Fubar Blog Posts 4

Misbehaving Part 2
u pet my head and say "good pet now clean me up" greedily i lick up all of ur juices off of ur dick u place a vibator in my clit and say "stay" and wonder away from me after puttin'it on high and strapping it in place with a chasity belt to be continue

First Blog
My best friend Krystal has been trying to get me on CT forever now, so here I finally am. I have one pic up, but to be honest its a couple years old, give me time and I'll have new pics up. I had gastric bypass surgery Jan. 10th, 2007, so I do look slightly different from the pic of me in the photo, but my attitude is still the same, and if ya don't like my attitude, thats your problem, cause I'm not changing for anyone........anyways thats my first blog LOL laters

Disapear
I hide from the light with the dark I hide from the dark with the light But what hides me from myself is me And what hides me from the earth is only myself So when I disapear will nobody look for me. DONE BY WHITE QUEEN

Confusion
There are time in life when you feel as everything around me is drifting further away with each day that passes, i try to get control and the days just seem to pass even faster and with more confusion than the day before, all i really have to do is to sit back and look into my own mind and find that special place that will make all my life's just fade away. DONE BY WHITE QUEEN

Happy Hour Giveaway
I am hosting a happy hour giveaway. Just send me your link to the picture you want to use to my blog so I can rip it. Gifts will be given during a happy hour after you got all the comments that you need for the gift you are going for. There is no time limit so bomb when you and your friends can. Good Luck. Mens Bracelet: 650 comments Platinum Cherry: 1,050 comments Diamond Earrings: 1,050 comments Trailer: 1,450 comments Womens ring: 2,050 comments Mens ring: 2,050 comments Rolex: 3,050 comments 64 Impala: 3,550 comments Silver Motorcycle: 6,150 comments Tropical Vacation: 7,050 comments Corvette: 10,550 comments Porsche: 18,050 comments Yacht: 25,250 comments Million Dollar Mansion: 175,550 The blog link: http://cherrytap.com/blog/90148/381423 Hosted by: Military Supporter~Round Table Bombers~@ CherryTAP

Profound Poetic Insights...
Profound poetic insights can be "somehow encapsulated" in famous quotations from poetry!!! If we think of Spirituality as being a sea then that sea has "Islands of Certainty" (such as "Charity" and "Humility") that are well known to its most experienced and intrepid voyagers - the True Mystics and the supreme Poets. The profoundly impact - FULL quotations set out below will undoubtedly persuade you that many quotations from poetry recognize the significance of numerous, and identifiable, "Aspects of Spirituality and of Being". Some famous, inspirational and familiar quotations and quotes showing the Wisdom of the Poets Several famous quotations about - A Disdain for Material Things All the world's a stage And all the men and women merely players: They have their exits and their entrances; And one man in his time plays many parts,- His acts being seven ages. At first, the infant, Mewling and puking in the nurse's arms. Then the whining School-boy, with his satchel

I Have A Complante
i recently had some guy leave a coment on my profile saying that i had to stop talking to a women who i had met on ct because she was his, but the way i feel is this that wemon arnt posesions. i hate it when men say wemon are theres because in my opion wemon are tresurse. not posesions. let me know what you think

Yeah
Well this is the truth, and I know someone will get offended but I just don't care. I would like to say thanks to all those that have been there for me no matter what!!! To those fly by night friends, I would tell you to go to hell but, I live there and don't want to see you everyday. I hope this makes those who deserve it realize what's up. thanks for the memories even though they weren't that great!!!!

Thankyou All So Much
a SPECIAL THANKS TO ALL WHO HELPED ME LEVEL, ESPECIALLY DOUBLENAUGHTSPY SWEET CHEEKS AND BOO BOO. I WILL BOMB YOU ALL WITH 11'S TOMORROW, AS I AM OUT OF THEM FOR THE NIGHT, AND 10' S JUST WONT DO :D

The Way You Make Me Feel
You make me feel special, You make me feel new, You make me feel loved, With everything you do. You hold me close when I am sad. You wipe the tears from my face. Every time we are together, It seems like the perfect place. My eyes light up when you enter a room. I smile when we are together. No matter how bad things are, You always make them better. I love the way you kiss me, The way you hold me tight. I love the way you touch me, I could be with you all night. I love the way you can make me laugh For absolutely no reason at all. I love how no matter what I do, You will be there to catch me when I fall. I just want you to know, That even though we sometimes fight, I will always love you! No matter what, day or night.

A Rant
I posted this in my myspace blog but since some here know what's going on I feel they should get the oppurtunity to read it.. quick backstory I was gonna move to NC til the girl revoked the offer out of the blue..... So here's my rant which I wasn't going to post until the girl in question asked me to First off I'd like to start this blog off by thanking those who have lended an ear and offered me wisdom and advice over the past 10 days or so. From everyone who knows all the sordid details to even those who only offered a quick note of support. With that being said its time to address the main question asked me from basically everyone who knows me and that is when is the rant coming. When will I abandon this "high road" I find myself on and go back to just being Kyz? So without further adieu let me paraphrase one of the three greatest black actors of my time (dear god do not make me choose between Lando, Mace and the voice of Vader that's one commitment I'm so not ready for) and

Depressed, Oppressed Or Just Simply Bored?
*Sorry for the typo error Just when you thought you’re having the most depressing part of your life, all you need is a glass of wine and a cancer stick and a friend who will listen to you and you will be back to normal. For the past couple of months I am having a dilemma if I am suffering from a personality disorder or I am depressed. I am in this situation where I am so bored with what I do in general. My life would be waking up at 11 o’ clock PM to sit in front of my computer, stare at the monitor and hoping that I will receive an interesting email. While I do that, I consume my coffee and smoke. At that moment, I will listen to Jack Johnson, naturally, while my mind is blank. When I am done with my cup of coffee, its time for me to take a bath and get ready for work. When I get to the office, I will look for a station where it’s near my crush’s station, which is beside him. So of course I will get to be shy, and reasons to smile. My work is to receive calls, and activate a pers

Keeper Of My Dreams
When you're not here to share my days and nights My life is so incomplete For you are my heart, my soul The ‘oneness’ I had known to seek Without you I merely exist from day to day With you I know that I will find All that I have been searching for My completeness, my eternal peace of mind You are the keeper of my dreams The woman who holds my heart in her hands The one I want to spend my life with The one with whom I will always stand Stand beside through thick and thin Through all that life will throw our way Knowing that this special love we share Will guide us, each and every day This journey was started long ago Before this time and place The journey of completeness As two hearts and souls embrace Forever is what I want with you For the search is at an end Our hearts have found each other As lovers, as soul-mates, as friends.

Miss You
Miss you ~Tony Martinez Coming together For a few moments a day If that's all we have A warm embrace A hot kiss Sad to be apart A look A whisper Is all it takes For 1 to put a smile on the other's face Te amo mi amor Sigh My angel I am always with you Always in your heart Think of me and feel my loving arms around you I know it's hard to be apart I miss you always I love you My angel

Thanks To Our Military
I was just sitting here thinking bout how we ( civilians ) take our freedome for granted. We dont always say thank you or show our appreciation to our military.Ii have a sister and brother in law in the military boht deployed to IRAQ fighting BUSH'S WAR..I just want to say THANK YOU to them and evryone one else in the MILITARY for a great job..If you feel like posting this you can if not, just say let a military member know thay are appreciated in some way...

Where We Are
Where we are ~Tony Martinez My angel We are in hell pure and simple What's sad Is that your here by choice Because of my sin I am also here by choice I love you I want to atone for my sin I need you back Bound by chains we both are When you free yourself from yours I will be free from mine I will do all I can to help you To give you all you need In old times A man worked 7 years for his bride Since I have sinned shall I work 70? If so, so be it Even before I sinned I promised you I would walk though hell and back for you And here we are You are worth everyday I love you My angel

Please Forgive Me
Please forgive me, For doubting your love, I'm so sorry, I can't say it enough. Please forgive me, For being a fool, For thinking you changed your mind, That was totally uncool. Please forgive me, I was scared, Thought I had lost you, Thats my worst nightmare. Please forgive me, Now that I know the truth, That you love me very much, I'll never again question you. Written by Me...Little Lee

Something Is Missing
Something is missing tonight. But what is that something? When you miss something, is it is a person? Is it an activity? Is it a thing? As far as people, I miss my friends and of course my son, and some of my family, that doesn't live near me. As far as activities, I miss playing basketball, throwing a baseball around, and I guess things that are involved with dating or a relationship. (No, I'm not talking about sex, so get your mind out of the gutter.) A thing could be, a blanket, or a picture, or a teddy bear or a car. You can miss activities with a person, such as going to games with your friends, or shooting hoops with your friends. The real reason I decided to write this tonight, is because I'm not sure if I miss someone or the things and activities that involved this person. It's not as if I can't find someone else to do these activities or fill the void, but then you start wondering if you do in fact miss the person. I know I'm all over the place, and my thoughts may not make

Immediate Openings For Family
Please if you are interested in joining a family devoted to each other in the effort to help each other out when it comes to bombing and leveling up then this is the family for you. L.R.L Society of Wolves can be tough to beat in any competition on Cherry Tap. Let these two know for additional information on joining below. Thanks in advance from all of us here in the family. Loyal.Respect.Love Always --------------------------------------------- Jeff Lord_Wolf*I Would Like to Thank,Ev1 that Join'd I wish the Wolves stay to develope a Friendship@ CherryTAP or Theresa Co-Founder*Inspiration*Secretary*U.A.O.~L.R.L. *In charge of all Int/Ext Ops/Moderator Wolf’s Den@ CherryTAP

Alone
I don't think that when I sat down tonight, I would be answering one question about myself that I loathe to look at: I am a very loving, caring, considerate person...always there for anyone that needs it, even if that someone is a complete stranger. Even more so for my friends. I go out of my way for everyone when I can, generousity something hidden in my nature, buried though it can be, but there. My true friends have seen it, and others have too. I am full of understanding and compassion towards others and their feelings. I go out of my way to make sure that people are happy. I guess the question I am looking at right now is: if I care so much for making others happy, who's out there doing the same for me?

Delusional Writings
I face the world with a smile, no one knows what is hid inside. They see only happiness, they cant see the tears I've cried. When I am alone I hurt, because here I do it well. In front of all the watchful eyes my heaven turns to hell. The judge and jury awaits me, everyone has a say. In a life that hangs suspended for yet another day. Who are they to judge if what I have done is right or wrong? In the end I gave him up, but inside still sing his song. I don't know how to find the strength I thought I had. If only I could play tough it wouldn't be so bad. They say that life goes on and someday I'll smile again. But, how do they know my pain without being where I've been? I've traveled so far from home, and can't find my way back. Somewhere along the way I must have jumped the track. I saw him just today and his smile is still the same. He looked at me so sweetly, but never spoke my name. I wonder if he remembers me, It hasn't been that long. He may have forgotten me, bu

Dj Matty Live @ Daves Hideaway
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Dj Lincoln
THINK YOU HAVE WHAT IT TAKES THEN COME JOIN US IN THE ONE AND ONLY HOTTEST BAR ON CHERRYTAP COME JOIN US AND MEET SOME OF THE HOTTEST LADIES IN THE HOUSE ORDER SUM DRINKS OR BEER OR SHOTS WE GOT IT ALL!!

