Fubar Blog Posts 4

So
I remember the day you left. I remember the last breath you took in front of me. When you said you had to leave. I was too damn stubborn to stop you or even say anything. All I have left is the memories that play play in my head and haunt my dreams. So many words left unsaid, I was too scaried to say them, now I can say thoses words but you're no where to be found. I speech my words into the wind, hoping it will carry my words to where ever you are.

Day 2~ At The End Of The World
May 22nd, 2011~ Day 2~ Second Entry : Ok, I managed to walk about 5 miles yesterday dragging all my supplies behind me on a little red wagon that I found abandoned at an empty house. The skies are still dark and ominous. Narey a sound. No sight of any other survivors yet. I spent the night hunkered down in and old GreyHound bus. Through out the bus there were empty clothing. It was as if all who were riding this bus were raptured right out of their clothes and the clothing was left behind right where each individual was sitting on the bus. Erie feeling. My dog Cooper is my only companion on this journy and I must take care that he is well provided for. I have rationed his food so it should last for quite some time before running out. I share my water with him as we both need to remain well hydrated. I hope we find some other survivors soon.

Blood Spills....
We all think that when we live the life of a liar that we will never be affected. The one that starts a lie is the one that trys to Spill the Blood of the innocent. The innocent is the one that lives a life of grace, honesty, and devotion. What fun is it to live such a boring life. I live for the fun in making your life miserable. The one that has made me into the mass of destruction. The one that has made me into a Living Dead Doll. The dead only has one wish to see the wicked be punished for the crimes that they committed. Our lives are made by the actions we do to others. They will never end and they we never subside. So that is why to end this life you have made for your self pray for the forgiveness of the dead to have mercy on your soul. Once you leave here you will be tormented for eternity. Living the lie of lies over and over again. So i raise my glass to the ones that have always stood in the shadows. Because they are the ones that have never spilled the blood

Stdo Or Stdon't?
Dear Ninja, Is commitment a disease? And is looking for commitment rather than a quick bang a bad thing? ~Anonymous Commitment is not a disease (although some of us do avoid it like the plague), and neither is being single. I would like to take a minute to remind people that some of us choose to do bad all by our damn self, and there is nothing wrong with that. It is when you can honestly walk through and not need someone else's acceptance to validate your existence that you can actually find a healthy relationship. It's perfectly fine to settle down. It is never ok to settle. There are some mental issues that actually make people NEED commitment. Codependency can actually be a serious issue. There is nothing wrong with wanting to be in a healthy relationship with someone you care about. There is a LOT wrong with being in a relationship just because you can't be alone. Those relationships tend to get abusive or one-sided, and the fear of being left alone keeps th

The Meaning
To love is to share life togetherto build special plans just for twoto work side by sideand then smile with prideas one by one, dreams all come true.To love is to help and encouragewith smiles and sincere words of praiseto take time to shareto listen and carein tender, affectionate ways.To love is to have someone specialone who you can always dependto be there through the yearssharing laughter and tearsas a partner, a lover, a friend.To love is to make special memoriesof moments you love to recallof all the good thingsthat sharing life bringslove is the greatest of all.I've learned the full meaningof sharing and caringand having my dreams all come true;I've learned the full meaningof being in loveby being and loving with you.

For You Are The One
For you I would climbThe highest mountain peakSwim the deepest oceanYour love I do seek.For you I would crossThe rivers most wideWalk the hottest desert sandTo have you by my side.For you are the oneWho makes me wholeYou've captured my heartAnd touched my soul.For you are the oneThat stepped out of my dreamsGave me new hopeShowed me what love means.For you aloneAre my reason to liveFor the compassion you showAnd the care that you give.You came into my lifeAnd made me completeEach time I see youMy heart skips a beat.For you define beautyIn both body and mindYour soft, gentle faceMore beauty I'll ne'er find.For you are the oneGod sent from aboveThe angel I neededFor whom I do love.

Will You Ever?
I don't think you willever fully understandhow you've touched my lifeand made me who I am.I don't think you could ever knowjust how truly special you arethat even on the darkest nightsyou are my brightest star.I don't think you will ever fully comprehendhow you've made my dreams come trueor how you've opened my heartto love and the wonders it can do.You've allowed me to experiencesomething very hard to findunconditional love that existsin my body, soul, and mind.I don't think you could ever feelall the love I have to giveand I'm sure you'll never realizeyou've been my will to live.You are an amazing personand without you I don't know where I'd be.Having you in my lifecompletes and fulfills every part of me.

Last Farewell
The note is laid, To whom it may concern, No blame is taken or passed out, The final goodbye from this broken soul, No cryptic clue lost in its text, No hesitation in self extinction, No discussion to avoidance, One iron act of will spelt out on scarlet flecked paper your first clue, But all too late to help my in animation, cold and still, It tells not of the razors bite on tender flesh, Or how its furrow reminds me of autumn fields, Or how it glides through sinew and fibre, Like a knife through summers butter, Claret jets with the grace of fountains through spring air, But with my lifeblood unending in this lifetime, Euphoria hits like cannabises first hit on a teenage mind, Driven on and through by pressure beyond these protective walls, Whose comfort I stepped beyond in cat like curiosity, To a world too uncompromising to be mindful of me, In childlike innocence I welcomed it with open arms, But trampled by its aggression and impatience, My dreams shattered at

It Is You I Dream Of
A flower grows from beneath a blanketOf fine and purest whiteIt reaches toward the sun for warmth,For heat and for the lightMy love for you grows stronger still,Despite the surrounding coldMy heart is yours, bartered goneFor yours has it been soldIts petals shine from morning dewIts stem grows stiff and strongIt stands strong through the freezing coldIt stands the winter longI long for you, for your soft touchI miss the way you smileThe longer that we stay apartThe longer every mileThe flower stretches through the snowIt reaches toward the sunAnd now without you the color is goneThe flower's petals, dunBut as we talk, and as we learnThe flower comes back to lifeThe snow now melts and goes awayAs you take away my strifeSpring is here and growth aboundsAs you and I are oneWe are together, we are in loveThe snow for now is doneI see the future, in dreams I haveOf our life, long and trueI see the times where all I needAre comforting words from youI see the times when winter comesAs winter

Daydream
Whenever I day dream,and day dream I do,in my secret garden,I day dream of you.I day dream of you,in a faraway land;embracing me tightand holding my hand.Holding my hand,and touching my face.Just you and me,in this peaceful place.In this peaceful placea pristine river flows.Where the unicorns run,a breeze always blows.A breeze always blowsand sings of a song;our love in a placewhere you're never gone.Where you're never goneis as it would seem,from dusk until dawn,whenever I day dream.And whenever I day dream,and day dream I do,in my secret garden,I day dream of you.

Fading Summers Sunday
The once white hot summer sun now mellows to autumn’s deep gold, Trees shimmer in reds and browns as shadows lengthen in Septembers fading light, The air moist as morning dew hangs heavy in to late mid morning, Waiting to become winters morning frost, Air freshens to the chill on October’s distant breath, First seasons leaves hanging ready for falling in end of season anticipation, And I stand and watch you turn, As early fall’s sun glints from the waves of your hair like crests falling on white sands, I stand motionless in the hyperactivity off the mute, With only the will to pull you back, As courage deserts my ability to react, Each one of your footsteps pulls mono tone back across fading brown eyes, With bloodshot shinning back through once again, To wake upon a damp pillow beacons if I should wake tomorrow, As I weep to convulsive contortions through the never ending dark of night, Forgive me for ever loving you in my silence of protection, Never

Serenely Anesthetised
I have drank for so many years to forget, I have only overlooked what I am supposed to be forgetting, And forgotten to disremember, You still nag behind this hyperactive mind, All the while my new friends have me serenely anesthetised, This carefree world rushes by me, As in suspended animation I survive, Outside my cobwebbed window on to this life, Seasons change and move inexplicably on, Gazing through these translucent eyes as it passes me by, I remain in the company of Mr Jim Beam and Sir Arthur Guinness, Ernest and Julio pop round for a swift one here and there, But in the familiarity of a lifelong friend, Mr J Daniels, I will always stay, Comfortably numb.

You Walked Lightly
You walked lightly into my lifeCaptivating and lovely to my mind,At first, I never cared who you wereNow I don’t know who I am without you,You kissed meI felt my world change,You held meI heard my heart awaken,You loved meAnd my soul was born anewYou walked lightly into my lifeNow my heart knows who you areAnd with every breathAnd every stepI take down lonely roads,Your hand is my staffYour voice is my guideYour strength my shelterYou’re passion my awakening.You walked lightly into my life,And all my painYou took as your own,And all my fearsYou cast into the sea,All my doubtLost in your eyes,You walked lightly into my lifeAnd no matter if you choose to stay or go,My life is forever changed,Just because you loved meFor a moment in time.And because I chooseTo love youFor the rest of mine.

The Web
CreativelyYou worked your artYou spun a webAround my heartHow beautifullyYour deeds have spreadEach intricatelyWoven threadWith strands of careYou dried my tearsYour gentlenessDispelled my fearsYour wisdomHelped me understandAnd patientlyYou held my handTo give me courageTo brave the stormWith kindnessYou have kept me warmYour passionLit a glowing fireThat filled my soulWith sweet desireYou're allThat I was dreaming ofFor the web you spunWas made of love

My Love... Everlasting
You were a dream...A dream that filled my thoughtsand my loneliest nights.You were the dream I held on to,the dream my heart longed to one day have.You were the dream that made me smile...an escape from my reality,a fantasy I longed to one day come true.Once only my dream, my escape, my fantasy,came true the day when I first saw you.My dream that used to beis now my reality.A fantasy waiting for its happy endingis now a fairytale come true.Once my only escape...is now the comfort that I live for.Together we have been through the heartaches...the pain of walking away or being left behind.Every new road we had to takebecause of the choices we had to make,only paved the roadthat brought us closer to one another.Life may not be easy,with all the burdens and dramathat life hands to us,but when you find someoneto share your life with,no drama is hard to handle...no burden is hard to bare.When you have someone...the one that you've dreamed of...then your life becomes the escape you both taket

A Dreamer Of Dreams
You have come to me from a distant land, Dreamer of dreams, to fill my hearts desire, Sweet music flowing from your nimble hand That plays within... to light my passion's fire. A symphony of word and thought you bring. Excitement builds upon crescendo's sound, Brought forth in tones to make my light heart sing For all the beauty that, with you, I've found. A life is changed in just an instant's time, All darkness fled before that brillaint sun That shines from spoken words of softest rhyme And speaks of treasures, only just begun. This mystic meeting gives my heart a glow That few have seen and only you will know.

A Gentle Touch
A gentle brush of his fingers, Sending shivers down my spine. In the love I see in his eyes, Is a love that equals mine. He greets me with a smile, And leaves me with a kiss. If he were to ever leave me, I couldn't imagine what I'd miss. Maybe it's his touch, Or the way he makes me feel. But whatever it is, I'm head over heels.

A Tear On My Pillow
When I lay and think, in my bed at night, the day you'll arrive, seems nowhere in sight. I toss and I turn, dreaming of you, opening my eye's... checking if my dream came true. It didn't, again, and a tear starts to roll, weeping quietly... my pillow I hold. Many sleepless nights I've prayed for you, my love. God touched my soul from heaven above He's answered my prayers for my love to be. I've never felt this lucky, God did this for me. That's a question I asked each and every night. He must think your special, to send you to me, No other has made me feel so complete, my whole life was lived, just so we could meet. All these thoughts and more going through my head. I fall asleep not worrying, but dreaming of you... instead

Natural Love
exaggerate the green blood in grass the music of leaves scraping space multiply the stillness by one sound, by one syllable of your name to rest to rest with my mouth upon yours, as somewhere a star falls the earth takes it softly, in natural love... exactly as we take each other.

Dead Bird Wiz Scissors Beak
What u hv said is a stab into my eyeball. I wasn't crying. Its bleeding. What the Fuck!!!U cant c it? Hell Yeah. Ur a fucking dead bird. U hurt me wizout any guilt. Scarlet beak, sleek feather. U don't know how sick you make me.Every time I think of you, I puke! Am I a lil cute cookie toy ? My dear bird friend. U smashed me . U fucking smashed me! Should i trust u again?

Rain
Rain fell last night...quiet, gentle rain, that tapped against my window pane, and called me back from troubled sleep, to soothe a heart too numb to weep. My loneliness was too deep and real, and like a wound that would not heal, it throbbed within me, and I knew my arms were empty without you. But as I listened to the sound of soft rain falling on the ground,I heard your voice, tender and clear, Call my name, and oh my dear, I threw my window open wide, to let the sweet rain rush inside. It kissed my lips, my eyes, my hair, and love, I knew that you were there. Tears that my heart could not release Fell down from Heaven, bringing peace.Last night while gray clouds softly wept,I held you in my arms and slept.

You Say Nothing
I see it in your eyes I see it in your face I ask myself is it really there? I ask you and you say nothing at all I wonder have you ever felt this way before? I hear your heart beat and you say nothing at all I see a twinkle in your eyes I guess you feel it too, don't you? I feel your hand in mine I see longing in your eye's I ask you "can you feel it?" I hear those words " I Love You"

You Are The One
I try to find the words to express the feeling in my heart; I try to show you that I care, but I don't know where to start. I guess I'll start right here and I guess I'll start right now. I'll tell you that I love you and I'll tell you why and how. You are the one I want to lay next to when my time has passed. You are the one I've given myself to and you will be the last. You are the one I want for life, until the day I die. You are the one God sent for me, to be with me, and that is no lie. You are the one who brightens my day, with your smile bright and glowing. You are the one whom I wake up for each and every morning.

Day 4~ Dooms Day Survivalism
May 24th, 2011 ~ Day 4 ~ Fifth Entry : Cooper and I had to remaine tucked away in the culvert for most of the day yesterday, as the Zombies out numbered us 20-1. Im not sure, but I think they knew we were around, but just coldn't figure out where. Finally just before dark, they left. The coast was clear. Cooper and I set out in search of safer/dryer shelter. We stayed off the main roads, and traveled the narrow foot paths through the woods. This was tough as there are many root systems and rocks along the way. Stumbling through the dark we were suddenly spotted by a gang of rogue survivors. These are the ones I feared most, as they were not prepared for the worlds end, and had no food supplies. They set chace after us in an attempt to steal my supplies. I knew this would happen! Running blindly through the woods, Cooper and I came upon an old abandoned Grange Hall. Following Coopers lead, I trusted that there was no one inside. Once inside, I barracaded the doors and windo

The Kiss
This Kiss we stood in the doorway his hands on my waist the clock tickling loudly almost in haste he moved in closer his eyes locked in mine I long for his kiss For just a moment in time his lips meet mine and I feel the sensation no longer must I wait to give into the sweet temptation my knees go weak my palms become sweaty I go back to that place I have been so many times already the world disappears all that's left is him and I and as we pull away I feel as though I could fly

Funny Shit
A fly was flying along when he saw a stream wth a rock. He thought if i land on that rock i will have me a good rest, but he didn't see the fish in the water . The fish said if the fly comes down and lands on the rock i will have me a fly supper, but the fish didn't see the bear behind him. The bear said if the fly goes down, the fish will come up and i will have a fish supper, but the bear didn't see the man behind him. The man said if the fly goes down, the fish will come up and the bear will go down and i will stand up and shoot the bear and i will have a bear skin rug, but the man didn't see the rat behind him. the rat said if the fly goes down, the fish will come up, the bear will go down, the man will stand up and the cheese sandwhich will fall out of his pocket and i will have a cheese sandwhich supper, but the rat didn't see the cat behind him. The cat said if the fly goes down, the fish will come up, the bear will go down, the man will stand up, the rat will go down and i will

Stupid Encounter #73 Lmao
8:50pm DjCeltic4p...: hey hun would you be online right now i have a codeing qution 8:52pm iC51NerdGo...: Send all coding questions to my #3698 friend! ty 8:53pm DjCeltic4p...: ok is he online 8:53pm iC51NerdGo...: yes 8:53pm iC51NerdGo...: i just got off the phone with him 8:55pm DjCeltic4p...: ok how do i find him hun im not finding him by the number do you have his profile link? please 8:58pm iC51NerdGo...: Whats your question? 8:58pm DjCeltic4p...: well im wantting my loung banner to be my edit botton but i caint remeber for the life of me right where to put it im in the right area but caint remeber what excat spot to put it

The Duped "dad" Speaks Out!
This case is similar to mine - My ex-wife had an affair with her employer, who was married. She had a baby, but didn't tell me I was not the father. I found out when he was 19 years old. Ex-Husband of Arnold's Alleged Mistress Speaks About Betrayal for the First Time Entertainment Tonight, Tuesday, May 24, 2011, 7:55pm (PDT) Entertainment Tonight's Mark Steines spoke with Rogelio Baena, the ex-husband of Arnold's mistress Mildred "Patty" Baena, for a new interview to air in two parts on May 24 and May 25. Rogelio tells ET he thought Arnold's alleged love child was his biological child all along and that he learned that the boy was not his son only one week ago. He goes on to call the situation a "betrayal" and "Arnold Schwarzenegger for me, [was] my hero... Maria is destroyed." Married to Patty for ten years, today Rogelio says he'd like to tell his son, "I am your father. That's all."

Not Always Right |the Devil To Pay, Part 2
Grocery Store | TX, USA Me: “Alright. Your total is $23.34.” (The customer hands me $30.) Me: “Alright. Your change is $6.66.” Customer: “That’s the devil’s number. I don’t want my change. It’s been tainted by Lucifer.” Me: “Will it help if I give you an extra penny, or one less?” Customer: “I don’t want it! The devil’s already marching through the stores.” Me: “Ma’am, it’s just six dollars and some change. If you want, you can buy a pack of gum and it’ll be a dollar less.” Customer: “That’s just Satan’s way of entering my body because I didn’t heed God’s word!” (The customer gets on her knees and begins to scream, cry, and pray. My manager comes up as I’m not able to check anyone else out. Everyone else has gone to another checkout because she’s frightened other customers.) Manager: “Ma’am

I Sometimes Ramble On And On... And This Is What Comes Out.
Your past is and has a huge impact on your future. The way you handle situations lead you on the journey you face. It molds you into the person you will eventually become. How you deal with the problems that come your way helps you and will in the end make you stronger or make you fall apart. and the biggest part of it all is that it all depends on one thing... YOU. Only you can take your challenges and use them to either learn from them or waste the experience. My mind races. They call it thinking. Sometimes I wish I could stop it from thinking. Most times I always think at the wrong times. Why can I never think before I speak? Why can't I at that very moment think about the consequences that will come from the words I sometimes say? Think about how it will affect the other person and how they will feel. They say everything happens for a reason. People come and go in and out of your life. You lose people you love. And yet through it all you live. You survive. If you truely did car

Weather
It has been almost a week since I posted a blog. Not sure if anyone is reading them or not but I have fun doing them. Well many people mother nature is giving us more than we can handle in the midwest. My heart goes out to all of the people there. We have been fortunate here in Ohio since we are only getting the thunderstorm but only one small tornado so far. If you can call any of them small. I have done disaster work for the Am Red Cross for over 10 years. I dd mainly hurricane relieve from San Juan to Miami to Pa. They are bad enough but people can get out of the way so lose of live is very small. Not so with a tornado, they just appear and give little to no warning. As we have seen in Alabama and Missouri and other place the lose of live is so high. People can recover from the lose of a house but the lost of love one take a tremendous total on a person and family. My prayers go out to them. Let me give you something to think about disaster. First you should have at least 2 week

Losing Our Rights
As Memorial Day nears I wonder what the brave soldiers who died fighting for our liberty might think about the fact that America, as they knew it, is being destroyed by its own government. One by one our liberties are being taken.In April 2011, Michigan Senator Proos of St. Joseph introduced SB 333, a bill requiring an instant background check be run on anyone purchasing over-the-counter cold medications containing ephedrine and pseudoephedrine. A State Police database will track names and sales. Taxpayers will pay...On May 19 State Representatives Lori and Meadows introduced HB 4662, a bill to make ephedrine and pseudoephedrine available by prescription only. Once again the rights of the majority are being taken because a few people violate.Indiana courts have ruled police may enter and search private homes without warrant or cause. The Patriot Act, currently up for renewal, allows searches of phone, financial records, library cards and homes without warrantsCalifornia has mandated sc

Please Add Rate And Fan Dj Rockinbunnydreamweaver My Fu-sis
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Deceit
The heart is deceitful. Wrapped in many different emotions, it looks as sweet as candy. It's eaten up, bit by bit. It beats faster with every moment we cherish. However, what if the beating is really the heart's way of saying, "no, not yet..." It repeats the words over and over. Unfortunately, there are times when noone listens. Struggling for air, it reaches for the mind for a little comfort. The mind wanders from place to place on it's own. Not listening, the heart screams when fingers come in and grab it. Crippled, the heart is blind. A good intention has turned into a dead memory. Heartbreak is often something unforgettable. Love is often so far way, but always remains within our grasp. The heart is deceitful...

Prisoner Of Love
just another random thought,sitting in the silenceof my disturbed thoughts,i refused to think about it;i closed my eyes,tried to shut it tight,carried everywhere by the wind,it seemed so real and so true;gazing deeply into the pool of water,i see my face staring back inamazement and in wonderat the emotions that i am overcome with;drawing me closer and closer,stirred by the depth of passion,torn between the life that isand the life that will be, i struggle;trying to find a solution,i try to claw my way out,i try to fight the feelingsand all the emotions i have been overcome with;sitting in the dark,thinking of you,wishing you were here,realizing i am a prisoner of love

The Important Things Of Life.
The truly important things of life however, are those which cannot be encountered by the physical senses, purchased with money, or placed on a shelf. Accept life daily not as a cup to be drained but as a chalice to be filled with whatsoever things are honest, pure, lovely, and of good report. Making a living is best undertaken as part of the more important business of making a life. Give the best you have received from the past to the best that you may come to know in the future. Every now and again take a good look at something not made with hands A mountain, a star, the turn of a stream. There will come to you wisdom and patience and solace, and about all, the assurance that you are not alone in the world. Meditate on the "intangibles" as you spend this time alone with God. Take a moment to stare out a window or sit in a garden, and undertake the important business of making a life. Oni Noquisi *aka* JD

Gratitude And Life
Everyday I have gratitude and celebrate Life. You will create Wealth through the everyday celebration of Self. Everyday from this day forward you will celebrate who you are by living your greatest life possible. This is not mere practice of affirmations or positive thinking. This is focused purpose and strategic action. What you are doing is sending a clear and conscious message to the Universe that you are here, in this moment, in this time, ready to give and receive. Trust Your Self. Through deep consultation with the Universal Mind by prayer and meditation, you will begin to trust your instincts, perform the actions that are in the best interest of All and operate on the highest level of integrity. The Creator did not "Breathe into" but "Breathed from within" therefore the Power of Universe is within you. When you begin to think from within, listening to the God within, you will have everything your heart desires. Love Your Self. Infinite Intelligence create circumstances that bro

Thoughts And Feelings.. Some Poetry I Wrote And Some I'm A Big Fan Of..
No uttered words the poet speaks,No skies of golden hue,No tales of unrequited love,They were lost when I lost you.No words to caress his lover's heart,And gone the dreams he swore they'd live,But alone within the poet dwells,No uttered words... none left to give.No music swells within his soul,Just silence surrounds his heart,And the solitude engulfs his world,When the poet and love depart. And lost the beauty he once could see,And the glory he saw each day,Now the poet pens his last farewell,No more love can he convey.But what's the poet's soul to do?To release the love he feels,For he'll surely die and wither,If that love he now conceals.He must hide the hurt and heartache,Just smile to friends and say,I'm fine... love doesn't matters,And deceive them all that way.For a different face he'll show them,To barricade his pain,To hide his shattered spirit,From the love he ne'er attained.But the pain within shall kill him,Not soon but through the years,For the poet knows his anguish,When

Mumm Deleation??
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Investigation Begins
So I joined FUBAR back in like 2008 or 2009.... Apparently sometime last night my account got deleted. I am hoping to research what happened. I may end up cutting my losses, but that would totally suck! I lost all my points, bling, gifts, friends and all that! I am very interested in seeing what happened! Any thoughts? xoxo, Trin

Anyone Left? Only Nothing Exist!
Alone isnt physically being by yourself. Alone is emotionally feeling there isnt anyone else left that gives a damn if you exist or not. Feeling that no one in the world has any feeling towards you at all. No love. No hate. No pity. No nothing. Alone is wondering if anyone is thinking about you. Alone is not knowing if you have friends or not. What are friends? Are you one? I guess if I was one then I would have some. Maybe I do but just unsure. Who is really who? How can I tell? Alone is thinking you are people's last resort. The spot before nothing, plan Z. If all else fails there is Greg, thought about after one has reached desperation. I represent a perception, which cant be trusted and trust is needed for one to willingly be apart of another's life. So where does that leave me? Leaves me here. Empty. By myself and still alone. No one calling. No one texting. No one speaking. No one thinking. All with no need of me. Alone. Guess I get what I asked for,

My Inspiration
My inspiration was never really there. My inspiration, noone ever cared. My inspiration I thought would never come. My inspiration, I just needed some. My inspiration talked to me one night. My inspiration showed me new light. My inspiration, so genuine and true. My inspiration is you.

Captchas
I know hate is a strong word. So let me remind you of the true meaning: to dislike intensely or passionately; feel extreme aversion for or extreme hostility toward; detest. That pretty much sums up how I feel about CAPTCHAS. If you are not sure what a captcha is, it’s those annoying mixed up letters and numbers you have to type to prove you are a god damn human being. On fubar, known as "Security". I understand they serve a purpose to protect society, but seriously when it takes me more than one try to read the gobbled shit that is typed, where the letters are slanted, mashed together and blurry it’s very frustrating, given the fact that I have trouble seeing as it is (wears tirfocals) and when I end up going through 3 captchas before getting one right, it goes up my butt a mile. So now I have formed a hatred for them. Do you share my hatred?

To Soldiers
&& I know this is just a quote , but I just wanted to show my appreciation to all the soldiers out there still fighting , to all the soldiers who risked their lives for us , to all the soldiers who are lucky enough to come home on Monday to spend time with their family . You all will be remembered forever . Thank you so so much for serving our country .

Winner #7
ok this guy is a serial come on artist.... he's copying and pasting the same shit to random girls.... WE ALL KNOW EACHOTHER IDIOTS! poppaburgandy: You are so Hot I think if you told me cum was good for the skin, I would jack off in my hand and give myself a facial with it!! To poppaburgandy: so you got my friend with the same line earlier... just copy and paste and hope someone likes it?

