here back in January of this year, we disqualified you from service.” I looked up at this person already feeling tears rolling down my face and asked. “What am I suppose to do? This has been my life ever since I was a kid!” He didn’t answer that question, I’m not sure there is an answer to that question. For the very first time that I can remember I dreamt I was praying. When I awoke from this dream my lips were still moving as I had been praying aloud in my sleep. I grew up believing in dreams, people told me over and over again to follow my dreams to whenever they lead me. The one dream I ha

6 Ways To Confirm Santa Is A Guy !
6 WAYS TO CONFIRM SANTA IS A GUY ! 1 HE SHOWS UP LATE AT NIGHT 2 EATS YOUR COOKIES 3 EMPTIES HIS SACK 4 HE ONLY COMES ONCE 5 CALL YOU A HO 6 LEAVES WHILE YOU SLEEP !!! TOOO FUNNNY

Want To Be A Second Alarm Hottie
Come be part of the Original & Best Ladies Team on Fu . You have been selected as one of Fubars most Sexiest Lady's and we would love to have to tryout for our 2nd Alarm Hotties Family . Click on the pics above & your on your way . Brought to you by : ~§r Då®k Kñïght ~Owned By R/l Wife~§ĭñFüllŷ Dëlĭ©ìôu§~Promo Chief 2nd Alarm Hotti (repost of original by '§ĭñFüllŷ Dëlĭ©ìôu§ ~Blôñdĭë~Promo Chief 2nd Alarm Hottie♥DSC/' on '2009-10-27 09:21:52')

Bulimia Kills
So I'm not even very actively acting out with the ED, but I'm having the most painful muscle cramps and twitches today. Which must be nutrition related. Somebody needs to rescue me before I kill myself doing this bullshit. I'm in too much pain to go on. And all the meds in the world only do so much for the arthritis, the muscle pains, the mental agony. Somebody just do something, because life's slipping away from me much too fast for my 23 years...

An E-mail I Got From The President
Chris -- Tomorrow, Thanksgiving Day, Americans across the country will sit down together, count our blessings, and give thanks for our families and our loved ones. American families reflect the diversity of this great nation. No two are exactly alike, but there is a common thread they each share. Our families are bound together through times of joy and times of grief. They shape us, support us, instill the values that guide us as individuals, and make possible all that we achieve. So tomorrow, I'll be giving thanks for my family -- for all the wisdom, support, and love they have brought into my life. But tomorrow is also a day to remember those who cannot sit down to break bread with those they love. The soldier overseas holding down a lonely post and missing his kids. The sailor who left her home to serve a higher calling. The folks who must spend tomorrow apart from their families to work a second job, so they can keep food on the table or send a child to school. We are grateful b

Love Poem
I knew you all my life You were allways a good friend But when I got to know you better I let my heart unbend I couldn't help past memories That would only make me cry I had not forgotten my first true love And was able to give it another try So ive fallen in love with you yet again and will never let you go I love you more than anyone I just had to let you know And if you ever wonder why I don't know what i'll say But i'll never stop loving you Each and every day My feelings for you will never change Just to let you know And it's TRUE when I say to you I'll allways love you so

Yes Its A Beautiful Day!!!
Thank you for being you Thank you for showing me more then i knew. Thank you for making songs about me Thank you for helping me to see All that this life can be. Thank you for being you Thank you for making me want to say i do. Thank you for giving me everything I have everything... And everything is YOU.

I Believe----- So True
A Birth Certificate shows that we were born A Death Certificate shows that we died Pictures show that we lived! Have a seat . Relax . . . And read this slowly... I Believe... That just because two people argue, It doesn't mean they don't love each other. And just because they don't argue, It doesn't mean they do love each other. I Believe... That we don't have to change friends if We understand that friends change. I Believe.... That no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that. I Believe.... That true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance. Same goes for true love. I Believe... That you can do something in an instant That will give you heartache for life. I Believe.... That it's taking me a long time To become the person I want to be. I Believe... That you should always leave loved ones with Loving words. It may be the last time you see them.

Broken Lyrics - Lindsey Haun
Wake up to a sunny day, not a cloud up in the skyThen it starts to rain, my defenses hit the groundAnd they shatter all around, so open and exposedI found strength in the struggleFace to face with my trouble When you're broken in a million little pieces And you're trying but you can't hold on anymoreEvery tear falls down for a reasonDon't you stop believing in yourselfWhen you're broken Little girl don't be so blueI know what you're going through Don't let it beat you upHitting walls and getting scars Only makes you who you areOnly makes you who you areNo matter how much your heart is achingThere is beauty in the breakingYeah When you're broken in a million little pieces And you're trying but you can't hold on anymoreEvery tear falls down for a reasonDon't you stop believing in yourself When you're broken Better days are gonna find you once again Every piece will find its place When you're broken, when you're broken When you're broken in a million little pieces And you're trying but yo

I Am Back!!!
Hey all I am back and missed you all lots my life has changed alot!!! I am happier then I ever have been in a long time, I now have my Granson w/me and am taking care of him full time!!! So I will be on and off for now just to let you all know all is well and I am doing great hugz, Cindy.

Pics That People Take
Personally i think its cool that people take pics of themselves and surroundings,in general i like people they facinate me and i enjoy seeing what other people do and how they live.but think of this the next time you decide to post a pic for millions of people to see....clean ur room!

Fatty
Soooo I need to get to my goal weight..or goal size.. which is getting tougher and tougher as Im losing more. LAME! I've dropped 20 so far... but it has fluxuated these past few months and I can't seem to get past that bump. So annoying. One week I feel nice, but then the next week I feel like "oh hi my name is Heffer McFattyfat." So glad I dont look like how I used to... but still. I'm not satisfied at all. No idea why I'm posting this... maybe to get some feedback... support... suggestions? Maybe to stay on track and keep going so I dont end up looking like the Hindenburg at some point in my life. Ok so it was never that bad. Im down for even dropping another 20. Even 10! Stupid metabolism, let's get with it yo, speed yourself the fuck up. I'm going running tonight to burn off this Thanksgiving dinner. And this ass. So yeah, if anyone has any suggestions, ideas or tips that can help me along the way that would be splendid! Wish me luck... I'm gonna need it :D

The Dark Corner 2
When the next day came I did not want to go but I ended up driving there and waiting there like some kind of dog in heat. I felt dirty for wanting you again when I did not even like it the first time around. When I saw you walking up to me with a huge grin on your face; I wanted to slap you right then in there that my hand started to rise before I could think to stop it. You laughed and grabbed my hand before I even got to slap you. “Now now my sweet, no need to greet me like this. You liked it and you know you liked it or you would have fought me and not shown up. I am glad you did; now walk this way I live right around the corner from here.” You grab my hand and make me walk with you all the way to your house. I do not say anything because I am still trying to think of a way to get out of this without hurting myself. When we made it to your house I still had no idea what I was going to do and when you shut your door I knew it was too late to come up w

11/25/09
Okay...so what else could POSSIBLY go wrong???? They moved him to a satellite a week earlier than anticipated. This should be a good thing, but no. He's now 3 HOURS away instead of only 30 MINUTES as we were told before. Not to mention I only get to visit once every OTHER week on the weekend. Grand....and it's the weekends that I work too. I fucking hate my life.

Fallen Angel
Fallen Angel by Deborah Kussan She flys to places no one daresTwisting,turning,tumbling ,crying.She smiles but clouds invade her eyes;Loving,leaving,falling,tr ying. Sky is blue only for awhile.Tears are flowing like a good song.The sun is comfort while she aches.Her heart has fallen but she is strong. She flys against the wind that howls;Soaring.whimpering,lost again in the rain.She whispers out a precious name;No one hears her lonely pain . Sky turns dark and a star appears;The truth leaves her soul like leaf from a tree.A wish is made and heaven does not seem to listen.She tries to fly but does not feel free. Fallen Angel dancing in the dark.She wants to fly again but stops her heart.Night invades and day will again come once more.Wings feel torn and ripped a part. She can fly again once she sees what's true.She has fallen but the sky is not too far.Fallen Angel with imperfect eyes reflecting hope.She wishes upon a falling star.Fallen Angel sleeps dreams away.She wants to fly

A New Life
The place was dark I could barely see my hands A flash of lighting Brighten the room through the window The room was visible for a moment I could see a staircase Walking up the stairs Toward another room I could see a man, standing by the window I could smell his cologne Its somewhat familar The scent of the man, that man Who has left ages ago The man who disappeared Without even saying goodbye For a moment, I felt my limbs weakening As though I'm going to fall He turned around And walks towards me The scent grows stronger and stronger He stops and meets my gaze Time stops For what seems like a long while Neither of us say anything "I'm sorry" The tone of his voice was soft It was clear it was a struggle for him to say Those words But, it was those words that I longed for The words to close a chapter in my life "Tha

Missing
So in january it will be my 1 yr anniversary here on fubar. Since then I've managed to make more enemies then friends so it seems. There are some people that I miss, sadly, I don't think they would want to talk to me even if I tried. I find it disturbing that people think so poorly of me, as though I were out to screw over others. I'm horrible w/ words, so its best I don't speak much, or so I've learned. On that note I'm going to smoke and drink coffee..LOTS of coffee

Thanksgiving Day...i Woke Up With A Smile Then...
looked at my fubar page staring at me (ok...so i'm a true online junkie...i never turn off my pooter or my yahoo...and i'm always logged in to fubar..hehehe) and i have a nasty message from a "friend" who seems to have forgotten that i had to work 12 hrs yesterday...the same "friend" who told me off and accused me of using him becuz i didn't answer his texts yesterday (i might note here...i answered NO ONES texts yesterday since i didn't have time to be texting and try to get done with my job so i could actually spend time with my family...as a matter of fact...i never opened my phone until 7 pm last nite and had a LIST OF MISSED EVENTS!) so anyway...i open my msgs on fubar this morning...and lo and behold! here sits a nasty msg from the same "friend"...needless to say my thanksgiving day is starting to go downhill and i've only been out of bed for half an hour then i decided i better get my pumpkin pies made and realize no pie pans! (ok i'm the type that usually buys pre made pies b

Just To Let You Know.....
I never wanted to act like this towards you. It's not my intention to ignore you and act like you were never part of my life. I would walk up and talk to you and say something but I can only be silent because I don't have nothing else to say to you. Funny how so much have change, how we can chat for hours but couldn't even say a mere sentence to each other. Seemed like everything was just a dream that happened so quickly. Funny how we just look at each other and just tend to walk away. Seemed like were nothing but associates now. Crazy how so much have happened, but we act like nothing ever did. I'm not complaining because sometime we can't help our actions, it's just something I've noticed lately. I just want you to know that even though were nothing but friends or associates now is that I'm happy that your happy even though knowing I'm not there by your side anymore. I just wish you happiness in your future in life. Thanks for the happiness and the love you've shared and the memories

11/26/09
Vagetarian: 1) A straight male or lesbian female. 2) A cannibal that dines only on the pinkest of meatVagination: 1) Imaginary sexual partner 2) Sexual daydream 3) "Tucking it", as in a cross dresser or pre-op trans-sexualLesbitanic: 1) A woman who is an ardent lesbian 2) A woman who greatly enjoys giving cunnilingus, as in "She goes down like the Titanic" 3) A very large lesbian

Tee Hee
I asked her to pick up a six pack of beer while at the store. Instead -she bought some facial cream. I said - The beer would have made you more attractive than the cold cream. Thats when the fight started.

You Deserve The Best
This life is yoursTake the powerto choose what you want to doand do it wellTake the powerto love what you want in lifeand love it honestlyTake the powerto walk in the forestand be a part of natureTake the powerto control your own lifeNo one else can do it for youNothing is too good for youYou deserve the bestTake the powerto make your lifehealthyexcitingworthwhileand very happyTake the powerto reach for your dreams Annette

Happy Thanksgiving.
Means we are the weirdest family in Halifax.Our friends and family here humor us in our celebration of a day that means nothing to them,BUT MY WIFE IS THE GREATEST!!!! I had a delicious dinner ready when I came home from work.Did I mention it was AWESOME??If I didnt IT WAS DELICIOUS!!!And to top it off,my princess made my favorite cake for my birthday and a PUMPKIN pie for Thanksgiving.I love pumpkin pie.My cake was Red Velvet.From what I gathered from PK they dont sell Red velvet cake mix here,so SHE MADE IT FROM SCRATCH. :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D Did I mention that I have the greatest wife ever?? Happy Thanksgiving to you and yours.Im out to spend time with mine.BBL werd

My Love...
You’re on my mind most of the time, I always do day dreaming… Can’t control my self, not to think about you, And through the night, I’m dreaming what is the feeling, To be in your arms while your caressing my face… Thinking how is the feeling, When I touch your lips to mine… Oh! If I could have just one wish, I would wish to be with you everyday… To feel the warmth of your lips, The touch of your hand on my skin To wake up everyday, that your laying beside me. But my heart hurts… Knowing that how far a way you are, I just have faith in GOD, And keep praying that one day in our life, We will be together, And I know in God’s will my dream will come true… That Wonderful NYE....A New beginning of Forever!