Crushes
Since CT only lets you have one crush I went to a site and down loaded a crush and it is on my profile...I just want to see how many crushes it will accept so go to my profile and add me as a crush....muuah lots of love babydoll0215

Show Me
Show Me I Am what you are. Feel me. We ARE the same. We come from the very Same Source. The Beginning. The Divine. God. The She, the He. Understand You know my words are true. You feel them. You always knew them. Since you were young. The wind, the trees, your free flowing thoughts- without restraint, without form, or hesitation. THAT IS TRUTH. In it's barest form. Raw. With out restraint. Without care for outside the self. REAL...truth This IS what we all are. Free form, without conscious, contrived thought. Motion. It is the Beginning. And the end. They meet. Circle, circle, circling... Let it flow.

Just A Mistake
Ok I Need a lil help to understand why it is that When a Woman makes a mistake its the biggest sin in the world but whn a man makes a mistake a woman is suppose to just take Him back and look around It...I am only human and made a mistake with someone that really cares about me and I didnt have enough faith in him to give him the benefit of the doubt...basically I have a hard time trusting and I have a hard time caring about people due to my marriage and the way that it broke up...I have apoligized but that doesnt seem to be enough so because I made a simple mistake trying to get to the bottom of something he has decided that he no longer cares about me and he can't forgive me...Is he looking for a reason to run?? He knew from day one that i had trust issues and that I was going to challenge that and that he would have earn his trust and well I guess that honesty in this situtation was not the best policy....So once again I ask Why is that when a man makes a mistake A woman is suppose

Sizzzurvey, Cause Its Late && I Cant Sleep.
1. Last akward moment? probably a few days ago when I ran into Jbs trash can with my car and a bunch of guys were on the porch yellin about how im so bad at driving. 2. Who do you find yourself crushing on currently? nobody really 3. Have you ever fallen backwards down a set of stairs? thats a possibility! 4. Ever been to a friends house and starved the whole time? nah 5. Ever found more than a dollar in a random place? yeah i find like 20s all the time 6. Name someone close to you who smokes cigarettes? ...everybody? 7. Name 3 things that everyone knows: 1) i love metallica 2) taco bell is not in any way as good as taco johns! ha. 3) if more than 50 people show up to your party, the cops will show up. (and hey, i know that now!) 8. When a friend walks out of your life, do you go after them, or let them go? go after em. unless they really suck and then its like bye! 9. Have you ever been corrected at your workplace? they love me. 10. Has anyone e

Have You Ever ...
>> Fallen in love with someone that you can't have? >> Had 2 loves at once? >> Wished u can go back to the past and change something? >> Told someone that you loved them and you tried, but it just couldnt be? >> Fallen in love with someone over the internet and have never met them in person? If you answered yes to any or all of these questions well then buddy........ UR AS MESSED UP AS I AM!! lol

Untitled Just A Thing
Get More at COMMENTYOU.com MY LITTLE GIRL IS GONNA BE 2 TOMORROW. DAMNS I FEEL SAD THAT SHE IS NO LONGER A BABY. SHE IS SO INDEPENDANT ITS STOOPID. I HATE IT THAT SHE IS GROWING UP TOO QUICKLY. WHY DO THE FIRST FEW YEARS GO SO FAST. IT SUCKS. I WANT ANOTHER ONE BUT I'M DIETING SO I CAN HAVE A REALLY HEALTHY PREGANCY AND SO I DON'T HAVE ALL THE PROBLEMS I DID WITH MY LAST ONE. I WISH THE FIRST YEARS WENT A LITTLE SLOWER SO YOU COULD APPRECIATE THEM MORE. PREGANCY IS AWESOME ITS FILLED WITH EXCITEMENT RITUAL VISITS TO THE HOSPITAL FOR CHECK UPS EVERYTHING IS PLANNED FOR GRANDPARENT'S EXCITED ANTICIPATION NOTHING IS GONNA BE AS IT WAS AWARE OF THE CHANGES IN YOUR BODY NEVER MISSING A BEAT CATCHING UP ON STUFF YOU FEEL THE BABY MOVE........

Sex And Kink! Thanks, Ruby Cairo!
Your Score: Deviant You scored 66 % slut! You are a sexual deviant! You aren't exactly slutty but you sure love sex! You have tried many things and will more than likely try anything once...or twice. Link: The sex and kink Test written by pookieb on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the The Dating Persona Test

10 June 2007
Dear Alexa, Here is your single's love horoscope for Sunday, June 10: Both budding romantic relationships and platonic relationships with your buds require handling with extra care now. Find the middle ground between the two of you, and inhabit it with grace.

Paint Me A Picture
Paint me a Picture of a love unrefined. One that is simple with no complications inside. Show me the way to become what it should be. Give me the answers that I so simply seek. Paint me a picture of love. So simple & True. Tell me how and what to do. Allow me the chance to do it all right, Allow me the freedom and allow my heart to fly. Day upon day, I reach for that love. I see the whole big picture and all the colors of that love. Still it seems distant and always out of reach. The picture that once was so simple is now, many colors and beyond my reach.

Re:online And Off
Well, here we go ... I have to leave the net and in a week my CT account may well be deleted. I have too many responsibilities with family that need to be attended to. So Tappers ... Im off the cyber world all together pretty soon until I cn let others I have known here and other places. I have been online for many many many years. It is time for me to move on. Celtic

Keys To My Heart
The Keys to Your Heart You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free. In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored. You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change. You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage. In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily. What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

What Are The Chances That You've Been Abducted By Aliens?
There's a 16% Chance You've Been Abducted By Aliens There's virtually no chance you've been abducted by aliens. But there's always hope for the future! What Are the Chances that You've Been Abducted by Aliens?

Bikini Contest Begins! (entries Open Til June 13)
Come on by the profile and check out our special Bikini Pics Contest being held now through Jul 3. Use this link to find the girls from the Texas Car-B-Q June 2007 Bikini Contest!: http://cherrytap.com/images.php?u=305222&albumid=383364 We'll take entries up until June 13 and we're excited to have the five sexy women competing! Please make sure to rate and comment these ladies, as they earn points for both! muahz Tiff and The Texas Flames!

A Sad Morning
We woke up this morning and Stretcher, the baby bunny, had died during the night. He was doing so well last night too, I had him on the living room floor and he was crawling around and eating really well. But, this morning, he was stiff as could be when I tried to get him out of his box to eat. The boys are having a rough time - and don't quite understand - however, I had told them repeatedly that he might die, so I think that helped a bit. My oldest and I are having the worst time of it because we're so emotional...and my boys have never been able to have a pet before, so this death experience of something they've taken care of is so new to them - they just don't know how to handle it.

The World Is Empty
The world is empty but I have touched the sky For I have made my escape from society to the Illusory mountain peaks where I have seen the forbidden sights and tasted the forbidden fruit of knowledge and the world is a hollow ball hurling towards an unknown DESTINY.... UNKNOWN

So, Should I?
You're thinking 'no, that's too wild' or 'they'll never let me.' Enough! Why try and tame your inner beast? What you need to do is pull down the cages and let it roam free, or you'll end up feeling trapped and angry.

Bullfrog And Blowjobs
Bullfrogs & Blow jobs A woman went into a store to buy her husband a pet for his birthday. After looking around, she found that all the pets were very expensive. She told the clerk she wanted to buy a pet, but she didn't want to spend a fortune. "Well," said the clerk, "I have a very large bullfrog. They say it's been trained to give blow jobs!" "Blow jobs!" the woman replied. "It hasn't been proved but we've sold 30 of them this month," he said. The woman thought it would be a great gag gift, and what if it's true...no more blow jobs for her! She bought the frog. When she explained froggy's ability to her husband, he was extremely skeptical and laughed it off. The woman went to bed happy, thinking she may never need to perform this less than riveting act again. In the middle of the night, she was awakened by the noise of pots and pans flying everywhere, making hellacious banging and crashing sounds. She ran downstairs to the kitchen, only to find her husband

To The Losers Who Add Me To Their Friends List But Never Say A Word
if you dont plan on ever talking to me, please remove me from your friends list or i will bug the crap out of you till you do i have over 2000 friends and i guarantee i dont even talk to 1% of you i dont think i should see you guys updating your stash, pics, friends joining, etc if you never even talk my friends list is for real friends who can actually hold a conversation so either remove me now, start talking to me, or i will annoy the crap out of you thanks a lot and to my friends, love you guys

Dream 4
Ok, so I had another dream last night.... It was not a nice dream let me tell you.... There was this little guy chasing me trying to kill me, and he was all burnt up... really charred and he stank of burnt flesh. I knew that I had to kill him before he killed me, but I had to kill Ashton Kutcher first, which I did on a railway track. Then I was in a house somewhere, didn't recognise it, and I bashed little burnt dude's brains out on the bathroom tap. There was loads of blood... not pleasant.... The thing was, I knew that the only way to make sure he was dead was to cut his hand open and remove one of his fingers, which I also did... I'm getting slightly worried about myself.... Surely that's not normal? Ah well... Insanity here I come!

Hurricane Rita Heroes
http://vids.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=vids.individual&videoid=932475108 Hurricane Katrina was bad for Southeast LA and Mississippi, and Alabama. We've been made very aware of the tragedy inflicted on the people living in those areas. Movies, documentaries, high level authorities made to resign due to mishandling situations, these things have been firmly embedded into our minds by the news media. Especially the people in New Orleans, chased to places like the Super Dome, by the tens of thousands and left standing there, screaming indignantly at news video cameras about how they were mistreated and there was no one there to help them. Hurricane Rita came ashore less than a month later. I live in Hackberry, 12 miles from the beaches on the coast of the Gulf of Mexico. In fact, my house is just yards from the ship channel leading to the Gulf. Hurricane Rita came through here like a mad woman going to.., well, you've heard that phrase. A storm surge wall of water, tall enough to

Butter
Pass The Butter ... please. This is interesting . . . . . Margarine was originally manufactured to fatten turkeys. When it killed the turkeys, the people who had put all the money into the research wanted a payback so they put their heads together to figure out what to do with this product to get their money back. It was a white substance with no food appeal so they added the yellow coloring and sold it to people to use in place of butter. How do you like it? They have come out with some clever new flavorings. DO YOU KNOW.. the difference between margarine and butter? Read on to the end...gets very interesting! Both have the same amount of calories. < STRONG>Butter is slightly higher in saturated fats at 8 grams compared to 5 grams. Eating margarine can increase heart disease in women by 53% over eating the same amount of butter

Damn It
damn it, i hate it when people yank me around. just got a message from a guy i was interested it, but got angry at me for a mistake. i haven't heard from him in a while, so i decided to pick up and kep going with life. what else was i to do, last thing he said to me was that he hated me and didn't want to hear from me. so, i get this message (obvioiusly someone's gossiped to him) where he's beratting me for my choices. i feel jerked around. plain and simple and it sucks like hell. *sigh* i've made my choices, no regrets and i'm happy. damn it. i hate the drama.

The Kind Of Ppl On Cherry Tap
like i have said before, this is the most childish adult site ive ever been to one doofus begging ppl to sign his guestbook as his name, so i made a joke and like the child he was he ignored me, well im used to that, but then that ugly bastard had the nerve to block me grow up ppl, you are supposed to be adults ive met many great ppl here but those handful that act like children shouldnt even be allowed on the site. hell my kids act more mature than some of these ppl anyway ill vent more later, i thought some of you may get a kick out of that

Gato Barbieri -- Europa
THIS VERSION IS MY FAVORITE. GEORGE AND I SAW GATO IN CONCERT AT EVERY OPPORTUNITY. I FELL IN LOVE WITH THIS SONG THE FIRST TIME I HEARD IT WHICH WAS AT TULANE UNIVERSITY HERE IN NEW ORLEANS.