The Joke Is On You - 217
Did anyone ever tell you, it won't matter what you do. Just what you feel and gain, most of us are really insane. Life includes hash beef corn, even the sweetest rose has a thorn. A lot of people never knew at all, the pain is there even if you don't fall. On the bible I've even seen you swear, why won't anyone even care? Are you afraid of the bed you made, what do you feel when the lights start to fade. The joke is on you, it always has been, you lost n the beginning, you'll never win.

Tens And Twos
Contrary to this post's title, the subject is not about Fubar's rating system. Fubar members have had a long-standing unwritten rule about always rating member profiles and photos a 10 or 11. (Officially, you may rate anything any number you want, but expect some pushback from members who like to get unreasonably upset and overreact if you hand them a 9.) This post is actually about people getting together -- who tends to attract whom, and how I use this theory to prevent myself from getting scammed. We already have this rating system in our minds: the most attractive and desirable of us get higher numbers on the scale, as referenced by such phrases as "she's a dime" or "he's a perfect 10." Those of us not blessed with supermodel looks fall closer to the lower end of the spectrum and are called "zeroes" or other unflattering terms. Be aware that, like every other rating system that is not governed by standards, these are all subjective; these are opinions with no factual basis. Howev

Day 3 - Whatever (the Final 10)
A Song That You Can Play On An Instrument - Day 26: The Glamorous Life by Shelie E Before Fergie there was Shelia E, and this song was probably her biggest hit back in the day. She being one of many female performers that got fame because of Prince. This song i use to be able to play on keyboard. My mom showed me, probably the only song she could do too. It's a good song. http://youtu.be/XeJLZi0uyJw A Song That Reminds You Of A Certain Event - Day 07: The Mortal Kombat Theme Song Ok I dont have events in my life. So couldn't think of any song for this day. Why not go with Mortal Kombat. When you hear this song you know what's about to happen. Someone is about to die. Mortal Kombat is huge in my childhood and continues today. Loving the new game, everyone go get it. You wont beat me though. The First movie was great. Second was alright and the new internet stream series they have is awesome. Love MK. http://youtu.be/EAwWPadFsOA A Song That No

How John Wayne Saved The Ussmc
THO' HE NEVER SERVED IN UNIFORM, HE DID A HELL OF A JOB FOR OUR ARMED FORCES' MORALE AND NATIONAL PRIDE HOW JOHN WAYNE SAVED THE MARINES (GOD BLESS HIM!) Today is John Wayne’s 104th birthday. He was born on May 26, 1907 in Winterset, Iowa, as Marion Morrison, weighing 13 pounds. His birthplace is a museum. There is a guest book, opened to a page with the entry, in the entrant’s handwriting, Name: Ronald Reagan. Address: 1600 Pennsylvania Ave., Washington DC. To celebrate the birthday of a truly great American, let me tell you how John Wayne saved the Marine Corps. In theaftermath of World War II, the psychological letdown after years of war and bloodshed, the huge demobilization of servicemen, the desire to slash military spending, and the antipathy towards the military by left-wingers in the Democrat Party all combined in a call by a number of Senators and Congressmen to abolish the Marine Corps. In this, they were supported by the Doolittle Boar

Information Please
INFORMATION PLEASE When I was quite young, my father had one of the first telephones in our neighborhood. I remember well the polished old case fastened to the wall. The shiny receiver hung on the side of the box. I was too little to reach the telephone, but used to listen with fascination when my mother used to talk to it.Then I discovered that somewhere inside the wonderful device lived an amazing person -- her name was "Information Please" and there was nothing she did not know. "Information Please" could supply anybody's number and the correct time.My first personal experience with this genie-in-the-bottle came one day while my mother was visiting a neighbor. Amusing myself at the tool bench in the basement, I whacked my finger with a hammer.The pain was terrible, but there didn't seem to be any reason in crying because there was no one home to give sympathy. I walked around the house sucking my throbbing finger, finally arriving at the stairway.The telepho

Idk If It's The New Meds, But I Feel Like I Am In A Dark Place All The Time And I Am Afraid To Come Out. :(
So life has taken a turn for the worse for me. Recently I have just been totally lonely. I mean I have friends. But only if I do the driving, pay for the gas, buy the booze and smokes, and do what they want. So I guess I am getting used, but hey, I am acustomed to it thanks to all the abuse the so many have dropped on me. There is supposed to be somone special in my life, but recently she is not around much (do to circumstances beyond my control) and when she is, she usually gets mad at me. So I have been failing horribly there also. I am stuck here in my grandmother's home, which though I am greatful having a place to live, has destroyed much of my self confidence, my faith in myself, my happy go lucky and cheerful spirit. My Life is just miserable here. And personally the sight of seeing her trashed every signle night after she downs like 8 manhattens just really makes me feel bad. I mean, I drink and do some stuff on my Friday's and Saturday nights, but she does it EVERY DAY at 5

Avoirdupois
avoirdupois \av-uhr-duh-POIZ; AV-uhr-duh-poiz\noun; 1. Avoirdupois weight, a system of weights based on a pound containing 16 ounces or 7,000 grains (453.59 grams). 2. Weight; heaviness; as, a person of much avoirdupois.

Somewhere Between Heaven And Hell
So last night in the back woods of the blackest forests, past the swamps, past the gators nest and past the pelican nest...right when you think you have gone to far, there it was. A little wooden church. One that looked like it had seen the tests of man kind. So beautiful. Like a dream, standing in a silhoutte of light. As i got closer i began to see all the little forest creatures gather around me as i walked up. The aromua of such sweet herbs began to engulf me. From the angelica root, the basil, the ginger to the sweetness of the blackberry bush growing around. As i walked threw the door i heard what sounded like angels singing. But it was the preacher praising the sermon he was teaching. As i sat there and listened to what he had to say. I got the feeling of enlightment taking over my body. As i looked down at myself sitting there i wondered if i ever had to go back to my body. For it was the feeling that i didnt want to ever lose.

Leitmotif
leitmotif \LYT-moh-teef\noun; 1. In music drama, a marked melodic phrase or short passage which always accompanies the reappearance of a certain person, situation, abstract idea, or allusion in the course of the play; a sort of musical label. 2. A dominant and recurring theme.

The Value Of A Buck....
So I get that Fubar is a "social networking site" of sorts. The difference between this and Facebook is that you generally don't know more than a handful of people before you get on here and you can't show your tits on Facebook. Now the guy running this site is probably a great guy...he's no Zukerburg, but he's doing ok for himself. But I want to talk about what this site's REALLY about...and that's perception. I am a "hold it in my hand" kinda guy. I like to buy things...I don't have a ton of extra cash laying around...but I still keep up with the latest electronics....for instance I just bought a Kindle. For those of you "out of the loop" that's a device that allows you to READ BOOKS...electronically...you can take them with you anywhere. It cost me just over $100, but now I can take my electronic library of books anywhere I want to go. For that SAME $100 I could buy a "God Mode" on here...roughly 24 hours of "abilities" and whatnot. At the end of that 24 hours...what do I h

Help
When lost what does one do? One reaches out their hand. But at the other end of that hand what is it? What is the ultimate reason for what is at the end of that extended hand? Do you know? Do i know? Do you want to know? I dont think I do.....

Let Down
lately i feel like im letting everyone down. i try to help all my friends but it seems like its never enough.i try to do for them but i fail alwaysthe one day i needed to talk to someone it didnt happen WHAT A SHOCK im goin through emotional stuff thats been bothering me for a long time since i dont do much anymore i sit here and think more than i ever did.i have things in my past that bothers me to death from over 5 years ago other stuff is as late as of last night.Im goin through sooo much now its not funny at this point and time this might be my last blog i might just cut my wrists and get it over with.

Facebook Nazi
I'm a Facebook Nazi. I'll be the first to admit it and the last to deny it. Some of my older friends will remember when Facebook started really getting popular, and how I refused to get it at all. When I did finally succumb to it, I made an account under a fake name, using my friend-at-the-time's last name to keep my privacy intact (an act that caused infinite ridicule amongst my peers). I later deleted that account. It was only afterwards, when my boss at a job I REALLY, REALLY wanted informed me that he contacted his employees through Facebook, that I made a new profile, as a matter of professional reliability. Since then, I've been much happier with my Facebook experience. This is due to the fact that I've since made some "filters" with my friends’ list, which I have to say is definitely for the better. Filtering out the few little things regarding content, habits and messages that make me enraged to the point that I literally start to convulse and beat my

A Quiet Ride In The Night
Up above me I can hear maniacal laughter. Screams accompany that laugh, and before I even finish climbing the stairs, a body drained of blood, and looking like a dried husk of a person, tumbles down at my feet. I pass right through it as I climb, not stopping its progress to the landing below. Reaching the platform, I see a man, laying on the platform. He is on his back. His breathing is coming in short rasps. Judging by the wound, hes been bitten. I open his eyes and I can see the touch of gold around the edges. He doesn't have a lot of time. Standing up, I suddenly feel dizzy. The mans body is pulled away from me by some unseen force, and disappears down the stairs. A blood geyser comes up and rains down on the concrete, my eyes seem to follow the path of each drop. Slowly they fall and making a sickly pitter- patter as the blood drops land. Rising up the stairs to greet me is a large dark figure. Tall impossibly tall with hands outstretched in greeting. Perfectly preened and almost

The World Is Tired Of This Cycle
Tough luck huh? I feel I try to give the best of me but it never gets appreciated, better yet it never gets noticed at all. Overshadowed by what is perceived. Which always brings a request for me to show more of what I say I feel. I thought I do. I thought I did. Then I guess its alright just more is wanted. Not on the same stage but one that is bigger. Not bigger to me, to me its a stage that's just fake. Well, ok here goes. With sincere intentions, words, and gestures I give in and throw myself in the light. SHOWTIME! Doesn't take long and the feelings express my way becomes sorrow. Guess I did it wrong. There is no complain from me when things arent done. I believe in what was said all along. This seems to repeat and I'm lft wondering what else can I do. Maybe they can create what you need in some factory where you wont need me. As it seems i'm not enough to please what needs to be pleased. So I sigh.

Artichokes Help An Ailing Liver
Artichokes Help an Ailing LiverWhen it comes to choosing a vegetable, discover why there may not be any better than the artichoke for your liver’s health.by Nicole Cutler, L.Ac.The prevalence of chronic liver disease is staggering. Affecting an increasing number of Americans, many with chronic liver disease cannot be cured by modern medicine. Instead, they must incorporate liver-focused lifestyle changes into their everyday routine to protect their liver from further damage. Diet and exercise regimens typically top the list of essential liver wellness practices. Eating meals abundant in vegetables tops most health-oriented nutrition programs. However, few veggies are as potent as the artichoke in helping an ailing liver.Historically, American physicians rarely promote the medicinal value of vegetables with their patients. On the other hand, European doctors have been prescribing artichoke extracts to those with liver problems since the eighteenth century. Besides the

Getting To Know You
1.)Q. Can you cook? 2.)Q. What was your dream growing up? 3.)Q. What talent do you wish you had? 4.)Q. If I bought you a drink what would it be? 5.)Q. Favorite vegetable? 6.)Q. What was the last book you read? 7.)Q. What zodiac sign are you ? 8.)Q. Any Tattoos and/or Piercings? 9.)Q. Worst Habit? 10.)Q. If you saw me walking down the street would you offer me a ride? 11.)Q. What is your favorite sport? 12.)Q. Negative or Optimistic attitude?13.)Q. What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me? 14.)Q. Worst thing to ever happen to you? 15.)Q. Tell me one weird fact about you: 16.)Q. Do you have any pets? 17.)Q. What if I showed up at your house unexpectedly? 18.)Q. What was your first impression of me? 19.)Q. Do you think clowns are scary? 20.)Q. If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be??? 21.)Q. Would you be my crime partner or my conscience? 22.)Q. What color eyes do you have? 23.)Q. Ever been arrested? 24.)Q. Bottle or Draft? 25.)Q. If you won $

A Way Of Life
If you Agree to the Terms as a Fu-Kitteh OR a FU-Kittek Tamer Please Comment to the Blog Below saying you have read it! FU-Kitteh Creed of Ethics We as Fu-Kittehs will not side step Class for anything We will not lower ourselves to petty Kitty Fights We will always stand beside our Tamer who chooses us Our Kitteh Mate ( our tamers secondary) will have our back as I will hers We Do not judge or ignore any new Kittehs. We will always Remain a family. Any bickering among the Kitteh Klan will be settled by our QUEEN! And the King tamer has Final say! There is no room for rumors or drama in our family. And first and lastly to The Kingdom we are faithful.

The Dream
The Dream When rain trickles And the winds blow While candles flicker And tree limbs bow I dream of you And of our bond The memories of us Have grown so fond I lie awake In darkness cloaked The picture I see My mind invoked I see your face Those entrancing eyes The beautiful lips That tell no lies I hear your voice The song it sings The words it speaks The thoughts it brings I feel your touch Your soft skin near The gentle embrace That calms my fear I smell your fragrance Your personal potion The strong aroma From a body in motion I feel your love Your soul's tenderness The warm affection That you express I fall to sleep Your picture I hold What dreams may come As each day unfolds Melissa Lay October 1, 1998

Red Ribbon, Asshole ;p
ASS in the SKY it's the GoodYear blimp :P DJ Choppercat — 09:59 AM btw, after a anti-viral holiday in 2006 interrupting all hiv meds taken since 1998 with docs supervision and care from UCSF I lagged in past few years making my deductible on my limited income and missed some annual 'bloodletting' to check my stats.. and suddenly last month, my rectum deflated in agony with a hemmoroid size of GODZILLA a symptom beyond called rectal thrombosis and my feet are 'speckled and spotted' .. a biopsy is in progress and likely culprit is KS lesions doc says new cocktail practically eliminated this hiv-related symptoms and can induce full remission. I have no general objection to my meds or adherance now that the Rx has been prescribed. Just started cocktail therapy two days ago. Feeling abit like a re-tread and worn set of GOODYEARS tires blowing out on the torched and blazing freeway during a heatwave, racing a chevy NOVA muscle car from the

Alcohol..... Yeaaaaaa....
Dear Alcohol, First and foremost, let me tell you that I'm a huge fan of yours. As my friend, you always seem to be there when needed. The perfect post-work cocktail, a beer at the game, and you're even around the holidays, hidden inside chocolates as you warm us when we're stuck in the midst of endless family gatherings. However, lately I've been wondering about your intentions. While I want to believe that you have my best interests at heart, I feel that your influence has led to some unwise consequences: 1. Phone calls: While I agree with you that communication is important, I question the suggestion that any conversation of substance or necessity takes place after 2 a.m . Why would you make me call those ex-boyfriends/girlfriends when I know for a fact they do not want to hear from me during the day, let alone all hours of the night? 2. Eating: Now, you know I love a good meal, but why do you suggest that I eat a taco with chili sauce, along with a big Italian meatball

Men & Women Parts
Why is it that when someone sends you a message in your shout box the first question is something to do with seeing you naked..Now im not placing the blame on either sex cause i think both are equally as quilty..but damm.. What the fuck is the the big dam deal? Dont all tits n cock basically look alike? (yes there are different sizes n shapes and in some cases color) But damm do you really got to act like you never seen either one before.. Some ppl wonder why noone will talk to them or why they alone..Umm HELLOOOO...

Stupid Laws
Stupid Laws It's legal for couples to have sex in a parked vehicle during their lunch break from work, as long as the car or van has drawn curtains to stop strangers from peeking in New Mexico. In Canada, It is illegal for a teen to walk down main street for Fort Qu'Appelle with their shoes untied. In Canada, It is illegal to leave your horse in front of the Country Squire without hitching it securely to the hitching post. In Alabama, it is illegal for a driver to be blindfolded while operating a vehicle. In Norfolk, Virginia, a woman can't go out without wearing a corset. (There was a civil-service job- for men only- called a corset inspector.) In Connecticut, You can be stopped by the police for biking over 65 miles per hour. It is unlawful to lend your vacuum cleaner to your next-door neighbor in Denver. In Woodstock, NY it is illegal to walk your bear on the street without a leash. In Merryville, Missouri, women are prohibited from wearing corsets because "the privilege

Feel With Your Heart......
little faces...big wide grins, hearts so pure and true what greater joy can exist then a child smiling up at you little fingers reaching out, just to hold Your hand the world to them so very big, as they stumble in the sand children are the greatest gift, for them the world is new through the eyes of a child, you can see, your life in front of you every moment, You have known, through a child becomes reborn keep them safe and watch them close, or else your soul will morn in the heart of every child, you can hear the angels sing their loving laughter flowing free, can heal most everything save the children...... always and forever.......... wynd please listen to this song and then go hug a child in Y/your life and let them know how very very much they are loved...... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NjduQNo65LQ

Not My Friend
Help me breathe,Help me believe,You seem really glad that I am sad.You are not my friend,I cannot pretend that you are.You made it sting,Your voice is ringing,Just like the boyswho laughed at me in school.You are not my friend,I cannot pretend anymore.You found a place,No one should ever go.I'll be ok,'cause when I back away,I'm gonna keepthe handle of your gun in sight. ____By Norah Jones

A Friend I Served With Sent Me This Forward...gotta Read This
As I came out of the supermarket that sunny day, pushing my cart of groceries towards my car, I saw an old man with the hood of his car up and a lady sitting inside the car, with the door open. The old man was looking at the engine. I put my groceries away in my car, and continued to watch the old gentleman from about twenty five feet away. I saw a young man in his early twenties with a grocery bag in his arm walking towards the old man. The old gentleman saw him coming too, and took a few steps towards him. I saw the old gentleman point to his open hood and say something. The young man put his grocery bag into what looked like a brand new Cadillac Escalade. He then turned back to the old man. I heard him yell at the old gentleman saying: 'You shouldn't even be allowed to drive a car at your age.' And then with a wave of his hand, he got in his car and peeled rubber out of the parking lot. I saw the old gentleman pull out his handkerchief, and mop his brow as he went bac

Picture Puzzle Piece
Picture Puzzle Piece by Shel Silverstein (1932-1999) One picture puzzle piece Lyin' on the sidewalk, One picture puzzle piece Soakin' in the rain. It might be a button of blue On the coat of the woman Who lived in a shoe. It might be a magical bean, Or a fold in the red Velvet robe of a queen. It might be the one little bite Of the apple her stepmother Gave to Snow White. It might be the veil of a bride Or a bottle with some evil genie inside. It might be a small tuft of hair On the big bouncy belly Of Bobo the Bear. It might be a bit of the cloak Of the Witch of the West As she melted to smoke. It might be a shadowy trace Of a tear that runs down an angel's face. Nothing has more possibilities Than one old wet picture puzzle piece

Losing Love!
Sit's here, Lost, Watching the clock, Slipping & Sliding, Slowly through the day. Why doe's it feel I lost you, Left to bathe in dust & rust, I'd pull apart everrything, Just to re-grain your trust. So very distant you seem, My mind lost in dreams, Waiting on the day, That gentle whisper to say. I want you by my side. No matter the strentgh of tide, Sun shining on your soul. Your radiance showing true. I know your an angel. A lot of things to do, Wings enfolded like an origami swan, Waiting to take flight, over oceans clear & blue. Know I am here. thinking of you, Cursing the oceans & blue, I cannot help but feel, Lost distraught & upset, For that one I know, I Pray, She enjoy's her day, Warmth be in her soul, Rainbow colours envelop you, Always in my heart, thinking of you!

My Son My Heart
A LITTLE BACKGROUND ON THIS POEM I WROTE IT BACK IN DEC OF 08 I HAD NO MONEY FOR HIS BDAY OR CHRISTMAS GIFT SO i WROTE THIS PRINTED IT AND FRAMED IT WRAPPED AND PUT IT UNDER THE TREE AT THE TIME HE WAS JUST TURNING 15 HE SAYS IT WAS THE BEST GIFT HE RECIEVED I ALWAYS TELL HIM THE DAY HE WAS BORN WAS THE BEST GIFT HE HAS EVER GIVEN ME My Son My Heart My son is my life The joy in my heart The love that he shows Never goes without We have survived on our own The best we ever could We depended on each other Thru the good and the bad I can never imagine My life without him

Your Touch
Your Touch I feel your touchIt makes me tingleYou feel your wayI hear a jingleYou make me screamAnd yell I want moreTo feel your touchits just too muchYou move your way down my bodyyour lips on mineyour tongue goes crazymaking me feel the sensation buildingI want it to go onforever and everbut I can't handle the building pressureWhen you moveto join with meYou thrust it inwe jump from the feelingThe power of itis so very strongIt just keeps going and goingWe start to slowThe cumming of the tideWe than collapsethe time elapsesOur breathing is strongwe lay in each others armsand listen to the hum of our song

Brokenheart
“Yes I love him. I love him more than anything else in this world and there is nothing that I would like better than to hold on to him forever. But I know it's not for the best. So no matter how much my heart is going to break, I've got to let him go so he can know just how much I love him. Maybe if I'm lucky, he'll come back, but if not, I can make it through this.”

I Want You To Know.....
In life there are some things that come Some things that goes Age, endurance, health Will all one day be gone What life brings to certain people No one will know For each is different, and to each his own It could be wealth because you became a lawyer Maybe a baby for you to be a father or mother I can only say for me that I’ve been truly bless The hand of cards that was dealt to me Is a pretty good hand I’ve been able to say that I know what true love feels like To have really great friends to the very end But I was missing one thing in my life You just so happen to be it God has a funny sense of humor I can sure tell u that Couldn’t have made it easier for me Considering how we met I guess all that doesn’t matter maybe that’s the point What we are suppose to take and grow from each other Doesn’t have to be from side by side You were meant for me as I believe I was meant for you To have what we have cant surely be a fluk

#1 Criminal Minds
I have only watched the first few episodes of this show, but on more than one occasion the "B.A.U Team" has been referred to. This would stand for the "Behavioural Analysis Unit Team" and it grates on me that they would feel the need to say "unit" and "team". Stupid.

So...
Ok, so here's the deal, for some reason I am totally bored outta my mind tonight. I tried to watch a movie, but couldn't pay attention. chat with people, but surly the chat dies down. rate like and comment, yup all bombed out, and ultimately I'm still bored. so now comes the fun part. Im going to ramble on about who knows what amd see if anybody reads this. If you do read it, ;eave a comment, simple as that. So here it goes... There once was a l00 who lived is a chaotic land known as fubar. In this land purple dragons RAN, and Green dolphins flew. l00 was neither a human nor an animal. In fact sadly she had no idea what she was, nor why she lived in such a place. There where golden ponies, and feathered frogs, why you ask, she had no clue. Day after day she pondered this place, and day after day it overwhelmed her head. In this chaotic land, all the creatures could talk, all except for poor little l00, for who ever created her, didn't grant her a voice. She hopped along Happy as can

Song Of The Day
I love the original of this song by Adele. I mean, it's Adele. What's not to love? However, this accapella version by John Legend...unf. It's been on repeat for days now. John Legend - Rolling in the Deep (Adele Cover) by johnlegend

Muuuuuccchhhhh Better
Yes, I did walk 3.3 miles..not real fast cause it was hot as balls...but I did it. Also saw my tattoo guy..gettin new ink July 1st!! So...for a day that started off with me being a crabby/sad lump, I thnk it went well So, to those of you who motivated me...I thank you.

Why???......
Why...?... Why is it that i can't find that right one?The one that wants to settle down..the one that wants to be true...why is it no1 my age is looking to get their life on track...what is so special about going to clubs...why do they feel drinking is fun...why can't they understand that some people have more important priorities...why is it our generation is sitting back watching their life’s slowly go down the drain...do they like the stereotype that we have... do they like being called slackers...do they like that everyone thinks we don't care about our futures...is it too much to ask for someone who cares...is it too hard to understand that i am not looking for the whole dating bs...and that i am sick and tired of all the high school drama...Damn i am just sick and tired of drama in general...i would love it if drama could be kept out of my life...will it ever happen...who knows... but then again who cares enough to read this right.