A Christmas Poem. Please Read All
Today we are suppose to think about what we have and be thankful for it. I have been gone all week and when I got home today had this in my email. Just another reminder that not everyone has it easy and no matter how hard we have it someone has it worse. Our beloved military are alone and away from their family. This is their choice to protect us and it should be our choice to love them and support them. New Christmas Poem TWAS THE NIGHT BEFORE CHRISTMAS, HE LIVED ALL ALONE, IN A ONE BEDROOM HOUSE MADE OF PLASTER AND STONE. I HAD COME DOWN THE CHIMNEY WITH PRESENTS TO GIVE, AND TO SEE JUST WHO IN THIS HOME DID LIVE. I LOOKED ALL ABOUT, A STRANGE SIGHT I DID SEE, NO TINSEL, NO PRESENTS, NOT EVEN A TREE. NO STOCKING BY MANTLE, JUST BOOTS FILLED WITH SAND, ON THE WALL HUNG PICTURES OF FAR DISTANT LANDS. WITH MEDALS AND BADGES, AWARDS OF ALL KINDS, A SOBER THOUGHT CAME THROUGH MY MIND. FOR THIS HOUSE WAS DIFFERENT, IT WAS DARK AND DREARY, I FOUND THE HOME OF A SOLDIER, ONCE

Haikus - 2/19/09
HAIKUS - 2/19/09 Definition: An unrhymed verse form of Japanese origin having three lines containing usually five, seven, and five syllables Spring floats on the breeze Walking to my car alone No, wait! Humming trees Wonderful futures Are only a thought away Now, in the present Snow white mountain tops Tranquil blue seas with creatures galore Yes! It's Ecuador Berry full of straw On top, molten chocolate My heart's own desire Go ahead spin another story As I nod and measure your dick Stare into my eyes Take a dive and swim deep You know you want to BLEEP! Sucked him in and tore him down Knew all along he was a clown Fuck him! You taste the smoothness Your hand holds on to it tight Ice cream cone, sicko! Music so moves me Held captive against your own So tonight we melt You punch and bruise me Using your lethal weapon But now your soul bleeds

Burning For You
Light kisses on my cheeks, eyes, and forehead Exhalations down my neck Spine arching nails tracing vertebrae Increasing the pressure and making me writhe Anticipating and satisfying every wanton need Nibbling and sucking already erect nipples Inching downward and exploring my voluptuousness Nuzzling my stomach and spreading my thighs Hearing my moans of expectation Enveloping your face in my warmth Allowing your tongue to flick and lick Tasting my clitoris with delight

Some Of My Thoughts...
I wrote this and figured I'd share it.. Tonight after getting new couches, the kids were hungry so we stopped at Wendy's. As we were eating, I noticed something out of the corner of my eye. There, outside, was a homeless man. He placed his blanket and things neatly by the door and came inside. After buying a small coffee he quietly went over to a table and sat down. I watched as other people just went about their meal, hoping to see someone offer him something. No one did. I knew that if I didn't get him something to eat I wouldn't be able to eat. I can't even eat in front of a hungry cat let alone a hungry person. I walked up and told him that I would like to buy him dinner. We went to the counter and I told him to pick out whatever he wanted. He spent a whopping $5, and that was with my urging. I gave him the change to get food tomorrow. There were tears in his eyes when he said thank you. The kids and I finished our meal and he thanked us again on our way out. Walking to t

Delusion Of The Vampire
Delusion Of The Vampire I was a vampire. Nothing more, nothing less. Yes, vampires do exist. Yes, vampires do drink the blood of mortals for sustenance. NO, I am not crazy. And yes, I am writing this from beyond two graves, for I perished from the species of mortals over 440 years ago, and perished from the species of vampire 11 years ago (or so I believe; that may be incorrect). However, unlike most of my kind, I did not choose to be a vampire; it was thrust upon me by a vampire who did not wish to seek permission to replenish his clan. I never even knew his name, as he was killed by members of his clan for breaking vampire law. And I was therefore pushed most violently into the realm of the undead. Death by vampirism does not come quickly; in fact, if you are unfortunate (or fortunate; it depends on your point of view), you will live until the sun goes nova and demolishes the planet. For with vampirism comes immortality, and with immortality comes the bereavement of the loss of thos

One More Day
I stare at the TV And I can't believe my eyes There's no place to run And no place to go There's no place left to hide I can see their faces I can feel their pain Our lives will never be the same So Forgive me if I laugh It's just to hide the tears Sometimes I wonder if I've wasted all those years For all the things I felt But forgot to say Would you give me one more day I sit here and wonder Now what if that were me If I'd lost my life Left behind my wife And the child that I'd never see If I could look down on her How would she explain That daddy had to go away So Forgive me if I smile It's just to hide my fears And in a time of dying Our life becomes so clear They say the good Lord works in such mysterious ways I just hope he gives me one more day One more day To look into her eyes, yeah, yeah One more moment to say goodbye, goodbye One more night to feel her touch Just one more chance So that I can tell her How much I miss her And tell her I love her Someone to love And s

A Peom For You
We convince ourselves that life will be better after we get married, have a baby, then another. Then we are frustrated that the kids aren’t old enough and we’ll be more content when they are. After that, we’re frustrated that we have teenagers to deal with. We will certainly be happy when they are out of that stage. We tell ourselves that our life will be complete when our spouse gets his or her act together, when we get a nicer car, are able to go on a nice vacation,or when we retire. The truth is, there’s no better time to be happy than right now. If not now, when? Your life will always be filled with challenges. It’s best to admit this to yourself and decide to be happy anyway. Happiness is the way. So, treasure every moment that you have and treasure it more because you shared it with someone special, special enough to spend your time with… and remember that time waits for no one. So, stop waiting –until your car or home is paid off&nd

Fart By Nick G.
I fart real quiet and I fart real loud My fart can knock out a big asian crowd Godzilla got nothing On my massive farts My farts pierce through the nostrils Like pointy darts They sometimes sound funny They sometimes sound deep Boy do all my farts Really give me a creep You can't see it pass Through the air or the sky Sometimes when you smell it You'll seem like you're high The one's that are worse Are the one's that are silent My farts fight on their own Yes they are real violent So next time you see me Angle my butt in the air You know I'm going to fart And that I really don't care

New Avatar Policy Update #2
*****FROM SCRAPPER'S BLOG***** Greetings fubarbarians..... I wanted to remind everyone that our new avatar is not meant to piss anyone off. We do not want to mark photos NSFW. The goal is to clean up the main photos. The guidelines are clear. If your photo was marked in your gallery, please contact a bouncer or myself, and we will review it and remove the NSFW flag. 1. Some photos that are being marked in galleries are ripped photos that other users have chosen to use as an avatar. When that photo is flagged, every copy on the site gets flagged. As I mentioned above, take it to a bouncer for review and we will remove the NSFW flag. 2. If you just signed on and found your Avatar was flagged, take it to a bouncer and ask them to remove the flag and do not use that photo as an avatar. 3. The bouncers have been very clearly informed to be very cool and patient about working with and communicating with users who need to change their avatar. If you receive a chat message or email f

Song Title
Ok I have this song on my play list for Fubar, but I don't know the right name of it so that I can down load it and it is driving my CRAZY! Here is part of the lyrics to it.. if you know the song please lemme know.. and it is Not Korn's ADIDAS I already tried that one! I'm wide awake with this damn burning fever I can't think straight I just keep sinking deeper, Star at the walls but I swear I can still see her face... Cause All day I think about you, Everyday I die in this room, Say I'm twisted yeah that's probably true, cause all day I think about... sex

Part #2 The Friend That Could Have Been But Never Was
. The comment in the first part of this blog was Sares first comment to me so what better way to end this blog then to show her last comment to me its almost like she knew she was going to die... now again here was a lady i did not know at all yet to her i was her ange with this comment she wote "I love you my friend try not To think of me as gone but rememebr me as i am...this lady was 48 years old and after her death i found very muched loved by all she came in contact with, she was a persone who had almost 2000 friends on her tagged account and i thought yah ok shes like me after the rates and points, but hell you could have knocked me over with a feather when i found out this lady cared about each and evry one of those people on her friends list to the point she could tell you thier names and everything about them that was on there profiles, but the biggiest shock was yet to come... By now i had to find out about this lady so i contacted her top 10 friends and t

[just Sayin Moment]
Your mouth would look a lot better with my dick in it, instead of that retarded facebook pursed lip "I just got hit on the back of the head with a frozen baguette" look.Or "scene girl gotta fart" look.... I can actually shorten that rant to the first clause.AlsoWhen doing calisthenics with a weapon, make sure your arm doesn't go numb as a result of major surgery and you lose your grip thus throwing something through something more expensive like a TV or a window >>Not that I have, its just damned good advice.I survived thanksgiving with minimal bullshit and insults, and I got a hefty check from my grandmother because >> well, she has nothing to spend her money on.Good times, it should make up for the two completely uncompensated days I just spent with family and my beloved dog and PS3.Tomorrow deposits, coffee, and a big BIG mute button for the rest of the world.Alsofricase' is in the fridge.Just about the last batch til I thaw some stew meat and make beef bourginon... someone correct

U Rnt Gana Read It So Dosnt Matter
so rigth now im preping a shower for maybe my most ingenious plan ever geting high wile masterbating in a shower.... idk y no one has told me about this idea and left it up to me to figure it out... and now i feel like an idiout i havnt though of it sooner

Living While Dead
My eyes open It's a new day But I can't smile I shiver Terrified Wishing I hadn't woken My eyelids are heavy My eyes are dry Miners are pounding away In the caves of my brain I remember last night But I can no longer cry My body shuts down I can't eat I can't sleep I have no will or strength to go on I try to think of happy things There's nothing I'm empty, numb I walk around as if a Zombie Clumsy, unsure I stumble into the bathroom I look in the mirror And don't recognise the woman On the other side Her cheeks are sunken Her skin is pale The light in her eyes is no longer there She has joined with the dead In spirit, if not in body It's a stranger staring back at me I run from the sight I want to cry, but there's nothing left I'm a stranger even to myself I still can't believe it I still can't move on I cried and cried and cried and cried Wanting to confess my love But knowing that it was too late I've lost you forever My own stupidity My own w

Her Daily Adulation
she adores meI am her Master, Daddy, lovershe greets me every dayIn this wayThis is not a matter of protocolNor is it basedIn some fantasy traditionFor her it symbolizes her offeringOf everything that she is

New Nsfw Guidelines
Is it me or the new "New NSFW Guidelines" is really fucked up!?! Do you know why people come here is becouse people cant do on myspace or facebook so wtf i think babejesus had the money get to his head......

Doin To Much
i want to say im very sorry to my friends i get a little grummpy, my job is killin me litterally and i dont know what to do, i owe the man alot of money and i feel like im noosed in and cant leave. but after today im thinkin differently. i can win for loosin with the man so what do ya do.

Metaphysical Love
Images of sorcery, Outlandish views of clouds.. Ill concepted meanings, of psychedelic sounds. Bizzare imaginations of sights so obscured, Come face to face with terror, Before the vision blurrs. I've loved you from the start Before you were concieved I built you from my passions And killed you in my dreams Once I stood before,a council of the lords, Their grim eyes gazed upon me, like shiny, deadly swords. There was one there named Michael.. Contempt was in his eyes.... His laughter was eternal when they sentenced me to die. It's a hazy recollection of another time I lived My death was oh so violent tho I know not what I did. Distorted glimpses into, a medieval time I struggled to possess what never could be mine. Viciouse dogs attacked me yet I cut them one by one!!! I bowed down to the laughter, knowing the fight had just begun. Ahhh!!!! the pain is tearing my very soul to shreds, Forever alone in random worlds outside and in my head. How could I ever love you... When you are but a

100 Days
I think it's funny I find myself counting down the 100 days left instead of the 21 that are left till Matt is here with me :) (hopefully) I hated Thanksgiving. I hated that I couldn't be with him. I hated that he was by himself. I hated that I didn't have the money to call into work, and catch a flight out there to surprise him because I would have. I hate even more than I didn't hardly get to talk to him yesterday but like 3 hours compared to the idk...average 12 we do talk on the phone? lol I hate that that reason was because he got called to a fire. I hate that I wasn't there to know that was why and just had to assume. I hated that I couldn't sleep because I kept staring at my phone, waiting for it to ring to tell me he was ok. I hate that if something happens in the next couple months I wont be there. I wont know whats going on. I hate that he has a parade today to go to, and I can't be there to see it. And I apparently hate a lot these last 48 hours lol But, I love the fact that

Hidden Life
Darkness comes, Yet again it takes me All I see is blood; Everywhere i look Hatred consumes all. Light and love are no more, Happiness only a faint dream Feelings got mixed When new and old loves meet Angels ignore the lovers in need Demons rule heaven and earth like hell Vamptresses no longer hide their strenth While vampires hide their compassion Compassion needed to rule the underworld Wolves destory vamps like flies Pain becomes the only hope Revenge the only option lift Fires destory even the purest of souls BLoodshed is the only norm befollowing Violence the only pure happiness Everlasting hatred is the truth

Well, I Did It Finally
After thinking it numerous times and laughing and wondering I finally went to baby jesus's page...and sent a marriage request ERROR: this users permissions don't allow you to send them a fuMarriage proposal. That was the question I had at the moment. Thinking he probably has it restricted who can send him proposals, I would test it then decide from there my next move( s). *shrugs* Now I know lol and I'll have to find some other way to amuze myself around here now...

Very True
You Are Romantic Sexy You are sexy because you are very attached to your partner. You are incredibly loyal. Once you fall in love, you aren't attracted to anyone else. You only have eyes for your sweetheart. You have so much sensuality and fire for your partner. You can be a bit overwhelming at times. You find being deeply in love to be the sexiest thing in the world. Your passion is undying. As long as your partner shares your passion, you find it easy to sustain a monogamous relationship. And within the confines of a stable relationship, you're willing to do a lot to keep that passion alive. What's Sexy About Your Name? Blogthings: We'll Tell You The Truth... Someone Has To!

Alone And The Holidays.....
Well the holidays are here once again and I am again all alone. This last year has been the costliest year of my life. I lost my family, friends and home. The people whom I thought had my back actually just wanted an excuse to run away from me. For you see, I was their life line whenever they needed money, favors and help. When it was my turn to get some help they bolted. The job I took a year ago not only didn't hold up their end of the agreement but by not doing so cost me my house, dogs and 90% of all my belongings. Needless to say, I have absolutely nothing to hold on to any more. With this said, I am still going to give to help the needy kids who without it will not have a Christmas. Its the least I can do and continue to do.

Something To Think About
Those of You Born 1930 - 1979 TO ALL THE KIDS WHO SURVIVED THE 1930's, 40's, 50's, 60's and 70's!! First, we survived being born to mothers Who smoked and/or drank while they were Pregnant. They took aspirin, ate blue cheese dressing, Tuna from a can and didn't get tested for diabetes. Then after that trauma, we were put to sleep on our tummies in baby cribs covered with bright colored lead-base paints.

Bleh
As i sit here torn up inside/ i think, i wonder and ponder why/ why this world is full of hate, and things we despise/ surrounded by lies and misguidance/ merciless melancholy and deciet/ predictable suicides and unbearable disasters/ unwanted lives/ tormenting laughter/ unreachable heaven/ non-existing havens/ pointless wars/ unjustified glory/ broken hearts/ happy families that fall apart/ broken dreams/ shattered hearts/ pretense love/ unexplaineable pain/ inexplicable love/ As i sit here torn up inside/ i simply cannot fathom why we persue this thing we call life.......

The Darker Side Of Me
Darkness exist in the absence of light No darkness is greater than the darkness that inhabits an empty heart. Or empty soul, not empty by choice, but by the cruel chain of events. That is a lifetime in the making. A lifetime of loss, treachery, pain and broken hearts, no man knows this better than I., To embrace the dark. Is too hold back the pain drowning it out with anger and spite, Anger becomes as familiar as the air you breathe, a constant companion. Or painkiller an emotion so strong. You forget you are capable. of any other and you forget that you have ever felt another. Next, you know, a lifetime has passed. The world has changed. To a alien environment. Where you have no place the only thing. Left you to do is to try to pass on to others. The harsh lesson. You have learned through a lifetime of mistakes .