Iraq Part 2
US Army Apache Engage Insurgents in Tikrit U.S. Army Apaches from 1st Battalion, 4th Aviation Regiment, 4th Infantry Division, engaging Insurgents with 30mm chain gun in Tikrit, Iraq. We do not slaughter innocent people but rather those that want to hold up the progress of freedom to a people longing for it, those that defy their Nations plea to lay down their arms and become peaceful, aggressors will face harsh penalities that will eventually result in loss of life!

Single Lady:-)
A woman was shopping at her local supermarket where she had selected the following items: A half-gallon of 2% milk, A half carton of eggs, A quart of orange juice, A small head of romaine lettuce, A 2-pound can of coffee, And a 1-pound package of bacon. As she was unloading her items on the conveyor belt to check out, a drunk standing behind her watched as she placed the items in front of the cashier. While the cashier was ringing up her purchases, the drunk calmly stated, "You must be single." The woman was a bit startled by this proclamation, but she was intrigued by the derelict's intuition, since she was indeed single. She looked at her six items on the belt and saw nothing particularly unusual about her selections that could have tipped off the drunk to her marital status. Curiosity getting the better of her, she said "Well, you know what, you're absolutely correct. But how on earth did you know that?" The drunk replied, "'Cause you're ugly."

Iraq Part 3
Huge VBIED The driver of this car shot when he tried to "run" a US Marine Check Point, Marines blow up car which was a VBIED (Car Bomb) Who was the aggressor here, this poor soul was under the impression he was going to kill some Americans but it is too bad and too sad that it was his day to die! Semper Fi, Hoorah!!

Tysonisms
Tysonisms Current mood: giggly Category: Life Just a few of the funny things that my 4 yr. old Grandson Tyson has said. My friend tells me I should write them down, so here they are. (He calls me Memere by the way which is French for Grandmother) Last week we were driving home & I had the radio on. When I started singing along to "I'm Bringing Sexy Back", he said "No you're not." Another time driving, I was approaching a yellow light. He asked me what a yellow light meant. I told him it means to go slow. After I went through the light, he said "Memere, you weren't going slow." After a day at the zoo, I took him to the gift shop & told him that he could pick one toy. When he was done looking, he gave me two toys. When I told him he could only get one, he said "I know, but you're buying this one for me, and that one for you." It worked. I sent my daughter out to buy a new toilet seat, and Tyson wanted her to buy a Sponge Bob Squarepants one. Obviously we weren't go

This Is My Favorite Buddy- Fat Sonny
OK SONNY- I CANT SWIM--LOL-- HERE IS ANOTHER GREAT FRIEND OF MINE- HE IS ALSO THE ONE THAT INTRODUCED ME TO ANCIENT1- AND I THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THAT, BET YOU NEVER KNEW WE WOULD BECOME GOOD FRIENDS- WE HAVE AND SONNY I THANK YOU DEARLY- YOU AND DAVE AND A FEW MORE HAVE BECOME MY GOOD FRIENDS ON HERE AND I JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW I LOVE YOU LIKE A "LIL BIG MAN"--LOL- NO REALLY- THANK YOU SONNY FOR ALL THE LAUGHS AND SMILES YOU BRING INTO MY LIFE ON A DAILY BASIS- AND FOR THE ONES THAT ARE READING THIS- SONNYS A REAL HOOT- HE CAN BRING LAUGHTER INTO YOUR LIFE WHEN YOU THINK NO ONE CAN. CHECK HIM OUT-- BELIEVE ME- HE IS ONE HELL OF A MAN. SORRY LADIES- HES DEVILGIRLS MAN!! ~FAT SONNY~@ CherryTAP

Vhi Classic Presents 'behind The Music: Pantera
VHI classic will be re-airing a 'Behind the Music' special on Pantera on Thursday, June 21 at 1:00 p.m. EST. The special includes interviews with the surviving members of Pantera, the bands, manager, producer, Dime's girlfriend and many other guests so make sure to check it out!

Here Is My Good Friend And Buddy Also- Outlaw Red Eyed Country Boy-
I MET THIS MAN WHEN I WAS A MEMBER OF THE COWBOYS AND COWGIRLS OF CT- HE HAS DONE NOTHING BUT STOOD BY ME THROUGH EVERYTHING - AND HAS EVEN TAKEN UP FOR ME ON A FEW OCCASIONS WHEN A CERTIAN DUMBASS WOULD MAKE ME FEEL AS LOW AS DIRT- HES A REAL FRIEND AND HE TOO WILL BE FRIEND TO YOU AS WELL. HES ALWAYS SPREADING HIS LOVE ON HERE TO ME AND HE WILL YOU AS WELL. THANK YOU SWEETY FOR BEING MY FRIEND AND STAYING TRUE AND BEING REAL- outlaw red eyed country boy@ CherryTAP

Yay!
You scored as Marines, Semper Fi. You are a true Marine. You are the nation's most devastating fighting force, barring Special Forces. But your place was not easy to get. You endured the harshest basic training of any Armed Force to get where you are, and your reward is the respect and admiration of everyone else (except maybe the Air Force, who may view you as just a dumb grunt. Perhaps it's true, but you just want to fight).Marines96% Air Force82% Army54% Navy50% Coast Guard36% Which branch of the Military are you?created with QuizFarm.com

*emotions* (thank U 'pussay'aka Sarah!!)
The perfect Dominant will keep you safe from harm: both physical and emotional. He will also keep you from any kind of discomfort, be it being too cold or too hot. He will heal all your ills and make your life perfect. All of your needs and wants will be fulfilled, even before you know you need or want something. Sounds ideal, doesn't it? Well in theory, it is. However, Dominants are people to. Like anyone else, they will make mistakes, upset you, and sometimes even disappoint you. What do you do when that pedestal they are on gets a little lower to the ground? How do you express what you are feeling? What do you do? The answer is as simple as understanding human emotions. Every emotion has a different way to be expressed. Love is one of the easiest emotions that can be expressed to our Dominants. We all seem to know how to do that instinctively. As we get to know Them, we learn Their likes and dislikes and learn to enhance on what They enjoy. In doing this, we also learn how to

Through A Rapist's Eyes (no Joke)
Through a Rapist's Eyes (No Joke) When this was sent to me, I was told to forward it to my lady friends. I forwarded it to most everyone in my address book. My men friends have female friends and this information is too important to miss someone. Please pass it along. A group of rapists and date rapists in prison were interviewed on what they look for in a potential victim and here are some interesting facts : 1) The first thing men look for in a potential victim is hairstyle . They are most likely to go after a woman with a ponytail, bun, braid or other hairstyle that can easily be grabbed . They are also likely to go after a woman with long hair. Women with short hair are not common targets. 2) The second thing men look for is clothing. They will look for women who's clothing is easy to remove quickly. Many of them carry scissors around specifically to cut clothing. 3) They also look for women on their cell phone, searching through their purse or doing

Get Your Peter Britt Country Girls Club, Uhhh, Stuff!
Well this is where you can get Peter Britt Country Girls Club t-shirts, thongs, mugs, pillows, teddy bears, you name it. Anyone who wishes to PROUDLY display they are an official Peter Britt Country Girl can click anywhere below and be on the way to what you wish. If I did this correctly, you should only have to click a pic. If not, just go to www.cafepress.com/peterbritt Peter Britt :)

What A Strange Convenience...
soo my job Booster Juice officially opens today, and i thought i worked today cuz my scedual said sunday 9:45-5pm but when the manager got there she didnt have me scedualed for opeining day, wich is good, cuz from now on i work morinigs either 6:45 or 9:45 wich i dont think we will get much buisness then... and i only work till like 3 or 5 when most are still at school or work... soo i got today off..

Trying My Hand At Fiction.
Meteors “I think I’m having a bad day.” Sara bit her tongue on the retort that almost jumped from her lips, pausing merely for dramatic effect before drawling deliberately into the smoke-fuzzied air, “It’s 3:45 in the morning. Bad day today, or bad day ongoing? Or like, does 24 hours constitute a day, because this really isn’t—“ “A bad week, maybe.” “Yeah, well, me too.” Especially now, having been drug out of bed in the middle of the night, forced to creep through her silent house without waking her housemates and now sitting with him on the back steps that were very quickly turning her entire bottom to an increasingly numb block of ice. Paul just looked at her, a small smile tilting that mouth that could match her quip for quip, when provoked, tugging at the hem of her pajama pants. “I’m finding it very difficult to take you seriously.” Confusion brought her brows to

Grrrrr Baby
You scored as Dragon, Dragon: Now talk about a legend. These magnificent creatures are of many species. Some can be as large as the Earth itself, while others are as small as a mouse. One image that comes to everyone's mind is the large, fire breathing Dragons that loathed humans and loved to sleep on massive piles of gold. Not all dragons have a bad reputation. Most dragons are very wise, caring, and protective. It would make a person very lucky indeed to meet a dragon. Especially if they walked away untouched. I admire your wisdom, for you are the Ancient Dragon.Mermaid75% Dragon75% Faerie67% Angel58% Demon58% WereWolf50% What Mythological Creature are you? (Cool Pics!)created with QuizFarm.com

December 12, 2006
i think i need a sexier hobby. While other people post wholly exciting, introspective, and brilliant blogs, I'm forever left with the fact that I have absolutely nothing interesting to share with the world. This is my story of the week: Somewhere along the long trek from Meridian to Jackson, the 174 mile round trip course that I take every day to school, there are two lakes--at the exit (100, to be exact) to a little town called Lake--that in itself, I find ironic, but whatever--I may be overanalytical, due to the copious amounts of nothing from here to Jackson and back. But alas, that is not what this story is about. This story is about cows. I used to have a severe distaste for cows--was absolutely terrified of them (for some unexplainable reason)--but have since overcome that fear, to hold a mild interest for them, I suppose. They're cute. . .from a distance. So there are these two lakes--one is the people lake; there is a dock, some picnic tables (maybe, I might ha

~native_rebel~
As some have seen that I, and RECK was with a family and it just didn't feel like a family... SOOOO, Reck decided to bring her Yahoo family to CHERRY TAP. Purple was already a friend of ours so she helped started this new family up. We are known as the Native_Rebel.. we are a close net family of friends. We stick behind all our friends and family 1000%. Here are the RULES.. If you think you would like to join after reading and you can agree to them.. You may contact myself or Purple. One thing is.. WE DO NOT COMMENT BOMB, UNLESS WE ARE ASKED AND YOU HAVE HELPED US IN THE PAST. We don't ask for a amount to be reached by you.. you do what you think is fair to that person you are helping. We Do realize that you all have a life outside Cherry Tap and We do not expect you to stay on here 24/7. We do ask that you wear the name and wear it with pride. You can be part of other Lounges. But you have to have our lounge on your home page. All Rebels will show respect to all other

This In My Own Ice Man- "iced Earth Rule"
HE TOO HAS BEEN A TREMENDOUS INFLUANCE TO MY LIFE- YES HES A YOUNGIN- BUT HES SMARTER THAN ALOT OF THE ADULTS ON HERE- HE KNOWS ALOT MORE THAN MOST OF US AND HAS SEEN ALOT ON HERE- AND HAS BEEN MY FRIEND FROM DAY ONE- I LOVE YA BABE- HUGS- Iced Earth Rule - BLAH BLAH BLAH Kats Something@ CherryTAP