[33 Innings Pitched]
Fact: Wii baseball cheats. Let's see.. the other night I fed my father bon bon pork- he liked it, would eat it again *pauses to change channel rapidly from Robot Chicken* anyway I've got a potential... thing Think ... nightwatch meets sleepover. I heard something like $20.00 a night... So less than minimum wage and GOD WILLING nothing at all to do. Meaning there's actually a potential for catastrophe. HURRAY!!! and it is overnight I heard something like 10:00-7:00. The more I think about this "job" the less enthusiastic I can find myself. But its another one of those "networking opportunities" where... If I don't take this seriously I may piss someone off and burn a bridge. I think I'm expected to sleep there because the phrase "well there's no spare bedroom, but **** does have new furniture" ............. ? Why the hell was that even an issue? Even if you expect me to just... be present in a stranger's house overnight, I'm not gonn

Janey Godley’s Podcast Episode 48
(Please be aware that this Podcast Contains strong language) In episode 48 of Janey Godley’s podcast the mother and daughter discuss Nicole from Pussy Cat Dolls sexual dances, gay rape on Hollyoaks and the death of Zippy from Rainbow. We are celebrating John Lees who has been nominated for awards regarding comic books. The BBC programme Poor Kids gets debated and Janey spits anger about the fascist comments. Al Murray does the celebrity question and Sapphire and Brimstone get a new episode idea. The Bold Alec does a wee shout out and Wayne Rooney’s voice makes us all laugh as Ashley goes full flight on both him and Cheryl Cole’s concept album which is sung at full pelt. Mother and Daughter comedy team get to natter and the world gets to hear it on Janey Godley’s podcasts, expect some bawdy language and home truths, as Janey Godley and Ashley Storrie lead you down the roads less taken in their fantastic weekly podcast. Listen as mother and daugh

A Lil Confused...
So I was wondering,how does one know if a man likes her and would like ta date her ?Sometimes I think we r dating and neither one of us know it? We have been talking and doing "other" things for about 4 and a half months now... but when we talk,we talk for hrs, and we can sit and talk about anything and everything...and omg he really listen to what I have to say.. wierd ik... hes so great, he is so kind hearted... hes never cold hearted to me... even if hes n a bad mood ..it changes fast when we are together.. he makes me excited to b n the same room with him.. my heart jumps when he stares at me.. Im not use to all this sweet kindness... Now I our lil arragment started out as a rebound thing but I think I am truly fallin for him.. Im wanting lose wieght to look pretty again(pretty for him and healthy for me of course) I want to tell him about my day..when he holds me(omg!) i feel so safe.. like he wont let no one hurt me ..I am getting divorce from a real jackass, so comeing from s

Nothing Of Great Importance
First blog ever. I have been on fu for several years now, and have met some interesting people(good and bad). Most good. generally the only reason I am on fu is because it is a quiet easy time-killer when I have too much time on my hands. I have read quite a few blogs and Mumms ( prior to this place I did not know what a Mumm was), quite a few of them have been really well written, quite a few of them have been the most intelligent rant and rages that I have heard in years. Some are inflammatory and meant to be so. there are silly ones, insane ones. NSFW ones, and a blog about most anyhting you have ever heard or thought. its nice to see that so many people have the ability to put their thought, worries, beliefs into a written form to share. definitely one of the good things about fubar Frank

This Is Something Specil To My Daughter Alisha R.i.p 24.12.2008
My daughter was something wounderfull to me tho i know she never even made aday in life something hurts deep inside my heart and that is my ex. she killed alisha for a laff and that hurt me alot and knowing that was a human being inside it hurt more tho she was born but sadly died later that night on 24/12/2008 at 3:30am I did try my best to keep her alive but she was in to much pain the doctors recomended to turn the life suport of i refused i was at her side telling her i love her be strong daddys here I'm never letting you go - but after 8 attempts the doctors asured me that it was the best thing to do i said to them can i turn it off they said yes but b4 i did i kissed her on the forhead and told her that dont be afraid heaven is a good place it's safe daddy be there soon i promise then i turned the life surport of worse moment of my life my ex was escorted out of the hosp by the police sometimes i wounder why didn't they do anything in 2009 i overdosed my self on drugs and tab

Clarifacation
I deal with fu and the people i meet here like i would in real life, because ultimatly, that is my goal. To have a group of friends i can turn to for one reason or another, and be able to have them turn to me in real life. Fubar is an extention of our reality, it is an escape and something to do to pass the time for most of us, but something happens when you come to a place repeatedly, and you start to interact with people. you get to know them, may not be much, may be a lie, but you start to learn things about them and from them as they do you. then the worst thing in the world happens, you grow a bond, for some its stonger than others, and those bonds get tested. they either break or they strengthen. I try to give everyone the same field and let them shape the geography of it, i try to be respectful and good to everyone, those i like become friends, those i really like become top friends, and those who are important enough become family. i obviously have been way to caring and way to

Lie's....acceptance...and Change....
I've often wondered how us as humans can hurt eachother in so many ways.....I think betrayal is the worst, when a loved one cheats on you, then lie's to you about it. It makes it so hard to trust another person.You yearn for that touch, and that kiss, and arms to hold you tight....but your body is pushing back,because your so afraid to get close....your emotions are in such turmoil you just want to scream...You want so bad to have that acceptance of eachother that your bodies had for one another....just to feel them become one again.....and work as one....knowing what each others needs are without saying a word.....True acceptance of eachother is the most crucial thing in a relationship....along comes truth and honesty....communication....for without these simple little steps you can never have the real bond God created for us in a real relationship.....and without those you will never feel the ultimate high of that closeness he intended for us to have.And so I say....with this....afte

True Romance.
Holding your hand feels quite natural. Glad you didn't run off when I forgot to kiss. I'll see if I can do a little better next time. Nowhere to go but up. Found our way to a park bench, but I couldn't take my eyes off you long enough to notice anything about the park. Our talk is warm and pleasant, then that first real kiss... lightning strikes, sending chills down my spine. It was perfect. Soft and tender, but so much passion! I'm unable to take my eyes off your face. Yes, part of the look in your eyes tells me your mine, but there's something beyond that. You look better and better as your smile grows. Your laughter is music to my ears. Many, many more kisses follow. The look in your eyes is more than enough to deal with, but you're absolutely glowing as I touch your face again and again, memorizing it through touch as if my sight would soon fail. My eyes say it all... I love you. I'm yours. my voice softens as I tell you the beauty I see, both inside and out...beauty I see with my

Wanting To Trust And Believe Again......
The world is so fake now...so full of people wanting material things instead of enjoying what this world has to offer. To be able to be with your loved one and just lay on the grass and feel the coolness under you..and smell the earth as you lay hand in hand as you look up and watch the clouds above are some of the most wonderful moments life can give you. Time move's so fast and it slips away even faster. To be able to enjoy these with someone, is it just a fantasy anymore? I pray it's not. Not to long ago someone sent me a song that had some words in the verses like the one's I'm speaking. He wishes the same thing of me...so I ask myself? will I be able to do this for him? can I trust enough? can I practice what I dream? It's hard to trust enough again to let yourself just enjoy the simplest of things with someone new....for usually those are the most cherished

Life.
Life is so interesting.I have seen and brought life into this world. I have also seen many of my loved one's die. As in seeing life for the first time, coming into this Big World of our's, We alway's come kicking and screaming. As in Death we do the same. Life is so precious, as dying so perminent. Believe when I say I know how deep this is. But "God" and having faith in what his plan for us is, is what must keep us going. Marriage, frienship's, beginning anew, children are all gift's God has given to us to enjoy and cherish. So why would anyone ever want to throw that away?

Which One Are We Again?
cap·i·tal·ism noun an economic system in which investment in and ownership of themeans of production, distribution, and exchange of wealth ismade and maintained chiefly by private individuals orcorporations, especially as contrasted to cooperatively or state-owned means of wealth. com·mu·nism noun 1. a theory or system of social organization based on theholding of all property in common, actual ownership beingascribed to the community as a whole or to the state. 2. ( often initial capital letter ) a system of social organization

My Daugher
my daughter has a brain tumor and has to have brain surgery next week. FML so a bunch of people have been asking what's going on so I figured I'd post a blog post and fill you in. My daughter had my grandbaby a month ago. Eva is a beautiful baby but was born with some birth defects. She had her first of 2 surgeries Monday and althought the poor thing has 9 staples in her back, it was successful and she's recovering nicely. Her birth defects are very serious and so scary. Monday, the day of my grandbaby's surgery, my daughter had a horrible migrane. After bitching at her for 3 days... 5 days later she went to the er. They found a growth deep in her brain by the veins that control the blood flow to her brain. The mass is swelling and causing retention of fluids in her brain which was causing the migranes. Fast forward 10 hours, she's at University Hospital in cleveland in Neuro ICU and is going to have major brain surgery next week. I keep reminding myself to be strong. That th

My Love
My love is like an oceanIt goes down so deepMy love is like a roseWhose beauty you want to keep.My love is like a riverThat will never endMy love is like a doveWith a beautiful message to send.My love is like a songThat goes on and on foreverMy love is like a prisonerIt's to you that I surrender.

Sunday Morning
Picture it: rural area, Sunday morning, church is packed and the devil decides to pay a visit. The doors burst open, and a roiling black cloud rolls in with the devil in its midst. People jump out of the pews and run outdoors, screaming - all except for two. One is the Pastor, the other is an elderly farmer. Satan is a bit perplexed. He points to the Pastor and says, "You! I can understand why you didn't run away, you are in your Lord's house, you preach against me everyday and you aren't afraid of me. But YOU (points to the farmer), why didn't you run out scared like everyone else?" The farmer crosses one leg over the other and drawls, "Why, I'm surprised you don't recognize me...I've been married to your sister for 36 years!"

Adult Truths
** Adult Truths *** 1. I think part of a best friend's job should be to immediately clear your computer history if you die. 2. Nothing sucks more than that moment during an argument when you realize you're wrong. 3. I totally take back all those times I didn't want to nap when I was younger. 4. There is great need for a sarcasm font. 5. How the hell are you supposed to fold a fitted sheet? 6. Was learning cursive really necessary? 7. Map Quest really needs to start their directions on # 5. I'm pretty sure I know how to get out of my own neighborhood. 8. Obituaries would be a lot more interesting if they told you how the person died. 9. I can't remember the last time I wasn't at least kind of tired. 10. Bad decisions make good stories. 11. You never know when it will strike, but there comes a moment at work when you know that you just aren't going to do anything productive for the rest of the day. 12. Can we all just agree to ignore whatev

Fu-owned Auction 18
Want to own your own pair of boobies? Now's your chance to bid on me!!!! It's easy peazy =) Bids 1mill-5mill:rate pics, stash, buy gifts of choice 2-3x or more per week Bids OVER 5mill:same as above, but will add to top friends, give yahoo messenger, SFW salute, owned by in my name CASH BIDS:(incl. fubucks, and VIP, bling packs, etc)rate pics, stash, comments, bling owner (if given Bling Pack), top friends, yahoo messenger, top family, owned by in my name, 1 SFW salute, 1 NSFW salute, Pimpout every day for 30 days IF I get a VIP I’ll rate you 11s!!! Also the person with the highest bid, will get to fu-own me! How easy is that??? click below :) Brought to you by: TwåunεVålêntïnô™ Fu-Owned Auction™ 18 "3 Year Anniversary" (running from Sunday, June 12th - Saturday, June 18th"!!!! bully posted by: Boobalicious aka Shiny Eyed DoLL@ fubar

Funny How Everyone Feels This Way At Some Point
This is for the Broken Hearted.......I know how you feel....Empty, Btrayed and no Happiness what so ever. You dont want to laugh cause you know its not going to help, But you dont want to cry, Because you know it will make you feel worse. You feel Like your Heart is falling apart, But Not only that, You know soon your life is going to feel like its falling apart too. You dont think it will ever end, and no matter what this person has done to you, it feels impossible to stop loving them. And everyone wonders, why if they hurt you, do you still love them so much. Thats the confusing part, You dont know why, You just do. " The Person who has the best capacity to make you the happiest, May give you the worst heartache you can imagine." YOU were the BEST and WORST thing for ME. And then after a few weeks you feel a sense of relief, Like your getting happy again, But you know inside your just going into denial. I keep telling myself that i dont miss you, I dont love you, May

Our Concert Promotional Video
It's been more than 2 months..Yes, more than 2 months and I've been searching for people to help me on our promotional video since then. I know it's not easy to find people to help you without anything in return. I don't expect everyone to help me in a short time but the thing that disturbs me is quite different. Since the first time I started looking for people to record 2-3 second little video clips to merge into a one big video, more than 25 people said they would love helping me and they would do it asap. That eventually made me really happy cuz around 15-20 people would make me finish the video without any difficulties. However noone NOONE sent anything...Also I tried to contact them (they were and they are in my friend list on fubar) if there was a problem and it's ok if they couldnt do it. NOONE answered! It is seriously easy to say "no". Some people said "no sorry i cannot do it" and it's ok. Noone has to do it. The problem is those people said they were going to help and

Get It Together Dude...
continous , irrational thoughts plague my mind. I know i need to pull it back together, but how can i? and why should i...fear i will do something irrational? oh well so be it. maybe its time for that "crazy" every one seen in me to play out full blown. Have you seen her? her eyes, the most beautiful shade of chocolate, her smile....her smile brightens my day like the morning sun rising over the florida skyline. its crazy how when she smiles it just melts me. last time i felt like this...i was in HighSchool. her voice...her voice is like a choir of angels singing in my ears. sometimes she speaks and i cant even make since of what she said because im to busy being pummeled and minf fucked by her beauty. so yeah irrational thoughts should be expected i guess. I would give up everything i have right now for to be with her. No thats not the playas way of doing it, and truth be told...i dont give a fuck. I would leave my life for her in a heartbeat. i know she wouldnt ask that of me, but

My Heart
i love you more than anything you can see. i love you cause ur true to me. you make me happy when i am sad.you bring me up when im feeling down. u know how to trun my life upside down. you have been there through thick and thin. and still to this day u cnt win. you kno how to love u kno how to laugh u kno how to make me blush so bad. though u have doubts u have ur views u kno that i love you so what to do, u stole my heart on that first chat. i may be afraid to tell u when we talk but i am true i love u so. maybe ull read this and realize u do too? but i dont push just tell me so if you do or if u dont, either way my heart is urs.

Real World Help Vs Fu-mafia - Auction - Contest - Lounge Request
I have been doing the fu thing since well before they were called fubar, I know my way around the site and I know the proper way to come at people if and or when I have a request. If I (or someone else) linked you to this blog it may be because I (or they) think you could use this to help you be a better person, to assist you in putting a stop to the disrespectful ways of others or because you yourself have come off in a disrespectful manor. Most of you will be here because of number's 3 and 4. Some will question what message is here for you, please read the entries below, find the one('s) that fits you best in and then you will have your answer. 1. There are a lot of your neighbors doing without who need help. Please take a bag or box of food to a food pantry in your area or give them a call and I am sure they will be happy to send someone to pick up your offering/donation, just by giving an extra blanket or two for the cold times or a fan for those who need to keep cool duri

Rate Party
Here is how the Rate Party works you go out and you rate people and your reword for doing so is the joy of helping others and to gain points it is unlimited 11's all day foreveryone so go out help someone and have loads of fun. Rules. DO NOT LEAVE RUDE COMMENTS ON PEOPLES PAGE MUST ADD ALL PARTY MEMBERS TO YOUR FRIENDS LIST :) BE NICE TO EVERYONE :) TO JOIN leave comment on blog add me to your friends list and go out and rate everyones page an 11 if someone is close to leveling rate at least one folder of the persons with the most pics do not rate least amounts because that is just being unfair :)

How To Sign On/off Cam In Smotri
This is the step by step process to sign in and out of smotri so there are no accidental deletions of a broadcast after you are done using cam :) Step 1 Step 2 Step 3 Step 4 Step 5 Step 6 Step 7 Step 8

Prayer For Our Soldiers
Now I lay me down to sleep....one less terrorist this world does keep....with all my heart I give my thanks...to those in uniform regardless of ranks....you serve our country and serve it well...with humble hearts your stories tell....so as I rest my weary eyes...while freedom rings our flag still flies....you give your all, do what you must...with God we live and God we trust....Amen

Not Always Right | Funny & Stupid Customer Quotes Ii
Restaurant | Jacksonville, FL, USA | (I have albinism, so I have very pale skin, white hair, and red irises.) Me: “Hi. What can I get for you?” Customer: “Are…are you a vampire?” Me: “Well, my dad is half-vampire.” *laughing* Customer: “Please, don’t bite me.” Me: “Ma’am, I’m not going to bite you.” Customer: “Don’t put any blood in my food either. I don’t want to be a vampire.” Me: “Ma’am, I’m not going to put blood in your food. I’m not a vampire. We serve regular food here.” Customer: “Let me speak to your manager.” (I go and get my manager, and fill him in on what’s going on.) Customer, to my manager: “Is your vampire waitress going to bite me?” Manager: “Only if you don’t tip her well.” (The woman looks completely horrified, but finally ends up ordering and leaving me a 21% tip.) ___

Your Lips
I called you that day on a whim, since I was in town visiting. It must have been fate that your office was around the corner from my hotel. You told me to come over, that you wanted to meet me in person. So I walked over top the office. There you were behind the desk. My heart was beating strong. I got lost in your eyes. We talked and then you had to get back to work. I asked you shyly if I could taste your lips. So, you got up from your desk. You took my arm, and pulled me close, and bent down to kiss me. It was a gentle, lingering sweet kiss, that is burned in my memory.

Changing
Terrible thoughts rush through my mind as my anger grows, the things I think of doing to people no one should ever know. My dreams are full of blood and death, I wake to my own screams, I'm turning back into something I do not want to be. The feelings of cutting are coming back the release is all I need, but once the razor cuts my skin I feel the need to bleed. Darkness grows inside my heart untill I feel no pain, the voices start to speak again, I know I am not sain, I hold back from the darkness untill it fills my soul, I feel my insides dying as it's starting to turn cold. I have nothing left inside of me, it's time for me to go, I want everyone to remember Angel, before my soul turned cold. 2008

1 +1 + Without Love
We all have songs come and go in our life that stick in your head ,but when i came across Beyonce's new song 1+1 =without love i was so blown away by the words so for my first ever blog i would like to post the lyrics of that song as the words really hit a nerve with me if u wanna hear the song i have it posted on my fubar page ... 1 + 1= WITHOUT LOVE By Beyonce If I aint got nothing, I got you If I aint got something I don’t give a damn, cause I got it with you I don’t know much about algebra, but I know one plus one equals two And it’s me and you, thats all we’ll have when the world is thru Cause baby we aint got nothing without love Darling you got enough for the both of us So come on baby, make love to me When my days look low, pull me in close and don’t let me go. Make love to me. So that when the worlds at war, that our love heal us all Right now baby make love to me…me…me…mee&hell

Expression
I'm not always good with words,saying how I feel seems wrong.All I have ever wantedwas the one thing I could never have.One thing that was always denied me.I jumped in with both feet,when I should have used my head.Is it wrong for me to want things?Wrong to be selfish on occasion?Sometimes I act without thinking,I say things I regret,I hurt those around me.Perhaps I should leave well enough alone,not try to examine what I feel.Shut myself off as I have before.Part of me can't do this,part of me wants to yell and scream,to say yes! I have been done wrong.Yet part of me just wantsthat one little thing that I can't seem to find.When I do I am not sure how to dealI just want to be loved,I want it to be real.

Blings And Other Crap
With all the status's I seen lately I just wanted to touch on the bling and credits and whatever else people ask for. I do not give out blings or other shit to anybody. You wouldn't just walk up to someone and give them money would you? With that said if I get something for myself which is like never! lol. If I got some left over and I feel that someone has been a good friend lately I will give the rest since I dont really use credits. If your on my friend list its for a reason but don't think it entitles ya to crap. Nsfw folders, I dont view them much unless someone needs photo rates. I am sure as hell aint paying to see them, why when there is free crap on the net?? Its nothing against the person with the folder. go do you and I will do me type of thing. Just get tired of sb's asking for credits to view people's NSFW folders. GM I will be running gm's eventually just to get the damn points easier. Unlike most people I wont have fam spots open my family is for people I feel wit

Being There For Her
My love for her it will be foreverI promised her to work out the problems togetherIf she ever needs me I'll give it my allAnd work out the troubles be they big or smallI'll hold her when she's downAnd from her face I'll take her frownI only wish to make her seeI'll give her nothing but honestyMy goal in life is to make her smileAnd as for that I'd walk more than a mileIf she ever needs anything all she need do is askBecause I feel that's an easy taskI really do love her soThere is nowhere I wouldn't goI'd cross deserts and mountains and even the seaBecause with her is where I should beWhen I'm with her there's nothing to sayExcept I promise to love her each and every dayNothing could be more important to doThan just being there for her

Judgement
As a woman of my age i come to realize that society can become a very cruel and judgemental on a woman just based on her looks alone. If ur not barbie blonde and skinny and blue eyes then a man wouldn't dare give that woman the time of day.What i don't get is why a man can say he accepts a woman for who she is but then when another pretty face walks by the other woman becomes invisible. I'm sorry but not all women are born to be model barbie types and there are real women like myself have a good heart but only get judged from the outside. I'm proud of what i am and who i am but and should be judge on whats inside of me not based on what someone sees on the outside. But im a woman who isn't tiny and barbie type have seen how cold a man can be when a itty bitty barbie blonde comes along and can see how the tables turn and how i became invisible. Society thinks that's the only way a woman can be accepted by society is if she looks a certain way, acts a certain way etc instead of the real

I Write I Just Write
ok all this one was really hard for me because one im a male and 2 it brings back a lot of hurt and sick memmories but today i talked to a friend that had a simmilar problem and it made relize im not the only one with pain or problems,its not about me its abouut a sick world were theres no pejedousy its the same no matter what if your male ,female, young or old its still therer and sicker then ever...I do not need to name the persone i speak of they know for whom i speak but all the same thank you my friend for reminding me its not just me this ones for both of us... I am 48 years old,but many years ago i was sexualy raped by one i looked up to and it was a male we were working in the garage and he called my name when i turned around he hit me with a pice of wood it knocked me off my feet he quickly kicked me into uncotiousness when i came to he had enterd me from behind and taken what he wanted i was 13 when that happened and i rememberit well..this is my thoug

A Touch Unfelt
How can you ache and crave for someone's touch When you have never felt it? I do this for yours, though, And the yearning grows more each day I have never wanted anything in my life As much as I want you When you whisper such sweet love In my ear when we talk You make me melt into a puddle Of complete helplessness You have become my every waking thought And my every dream at night I breathe in so hard Trying to catch my breath when we can't talk I close my eyes so tight Hoping when I open them you will be there But I know I have to wait Until the time is right It seems so far away That I think I am losing my mind I want to breathe in your scent And keep it with me all day long I want to taste your love for me By kissing your sweet lips I want to feel your body next to me So when you leave for awhile I can hold on I just want you to know That I really do love you When the day comes and we are together You will always know and feel this I will always hug, ki

The Most
THE MOST....... The most destructive habit..............................Worry The greatest Joy.......................................Giving The greatest loss........................Loss of self-respect The most satisfying work.......................Helping others The ugliest personality trait.....................Selfishness The most endangered species.................Dedicated leaders Our greatest natural resource.......................Our youth The greatest "shot in the arm"..................Encouragement The greatest problem to overcome.........................Fear The most effective sleeping pill................Peace of mind The most crippling failure disease....................Excuses The most powerful force in life..........................Love The most dangerous pariah..........................A gossiper The world's most incredible computer................The brain The worst thing to be without.... . Hope The deadliest weapon...............................The tongue The two m

Are You The One
Help, help, help me to seeTo find the one who is right for meSomeone who possess love in a sacred wayTo have to hold everydayJust to feel a warm and loving touchIs that asking too muchTo have you on a cold bitter nightWhere we can snuggle together by the firelightI'll only ask this one timeand then i'll end this simple rhymeAre you ready to have someoneAre you the one

The Worry Doll
“Mathew,” Tilly asked during lunch in the cafeteria, “can you please come over tonight and help me with this trigonometry?” She flipped through the pages of the current chapter they were studying and the numbers and symbols that met her eyes might have well have been French. It seemed she had an incapacity to grasp the concepts the advanced math course’s teacher attempted to educate. “Can’t Tills,” her best friend answered back, “I have basket ball practice tonight. We have the big game against Donovan High School on Friday, and if I miss a practice coach won’t let me play.” She felt the tears begin to well up and her bottom lip poked out. It was a trick she became adept at during an early age. Now, that she was a young teenager, the talent came without coxing at the instant it was called upon. “Aw, Tills,” Mathew shrugged. “Now, don’t cry.” “You know how I’m doing i

I Was Never The Sun.
"Love me. That is all that I've ever asked." -Dyroneus. The dawn. The light. ------------------------- He was only a man. Black hair greying, leather grip fraying. Always unraveling. The second he released, it just spiraled out of control, often rewound, often ignored. No manner of divinity or tyrannical mischief in his eyes. Weariness was a word that rose to lips, though caution baited it back from utterance. From the saw-toothed, battered edge of his blade, to the dry lips and knicked steel across his body. The weariness of too many years. Too many years of sleeping on knives, and driving through armor, muscle and bone for his wage. He was only a man, he swore up and down. But as the years drug harder against his bones, and the souls of defeated foes pawed from lonliness and hunger at his ankles, he often had to wonder. He stopped for a spell against a gnarly elm, the leaves were thick and green as was the smell of summer. All around him were whispering le

Why I Love You
You give to me hopeAnd help me to copeWhen life pulls me downYou bring me aroundYou teach me to careAnd help me to shareYou make me honestWith kindness the bestFrom you I learned loveWith grace from aboveIt's for you I liveAnd I want to giveYou are the reasonThat fills each seasonWhen I hear love I think of youYou are my world and best friend tooI love you because you are so kind, thoughtful and caringI love you because you are so pleasant, lovely and sharingI love you just because you are you andYou made me the man I amThank you

Deck Of Cards
Deck of Cards A young soldier was in his bunkhouse all alone one Sunday morning over in Afghanistan. It was quiet that day, the guns and the mortars, and land mines for some reason hadn't made a noise. The young soldier knew it was Sunday, the holiest day of the week. As he was sitting there, he got out an old deck of cards and laid them out across his bunk. Just then an army sergeant came in and said, "Why aren't you with the rest of the platoon?" The soldier replied, "I thought I would stay behind and spend some time with the Lord." The sergeant said, "Looks like you're going to play cards." The soldier said, "No sir, you see, since we are not allowed to have Bibles or other spiritual books in this country, I've decided to talk to the Lord by studying this deck of cards." The sergeant asked in disbelief, "How will you do that?" "You see the Ace, Sergeant, it reminds that there is only one God. The Two represents the two parts of the Bible, Old an

Ragdolls Rants
Saturdays Edition Of "Ragdoll Rants" Current mood:determined My rants this week involve my pants....My shorts my thongs and anything else that wraps itself around my hips...men excluded! It doesnt fit. Not a damn thing. I got on the scale yesterday morning. Ive dropped 60 lbs this past year. 40 of it now since July 9th. Staggering to me! Ive lost a preschooler in weight! Im now with 20 lbs of what Doctors and Metropolitan Life Insurance standards say I should weigh to be classified as within normal and acceptable standards for weight for someone 5 ft 5 inches tall. Believe me I am happy about this, but the drawback is that I have to get new clothes. Especially the underwear department. There is nothing more disgusting than putting on the under-roos and having then fall down around your ankles while wearing pants or shorts... When doing laundry, i think..."How in God's name did Grandma's Bloomers get into my pile?"..then I realize oh chit! Nope those are mine....Its time to do somethi

Emotional
Some may think sisy, some may not even care, but as of the 30th of june 2011 The fitness center I call home and have made many fine friends will have been assumed and I will be unemployed. It has been gratifying and I have deep gratitude for the members there that have come up to express their displeasure at the new company not keeping the current staff. The most intese has been the members that have come up and told us how we have changed their lives through the atmosphere we provided, the positive, comfortable and relaxed atmosphere that allowed them to feel at home, at ease providing them with what the looked for to succeed in their fitness goals. It has brought tears to our eyes and lumps to our throats as they tell us their story of which we as the staff are a deep part. Had a lady that told us how she was near 300 lbs, she was shopping gyms and felt like she was too big for some, wouldn't be able to dress right for other or they were just to pushy trying to sell her the moon,

My Rules
Rules If you just have pics of stuff...nope not gonna add u.... If you only have one pic of yourself...Im not gonna accept your request.... If you send me a request and ur page is private where I cant check you out first...Denied If your a newbie.....sorry not gonna add you... unless u have a salute If you come at me disrespectful at ALL....wont add u and uget get blocked. If your 18-22 probably not gonna add u....I have a 23year old niece too weird..(if your part of my lounge ok thats one thing) even still kinda weird :/hehe Im on here for fun not bullshit....So Come correct or not at All..... Thanks

Fathers Day From A Son...
Today I sit at home. Safe and sound in my room. Mom's listening to the radio loud, thinking I can't hear Her tears. Like all of She misses You, gone so far away. Always wondering if that Goverment car will come up the drive today. The bills are paid, lucky are We, our little family. Sissy's at summer camp, She left last night. This is the 1st time She hasn't taken a night light. I got the letter You sent only to Me, the one that I got at school. It was weird to get it there, but once I read it I knew. You've asked alot of Me, and demanded ever more. Always proud and always loud, You never let Me settle, that's for sure. Yes, I'm 6' tall and grow facial hair like a Man, but deep inside still lives a little boy, who misses His Da as much as He can. Sure I'm strong, and look like You, Yes I can fix things, but not like You. I can take out the trash, and hang the shutters. I can help with My Sister, and all those lil buggers. I hang the flag everyday, at home and at our School. On holida

Cast In The Light-191
Through the valley and own the alley What wants to can be you'll find the real me The floor is made of wood it has rewards those that have understood No one ever really stays I'll still spend the rest of my days If I knew how to let go the world would really know In my palace I can't realize what is in your eyes It is you and me tonight I'm cast in the light

I Walk Alone - 113
I still think I can love you its a game I never out grew we could meet in a dream we'll fight as a team I do think of loving you I know what I would do make my dreams come true I wanna dream with you I saw you and your girlfriend my crying won't ever end each and every drop that falls is my heart as it silently calls for always I walk alone in search of your heart to call home

A Girl Whose Good - 239
It was a cold night love had left my site I am on the streets all alone want to succeed on my own the night that we did share I thought you might care why did we even try to love the feelings we had weren't enough something is missing from your touches my heart was captured by your clutches I no longer even want to see cuz you never did love me sometimes your oh so tender you know the taste of sweet surrender together we unite the feeling of power rockin and rollin to the morning hour I thought you were true I really loved you never gonna fall an be sad I'm a girl whose good but wants to be bad

(how To) Use Fubar's Tooltip
(How_To) Use_Fubar's_TooltipsIts no secret Fubar.com is a growing site.Below is a mock up of the Tooltip Fubar is currently using. It is there to give the members a general idea of what a tooltip will look like when they hover another members name. Some of the features have been disabled do to security risk (ie. Javascript and Submit/Cancel Buttons. This is an example of what Stevens Tooltip looks like. If you have any questions or comments you can shoutbox or message anyone of the Fubar Bouncers and they will assist you or you can get Live help by going to the Support Lounge with any of your questionsStevensPhotos(1,202)Today's Rank:

Caring For Your Babygirl .
When she stares at you for no reason [ ask whats on her mind ]When she pushes you or challenges you[ smile and hold her, tell her You know this game and play with her ]When she starts tryin to act all tuff[ Kiss her and tell her you love her ]When she's quiet[ Ask her whats wrong ]When she ignores you[ Give her your attention , in a positive way ]When she pulls away[ Pull her back and don't let her go till the issue is resolved ]When you see her at her worst[ Tell her she's beautiful ] When she doesn't see herself beautiful [ help her see herself thru Your eyes ]When you see her start crying[Just hold her and dont say a word , this one is the most important of all i think ]When you see her walking away

The English Language: A Rant.
First off, I understand everyone makes a slip up every now and again with regards to grammar and the correct word usage. Lately, I can't seem to keep one and won straight--damn homonyms (not palindromes--see, I'm an idiot too). But I actively correct it or do the obligatory facepalm for that brief moment of "D'oh"-ness. But some people... It's blatantly obvious that they haven't a clue. This is for those people, since third grade grammar appears to have escaped their knowledge base. /Start rant. When you say "your welcome", YOU'RE wrong. It's "you're welcome" as in the contraction of the words "you" and "are". It's not their Welcome, as in a welcome belonging to them. Speaking of "their"--that shows possession. "There" is a place. "They're" is a contraction of "They are". Example: They're living in their house over there. It's really quite simple if you take the time to THINK about it. Another one: Bear and bare. Bear is an animal. It also means to take on a burden.