If Not For You....
if not for you i wouldn't know what true love really meant i would never feel this inner peace i couldn't be content. if not for you id never have the pleasures of romance id miss the bliss, the craziness of loves sweet silly dance. i have to feel your tender touch i have to hear your voice no other one could take your place you're it. i have no choice. if not for you id be adrift i don't know what id do id be searching for my other half incomplete, if not for you

Today
Did you ever look around at your life and wonder to yourself what you are fighting so hard for? I mean all of these things that we chase after in life and try to make happen and for what? To live up to someone else's expectations of what life should be? To compete? I love my children very much and so I suffice to say that many of the trials I endure is for their benefit(somewhere in my thinking at least) But beyond that I begin to struggle in my reasoning... I think that I have come to some very firm conclusions in my life about what I am willing to stand and fight for and when I am willing to accept defeat. I think more importantly I have concluded that you cannot hollow out your heart with merely the weakened promise of it being filled again and sometimes people need to be able to show some promise of the future that they tell you to hold tight to before you dive in the cooking pot. I find myself to be a less than tolerant or patient person most times - I guess that comes with the li

I Want This Girl
I want this Girl I'm the girl who will put my head on your shoulder, not because I'm sleepy, but because I want to be closer to you. I'm the girl who likes to be kissed in the rain more than inside your bedroom or in an expensive restaurant. I'm the girl who says,"Okay, but you owe me...", not because I actually want something, but because it means I get to spend more time with you. I'm the girl you can take absolutely anywhere and I will have fun because it means I am spending time with you. I'm the girl who is incredibly picky, but when I find someone I like; I want to spend the whole night curled up in their arms. I'm the girl who never forgets all the sweet little things you do for me. I'm the girl who never gives up hope even when I tell others I have. I'm the girl who once I let you into my heart, there's always a place there with your name on it. And even if we spend time apart, I'm the girl who never forgets you. I'm the girl who loves to end a hug with a kiss. I'

Still Unbroken
Broken bones, broken hearts Stripped down and torn apart A little bit of rust I'm still running Counting miles, counting tears Twisted road, shifting gears Year after year It's all or nothing But I'm not home I'm not lost Still holding on to what I got Ain't much left No there's so much that's been stolen Guess I've lost everything I've had But I'm not dead, at least not yet Still alone, still alive Still unbroken I'm still alone, still alive I'm still unbroken Never captured, never tamed Wild horses on the plains You can call me lost I call it freedom I feel the spirit, in my soul It's something Lord I can't control I'm never giving up While I'm still breathing I'm not home I'm not lost Still holding on to what I got Ain't much left No there's so much that's been stolen Guess I've lost everything I've had I'm not dead, at least not yet Still alone, still alive Still unbroken I'm still alone, still alive Still unbroken I'm still unbroken Still unbroken Like the wind, like the

White Magic
White MagicThis is the room to which she came,And spring itself came with her,She stirred the fire of life to flame,She called all music hither.Her glance upon the lean white walls,Hung them with cloth of splendor,And still the rose she dropped recalls,The graces that attend her.The same poor room, so dull and bare,Before in consecration,She breathed upon its common air,The true transfiguration ...?This room, the same to which she came,For one immortal minute?How can it ever be the sameSince she has once been in it!

Dance
I feel so unsure as I take your hand an lead you to the dance floor.As the music dies something in your eyesCalls to mind a silver screen and you're its sad goodbye.I'm never gonna dance againguilty feet have got no rhythmThough it's easy to pretendI know you're not a fool.I should have known better than to cheat a friendAnd waste a chance that I've been given.So I'm never gonna dance againthe way I danced with you.Time can never mend the careless whispers of a good friend.To the heart and mind ignorance is kind.There's no comfort in the truthpain is all you'll find.I'm never gonna dance againguilty feet have got no rhythm. . .Never without your love.Tonight the music seems so loudI wish that we could lose this crowd.Maybe it's better this wayWe'd hurt each other with the things we want to say.We could have been so good togetherWe could have lived this dance foreverBut now who's gonna dance with me? - Please stay.And I'm never gonna dance againguilty feet have got no rhythm. . .No danc

Why I Will Not Unite Behind Obama!
Respect the Office? Yes.Respect the Man in the Office? No, I am sorry to say.I have noted that many elected officials, both Democrats and Republicans, called upon America to unite behind Obama.Well, I want to make it clear to all who will listen that I AM NOTuniting behind Obama !I will respect the Office which he holds, and I will acknowledge his abilities as an orator and wordsmith and pray for him, BUT that is it.I have begun today to see what I can do to make sure that he is a one-term President !Why am I doing this ?It is because:- I do not share Obama's vision or value system for America ;- I do not share his Abortion beliefs;- I do not share his radical Marxist's concept of re-distributing wealth;- I do not share his stated views on raising taxes on those who make $150,000+ (the ceiling has been changed three times since August);- I do not share his view that America is Arrogant;- I do not share his view that America is not a Christian Nation;- I do not share his view that t

Debit Card/prepaid Cards/gift Card Pending Transaction Problems
Pending Debit/Prepaid Credit Card Transaction Failure We have a small percentage of people having problems with credit cards and purchases for: bling, vip, blasts, HH's, etc. The problem is USUALLY associated to GIFT or PAY AS YOU GO Visa/MC debit card. For example: Walmart Gift Visa, Walgreens Gift Visa, TMobile Gift Visa, the list goes on. Some of you have a CC that is a pay as you go.The problem we are having is that our merchant account has NO way to verify the security of the card user. Because of this, the card is denied. So, if you do not enter the correct phone number, mailing address, security code or 3 digit pin on the back, you will be declined and get an error message. This can ALSO happen with normal credit cards in some cases.What will happ is your card is charged and shows a PENDING AUTHORIZATION on your card and it appears your funds have been removed. Unfortunately, and this is NOT our fault, the credit card company puts a hold on the funds. The funds will be restored

Lost In Love
There is no one i mean no one know what true love is everyone pretends to say it to there signficant others ,but the ones that know how to truly love someone ,,unless,, ur heart,, is in it ...then u will never find LOVE because it will be nothing but pure lust after someone u can /or cant have its a sexual desire,your lust after her or him ,,,that my friend isnt LOVE that is LUST and until u figure that out ,the only thing u will find is a deadend to another losing battle of ur sexual drive ,,there so many lost minds in the gutter over this controversary,,,and no one wins nothing,,,so stop the hurting of the ppl u say u love and love them for what they not what u want them to be ,GROW UP PEOPLE

Shadows
The world is cold and thunderousAs one dark day follows the nextFrom high up in the heavensShadows fell like rainDrenching me in sorrowDrowning me in painPulling me deeper Spinning me faster Into turbulenceEverything turned to blacknessFor my eyes had closed before meI tried to hide from my sadnessBut there's nowhere to hideIn an empty worldJust as hope seemed to have faithThere appeared a shelter in the distanceThat shelter was loveThat shelter was youIn cover from the torment I felt warmthI turned and saw a glow risingNothing like anything I'd ever seenSpellbound I was drawn to itSlowly giving myself to itEverything was stillFor this new life lay within me nowFrom this light beauty grewAs my heart stirred music lived in my breathSoared from my lips in a song of loveEven from the depths of my memoryShadows and death fledFreely I fellDeeper into this world of blissFaster Into youThere I stoodBeneath heavens cloudy veilThreatening in its darknessI tried calling outVivid sweet songsOnly

My Name Is Dusty Lough,,im A Child Molester & Drug Dealer So Please Stay Away From Me & My G/f Jersey
WHY DONT YOU TELL U LIES DUSTY U AND JERSEY BOTH ARE NOTHING BUT LIARS AND A FRIEND U KNOW HER FOR ABOUT 1 WEEK AND ITS UR FRIEND AND SELL DRUGS CMON DUSTY U CAN DO BETTER THAN THAT DRUG DEALER AND I WILL MAKE ALL THESE WOMEN AWARE OF U AS NOTHING BUT A WELFARE RECEIPT ,DRUG DEALER ,BEEN IN PRISON,CDONT PAY CHILD SUPPORT BECAUSE UR A 39 YR OLD MAN THAT STILL LIVES WITH MOM AND MAD I ME CAUSE I HAVE EVERYTHING U WANT AND U WILL NEVER HAVE GOOD TRY DUSTY ,,,ALL BY THE WAY DID U TELL THEM HOW U BILK MONEY OUT OF THESE WOMEN ,HE WILL TELL U HE HAS TO PAY RENT OR SOMETHING AND BEG U TO PAY IT AND THEN GO BUY DRUGS ,,HUN DUSTY TELL JERSEY HOW MUCH U WEIGHT ,U 450 WHALE THAT HAS NOT LIFE ANY NEVER WILL AND NEVER WILL WORK UR SCUMB ,,HELL MY SHOWER CLEANER THAN U ,,LADIES HERES UR STALKER,,,,BIG DADDY ,THE LAZY LIAR NO ONE YOUR 400PLUS LBS HIM AND JERSEY ,,STALKERS AND LIARS HERE LAUGHING AT U DUSTY,,,GOING NO WERE WELFARE CON ARTIST

For James In Memory Of His Momma...
She is Gone You can shed tears that she is gone Or you can smile because she has lived You can close your eyes and pray that she will come back Or you can open your eyes and see all that she has left Your heart can be empty because you can't see her Or you can be full of the love that you shared You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday Or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday You can remember her and only that she is gone Or you can cherish her memory and let it live on You can cry and close your mind, be empty and turn your back Or you can do what she would want: smile, open your eyes, love and go on.

The I'm Sorry Poem
im sorry poemI'm sorrythat i bought you rosesto tell you that i like youI'm sorryThat I was raised with respectnot to sleep with you when you were drunkI'm sorrythat I open your car door,and pull out your chair like I was raisedI'm sorryThat I am actually nice;not an assholeI'm sorryI don't have a huge bank accountto buy you expensive thingsI'm sorryI like to spend quality nights at homecuddling with you, instead of at a clubI'm sorryI would rather make love to you then just fuck youlike some random guy.I'm sorryThat I am always the one you need to talk to,but never good enough to dateI'm sorryThat I always held your hair back when you threw up, and didn't get mad at you for puking in my car,but when we went out you went home with another guyI'm sorryThat I am there to pick you up at 4am when your new man hit you and dropped you off in the middle of nowhere,but not good enough to listen to me when I need a friendI'm sorryIf I start not being there, and being used as a door mat, only to

A Dying Breed.
The ways of being raised "OLD SCHOOL" or as some see it A CODE OF CONDUCT was how you lived life! This meant you had RESPECT,TRUST,HONOR, from the people around you and it is what you gave them return! A mans word and his handshake meant something at one time. Showing RESPECT to your elders was just a given thing. Things that only a few of us ( A DYING BREED ) still live our lives by!

Being A Diabetic Sucks
It's been just over a year since I was diagnosed with type 2 diabetes now, and honestly, I've really done nothing about it. Last year was completely traumatic. There are still times in the middle of the night I wake up in a cold sweat, or wake up sobbing from a nightmare. The sleeping medication helped with that for a long time. The therapy I underwent last year helped. Mike always was a wonderful psychologist. I would know since I have been seeing him on and off since I was 15 when things were really bad, especially in my family. I've come such a long way since this time last year. I really have. But things have been very up and down, mostly down and further down, in the last year that I haven't paid attention to my disease. I was watching one of my reality shows I like to watch, and one of them had diabetes. Granted it was type 1, but they really got into it. Part of the reason I haven't paid much attention or cared, is because my doctors have been fucking shitty about it. All they

The Portraits And The Puzzle Pieces, Solutions That We See~by Jd
This time will be different, Ya thats right this time there is going to be an effort to my madness. This time we are going to see my movent, Too long i've held onto this crutch, Trust in only what my mind is set on and believe it or not im running right to you. I did all the things i could have possibly wanted, Now play time is over and i have learned your love i cannot give up. Without you here i cannot be anywhere because your absence leaves me hopeless still, Well now is the time for me to change my destiny and sitting on this would never be enough. Look at me, Severely injured and bleeding eternally from the heart, The stitches ripped wide open and as the blood spills all i see is you. There are too msny signs too many things that tell me you and i aren't through, Self destruct and take all my current surroundings with me, Tonight the only people in existance are me and you. I am really thought for a while i was going crazy, Easy to think such a thing when kar

With Out U
the last cpl days been hell on us. im not given up tho. ima soldier in this battle field of love and life and i dont retreat that easy. but er day im with out u i trudge this shitty life. knowin that we will be together sooner er later and i tell ma self . to keep pushin on through. so im no longer with out u. when im with u . u make me happy, like i got some thing to live fer and feel fer. being with u is like being in heaven but on earth. we love each other i feel we were to be as one. i love u baby i really do muahhhhhhhhh i just got so many emotions here lately. im haven a hard tyime and u kno it and i love how u stick by me through it all ur ma er thing ma world ma love. i love u .

You're Not...
"Caressing the marvelous moon... ...how I wish you were here with me now." It's not so bad. It's your life, and it's not so bad. You're not what you dreamt you would be...but who is? You're taller...faster than you thought you would be. But then you never thought you'd make it to this age. It's not so bad. It's a momentary weakness that tugs at your tongue, makes your chest weak, makes you heave, just a little. Imperceptible...you say in your head. I saw it...but it's not so bad. You're a fleeting second, second thought, second pale, second gone, seconds stale and you're a tale untold not bright, not bold, but so...you. Who... Who could you be, couldn't...you. Now shouldn't you? It's not so bad...but then it is what you make it. "And the coloured girls go... ...doo dadoo dadoo doo da doo doo dadoo dadoo"

Lonliness Spreads Like A Virus
Loneliness Spreads Like a Virus Loneliness, like a bad cold, can spread among groups of people, new research finds. While a runny nose might spread through handshakes, people likely catch the loneliness bug through negative interactions. A lonely person will be less trusting of others, essentially "making a mountain out of a molehill," said study researcher John Cacioppo, a psychologist at the University of Chicago. An odd look or phrasing by a friend that wouldn't even be noticed by a chipper person could be seen as an affront to the lonely, triggering a cycle of negative interactions that cause people to lose friends. The upshot: A lonely person is likely to lose touch with another person, who in turn gets cut off from others, and both end up on the fringes of a social group. "A lonely person who anticipates others are going to act negatively toward them finds evidence in their environment for that, partly because they anticipate it and partly because they elicit it," Caciopp

Life In Still Water
Feeling the weight of unseen chains This routine is growing thin It's a narrow path that we walk And the walls are closing in Caving in Is there room still for us to grow Within the bounds we've come to know Beneath the dust of our days Hides the key to our emotions And it's been a while since we've been moved Without going through the motions No emotions Is there time still for us to show Feelings we forgot long ago Living life in still water Blinded by what we've become You get tired of screaming When you're not reaching anyone I think its time now for you to know Holding on is easier than letting go

If I Died
This is something that I found going through some old stuff on my comp, figured I'd throw it out there, hey... it's my first blog on here, of course it's gonna be dumb LMAO. If you wanna, feel free to copy and paste it into an e-mail and hit me up, steal it if you'd like, there are some answers out there that you just wouldn't expect! If i died tonight, and you would never get a chance to see me again. [be honest]01. What are 5 things you would want me to know before I died?1]2]3]4]5]02. What would 5 questions be that you have been wanting to ask me?1]2]3]4]5]03. If I died, would you come to my funeral?04. If I died, would you cry?05. If I died, would you forget me eventually?06. If I died, what would be going through your head?07. Would you tell me you loved me before I died?08. Would you mean it?09. If I died, would you regret anything you said to me?10. If I died, would you be wishing you told me something that you haven't already told me?11. If I died, what would be your la

Alil About Me Plz Read
Ok where to start? ok let me describe myself, My name is Rosa, im 24 im half Cuban half White, i love my mix my curves my height and my features. Im pretty conceeded but not stuck up. i have a gr8 heart and a bad temper lol but it takes me alot to get there. Im out going, spontanious, and layed back, im known for always finding the positive out of a negative or boring situation. im usally the life of the party, dnt believe me just ask my friends. I consider myself kind of a nerd, i dnt really watch tv, im usally caught listening to music, reading a good book or doin sumthing artsy, of course when i do party i party hard and have tons of fun, i dnt really care what people think im a leader and not a follower, ill always try sumthing once. i love to bowl play pool,and Bingo yes bingo, i love most peeps think its just for old people but try it its pretty fun. karoke is awesome to but dnt be shy now we all know when no ones around u sing with all ur heart in the shower lo

Twisting And Turning
Twisting And Turning by bessy41 Mixing and matching, Twisting and turning, Hoping and praying, Dreaming and considering, Never knowing yet always knowing, Wanting to, yet not wanting to, Mixing my heart, Matching my soul to yours, Twisting fate with the flick of the wrist, Turning my life over, Hoping that it would end, Praying that it never would stop, Thinking it was over, Wishing that it wasn't, Dreaming of its coming, Considering letting it steal within Never knowing if it's true, Always knowing that it's there. Wanting to live in the light, Not wanting the light to come, The love of another The dreams of someone close, Remembering each every dream, Can it come to any reality?