Self Destructive
Feel like I'm on a path of self destruction, doing things I know won't make anything any better. Afraid I'm going to do something that I'll regret, things that cannot be taken back. I feel like I'm on the edge and there's no one there to drag me back. Like I'm completely and utterly alone and yet if someone tries to get too close to me I push them away, shut them out. I really wish someone would sit me down and make me stop doing these things but I know I have to stop myself. Maybe when I finally have enough, when I finally see these things only make it worse, I'll stop...maybe. I hate being around a crowd of people yet I hate being alone. I keep breaking plans to go out and celebrate my new found freedom with my friends. I want to drink and get drunk, not drink to loosen up and have fun. My insomnia is back and I hardly ever sleep. I hate sleeping alone. Things I do to get through the night I am not proud of. I feel like I lose a part of myself every time I do these things. This was n

Southern Hotties Crew Lounge!---hot Chicks, And Good Drinks!
We're rocking and rolling! We just need to add some members to the Southern Hotties Crew Lounge, build us a DJ booth, get some hostesses, bouncers, bartenders and some promo and we're rolling! If you wanna check it out, it's at: http://cherrytap.com/lounge.php?l=8012 Please help us by reposting this, too! Muahz Tiff and the Texas Flames Owner Southern Hotties Crew Lounge

Proof !!!!!!!!!!!! Lmaoooooo
You scored as Angel, Angel: Angels are the guardians of all things, from the smallest ant to the tallest tree. They give inspiration, love, hope, and positive emotion. They live among humans without being seen. They are the good in all things, and if you feel alone, don't fear. They are always watching. Often times they merely stand by, whispering into the ears of those who feel lost. They would love nothing more then to reveal themselves, but in today's society, this would bring havoc and many unneeded questions. Give thanks to all things beautiful, for you are an Angel.Angel100% Mermaid58% Dragon50% Faerie42% WereWolf17% Demon8% What Mythological Creature are you? (Cool Pics!)created with QuizFarm.com

Bed Of Many Pleasures
On your bed of many pleasures, I am another woman Living dreamily in my own body, Looking down to see you In the darkened room, Your head nestled between my Surprised thighs. Your mouth at my other one, In previously no-man’s land, World of Enchantments, Lights exploding in my head In time to your rhythmic movements. From somewhere in the room I hear noises I can’t place, Sounds unfamiliar, and yet not so. With a start I realize that The sounds are coming from me, Fevered moaning, short pants, Hot gasps gulping sensualized air. And still, you continue Your sweet onslaught, Revenge for my believing I could have done without this For so many tongueless years. I look down again, seeing Your short, dark hair, The broad expanse of your back, Your hands holding my hips As it they held treasured secrets. Putting my hands on yours, I feel our fingers join together Like a lace curtain in passion’s window, Holding me place-bound, Spell-bound, body-bound

Sum Sum Abotu Me ;) And Heafty Joke
YOU KNOW YOUR HEAFTY JOKE .....at end of blog OK LOL I already wrote this once and lost everything when I got a error message.....so attempt #2........waits for cheering section....................................... I was trying to tell a little something about who I was ,.....*trying*

Cyber Lover
I love the way you play with me No hangups here for you or me I wonder how it would really be Only in my mind i see..... Sweet hot meat to tickle my clit The trail ends with my slippery wet slit My legs spread ever so wide you see Dive right in,set me free Take me to the place i need to be Enveloped in your ecstacy

Crockpot Chicken Tortilla Soup
1 (46 ounce) can chicken broth 1 (15 ounce) can tomato sauce 1 (15 ounce) can diced tomatoes 3 cups shredded cooked chicken (great to use rotisserie from the deli) 2 anaheim chilies, diced 1 jalapeno pepper, diced 1/2 cup diced onions 3-4 large tomatoes, diced 2 garlic cloves, minced 2 tablespoons minced cilantro 1 tablespoon chili powder 2 teaspoons cumin 2 teaspoons pepper 1 teaspoon salt 2 teaspoons Tabasco sauce 1/2 teaspoon chipotle peppers (optional) Garnish Ideas: 1 cup shredded cheddar cheese 1 avocado, chopped 1/4 cup cilantro, pulled from stem 1 lime, cut into wedges 2 cups crushed tortilla chips Dollup of sour cream Throw everything except the garnishes in your crockpot and let it cook on high for 5-6 hours. Dress with garnishes and give it a squeeze of lime (a must:-) and you're good to go!

I Hate Everything About You
Every time we lie awake after every hit we take every feeling that I get but I haven't missed you yet Every roommate kept awake bye every sigh and scream we make all the feeling that I get but I still don't miss you yet only when I stop to think about it I hate everything about you why do I love you I hate everything about you why do I love you Only when I stop to think about you I know Only when you stop to think about me do you know I hate everything about you why do I love you you hate everything about me why do you love me I hate you hate I hate you love me I hate everything about you why do I love you

What I'm Feeling
Last night I went out with the most perfect man I have ever met. He is everything I could ever want or need and in my eyes he is totally without flaw. I never knew how hard it could be to watch a movie. Never once last night did the fact that he was right there leave my mind. After the movie we sat and talked for a long time without realizing time had past. I know now that no one else could make me feel the way he does and feel like I have been looking for him all my life. I think I would die, inside anyway, if we were never to be together again. I've never felt this way before and it scares me badly!! He is perfect. I only hope I deserve him!

Relationships
I long for your gentle touch, it brings me such delight. You chase away the demons, leave me no reason to fight. In your arms there is no terror, I am untouchable. With you right beside me my hunger is insatiable. Hold me close don't let me go. Stay with me tonight, the peace you bring I ache to know. There is no yesterday when I am wrapped in your embrace. Tomorrow is clear when I look into your sweet face. I ask not for promises or for words that you don't mean. Later I will worry about the tears that will flow like a stream. There are no questions floating through my mind. There is only a serenity that I was sure I would never find.

What Feeling Are You?
You scored as Hope, Your Hope!! There is always a chance in your mind. You'll never give up. Your a determined person. You are very optimistic even when it seems all hope is lost. Thanks for taking my quiz. Please rate. :)Joy92% Hope92% Wisdom92% Faith92% Peace92% Grace83% Love75% Courage67% What feeling are you?? (cool pics)created with QuizFarm.com

Friendship
Love starts with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a tear. Don't cry over anyone who won't cry over you. Good friends are hard to find, harder to leave, and impossible to forget. You can only go as far as you push. Actions speak louder than words. The hardest thing to do is watch the one you love, love somebody else. Don't let the past hold you back; you're missing the good stuff. Life's short. If you don't look around once in a while, you might miss it. A best friend is like a four leaf clover: hard to find and lucky to have. If you think that the world means nothing, think again. You might mean the world to someone else. When it hurts to look back, and you're scared to look ahead, you can look beside you and your best friend will be there True friendship never ends. Friends are forever. Good friends are like stars....You don't always see them, but you know they are always there. Don't frown. You never know who is falling in love

Southern Hotties Lounge
Please come join me and some friends in a new lounge... Southern Hotties Crew http://cherrytap.com/lounge.php?l=8012 the lounge was created by a good friend of mine, Tiff. TX Flame-Owner Southern Hotties Crew (VOTE Now-BIKINI Contest In My Pics) I'm Tiff!@ CherryTAP you will get to meet some good hearted Country fella's and you will meet some Stunning, Sexy, and Amazing Country Gals... nothing better in my eyes than a country gal. So what do ya say...Wanna Join the lounge...what are you waiting for.. Thank you Nate

Accept Me
Images of you fill my mind Your charm blinds everyone who looks your way. Your eyes hypnotize me. The things you do and say piss off most everyone. Yet, I understand everything. I want to be yours. I would do anything I could just to make you notice me. But I'm only one in a million. You could have anyone at your Beck and Call. And I want to do just that. Your slave Your toy You love Your friend Only One You want Anything you want me to be, I'll be. If only you'll accept me. for me, I can be yours.

Time For A Vacation
I haven't had a real vacation in a year and a half (a delightful weekend trip to Orlando after a week of 56 hours of overtime doesn't count--that's like, 1 day of hazy staggering around after flying nearly 5,000 miles). I have 4 weeks to use in the next 7 months, so I'll start with this week! I'm going to drive to Fairbanks (it's always much hotter there in the summer) and spend a night here http://www.akalpinelodge.com/ and then I'm going to drive another 60 miles from there to see a place I have never seen before http://chenahotsprings.com/ and then I'm returning home to do some housework and laze about and plan how I'll burn off the other three weeks. I can *highly* recommend both Canada and Alaska as nice places to visit in the summertime!

Sex Iq
You have a sexual IQ of 133 When it comes to sex, you are a super genius. You have had a lot of experience, and sex interests you so you know a lot about it. You pride yourself on being a source of information and guidance to all of your friends. Take this quiz at QuizUniverse.com

The Last Time
The last time i was held when someone wanted to hold me This august makes a year But i didn't want it The last time i was held when i wanted to be Three and a half years, give or take a few months But i didn't need it The last time i was held when i needed it i know it happened but i can't remember it

20 Things Guys Shoud Know!
20 ways to win a girl's heart 1. Hugs from behind. 2. Grab her hand when you walk next to each other(don't make her grab yours). 3. When standing, wrap your arms around her. 4. Cuddle with her. 5. DON'T FORCE HER TO DO ANYTHING. 6. Write little notes. 7. Compliment her Honestly. 8. When you hug her, hold her in your arms as long as possible. 9. Be super sweet to her. 10. Call her at night to wish her sweet dreams. 11. Comfort her when she cries. 12.Wipe away her tears 13. Love her with all your heart. 14. Pick her up and flirt with her (she'll scream and say put me down but really she loves it). 15. Be a gentleman (hold the door for her). 16. Don't let your friends talk trash about her, it'll get back 2 her! & DONT ever act diff in front of ur friends than u r when its just u and her!!!! 17. Take her for a long walk at night! 18. Always bring a blanket where ever you go outside when its cold to comfort her and hold her close 19. NEVER LIE TO HER!!!!!! because then

Beautiful Home
something a little more upbeat Here lives a beautiful person beautiful in flesh beautiful in mind beautiful in heart beautiful in soul beautiful in laughter beautiful in sorrow beautiful in silence beautiful in words beautiful streaming from inside out

You Think You Know A Cat? Meet Hellcat--
THIS WOMAN IS THE BEST- SHES BEEN A FRIEND OF MINE FOR A WHILE NOW AND WE HAD A LIL PROBLEM BUT TRUE FRIENDS WORK THROUGH EVERYTHING- AND WE DID JUST THAT- SHES ON MY FAMILY LIST ALONG WITH THE OTHERS IN THESE BLOGS BECAUSE TO ME - HELLCAT- YOU ARE FAMILY. I LOVE YOU GIRL. HUGS TO YOU. HELLCAT@ CherryTAP

Heres The Link - Please Vote!!
heres my link to vote for me for the Cherry Tap Bikin Contest: go here: http://cherrytap.com/viewimage.php?u=305222&albumid=383364&i=3828948424 VOTE VOTE VOTE!!! thank you for those who support me!!