Master Task "one"
She pulled into the parking lot fourty-five minutes early, "better to be early then late" she thought, Kate look into her compact she carried with her in her purse, she looked at her make-up. God she didnt know the person looking back at her Could she really be do this" Could she going on a date with someone she never met in person? Her best friend Amanda knows him...that s seamed to clam her down, "god, Kate!!!! Chill, its okay its not you never been to this club'", she looked at the sign, it normaly made her feel relaxed just to see it ADEARA, but She hasnt been to the club in a long, long time. She thought back to when the last time she was at the club, tears started to form in the corner of her eyes. She wiped away the teares from her eyes. This time it will be differnt, it not the same person! She glaced down at the clock in her car, ""oh shit" she late!! its now past 6p.m. how can that be, she must of gotten lost in her train of thought. She took a big deep breath in, and op

Master Task 3
She looked deep into Master M eyes, they were kind and sweet before she said was meeting someone, then somehow they changed. from light blue, to dark black it seemed, with fire racing though them.. She questioned herself, if she should ask the question that was in her head. she spoke before thinking, " you know who im meeting?, Is he nice? What does he look like?" She had so many questions to ask her dear friend, but he just smiled his hard devilish grin. And told her he was inside, sitting at the bar. We just opened so it should be easy to find him, He said. And he doesnt like like to be kept waiting, little one. He opened the door for her, she looked at him in protest, he hasnt called her 'little one' in a long, long time. It was his "play name for her. He winked at her and pushed her though the door. The door slammed shut so loud it made her jump. She let her eyes ajust to the darkly lit hallway she was in to she looked around. It still looked the same as it did the last time

Master Task 4
within the pockets of darkness the hall provided there were men and ladies she knew and some she didnt know. All were dressed in leather and corsets like most expect them in be dressed in, there subs at there Master's feet, sitting so perfect. She smiled at the subs as well as the Masters. Most people didnt talk to the subs but she always had unless she was collared. After all she knew her place too. She smiled as she walked though the hallway. She kept telling her self that she was in a safe place, with people that knew her. She made her way to the Main room and looked around, there was people setting up for play, and a few at the bar.. but she knew all of them. She didnt see the Guy she was going to meet. She slowly walked across to the bar looking for someone who she didnt know. But she knew all of them? She stopped to talk to a few Masters and there subs as she made her way to the bar.

Master Task 5
She looked at the bar to see who was working it tonight. It was Angela's sub's Billy and Tom. She sat near Tom area he was serving, she always got a long better with him then she did Billy. Billy was just like her, she guessed why they clash too much. Tom look up as he was making a drink and amost dropped the bottle of rum he was pouring. She smiled big at him. "Well, Hi here!!!, he said", "hey Billy, Look who found there way home!" Billy look down the bar and saw Kate.. he looked her up and down. Which made her feel like a piece of meat on sale. Billy smiled coldly at her. She turned and looked at Tom. Well look like he still doesnt like me she said. Tom smile was one of those real smiles, that make anyone around him make them feel happy just to be around him. SO!!!! Kat, why are you here? tom said her. Well dear, Amanda set me up with someone here, Master M, said he was at the bar? But I dont see anyone that i dont know?? Tom stopped smilling at her, and asked her what she would lik

The Way Its Gonna Be
I just thought I would ask for someone to understand I can't tell a lie and ifin your wanting to know why I am an angel as my nickname does apply I bleed like any other I am deeply scarred some that won't accept me had me barred I have died twice, I guess its not my deal yet I am more than ready for things to turn real I love to sleep and not because I'm lazy I can walk in my dreams, my limp is hazy no one takes and runs away from me just because I'm not as perfect as I am suppose to be I need to pass so I won't feel the pain anymore I need to see my dad, he's waiting by an open door I never got married to anyone or two I sometimes just dream I can say 'I do" I am thinking everyone sees me as I can an ugly, overweight waste of time for every man I am not teaser or begging maniac I love the animals and watching the lightening on my back I don't whine I have accepted how I know it will play out some night I'll leave then nobody will know to doubt spreading my wings

Want A Salute From Me
I get a lot of requests for salutes. And to be honest, I don't really have the time or desire to make them for everyone that wants one. So here is the deal.... If you want a SFW salute from me they will cost a 65 credit bling pack. A NSFW will cost a 135 credit bling pack. 1. Send me the bling pack. But sure to say that you are sending it for a salute. Otherwise, I will think you are just being nice and you won't get one. 2. I will make salutes at least once a week. So, be patient. 3. Requests are just that - a request. You get what I decide to do. You can of course, let me know what you would like, but that doesn't mean I will do it. 4. Put ALL info. ( be sure to let me know what name you want me to use - your screen name or a real name. However you spell it - is how it will be done.) in your fupal transfer message. As I do not always get to read all my message. Any message you send outside of the fupal transfer - there is NO guaranteed I will read it. Sorry if you think this is me be

Life
"Life"Life isn't about keeping score.It's not about how many friends you haveOr how accepted you are.Not about if you have plans this weekend or if you're alone.It isn't about who you're dating, who you used to date, how many people you've dated, or if you haven't been with anyone at all.It isn't about who you have kissed.It's not about sex.It isn't about who your family is or how much money they have.Or what kind of car you drive.Or where you are sent to school.It's not about how beautiful or ugly you are.Or what clothes you wear, what shoes you have on, or what kind of music you listen to.It's not about if your hair is blonde, red, black, or brown.Or if your skin is too light or too dark.Not about what grades you get, how smart you are, how smart everybody else thinks you are, or how smart standardized tests say you are.It's not about what clubs you're in or how good you are at "your" sport.It's not about representing your whole being on a piece of paper and seeing

Competition
Ahhhhhhhh the flashy pics, the catchy statuses, the bling, the abilities..........its so enticing is it not? To escape into a world where you are famous for nothing more than being photogenic or crafy with photoshop. Your day's mood is reflected on your current ranking and how many likes you got that day. What a superficial place full of people that try and pretend they are deeper than the nearest puddle. Admit it, you are one of them too. We all are to a degree. Guilty of chasing the bombs, eager to level, to show our worth. LMAO At the end of the day, we all go home to our bills, our empty beds or lonely filled ones and disappear into the disappointment of the "real world" ~ whatever that disappointment may be ~ lack of a rewarding job, a broken home, life challenges that no one knows but the person behind the cherry. I find the site and its pull humorous as I watch the feed and pretty people scroll...............wanna laugh with me?

Poetry, Reflections...
What I did I know was wrong and now live memories in a song In my world there is no sun knowing it can never be undone I could use excuses, drugs, and wine but the fault has been entirely mine; that you could live a life of shame, when I know that I'm to blame fills me with a terrible fright, how can I ever make things right; don't make your life like mine, save it now while there's time and live and and dance, and sing, and feel the warm sun in the spring and take joy in what you are, someone's vary special star! Another one by this person who was special in my life's past..

Grandfather.....
such a perfect way to live life.....taking only what you need and nothing more.... to walk the earth so gently as to not leave tracks...... to respect all life and to know that it is sacred.... her Grandfather lived that way....she remembers going hunting with Him.....curled up around the campfire Big emerald eyes closed listening to his deep velvety voice telling her stories as she drifted off into sleep.... she always felt so safe with Him...so important.... He took the time to teach her things and always listened to what she had to say..... smiling softly.....holding His image close in her heart.....remembering when He taught her to hunt with the bow.....His deep reverence and respect for the life He took ....... hunting was both joyful and sad....joyful that they would eat well and sad for the taking of a life....He would thank the animal for the gift it was giving.....and make sure nothing went to waste.....the hide would make shoes or clothes, blankets to s

Freedom Is Not Free
FREEDOM IS NOT FREE (The following story was written by Lori Kimble, a 31 year old teacher and proud military wife. Mrs. Kimble, a California native, currently lives in Alabama.)I was sitting alone in one of those loud, casual steak houses that you find all over the country. You know the type--a bucket of peanuts on every table, shells littering the floor, and a bunch of perky college kids racing around with longneck beers and sizzling platters.Taking a sip of my iced tea, I studied the crowd over the rim of my glass. My gaze lingered on a group enjoying their meal. They wore no uniform to identify their branch of service, but they were definitely "military:" clean shaven, cropped haircut, and that "squared away" look that comes with pride.Smiling sadly, I glanced across my table to the empty seat where my husband usually sat. It had only been a few months since we sat in this very booth, talking about his upcoming deployment to the Middle East. That was when he made

Falling Apart
I watch myself falling apart, feeling my achy heart. Trying to stay strong, when everything is going wrong. Where do i go? when my skies arent so blue. the smile covers up the pain, cant stop the rain. I am slowly falling apart. Building a wall, cause noone hears me call. all i can do is cry, and walk away with a sigh. i look to the sky, and wonder why? The many miles, walking through lifes trials. Falling apart, but your not here. like the stars, you are so far. I only tried, thought you were on my side.

Random
Somedays i'd give anything for that familiar rush, the sting, the adrenaline rush, the blood.. Before my son i had never felt anything so real, that made me feel alive.. Nothing compares to the pain, nothing.. Its been over a year now since ive fallen back on my addiction, But something inside me doesnt wanna quit yet.. My scars will never fade, my heart will never heal.. Everything good, everything pure, everything real was taken from me... People are cruel, vile, and sometimes evil.. The purest of hearts are crushed and ruined.. I cant be what you want or need me to be, because i dont know how to be anything but broken.. Theres alot more to me than long hair, and a pretty face.. Take it or leave it, i dont care.. Just my thoughts..

Let Love And Compassion Save A Life
No I am not Suicidal... But my new profile background is kinda comforting in a way It shows the desperation and pain of not wanting to face pain head on.. But you have too! The train IS coming.. but we have a choice to make.... Lie in it and accept the inevitable consequences? Or get out of the way and choose to feel and deal with pain in a better way? This week, I had to confront a young woman who I was afraid may become that way. She's young..indecisive about her life, her loves.... On the breaking point. Needing intervention. Needing to see a certain finality in her thinking... Is death all that romantic? It's a choice she can make..to end it all. But not a wise one compared to the knowledge that ALL things in this world be it good or bad are just temporary.. She will love again..many times over! It hurts like hell right now for her...and the so many others who know of the pain of a breakup. We cant see beyond the moment..you know I understand. Ive been

Witnessing
DON'T PREACH TO ME BUT REACH TO ME, REACH WITH YOUR ARMS OPEN WIDE SHOW ME YOUR LOVE, YOUR HOLY LOVE THEN I WON'T HAVE TO HIDE; GIVE ME YOUR TIME YOUR UNDIVIDED TIME SO I CAN FEEL YOU CARE; SEND ME A GIFT A PERSONAL GIFT, A GIFT FROM THE HEART IF YOU DARE, SHOW ME THERE'S HOPE OH BLESSED HOPE WHEN I'M DOWN AND FEELING DISPAIR, TELL ME I'M IMPORTANT I MATTER AND THE LOVE OF CHRIST WE BOTH WILL BEGIN TO SHARE * (WRITTEN WAY BACK IN 1989) FROM A YOUNGER SISTER

Dirty Deaf Joke ;-)
Two deaf people get married. During the first week of marriage, they find that they are unable to communicate in the bedroom when they turn off the lights because they can't see each other using sign language. After several nights of fumbling around and misunderstandings, the wife decides to find a solution. 'Honey,' she signs, 'Why don't we agree on some simple signals? For instance, at night, if you want to have sex with me, reach over and squeeze my left breast one time. If you don't want to have sex, reach over and squeeze my right breast one time.' The husband thinks this is a great idea and signs back to his wife, 'Great idea, Now if you want to have sex with ME, reach over and pull on my penis one time.' 'If you don't want to have sex, reach over and pull on my penis..........fifty times'

I Am Autism.
I Am AutismBy Marty Murphy Hello. Allow me to introduce myself to you. My name is autism. Perhaps you knowme or know of me. I am a condition, “disorder” that affects many people. Istrike at will, when and where I want. Unlike Downs Syndrome or other birth“defects,” I leave no marks on those I strike. In fact, I pride myself on theability to infiltrate a child’s life, while leaving him or her strikinglyhandsome. Many people may not even know I am there. They blame the child forwhat I cause him or her to do. I am autism and I do as I please. I am autism. I strike boys and girls. infants and toddlers. I find my bestvictims to be boys around the age of 2, but any child will do. I like childrenand they are always the true victims, though I take hostage the others in thechild’s family as well. It is a bit like getting two for the price of one. Iaffect one child and “infect” the entire family. I am autism. I strike rich and poor alike. The ri

A Cheery Fucking Song For My Beloved Brother!
Look What You've Done JETTake my photo off the wallIf it just won't sing for you'Cause all that's left has gone awayAnd there's nothing there for you to proveOh, look what you've doneYou've made a fool of everyoneOh well, it seems like such funUntil you lose what you had wonGive me back my point of view'Cause I just can't think for youI can hardly hear you sayWhat should I do, well you chooseOh, look what you've doneYou've made a fool of everyoneOh well, it seems like such funUntil you lose what you had wonOh, look what you've doneYou've made a fool of everyoneA fool of everyoneA fool of everyoneTake my photo off the wallIf it just won't sing for you'Cause all that's left has gone awayAnd there's nothing there for you to doOh, look what you've doneYou've made a fool of everyoneOh well, it seems like such funUntil you lose what you had wonOh, look what you've doneYou've made a fool of everyoneA fool of everyoneA fool of everyone

Talk To The Animal (rough)
I cannot keep her cagedWhen life goes like thisSeething, living rageWithout which I can't existThe fire in my heartThe reason I surviveDisaster will impartConsequences I can't abideShe can't and won't be tamedBy the touch of any manBeauty, independence maimedWith the raising of his handThe secret lies not in breakingBut in coexisting hereA cage no longer mistakenSilent, violent tearsResentment breeds cold hatredUndeserved and unjust, trueHowever unwittingly stavedThe damage cannot undoSo run with her insteadAnd watch what will unfoldA future no longer deadNo secrets left untoldAnd watch the animal's lungsBreathe deep as legs are stretchedHeart churning right alongAnd shed these deep regretsTake the future by the handLook only to the skyWith someone who understandsAnd never questions whyJust let her existShe'll give all within her heartNo longer resistThe next chapter's start

Sizzling Summer
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You Turn Off The Tv And You Scream At Me
you would think i would learn eventually. you would think that somewhere something would have to give and i would be once again centered. but you're wrong i never learn. i do the same shit all the time and then am completely perplexed when i don't get different results. that, ladies and gentlemen, is the definition of insanity. things have been particularily bad lately in my head. nothing seems to make sense anymore and i can't even communicate with my fiance, Kenny properly. i can't tell him what's wrong no matter how much he begs for answers because i, myself, don't know what my problem is. it's all very frustrating. i'm sure it's just as mind numbingly irritating to him as it is to me. and the kicker is i have no idea how to fix it because i don't know what "it" is.. impossible. right now i'm just wishing i could get high. unfortunately, i don't have any money until my check comes on the 1st. which, realistically, means i won't be able to get high again until the 2nd when my m

Santorum: ‘there’s No Such Thing As Global Warming’ (repost)
In an interview with the lame-duck Fox News host Glenn Beck, Republican presidential candidate Rick Santorum claimed global warming is a hoax. Beck grinned as Santorum called for a “drill everywhere” policy and claimed that there is “no such thing as global warming”: BECK: Oil? SANTORUM: Drill. Drill everywhere. BECK: Coal? SANTORUM: Absolutely. Natural gas. We have huge stores. 263 years of oil at the current rate, almost 200 years of gas, and 300 years of coal. BECK: What about global warming? SANTORUM: There is no such thing as global warming. It is, in my opinion, there are hundreds of factors that cause the earth to warm and cool, and the trace gas – of which human participation in this trace gas – is . . . BECK: This could seal the deal for me. Whatever, I got enough. Watch it: Earlier this month, Santorum told the other enforcer of conservative thought, Rush Limbaugh, that global warming is “junk science.”

A Good Man
Im not the type to be shy and not speak my mind and that seems to scared the good guys around here away. guys say that they want sweet honest girls who can hold their own but then when they have a girl like that they seem to not want it. it seems that guys only want the skanky girls and the whores that will do anything just to have attention. im here to say that im not a girl like that i hate being looked at like a piece of meat all the time if i try to have a serious talk or relationship even long distance the guy should want to know about me and my mind more than what he is thinking of my body. and women saying well we will just go lez so that they dont have to deal with the ass hole men that do this to women well sorry girls but instead or ass holes u get bitches so u cant run. y cant there just be a guy that cares about looking at ur face and not ur tits or ass. or one that truely listens and wants to know what u think and not just hear how good u say that u r in bed. like the song

My Soldier
You probably don't know his story Most will never speak his name You won't see him in your dreams tonight But you owe him just the same Since that awful day in September He's proudly stood to fight To serve his grieving nation He needed to do what was right He'd never admit to being a hero That's not was heroes do Instead of basking in the limelight He's fighting for the red, white, and blue Every moment he misses his family Every day brings another fight But, it's a small price to pay for freedom To let his son sleep safe at night He never asked to leave his family He didn't ask to go to war

Freedom
FREEDOM ISNT FREE I watched the flag pass by one day.It fluttered in the breeze.A young Marine saluted it,And then he stood at ease.I looked at him in uniformSo young, so tall, so proud,With hair cut square and eyes alertHe'd stand out in any crowd.I thought how many men like himHad fallen through the years.How many died on foreign soil?How many mothers' tears?How many pilots' planes shot down?How many died at sea?How many foxholes were soldiers' graves?No, freedom isn't free. I heard the sound of taps one night,When everything was stillI listened to the bugler playAnd felt a sudden chill.I wondered just how many timesThat taps had meant "Amen,"When a flag had draped a coffinOf a brother or a friend.I thought of all the children,Of the mothers and the wives,Of fathers, sons and husbandsWith interrupted lives.I thought about a graveyardAt the bottom of the seaOf unmarked graves in Arlington.No, freedom isn't free.

[gather More Souls]
Okay...so almost all time between this post and that last post were consumed by Demon's souls, a little bit of sleep, and a little bit of eating. Man this game is hard. Man this game is pretty. Man the minimalist approach to the setting and story telling is GENIUS! .... but my eyes hurt, and I just played an extra 10 or so hours on a game that pretty much stabbed me in the ear. I beat it... turned right around on 40% harder mode... and played nonstop for that long. I... I keep thinking that if I press x I can read through webpages faster- or I can press o to do a dodge/roll. Yeah... that's a lot of game. Alright so... ... don't get this game? Hyperaddictive. Requires 8 hours of your attention at a time, and WILL kill you. Repeatedly, in new, cheap, creative, magnificent, frustrating, explodey blood ways. But you do need a PS3 for this one, and a ton of skills and patience will help- my recommendations? Roll a royalty class female. Sure th

Me
Never would think I would find a love and i did , and now that i lost her im not sure wat to do.And no matter wat ppl say ,its wat i want ,and its her that i want so i would say with all the mmums i wrote somebody chose or feels i should leave i say ...blow me ... and yes i still want her so if it means bein on fu till i get her back then so be it .