The Idiot Strikes Again...aka My Exhusband.
[23:38] liquaius: Hey hate to bug but where do you get your quotes from?[23:38] Rogue: Doesn't matter. Good bye[23:39] liquaius: Well ok then...that's wholly unnecessary. L8r putana[23:39] Rogue: And who's being unnecessary?[23:40] Rogue: Certainly not me. I didn't call you any names, and I sure as hell didn't do anything to you[23:40] liquaius: You...I asked you a polite question about something that has NOTHING to do with us and you blew me off most rudely. And given the names you've called me without any prompting lately, my quippy use of italian shouldn't really bother you.[23:43] Rogue: You thought you were going to be cute and laugh snidely at a certain image that was posted online recently. I owe you nothing. Certainly not kindness[23:43] Rogue: You have no reason whatsoever to contact me unless it is in direct regards to our children.[23:43] Rogue: Good bye *closed window...figured I was done* [00:00] liquaius: LOL I know you didn't see it yourself; I wonder who told you

Drama
Drama, drama, drama, everyone says they don't want any drama. Everyone says they don't need it or don't want it and that's all fine and dandy. Just one lil thing there people. Drama and happiness can't exist without one another. Everyone wants the fairytale without the bullshit. A perfect example, take any Wal Disney cartoon. The Little Mermaid: Look at all the bullsit Ariel went through just to be happy. SnowWhite: Look at what she went trhough, just because her stepmother was a concieted wench. The bottom line is this, you cant have happiness without the drama that comes with it. A sad fact is, everyone knows this. Yet, why is no one willing to admit it??

Ugh
Ok, so I have been jumping over hurdles to land in holes. I did find my groove behind a bar again, so I am happy for that ! It was way too long since I made a mean ass margerita ( my signature) !!! So why is it that I feel like I want my cake and eat it too? I love to sling liquor, be around people, and have fun at work... I am just having an issue... Why is it when I get hit on I wanna reach across the bar and knock some fool's head off??? Yes, I appreciate a compliment. Yes, I am tired of being alone. And honestly, there has been a time where I thought, damn he is cute... then he said something about dinner and I was thinking, 'wtf??? hell no !!! Oops too bad, wish ya would not have done that...' Hard part is trying to figure out if I should just be straight up and say, you don't have a chance in hell, now where is my tip for waiting on you for hours while you been staring and drooling?.... Or going with it and backpeddling my way out of it later just too make sure I get a fat tip

This Is How Every Girl Should Be Treated
To every guy that's said, "Sex CAN wait"To every guy that's said, "You're beautiful."To every guy that was never too busy to drive across town to see her.To every guy that gives her flowers and a card when she is sick or down.To every guy who has given her flowers just because that's how he rolls.To every guy that said he would die for her.To every guy that really would.To every guy that did what she wanted to do.To every guy that cried in front of her. ....To every guy that she cried in front of...To every guy that holds hands with her.To every guy that kisses her with meaning.To every guy that hugs her when she's sad.To every guy that hugs her for no reason at all.To every guy who would give their jacket up for her.To every guy that calls to make sure she got home safe.To every guy that would sit and wait for her for hours just to see her for ten minutes.....To every guy that would give his seat up...To every guy that just wants to cuddle.To every guy that reassured her that she w

A Christmas Thought For Our Soldiers
The embers glowed softly, and in their dim light, I gazed round the room and I cherished the sight. My wife was asleep, her head on my chest, My daughter beside me, angelic in rest. Outside the snow fell, a blanket of white, Transforming the yard to a winter delight. The sparkling lights in the tree I believe, Completed the magic that was Christmas Eve. My eyelids were heavy, my breathing was deep, Secure and surrounded by love I would sleep. In perfect contentment, or so it would seem, So I slumbered, perhaps I started to dream. The sound wasn't loud, and it wasn't too near, But I opened my eyes when it tickled my ear.. Perhaps just a cough, I didn't quite know, Then the sure sound of footsteps outside in the snow. My soul gave a tremble, I struggled to hear, And I crept to the door just to see who was near. Standing out in the cold and the dark of the night, A lone figure stood, his face weary and tight. A soldier, I puzzled, some twenty years old, Perhaps a Marine, huddled

Blood Of The Night Bulletin
We are waiting for you to become our newest Disciple!! BLOOD OF THE NIGHT IS IN NEED OF ALL STAFF POSITIONS ARE AS FOLLOWED DJ'S: Using the SAMS Broadcast software, play music through the lounge to entertain the listeners. Greeter: While in the lounge, actively engage people as they enter, and continue to make everyone feel welcome and a part of the family while also trying to get visitor�s to hit the subscribe button. Make everyone feel welcome and have fun. Promoter: Promotion is an all encompassing task, from going to people's pages and leaving comments, to talking about the lounge as you interact with others on fubar. The key focus of promotions, is to promote in a positive manner where new members are brought to the lounge. Creativity is highly encouraged. Enforcer: Keep the lounge free from drama, and warn/eject anyone not following the rules. Bartender: Try and keep everyone from getting thirsty by purchasing drinks and actively engaging ever

Where To See My Film...
Well, if you're reading this, it means you might have shown interest in seeing my debut film "Havok" if that's true, here's the link: http://www.megavideo.com/?v=IIQSMUQJ go and check it out. If you do, leave me a comment or send me a message telling me what you thought of the movie, what you think could have been changed, etc.

New Lounge Soon Going To Be Open!
ok like I said before here I go again I am going to be opening a new lounge and this time it's going to be different I am going to start the background and all that good stuff first then and only then will I start looking for staff to help me run it and when I do you all with be well informed I don't know what kind of lounge it will be got some ideas but havn't got a 100% sure thing going on. I will be advertising the new construction first so that word get's out probley in the next few weeks is when I want to open my goal before xmas what a gift from me to me lol. oh well we will have to wait and see what all pans out of my mind. so if you want you can help me get the word out I don't have spammers made up yet after all I don't know what kind of theme I want so just let your friends know Bryan is going to open a new lounge and I promise you all it will be a sucessful and pleasant lounge take care *cheers* Bryan

Neurosis-grey
Fighting against the way we've been conditioned Is the pain of life and mind The more we see the more we know The more we can't seem to find A way of living life free of control Without reality always being such a fucking hole Where all we have to do is survive With no restrictions on our lives In this situation where forced to hypocrisy We're made to set rules for ourselves Distrust is taught as a way of survival Follow your heart trust your head We've got to accept that we're all alike Facist is anarchist is life One makes the other and the other is one Just reflections of black and white

In Appreciation Of Our Soldiers
♥New Christmas Poem♥TWAS THE NIGHT BEFORE CHRISTMAS,HE LIVED ALL ALONE,IN A ONE BEDROOM HOUSE MADE OFPLASTER AND STONE.I HAD COME DOWN THE CHIMNEYWITH PRESENTS TO GIVE,AND TO SEE JUST WHOIN THIS HOME DID LIVE.I LOOKED ALL ABOUT,A STRANGE SIGHT I DID SEE,NO TINSEL, NO PRESENTS,NOT EVEN A TREE.NO STOCKING BY MANTLE,JUST BOOTS FILLED WITH SAND,ON THE WALL HUNG PICTURESOF FAR DISTANT LANDS.WITH MEDALS AND BADGES,AWARDS OF ALL KINDS,A SOBER THOUGHTCAME THROUGH MY MIND.FOR THIS HOUSE WAS DIFFERENT,IT WAS DARK AND DREARY,I FOUND THE HOME OF A SOLDIER,ONCE I COULD SEE CLEARLY.THE SOLDIER LAY SLEEPING,SILENT, ALONE,CURLED UP ON THE FLOORIN THIS ONE BEDROOM HOME.THE FACE WAS SO GENTLE,THE ROOM IN SUCH DISORDER,NOT HOW I PICTUREDA UNITED STATES SOLDIER.WAS THIS THE HEROOF WHOM I'D JUST READ?CURLED UP ON A PONCHO,THE FLOOR FOR A BED?I REALIZED THE FAMILIESTHAT I SAW THIS NIGHT,OWED THEIR LIVES TO THESE SOLDIERSWHO WERE WILLING TO FIGHT.SOON ROUND THE WORLD,THE CHILDREN WOULD PLAY,AND

The Night Will Go As Follows~by Jd
The night will go as follows, Listen because i've been saving this up, There comes a time of self reflection and while i was laying next to you i was lightyears away. All the days i just put those pesky thoughts to the back of my mind, There must come a time for release or we would surely suffer combustion of our souls. There are elements at play which i've neglected to be completely honest, Honesty, That one trait you fight so hard tyo get out of me, Yes i know its so hard to learn new tricks. All the nights i laid right next to you, My head was searching for a way to break into my heart, Jaded and closed tightly to outsiders, Somewhere inside of this hollowed man, Theres this voice that tells me "look deeper, There is no love here". Consider my point of view, At one time i fell so hard, We grew, We lived, We learned a little more about ourselves, There comes a time where seperation becomes unbaringly enevitable and tonight im getting this off my chest. Souls are such

To The American People
To the American people, I am witness to something that has, and will be the destruction of this great nation that has been a stepping stone for all other countries of this world for over two hundred years. I witness the down fall of a society that had the chance to improve the quality of life and of thought for all of the human species of this world. A fall of great depth that will change the face of this world for the worst. And, the fault lies with the American citizen. We as Americans have grown weak in the past fifty years. We have grown lazy in the lack of work ethics, motivation to succeed, and the ability to improve the quality of life. It is our lack of understanding and discipline of our own lives and goals, that we allow this to happen. We as a people have failed ourselves and our children by allowing our leaders to guide us to this dark time. How? you ask is this possible. I shall educate you through my reasons. We have allowed our leaders of this great Nation to do some

Doubts From The Past
You are told that you’re everything to someone, Yet they can hardly manage to ask ‘how are you’? Perpetually giving and giving, and never getting, She just turns her head and I’m cast aside again, Laying there in the dirt, shaking, crying, bleeding, I whimper your name but someone else needs you, I’m so important to you …I have to remind myself, Because you’re too busy to say it to me yourself, Let alone show it and put weight to those words, Words, words, words… There are a lot of words I need to say and can’t, Words to describe the way that I feel, words like Neglected, abandoned, unwanted, and unimportant. How come I have to wear my best mask for the One that I shouldn’t have to pretend for at all? The mask with the bright smile and wide dry eyes, The mask that says it’s fine, when we know its not, The mask that almost convinced me he was real, I am second priority; the only time you need

Missing You Tonight...
Wanting to Love YouI do not know what happened tonight,I had that kind urge to hold you tight,I would love so much to make it right,For I wanted to kiss you goodnight...I never expected such a tender need,Did an angel deposed that little seed?I do not know how I could get a lead,Can you hear my plea as you read?I did see you behind a thick curtain,Your lovely soul was once uncertain,Your tears pounding like heavy rain,Feeling your life going down the drain.As a friend at what seemed an end,I came to give you happyness to spend,Tender poems of love I offered to send,You have been more than just a friend.You are haunting me this very night,Wanting you, nervous with this fright,Of being pushed away from your sight,I want to love and kiss you tonight.

The Chief's Wife
"NEXT," the conference emcee announced, "we have the chief of the Minnesota State Patrol, Roger Ledding, who is here with his lovely wife, Beverly." The chief took his place at the lectern. "I'm a little nervous," he began, "getting up before this distinguished audience and speaking today. But not nearly as nervous as I will be tonight when I must go home with my wife, Audrey, and explain Beverly to her!"