Can You Get It?
A time comes in your life when you finally get it... When in the midst of all your fears and insanity you stop dead in your tracks and somewhere the voice inside your head cries out - ENOUGH! Enough fighting and crying or struggling to hold on. And, like a child quieting down after a blind tantrum, your sobs begin to subside, you shudder once or twice, you blink back your tears and through a mantle of wet lashes you begin to look at the world through new eyes. This is your awakening. You realize that it's time to stop hoping and waiting for something to change or for happiness, safety and security to come galloping over the next horizon. You come to terms with the fact that he is not Prince Charming and you are not Cinderella and that in the real world there aren't always fairy tale endings (or beginnings for that matter) and that any guarantee of "happily ever after" must begin with you and in t

The Dying Rose
Crimson drops of love and sorrow will fall upon the wall tomorrow Endless echos of hows and whys will fall from their crying eyes A secret so dark that no one knows and here let lay the dying rose

Hypothetically Speaking - The Lipstick List
HYPOTHETICALLY SPEAKING - THE LIPSTICK LIST OK so I need 2 explain what a lipstick list is before I get into this. A lipstick list is the list on the wall that u wrote with lipstick cuz ur ass is Schizophrenic. U know like the 1 in Billy Madison when Billy calls everyone from school that he picked on & apologizes. The sniper guy crosses Billy off the list he has on the wall and puts on his lipstick afterward. Crazzzzyyy. Well anyway, hypothetically speaking, if I had a lipstick list these r some things or some people that would be on it!! Just 4 future reference. Then u know not 2 be or do any of these things to me!! They make me a little anal! 1-McDonald's cashier: U know that biatch that gives u ur $30 worth of food with no napkins, no straws 4 ur 4 drinks, no ketchup & 1 barbecue sauce for 4 orders of nuggets. Then u say "can I borrow ur pants real quick so I can wipe my hands on them since that's what you must do since u think I do!" Come on I can let the ketchup slide & the

Siege
The warning never came But it should have Emotions left dangling Upon a thread of hope Out there in the world beyond Lay a heart abandoned Reason no longer mattered And sanity held no value It was not openly apparent That all would soon vanish Yet it came quietly in darkness Whispering the farewell With daybreak came the emptiness Love had surrendered to the siege

Player Alert
hes so in love, but sent me these, lmao links at the bottom >>>>>>>>>On 6/7/2007, ct77192@cherrytap.com wrote: >>>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>>>she had the abortion today...but my car broke down about 200 miles from home in toronto....I can afford to get it fixed till the end of the month...it needs a new clutch but i dont have the $500...I had to pay credit cards debt off...so if you are sneding me some money...I need it now doll to help pay for my car to be fixed...email me your number so I can call you sweetheart. >>>>>>>>>> >>>>>>>On 6/7/2007, ct77192@cherrytap.com wrote: >>>>>>> >>>>>>>>I am going to work a deal with the mechanic where I will have my car before the end of the month so you will be able to still come visit me if you want to...you need to give me your number so i can call you...I dont know what the big deal is of me calling you. >>>>>>>> >>>>>On 6/7/2007, ct77192@cherrytap.com wrote: >>>>> >>>>>>you can fly right to sarnia...we have an airport here and I am a da

Regina Skeeters
About Regina Skeeters With her soaring voice, boundless energy, and unmovable faith, South Carolina native Regina Renee Skeeters is one of the most innovative risk-taking artists today. Reginas life has been dedicated to the anointed delivery of gospel music since childhood. She was born and raised in Conway, SC, by her mother, Mrs. Jean Blain Skeeters and her father, the late Eugene Skeeters. She began to develop her gift of song at an early age while singing at Bethlehem Baptist Church and with various groups well into her high school years. Upon entering college, Regina continued to blossom and blaze new trails with her golden voice and undeniable writing ability. During her tenure and Benedict College, Regina served as a very instrumental member of the Benedict College Concert Choir and Benedict College Gospel Choir. Regina was voted top alto vocalist at the National Collegiate Gospel Competition, where the gospel choir was number one for three consecutive years. The well-renowned

Ldc Chain Of Command
** To ALL LDC Members, Founders and Co-Founders !!! ** As of June 9th, 2007 there will be a new Chain of Command put into place within the LDC Family and the Clan Lupin Family. These chains are basically so that nobody goes over anyones head in doing something. How this chain works is simple. You will start with the Number 1 spot if you have a question or a problem. If they arent on, you will go down to the Number 2 spot and so on. This Chain of Command is to be used when dealing with ANY family situations or drama. Use this Chain of Command before posting any bulletins or comments over anything. Clan Lupin is in place to deal with any drama or problems within the family but when dealing with the more serious situations, the Chain of Command needs to be upheld. Should the need arise that a creator steps in on ANY situation, then the decision of that creator over rides any decision previously given. Below you will find the Chain of Command for the LDC Family and below that you will

A Person Very Close To My Heart Lost Her Mom!
It was really her grandmother but, people tend to love the ones closest to them more! I want her to know that I love and care 4 her very much! MeMe I love u! U have my heart and I pray 4 u!

Him
There's someone special in my life Who dosen't know i care I wish i could let him know it But let it show, I wouldn't dare. I don't want to even risk it I don't want to even try For if he knew i felt this way I'd feel insecure and shy. I never thought I'd feel this way I never thought I'd care There's something in that smile of his That makes me stop and stare. How can i tell if he likes me? Will he ever look my way? I'll keep my feelings hidden for now And save them for another day.

Better Known As Southern Princess- And My Friend.
THIS IS SOUTHERN PRINCESS- ONE HELL OF A LADY GUYS- SHES A GREAT PERSON TO KNOW AS WELL AS A GREAT PERSON TO HAVE AS A FRIEND. CHECK HER OUT- YOULL LIKE HER TOO- ~~Southern Princess~~@ CherryTAP

Never Felt
How can you ache and crave for someone's touch When you have never felt it? I do this for yours, though, And the yearning grows more each day I have never wanted anything in my life As much as I want you When you whisper such sweet love In my ear when we talk You make me melt into a puddle Of complete helplessness You have become my every waking thought And my every dream at night I breathe in so hard Trying to catch my breath when we can't talk I close my eyes so tight Hoping when I open them you will be there But I know I have to wait Until the time is right It seems so far away That I think I am losing my mind I want to breathe in your scent And keep it with me all day long I want to taste your love for me By kissing your sweet lips I want to feel your body next to me So when you leave for awhile I can hold on I just want you to know That I really do love you When the day comes and we are together You will alway

Birthchart
Name: Michelle May 17 1975 1:32 PM Time Zone is EDT Rising Sign is in 28 Degrees Leo You love to be the center of attention and you want to appear strong, confident and dominant. You are very proud of yourself, sometimes quite vain even. When all around you are bedraggled and falling apart, you look like a million bucks! Very dignified and honorable, you enjoy the power and privilege, but not the responsibilities, that come with leadership. You are very idealistic but can also be quite stubborn. Others impress you only if they have integrity (but wealth, power and influence can also turn your head). You prefer rich, elegant surroundings and possessions, and will try to acquire them as your budget allows. Physically, you are very impressive - - at your best you have a regal, charismatic demeanor and bearing. Try not to be such a showoff! Sun is in 26 Degrees Taurus. You are known for being patient, slow moving and careful -- you love to prolong and savor enjoyable tim

Who Did It?
Be judge and jury in this short story. This personality test sets a moral dilemma in a love story and a murder. Answer the five questions at the end to reveal its meaning and something about your personality. There is a river with a bridge and a wife and her husband live in a house on one side. The wife has a lover who lives on the other side. The only way to get across the river is to walk across the bridge or ask the boatman to take you. The husband has to go on an overnight business trip in a faraway town. The wide pleads with him to take her with him. She knows if he doesn't she'll be unfaithful to him. The husband absolutely refuses to take her because she will only be in the way of his important business. So the husband goes alone. That night the wife goes over the bridge and stays with her lover. Dawn is almost up when the wife leaves because she must be back home before her husband returns. She starts walking across the bridge but sees an assassin waiting for her

Trust
What is trust? Trust is: Letting others know your feelings, emotions and reactions, and having the confidence in them to respect you and to not take advantage of you. Sharing your inner feelings and thoughts with others with the belief that they will not spread them indiscriminately. Placing confidence in others so that they will be supportive and reinforcing of you, even if you let down your "strong'' mask and show your weaknesses. Assuming that others will not intentionally hurt or abuse you if you should make an error or a mistake. The inner sense of acceptance you have of others with whom you are able to share secrets, knowing they are safe. The sense that things are fine; that nothing can disrupt the bond between you and the other. The ability to let others into your life so that you and they can create a relationship built on an understanding of mutual respect, caring, and concern to assist one another in growing and maturing independently. The glu

Fool...
Fool... You've smiled those perfect smiles, Darling, you've got it all; everyone is waiting, on the edge of their seats, Darling, they're waiting for you to fall. Oh, no one can tell what's behind the make up, Nor can they see that you are torn, Where all you truly want in life is to be loved; because your heart, oh well, it's worn. And laced in perfection, you are, Darling, you're stereotypical queen; you've been labeled and judged all your life, This is just another secret left unseen. They've put you up so high, So very high, upon a pedestal so tall; you're slowly dying inside as your mind collapses, Darling, we've been waiting for you to fall. Oh, and no one, no one, is going to catch you, Darling, this is life where you no longer rule; you've become a nobody, Darling, somehow you've become everybody's fool.

School....
Amy's first day of pre-school..... Current mood: accomplished Today was Amy's first day of pre-school over at the Early Learners center here next to NJC. I was a little nervous at first, but once we got inside the building, that eased up some. I think I was more anxious then she was. Aamy got right to business pretty much after we arrived. I stayed there for about 20 mins as well just to see if there were going to be any problems....there was already one little boy there, and they seemed to get along just fine.... It justs seems like yesterday I brought her home from the hospital though. Its truly amazing how much time can really go by almost unnoticed really. We get so busy living our day to day lives to even realize that one day our children will leave us, just as we did the same to our parents. You spend all the time in the world teaching them to be people, and how to react to the world, almost forgetting we all leave each other one day. I think about all the things A

Movie Stuff
I just wanted to post the promotional trailer for my film trilogy in my blog. This was shot in August of 2006, about 3 months before cast was finalized and the real first movie was shot. Only one cast member in this trailer was actually playing the same role as in the real movie. The trailer is really just a series of gags from all three movies. Not even the cast is consistent. If anyone has any thoughts, I'd love to hear them.

Only U
YES IM HAVING A HORRID NIGHT SO EVERYONE DO ME A FAVOR IF U HAVE TO TELL ME SOMETHING LIKE OH YOUR NOT THE ONLY ONE IN THE *HAREM* DO URSELF AND ME A FAVOR FUCK OFF!! NOW TO THE POETRY!!! miscommunication malfunctions mistakes they dont know me they cant feel me you know me from the looks i give to the way i breathe how i act you can feel me inside you only you know the cures how to treat me talk to me right bring a smile to the saddened face your voice warms your touch heals your presence brightens the darked sky no one understands me as you do

Cruel Love
I just recently got out of a relationship that i thought was going really well. when two days after i last saw her and thought everything was ok she deicieds she's not happy and wants to go our seperate ways. i gave this girl alot of money cause she had finacial probs and a kid. gave her all this money so she could keep her apartment, car, and her kid and leaves me cause she wasnt getting enough sex. she doesnt even want to continue to be friends just pretty much said f u and goodbye.