7 Surprising Things You're Not Supposed To Know About Sunscreen And Sunlight Exposure (repost)
Mike AdamsNatural News Ask somebody about sunscreen and you're likely to receive an earful of disinformation from a person who has been repeatedly misinformed by health authorities and the mainstream media. Almost nothing you hear about sunscreen from traditional media channels is accurate. So here's a quick guide to the 7 most important things you need to know about sunscreen, sunlight and vitamin D: #1) The FDA refuses to allow natural sunscreen ingredients to be used in sunblock / sunscreen products It's true: If you create a truly natural sunscreen product using exotic botanicals with powerful sunscreen properties, you will never be able to market it as a "sunscreen" product. That's because the FDA decides what can be used as sunscreen and what can't, regardless of what really works in the real world. And there are really only two natural ingredients the FDA has allowed to be sold as sunscreen: Zinc oxide and titanium dioxide. Any other non-chemical sunscreen ingred

The Day I Knew About You
the day I knew about you I felt like singing that the world made sense how I glowed without even trying I use to curl up with you reading you poems listening to music to soothe you hoping you would relax I seemed to eat everything in sight things I normally hated now I found I loved with a vengence how brave you were during the storms even if I cowered in bed feeling you touch me deep inside gave me a feeling I long ago forgot my heart swelled to overflowing knowing you were so close to me I couldnt wait , so anxious making things for you picking places to go with you but it all disappeared one night a sharp pain began then a tearing inside a scream ripped from me as I realized I was losing you fighting like hell

Beh.
Let me tell you a story; I met this guy off plenty of fish, and he had met me, durning school ( thats when I was going) anyways, he brought me home, and he told me it wasnt going to work out and he thought my baby sister was hott, and she is young.. anyways, I get this text message from this other guy playing it out like he knows who I am, and Ironically he had a plenty of fish too, But now that I think about it, I dont ever remember really talking to him, so we got to talking, and I developed feelings for him quick, I took it upon myself to go to Auburn and meet him, and that is what I did. well, i met him, and things just went sour; He then snooped thru my phone, and get pissed off that i had a message from a dude, and bnlah blah, and was asking for my passwords to my shit, I said no, because that is my shit, so I left it at that, when I got home, I instantly didnt liek him anymore.. well today, at 1030 this morning, i called him up and I told him that I didnt want anything to do wi

Summers Hottest Guy On Fubar
Fubar Hottest guy of the Summer Vote For me and Rate My Pic... Good Offers For Every one So dont miss out Click on my Pic This Hot Summer Sizzle Auction Is Braught To you By The Sexy~ TwizTed KiTTen ~ Show Her some Love

When I Get That Feeling, I Need Sexual Healing
Dear Ninja, after hours & hours of chair f*cking on the deck this weekend.. my lower back has a bruised line across my lower back..... i never wanted tramp stamp yanno.... anyways i have iced it up and it is slightly sore but how can i get rid of the bruises?!?! *giggles at what might be your answer to this unforeseen but very pleasant experience*sincerely, I never wanted a tramp stamp Dear Tramp Stamped, Sounds like a great weekend to me! But yes, there is some TLC to help get rid of those unsightly bruises faster. A Bruise is actually a subdermal hematoma (fancy talk for blood under the skin). When you do some fun sex stuffs, sometimes, you have a little too much fun and need to hide that evidence. A natural method for speeding up the process of bruise removal, a heating pad. Get yourself a nice warm compress or a heating pad and apply it to the site every few hours for 20 minutes at a time. If the heat is minimal, you can leave it longer, although high heat is not reco

Tarnish And The Teapot...
Feb 25, 2007 Tarnish and The Copper Teapot Current mood:accomplished Good Sunday To Everyone...I hope that wherever you are its a Warm Atmosphere full of Love, Family and Open Hearts! ______________________________________________________________ Two nights ago , on Friday night I found myself without the kids..they had elected to go to the bowling alley and hang out with friends there until midnight. Those moments are kinda rare for around here. The weatherpeople had stated a blizzard was approaching, and we might be in for at least a foot of snow.So before the kids went out for the night, I went into town to get any last minute items we needed in case we got everything they predicted we would get. In Machesney Park, the snow was coming down pretty good, at home nothing yet..but the night was still young! It was heading this way. So We were prepared for whatever Mother Nature was going to give us. Now home, I really didnt have anything to do. Mentally I was going to go stir cr

Please Allow Me To Introduce Myself
I'm a 44 year old, well spoken, college educated, clean cut black male. I'm 6' tall & around 180 - 200 lbs, depending. Lately, I've been working out like a fiend. I have a good job. I've never been married although I've come dangerously close. The last girlfriend burned me so badly that I've been gunshy with affairs of the heart. I figure I'm a bachelor for life.Having said all that, I love sex. When it comes to sex, I'm pretty much uninhibited. In fact, I'd probably say I'm a dog. I never cheat on anyone who I'm seriously dating but if I'm single, I'm doing just about any woman who wants it. I don't care if they have boyfrineds or not. I realize I'm probably going to hell for that but I figure if they're willing to cheat on their men & I'm single, why not? You only go around once. Never live your life wondering what if.I like all colors of women. I've had black women, white women, latino women, asian, & even persian. What can I say? I love variety. I love womens bodies. I

The Garden - The Creepshow
There's a dark fading lightIn the garden where youLay your head tonightThrough the darkened hoursWere you thinking of me?A state of sleepIs what you'd rather beThere's a palePurple moonlightIn the garden where youLay your head to dieFrozen dreams and nightmaresHave you forgetting a dreamOf what you always thoughtYou could have been…Hey don't draw the lineDid you know that you're rightSo baby blue don't cryDon't you go now…Don't you go now…There's a stale morning lightIn the garden where you layAll through the nightThrough this poisoned nightmareHave you set yourself free?With thoughts and dreamsOf what you're gonna be…Hey don't draw the lineDid you know that you're rightSo baby blue don't cryDon't you go now…Don't you go now…Hey don't draw the lineDid you know it'll be all rightSo baby blue don't cryDon't you go now…Don't you go now…Hey don't draw the lineDid you know it'll be all rightMy baby blues don't cryDon't you go now&helli

I Am Searching, I Am Looking
Im Looking Im Searching I will Find It I cant help it to look for beauty in the world outside I have to Im obsessed Compelled to search and keep searching If I dont find it...I feel lost and lose my faith in myself Not in flowers or sunsets or in mountain rains... those are self explanatory in their beauty. In those things..they were created to display all the time they cant change they will always be.... what they are I search for beauty in people their minds their hearts and their souls when I find one who is... I want them to know that... they are greater than the flowers and the mountains and expose them for the world to... appreciate them and their beauty as much As I DO! Look for the Beautiful People Let their beauty warm your heart and inspire you to the beauty that you are! Keep Laughin, Keep Livin, Keep Lovin! ~Ragdoll~

Staff Application Alucard's Reborn
I do apologize deeply for now having to have staff go throgh applacations but we have had trouble with staff prior so now we are doing applacations please fill this out FUBAR NAME POSITIION YOU ARE APPLYING FOR TIME IN THE POSITION(APPLYING FOR) IF NONE THAT IS FINE LOUNGES YOU WORKED FOR (LIST ALL) AMOUNT OF TIME IN THE LOUNGES (LISTED)

Already Awaiting
Right now i'm working on some bullshit at the moment. I'm basically having to go to therepy for alcoholism & realationship issues. So much fun- yet b/c i was the one whom is taking the fault; where the hell does anybody just stand up and state that the issue was only involved by someone who made up they're own story- and why does everyone really believe this pile of shit? granted yeah i didn't talk, but i'm pretty much sick of talking and everyone needs to just palinly look at the facts, and history involved and just throw it right out the cuking door. I'm the one that has to uproot my kids, dive into the pathetic nonsense of my families/parents house; and take care of eveything inbetween in the amount of time given- i'm sure this way sounds like an ongoing cycle instead of a path.

Stupid Things People Do
1. People who point at their wrist while asking for the time.... I know where my watch is pal, where the hell is yours? Do I point at my crotch when I ask where the toilet is? 2. People who are willing to get off their ass to search the entire room for the T.V. remote because they refuse to walk to the T.V. and change the channel manually. 3. When people say "Oh you just want to have your cake and eat it too". Damn right! What good is cake if you can’t eat it? 4. When people say "it’s always the last place you look". Of course it is. Why the hell would you keep looking after you’ve found it? Do people do this? Who and where are they? Gonna Kick their asses! 5. When people say while watching a film "did you see that?". No Loser, I paid $12 to come to the cinema and stare at the damn floor. 6. People who ask "Can I ask you a question?".... Didn’t really give me a choice there, did ya sunshine? 7. When something is ’new and improved!’. Which is

My Nightmare.
I sit alone just to cry, I feel its time for me to die, as one tear drops my heart grows colder, feeling like Im ten years older. I start to wonder why Im here feeling like I have no fear, no fear of life, no fear of death, no fear of felling anothers breath, upon my skin as hands are roaming, nails are scraping, ripping, tearing, blood is flowing, dripping, soaking, the knife is cutting, fucking burning, my skin rips open, bones are showing, hurting, cutting, the pain goes flowing through my body out my soul, I can feel the anger growing, no one wants me always lonely, telling him to pull out slowly, condoms breaking lives are fucked, I feel like I have been tucked, under something can not breath, bones are crushing, splitting, cracking, lights are dimming, getting darker, slowly dying, terror starting, I wake up, no ones here. It was just a fucking nightmare.

I Am With You Still
I give you this one thought to keep I am with you still - do not weep. I am a thousand winds that blow. I am the diamond glints on snow. I am the sunlight on ripened grain. I am the gentle autumn's rain. When you awaken in the morning's hush, I am the wswift uplifting rush Of quiet birds in circled flight. I am the soft stars that shine at night. Do not think of me as gone - I am with you still - in each new dawn.

Naughty Jumble
My mind races, my heart pounds. Shattered thoughts of you fill my mind. My mouth pressing firmly against yours, my hands sliding over your skin, my teeth biting your flesh. Vivid, quickening, heartbeats between scenes. I slide my fingers inside your tight, wet pussy. I circle my tongue around your nipple. I slide into you from behind, pressing your face into the mattress. You bounce on top of me, bringing me to the brink. Flashes, vivid, intense, momentary but lasting a lifetime. Spanking your ass, pulling your hair. Kissing you gently, deeply, harshly. My tongue in your mouth, my tongue in your pussy, my hands over every inch of your body. No thought lingers, one moment lives a thousand images, a thousand ways to escape into your flesh. Standing, sitting, kneeling, laying, every position imagined and some that are probably impossible. Quickly they flash in my mind, quickly they are replaced..the only constant is you, and my desire.I wake with a start, a sweat, and a need

Dont Be Afraid To Take Chances
Dont be afraid to take chances even if it might get you hurt. Just be strong and take it because you might miss that single chance that would change your life and make you really happy. Sometimes people come into your life and you know right away that they were meant to be there... to serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson or help figure out who you are or who you want to become. You never know who these people may be but when you look eyes with them, you know that every moment that you are with them, they will affect your life in some profound way. And sometimes things happen to you at the time that may seem horrible, painful and unfair, but in reflection you realize that without overcoming those obstacles you would have never realized your potential, strength, will power or heart. Everything happens for a reason! Nothing happens by chance or by means of good luck. Illness, injury, love, lost moments of true greatness and sheer stupidity all occur to test the limits of your so

Car Problem : Undetermined
On the 15 th of this month, I took my car to the local GM dealership, and explained the problem (explained below) that the car was having. Problem: In the morning, I would go to start the car, and it was just crank, and crank , and crank, and not start. To get the car to start, I would have to take a rubber mallet and tap on the bottom of the gas tank. After tapping on the bottom of the tank I would get back in the car, and turn it on , it would crank a couple times , and start up. The dealership diagnosed the problem as a fuel pump issue. Which is alright, because that part was under warranty , because it had just had the part replaced 13 months ago, and is a GM lifetime warranty part. So all the work was done at no cost to me. This past Sunday, the car again, does the same exact thing. Except this time after I tapped on the gas tank , which again made it start, It would stall as I drove. So I called them up on Monday, and was told I could bring the car in on Tuesday. Tuesda

A Message For You, The Readers Of My Blogs
Hey, you out there.... ...Yes, you. I have something that, for some reason, I just felt an incredible urge to share. Don't get me wrong, I barely know you. So, what I have to say may not really affect your life at all. But, it's still something I am going to say, so please listen to me. It's not your fault. You're just a human being like the rest of us. Even successful people have problems. And something else.... You are not a failure. You never were. You may feel like that you are not doing anything with your life, that all day long you do "nothing". But I just want you to remember this....

I See You, I Know Who You Are
Allow me to see within your reality and determine just who exactly you are....You're a person who often scorns fashion, and doesn't go along with trends. Religion is relatively unimportant to you. You're a person who believes they are individual and anti-social in some regards. You're not an unpopular person, but you're not exactly the center of attention, either. You don't really care about hanging in shopping centers or clubs with your friends every weekend - but you're hardly a basement-dweller, either. You detest those who are sheep when it comes to fashion, like emo kids, thugs and trendy people.Chances are, you're quite intelligent - more intelligent than the majority of your local peers, and most people in society, for that matter. You try to associate with equally like-minded people. However, despite your above-average intelligence, I would predict you are either unemployed, in a low-paying job or are otherwise unhappy in your current employment. However,

Is Satan Really The Bad Guy??
According to Christianity, Satan is the epitome and embodiment of all evil things, described as "the father of all lies" in the Catholic Church's Catechism (paragraph 391). It is his works that tempt humans into doing bad deeds. If something evil occurs, we can be assured that Satan had something to do with it. The History of Satan According to Catholicism, Satan only exists because God allows him to (The Catechism of the Catholic Church, paragraph 395). This raises some serious issues about how righteous God can be if he allows evil to exist, but I digress. Satan, as the story goes, began as the angel Lucifer, who outrightly rejected God and rebelled against him. God cast Lucifer and those who followed him into Hell, a place of eternal torture and despair, where God was not present. Like any good propaganda machine, Christian authorities have made sure to limit the disenimation of information on the enemy (Satan) to what they want the public to know. For example,

On Religion... (very Long Read...but Worth It!)
Ugh! I usually HATE this topic. There are too many ideas and thoughts running through people's minds to have an intelligent, non-biased discussion about religion or faith. But, I have had several friends of mine wanting to discuss this very topic with me as of late. That fact combined with the constant onslaught of religious signs and media have seemed to forced my hand. So, without further ado, I bring you my viewpoint. As always, you are free to to read, comment and (unlike MOST religions) even call into question my own beliefs. Please drop a quick comment in if you do choose to read this, even if you have no feedback. I am always curious to see who actually reads the things I write! Okay, first and foremost, let's get one thing perfectly clear from the start: I am an Atheist. Period.... This viewpoint is from the sight of a skeptic. I will attempt to make it as unbiased and logic-based as I can, but in NO way do I claim that this is completel

I Could Kill You
Outside of the endless sea of the mediocre, faceless nobodies, there are only two different types of motherfuckers in the world. People who start shit and think they are tough. And people who have trained and KNOW they are strong.You see this shit every day. On the street, in bars, in workplaces... The "tough-guy" pretenders. They talk loud, they wear flashy clothing and jewelry, they drive souped-up cars. All this flashy garbage that is supposed to say "Don't fuck with me."They walk with a swagger. They stomp and strut with a mean face on. They hang out with their equally-obnoxious friends. They are SO QUICK to start shit. SO QUICK to try to prove how fucking tough they are. They say things like "Yeah, motherfucker, keep walking, pussy! I'll fuck you up, bitch!" and so on and so forth.They may go to the gym, even YOUR gym... But they don't train. They just go to do a few curls and bench presses and try to be intimidating to other people. They only do exercises that won

Spank
100 Truths About Me 1. Name: Jaynee Marie 2. Age: 35 3. Zodiac Sign: Aries 4. Male or Female: Female 5. Elementary School: Rochester Elementary 6. Middle school: Rochester Middle 7. High school: Rochester High and Juneau Douglas High 8. Hair color: Red 9. Tall or short: Short but don’t tell my son that lol 11. Sweats or jeans: Jeans 12. Phone or Camera: Phone 13. Health Freak: Na 14. Orange or apple: Apple 15. Do you have a crush on someone: Yes 16. Eat or Drink: Drink 17. Piercings: Ears 18. Pepsi or Coke: Diet Pepsi HAVE YOU EVER? 19. Been in an airplane: Yes alot 20. Been in a relationship: Too many 21. Been in a car accident: yes a few 22. Been in a fist fight: Yes 23. First Piercing: Ears 24. First Best Friend: Teri 25. First Award: Dunno cant remember 26. First Crush: Chad 27. First word: daddy I think LAST THING YOU DID 29. Last friend you talked to in person: Greg 30. Last friend you texted: Romeo 31. Last friend yo

Driving
Dieing on the highway today a day the fog formed, demons laughing at me sitting on the hood of my car counting on their hands the memorable moments I had My crazy mother sitting in the back seat her face frozen in a scream of disgust flies scurrying over her face frenzied A gun in my lap bullets littering the floor mat flesh clinging to chunks of the windshield a mangy dog runs in front of my overheating car it's bones jutting out it's flesh garbage blowing into my broken windshield notes covered in blood from the past "wish you were never born" "I have always hated you" "you were so easy to use" as a porcelain skull swings west to east from the rear view mirror Demons reach threw the broken windshield grabbing the wheel my mother slides down the back seat, her head resting against the partly rolled down window the demons tongues licking the sweat off my face swinging the wheel back and forth headlights start to flash at me horns screaming into my ears my moth

Money Money Money
MY dad is 55 and my dad girlfriend is 44 and her thank when my dad die she will get my dad home no she will not get my dad home me and my sister will get it my dad dad gave it to me and my sister it say that in my dad dad will but i hop she will not try to get my dad home i thank she is useing my dad for money.

Our Love, Our Life, Our Heroes
Our love has gone, Gone far away. They travel here and there, But we know they will always come back to us. They might be away, But our hearts are always with them. Where they go, we are there with them. We might be separated by distance, But not in mind and soul. They know we stay true, No matter where they might go. It seems like a life time, When they are not here. But when they return, Everything seems to stop. Our happiness has returned, We can quit worrying and stressing. They mean the world to us, As hey do to most others. For they are American Soldiers, That most hold dear. And they fight for what is right, And protects us day after day. They don't consider their own lives first, They think of their loved ones, And everything they hold dear. They know there's a chance to die, But they look at it straight in the face, And they show no fear, Because they fight for love, honor, freedom, And everything they hold dear. They mi

Ladies & Gentalmen.... Welcome 2the Most Eternal Show Onearth...(the Story Of My Dark Carnival)"
DARK CARNIVAL The Night Was Heavy & Cold thick with fog surrounding this forest a place you'd been to perhaps a thousand times before... the toes of well traviled foot prints lined the old dusty road. Well travled it such a short time that sight alone spoke volumes about this land & so strangly out of place. For none hardly ever cam this path none thought to special or diffrent then any other but a place people would never look twice to find. & some how not trully know how or why it felt if it drew you here a longing a calling of spirit perhaps of the nagging tugs of a restless spirit... The night was cold just a chill to the air that brough the mist form the lips of the living with each breath drifting before their faces but the dead walked here as well drifting among the clouds that hung low to the trees hlaf seen half understoon the floaded on half noticed in & out the vison of each passser by some to notice others to walk by never even knowing the energy that passed around t

Sorry, I'm So Sorry...
Sorry, I’m so sorry Sorry for making you mad Sorry for everything I said Sorry for being me Sorry, I’m so sorry Sorry if I disappointed you Sorry if I hurt you Sorry for everything Sorry, I’m so sorry Sorry that I liked you Sorry that you did Sorry for turning in to a bitch Sorry, I’m so sorry Sorry that I loved you Sorry that you didn’t Sorry that we had to fight Sorry, I’m so sorry Sorry for still loving you Sorry you don’t love me Sorry for ever loving you Sorry, I’m so sorry But, sorry for falling for my best friend Sorry I can't be much more Sorry for spilling my feelings Sorry, I'm so sorry

Top1player
4:34pm Top1Player: such beautiful boobs 4:35pm To Top1Player: bye 4:35pm Top1Player: dont like the comment dont flash the boobs 4:36pm To Top1Player: i don't flash them. grow the fuck up and learn some respect 4:37pm Top1Player: such manners from a lady using such swear words, omg did i say lady 4:38pm To Top1Player: you're pathetic. 4:38pm Top1Player: and your no oil painting and this is where the COWARD decides to block me :) this isn't the first time the lame ass has dared to show up in my shoutbox hitting on me. i've tried to be nice about it... yep. done with that :) at least i won't have to deal with his bullshit anymore!! just wish i could send a "thank you" card for blocking me...darn :( if ya see him...tell him i said "thanks" http://fubar.com/2699128

Funneh Me. *shrugs*
It's gotta be me. I just has to be. I scare them away, or something. LOL. I always thought I was pretty rad...I have a huge heart and a huge ass...whats not to love? LMAO. Meh, Ya win some... Ya lose some. Tis life.

Bill On Pot
Why is marijuana against the law? It grows naturally on our planet, serves a thousand different functions, all of them positive. To make marijuana against the law is like saying that God made a mistake. Like on the seventh day God looked down, "There it is. My Creation, perfect and holy in all ways. Now I can rest. [Gives shocked expression] Oh my Me! I left fuckin' pot everywhere. I should never have smoked that joint on the third day. Hehe, that was the day I created the possum. Still gives me a chuckle. But if I leave pot everywhere, that's gonna give people the impression they're supposed to … use it. Now I have to create Republicans." " … and God wept", I believe is the next part of that story. Bill Hicks

And Yet Another
You see, I think drugs have done some good things for us. I really do. And if you don't believe drugs have done good things for us, do me a favor. Go home tonight. Take all your albums, all your tapes and all your CDs and burn them. 'Cause you know what, the musicians that made all that great music that's enhanced your lives throughout the years were rrreal fucking high on drugs. The Beatles were so fucking high they let Ringo sing a few tunes. Bill Hicks

And Another
I'm glad mushrooms are against the law, because I took them one time, and you know what happened to me? I laid in a field of green grass for four hours going, "My God! I love everything." Yeah. Now, if that isn't a hazard to our country … how are we gonna keep building nuclear weapons, you know what I mean? What's gonna happen to the arms industry when we realize that we're all one?! Bill Hicks

Untitled
I know what I need as I lay here bleeding My heart says the words that won't come from my mouth Your words hit my down to the core Makes me think and I want more It is the person you are nothing more The person that I adore I expect nothing Not who I am Just to be your friend Your words hit me down to the core Makes me think and I am left wanting more.

My Desire..
On the darkest of wings to you I will fly...to be yours forever...always by your side.The darkness inside me only you understand...you welcome it...you appreciate it... like no one else can.I can see inside your most beautiful soul...like mine it is dark...of this we have no control...it calls to me crying...wanting to be loved...it will slip into mine...like hand into glove.To quench my thirst for you I cannot wait...to drink in your dark soul...your love to partake...wrap me in your darkness...fill me with desire...for you are the only one that sets my heart on fire.

Loneliness
loneliness is wanting someone to trust loneliness is sometimes crying at night loneliness is wanting to smile more loneliness is wanting to be happy more loneliness is wanting for someone who may not come loneliness is dying slowly loneliness is wanting someone to smile at you loneliness is wanting someone to talk to loneliness is wanting someone to care loneliness is wanting someone to touch loneliness is wanting to be loved loneliness is wanting to love

Things Abt Tiny U
Before she was born: the death of Granny At the age of 1: don't remember anything abt it At the age of 2: fell on the broken mirror At the age of 3: be left alone at home and no one fed her whole day long the punishment of 3 At the age of 4: the chinese violin At the age of 5: chickabiddy and the lost pink shoe At the age of 6: her best sidekick and the abc book At the age of 7: the red cap and her first cat At the age of 8: the accident At the age of 9: rumba, cha-cha,samba,jive and paso doble At the age of 10: the boss of the scholl gang At the age of 11: depressing middle school BLAH BLANK At the age of 14: get rid of the idiot scholl meet her love be chosen At the age of 15: exclusive high school and skateboard At the age of 16: suicides

Master Task 6
She stood up from the bar, with her drink in her left hand she brushed her hair from her face started walking to the dimly lit area. Her heart was pounding in her veins. She approched the man she thought might be the one. As she got closer to him and her eyes ajusted to the drakness that ingulfed him, his features became clearer to her. his hair was dark and shined even in the darkness, his eyes were gray like the ocean in the in middle of a storm, fighting for control. she could tell that he worked out, his muscles seemed to fight for there place under his his black t-shirt and blue jeans. When there eyes met she could feel the heat rise on her face. He smiled and showed his stright white teeth so gently, at her which put mind at ease quickly. He was sitting down he reached down to take her right hand, he pulled it to his mouth and kissed the top of her hand. She thought it was "old fashion" to do such a thing to do such a thing. He looked her up and down which made her nevous even

M.t. 7
She looked back at Danmon, He asked her if she would like to go the VIP area so they could talk where it was 'quieter' She never been to the VIP area and she knew Tom would know they were there so she would be safe. So she accepted his invite to the VIP. He stood from his chair, God he was taller then she thoughthe was. He had to be atleast 6 foot5,she got up from her sit followed him around th bar to a stair case behind the bar, he gave the same card to the guy who was blocking the stairs he swipped it though a computer. the guy looked at Danmon then back at the screen then handed him the card. He lean over to the guy and said something to him, then the guy looked at me and back to Danmon and smiledat him. Danmon took my hand and lead me up the stair case. Upon the top of the stair case there was along hall way. there a stone wall on the left and doors on the right. He walked to the second door and opened it and held it open for me to enter the room. the room was so nice compared to

Mater Task8
Danmon just let her drink and relax. She looked like she needed it. His arm was on the top of the couch when she placed her head on the couch she put her arm right into his left arm. She didnt move away, so he thought of it as a step. as in she was relaxing more. "do you want to go sit at the bar" he asked questionly. She looked over to him, she had clearly been crying again, but she tried to smile "yes, i would like that" he got up from the couch and held his hand out so she could get up easier off the couch. She was shaking as she placed placed her hand into his large palm. He helped her up, as she tried to stand without falling over. goodness i had to much to drink she thought as they walking over to the glass wall. He cafefully helpped her to the chair, just then there was a knock on the door. He smiled at her and went to answer the door. it was the guy from down stairs she thought he handed him some papers and said something to him but it was to soft for too hear. He looked at

Her To Me
My dark angel, shelter me in the darkness of your truth, hide me from th blinding light of the naive and innocent, protect me from the evils of the ignorant,..help me to fight away my demons, ..for I put my heart in your keeping, my soul within your reach..waste not what is left within this fallen one.... She loves me and i can feel the love, she is such a amazing peroson and i am so lucky to have her as my angel..

Thanks Soldiers
tomorrow is the 4th of july; thank you to all our soldiers. the ones in the p a s t, the ones in the present. t h e s o l d i e r s w h o h a v e d i e d. , and the ones still fighting for our country. thank you, for everything you've done. God Bless ♥

Wendell Wants You! Walk 20 Minute A Day To Live
Disclaimer: I am not a trained professional, nutritionist, dietitian or doctor in nutrition nor fitness. Everything I read on meals & moves is based on my experience, opinions and what I have learned on my own. Please talk to your doctor before starting any weight loss or exercise program! Welcome to my Blog. Sometimes good, sometimes bad. . . NEVER DULL!! It. Is. So. FRUSTRATING BEING OVERWEIGHT! Let's Get to Know Each Other a Little Better First: My name is Wendell. I'm an American living overseas in Bavaria Germany. Once was a soldier, I am retired from the United States Army and am currently employed by the Department of Defense in Europe. I'm diabetic! This is a real hard disease and it's very nasty to coexist Over-51 Today 5th July 2011 I start walking for the Lessons Learned. I walk for the Miles Accumulated. I walks because I'm able. I walk to do good for my body & soul. That's my Story. What's Yours? Start you own journey to eat healthy. Start Today. Wh

The Verdict On Casey Anthony
I was watching the verdict being read today in regards to Caylee Anthony. Her mom was accused of killing her. The verdict came bac not guilty. How can a parent do that. She had no emotions when the verdict was read but she got up and hugged her attorney after everything was said and done. Why is it that she is going to get away with murder and this girl isn't going to get the justice she needs. Casey told a friend of hers at one point that the tatoo that she had was dedicated to her daughter caylee. I just think that it was just a good show in my opinion. what is everyone else's opinion on the trial.