I'm Sorry
I'm sorry for the things I didn't sayI'm sorry for the times I pushed you awayI'm sorry I didn't have the confidence to believeI'm sorry I had no faith in you and meI'm sorry for the lies I told to youI'm sorry for the times I was untrueI'm sorry for the things I made you believeI'm sorry I was stupid enough to leaveI'm sorry our lives are so messed upI'm sorry I didn't know how to trustI'm sorry for the pain I made you feelI'm sorry for the hurt I wish I could healI'm sorry for the times I shut you outI'm sorry for running outI'm sorry I hurt you so muchI'm sorry I didn't know how to loveI'm sorry is all I can sayI'm sorry is all I can do to try and repayI'm sorry I will try to showI'm sorry as I try to growI'm sorry I love you soI'm sorry I didnt realize how much I needed you before

Erotic Poem (not Mine)
" I see myself holding you close to me, Squeezing your body tight. But for all I see as I daydream- I know I'll get tenfold tonight. Running my palms across your breast, As you tremble and bite your lip. Feeling your hands upon my chest, The softness of each fingertip. Tasting your neck so sweet, so soft, And slowly lowering my kiss. Over pert nipples, across your navel, And finally into pure bliss. Looking upon your face from below- As you tilt back your head. Feeling your fountains begin to flow- As you ease back on the bed. Your "innocent little devil" look- Crying insatiably with the sensation. Lip to lip lapping up every drip- From the well of your creation. The way you pull me up by the hair- To the heat of your mouth, on fire. No other thoughts, no other cares, Just the quenching of mad desire. Riding the tide of passion, Pushing my love into you. On the waves of your emotion- In slow motion, so sweet and true. Pulse pounding in resoundi

Yahoo Messanger Virus
TO ALL MY FAMILY AND FRIENDS FAN AND FANS OF THAT HAVE ME IN THERE YM CONTACTS I NO LONGER HAVE YAHOO MESSANGER DO TO A VIRUS IN THE YM IF YOU GOT A LINK FROM ME DO NOT OPEN IT I NEVER SENT A LINK TO ANYBODY. SO PLEASE SEND ME YOUR CONTACT INFO IN PRIVATE MESAGE TO ME AND I WILL ADD YOU TO MY GOOGLE ACCOUNT. IM SO SORRRY IF THE VIRUS HAS GOT TO YOU. I STILL HAVE YAHOO MAIL SO SORRY FOR THE TROUBLE I HAVE CAUSED YOU JACK AKA MOVIEMAN47

I'm Surfing!...
the internet! So, it wasn't Microsoft this time. It was McAfee's update on their Site Advisor. So I turned off the site advisor and lo and behold...my cup runneth over with links I can open! Happy Day! So today I hate McAfee Site Advisor, and yea I still hate Microsoft...just cuz I wanna. The only site I should have been "advised" on was this one...yea, didn't catch that did it? The warning should have read: "Warning this site is inundated with liars, users, playas, preyers, and downright heartbreakers. Enter at own risk, take hold of your heart. Play the game, it's not real" But, of course I have found some amazing friends after I headed my own warning...and I ♥ my friends. Muahhhhhhsssss!!

Descent Into Madness
i sat on hold with rockwell automation tech support for nearly an hour. these thoughts went through my head while waiting... we appreciate your patience. all of our representatives are currently assisting other callers. please remain on the line, and your call will be answered in the order in which it was received.please stay on the line. you, the customer, are important to us because you give us your money mindlessly, and without question. you could use controls hardware from another manufacturer, but then no one would buy your equipment because ours is the most widely-recognized in the industry. nevermind the fact that our components are complicated, difficult to set up, and are prone to failure.thank you for your patience. do not hang up. do not pass go. do not collect 200 dollars.if you would like to leave a message, press zero, and one of our product support specialists will return your call at their leisure.oOoOoOo porno guitar... wakachika wakachika bow bow... at le

Fu-ing By (miki)
I was fu-ing along one day.When I ran into this little fu-lady.She gave me a fu-smile,and I fu-ly returned it.Soon we were fu-talking,and found out we had alot of fu in common.I asked her on a fu-date she fu-agreed.The night was so fu-filling we decieded on another.Soon we were fu-courtin and fu-kissing,Till one day.I fu-ed the question.She said hell fu yes.We set a fu-date.Then the fu-preperations began.We fu-married and were living quit fu-filly.We fu-fued all the time.We were in fu-love.Then it fu-happened.Anther fu bought me fu-drinks.I was fu-ked up.Dont think any fu-fu happened,But to her well she was fu-ming.I fu-begged and fu-pleaded.She packed and fu-bagged me up.Out the door,Me and my fu-ed up misery went.I hope she will fu-give me.Cause its really fu-ed up hanging out in MYSPACE.

Being Paranoid
i am becoming a bit paranoid nowit has been some time now since i went to the 2 doctors that was design for my casesince my lawyer told me to go tothings went fine however when i try to call heri either get the voice mail or i get the investigator that is for my case i dont know what is going to happen or if iam going to prisonbut at this point i just dont care no more iam done caring i have lost everything that i ever did care about nowstill no word on if i have to find a place to live or notand even if i do what is going to happen to my stuff and my cati cant pay rent if iam locked upi feel like iam broken and used up ready to be just either replaced or just toss away like garbagethat is how my life is beginning to turn out and that is how i feelthey say everything happen for a reason then please do tellthis year i wont have a xmus or any other day probably more then likely and the funny thing is i just dont care iam tired of fighting iam tired iam trying iam tired of making a eff

I'll Be Your Friend ..............
I'll be your friend - Robert OWensCome by here if you ever need someone to talk too,someone to understand all the little things you go through,I don't like me sometimes, give me your doubts but don't carry that weight on your shoulders,until the end of time.Oh I'm not going to ask for anything in return, cause helping is the reward I've earned...I'll be your friend until the ...end of time....I'll be your friend.You can depend on me you'll never ever have to worry.Never never no no.no no no no.I'll be your friend,I'll be your friend.Until the end ...of time,standing by your side...friends....Trust me...you can trust in me...I'll never let you down.------------------ First let me say that I celebrate the whole "Robert Owens" catalog. Cripes, I sound like one of the Bob's from "office space". Moving right along...I do..really. I believe what Robert is saying "sarcastically" is that people always come to him for advice,a loving embrace, a kind word etc but he recieves nothing in return

The Stranger
Questions go unanswered I think to much they say Feels as if my heart is dead already Like everything was taken away I want to cry But I hold back the tears Cause I never can voice my opinion Even when I do It falls on cold deaf ears I'm the stranger you once fell in love with I'm the stranger that thinks to fucking much

What Was The Point Of Lex Luthor?
“A human being who dared to challenge a god, he was surely the greatest of his kind. I often look back upon those days and wonder what he might have accomplished without me. The triumphs he might have achieved in the name of his species. Perhaps he existed to keep me in check or, as someone once hypothesized, perhaps it was the other way around. This is why he despised me so.” Superman’s arch-enemy inspires equal resentment on Superman’s part, but I have no doubt it’s tinged with a grudging respect for all one man with what seems like all the cards stacked against him is able to accomplish. It seems it is just Superman whom Luthor wants to beat down, not the entire human race. The excerpt above comes from an alternate history of Superman, the graphic novel “Superman: Red Son” (ISBN 9781401201913) that posits what would happen in the champion of “truth, justice, and the American way” had instead landed in the Soviet Union

Asylum
Asylum I giggle as I lay, The meds are taking effect. But as your sitting with me, I’m not far gone yet. You wanna hear a story, While your sitting in the corner? About my good friend Dan, And how he met the coroner? Well I’m not sure how to start it, I don’t know where to begin. I hope your not religious, This tale is full of sin. You see I’d sit up straight, But I’m strapped on to the bed. They bound all of my limbs, And even bound my head. I guess that have a right to, After what I’ve done. But I’ll never say I’m sorry, Just because I won. You see Dan wasn’t smart, He went after my life. My lover and my master, He stabbed him with a knife. A dirty trick it was, It wasn’t fair you see. But as I sat there crying, Something snapped in me. Oh look at me rambling, You look kinda scared. Don’t worry I won’t hurt you, But then again who cares? I remember how blood sprays, The first time that you slice. And how it slows

We Are Not The Same.
I see so many of them...these people who sing a song of sorrow yet always they try again they always welcome the destruction of there own immortal soul. I can not understand this driving force which makes people welcome this agony into life. I do not understand how people will open the gate way to the very core of there being to another just to have that person jade the purity that was once there. Is the idea of being alone truely so horriable to some? Is it truely so hard to be fine with yourself and no one else? I don't get how you can be so welcoming to destroying yourself and do not misjudge I know it works for some of you. I know some of you will find a happiness in another. But what of those who don't? What of us who choose to be alone? Those of us who consider our emotions to be nothing more than an error in our system, to be a disease upon the body? I find it funny how people don't consider that what they chase is not always love sometimes it is but attention you seek and hones

I Want This Guy
I’m the guy who will hold you close, not because your cold or shaking, but because he wants to be close to you.I’m the guy who loves to twirl you around into his arms anywhere and kisses you for no apparent reason other than loves you.I’m the guy who says, “Okay, what would you like to do tonight?” not because he wants to go to a game, but because he is interested in you and what you like.I’m the guy who would go anywhere with you, even to the opera or things thathe doesn’t like because he is spending time with you, and that is all he needs.I’m the guy that is cautious to give his heart, but when he does it is all for you and he would rather die then not be in your arms at night.I’m the guy who will bring you things for no special reason than he loves you.I’m the guy who will never give up hope, and no matter what will stay with you for eternity.I’m the guy who once is in love, will always love you and never will forget

Tired Of The Bs And Double Standards
wtf.... why's fubar being utterly stupid and gay all of a sudden? honestly don't care if I get deleted or not, where's the fun in this site nowadays anyway.... can't even rate someone without getting stupid ass rating too fast errors or invalid out of 11 errors (which is fuckin stupid cause I don't use 11's unless they're already activated on someone's profile AND still get that message even when they are), people gettin deleted for stupid shit, some accounts still making it passed 10 without a salute, TONS of profiles without a salute.....and to top it all off, I have a friend who had lots of her pics deleted INCLUDING her salute pic by someone in her family, gets back on fubar later that day and can't even get a single point until what? the bouncers say she posts a salute......... WTF? there's tons of people without salutes leveling up everyday so why should she be any different? very few on this site talk to me anymore anyway.... always try to start conversations with people when I

" I Am This Guy " ...
I’m the guy who will hold you close, not because your cold or shaking, but because he wants to be close to you.I’m the guy who loves to twirl you around into his arms anywhere and kisses you for no apparent reason other than loves you.I’m the guy who says, “Okay, what would you like to do tonight?” not because he wants to go to a game, but because he is interested in you and what you like.I’m the guy who would go anywhere with you, even to the opera or things thathe doesn’t like because he is spending time with you, and that is all he needs.I’m the guy that is cautious to give his heart, but when he does it is all for you and he would rather die then not be in your arms at night.I’m the guy who will bring you things for no special reason than he loves you.I’m the guy who will never give up hope, and no matter what will stay with you for eternity.I’m the guy who once is in love, will always love you and never will forget

Rate And Re Rate Please
Morning everyone can ya all help out my Fu Owner he could use it!! All you gota do is rate this pic for him and re rate it if you have already done so!!!! Thanks in advance http://fubar.com/photo.php?u=2183445&albumid=1924716&i=4200997077&idx=0

Suffer Not That Which Fails To Live.
Doubt is a powerfull thing in everyones life. Doubt is an all consuming force that infects any and all human beings at some point. But how far can doubt be pushed upon you before you find yourself breaking. How long till you need something drastic just to prove you are still capable of making it though the day? It does not take like for the soul to become over burden with the plauges of doubt and sorrow. Some get to a point where they can not be saved, some can not reach out to another human because no one can know that they suffer. I am an isolated being and even now I have my doubts as do we all. Some of the people closest to me couldn't even begin to tell you of things I've seen of things I've suffered. I long ago decided that at the end of the day no matter what you will be alone to face that which plauges you. I did what everyone else has I tried to reach out but ever did I fail to actually grasp onto this "hope" that everyone else seems to have. What do I like I ask myself agai

The Ugly Truth
This is gonna be ugly people..Been up most of the night watching T.V..And I started wondering what Is wrong with our country our world even..Every commercial had a woman no bigger then a size 6 promoting some crazy makeup or weight lose product like it was the end all be all to be this one size or look this one way..I couldnt understand what made it so important to be such a "Barbie Doll".. When the average size for women in america is 14..Is that really wrong Is that really to big for mainstream america to handle.. In Africa the bigger the woman is the higher her social status is yet here the bigger the woman the lower she becomes.. Have Men truly become that shallow and retarded..to only see a size not a person..My grandfathers would be cussin was out if they saw how most of us treat these very smart and beautiful women because they didnt fit into social norms..I have to say that men have to start steppin up and actin like what we are..Men..I see alot of men on here with st

Overheard Everywhere | Pole
...From the Sketchy Dude Gyrating Next to Me. Teen princess to another, in changing room: Oh my god, she's so trashy. Who would ask their friends to a a pole-dancing class there? The pole dancing studios I go to in the city are like sexy and hot. But at that one, I got carpet burn.Changing RoomsSydneyAustralia

Me? A Grown-up? Nah! - 12/4/09
ME? A GROWN-UP? NAH! Summers used to flow like molasses And try as they might, elders' forecasting of time's demise always fell on deaf ears. "It will not always be this way." "When you get older..." Was it jealousy? Envy perhaps? What was the trigger? They forgot that they too once wore bulletproof vests against the pelting of Father Time's seconds. Remember those seasons that stretched like taffy? Where September's freshly sharpened pencils took their time in mocking hopscotch freedoms? When do we stop just living our lives and start picking it apart like dissections in science class? I felt like I swallowed a jawbreaker when I first uttered these horrific words: "You will understand when you are older" Thank goodness the little girl that was me tagged me, told me I was "It" and ran away giggling. And in that moment I stopped the cycle. I may have become an adult but I will never be a stuffy old "grown-up" So there!

Vous êtes ... Je Serai ... Emsemble Nous
Vous êtes le soleil qui place mon âme sur le feu. Vous êtes la lune à qui je dis tous mes secrets. Vous êtes la mer qui porte mon coeur sur ses vagues. Je serai vos étoiles, brillant seulement pour toi. Je serai votre vin, remplissant votre bouche de baisers. Je serai votre nourriture, votre âme n'aurai jamais faim. Ensemble nous serons forts. Ensemble nous saurons le bonheur. Ensemble nous aurons l'amour.

At Least Ashley Didn't Kiss And Tell
I always liked Ashley Dupre because of her beauty and sexuality. But now I love how she utters the truth about women who have sex with celebs then sell their stories to the tabloids. Ashley has chided the mistresses of Tiger Wood for talking money and gifts from him then throw him under the bus for more doe. Then she asks, “And I was the hooker? At least I kept my mouth shut.” You tell em baby. Besides Ashley you’re way better looking then any of the babes Tiger chose. http://www.foxnews.com/entertainment/2009/12/04/ashley-dupre-tigers-alleged-mistresses-hooker/?test=faces We don’t hook at BlastFM. We play the best music on the planet just for you. Besides we want you to listen and tell others about us. www.live365.com/stations/blastcasterfm .