Family Affairs
The 6th affair is my favorite! > > I couldn't resist sending these out....Too funny! > > I though these were so funny....enjoy! > > The 1st Affair > > A married man was having an affair with his secretary. One day they > went to her place and made love all afternoon. Exhausted, they fell > asleep and woke up at 8 PM. The man hurriedly dressed and told his lover > to take his shoes outside and rub them in the grass and dirt. He put on > his shoes and drove home. > > "Where have you been?" his wife demanded. > > "I can't lie to you," he replied, "I'm having an affair with my > secretary. We had sex all afternoon." > > She looked down at his shoes and said: "You lying bastard! You've > been playing golf!" > > > > The 2nd Affair > > A middle-aged couple had two beautiful daughters, but always talked > about having a son. They decided to try one last time for the son they > always wanted. The wife got pregnant and delivered a healthy baby boy. > >

Writing Sample
I wrote this as an intro to a speech for my Communications class. Hehe I am pretty sure the subject will make itself clear as you read. Just felt like sharing, which is not generally something I do often when it comes to my writing. The room had been ransacked, to the unsuspecting eye it would appear as if she had been robbed. Table tops had been cleared, dresser drawers emptied, and bedding thrown about. No, she hadn’t been robbed, she did this. She was sitting in the corner of the room, her body still trembling from the adrenaline that had surged through here only moments ago. She sat cradling her knees as she slowly rocked back and forth, tears steadily streaming down her face. Tearing the room apart piece by piece hadn’t been enough, her head was still full of noise. She was searching for a way to put an end to all of this feeling. You could see her thoughts collecting in her eyes, Suicide? No, too permanent. She had been so certain that physically taking out

Sts-117 Atlantis Flight Day 3 Recap.
STS-117 Atlantis Flight Day 3 6.10.07 8:15 p.m. The STS-117 crew entered the International Space Station for the first time after the hatches between the station and Space Shuttle Atlantis opened at 5:20 p.m. EDT today. Space Shuttle Atlantis and the STS-117 crew arrived at the International Space Station at 3:36 p.m., delivering a new truss segment and crew member to the orbital outpost. One of the first major tasks is the station crew rotation. STS-117 Mission Specialist Clayton Anderson will switch places with Expedition 15 Flight Engineer Suni Williams, who will be wrapping up a six-month tour of duty on the station. Anderson is scheduled to stay on the station until he returns to Earth with STS-120 later this year. Anderson will officially become a member of Expedition 15 when his custom-made seat liner is swapped out with Williams’ in the Soyuz spacecraft docked to the station. The crews will prepare for Monday’s installation of the Sta

Taco Bell
when a couple has 2 computers it can go horribly wrong amanda says: im hungry william says: me too amanda says: i love you amanda says: if you only show me william says: let me get ready for my journey into the unknown william says: taco bell? amanda says: hm amanda says: belly amanda says: ow william says: nachos amanda says: no william says: wet burrito from caso ole amanda says: tacos william says: wet amanda says: you want my wet taco william says: i want to put my beef burrito in you wet taco so we can have a combo platter amanda says: i have a feeling this is gonna be bad amanda says: good job william says: i'll hold the sour cream amanda says: yucky amanda says: this sounds nasty amanda says: i want chicken william says: yeah hopefully since i haven't bathed there won't be any guacamole amanda says: i almost threw up william says: sorry william says: let me go leave some black olives in the bathroom then i'll run for the bord

No More
No more. I've had enough. Don't fuck with us any more. Don't mess with our lives, please. Don't play fight with us, then haul off and slap us in the face. It hurts; it infuriates. Don't choke me any more. Please. I don't want my son to come up to me and complain that he's been hit in the face, and hit in private areas. It hurts and angers me. Tony, please...stop.

The Numbers Game
I WANT UR NUMBER... I DONT CARE WHO U ARE... I BET U WON'T GIVE IT TO ME... I DARE U! COPY AND PASTE THIS AND SEE HOW MANY NUMBERZ U CAN GET!!! NAME:________________ NUMBER:________________ IT DOESNT MATTER IF UR SINGLE OR NOT. COPY AND REPOST OR U AND UR TRUE LOVE CAN NEVER BE REPOST AS...I WANT YOUR NUMBER

My Pics Went Into Overkill!
Ok friends!! Because I have soooooooo many pics, I have made things a little easier for you to locate a particular pic. I have numbered all my albums!! 28 in all I believe! Yeah, I know, WHEW!!! lol The only pic in my default album is my default pic. If you see a pic, that you know to be me, but you can't see my face, PLEASE let me know first! I will flag it NSFW myself immediatly. If YOU flag it, I'll get a nasty letter from CT staff threatening to "Delete my account!!!" PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Just tell me what number album has the "offensive" (cough cough) pic in, and I will flag it myself. Thank you soooooo much!!! I love you all!!!! MMUUUAAAHHHHH!!!! Silver

Friends
This is GOOD..I expect it back too! I especially like the last Sentence!!!!!! A simple friend, when visiting, acts like a guest. A real friend opens Your Refrigerator and helps himself (and doesn't feel even the least bit Weird Shutting your 'beer/Pepsi drawer' with her foot!) A simple friend has never seen you cry A real friend has shoulders soggy from your tears.. A simple friend doesn't know your parents' first names. A real friend has their phone numbers in his address book. A simple friend brings a bottle of wine to your party. A real friend comes early to help you cook and stays late to help you clean. A simple friend hates it when you call after they've gone to bed. A real friend asks you why you took so long to call. A simple friend seeks to talk with you about your problems. A real friend seeks to help you with your problems. A simple friend wonders about your romantic history. A real friend could blackmail you with it. A simple friend thinks the friendship is over when you ha

Looks
I am writing this,because one of my new friends was made to cry,because of looks.took me abit to muddle on it. hope it comes out ok. Look into my eyes; and see the soul that is. This shell; is just what it is a shell. Find my heart and soul;it resides within. See that beauty; it may blind you yet. Look within and not without;for this is where I am. I am just a traveler; seeking a like soul. Look deep into my eyes; what i am. I am just me; it's all I can be. I offer no riches; none are here. I offer no beauty; I know my countrance. I do offer what is;this heart and soul. I all I have is my word;honor begets honor. Look deep within and know what is; you may like it. I am just a simple knight;seeking a lady. A lady to defend; always and evermore. Look beyond what is and know; what lies here. As all things; In Time ,Truth. Within this shell; lies all the things that can be. Just look with

Sex Application
Your Name: 2. Age: 3. Favorite position (s) 4. Do you think i'm hot? 5. Would you have sex with me? 6. lights on or off? 7. Would you have to be drunk? 8. Would you take a shower with me? 9. Have you ever thought about having sex with me? 10. Would you leave after or stay the night? 11. Do you like cuddling afterwards? 12. Condom or skin? 13. Do you give Oral pleasures? 14. Do you like to recieve Oral Pleasures? 15. Have sex on the first date? 16. Would you kiss me during sex? 17. Do you think I would be good in bed? 18. Three sum? 19. Anal yes/no? 20. How many times would you like to cum? 21. Would you use me as a booty call? 22. Do you like fore play ? 23. What is fore play to you? 24. Can we take pictures of the act? 25. Will you post this so I can fill it out for you? SEE HOW MANY PEOPLE SEND THiS BACK EVEN iF YOU HAVE A BOYFRiEND OR GiRLFRiEND- REPOST THiS! TiTLE iT "SEX APPLiCATiON"

I Am The Diva
I consider myself a DIVA for a couple reasons. Not so much because of how I act, but because of what I do. I work full time for the same company for 4 years now and take care of my 2 beautiful children. Everything I do, I do for my family. I don't do anything for myself besides buy cigaretts and an occasional drink. Other than that, all money that I make I do for my family. My family consists of me, my 2 kids, and my boyfriend of over 2 years that means everything to me. That's why I consider myself a diva. Most women (and even men) don't do that, so I'm giving myself cudos. You may think that I'm full of myself for that, but I don't. I think that I'm just trying to be a good person and do what's right by my family. I know that I need to do more for myself, but to me, family comes first. Due to not growing up in a family where family came first, I think I sort of adopted this policy for myself because of that. No matter what anyone says, in my own mind, I'm a DIVA! I am

Experience
Sometimes we have an experience that we don’t understand, but if we look deeply or wait long enough, a reason for that experience will usually reveal itself. All the events in our lives lead to other events, and all that we have manifested in this present moment is the result of past events and experiences. One can't easily tease apart the many threads that have been woven together to create our current realities. Experiences that don’t make sense, as well as any that we regret, are just as responsible for the good things in our lives as the experiences we do understand or label as “good.” Sometimes we take a job or move to a place without really knowing if it’s the right thing to do. We may ultimately end up leaving the job or the place, but often during that time we will have met someone who becomes an important friend, or we may have an experience that changes us in a profound way. When all the pieces of our life don’t quite make sense, we can rem

Evolve Or Perish.
Everyone around me has lost hope. Everyone except me. Maybe it's just the notion old people are old and just don't care anymore. It's up to our youth to get 'er done. Mom needs my help more than ever. No one has faith in her anymore. My misery got the best of me tonight. I usually hold it in, but I lashed out at her for once, only to prove I'm still a child. Yeah, I'm writing this in prose, glad you noticed. This last semester changed me. I picked up traits that I don't want to lose now because it helped me get through the rough times, but each trait came at a cost of my old self. A piece of the old innocence for a piece of ruthlessness. I've poisoned myself and it's proven difficult to reverse. And others need my help more than ever and I'm too busy fucking myself up. You're letting them down. Yourself down. Who do we turn to when our youth cannot pick up the slack? Evolve or perish.

Grief
I will not forget you. You are in my waking thoughts, my sweetest memories, my dearest dreams. I will not forget you. You have touched my soul, opened my eyes, changed my very experience of the universe. I will not forget you. I see you in the flowers, the sunset, the sweep of the horizon and all things that stretch into infinity. I will not forget you. I have carved you on the palm of my hand. I carry you with me forever. Ellen Sue Stern, Living With Loss, 1995

An Srv Concert!
Stevie Ray Vaughan Concert! DATE: 02 Mar 2007, 3:17 am / MOOD: Eager to ride My big Brother once took me to a concert at San Diego State's out door ampitheater. I'll never forget it. It was Stevie Ray Vaughan. During the concert, at one point a nice looking woman stepped out of the rows of seating and standing in the isle, opened her shirt to show Stevie her tits. Well of course everyone cheered, and she sat back down. Next thing you know Security starts to surround her from every direction like a small swarm and then began to close in. Well Stevie Ray never missed a beat. He spoke over his shoulder to someone backstage and in moments she was released right then and right there without further ado! You gotta love that, huh ? ! Stevie wasn't gonna let them throw her out. Nope, he wasn't havin' it. I love it!

Gus Again
Forever linger DATE: 28 Feb 2007, 7:30 pm / MOOD: Lonely "We will be guided to be in the right place at exactly the right time and to meet the people we need to encounter."---Bob Frissell, American Author. Sometimes I think I conjured up my Gus.... the very first time we ever met in this life, we both knew instantly that we had known each other before. We looked into each others eyes and instantly everything else fell away. The way that he looked at me shall forever linger in my memory. A look that will flash before my inner eyes for incarnations to come, a look of recognition and confusion that perfectly reflected my own. A look that I suspect will be the last thing I see in the cinema of my mind before I die. It was as if at that moment there was no one else alive in the whole world except he and I. His twinkling eyes also hid an intense sexuality that smoldered just beneath his surface that I could feel as surely as I feel the chair I sit in now... Som

Love Lost
THE WAY IT WAS ORIGINALLY WRITTEN DATE: 06 Mar 2007 By Andrea L. Bois Love was all we knew, and time stood still. He would bring me red roses just because he saw them and thought of me, not because it was any special day. He'd play with my hair while I slept, and laugh when I'd look in the mirror at the mess he'd made of it. He'd wake-me with breakfast in bed, just because he loved to cook for me and see the look on my face when I opened my eyes to what he'd made. He'd sit and watch me eat, having already eaten while he was fixing mine he'd say. He never made a thing that I didn't love completely. I'd rub his back every night to put him to sleep, marveling at the beautiful tattoo he had there, across his shoulders and all down the center of his spine, with my initials he'd had added at the top, above his own. Resting my head on his shoulder, enhaling his scent, I'd often fall asleep too while rubbing his back, but not until after he did. I was alwa

The Horizon
DATE: 09 Feb 2007, 8:23 pm THE HORIZON Far out beyond the azure sea The horizon sits beckoning me Not to swim or to surf or sail But to climb aboard you're big soft tail We'll ride all day and into the night Pressed close together holding tight Content in knowing it will always be Out there, beckoning me. By ALB 9-29-06 copyright ©2008 by the author. All rights reserved by author.