Pimp Trade Liar
I stuck Pimp Trade??? in my Status got this chick... this chick however never pimped me back... said she been trying... its only 10:30am so the pimper things not clogged.. how do I know that cause I pimped her out... anyways... watch out for her! KARMA KITTIE THE SOUL DESTROYER@ fubar

He's A She!... Popular Opinion Thinks So..
I found a pic, it told me to do this. I did them. This is the pic.. http://www.damnlol.com/pics/687/275da07ef77c1438b5da5fe1b6d0826c.jpg I found an article... Which you REALLY should scope out.. I copied and pasted it below.. *giggles like a schoolgirl* 50 Most Popular Women on the Web, Per Google Search Results By LIZ HERON May 6, 2010 Which women are searched most often on Google? COED Magazine has compiled a list based on Google search results that is flying around the Internet, sporting some surprises -- Justin Bieber comes in at No. 7 -- and some givens -- Lady Gaga tops the list at No. 1. Here are the top 10: 1. Lady Gaga 2. Kesha 3. Madonna 4. Beyonce 5. Rihanna 6. Britney Spears 7. Justin Bieber 8. Miley Cyrus 9. Paris Hilton 10. Avril Lavigne Washington's famous women made a showing as well: former Alaska Gov. Sarah Palin is No. 18, first lady Michelle Obama No. 21 and Secretary o

Rideing My Bike At Night Feels Like Magic :) :)
i have a 50's style bicycle my dad gave me the bicycle for my 15th birthday and . 6 years ago i got this feeling i should ride my bike and i got it from my mom who kept it for me and i fix it up and the next night around midnight . i got my ipod.i rode my bike i named it billy lol . i just felt so free rideing my bike all of my stresses melted away . when i'm rideing my bike at night i forgett about the assholes who give me stress or my job i just ride around . i notice things the building are more beautiful and no one is around .the streets are empty its just me and billy . when i'm in my car things are small and all the same . rideing my bike everything is so big lol . i hope one day to ride my bike in new york at night it would be a real treat . in my town some people think they know who i am without knowing a fucking thing about me . i'm just a girl that rides my bike at night with a big smile on her face happy that no one is around but me and billy :) :) . my friend get's so ma

Word Vomit
Not that any of you will ever read this, but i need to vent. so here i am. Read if you want don't if you don't want to. i don't really care at this point. I'm having one of those weeks were I've been looking at what I've done with my life where i am going and what I'm willing to put up with. I've watched so much drama go down in my life and I've had no control over what's happening because I'm the one that trusts to easy, and I'm the one that if i love you, I'm going to love you. No IF's AND's or BUT"s about it. So as i watch all of my life unfold in the hands of people i thought would never hurt me or ever let this happen, i just let it happen. I don't fight it, I don't try to stop. I just let my fate be up to them, because I'm to afraid that I'm not worth the fight. That this is what i deserve for whatever reason. I don't clam to be perfect and i know i never will be, because I'm farrrr from perfect. I've done fucked up shit but I know I'm not all bad. I try to give people the bene

Caged
A caged bird cannot sing...she can not fly or even spread her wings.Trapped like an animal inside a cage...I would rather die than live this way.You hold me down and try to extinguish my flame...to you I think this is all just a game.The flame grows smaller with each passing day...before you know it I wont remember my name.I don't want to lose anymore of myself...I have to break free before nothing is left.Out of this cage I will spread my wings and fly...to sing sweet,sweet songs and bid you goodbye.

Do On To.......
It is strange how life just twists and turns so many pathways to stumble down Ever walking between the worlds spreading smiles all around Reach out and touch a strangers heart make them become a friend In the darkness of the night never lonely will you be again Things you do for others tenfold will be returned Embrace the lessons life has taught things your soul has learned For when the road is rocky and the pathway seems so steep Look to your friends for comfort to hold you when you weep Take time to smell the flowers while away life in the sun Always be kind to others appreciate everyone

The Most Recent Of Court Fidnings.
Ok folks I know I am going to get chastized for saying what I am going to say. But I am not going to sit by anymore and listen to it anymore. I know of the most recent court case that had its outcome be known on last Mon the 5th of July 2011. Yes the day after Independence day. Yes now you can define irony. The outcome of her court case that was all over the air ways for the past fucking months. Yes months. Well I define irony as this. Our country was founded on beliefs and strong such beliefs that was made a declaration to separate ourselves from another government to form another government and stronger country. To make things such as innocent until proven guilty. Well our justice system as much as it can suck sometimes and people don't get treated the way that they should. Yes I know people do not get what they deserve such as the case of last Monday. Maybe she should have gotten the chair or a lethal injection. But she didn't. Because they could not prove "BEYOND A REASONABLE DO

All I Want
For some time I’m searching for your loveWith the tune, that’s something I’ll remind you ofWhen I feel the turning of the sunEvery moon has something that I’m dreaming ofWe can sail and sail as one by the time we reach the sunWhen hope will guide my wayI’ll hear you say You are all that I want, you’re more than thisYou’ve been gone on your crystal ship‘Cause I’m standing on the shores with the wind and a kissTime will fly, on your crystal shipYou are all that I want, you’re more than thisYou’ve been gone on your crystal ship‘Cause I’m standing on the shores with the wind and a kissTime will fly on your crystal ship Now we sit and wonder at the moon,While my heart is beating so much fasterWe can rise, rise up like

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The More People You Push Out Of Your Life The Better!
So I have been doing pretty well at pushing people away! for good reason's to! If your not in my life it's cuz I want it that way. I don't really care what the fuck you say about me when in all reality whatever you say about me comes back to you three fold!. Certian people just cause you bull shit! and you know you DON'T deserve it. These people DON'T know you very well enough to be fucking with you!. All I gotta say to these people is get a fucking life and leave me outta YOURS!.and we'll get a long just fine!.

Ravished By Your Love
The breath I feel upon my face soothes my fevered brow, Ravished by the passion of your love, affecting me somehow. The yearning in my heart is to have it all right now, But it is better to take my time to learn your why and how. Why do you love me, you make bold claims of such; I wonder if you really know me, or profess love much too much. I am only a humble human, blessed with a loving heart Waiting for your heart to fall in place, for mine to have its start. I might not always show you, or even catch your drift Of what you want me to know, that causes us to shift. But if we take some quiet time and open up our hearts I think that you will be surprised to learn I figured you out from the start. It wasn’t really hard for me to fall, the how you love me was quite clear, And I would be far worse for wear, if you lived closer, Dear. So mosey your little self to home and make it quicker still; And give this lady’s heart a taste of love’s most precious thrill.

New Life New Me
New life New me, Im free to be myself. Im free to be me. I have been gone from fubar/cherrytap for over 2 1/2 years. I went thru a rough time and my ex wouldnt let me go. Finally I broke free of his evil talons and I can be me. I am happy. And living my life. I have had a transformation of changes in my life. Not only the weight loss but my attitude in life has change. Im so happy and enjoying life. Leaving him set me free. And I couldn't be happier.

[trust Me Dude, I'm Smarter Than Everyone]
So I had some leftovers I grabbed a couple new potatoes 2 spring onions 1 ear of sweet corn (already cooked) 1 chorizo sausage 1 smoked ham hock (already cooked in collard greens yesterday) 1/2 a banana pepper 1/2 a jalapeno A heavy pinch of salt 1 tsp of tumeric 2 tbs of paprika 1 tsp of cumin seeds 1 tbs of bacon fat I sliced my potatoes on the side of my box grater and dabbed them dry with a paper towel, they were almost see-through thin I stood my ear of corn up and sliced the kernels off and scraped the goo out with the back of my knife diced the onions cut ribbons out of the peppers and I deskinned my chorizo and broke it up with my fingers and threw all of that into my cast iron skillet to let it warm up while I de-rhined and broke apart the ham hock a lot of skin and soft cologeny fatty tissue is in the hock, and just little bit of solid meat to shred I think that's a good thing, I like these cologeny flavorful bits in fried rice and such but cut it rea

This Is A Survey. Because Apparently None Of You Know Anything About Me.
This is seriously going to get personal, you ready? I can handle it. If you were caught cheating, would you fess up? Depends what I'm cheating on I suppose. The last time you felt honestly broken? I'd say December. Are you craving something? Spagettios... it's the oddest thing. If you could have one thing right now what would it be? A pocket full of sunshine. Would you rather have ten kids, or none? None. I could never handle ten. What do you hear right now? A movie. And yahoo. And an AC. And the dryer. Is your bed against more than one of your walls? Yes- and I've got something to say about that. Grown ups beds should only touch one wall at a time. What’s on your mind right now? Nouns mostly. Are you there for your friends? To a fault. Last person to see you cry? Mother may I. What do you do when you get nervous? Fidget. Scratch my head. Be honest, do you like people in general? Nope. Not really...at all actually.

2nd Block
Princ3ss L...: u obviously dont like the way i do things so stay off my shit 11:49pm fluffy bunny: who are you again? 11:49pm Princ3ss L...: the woman u have been putting down for the past half hour 11:50pm fluffy bunny: oh please whichever whore you are i couldn't have possibly wasted a half hour on you 11:50pm Princ3ss L...: why be on fubar if ur going to be a huge douchbag? 11:51pm fluffy bunny: why ask for opinions if you're only gonna edit whine and cry like a bitch? 11:52pm fluffy bunny: jeez open forums are that way for a reason... don't be such a pantywaste loser 11:52pm Princ3ss L...: i asked for the opinion on the topic not bitch and moan whine i edit a comment that not about the mumm 11:53pm fluffy bunny: oh but it's always about the mumm yours just suck 11:54pm Princ3ss L...: how would u know if my mumms suck or not it was one mumm u dont know me or the other mumms ive posted

Where Im At
hi guys just wanted to let u know u can find me on twitter as heatherlove129 also and my new im is heatherlove0129 @YAHOO also the good old www.cams.com/heatherlove come see me at any time! more pics are about to be droped on ur asses too!!!;) love miss milf your heather love

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I was having a discussion with a friend the other day, and she pointed out that I had a lot of good advice to offer..."you could write a book!" To that, I simply replied that I have a lot of life experience...and unlike a lot of people, I've actually learned from it. I decided to start blogging about some of the experiences, beginnning with the specific situation my friend and I were discussing.Insecure/Jealous/Controlling MenThroughout the years, I've gotten very good at noticing early signs of uncontrollable jealousy and insecurity, and do whatever it takes to get out of the situation as quickly as I can. Occasionally, I give someone the benefit of the doubt when they clearly don't deserve it. The most recent situation I was in was so obviously wrong for me - I confided in a couple of friends about it while it was happening, but had to bide my time until the man was physically far enough away from me that I could end things without worrying about the repercussions. Then, I only had t

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The day has come for him to go. He holds her tight as tears stream down her face and says, "This isnt goodbye...This is i will see you see you soon and be home before you know it..." He kisses her forehead, her cheek, and as he kisses her lips and holds her tight. She grasps his hand as he releases her from his arms. Not wanting to let him go. Praying to god that this isnt the last time she sees his face or that this is the last time she feels his touch. It will be 6 months before she sees him again. That night for the first time in a long time she is alone. The bed seems massive with only her body in it. She holds his pillow tight breathing in his scent. Tears begin to fall. In the back of her mind is the small thought that he may not come home. She cries herself to sleep that night. His pillow wet with her tears. The next few days she seems to just be going thru the motions. The waiting has begun. Each day brings her closer to his return. She waits. She waits for hi

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>A Texas redneck was stopped by a game warden in East Texas recently with >two ice chests of fish, leaving a river well known for its fishing. The >game warden asked the man, "Do you have a license to catch those fish?">"Naw, my friend, I ain't got no license. These here are my pet fish.">"Pet fish?">"Yep. Every night I take these fish down to the river and let 'em swim >'round for a while. Then I whistle and they jump right back into this ice >chest and I take 'em home.">"That's a bunch of BS! Fish can't do that!">The redneck looked at the game warden for a moment and then said, "It's the >truth. I'll show you. It really works.">"Okay, I've GOT to see this!">The redneck poured the fish into the river and stood and waited. After >several minutes, the game warden turned to him and said, "Well?">"Well, what?" said the redneck.>"When are you going to call them back?">"Call who back?">"The FISH!">"What fish?">We in Texas may not be as smart as some, but we ain't as dumb as most.>You smart

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When you're not here to share my days and nightsMy life is so incompleteFor you are my heart, my soulThe ‘oneness’ I had known to seekWithout you I merely exist from day to dayWith you I know that I will findAll that I have been searching forMy completeness, my eternal peace of mindYou are the keeper of my dreamsThe man who holds my heart in his handsThe one I want to spend my life withThe one with whom I will always standStand beside through thick and thinThrough all that life will throw our wayKnowing that this special love we shareWill guide us, each and every dayThis journey was started long agoBefore this time and placeThe journey of completenessAs two hearts and souls embraceForever is what I want with youFor the search is at an endOur hearts have found each otherAs lovers, as soul-mates, as friends.

Depressed!
Hey everyone, Your girl apple finally starting her blog! Though possibly not on the best of days but it's getting started. Everyday all of choose the paths we wish to take in our lives, as do I. But if its such a simple everyday task, then why is it most like myself always end up taking the wrong path? It just seems that no matter what we do it's always wrong. Sure we have everyday bumps along each path, but they don't drag us down and making us feel that nothing we do is ever right. Currently I struggle mainly against myself, I'm close to loosing a friendship with a dear friend because of my stupidity. I had thought there was something more between us but they found someone else, so now I just feel lost. Every time I'm around them now it seems like I continuously mess up what is remaining of our friendship. I've even tried distancing myself from them but, nothing seems to make it any easier, and only seems to make things worse...

Just Idle Thoughts
ok so it's been awhile since i blogged and well alot has happened since the laost blog but not sure how much i wanna share of it. but i can say i am a happier in many ways since i am enrolled in college ready for it to start but gotta say i am scared as shit tho means so many new things to come in my life and decisions to be made and not sure witch way to move or if these classes may just pull a cincinnati switch on my ass and i am gonna be left out in the cold? if this happens has i burnt to many bridges to turn back around and pick up with the mediocore life that i am in now where my biggest thrill is looking forward to going out to eat at night i mean don't get me wrong i get great joy out of hanging with my online friends and my nightly games of backgammon with bella where i get my ass whipped 8 out of 10 times are awesome and knowing that i can tell her anything and she knows what i mean and where i am coming from makes a day ten times better and i have met some cool new people bu

Where The Stones Met.
He was only a man. Black hair greying, leather grip fraying. Always unraveling. The second he released, it just spiraled out of control, often rewound, often ignored. No manner of divinity or tyrannical mischief in his eyes. Weariness was a word that rose to lips, though caution baited it back from utterance. From the saw-toothed, battered edge of his blade, to the dry lips and knicked steel across his body. The weariness of too many years. Too many years of sleeping on knives, and driving through armor, muscle and bone for his wage. He was only a man, he swore up and down. But as the years drug harder against his bones, and the souls of defeated foes pawed from lonliness and hunger at his ankles, he often had to wonder. He stopped for a spell against a gnarly elm, the leaves were thick and green as was the smell of summer. All around him were whispering leaves and gossiping birds, and snickering insects. Hardly the time or place for a snack, but he had been walking all

My Silvery Wish
I stare out of my windowwatching the world go by seeing a few couples thinking will that ever be me will i ever feel that kind of love to be someones lady the one they can feel across a crowded room to look in his eyes feel the world melt till its just you and i I want that feeling but at what cost im scarred already my heart held on by threads my soul cries out please pllllllllease do i stay in my walls dare to try once more my head says no my heart whispers yes my soul just says ppppppplease I want to know a touch that can tempt me in my dreams a love that penetrates my walls to be devoured whole to know of only one mans touch for the rest of my life that is my wish a wish i gave flight to staring up at the silvery moon grant my wish sister moon my tears fall silently my wish is there touch its silvery threads feel me come to my love come grant my silvery wish copyright@tamithalynn i write to vent my feelings ....

Just Once
Just Once one stinking time I want to get the guy, and not worry about any one stealing him from me. I want to be able to trust him around other girls and not feel jealous when he's with them because i know he's loyal ♥ [ I x want x to x know x he x wouldn't x dare x look x at x prettier x girls] ♥ because I'm the only girl he sees and wants. I want to be with him for more than a month, and not have my heart broken for a reason i don't know. I want my imperfections to be beauty to him. Just once

From Bugs To Men
So about that bug.... It changed and grew and developed over time. It evolved. So how do men evolve? Better yet, how do we evolve in relationships? Firstly, we are visual. We see something shiny that attracts us and so we are drawn to it, with no idea how that shiny pretty thing might react to us. Remember the bug? Like a moth this time. So at first we aren't very evolved. That shiny object attracts us. It is just an object at that point, right? Looks..... But then we evolve just a little bit and understand we must appear attractive ourselves. If we evolve yet a bit more we understand it is our actions, our words, our feelings that attract the fairer sex. We both use our individual charms to draw each other in. But then what?

I Think I Am Beginning To Fall For Another Person
I think I am beginning to fall for another person. Can't help it, there are just too many girls out there and my girl's just too plain. Be contented. Yes, there are people who are greater than her. There are people that are more attractive, more intelligent, more caring, and more fortunate. That's life - full of temptations. But don't be deceived by those things. Because didn't you ever realize that there are people who are also greater than you? Yet, she chose you.

Tamales Sinaloa-style
I love tamales! You love tamales! We all love tamales! I will give you a detailed How-To for the meat, the masa, the prepared tapas (cornhusks), the fillings and cooking. If you have any questions, just let me know. Puerco en Chile Colorado (Red Chile Pork) Ingredients This recipe makes enough meat filling for 90-120 tamales. Leftovers can be frozen and eaten later in tortas, tacos or burritos. Pork This is best made the night before. 10 lbs. Pork picnic shoulder (with bone and fatty skin still on it) 4 lbs. Pork neckbones (espinazo de puerco) 2 tbs. Ground cumin[/li][li]2 tbs. Minced garlic 2 cups La Lechonera Naranja Agria or 1 beer of choice or 1 cup of vinegar 8 medium-sized tomatoes, sliced[/li][li]2 large-sized yellow onions, sliced 2 tbs. salt 1 tbs. pepper Water Dutch oven pot, or any heavy large stew pot When ordering the pork at the meat counter, make sure to have them cut the pork shoulder in medium-sized pieces. The pork neckbones already come in man

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With chaste heart, and pure eyes I celebrate you,my beauty, restraining my blood so that the line surges and follows your contour, and you bed yourself in my verse, as in woodland, or wave-spume: earth's perfume, sea's music. Nakedly beautiful, whether it is your feet, arching at a primal touch of sound or breeze, or your ears, tiny spiral shells from the splendour of America's oceans. Your breasts also, of equal fullness, overflowing with the living light and, yes, winged your eyelids of silken corn that disclose or enclose the deep twin landscapes of your eyes. The line of your back separating you falls away into paler regions then surges to the smooth hemispheres of an apple, and goes splitting your loveliness into two pillars of burnt gold, pure alabaster, to be lost in the twin clusters of your feet, from which, once more, lifts and takes fire the double tree of your symmetry: flower of fire, open circle of candles, swollen fruit raised over the meeting of

I Will.......
The darkness takes me filling me soul the hurt and anger starts taking its toll i hear the whispers of water running red then I realize its MY voice in my head how do i fight what i cannot see how do i stop from hating me so i will let go to tired to fight i will stay in the shadows i will walk the night........ Outlaw Angel

Poems By Me......
How can you ache and crave for someone's touch When you have never felt it? I do this for yours, though, And the yearning grows more each day I have never wanted anything in my life As much as I want you When you whisper such sweet love In my ear when we talk You make me melt into a puddle Of complete helplessness You have become my every waking thought And my every dream at night I breathe in so hard Trying to catch my breath when we can't talk I close my eyes so tight Hoping when I open them you will be there But I know I have to wait Until the time is right It seems so far away That I think I am losing my mind I want to breathe in your scent And keep it with me all day long I want to taste your love for me By kissing your sweet lips I want to feel your body next to me So when you leave for awhile I can hold on I just want you to know That I really do love you When the day comes and we are together You will always know and feel this I will always hug, kiss and love you Every moment o

Mirror Mirror On The Wall...
Looking into my reflection what do I see some strange fool stairing back at me! The jester hat atop his head the crack smile painted red… With a face so like mine twisted, painful & joyous yet unkind… I watch in a silent trance as the image before me expands till each line of my body & his lie exposed… with each change I see him shift before me amazed at this new gift… With new eyes do I see this dancing fool that bounds in circles around me… may cloths so soon turn to rags on his frame each lies told outwardly showing his shame… I watch each step as he shacks his staff makes jokes & his wicked cackling laugh… Then suddenly he stops eye to eye once more studying me as I have him each line in my strained face then down to another place… As if with eyes that could see within to the place where my pain begins… To the place filled with lies, half truths hidden from oneself … To what the world has shown him & to each one

Is This My World?
Is This My World.....? I look around & all I see is the crimson running down the walls... pooling at my feet... every where I look it stains the walls... little puddles of liquid shining their twisted light back at me... if only I could remember... every where the blood runs dripping down on me from above... covers my body... runs across my flesh... my hands stained by their disease... my sc3ams echoing back to my ears... is this mine... is this form another... every pour is consumed... the smell of it fills the air... filling my nostrils... filling my body with feelings I cant explain... ideas that make my mind tremble... thoughts dark disturbing & dangerous fearful & terrifying... inside I feel the maelstrom burning me alive... every where I see my crimson relation... my world turning round... I feel its disease run over my skin as I touch its sweet silkiness to me... fell the life's blood run over my body.. Feel the darkness touching my soul... hear the primal ro

Off The Grid
I want to travel by myself. I feel like I just NEED some time away. Dont get me wrong..I love my friends, family, cell phone and laptop. But I feel a need to just go! even if just for a day. Back when I was 21, I went to study in France. I did a lot of travelling with friends, but a great experience I had was traveling to Nice(that is pronounced like niece). I just decided I wanted to go. So I got on a bus, and walked around, found a cute hotel, walked on the beach, made out with a stranger. now, I feel lost without the gd cell phone/internet. So I think I am just going to trust in the universe and go to where I am supposed to go, just for me

Undead
Something warm Something damp Something inside makes you cramp Your face is drawing to a scream Your mind goes blank Your body writhes The last thing that you'll ever see My maniac smile Full of teeth Full of your life Full of your flesh You body falls To it's death A corpse is all of you that's left Again you'll rise And you will hunger For the flesh of another

Upcoming License Suspension
Well, my license will be officially suspended very soon so if anyone in my area wants to give me rides, let me know! LOL. Jerks, rapists and murderers need not apply, so if you turn out to be one and when you feel something hard upside your head that knocks you out, I'm gonna tell the cops I don't know what happened.

Hurt
There comes a time in ones life when u have to let the love of ur life go . Its never easy . You can't hold on to someone who dont love you back. Some times the right things to do in life are the most painful to do . They say if u truely love something set it free n if its ment to be it will come back to you . Sometimes we give our hearts away to someone to find out in the end they didnt truely want or respect what they had. All we can do is hope oneday they see what precious gift they had in there hands. Oneday they will see what they shattered, see the pain n hurt they causedto the one that did truely love them. Oneday we all hope to find that one true love . Is it out there ? I would like to think it is . We all want to find that one person who will take the time to climb our walls n see what true beauty is deep inside all of us . We all want that one person who looks at us and sees the true us n will stand by us threw all of lifes ups and downs. I may be broken now but in time

5 Years On Fu
Yes I have been here that long. Doesn't really seem like it but July 15, 2006 was the first time i logged into this site and I haven't missed many days since. I have seen the comings and goings of the "Reds", seen the first two male "Reds", seen the drama that ensued on a daily basis in the bulletins by this one or that one. I have survived Lost Cherry, Cherry Tap and now of course Fubar. I remember "Sweet Suzy" and all the fun it was to see what she would do next. If you don't remember ask me but if you do you will chuckle and of course the Sporks drama. All this being said, I want you to know why I have stayed here 5 years. Everyday I get up and open this site and for me its never really been about status (although I managed to top out at #18 years back), or the bling or the popularity. It's been about people and friendships that I've formed. People like JohnnyDevil, Hellcat, Tomcat, Donna, Eric, Jonel and many more, some who are real life that I have had the pleasure to

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‎5 DEADLY TERMS USED BY A WOMAN! (1) FINE: This is the word women use to end an argument when she knows she is right and you need to shut up. (2) NOTHING: means something & you need to be worried. (3) GO AHEAD: this is a dare, not permission , do not do it. (4) WHATEVER: A woman's way of saying screw you. (5) THAT'S OK: She is thinking long & hard on how and when you will pay for your mistake..

Hmm...
1:26am Guess you can call this the epic fail of nights... I thought I would have a fun Friday night game in San Diego (yes away from L.A.) especially with Carmageddon and stuff happening. So one of my closest friends, who is like a bestie, but more like a bro, invited me to watch the Giants play at Petco Park. Pitcher matchup of the night was Dustin Moseley against Tim Lincecum. I have a teensy weensy crush on Tim. Anywho, I thought it would be great to go and have fun while watching a game... No I'm not a trader to my team, they just didn't play in town. Anywho, my jaw just about dropped when I read my fb status as to who was at the game. I disregarded it. I thought, nah, nowhere close to me so I'll be fine. Nope, I was dead wrong. He was a few rows away from where my friend and I were sitting, plus it was obvious he was on a date. I was literally mortified. Here I was trying to have a good and fun time watching America's greatest pasttime (aside from football which

Gone
Its been 10 months since I wrote anything meaningful, and 2 years since I've written about anything going on in my life. SO! Here goes everything: (Rant warning!) I've decided to actually leave this site for a while. Maybe not for good. Only time will tell. Between trying to get my life straight and listening to half of you bitch and complain about how you never get shit on this site, fuck it. I'm done listening to it. Sadly enough, I'm always by my family's pages. I don't even have my computer to use to get on everyday. BUT I STILL SHOW LOVE DAMN IT. So screw all of you who come by my page once every 2-3 weeks while i'm at yours every day. I have a lot of frustration in my life right now. What I need is not stress, and this site and the people on it are doing just the opposite. Since I don't have the spare cash to level, or show love important enough to warrant getting anything in return It's time for me to say my goodbyes for a while. The only time I will be online on Fubar is to p

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Wanting to hold you. wanting to hear your whisper. wanting to feel your caress. wanting to feel you crushing me. wanting to hold your hands. wanting to hear you say my name. wanting you to pull my hair. wanting to taste youWanting you. Waiting.

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You know, if our elected leaders in Washington spent just HALF as much time actually working towards a solution to our current debt crisis as they do in pointing the finger at someone else whiel playign the "Blame Game", we might just not be in such a horrible financial spot. However, it's not just our political leaders. Is's the average American citizen. We seem to live in an "entitlement" based society these days, and there are SO many people standing around with their hands out, expecting the Government.....meaning the American Tax Payer, to pay their way when times get tough. We, as a Nation, just can;t afford it any more. If we're going to dig ourselves out of this mess, we're ALL going to have to buckle down and face this thing head on. This means HIGHER TAXES, CUTS IN SOCIAL SERVICES, Higher Interest rates, and a whole slew of other changes that we don't want to actually deal with. Too bad!! We no longer have time to play the blame game in Washington....or in our o

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i told you i loved you you punch me in the face i told you i would always be there for you you left me on the side of the road with a bloody lip i told you would u protect me from predator's you became the predator i opened my eyes saw the black and blue marks you tried to tell me it was my fault i left you never and looked back you was left with noone to hurt i'm fearless you are nothing but a nightmare i finally woke up from i wrote this poem a long time ago to remind myself to never allow anyone to control me again peace & love nicole

Journal Of Ossianphi....
The night covers me, the moon leads me to a town. A small quiet town with families children and tranquility but all that will be over with in 20 minutes. I have not yet how to suppress the hunger for human blood yet and everytime I feel the need I can feel my humanity be driven further out of grasp. The sweet smell of the grass is intoxicated and the smell of fresh blood is driving me to maddness. Creeping closer to the town I come across a man wandering just on the outskirts of the town. He asked me what my business I have with in the town. I tell hem I am traveler looking for bedding, trade, and food. He looks at me with a curious and suspicious eyes, then he makes his mistake. He turns his back to me and lounge at him. I wrap my arm around his neck plunging my fangs deep into the side of his neck. His warm life pours down my throat, The salt and the metallic taste makes my brain fire like a million lighting strikes, his body goes limp then with a sudden snap I break his neck. Now bl

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Why is it when you meet aguy you get all excited thinking this could really go somewhere , and after a couple days of talking they turn out to be jerks why do guys always do that, ugh. I mean all i want to do is meet a great guy who I could possible settle down with and instead I meet or chat or finding these douch bag men who all they can think about is the breasts or the sex or if they are getting any tonight from you, so when you meet aguy d o you go with gut instinct or do you blow them off assuming they are ike every guy already out there? Do guys know there is more out there about a female then sex,now don't get me wrong sex is great but damn i want more then sex, i want to end my sleepless lonely nights, and wake up to have someone to eat breakfast with and make dinner for and be waiting there at night to get physical why is this so freaking hard ?????? Not to mention I am funny down to earth im not conceaded arrogant a gold digger or any of that and yet i still meet th

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I'm trying to focus on work but my head is not here today... a real good friend had a bike accident and is now in CICU...people don't respect motorcycle riders like they should... and that disrespect could very well cost him his life!! He's a father and husband...and was on his way to church.. I have to admit.. I'm scared.