Hunger
Always forward ------------------> What if there's a stop I'm dying to make? The push towards progress The push towards the elusive "goal" stifles me. I've never been good at multi-tasking I can't remember me and love you. I can't move forward and take in all the sites. I sit here on the beach and I am overwhelmed by how perfect this moment is. Just enough breeze to keep me company The waves rolling in slowly If I didn't come here with the muse, I might let the ocean talk me into bed. But I have words to write A neglected soul deep within my breast screaming, "What took you so long?" "What? You couldn't call ... you couldn't write?" I used to be afraid of being alone. I was afraid of what people would think. Now I am terrified to be surrounded by them. I cherish the moments alone with my thoughts. When I am surrounded I feel silenced. My words are not my own, but the ones carefully prescreened and approved for general audiences. I no longer worry about what others think - just you. So

Dirty Deeds And The Secret Of The Fool~by Jd
Herald me the fool, For unless im mistaken i am repeating this again, Just when i was in the processof rebulding my empire, Up in arms and im ready to walk away. Look at me as if you know my serect, Do you know whats its like to live self destructive everyday? I used to believe that i could push past the obvious, Obviously my heart is not allowing me to settle for second best. Looking through this hall of mirrors, Frantic now seems like i've searched eternity and im right back to square one, Climbing over these mentally made barriers, Somewhere in the rubble i muster up just enough self control. Standing on the peak of personification and realizing that i have let the "others" be in command for too long, My spirit is so far gone and im feeling weary, Listen to me screaming now, This will crash and burn with me just wait til i explode. Through this god awful conquest, You made me forget just whats its like to have a heart, Then the tides changed and some part of me drifte

Two Years Today!
It's been two years, That you have been gone, Today, It hurts me to think, That this morning,Two years ago was the last, Something i wish i could rewind, The lost, Gives me pain, Kills me day by day, In a way that i can't change, All i need, Is to see you and ask why Did you know, And why didn't you tell, I need you mama There is just so much, I can't say, All i can do is take everything day by day, One day i will See you again, We will reunite, With each other, Until that day, I love you Mama!!

You Know You Want One......
♥ CUSTOMIZED FOR YOU AND YOU ALONE♥ OK so we all see people that have awesome profiles or those cool name Tags on their pages.... and you think hey i like that i want one.. well come to me... I can make you what you want and how you want... or if you want give me the reigns to make you something awesome... And yes before you ask.. I do charge. But not really money, give me that fake shit.. the bucks - fubucks®. I dont ask for anything you have to pay real money for, all i ask for is fubucks and to pass the word around. This is my way of making money for spotlight and other free fu stuff without begging for it and you getting nothing out of it.. so if you want one my many customized pics and skins i can do or know someone who does - just hit me and let me know.. I am willing to negotiate [[to some extent - lol]].

Westlife- I Want To Grow Old With You
Another day without your smile Another day just passes by But now I know how much it means For you to stay right here with me The time we spend apart will make our love grow stronger But it hurts so bad, I cant take it any longer I want to grow old with you I want to die lying in your arms I want to grow old with you I want to be looking in your eyes I want to be there for you sharing in everything you do I want to grow old with you A thousand miles between us now It causes me to wonder how Our love tonight remains so strong It makes our risk right all along The time we spend apart will make our love grow stronger But it hurts so bad, I cant take it any longer I want to grow old with you I want to die lying in your arms I want to grow old with you I want to be looking in your eyes I want to be there for you sharing in everything you do I want to grow old with you Things come and go I know but baby I believe Something strong burning between us makes it clear to me

Crumbs Of Love
maybe i'll love you tomorrow but tonight i'm letting you go i have been waiting these hours waiting for you to show but you havent, oh no you havent the chairs are off the floor and the bar is empty now i could wait some more but why, i'd still be alone i will walk the long way home being Gretal with crumbs of love praying they get eaten so i can never return maybe this love is a weed pull it and it will grow back but tonight i am going to pull it i dont want it i want to be alone no more ghosts just alone no more shadows just alone maybe i'll love you tomorrow but tonight i'm letting you go

Pass A Smile
I smile when I am shy I smile when I want to cry I smile when I am sad I smile, when I just go mad I smile when I am envious I smile when I am very jealous I smile when I am happy I smile when I feel shaky I smile when I am emotional I also smile when I act abnormal I smile when I am overloaded I smile when I miss my beloved I smile when I think something I smile when I think just nothing Do you know why I am smiling? When I smile at you? Dear, I think it’s a very tough question I asked you! ! Never mind whatever be the reason behind my smile, Dear, just pass me a smile, at least I feel good for a while Missing the way you make me smile and brightens my day

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Beautiful Eyes, Beautiful Face
Beautiful eyes, beautiful face,I'm shy to talk to you.You're the eagle I must watchNo matter what I do. You're the beauty, wild and free,The mistress of my eyes,Rolling through exultant air,Alone in pristine skies. I would take you for my ownCould I but have your wings,Could I but go where night beginsAnd frozen sunlight sings. Could I but have you for my love,How might we fly together!But I must watch you from belowAnd long for you forever.But I must be the one belowAnd long for you forever.

"speak To Us Of Beauty."
"Speak to us of Beauty." Where shall you seek beauty, and how shall you find her unless she herself be your way and your guide? And how shall you speak of her except she be the weaver of your speech? The aggrieved and the injured say, "Beauty is kind and gentle. Like a young mother half-shy of her own glory she walks among us." And the passionate say, "Nay, beauty is a thing of might and dread. Like the tempest she shakes the earth beneath us and the sky above us." The tired and the weary say, "beauty is of soft whisperings. She speaks in our spirit. Her voice yields to our silences like a faint light that quivers in fear of the shadow." But the restless say, "We have heard her shouting among the mountains, And with her cries came the sound of hoofs, and the beating of wings and the roaring of lions." At night the watchmen of the city say, "Beauty shall rise with the dawn from the east." And at noontide the toilers and the wayfarers say, "we have seen her leaning over the e

Jaded
Where to start, or maybe its the end. Dont know. You go threw life always second guessing yourself. Trying to figure out the right way to go. Why is it no matter which way you go it always seems like your going in the wrong direction. So which one is the right way? Ive never know love so dont know what its like to lose it. Is this emptyness that im always feeling or is this how im supposed to spend my life. Always helping others, making sure they dont lose there love, but never seeing mine. How can i sit here and give others addvice about matters of the hart when it doesnt seem that i have one. Everyone around me seems to have found it if not right now at least once in there lives. I dont know. People tell me try hard, it will come. What ever im done trying. With every day i feel myself becoming more and more cold harted. I wouldnt say i was jaded because in order to be jaded you have to of gone threw something to put you there. Well i suppose im feel i have been jaded by life so guess

The End Of Days
Hear the wail of a million demonsLate night an angels are scream'nNight so black can't see'm come'nhear'm march'n to the devils drum'nAngel's army try'n to respondNo time left waited to longflash'a fire hell opens the gateya want'a pray but its way to latetemperature sores even ocean’s steam'nfirestorm an now you can see'm60000 wide they keep a come'nkeep'n in step with the evil drum'nearth a shake'n from all the pound'nya have hope ya see the angels come'nAngels battle no chance to winworld's lived much to long in sinarmy's meet angle's cut downnothing left but a bloody groundlove's dead our souls a die'ndevil laughs n god's he's cry'ngod lost n he's left aloneno souls left he can call homeno souls left he can call homecurt

Avatar Policy Enforcement Update
From the desk of Scrapper: We have been very cool with everyone about our new avatar policy and enforcing it. The majority of users are cool with it and have rocked on. There are still people who are playing musical avatars and blatantly disregarding the policy. As of today, we will be strictly enforcing the policy.1. Any one blatantly violating the policy will have their photos flagged and they will NOT be removed. We have a special note on photos that shows us if it was flagged as an avatar. If it was, you will NOT get the flag removed.2. If you want to complain about the policy, do it to a friend. The majority of our users are very happy and supportive. If you are going to be a negative nancy about it and have nothing nice to say, my only response to you is--Don't log in if you do not like our site.3. If you are one of those people who try and justify your avatar abuse with conspiracy theories pointing to other users who are getting away with it, rest at ease....the people wh

Rising To Nothing
Nothing i was, nothing i am, and for always nothing to be. not even a speckle of dust or ash upon the earth. why cant anyone see me? a ghost i must be. a ghost i am. a ghost i will forever be. quiet and alone, the 2 things i hate most, i must live with for eternity. no one to go but myself. no person except me. demons parade around me, my life. suffering is all i expect. torment is all i live for. the past haunts me, the future taunts me, the present is just lonely. no one to see, no one to please, no one to love. blood is how we live, it decays with death, and forever pleasures ourself. its as if im the invisible man of whom no one sees, no one cares about, and no one wants to see. ignoring me. ignoring my existance. ignoring this life on earth. i have been placed in the wrong realm of reality. i belong in the underworld with the shame and recluses i so long deserve. desiring one, i do. desiring the world, never. noticed i never will be. unknown for eternity. so here i am, risen to no

Ripping My Cold Blackened Heart
Use me you fucking idiot, take everything i ever had. leave me with nothing but sorrow and pain, while you have all you could ever dream of. forget about me, like you ever even cared, laugh at my misery while i go deeper into this fate. false promises made, false hope held, lies are all that fills my head. i want to believe the fantasies said, but i must sell everything for you, even my fucking bed. you try me again, itll be the last thing you do, cant come close to me now. no chance in hell. im no longer your puppet on a string, i surpassed your evil demise and through the ruins. stupid nieve little boy i must be, fall for it over and over again. it never will stop, no way it can. i cant ever learn, until you rip my bleeding heart to shreds. do it once, do it again, it seems the pain will never end. your wrong, there's nothing left, just scars, rips, and tears. its gore, gore, gore. all hope is dead. no feelings, no life, just wasted little threads. cant put it back together, its tota

In The Whirlwind Of Eternal Misery
Here I go. On and on. With no place to go. Stuck inside, this neverending whirl of life, Can’t get out, It’s draining my energies, my passions. No more care, no more love, but only fate and defeat. Forever hatred is coming. Death is already here. Filled with poison, anger, fear, nothing more. Slowly dying, an intense, miserable death. .. .. I’m hurting, more and more as the seconds go by, No one cares, I’m my only survivor. All else watch me decay. Its sucking the little energy I have left. Spiraling round and round with no end, Just sit there and watch me become obliterated. .. .. Anybody! Anybody! Hear me! Help me! I’m stuck in this whirlwind forever spinning. Just sit there and watch my misery. Watch me get hurt, tormented, and die. You take pleasure in my own torment. You love watching it rip and tear me to shreds. .. .. Go away! Suffocate! Die! Help me! I need you! I want you! Finish him. Forget him. Trash him. Stay in your et

If These Walls Could Talk
Winters creeping up, Seeping threw the cracks, And lifes passing us by, Seems like far to fast. Summers come and gone, you left your voice on my phone, I waited far to long, For you to come back home Words were left unspoken, This loves dead, Now whats lefts been broken, We cant take back whats been said If these walls could talk . Theyd tell you all the pain. All the tears that ive cried, Since you went away. They'd tell you how the whiskey, Always pulls me through, right down to the last drop, When I start thinking about you. If these walls could talk, They'd tell you a lie, theyd tell you 3 weeks in a row, Ive watched that damn sun rise. But truth be told, I dont think of you at all, If these walls could talk, Theyd get it all wrong. You asked me how im doing, something in your voice cracked. And for a moment I actually wondered, If you were wishing id take you back, So I told you all the reasons, Why were better off this wa

The Nsfw Crackdown, The Mentally Ill And A Holiday Song :d
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Okay Am I Being Stupid??
Alright I'm pretty pissed off right now. I have a 4 year old son Aidan who is my whole life. My ex Wife seems to think that because she has the parental custody that she can pull anything she wants when she wants with me, just because he doesn't live with me full time that I have no right to say anything here and doesn't respect me at all. I work five 12 hour shifts a week in the ER just to make ends meet cause of her, so it's very important for me to be able to call my son every night like clockwork to tell him I love him and to let him know I'm thinking about him. Well here's the problem, she won't answer her phone! I have several times called and she won't answer her phone or will give me the excuse oh I didn't hear it, I don't have service out here, which is bullshit cause I have the same service as she does and they don't charge for roaming. Again last night she pulled this, I tried for over 2 hours trying to get ahold of her to make plans for me to pick up my son here today. Am I

Tell Me The Truth
I've one simple requestThe only thing left to askTell me the truthDon't hide behind a maskWas there anything there?Please tell me. I just ask for one thingAnd that's honestyDon't make me fall harderJust tell me pleaseDon't lead me into liesI'm begging, down on my kneesI feel so confusedWhenever I talk to youI don't know what to sayHow much I care, if only you knew...I've one simple request.To end this sorrow moodTell me how you feelSo I can restart life, renewed.

I Can't Make You
I've learned that in order for you to keep someone they have to want you backI've learned this the hard way, you can't make someone want to be friends with youA friendship has to swing both ways. Your a friend to them and they're a friend to you.But sometimes showing them that you care just isn't enough.You can't make someone hang out,call, text, or even miss you if they don't want it as well.As much as it hurts you just have to accept that and move on.The last couple of months have shown me this.I'm learning. Learning to leave those friendships behind. Trying not to scratch that bruise so that it doesn't bleed again.Leaving that stain and trying not to get it out, even if i tried it won't come out.

Explanation
Hello to all my fu friends! Yes, I am back!!! Did you miss me? I have missed fu so much. And I am writing to explain my absence for so long. I had to take time away to try to mend a broken heart. See, I have been seeing someone off and on for 3 years. I truly love my Shadow Man. Still even though he shattered my heart and almost destroyed my soul with his departure from my life. I admit it... I am weak where he is concerned. I always have been and probably always will be. Anyway......... we spent alot of time in Fubar. It was where we communicated when we couldn't be together. And when he ended things it was too hard for me to come into Fubar. All I saw was his absence. All I felt was the pain of that loss. But just a few nights ago we had a nice face to face conversation and I am feeling better for it. He knows that I love him. I know that he loves me..... but in life we are in different places that can't be breached. I can't say that I will ever stop loving him. But I can and will

Fake Friends And Real Friends
Fake friends never ask for food.Real friends are the reason you donâ��t have food.Fake friends never see you cry.Real friends cry with you.Fake friends borrow your stuff for a few days then give it back.Real friends keep your stuff so long they forget its yours.Fake friends know few things about you.Real friends could write a book about you with direct quotes from you.Fake friends are for a while.Real friends are for life.