Survey
1. When was the last time you shaved your legs? n/a, im a guy, i dont shave my legs, but if it was the least bit "acceptable" i might, lol 2. What were you doing this morning at 8 am? sleeping, lol 3. What were you doing 15 minutes ago? online and watching tv 4.What are you wearing? shorts, boxers, t-shirt 5. Are you mad at anyone right now? no 6. Last person to say they loved you? um parents 7. Last time you kissed someone? hmm...two weekends ago 8. Do you know the words to the song on your MySpace profile? dont have one 9. Last thing received in the mail? umm, i think a credit card offer 11. Have you ever had sex in a public place? um, besides inside a car in a park, no, lol 12. Have you ever been searched by the cops? no 13. How long is your hair? ha, i have no hair 14. How many different drinks have you had today? different kinds, um, 3 15. What have you eaten today? mt. dew, choc. milk, tacos, and nachos 16. Are you any goo

You
When we are together, my world is so at ease. I feel there are no worries and no one else is around. I feel so comfortable in your arms. I feel like they were made for me to be held in. I look into your eyes and see so much love, but know you are afraid to express it, because of the pain you have suffered. I am sitting here wondering what has gone wrong. I feel you have pulled away because I have done something wrong. If I have done something wrong, I just wish you would let me know. If you have found someone else, I wish you would tell me. I am in a state of confusion, please help me clear it up. If you dont want a relationship, but just a friendship, I can do that. Tell me please tell me what you want to do.

Trimming Off The Dead Weight
Yes, it's that time again. Friends list is up to 106. Out of those, I hear from maybe... two of them, semi-regularly? Others can't be bothered. I think it's time for the delete button. Someone posted a bulletin requesting a nifty feature to allow us to delete multiple people at once. I think I'm going to second that idea, because there are people here who literally spoke to me once and once only and they just take up space on my list. I think I'm also going to target the people who used to speak to me and then suddenly stopped (but haven't removed me from their list - after all, a body is a body). Those people won't know anyway... so I don't feel the least bit bad about it.

Baby Kaleb Bracelets
The address to the bracelet page is: http://www.myspace.com/kalebbracelets You can order a bracelet for baby Kaleb at the above site. You can use paypal or a credit card to order it. They're $5.00... $3.00 goes to Kaleb's fund $1.00 for bracelet $1.00 for shipping It's all legit and I think this is a great way to show our support for this little guy! Thanks and keep praying!!!

Trust
When you say the word trust, people automatically think of the word honesty. For me there is much more to it than that. That is the surface trust for me. I give that to everyone. I shouldn't but I do. I trust everyone until given a reason not to, and honestly it usually takes me getting burned a few times before I quit trusting them. I used to look hard for the good in people, I am tired of looking though. If it's not there, why should I create it for them!! I am wanting to experience the trust that comes from your soul. I know people who have that, and I want it!! They never have to doubt anything or wonder what is really going on, they just know that the trust is there. They also seem to be the most open people, because they are comfortable with what they have and who they are. I have the open part down pat. And I am one of the most giving and honest people that I know. But why is it that I can't find anyone to share that with? The one that will be able t

Licence
I just got my motor cycle licence! I have never ridden before so it was pretty tough for me. Grwoing up my brothers never had motor cycles so I had to take a class. I passed today! Now i need to buy a bike. what should I buy???

The Storm
she sat and watched as the storm rolled in from across the western sky the clouds grew dark,and the lighting flashed and then she began to cry she could not explain why she felt so blue or why her heart was so much in pain then suddenly cam a loud clap of thunder and then it began to rain oh how the wind did blow and trees did bend the rain pooured with all it might and she walked the floor and trembled as she cried on through the night as the storm raged on , so her termoil too and the wind it took its toll but when it was over, it had refreshed the earth just as her tears had refreshed her soul..

Into Ecstasy
You caress me into ecstasy as I watch you lower yourself onto your knees Kissing my breasts and licking my nipples ... Looking up into my face your hand would touch all over, until they found the place where I was moist and wet for you.... You would look into my eyes and slip your fingers gently between my thighs only to bring them back to your mouth to savor ... The sweet scent and taste of me..... You part my legs and lower your head to where my wet flavor waits You lick and suck penetrate me with your tongue ... Massaging and caressing my wanting lips as only you can do probing tasting, wanting more of me.

Sad Poem
sad poem Current mood: crushed you said you wouldn't hurt me but you did. you promised me you love me bu you don't you promised m you wouldn't mak me cry. buy you did. you said i was your whole world . was that a lie? you made me laugh.was that just part of your plan? you wanted me as your wife. so does everyone else. you lefted with out a word. i gave you my heart, now it is bleeding i gave you my love,now it is gone i hurt you ones , witch i am sorry for i made you laugh , so happy were we i kissed you so , evn though i know your sad, i love you so ,but you are gone i am soo sorry for being this way i am so sorry for telling you to go away if i cold change this i would but you are gone gone away from me my heart is shatted my mind is lost my eyes can see the pretty colors around my soul is gone. its just me alone in the dark

Friendship
You know I've been thinking of some stuff, mainly friendship. You see one of my friends, well I don't even know if we are still friends or not. But anyways, she's the kind of friend that wants to talk every day. Me I define friendship as, someone being there for you, it don't matter if I've talked to you yesterday, 5 minutes ago, or hell 13 years ago. You see one of my high school friends got married last weekend. I was suppose to go to it, but couldn't do to the fact I had to work. Aww...the military gotta love it. But I do have friends that live in Panama City, that I don't talk to on a daily basis. Yes we do play the catch up game, which for me is really nothing new to talk about. Yes I would drop everything for a friend, done it before. Gave up sleep just so I could go to a friend's place and help them out with a problem they were having. But the thing is don't get mad at me, when I decide I want to have my own life. You know, you can't really get mad at me, if you don't leave a me

Nsfw = Out Of Control
Ok, I have 2 pictures in my album that were marked by Cherry Tap staff as NSFW, so i had to move them to their own separate album. These 2 pics are nothing more than simple cleavage pictures, i am dressed in BOTH pictures, and what is shown is nothing different than what you see any and everyday while going down the road, at work, at the grocery store, whatever. Now what really pisses me off about this is that i see tons of other female member so here, which cleavage pics, some of which show much more than mine and are dressed less than me, but still, their pics are no different than mine. But yet, THEY are allowed to keep theirs up NOT rated as NSFW....and it's not like CT can say "oh well, we haven't seen them" i'm talking about members who are on blasts (which have to be a approved) and members who have extremely high ratings and are some of the top CT's on here. Not only is their MAIN pic like this, so are many others, and they are no different than mine. Yanno, I paid for a blast

For Dillion28
Dances of veils.... shimmering mystique.. glances of her looks - wanton submissive... then hidden from view. You wish to capture her... hold her in your hands, caress her till she is malleable, but you can't catch her soul. Like chaining a butterfly... the wings beat and the body lifts... the leg slipping from the golden manacle. Forever free... A gift.. given for the moment... then gone, leaving you not knowing if it will return. Taming a river.... deep and quiet... but always changing.. capture it by dams.... but it will forever elude you. A lightening bug... capture it while you can see it.... it will glow for you in your hands.

Never Welcome In Your Own Home . . . State That Is.
I have alot of people on my friend's list whom I get along with rather well. They do not judge me for my interests or the things I post on my page. In fact that's what drew us to be friends in the first place. Some I just popped in payed compliments to their pics and interests and was warmly thanked and a conversation brewed and common ground was formed on simular beliefs and interests. I have alot of wonderfull, friendly people on my friends list whom I've never had cross words with. Thing is . . . none of em are any where close to where I live. Except one. Tara You rock!!! I've searched for people in my home town and state found some rather interesting people and left friendly greetings and good rates. I don't even get a thank you or even a courtesy rate. WTF???!!! That leads me to believe that the 'Southern Hostpitallity' motto is merely a show for tourists. Well I shouldn't say that. There are alot of people here that I know without a doubt will have my back if it ever h

The Eyes Have It
You scored as Eyes full of Pain, People tend to overlook you, which makes you feel less worthy of their attentions. You sometimes wish you could just disapear from the world around you. You have been hurt very badly in the past and you just wish that someone would understand you, and what their cruelty is doing to you.Eyes full of Pain58% Mysterious50% Passion25% Diamond Eyes8% What do your eyes reveal about you?(PICS!)created with QuizFarm.com

Come With Me To Fantasy Land
Smiling he said “Come with me to Fantasy Land.” I wasn’t sure of what he meant Though I found out in the next hours we spent Into the bedroom was where he led me “Close your eyes and you will see” So I closed my eyes, I was curious he kissed me; eyes open; he smiled victorious Once again we kissed, tongues and all I couldn’t resist, like something inside me fell victim to his call His hands began to wonder over my skin he must have planned this so he would win I thought how could this be wrong if felt so right Caressing and kissing as we undressed that night he looked deep into my eyes as he laid me on the bed All the while passion and ecstasy filling up my head he explored every inch of me with his tongue When he reached my dripping core he knew I was ready to cum he licked a little lick then plunged deep inside In passion, in pleasure I moaned and cried Whatever you want, I will give it to you.” he smiled with a spark in his eyes I knew right there an then what h

Favorite T.v. Shows
I\'d Like to Know What my friends and families favorite t.v. shows are:: please no porn or anything like that...please add your name and a list of your favorite t.v. shows..... my favorite t.v. shows are 1.supernatural 2.desperate housewives 3.smallville 4.all of the c.s.i.\'s 5.law and order svu and criminal intent 6.criss angel 7.heroes 8.niptuck 9.the dead zone 10.dog the bounty hunter

My Profile
Well got my profile up and running the way i want it. Have some glitch with the music player...no big deal i'll fix it tomorrow sometime. If anyone has anything to say as far as opinions or suggestions pls feel free...love the comments.

Man's 7 Deadly Sin's......greed
I've heard so much about these and learned so much i was baptised at birth but do not believe in anything i respect all religions but do not have one for myself Death frightens me i fear it for i do not understand it. I cant comprehend whats waiting for me on the other side, Ive heard so much from people and what they believe but i cannot come to believe what they share...i need to know what im dealing with i need COLD hard facts proof i dont do good with blind faith or belief. I've questioned everything growing up some or most people dislike that about me some have even hated me for simply not swallowing the lies they tried feeding me. Onto the main topic Greed..... I was told by my ex that i practised the Satanic Bible Naturally and what exactly she meant by that i had to find out so i bought the Satanic Bible for myself an began reading it its all about getting what you want without consequences. I will admit i do commit the 7 Sins of man but i do not go overboard with them and

What's Your Element?
Your Element Is Water A bit of a contradiction, you can seem both lighthearted and serious. That's because you're good at going with the flow - but you also are deep. Highly intuitive, you tune in to people's emotions and moods easily. You are able to tap into deep emotional connections and connect with others. You prefer a smooth, harmonious life - but you can navigate your way around waves. You have a knack for getting people to get along and making life a little more peaceful. What's Your Element?