You Can Be What You Want
f you would want love, be loving.If you would want care, be caring.You can be what you want.If you would want joy, be joyful.If you would want peace, be peacful.You can be what you want.If you would want happiness, be happy.If you would want kindness, be kindly.You can be what you want.If you would want forgiveness, be forgiving. If you would want acceptance, be accepting. You can be what you want.This moment is your gift to the world.Give what appears to be missing.Give what you appear not to be getting.Give what you think you have been searching for.Give what you believe you are waiting for.Give generously, without thought of loss and sacrifice.Give openly, that you may recieve what you want.Give freely, that you may find what you are after.Give fully, that your waiting may be over.Above all, give what you want.

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I just returned from a great event in Erie, Pa. It is a motorcycle run called roar on the Shore. It was for a great cause the Shankville ZFlight 93 Menorial fund. It starts on a thursday with a parade of bike. Over 6,000 this year! It goes from the casino down to the waterfront on the shores of lake erie. I was so suprised when we got there there was even more bikes there! They are saying over 10,000 motorcyle were there for the 4 days and over 65,000 people. The neat part of the parade is that it takes country road into the city. I was so surprised how many people line the route we took. Yooung and old, males and female and gay and straight alike, some with American flags waving. Groups were having a party into the parade reached them. One person told me it told over 30 minutes for all of the bikes to pass by them. People still love this counttry no matter what shape we are in financially or even with all of the crap that goes on in Washington. People are what make this country str

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Inside- you're dieing as if you feel your soul drifting off... Outside- Slap a smile on & pretend everything's allright Inside-You feel yourself falling away more & more... Outside- You make sure you seem happy & carefreeInside,O Inside-You make sure no one knows,Hide it deep deep down... Outside-You laugh,smile joke, horse around, hang out Inside-You're crying to yourself, dieing to just get it off Outside-You help out, you help people Inside-Seems as if you're aways letting out screams to yourself, but only you can hear em... Outside-You listen to people's problems, telling them everythings ok Inside-You wonder when someone will help you out of this world of torture...

All I Ask For
Is for one guy to treat me like he's Goddess.. someone to love and adore me as I do him. Someone that has respect for me.. and won't lie to me. Someone that leaves me small messages.. says I miss you A Kiss A Hug Just adore me like I do you. This can't be to hard to do? is it really?

Bat Shit
feels like static try not to panic thoughts just race no specific pace fast then slow the back again self contained mental whirlwind emotions fade in and out going crazy without a doubt spinning around 90 to nothing i'd cling to anything give me something bring me to solid ground something lost that

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I was out this weekend, no computer only television and my cellphone. There was the radio but I didn't turn it on because I wasn't really interested these days in the radio. As I was out there across town with just those "big technology" besides anything electronic over there I pursued the outside. It was on the bay and I loved it but there were only few lights but what mattered was not the lights, the big million dollar houses lined up and even the city which was few minutes from where I was. It was nature, the crashing waves, the crimson sky that veiled the night sky and finally the moon which hid mysteriously in the city life. The crashing waves were everything for me as it reminded me that the sound it produces is its own. It was a breezy night as if a hat needed to be flying up there in the night sky. It needed a dance partner nevertheless for the trees that were swinging with it were composing already their melodies and chords. The waves was a reminder that life within them can

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Sometimes this place is so much fun. For a girl addicted to flirting and attention, it's a real turn on. When I say turn on, you KNOW what I mean. I get the rush, tingly feelings, the heightened sensations. This place can be like a drug, so addictive with the feeling of warmth and desire that rush through me. I am different when I am here. I am bolder, sexier, stronger, more confident than most people in RL ever see me. I am naughty, risque' and curious. I have met some of you but most of you I haven't. I knew some of you before this and we continue to know one another in a new way. You see another side of me that is beyond the mom that I am and the wife that I used to be. I am a lover AND a fighter, but I only fight for what I believe in. Drama is only fun when I don't really care about whether I win or not, because it is a game. Ultimately, this place is my game, my alternate reality. In the land of Fu, I am both more and less. But for those of you who have come to really know me, yo

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I normally dont blog about things like this but this really bothered me this morning. Ok so I left the person who hurt me very badly 4years ago. And the reason I left, the abuse and the cheating. How I found out he was cheating from my son who was 7 at the time. When we left everything was left behind so we started new. We moved 200 miles from that rotten little town. So the woman he was cheating on me with.. Low and behold I look in my "Who's checking me out" box.. and there she is. And on top of my screen I see a message "ha ha I have your house". This dirty little home wrecker. So I blocked her and then had to swamp my settings so I dont have her allow her friends to message me. I just dont get how some people can be gold diggers and ruin other's lives. I dont care about the house or the physical items. I have a better life. What I care about was how my 7 year old seen things. Including her fat hairy dairyer because she has that hairy disease. So that kinda torked my as

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Lemons
Well,I've been fighting to save my home for over a year now.Due to the lack of work here,looks like I've lost my fight.Guess I've been handed a basket full of lemons.I'm going to move soon and have no idea when I'll be back on-line.Got to do my best to make lemonade.I won't delete my profile because I have a great deal of hope that I'll be back soon.Lost my wife to cancer,now I'm losing my home.Things can only get better from here on out.I want to thank my friends here for helping me cope with my losses.It means more to me than you realize.I'll miss you all and hope to be back soon.Farewell for now. Been going to interviews every day now.My hand is cramping from filling out applications.Everyone wants to hire me,they're just waiting for work to start.Damn near all the companies I've interviewed with have about five jobs waiting to start.Problem is,the banks aren't releasing funds.Thanks Obama,you really screwed up with those new banking laws you got passed.I hope you're proud of putti

Salsa
9:51pm PST So I decided to go out to a Salsa class right? I mean I have been on and off for the past couple of weeks. I decided I would stay longer. OMGosh the partner I had made me feel really dumb and there were other chicks who couldn't even carry a beat. So I kept dancing the steps the professor taught us. He kept stopping me everytime there was an extra turn. Apparently, I wasn't the only one he stopped. I kept insisting that after one of our steps, there was a twirl where he had to let go while stepping back and me step forward. Ugh... huge mistake. I never felt so uncomfortable and out of place. And then he had to nerve to tell me that he'd been to other classes, and that he's intermediate close to expert. I'm like well, you should be considerate cuz most of us are barely learning. He just went on and on and on about himself each and everytime we partnered up. You see, you are supposed to switch partners. So the way the instructor does it is she asks the guys to

My World...
I can be myself here. I can tell the truth and never have to say, "I'm fine." I can talk freely about it. About how even when some mornings and I'm content, I can still feel it tapping silently behind my heart. I know it's there, waiting for something, anything, the tiniest hiccup in my day to claw it's way out and spread like cancer through the dark bits of me. It spreads from behind my heart, to my lungs (it's almost musical), it rushes to my head and then I am gone, rendered defenseless, helpless. People don't understand it. It's not an over reaction, it's losing a battle in a long dark war. I know, ultimately, I won't win this fight, I am already so tired. I know one day it will take me. My heart will decide it is time to stop pumping it's poisons through my veins. That will be the day that people will know, once and for all that every time they asked how I was that the best I could do was spin lies, to grant them the freedom to doubt it's existence. That will be the day that it fi

What We Need
Our love needs no words, but so many words we say each day Just a reminder that in our hearts, our love will forever stay With our words we do convey, about a love so lucky that we share About a love we call special, a love that follows us everywhere Our love needs no actions, but each day our actions say so much About the way our love has grown, the way we crave each other's touch With our actions so much we show, about a love so blessed to know About a love so honest and real, a love we will never let go Our love needs no questions, but so many answers we both found Answers to a wish of long ago, to find a love to make our hearts pound With our answers so much we did learn, a lesson to never forget About a love that turned our life around, a love so happy we met Our love needs no finish, but in many ways our love has yet to start For we find ourselves all alone, so many miles that keep us apart With our start so many years ago, such a tiny seed now so grown About a love so incred

Another.. Lonngg Yet Short Day.
just sitting here once agin. ill be so glad when i startschool next week. the time goes sooooo slow when you have nothingto do. or you cant do and do what you please. being legally blind gets on my nerves.. even thoughive never had the ability to drive... i wish i did. think if i could get behind the wheel if i wanted would change alot. would save me breath n explaination lol but today stated off lagged lol. couldnt wake up for nothin. then i dozed off like three times now a big whopping headache ugh.. this couch is horrible. now im on fubar blah blah blahin... ugh lol till next time...

Just Slavegirl M
at this time my Slavegirl M should be allowed to introduce herself with her own words: I would like to introduce myself. I am Slavegirl M. I enjoy a variety of activities but what I enjoy most is pleasing and amusing my Sir. I enjoy reading, cooking, going to the beach and just relaxing with my friends. I consider myself to be your everyday average girl. I like to go to clubs and dance and have fun. I studied drafting in school and love architecture and its various forms. I look forward to learning from my Sir and I hope that everyone enjoys seeing my progress as much as I do. I am anxious to see what lessons I have next. I am grateful to be honored with the privilege of being Slavegirl M. Copyright by Slavegirl M i am happy and proud to call her my property. slavegirl m is not perfect, but she is on a good way and i am sure that she will reach a level of service and submissive thats above the normal standard. she is eager and willing to learn and to work on her

Health Issue Update
So my 24 hours of peeing in the orange jug is over. It was a slightly gross and uncomfortable experience and I wont get the results back for a bit. Though one of my blood tests did come back and everything was normal on that one other then an elevated white blood cell count. The odd part is I’m not showing any signs of an infection or virus so I’ve been put on broad-spectrum antibiotics and in ten days have to have my blood drawn all over again (I really hate needles). I’m going to try to put it all out of my mind for the weekend though. It’s going to be a busy weekend as is but on the bright side I get to spend a lot of it in my happy place (the arms of one very special guy). But for now there is a kitchen that needs cleaning and laundry that needs doing, everything else including worries can just wait.

A Joke With No Dirty Words
A Joke with No Dirty Words It is hard to find a joke today without a dirty word or two in it, but here is one: Two tall trees, a birch and a beech, are growing in the woods. A small tree begins to grow between them, and the beech says to the birch, "Is that a son of a beech or a son of a birch?" The birch says he cannot tell. Just then a woodpecker lands on the sapling. The birch says, "Woodpecker, you are a tree expert. Can you tell if that is a son of a beech or a son of a birch?" The woodpecker takes a taste of the small tree. He replies, "It is neither a son of a beech nor a son of a birch It is, however, the best piece of ash I have ever put my pecker in."

Just Some Wisdom
"Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one so that when we finally do meet the right person, we will know how to be grateful for that gift. Maybe when one door of happiness closes, another opens, but often at times we look so long at the closed door that we don't see the one which has been opened for us. The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch and swing with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had. It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives. Don't go for looks; they can deceive. Don't go for wealth; even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you smile because it takes only a smile to make a dark day seem bright. Find the one that makes your heart smile. Do something nice for someone everyday even if it is to simply leave them alone. May you have enough happiness to make you sweet

Blushes
Voglio che tu mi porti duro e veloce da riempire completamente con me il tuo cazzo, mi fa chiedere pietà, come ho urla di piacere al vostro possesso. i tuoi baci allover il mio corpo, la tua bocca sul mio petto. Sento la tua lingua, come si lavora il vostro senso giù il mio corpo. ponendo poco lecca, stuzzichini e baci tutto come ci si sposta verso la mia figa, voglio

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when the fun begins downtown sitting on the losers bench life i was living 10 times i died I'm not the same but I feel the same nothing is importnant oh my and now my mother looks as if she knows why i lied I was dying little by little each day killing myself snorting the pain all away falling asleep in the damp leaves hiding from all the killers and theifs downtown life was quite a thrill untill ant had to kill alife is taken away she will never get to see another burnt out day i sit around in a daze from inhaling to much purple haze watching the people throw there hacky sacks and the old men walking smoking cigars in slacks the punks blowing bubbles into the air I reach into my pocket an empty cigerette packmy nerves lack control now the downtown teen destrction is starting to unfold The omni is the perfect smoking spot in a corner behind the parking lot now i see my devils eyes bastard son of this wild child Im holding back. half okay to pretend my feelings

Sucker
Sucker (made for me by my buddy BLAHME) It started off nice, it was all so grand We were enjoying our time, but I had to take a stand Was all too good to be true, something seemed wrong You had another one, that's why I'm writing this song How could you be so dumb, trying to hide it all Did you think I wouldn't guess, wouldn't notice her call How could you be so blind, living a life full of lies You hid your other bitch, now try this one on for size Never again will you see this smile, you aren't worth the ink on a stamp You're a selfish motherfucker, go enjoy your tramp I'm better than that, you're not even on my level Raised by myself, not your ass all disheveled So I end this rhyme with one last bit, everything must come to an end I'm like Charlie Sheen with tiger blood, all I do is win

Hmmmmm
How do you expect kids to listen to their parents..when Tarzan lives half naked, Cinderella comes home at midnight,Pinocchio lies all the time, Aladdin is the king of thieves,Batman drives at 200 mph, Sleeping Beauty is lazy,and Snow White lives with 7 guys......We shouldn't be surprised when kids misbehave...they get it from their story books. :)

How To Love....
How To Love Lyrics[Lil' Wayne]You had a lot of crooks tryna steal your heartNever really had luck, couldn’t never figure outHow to loveHow to loveYou had a lot of moments that didn’t last foreverNow you in the corner tryna put it togetherHow to loveHow to loveFor a second you were hereWhy you over there?Its hard not to stare, the way you moving your bodyLike you never had a loveNever had a loveWhen you was just a young’un you’re looks but so preciousBut now your grown upSo fly its like a blessing but you can’t have a man look at you for 5 secondsWithout you being insecureYou never credit yourself so when you got olderIt’s seems like you came back 10 times overNow you’re sitting here in this damn cornerLooking through all your thoughts and looking over your shoulderSee you had a lot of crooks tryna steal your heartNever really had luck, couldn’t never figure outHow to l

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Scientists have found evidence of volcanoes on the far side of the Moon. scientists report that a rare example of volcanism on the lunar surface not caused by an asteroid, meteor or comet impact.Before finding this new evidence we only had evidence of volcanoes on the rear side known as Procellarum KREEP terrane.That is some name huh? They focused on an area containing numerous domes, some more than six kilometres high. The domes featured steeply sloping sides which Jolliff and colleagues interpret as, "volcanic in origin and formed from viscous lava". "We also observe circular depressions, which we suggest result from caldera collapse or volcanic vents," the researchers wrote. The LRO data indicates the rocks are rich in thorium, silica and alkali-feldspar minerals, making them different from the black basalts that make up the lunar mare on the near side. Dr Sarah Maddison, an associate professor of Astrophysics in Melbourne says such a

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By Michael Snyder - BLN Contributing WriterThe crumbling U.S. economy is putting an extraordinary amount of financial stress on American families. For many Americans, "flat broke" has become a permanent condition. Today, over half of all American families live paycheck to paycheck. Unemployment is rampant and those that do actually have jobs are finding that their wages are rising much more slowly than prices are. The financial condition of average American families continues to decline and this is showing up in all of the recent surveys. For example, according to a new Gallup poll, "lack of money/low wages" is the number one financial concern for American families. To make ends meet, many American families are going into even more debt and more American families than ever are turning to government assistance. Right now, more Americans than at any other point since World War II are flat broke and have lost hope. Until this changes, the frustration level in this co

You Can Do This
Like the sun rises and falls The love in our lives comes and goes Some days are beautiful and pleasent Those are the days you dont want to end Some days are grey and stormy Those are the days that dont end when u want them to You yern for the days of sun Try your hardest to fill them with laughter and happiness But they rarely last, the day always ends Yet, knowing at the end of the day you will be sad that its over you long for the next to begin One day we will find our never ending day untill then, enjoy the ones that pass and do it to the fullest!

The Newest Thing That Pisses Me Off
so im sitting on fu, minding my own business, watching some people scroll on by... and i see one. try to ignore it. try to ignore it. remember what the doctor said about turning green when you get angry........ so im on my home page and catching up on drinks i need to repay, and i see another one... light some incense, chant, look at pictures of puppies... do something before you start your murderous rampage hey! cool... new fan. let me go show this chick some love to thank her for finding me so interesting that she considers herself a "fan"... and on her page, one of her admirers... is ANOTHER one. deep breath..... fuck it............. lets go listen fuckheads if you have the motherfucking balls to put any form of any representation of MY beloved Marine Corps as your motherfucking default picture, you BETTER keep your motherfucking statuses and your stupid fucking fu names appropriate for what youre representing yourself as. YA DIG?? if i see one more eagle, globe and

Moving On
To move on from such a toxic relationship is hard, especially when the other wishes you ill. But I will not, and as much as this person thinks he has, let them destroy me! I am far too good of a woman and person to be let on by a false prophet! I knew the game the second time around and I played along while they played me. A fool I know, but I needed to be sure. And unfortuantely I was correct! I will no longer be bound to a single sheep again! or any sheep for that matter. The fact is this: a cold heartless slab of meat isn't one to love or to even hate! They are just that...meat! They forgot one thing though. My wrath! Thine is greater than Satan his self and I don't have to do a thing! not even lift one lil finger. However, it is that great, more so than ever spoken of by that toxic one! Never underestimate me! I am a wonderful person, but to be fucked with isnt a good idea! I have moved on. I have great and "real" friends, and a few takers in line

"go Away Fda " - Walnuts Are A Drug? (repost)
The Food and Drug Administration is telling California-based Diamond Foods that they need to remove wording from their walnut packages that advertises the health benefits of the tasty nut. Unless, that is, they want to apply for an application that would consider their product a drug. The FDA is cracking down hard on Diamond and says that the distributors can’t advertise the health benefits of the nut’s omega-3 fatty acids, even if they are verified by doctors. Three dozen published medical papers currently attest that eating walnuts improves vascular health and can combat heart attack risk. Even if doctors stand by those statements, the FDA does not and says that Diamond needs to nix the nut note that goes on their packages. According to the FDA, Diamond is “misbranding” their nuts because they “are offered for conditions that are not amenable to self-diagnosis and treatment by individuals who are not medical practitioners.” “Therefo

Joke
Mother-In-LawA Man,His Wife And His Mother-In-Law Went On Vacation To The Holy Land. While They Were There, The Mother-In-Law Passed Away. The Undertaker Told Them."You Can Have Her Shipped Home For $5,000, Or You Can Bury Her Here In The Holyland For $150.00'! The Man Thought About It And Told Him He Would Just Have Her Shipped Home.The Undertaker Ask,Why Would You Spend $5,000 To Ship Your Mother-In-Law Home When It Would Be Wonderful To Have Her Burred Here And Spend Only $150.00? The Man Replied, A Man Died Here 2,000 Years Ago,Was Burred Here, And Three Days Later He Rose From The Dead. I Just Can't Take That Chance.

I See You In My Dreams
I see you in my dreams, recurring like the wind. My unknown love, my unknown best friend. We passionately kiss, hold each other close and cuddle. Walk in the summer rain, splashing in the puddle. Enjoying each other for who we are inside, Opening up freely, proving we have nothing to hide. Together we laugh, sharing feelings that make us cry. Immense emotion, hoping it’ll never fade, nor die. Creating happiness, solely with the thought of one another. Do you really exist? Maybe one day I’ll meet this unknown lover…

If Your A Juggalo Please Copy And Paste This To Your Page! The Whole World Of Juggalos Needs To See This Message From Violent Jay.
"this shit is soo true we need to love this family more. -JUGGALOZ- Sorry to be all deep and serious but i got lots of shit on my mind. I'm tired of everything and everybody. The only thing i give a shit about in this hell we call a world is my Juggalo Family. The Carnival saved my life and my soul. My Juggalo Pride is the best thing that ever happened to me. It's starting to scare me for the fact when I sit back and actually observe the juggalo world, It seems like its going down hill. It seems to me that a lot of ninjas are out for self and trying to prove whos a bigger juggalo that who. There is no big or small juggalo. We are all the same. It doesn't take $4,000 is psychopathic merchandise to be a juggalo. Just because I got an old school mostastless jersey doesn't make me any better than a ninja with only one t-shirt. Being a juggalo is whats in your heart not whats on you clothes. I've seen juggalos callin each other juggahoes over spots in line at shows. That's BULLSHIT! Does an

Why????????
Why do you get that feeling that no one wants you anymore? I would really love to know the answer to that question right now . Right now it feel like no one wants me around them or to even talk to me anymore. its like im just there for them to put me down all the time and make me feel like shit. i have news for them ppl that think that . i have been thru a lot in my life so far and im still pretty young and sometimes it scares me to know ho much i have been thru in my life so far .

South Carolina Woman Faces Trial For "truck Nutz" (repost)
The police chief of a small South Carolina town will ask a jury to decide if a woman broke the state's obscenity laws by driving a pickup truck with plastic testicles hanging from the back. Bonneau Police Chief Franco Fuda ticketed Virginia Tice, 65, in early July at a local convenience store after spying the adornment dangling from her truck. South Carolina law considers a bumper sticker, decal or device indecent when it describes, in an offensive way as determined by contemporary community standards, "sexual acts, excretory functions, or parts of the human body." The offense carries a maximum fine of $445 but no jail time, Fuda said.

A Song For You - Donny Hathaway
I've been so many places in my life and timeI've sung a lot of songs I've made some bad rhymeI've acted out my love in stagesWith ten thousand people watchingBut we're alone now and I'm singing this song for youI know your image of me is what I hope to beI've treated you unkindly but darlin' can't you seeThere's no one more important to meDarlin' can't you please see through meCause we're alone now and I'm singing this song for youYou taught me precious secrets of the truth witholding nothingYou came out in front and I was hidingBut now I'm so much better and if my words don't come togetherListen to the melody cause my love is in there hidingI love you in a place where there's no space or timeI love you for in my life you are a friend of mineAnd when my life is overRemember when we were togetherWe were alone and I was singing this song for youYou taught me precious secrets of the truth witholding nothingYou came out in front and I was hidingBut now I'm so much better and

Sever My Heart
Walls of pain surround my brain, sending me shadows of soft disgrace. Harbinger of death, carry me away. Take me in your fold, to love me forevermore. Bury me deep and covered with sorrow, lies a heart of powdered glass. Shattered and broken is that soul of hope, crushed in desolation with the force of a shove. Images of past taunt me at my ear, telling me I am a fool. Never did I think I would be destroyed, by a loved one so dear to my heart's core.

Special Ability Defaults
Here is an example of what I can make for special ability defaults: thumb nail (what it shows as your default) and the bigger size when someone looks at your pictures! this is only an example of the unlimited possibilities that I can make! I can make pictures like this for all of the special abilities! Hit me up for more details (PRIVATE MESSAGE PLEASE) :) 2nd Example Example 3

Hmmmm...
Fubar has may me think real long and hard to the way i treat others, and how i get treated, I learned alot from others, but i would not give up my friends on fubar for nothing... thank you all !!! As to the people i have hurt am sorry... But i am human and it a two way street for the hurt game....

Me
i am no where near perfect; i eat when im bored, i fall for boys easily , im vunerable in believing lies, im hoping that one day i wont live by fake smiles, i live by quotes that explain what i'm going through , i make up excuses for EVERYTHING , i have bestfriends && enemies , (and thats life) live it,love it,learn from it

Things You Should Never Say To A Dj !!!
BEFORE REQUESTING SONGS, MAKING COMMENTS OR ASKING QUESTIONS OF THE D.J., PLEASE...READ THIS IN ITS ENTIRETY !1) PLAY SOMETHING GOOD...SOMETHING WE CAN DANCE TO!The D.J. has to play for more than one person... so what you hate may be another’s favorite song and EVERYTHING played here can be danced to one way or another 2) WOULD YOU PLAY SOMETHING WITH A "BEAT"?BE SERIOUS! We know of NO songs played in a club that don’t have some sort of Beat! 3) I DON’T KNOW WHO SINGS IT AND I DON’T KNOW THE NAME OF THE SONG, BUT IT GOES LIKE THIS...PLEASE don’t sing for the D.J. They have to put up with smoke-filled rooms and dangerous decibel levels all night... Do them a favor and DON"T give them a rendition of your favorite song. 4) EVERYBODY WANTS TO HEAR IT!Oh, sure... you polled everyone in the club and, as their spokesperson, you’re requesting the song.5) EVERYBODY WILL DANCE IF YOU PLAY IT!The D.J. won’t. I guess that blows a hole in that theory! 6) I

Sympathy
SYMPATHY Sympathy is like heroin. The more you give me the more I want. And it adds no value to my life. In fact it slows me down. Makes me forget I am responsible for my own life. You do not serve me by giving me sympathy. Give me empathy, and then ask me, “Now what?”

Fake Dude...exposed As A Chick.
People wonder why I do what I do...click below to follow the tale..... Click here & then link in stash!... Thanks stay cool, fucking heat...don't forget to vote on the poll out there ..and peace.

Battle Of The Bands Comment Etiquette
Hey crew.... Just wanted to post this up for everyone who may have missed. We are a community regulated site. If you see someting that looks wrong, send me a PM Today i cleaned up some traash that was mucking up the comment threads. This is the jist of the expectation of anyone commenting on a battle.