Alcoholism
Its been brought to my attention that theres alot of people out there with what most call a disease, (i would rather call it a choice). ive been an alcoholic for 20 years ive been sober for the last 6, im proud of what ive accomplished. i volenteer for everything and give till it hurts. but to my friends out there that are strugling and dont know what to do, heres my thought. just look a little further then what ya normally do and you'll see the answer its right there. and when it feels like its the end, it probably is. so buck up and do whats right you'll know. and everything will be ok i promise. god bless and dont denie what is the truth frankielee

Malebolgia And My First Mmr Review
Hello everyone out there I'm Dj SLAY. I Dj for Metal Messiah Radio Friday nights from 8pm till 11pm est. Okay enough of the shameless plug lets get down to business shall we ??? Being a Dj for one of the worlds most premier online radio stations, we often get music, and slammed with so much that it really is hard to listen to it all. Well one band that struck my fancy just from their name alone is a band called Malebolgia from here in the good ole USA. With singer/guitarist: Joseph Darling, drummer: Kevin Hedgecock, bassist: Timothy Knouff, and guitarist: Matt Lovett. Malebolgia's 2009 release of "Requiem For The Inexorable" is an 12 track masterpiece. "Requiem For The Inexorable" is my personal pick for cd of the year. With amazing song writing that is generally left to the big boys on major lables, Malebolgia sets a BLISTERING pace from begining to end. With brilliant Guitar/bass work and drum work that can only be summed up in 3 words ... OH MY GOD !!! Vocal work *and

~remembering Who I Am~
When I was thirty years old, I got married. For a while, I thought I had married the wrong man, but it is more true to say my ex-husband married the wrong woman. He had, I think, a very clear idea of the type of woman he wanted to marry, and I had a very clear idea of the type of woman he wanted me to be, the type of woman I really wanted to be: a woman to make my parents proud, to finally settle down, grow up. I had had disastrous relationships throughout my twenties. Had dated a string of unavailable men, either physically or emotionally, and wondered if it was possible to find love without pain, without getting my heart broken all over again. Here was a man who seemed to be everything I should be looking for, and if he didn't make my heart beat faster, surely that was more sensible. So I married with my head rather than with my heart; told myself that this was a different kind of love; this was doing the right thing. I had grown up assuming I would have a similar life to my moth

Something Men Will Not Want To Read But Do It Anyway!
Something few men want to discuss but every man should know. When we "girls" go through PMS and beyond....we can not help what we say and do. We become bitches...or more than normal for some. Most of us want to cry all of the time (give us chocolate and tissue)...the smallest thing you say ("hey baby") can be blown out of proportion and often we can and will break down or just break shit (my personal fave). Again, we can not help it. It is chemical (proven)....not to be confused with comical!!! It is certainly not comical! Until after the fact perhaps. If any other woman goes through the pain I do and she happens to be yours...good lord, by all means, baby her! I personally have never been through child birth but I do know what I feel every month and sometimes I would rather die. And trust me...I am not afraid of pain! So please be patient with the one you adore when she becomes totally irrational and tells you to move out, right after you tell her you love her! It's just ho

Vip Problems...no Help From Fubar..
Below is a copy of the letter I wrote to Fubar concerning my VIP I was given for my birthday by JUST PLAIN JOHN. He spent REAL MONEY for this gift, and it is not fair or ethical for Fubar not to extend my VIP when it cannot provide the expected service that is advertised. I was trying to add pictures tonight, since the VIP will soon expire on the 12th. I keep getting an error message telling me that I have exceeded my limit and am not allowed more unless I buy a VIP! I tried creating a new album. It let me upload the pics,then caption them, but when I hit okay, it came back and said 'ERROR: CANNOT ADD PICTURES. OVER LIMIT". iT IS frustrating to me. I have enough other problems to contend with. I am too tired to try doing this near midnight when home from work. All I asked for was an extension since the system is NOT working. What do YOU think?? Here is my letter to them: I wish to have an extension of another day of the VIP, because your system REFUSES to let me upload any p

Knowing The Difference
Knowing the Difference Sex without strings,without emotional ties, A mechanical physical act with no true passion. A temporary release of nothingness. Achieved by anyone who doesn't care for anything. Aspirations of morally bankrupt masses. Goals of those who are frightened by the deep. Mortified by the possibility of opening ones heart to another. No passion involved. True passion stems from beyond the physical. An emotion directly linked to the heart. Passion is a long, slow, deep, hungry kiss which lingers on the lips for hours, in the mind for days, makes it's mark on a heart and burns into the soul. Passion speaks without words, without thought, it flows like an artist sculpting a lover with such emotion that the artist can remember, from memory, from the heart,

Music Monday 9 (moved To Correct Blog)
Feel Good 1. New Soul - Yael Naim2. Burgeois Shangri La - Miss Li3. Paper Thin Walls - Modest Mouse4. (If you're wondering if I want you to) I want you to - Weezer5. Fiery Crash - Andrew Bird (not the most feel good, but beautiful)6. Bryn - Vampire Weekend

Moon's Early Christmas Gift From Me!
♥I LOVE YOU, MY MOOON!♥ ♥Hi Moon, I know i look shitty but I got things to tell you anyway, so Ill try my best tojust sit here and look pretty for you while I say stuff to you...Sooo, Well, here we go...Moon, I love you very much with all of my heart and soul. You complete me. You are my everything that I want and need. You will be always be mine and my moon of my life. I cantgive you anything but my love and soul because they're special and more value than money. Like our song say,"im so happy I found you and I love being around you" which is very true,IT IS!!I know for the fact that we are brought together for a reason which I believe is LOVE thatwe both need and want. All i wanted from you is you, your love, your protection and yourhappiness. NOTHING will EVER EVER replace that nor take that away from me. Like I said in one of my poem, I got my moon in my hand n heart and u are always there and i know where to find you. So, here your early gift Christm

What To Do
so i was with this guy for a while all was great but we lived in seperate states. he wanted to move in with me i freaked thought it was a little fast. i have been there and done that before so jumping into things scares the hell outta me. we broke up kind of i mean we where still talking but i told him i didn't want him to move in with me just yet. so yesterday i found out from him that he is dating someone else but that he said he still loves me and wants to be with me and i am the only one for him and then he asked me to marry him and broke up with this girl. he still says he wants me and wants to marry me and all that. so i get on here today after telling him that i wasn't sure that was part of the whole jumping into things and see on his page that he is still fuengaged to her and hers said the same and said that they were still together i overlooked it knowing it takes me a while to change things too. so i go into the room where he dj's and both he and her are in there and you know

The Least We Must Do - A Jim Bell Common Sense Commentary
http://www.jimbell.com It's as simple as this: all of us, just doing what we do, are destroying our planet's life support system. To be more specific, it's not so much what we're doing, but how we now do it. Just to survive, we need water and food. We also need energy to live contemporary lives. The way we now get energy, water and foods and most everything else is eroding the possibility of having a secure supply of these things in the future. What should we do? The answer is to develop ways to live a make livings that are life support self-sustaining - ways that heal and nourish each other and our planet's ecosystem. This is the least we must do if want to leave our descendants the birthright of a happy, healthy, prosperous and completely sustaining world. The first step toward achieving this goal is to become renewable energy self sufficient. When a home, community, city, county, region, state or country controls its energy supply and price, it controls its economy, its ways of life

Tell Me The Truth
Written with a pen, sealed with a kiss. If you're my friend, please answer this: Are we fiends or are we not? You told me once, but I forgot. So tell now and tell me true, So I can say, I'm here for you. Of all the friends I've ever met, You're the one I wont forget. And if I die before you do, I'll go to HEAVEN and wait for you. Show your friends much you care. Send this to everyone you consider a friend,including the one who sent it to you. If it comes back to you,then you'll know you have a circle of friends.... KK,send this to................ 0-2 peeps: you're a BAD friend. BOOOO!!!!!!!! . 3-5 peeps: you're a okay friend. 6-9 peeps: you're a GOOD friend. 10 peeps: you're the BESTEST 4 EVER!!!

The Namless King
Take my hand and lead me the way... Ring the bells and see the dead play... Take my scars away... Make those I didn't punish pay... I am the King of myself... I throw my crown to the ground... Am I done for now... Wash my hands of the blood stain of my enemies... Take me into your Kingdom, where I can remain nameless... My war is done...

Heart Breaker
Imprisoned by chains of agony, Heart entangled by lies. Rotting from the inside out, Color no longer resides in these eyes. Heart in a million pieces, Soul ripped in two. Dying a slow painful death, All because of you. Open the gates of Hell Let the killing spree begin. I've been driven crazy, Fighting this battle within. A knife in your heart, Coming straight from me. A slit to my own throat, Together for eternity.

Fallen Soldier
I wanted to raise you high high above the angels in the sky I wanted to make your world as perfect as it can be but somehow that got passed by. I wanted to protect you to never let anyone stand in your way I wanted to be the one that saved you in the darkest nights and fulfilled your very day. I wanted to kiss away your tears only to bring a smile to your face I wanted to take you away from the pain and put you in a much happier place. Now things are falling apart for you I can't hold you up like I want to so bad I know you would never leave but not saving you is making me so sad. Help me with my tears now take the hurt I feel away I thought I could make your life wonderful yet the darkness was brought right into the day.

The Truth Behind Christmas
Biblical scholars have argued from time to time that December 25th was not the actual birth date of Christ. It was just adopted as a day to celebrate the birth of Christ as a Christian substitute to the Roman festival Saturnalia in the third century. Saturnalia was celebrated as the Feast of Sun and was actually considered the birth date of the Sun God of the Romans. Catholic priests held a special mass that day for Christ and thus, it came to be known as 'Christ-mass' or 'Christmas'. Along with the date, several other pagan traditions, rituals and customs followed the way to become associated with Christmas such as decorating fir trees and burning yule logs. According to these scholars, Christ was most probably born on September 11, 3 B.C., which was Wednesday, according to the Bible. There are several other inaccuracies that we can see in the Nativity plays that are popular these days. Here are the arguments that are given to prove this fact: Luke 2:1 says, "And it came to p

To Trust
TRUST:: That is a hard word to believe in! In my heart I want to trust that I can love and not be hurt but there is that word, that what if word that keeps the wall up and you want to do everything to make this person see how much you love them and you try and try not to doudt but then you see something that you knew was there and they told you that it was not what you think.. Do I trust that my heart is right and follow it or do I keep that wall up and never TRUST a person with my heart??? Well it is to late for not Trusting he has my heart, he is my soul mate and I love him very much...So I will Trust and let it lead me down the path that is ment to be and just maybe I want get hurt all I have to go by is what I feel and actions that I am being shown, So You have my heart and I hope you do not drop it because with this I know if my heart is broken I will not recover I will surely die.... That is my vow to "TRUST" AND PRAY THAT YOU DO LOVE ME AND EVERYTHING YOU TELL ME IS THE TRUETH

The Naughty Knight Is Running Autos.....help Him Out And Yourself
HEY EVERYONE.....THE NAUGHTY KNIGHT HAS AUTOS RUNNING......HELP HIM AND YOURSELF OUT WITH THE EXTRA POINTS!!! The Naughty Knight (Fan+Rate=Add)Loungin Leveler@ fubar

Beats
You dont know what you mean to me what i feel remains to be seen when im alone dont know what to do to laugh or cry running scared in my heart my world falling apart will the future be worth the pain i wander aimless my heart pounding awaiting your kiss but how long should i wait not knowing just what you feel if your heart beats like mine

The Power Of Words What Can They Hurt
you know the internet can be many thing to many people but mostly its a gate way of communication a gateway that many abuse yes people love to chat on cam but because of the horemongers and the power of the pronogrophy business many people are afraid of turning on thier cams or accepting some one elses because they are afraid of what they may or may not see...the chat lines or boxies aree so badly abused that people are afraid to give out there yim;s and quite frankly i dont blame them,and all the sights like this one and the many others are becomeing more and more commercial or game orentaited then ever before what happen to the internet its become a free for all,and the reasone for this to many people have this notion there are no way these people and i are going to meet unless i make an effort,and ya know there right...so they think they can say any thing and it want matter....BUZZZZZZZZZZZZ wrong answer folks no matter if on the net or in real life people have feelings,and they c

All That Remains,,,,(wrote This At Work The Other Day And Thought I Would Share)
I suspect the old person in my line farted. She stood there taking her purchases out of her cart one item at a time, oblivious to the stench around her. The bunch in her slacks suggested she was wearing an adult diaper. Perhaps it was full of the remains of lunch. Chicken fingers and cole slaw... an old person delight. I try to hold my breath as she empties her cart but time has seemed to slow down. She doesnt smell as bad as some customers...the trailor dwellars who come in for bologna, crackers, and lube. They smell even worse but this veil of stench that has filled the air is making my nose hairs curl in horror. Years of smoking and other debauchery have taken its toll on my lungs and they feel as if they are on fire.. I look down, curious to see if there is any anal seepage. I am sick fuck. I am a tough motherfucker. I work retail. I have seen things most of you will never see or hope to see. The horror...oh the horror.

Velvet
Velvet curtains draw over an azure dreamAs absent wanderers trace lazy circles in creamAnd as the bluest skies fade with a whisper of a smileThe world holds its breath and watches for a whileIs a moment better spent here or where you while away?Finally a choice with no wrong, and a place to staySo comforted in ways so hard to expressSuch a pleasant torture with your scent on my chestAnd is it wrong to want to worship when a soul feels only rejoice?Or is that what Heaven is supposed to mean, if given the choice?As velvet curtains draw over an azure dreamAn an absent wanderer learns how to breatheThe bluest eyes close with the tease of a smileAnd the world holds its breath and daydreams for a whileA pressure on the chest as much within as withoutAccompanies a smile that knows nothing of doubtThe scent of forever teasing breezes of reposeWhile that long left withered finds room to growAnd is it wrong to smile while tears trace the lines of your face?Or does it mean that Heaven was never m

Wait
As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken, probably more than once, and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when it happened to you! You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much and love like you've never loved before because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a whole minute of happiness you'll never get back!Find someone who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on them, who will stay awake just to watch you sleep. Wait for the one who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world even when you look your worst, who holds your hand in front of their friends. Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you of how much they care and h

The Condemned Truth
When did being black,gay, or even bisexual cause you to instantly become part of the CONDEMNED.I can hear a ton of little voices now, saying but thats not true, being a minority or gay even bisexual is now the new norm how can they...how can we be part of the CONDEMNED? For those little voices for one moment put the shut to the up and relaxe for a minute.Im talking amazing beautiful diferences that make this world an amazing place to live in.Yet we still have places where people are CONDEMNED for those very beautiful diferences. I said before and Ill say it again LOVE is the most beautiful thing in the world. It can build cities,mend hearts,feed the hungry..Its one of those things that mixed with passion can make the world a heaven on earth..While Hate and passinate Hate and burn the world asunder.. Im not saying one race or one group of people is overly concerned or hates another..I dont believe in saying that because in turn that would make me just

I Don't Get It.
I don't get it....I'm not one of those guys on here that comes right out talking "dirty" to women thinking it's "cool to do". I'm not one of the MANY people on here who constantly changing my status begging for something new. Is that why it's so difficult for me to lvl up on this thing? I want to lvl up just like everyone else on here. So does that mean I have to be like everyone else and beg, beg, beg? I just don't understand. Why can't finding people for semi-intelligent conversation lead to some kin

Love
Love is an endless stream of surprises Joyful filled bliss that hits your heart hard Falling like your world has been torn from under you Sometimes you hit bottom and realize it wasn’t real Sometimes you float forever With the feeling that it’s perfect in every way With the hope that you will feel like that everyday A heart is a fragile gift you give others No control over what happens to it and why United in a bond where your soul has found its match This love is not always spoken but felt by many No need for words when its power is wonderful Live your life to find this happiness When you find it never let go…….

Amen For Heavy Metal M /
Of all rock & roll's myriad forms, heavy metal is the most extreme in terms of volume, machismo, and theatricality. There are numerous stylistic variations on heavy metal's core sound, but they're all tied together by a reliance on loud, distorted guitars (usually playing repeated riffs) and simple, pounding rhythms. Heavy metal has been controversial nearly throughout its existence -- critics traditionally dismissed the music as riddled with over-the-top adolescent theatrics, and conservative groups have often protested what they perceive as evil lyrical content. Still, despite -- or perhaps because of -- those difficulties, heavy metal has become one of the most consistently popular forms of rock music ever created, able to adapt to the times yet keep its core appeal intact. For all its status as America's rebellion soundtrack of choice, heavy metal was largely a British creation. The first seeds of heavy metal were sown in the British blues movement of the '60s, specifically among b

A Dance Through The Sky
I dance through the sky on shining red wings, I loop and I roll and do other such things; And when I'm up here I have not a care, for here I belong I'm at peace in the air; This dance that I do for the people to see, takes lots of hard work but it's all fun to me; So when I come down just ask me to dance, we'll waltz through the clouds if you just take the chance. This is one of the most beautiful poems I have ever read. It's fits my daddy so well, I thought it was written just for him.

Friends
Wayne and Coconut...just two names in the grab bag of life, except to me. In a life with so much darkness and pain, I was blessed with you 2 guys as friends at different times in my journey. Many a road trip, many a lifted beer, many a night in a club drinking, dancing with a hot, half dressed college girl or someones mom, many a hotly contested softball game, many a time side by side listening to bullets zip overhead. Now here I am, the sole survivor..both of you gone from this life at your own hands. The field and the closet in which you took your own lives haunt me at times....and I grieve still. YOU ARE GONE.....BUT NOT FORGOTTEN......because I choose to remember the goofy smile, the generous spirit, the effort put forth by you both to live life. I lift my cup to those that have gone before me......Thank you Shannaliscious for the song" Why" by rascal flatts

The Ring Of Zeppelin
While i went looking for the lord of the rings video, set to zeppelins "Ramble On" (Rob,or anyone else, if you find it, let me know. I want to blog that one too), i came across this long piece of work on Live leak. I hope it embeds correctly. A very long tribute, awesomely done, to many of zeps tunes. The Ring of Zeppelin

Winter
I love winter because my life has always been winter and when the ice cracks and things start to melt and bloom I am not used to it this thing they call happiness I always wonder if maybe it is just not meant for me…

Dead Of Night
We're snowed in ... and the lights flicker. Surrounded, trapped. Voices echo across the fallen snow. It's so bright we forget it is the dead of night. How easy to dismiss our fears to explain away our fright. How sad to come across your demons in the dead of night. 3/1/09 JGH

Victim Of The Velocity~by Jd
This is the moment to live, This is the moment to die, This is the moment you missed throughout your self reflection. This is the moment that is gonna make you, While the rest tear you down, This is that one change at all or nothing, Will you live or will you die? Will you catch a break, Can there be a chance to survive? To the edge of the earth this battle will be fought, The lights fill the night sky. Drop down to your knees, Kiss this exsistance goodbye, This is the day of reckoning and this time its too little too late for last goodbyes. Are you the victim? This is your moment of truth so why chose to lie? Bend eternity to your liking, Or break as you remain content on hiding behind your disguise. The yin and the yang, Well spoken but never quiet loud enough, This is that one realization we have as it all falls down, Break into pieces nothing more than matter behind dusty eyes. Gather all your strength, This attack is going to be the one that hurts the most, K

My Angels
A tear has fallen, fast and free, I fear my feet will not carry me. My life is great and full of love, Granted a wish I wished from above. But times are hard and sometimes sad, although I eccept the good and bad. I feel I'm falling far behind, no grip, no tread to catch the line. My heart is heavy, my mind is weak, My lips come open, I cannot speak. I scream and scream, yet not heard, I feel as though I have been cursed. Damned to hell, damned to fail, Away away, my feelings sail. In the distance a sweet voice heard, a voice of hope I know for sure. Look up, look out and there they stand, My angels smile with helping hands. With all else lost, and gone for good, There they stand as I knew they would. It takes a life to find true friends, who give you their heart, with out end. For they are my saviors, and carry me, When it seems all is lost they let me see. My Angels don't have wings, only smiles like mine, that will be there with me till the end of time. I thank you lord, for giving m

Back To The Gym
I started going back to the gym yesterday. It felt good to be able to work out again. I can't recall the last time I been at the gym. Maybe my weight loss will go faster with me working out lol since I haven't been working out at all with all the weight I lost. Yesterday, I was putting on some old clothes I had. Jeans that are way too big for me..more clothes for goodwill. I was finally able to wear the pair of pants that my mother in law got me many years ago. Yay!! I texted her and told her that I was finally able to wear them...they're not even tight. I think sometime soon I'll be going down another pant size. I would look at myself in these certain pant size and be just amazed. I never thought I'd be able to lose the weight that I have and I'm still going. DId some christmas shopping. I think I might try to hit the mall again tomorrow or next week. I even decorated my place with some xmas stuff. Wish I was tall enough to put christmas lights out, but I can't even reach what i want

Need Your Support And Votes....
As Many of you know I am an avid Photography fan, I enjoy all the beauty and creativity one can find through photography. Well My college held a contest in October and I said what the hell and entered. Well I would greatly appreciate any and all support so that I may have my photo as a finalist so that it may be posted on campus as a school art piece. I have enclosed two links to two different contest where you can place your vote. Although I have more than one photo entered the one I would appreciate votes for is the one I took of a hand reaching out. " I thought it made a powerful statement of how Education is the Hand reaching out to a better brighter future. "Feel free to leave comment also http://cpccphotovote.slinkset.com/categories/56853-cpcc-themecontest → link to The Hand of Education photo, Rick Moffett 4 http://cpccphotovote.slinkset.com/categories/56863-non-cpcc-theme → Link to the Blooming Flower photo By: Rick Moffett

Explication
Below is a beautiful summary of why I have my tattoo :) For me, trees have always been the most penetrating preachers. I revere them when they live in tribes and families, in forests and groves. And even more I revere them when they stand alone. They are like lonely persons. Not like hermits who have stolen away out of some weakness, but like great, solitary men, like Beethoven and Nietzsche. In their highest boughs the world rustles, their roots rest in infinity; but they do not lose themselves there, they struggle with all the force of their lives for one thing only: to fulfill themselves according to their own laws, to build up their own form, to represent themselves. Nothing is holier, nothing is more exemplary than a beautiful, strong tree. When a tree is cut down and reveals its naked death-wound to the sun, one can read its whole history in the luminous, inscribed disk of its trunk: in the rings of its years, its scars, all the struggle, all the suffering, all the sicknes

Never Outsmart A Woman
A man calls home to his wife and says, "“Honey, I have been asked to fly to Canada with my boss and several of his friends for fishing. We'll be gone for a long weekend. This is a good opportunity for me to get that promotion I've been wanting so could you please pack enough clothes for a 3 day weekend”?" "And also, would you get out my rod and tackle box from the attic? We're leaving at 4:30 pm from the office and I will swing by the house to pick my things up. Oh, and please pack my new navy blue silk pajamas." The wife thinks this sounds a bit odd, but being the good wife, she does exactly what her husband asks. Following the long weekend he came home a little tired, but otherwise looking good. The wife welcomes him home and asks if he caught many fish. He says, "Yes, lots of walleyes, some bass, and a few pike."He adds, "But why didn't you pack my new blue silk pajamas like I asked you to do?" The wife replies, “"I did. They're in your tackle box”." Neve

I Re-did The Last One........
Pick your Artist: James Brown Are you a male or female Its a Mans World Describe yourself: Super Bad How do you feel: I feel good Describe where you currently live: America is my home If you could go anywhere, where would you go: Kansas City Your favorite form of transportation: Sex Machine Your bestfriend is: Mother Popcorn You and your best friends are: Gettin on the Good Foot What's the weather like: Sunny Favorite time of day: In a Cold Sweat If your life was a TV show, what would it be called: i-don-t-want-nobody-to-give me nothing, i ll get it myselfWhat is life to you: Papa s got a Brand New Bag Your current relationship: Pris

Mmhmmm
Copied from a bunch of other bored ass people. Using only song names from ONE ARTIST, cleverly answer these questions. Pick your Artist: Outkast Are you a male or female? Ms Jackson Describe yourself: So fresh and so clean How do you feel: Where are my panties Describe where you currently live: She lives in my lap If you could go anywhere, where would you go: Cruising the ATL Your favorite form of transportation: Funky Ride Your bestfriend is: We Luv Deez Hoez You and your best friends are: Drinkin Again What's the weather like: Hey ya Favorite time of day: Millenium If your life was a TV show, what would it be called: B.O.B What is life to you: Decatur Psalm Your current relationship: The Way You Move Your fear(s): Knowing Thought for the Day: Take off your cool How I would like to die: Tomb of the boom My soul's present condition: Good Day

That Thingie From Sho
Using only song names from ONE ARTIST, cleverly answer these questions. Pass it on to 15 people you like and include me. You can't use the band I used. Try not to repeat a song title. It's a lot harder than you think! Pick your Artist: Robbie Williams Are you a male or female? Handsome Man Describe yourself: Better Man How do you feel: Sexed Up Describe where you currently live: The Road To Mandalay If you could go anywhere, where would you go: Beyond The Sea Your favorite form of transportation: Tripping Your best friend is: Mr. Bojangles You and your best friends are: Come Undone What's the weather like: South Of The Border Favorite time of day: Eternity If your life was a TV show, what would it be called: Advertizing Space What is life to you: Freedom Your current relationship: Something Beautiful Your fear: Misunderstood Thought for the Day: Let Love Be Your Energy How I would like to die:

Missing Appointments
Missing Appointments Many people live and die by the desk calendar these days. Ours is a time-conscious, time-driven culture. Most of us have more things to do on our schedules than we can comfortably manage. These pressures have created an environment where missing appointments and scheduled events is a constant threat. Dreams to this effect are common. One of the trigger events for these dreams is the nagging fear that we may not get it all done as we should. Our anxiety about appearing competent to others is fragile and often assaulted in dreams. Another interpretation of this dream is missing an opportunity. Life invites participation in more than could ever be accomplished. Every invitation comes with the promise that this event could change your life. The changes may include relationship or career rewards. A final scenario revolves around fulfilling the relationship obligations that already exist in your life. In this case, dreams of missed appointments may be reminding yo

It Started Out As A Simple Kiss
It started out as a simple kiss Eyes closed.. arms embraced.. Soft lips barely touch..Anticipation builds.. the kiss deepens..we search for more.Tongues caress.. lightly nibbling.. gentle sucking ...Passions flare.. shaking to the core. Hands roam.. fires ignite.. wanting.. skin on skin...Gasping breaths.. eyes glazed with lust.. heated to the brink.Moans excape.. with whispered encouragement...Wanting... needing... the desire.. in a daze... cannot think. Your shirt unbuttons.. fingers fumble.. my hands slide up ...Your stomache clenches.. lightly grazing .. I reach your chest.Heart racing.. breathing labored... skin.. so soft.. yet hard...Deep breaths now.. mindless ...shaking.. passion's obsessed. You grasp my hips.. you pull me close.. and closer still..My hands wrap around your neck... and still the kiss goes on.Savoring the taste ..such soft sweet lips.. the fire is raging..Pulses bounding.. lost in your touch.. practiced seduction. Your hands slide under my shirt... aah.. th

The Larger The Community, The Less Interesting It's Become...
What gives? When there were only about 1.5 million users on Fubar there seemed to be alot more interaction and people talkin with people... now that there are over 3.5 million, this place seems dead as a doornail...

Read From Bottom Up. My Apologies To Just Plain John.
Buzz Meter: 80% - hammered Level: fubar bouncer (150) Gender: Male, 40 Location: United States Status: please all read scrappers blog before you come and scream at us boncers please YOUR FAVOR...: ANYway, I have tried to REPLY to BOTH private messages you have sent me, but I am NOT ALLOWED!!! I would like to know HOW one is supposed to CONTACT you if you do not allow replies to personal messages here????? ALso, I went to Scrapper's page and NOWHERE was I able to find and read the NEW NSFW rules you say you will have....it would be NICE to be able to do so...why are they only on ONE bouncer's page instead of your main site? YOUR FAVOR...: I have changed the picture back to the one I've had up for about a month now... YOUR FAVOR...: all of "us" in the picture had clothes on, and nothing showed! The IRONY is that your little young girls in the blasts and happy hours wear h

Major Bar And Grill Favorite Holiday Receipe
Husband's latkes potatoe pancakes)..a traditional Hanukkah food, was wonderful.We play argue over the the many names they are called by many peoples...but it no matter..they are still yummy.We also incorperate foods like borscht,buckwheat loaves,etc. thru the coming days.My most favorite is an Ashkanazi dish.Roll out two massive amounts of puff pastry. With the first one..cut it in the shape of a fish...2 feet long by 14 inches wide.Then,begin layering things like lemon rice,smoked salmon,hAomemade egg noodles,diced cooked egg,eggs benedict sauce,some dill and parsley.(Non-kosher adds diced turkey and ham,maybe caviar).Then make a second fish from the puff pastery.Use a beaten egg yolk,melted butter or milk around the edge of the bottom one,lay on the top and press the edges together to seal it all.With the left over puff pastry,first make an eye.(Three circlesbigger,medium and smaller for a three -D look.Then, start cutting the 'scales',A scissor works better than a knife

Naughty Lil Self
Ache... A slow burning candle...I begin to melt from the heat and passion of this flame. Lighting and warming my soul. As a moth to a flame, I can't resist to touch. Tenderly and softly as I move my hand up the inside of my thighs. Melting into thought and fantasy of you. The flame inside growing hotter. Laying back upon my bed, with my legs spread further. Slipping my hand beneath this panty. Soft like silk or the petal from a rose. The need getting stronger, wishing it were your hands upon me now... One hand caressing my breast, noticing my nipple harden as I allow my fingers to penetrate deep inside. Beginning to bite on my bottom lip, from passionate thoughts of you. The flood gates open and begin to drown as I lose all control. My moans now coming from this deep, starving ache for you... Wondering if you think of me in this way and if you were to happen upon me in this delicate position, would you set me free and release this ache within me... Thoughts and

Savior
It kills me not to know this but I've all but just forgottenwhat the color of her eyes were and her scars or how she got themas the telling signs of age rain down a single tear is droppingthrough the valleys of an aging face that this world has forgotten there is no reconciliation that will put me in my placeand there is no time like the present to drink these draining secondsbut seldom do these words ring true when I'm constantly failing youwalls that we just can't break through until we disappearso tell me nowif this ain't love then how do we get out?cause I don't knowthat's when she said I don't hate you boyI just want to save you while there's still something left to savethat's when I told her I love you girlbut I'm not the answer for the questions that you still have and the day pressed on like crushing weightsfor no man does it ever waitlike memories of dying daysthat deafen us like hurricanesbathed in flames we held the branduncurled the fingers in your handpressed into the fl