The Boaz Advice : ...hehehe :)
For all you singles who are in such a hurry 2 find someone, here's a quick piece of Biblical advice: Ruth patiently waited for her mate Boaz. While waiting on YOUR Boaz, don't settle for ANY of his relatives: Brokeaz, Poaz, Lyinaz, Cheatinaz, Dumbaz, Cheapaz, Lockedupaz, Goodfornothinaz, Lazyaz or Marriedaz...and especially his third cousin Beatinyoaz. Please, wait on your Boaz & make sure he respects Yoaz

Heart
I had closed the door upon my heartand wouldn't let anyone inI had trusted and loved only to be hurtbut that would never happen againI locked the door andtossed the key ashard and as far as I couldMy heart was closed for goodThen you came into my life andmade me change my mindjust when I thought thattiny key was impossible to findthat is when you held out your handand proved me wronginside your palm was theKey to My HeartYou had it all along

Shoulds
SHOULDS I have discovered something about the word “should.” When I tell someone else I think they “should” do something, what I am REALLY saying is, “I want you” to do that thing. And I have concluded that the reverse is true. When others tell me I “should” do something, what they REALLY mean is, “I want you to….” Taking it even further, whenever I find myself telling MYSELF, I “should” do something, what I am really operating under is the massive weight of all the “shoulds” that were laid on me by other people over the course of my life. So I have concluded that the word “should” does not serve me, and I have stopped using it.

No Shame
No shame. Scream your heart out, Nearly rupture the veins. No loss. No grief. Rival the world, Never again on your knees. Stand tall. Stand proud. Your heart lives loud. You are Who you are; Nobody else, Stand high for your life; Your love; Yourself. -772011- [Astra]

Erotic Writings
The day started out as any normal day would, then the phone rang. It was Him and the sound of His voice sent shivers all over my body. He spoke few words but was direct with His command “Come to me tonight and wear nothing under your dress except stockings” and then He hung up.The rest of the day I tried to stay focused on doing chores and running errands as usual, but my mind kept running into what the night would hold in store for me. Had I done something wrong and in need of punishment? Or was pleasure on His mind?I bathed, shaved, and picked the most accessible dress I could find in the closet and matching stockings. His commands were playing over and over again in my head and my whole body trembled with excitement.Pleasing Him and being His good subgurl makes me feel so complete as a woman, knowing that He truly appreciates all I do. I race to the car and drive as fast as legally possible as the anticipation builds inside of me. I feel the warmth and dampness between m

I Wanna Spend A Moment With You
I wanna spend a moment with you, that's all just a moment. See I have noticed you in passing, moment. Each time you walking by I catch you glancing, moment. See under a fair justice system I could pick and choose where it would be. Please I am not trying to be presumptious, see. But I just really want you to remember me...for a moment. What ever the location or time or place. It must involve my finger running down your face, taste. And also possible moment of caressing you, lace. How ever I could chose I'm sure that there will be a smile, moment. One that you could see for miles, moment. But I think that ever time I see you passing, glancing, but not ever cathing really. Understand me why I should want to relive a time of enjoyment, on the train. Or in my car just remembering how we were then if there is how we are. Now I don't thats over stepping my bounds but I just want to remember you, moment, cherish you, moment. I wanna spend a moment with you...

Irish Philosophy
Irish Philosophy There are only two things to worry about:either you are well or you are sick.If you are well,then there is nothing to worry about.If you are sick,there are two things to worry about.Either you will get well or you will die.If you get well,there is nothing to worry about.If you die,there are two things to worry about.Either you will go to Heaven or Hell.If you go to Heaven,there is nothing to worry about.But if you go to Hell,You'll be so damn busy shaking hands with your friends thatyou won't have time to worry!

Security
SECURITY I have decided not to seek Security. It occurred to me recently that Security is an illusion. An illusion because I am mortal. If I were immortal, Security might be something worth striving for, I'm not sure. But I am mortal. And on top of that, everything in the world is uncertain. Not only could I die today, even if I don’t die today, as I continue to live, cataclysmic events could occur that could render civilization as we know it extinct in some part of the world. What if that were the part of the world where I happened to be at the time? Or where my money was. Or where all records of my money were. Security? It’s an illusion. And seeking Security puts me into a survival mode. Seeking Security makes me always be safe. In the pursuit of Security, I am surviving instead of living I don't mean I have decided to be reckless, or that I don't put aside some money. But I have stopped seeking something that doesn't exist. I have stopped kidding myself th

For Those Who Need It...
I don't know why I haven't post this before. Maybe it may hurt the image that I try to convey on here. But here it is.... I have dealings with this non-profit organization called YesICAN.org. It is a chatroom that serves as a group therapy session for those who are survivors and those that are still going through abuse (sexual, physical, psychological, etc.) It is anonymous. So if you have been/being abused or know someone that is, YesICAN is a place they can go to talk. Pass the word around. YesICAN

Resistance
RESISTANCE I have learned that whatever I resist, persists. Whatever I try to run away from is always there. Because I am looking at it as I run away, so it is always on my mind. This may sound weird, but if I really want to stop thinking about something, I need to stop trying to stop thinking about that thing. Instead, fill my mind with something else. Because if I try to stop thinking about something, where is my focus??? It's on that thing!!! So instead, I focus on what I DO want, not what I DON'T want. This is true for everything in life. It NEVER works to run away from something I DON'T want. It only works to run TOWARD what I DO want.

I Carry Your Heart With Me ( My Favorite)
i carry your heart with me by e. e. cummingsi carry your heart with me (i carry it inmy heart) i am never without it (anywherei go you go, my dear; and whatever is doneby only me is your doing, my darling) i fearno fate (for you are my fate, my sweet) i wantno world (for beautiful you are my world, my true)and it's you are whatever a moon has always meantand whatever a sun will always sing is youhere is the deepest secret nobody knows(here is the root of the root and the bud of the budand the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which growshigher than soul can hope or mind can hide)and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars aparti carry your heart (i carry it in my heart)

Nothing Left
Accept me for who I am Not what u think I should be....... I have come to the conclusion that life is not what we think it should be it is what we make it out to be. People are not who you think they are at all. Life goes on even though your dying inside and if you let it, it will consume the very being you once were. To pick yourself up from this may be full of tests and trials but in the end you will come back to who you are and not the person they wanted you to be in the first place. But with all this said.. who was I..... There is nothing left to break nothing left to shatter All i have are pieces all torn and tattered.

Never
U never tried to find the value of my love,U never tried to understand my pain,U never tried to know my feeling,Ur never trying efforts brought me in such a condition that now i have no love for other, now i don't feel pain anywhere else except one, and now i feel nothing.

Lol Penises Giggle
One Of The Problems Of Being A Bloke Copied From A Newsgroup Posting(the author is responding to a woman who accidentally walked into the men's restroom): Please don't feel bad. It wasn't you entering the men's washroom that caused that guy to pee on the guy next to him. Hell, we do that all the time. It's rare us guys ever hit what we're aiming for. Sometimes I go into the washroom, start to pee and then just start spinning around, just so I'll make sure I hit something. You see, something you ladies should understand by now is that men's penises have a mind of their own. A guy can go into a bathroom stall because all the urinals are being used, take perfect aim at the toilet and his penis will still manage to piss all over the roll of toilet paper, down his left pant leg, and onto his shoe. I'm telling 'ya those little buggers can't be trusted. After being married 28 years my wife has me trained. I'm no longer allowed to pee like a man - standing up. I am required to sit down and

The Golden Rule
THE GOLDEN RULE: Every major religion in the world has a Golden Rule. Here they are: Christianity: Do unto others as you would have them do unto you. Judaism: What thou thyself hatest, do to no man. Islam: No one of you is a Believer until he desires for his brother that which he desires for himself. Hinduism: Do naught to others which, if done to thee, would cause thee pain; this is the sum of duty. Buddhism: A clansman (should) minister to his friends and familiars ... by treating them as he treats himself. Confucianism: The Master replied, "...what you do not want done to yourself, do not do unto others. Taoism: To those who are good to me, I am good, and to those who are not good to me, I am also good. And thus all get to be good. Zoroastrianism: Whatever thou dost not approve for thyself, do not approve for anyone else. Greek Philosophy: Do not do to others what you would not wish to suffer yourself; treat your friends as you

Honestly
I can't figure it out. I'm not quite sure what the hell to think. Here's my dilemma: There are women out there who look like absolute slop. Not only that, they treat their men like slaves, ie: force them to work two jobs so they can stay at home and spend money, don't clean, don't cook, never make love, and call them horrible names. But their men are the most devoted, kind, loyal, caring men on the planet. Now me, I'm the kind of woman who likes to work for a living, loves to take care of people, share everything I have, loyal to a fault, putting my needs dead last (literally), bend over backwards to make everyone else happy kind of person, yet the guys I fall for just so happen to only want me as a friend. At most, a fuck buddy. Now, I refuse to change who I am. And I refuse to accept a man who is going to treat me like crap. I would love to find just one man who is going to be not only my best friend, but be with me and ONLY me for the rest of our lives. I didn't realize that

Battle Of The Bands Promo Details..
Ok kids, so if you have a real band page and I like your music, I'll be more than happy to feature you here. All you have to do is hit me up and we go from there. The goal is one per day and please no drama. I know that's weird but I think there are some good bands that always need some more exposure. No I'm not charging anything. And no, no genre specifc here either I like everything from some death metal to some country lol. So, feel free to hit me up and we'll give you some exposure here. Also, in Sept I'll be giving away my points daily via a trivia contest so stay tuned for that!..peace.

Hated
I have never understood that word until I get slammed for this and that never knew being different was a crime that to show your true self was not a good thing to show kindness was a weakness to even remotely give compassion was a bullseye on your back I was never the mean one I was that shy girl you saw reading nancy drew it never occured to me that the world was divided in two the real life one where you could at least fend off some attacks the internet world seems to hide alot of things a way to hurt others seems to be the leading thing whether its in a lounge insulting slamming a word is a word no matter if its internet or real life it can slice through even the toughest skin if you say it doesnt then you been on here too long a rhino is your hide now when once it was human i show love to all if its returned so be it if its tossed aside so be it im not a fake im me you may find it fun the lil bs pranks you toss my way but let me clue yo

Lost You
Sunny day friends here motorbikes coming dear ? not today have fun will do later hun love you kiss kiss love you too tick tock tick tock ticking clock STOPS bad feeling shivering spine shakes head all's fine ! phone rings yes me no no cant be no voice numb through foreign lorry broke you A and E too late already gone couldnt wait crying eyes breaking heart touched face kissed lips soul passed through fingertips in me you stay

Adds And Removal
Well new subject that seams to be relevant now days. I add people to my family i like and i try my best to rate them like them and comment everyday. I almost never ask to be added to anyone's family. I do not run a lot of family bling so if family members feel the need to take me out while they sale my slot then i understand and just hope i get added back when its over. NOW WITH THAT SAID IF I BEEN NOTHING BUT GOOD TO YOU AND YOU ADDED ME TO FAMILY THEN DECIDED TO GET PISSY CAUSE OF OTHERS DRAMA AND NOTHING I HAVE DONE AND DECIDE TO REMOVE ME FROM FAMILY EVEN THO I RATE AND COMMENT YOU EVERYDAY AND TRY AND BE YOUR FRIEND THEN YOUR NOT STAYING IN MINE ITS A MATTER OF RESPECT I DONT GO KICKING MY FRIENDS AROUND WHEN SOMEONE OR SOMETHING CAUSES ME TO HAVE A BAD DAY WHY SHOULD I LET THEM DISRESPECT ME AND KICK ME CAUSE SOME DOUCHE CAUSED THEM TO HAVE A BAD DAY IF YOU DONT LIKE HOW I FEEL ON THIS THEN REMOVE ME BLOCK ME ITS YOUR CHOICE JUST DONT CRY ABOUT IT

Hatthe Fuck Is Wrong With People
What is wrong with people now days I meanseriously........................................................... You have people killing kids, molesting kids, torturing kids, murdering thier husbands and wifes for the insurance money or because they have a girlfriend or boyfriend they want to be with, or you have 50 year old men marrying kids 10 yrs thier senior, I mean hat in your right mind says that is ok , you have parents torturing, molesting abusing mentally and pysically killing thier kids to go party you have hubbys killing the mother of thier childeren for undeterminded reasons,woman who get abused, or your husband or boss is blackmailing you , people who murder and hide thier bodys, do they understand the torment these people go through the rest of thier lives to find thier loved ones, or To KILL 80 people for what fucking purpose???? How are these people raised or brought up to think hey its ok if I kill two kids or molest

Broken
Today I sit...reflecting on my past...wondering if I had taken a different path how different my life could possibly me. I sit and reflect on the present...the present is filled with so many emotions,some happy,joyful and Breezy and yet others are dark and despairing... Then I think of the future...what does the future hold? You really never know the emotion and pain that is sometimes hiding behind a smile.Life is so short..live it to the fullest! Laugh till you cry and Love like there is no tomorrow! ~me...just rambling~

Where Has Respect Gone
I was talking to a old friend of mine today I grew up with in my old neighborhood. We were talking about how when we were growing up that if we stepped out of line and neighbors saw it our parents knew before we got home. It was a different time back then when we were taught to respect others and especially the older people in the neighborhood. We also knew if they caught us they would bring home to our parents and we would be in trouble. We talked about how we respected others property and wouldnt dare get caught breaking ot taking something from anyone in the neighborhood. It was respect and I am glad my parents taught me that. I have tried to teach that to my two children as they grew up. I think I have done a pretty good job. But I see alot of the younger kids growing up and they could care less how they act or talk in public. They could be throwing the ball around and hit your car or whtever and they could care less if anything happened to it. I sit on my deck and I see how the ol

Heat (for My Pet. Sorry My Head Was Still Spinning)
hot. steamy. a bead of sweat slowly rolled down her curves and lingered off her erect nipple before dripping off. here she could be alone in peace. here in the steam room she could just lay around naked and not have to worry about lingering eyes. she pulled her towel from under her behind and sat there in the steam filled room with her knees parted. her sweat glistening thighs welcomed the cool beads of moisture that collected on them and slowly dripped down her inner thigh towards her pussy. her fingers slowly passed her rock hard clit and between her moist folds. they sank in deep. two fingers. her inner walls contracting to squeeze around the intruding fingers. deeper. harder. the room got hotter without anyone touching the heat. she was in heaven. after a stressful day it was good to lay here in the steam and get hot. she pushed her thumb down on her clit and began to rub it. faster. hard quick circles. fingers rushing in. deep. thumb rubbing. hard. deeper. harder. FASTER! OH GAWD

Taking A Break
To all my fam and friends... I first and foremost want to thank you all for the love you have shown over the past 2 years of my being a fubar member. This site has opened my eyes to so many new things as well as so many new and wonderful friendships. I have recently found out I may need a few cancer screenings which will be time consuming and draining. There is a chance I may need surgery which makes things even harder for me right now. I am not looking forward to any of this as I had cancer back when I was 25 and it was not pleasant at all. I had a partial histerectomy as well as radiation (which ended up being uncalled for since they did the surgery anyway). There are so many more details to all this that I will not go in to. I just want everyone to know I am not ignoring, avoiding or giving up on anything I am just taking a break to get my health in order so that I may spend another 2 years here having fun with all my wonderful friends. I am not looking for pity here so please respe

Blush ...
A red rose whispers of passion, a white rose breathes of love;The red rose is an eagle and the white rose is a dove.But I send you a cream-white rosebud With a flush on its petal tips;For the love that is purest and sweetest, has a kiss of desire on the lips.

Love
She walks in the woods Moon full dark cold Tress standing still, not a word stillness of cold words of Love.... Blood flows in her mind will he find her here hold her again. No love can be so mad running so hard her mind of madness. As he tells her lies in the sky. Hidding in the darkness. Deep in the woods never be found ... As she sleeps at night thinking of him in the sweet summer night . The moon shinning . A tear falls from her eyes , His mood is dark takes her long and hard she loves him and can not stop loving him... She walks in the wood with a full Moon dark clod Tress standing still, not a wrod stillness of cold wrods of love.

Something Furry This Way Cums
she lay in the bed with her legs parted at the knees, sheets snatched tight into her unyielding fists. her lips parted, pulling in the air that exploded from her mouth just as quickly in moans and gasps. panties in a knot around one ankle as her toes curled hard. a cold, wet nose pressed against her swollen clit as his warm, rough, flat tongue lapped at her folds. his ears were pinned back against his head as he pressed his nose harder against her bucking hips. his tongue coated the sides of her pussy each time it pushed in. collecting juices from inside her warmth and drawing it back into his muzzle. a soft whimper was heard as she clamped her thighs closed, locking his head between her legs, forcing him to lick harder. her legs shook wildly as her back arched high, forcing her companion's head to drop. her juices shot out of her body and soaked the tiny four legged being. her fingers began to ravage her enlarged clitoris faster. and faster. sending waves of spasms throughout her p

[its Not Every Day]
That you tell a stranger in all honesty that you're completely capable of killing someone. That if given the right opportunity, it would be the only thing that mattered. Like its something that has to be done. Instinctive. Automatic. Called for. Swat the fly on your arm. Step away from the coiled snake. Take your hand out of the fire. Simple. I have some difficulty with facing that matter of fact, compassionless side of me. It's an unwelcome guest. at best a necessary evil. Wrong me Hurt you Hurt me ... All in the name of justice no? It made a lot more sense in my world. Quiet place between here, hell, and purgatory. A crossroads of sorts. Some place intersected by kill all betrayers compassion and infinite wisdom calculation and tithes of rectitude No place for it outside. Quite exhausting.

Dear Diary: Texas. (joke)
Dear Diary,Just moved to Texas! Now this is a state that knows how to live!! Beautiful sunny days and warm balmy evenings. It is beautiful. I've finally found my home. I love it here.June 14th:Really heating up. Got to 100 today. Not a problem. Live in an air-conditioned home, drive an air-conditioned car. What a pleasure to see the sun everyday like this. I'm turning into a sun worshipper.June 30th:Had the backyard landscaped with western plants today. Lots of cactus and rocks. What a breeze to maintain. No more mowing the lawn for me. Another scorcher today, but I love it here.July 10th:The temperature hasn't been below 100 all week. How do people get used to this kind of heat? At least, it's kind of windy though. But getting used to the heat is taking longer than I expected.July 15th:Fell asleep by the community pool. Got 3rd degree burns over 60% of my body. Missed 3 days of work. What a dumb thing to do. I learned my lesson though. Got to respect the ol' sun in a climate like this

[the Only One In The Universe]
You ever have a wild sex dream about the one person in the universe you've truly been attracted to and I don't mean the passing fancy of "ooh what a great butt" I mean a magnetic must have draw. That was last night for me. We spoke. We conspired. We parted. And she told me to meet her where I had never dared to tread... I was saddened not knowing where that was, or thinking it to be a metaphor obscuring the moment in dream logic but in moments I was on the path bursting through doorways following arrows of great lotus petals toward her her scent her presence. I was afraid. Afraid that I'd wake. Afraid that she'd disappear before I felt her. Touched her. Tasted her. But through the last doorway she stood, trembling, tiny uncontained explosions of anticipation throughout her body. We kissed. We wandered over soft flesh. We made love. On hardwood floors unabashed unashamed but terrified of our knowledge that this was but a dream. I'd sa

The Most Annoying Habit Of Modern Times
OK, it's no secret that I don't have, and don't want, a mobile phone. Can't live without one? Bullshit, we all did for donkeys years without a problem. I don't buy into pressure marketing. Anyway, leave that one there, not looking to alienate everyone. The matter in hand is this: We have a couple of friends who, when they are out with us, spend their entire evening busily texting someone else on their mobile.phone. Only these two people do it, not the rest of our friends, so it can't be our company! One of them always has an excuse, like "oh, it was just such-and-such, I really had to let them know (whatever)"; while the other one is even worse. Tell him how bloody annoying it is and he just laughs as though it's a joke. It is not a joke! It is bloody ignorant and mildly infuriating. So, what I want to know from anyone who can be bothered to read this, is: - Do you go out with people and then spend the time in their company texting someone else? If you do, why do you d

This Is Funny, So Grow A Dam Sense Of Humor.
The government today announced that it's changing the flag to a CONDOM, because it more accurately reflects the government 's political stance. A condom allows for inflation, halts production , destroys the next generation , protects a bunch of dicks, and gives you a sense of security while you're actually being screwed. It just doesn't get more accurate than that!

The Stars
the stars in the sky fall when you're not lookingthey hold your dreamsand your wishes upon themyou want to believe but the wishes just fall throughdreams are crushedeyes fill with tearsi walked the streetand found a starthe wish that had been wished disappearedand then that starshed a tearthe dreams you wish on a starmay fall in the streetand disappear so don't cry when the star sheds a tearcus maybe your wish never did disappear

Because Of You!
you see it in her eyes.you hear it in hear voice.that desperate cry.she longs for you to hold her.she needs you to make her feel loved.she needs you to make her feel wanted.she needs you.the love you gave her is gone.you hurt her. why didn't youlove her?why didn't you want her?didn't you hear her?didn't you want her?her heart is cold now.she cannot love again.because of you!your cold heart,that saw it in her eyes.your cold heart,that heard it in her voice.i hope you are happy with what you have done.you tore her soul apart.turned her heat cold.i pray you see that you were wrong.with the 4 harsh words you said you her....I DON'T LOVE YOU.because of you!she cannot love again.because of you!her heart is cold because of you!

It's A New Day
it's a new day!a new begining time to live againlet your sheilds downlet people init's a new day!!i'm not gonna be like you anymorei'm not gonna live your rulesit's a new day!it's been so long since i lived my own waywas my own personit's a new day!!!i am me you are youwe are two difeerent peopleit's a new day!!!!time to go and leave youbut i am here for youbut as myself it's a new day!!!!!

Why Do I Try?
Why do i try to work things out?You only hurt me.You never try so why should i?I say i'm leaving but i only come back.you say you love me but yet you turn your back.I say i hate you but why am i kissing you.You say you're sorry.Then why is she here?You say you wanna get married.Yet we are apart.Why do i try to work things out?Why do i try.Some one please tell me.For now my love we are through.You go your way i will go mine.You see my dear i am tired.Tired of trying to work things out.

I Wait For You
I wait for you.you do not show.i hope you have not forgotten me.i am waiting.i see people pass by hoping it's you.i wave.i feel like an idiot.it's not you.i am waiting for you.i wait for you hoping you will come.i wait for you cus i love you.please come i am waiting.

I Sit Here In Silence
i sit here in silence.no words you will hear.i am scared for if i speak,no one will hear me.i sit here in silence waiting.i know you don't hear me if i speak.for if i speak you will not care.i feel that is how we live.sitting in silence.not to speak for if i do,you will not hear me.you won't even care.i'm not bitter.i just wish you would listen.for when i do speak, i have a lot to say.

A Girl On Her Knees Begging Pleading Please
A girl on her knees begging pleading pleaseshe crys but no one hears.she is in pain and suffering,from all the hurt that eats at her.A girl on her knees begging pleading pleaseA girl on her knees begging pleading pleaseGOD take it all away!!all the pain and suffering,i cannot endure.the life she is leading will be no more.a new life she will live.A girl on her knees begging pleading pleaseA girl on her knees begging pleading pleasei will fight the battle.i will be free.so no more begging and pleading i will endure.A girl on her knees begging pleading please

Lost And Going No Where
i'm lost and going no where,with a place to hide.friends to go to.i'm lost and going no where!can't you see can't you help!the friends i have they don't care,or they are to far away to help.the place i hide is no where to be found.i guess i'm lost and going no where.no where to be found.life got to hard for me.bit me in the butt!for now i know how rough it can get.cus i know i'm lost and going no where.

So Pretty
So pretty are the lies he tells.. held together so well.. don't look closer you might not like the mess you see.. so numb is the life he leads..a heartless man with no soul to save.. do you enjoy the game you play.. does she know you make all the rules.. do you break her spirt day by day..or do you do it all at once.. So pretty is the mask she wears.. you'd never guess she'd killed a man.. so sweet are lips from which she will tempt you.. so calm and collected she would seem.. the mess of girl daddy loved too much.. guess he never saw the rage she held behind that pretty face..y our gone never again will she feel that pain.. I used to be so pretty.. I've gone mad yet I feel so sane.. a shell of who i was.. you ruined my life.. but dont worry baby.. only wanted to see you happy.. so slowly does the old me die.. so dead inside..so soon the zombie will rise.. an empty shell..but don't worry baby.. we'll be alright..

I Will Not Talk Dirty
Ok just FYI i will not talk dirty , show you naked pics , cam w. you or answer questions thats none of your buisness .. I have a boyfriend who im faithfull too , and love with all of my heart. Im just looking for clean chat and to meet new people okay thanks ! :).

Willing Wolf: Year 2
"I will snowboard as many days as life will allow. Last year that number was 51. Each year, on my last day out, I die." ~Me. Almost a year ago. Tomorrow, 11/16/07, I will be reborn. ∞ Deja voodoo. I rise from the dead. Again. My rebirth is a matter of pain and suffering as the flames on my fur die out, extinguished by the falling snow. Yet the burn has gone deep into my muscles, and all my former injuries ingnite. Deja Vu? No. Yes. Not really. We have been here before. But each year it gets harder, adding some new twist to tales once told; the plot refolds. Again. I have already been out on two mountains this year, and hope to be on a third tomorrow. It is going to rain; picture the steam rising from my singed skin and the droplets falling from my lower lip. ∞ ....ssssssseven times out. Time number seven on my birthday, mirthday. Eat, drink and be merry. [Why on Earth would I want to be Mary?] So, I drank copious amounts of water a

My First Time In A Sex Shop..
Okies I so know yall are gonna be laughing your asses off after you read this so enjoy!! Is funny now but wasnt funny then... So I was curious about the Vibrators and I wanted one so I went driving around searching for a sex shop...finally found one that didnt look to bad..Finally I get the courage to go in and of course I am already beat red and scared..so I open the door and theres a fricken cow bell on the door letting the whole store know you just walked in..talk about turning 6 shades of red..so first thing I see is all these vibrators and dildos hanging from the ceiling and I think OMG..turn around and walk out now!!!..Oh no not me I just had to stay...so Im looking around for about 15 minutes just looking at all the different stuff they had and I wasnt sure what I was looking for at this point... I finally found the one I wanted and wouldnt you know it was behind the clerk hanging on the wall...so I finally get the courage to ask the gentlemen to see it..and I looked at it