What's Your Personality Type?
You Are An ISFP The Artist You are a gifted artist or musician (though your talents may be dormant right now). You enjoy spending your free time in nature, and you are good with animals and children. Simply put, you enjoy beauty in all its forms and live for the simple pleasures in life. Gentle, sensitive, and compassionate - you are good at recognizing people's unspoken needs. In love, you are quiet and sweet yet very passionate. You love easily. You have an underlying love for all living things, and it's easy for you to accept someone into your heart. At work, you do best in an unconventional position. You express yourself well and can work with almost anyone. You would make a good veterinarian, pediatrician, or composer. How you see yourself: Sympathetic, kind, and communicative When other people don't get you, they see you as: Incompetent, insecure, and overly sensitive What's Your Personality Type?

I Have Been Ask
I have been ask many times why no picture. The answer is quite simple. This virtual place is filled with images. Some are true and some are not. My physical image is not some sweet young thing. I would rather ... if you have the interest ... talk with me online; send me an email; read my blog; scan my pictures and listen to the music I have chosen. All of these thing will tell you more about me than any photograph ever would. Coexisting Peacefully, Barbara

Senseless Sense
I wrote this on April 28, 2006 Walk a path of conflict Sign on the dotted line Give yourself to the enemy Illegal bindings promise "you'll be fine" Tailor made with flaws Dire consequences from truth Lame excuses with an aftermath Nameless faces, do you know which is you? Trapped in an infinite background Truth deriving from lies An animated reality You always know what's not on my mind A short step to far away A book of tainted truthes Cold heart longing for a lover Law over ruled by youthes In need of forgiveness An ever-green turning red A candle burning for the living Someone's lover lying in your bed An honest deed from a thief Thunder making no sound Liars preaching of truth Rain that stops before the ground Pay before seeing the price Love someone you've yet to know Float with a weight in you pocket The wrong map's leading you home.

The Fires Die Down
I wrote this on 5/19/06 slip deep in to the caverns of hidden torments, and raven coloured dreams the dark wont dry your eyes not here, every torment is as it seems the whispers in the backlay pull away slowly, surely at the delicate grasp of sanity as the seams begin to tear, failing to keep together the boundaries of reality self neglect and punishment seeps poisonously through every single vein as the pain wells higher tightens to the core decaying hope and 'sweet'dreams but the fire dies down at the glimmerring of what was and meant to be of the thoughts inside and the contradictory cries maybe...just...maybe

I Got Rated A 5
So wow....a newbie on CT rated me a 5!!! I feel sooo damn special. Guess he's not familiar with CT ettiquette. Feel free to welcome him to CT!! He's a really special guy! i even asked him why such a low rating...no answer of course.....here's his link if you're at all bored... http://cherrytap.com/user/935787

Im Sorry
Girly glitter comments from www.GirlyTags.com Semms no matter what a person does on here another one gets pissed off , None of us are perfeect . God Masde us that way . If by chance you have a complex where you think yo uare get a reality check . If i Do something to hurt you Im sorry please forgive me I would you . IM not the kind of person to hurt anyone intentionally . Well usless you get on my bad side then i maight depending on the situation . I love and care about all my friends but , Im not perfect . i do make mistakes, Love to you all you mean the world to me . Gold is priceless but so is our freindship. More precious then the finiest gem . Girly glitter comments from www.GirlyTags.com

Scratch
I scratch and I claw Away the wounds you left inside I scream and I sing Reaching down to where it all resides It may not be poetry in motion More like torment in emotion But its true and its real And right now its all that I feel So let the tears fall like rain And let the screams crash like thunder Releasing all this fucking pain Let it fade away and be assunder I'm tired of fighting my way through All the wounds you rip into me So I am purging them all anew Let the pain run free Let the pain run free

This Guy
i like him alot. i mean WOW!! he makes me smiles and laugh, he knows, but i think he likes another girl on here, it sux, i finally met a decent juggalo and i feel torn like maybe i shouldn't like him like him, idk, odds are, he'll like her more den me its koo tho, ima lette il move on...i hope :(

My Babies Sly And Antonio
Sly is on his way out. He has stomach cancer and has slowly been loosing weight. He should by all accounts be gone now but he is still up and walking around on his own and manages to keep enough food down to sustain hisself. Just pray for him. Pray that he will go peaceful in his sleep, cuddled up with his two lifelong buddes Agnes and Spectra, with no pain, no fear, and feeling loved. I dont know what is wrong with Antonio. I have had him and his buddy Dominick for several months now and Antonio has never come out of what just seems to be depression. He misses his mommy or daddy that gave them up. He just sleeps and doesnt play. He eats well and gains weight but everytime I pick him up and snuggle he is whining and looks so sad with his ears back and looking so meek and tired. The vet says there is nothing wrong with him physically. But he just started vomiting today which is not a good sign. I am snuggling with him now and hope that I and your prayers can get him throug

Rodney
Why we miss Rodney Dangerfield WE MISS RODNEY DANGERFIELD, BECAUSE . . .. He said . .. . My wife only has sex with me for a purpose. Last night she used me to time an egg. It's tough to stay married. My wife kisses the dog on the lips, yet she won't drink from my glass! Last night my wife met me at the front door. She was wearing a sexy negligee. The only trouble was, she was coming home. A girl phoned me and said, "Come on over. There's nobody home." I went over. Nobody was home! A hooker once told me she had a headache. I went to a massage parlor. It was self service. If it weren't for pickpockets, I'd have no sex life at all. I was making love to this girl and she started crying. I said, "Are you going to hate yourself in the morning?" She said, "No, I hate mys elf now." I knew a girl so ugly that she was known as a two-bagger. That's when you put a bag over your head in case the bag over her head comes off. I knew a girl so ugly, t

Hollow
im so hollow inside it like my soul just died all i do is smile and lie when all i want to do is cry i hold my head up when all i want is my life's blood in a cup i swallow my hatred knowing theres no place its the only thing i can do to save face im hollow again is it because of all my sins am i some demon given form like lightning from a storm i watch all these happy people i watch all these sad people i watch all the people i hate that im not one i wake up from my nightmares of hell i feel nothing i wake up from my life i want nothing i wake up from this world i am nothing this is slowly going out of control its all i can do to get out of my hole theres a void inside me something only i can see i hide inside myself because i dont have a heart anymore its stuck on a shelf where i left my souls core im so terrified i cant help myself i can only help others to fill the void i can only try to help everyone in the hopes that i will help

In Wishful Dreams
In wishful dreams you come to me silently in the dapth of my sleep To softly kiss my lips and cause my heart to sing when i weep Your hand touches my face softly with gentle loving care I look up into your eyes of soft blue and caress your dark hair Softly I hear your lips whispering love wolds i need to hear Sweet as the song of paradise birds calling in the evening air Only love true can dream this dreams, memories in the heart that drift lighly like a feather upon crytal streams invade my wistful slumber nightly Love unconditional with emotion far veyond any compare I breathe heavily as I suddnly awaken into the early morning air Still feeling your touch I awaken and look around in disbelief You are not here with me and my heart seems to skip a beats. My dreams seem to become more realistic in passing months and years Love seems to strengthen with desire, and i shed a longing tear Not tears of sorrow or shame , or what happened or whom is to blame, Only memorie

Spirit Song
Spirit Song The Spirit's song was lost in me, my heart was sinking low, I drifted on the winds of change, I had nowhere to go, But, then you came and with your voice, you spoke in tones of soft, That in my heart, I found my choice, you set this bird aloft. The eagle soared above my head, my spirit guide was free, I felt the pull but could not reach, he was too high for me, But, then you came, and lifted me, with love as pure as light, My feet left the ground, you gifted me, again you gave me flight. I could not say I'd ever reach, the goals I once had held, I knew for me there was no use, my spirit was impaled. But, then you came, and freed my soul, you righted what was wrong, You are my dream, you made me whole, you are the Spirit's Song SpiritWalker

Do U Care?
>"Are we fighting a war on terror or aren't we? Was it or was it not >started by Islamic people who brought it to our shores on September 11, >2001 ? > >Were people from all over the world, mostly Americans, not brutally >murdered that day, in downtown Manhattan , across the Potomac from our >nation's capitol and in a field in Pennsylvania ? Did nearly three >thousand men, women and children die a horrible, burning or crushing >death that day, or didn't they? >And I'm supposed to care that a copy of the Koran was "desecrated" when >an overworked American soldier kicked it or got it wet?...Well, I don't. >I don't care at all. > >I'll start caring when Osama bin Laden turns himself in and repents for >incinerating all those innocent people on 9/11. > >I'll care about the Koran when the fanatics in the Middle East start >caring about the Holy Bible, the mere possession of which is a crime in >Saudi Arabia . > >I'll care when these thugs tell the world they a

Pain
Pain, without love Pain, can't get enough Pain, I like it rough 'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all You're sick of feeling numb You're not the only one I'll take you by the hand And I'll show you a world that you can understand This life is filled with hurt When happiness doesn't work Trust me and take my hand When the lights go out you will understand Pain, without love Pain, can't get enough Pain, I like it rough 'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all Pain, without love Pain, can't get enough Pain, I like it rough 'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all Anger and agony Are better than misery Trust me I've got a plan When the lights go off you will understand Pain, without love Pain, can't get enough Pain, I like it rough 'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all Pain, without love Pain, can't get enough Pain, I like it rough 'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing Rather feel pain I know (I know I know I k

Thought For The Day
The Duck & the Devil There was a little boy visiting his grandparents on their farm. He was given a slingshot to play with out in the woods. He practiced in the woods; but he could never hit the target. Getting a little discouraged, he headed back for dinner. As he was walking back he saw Grandma's pet duck. Just out of impulse, he let the slingshot fly, hit the duck square in the head and killed it. He was shocked and grieved! In a panic, he hid the dead duck in the wood pile; only to see his sister watching! Sally had seen it all, but she said nothing. After lunch the next day Grandma said, "Sally, let's wash the dishes" But Sally said, "Grandma, Johnny told me he wanted to help in the kitchen." Then she whispered to him, "Remember the duck?" So Johnny did the dishes.. Later that day, Grandpa asked if the children wanted to go fishing and Grandma said, "I'm sorry but I need Sally to help make supper." Sally just smiled and said, "Well that's all right because

Ugh, Fuck You!
You piss me the fuck off. I dont even know why i waste my fucking time. I mean, you like everybody but me. What is so horrible about me that you cant like? I just dont even know. What the fuck ever. But as much as i say this, ill probably still talk to you and pretend that you actually care just to make myself feel better. I guess my heart is just a game to you. I dont know why im surprised, everyone treats it like this.

The Accident!!
A young lady got into a terrible car accident. Her face was burned terribly. The doctors couldn't use any skin on her body to graft onto her face for reconstructive surgery. As a result, her husband offered the skin off his butt for the surgery. She had the surgery and was as beautiful after as she was before the surgery. One night she and her husband were watching TV when she broke down crying. "What's the matter?" her husband asked. She said "I can't believe you did this for me." Her husband hugged her and replied, "Don't worry about it, I love you, and I'd do anything for you." But how will I ever repay you?" she asked. With which he replied, "You don't need to repay me, you wouldn't believe the satisfaction I get every time I see your mom kiss you on the cheek."

Hitman!!
Jack and his friends were playing golf one Saturday. As they are getting ready to tee off, a guy walks up and asks if he can join them. The friends look at each other, look at the guy and say, "Sure." About two holes into the game, the friends get curious about what the guy does for a living. So they ask him. The stranger tells them he's a hitman. They all laugh. The guy says, "No really, I am a hitman. My gun is in my golf bag. I carry it everywhere. You can take a look at it if you like." So Jack decides to check it out. He opens the bag and, sure enough, there is a rifle with a huge scope attached. Jack gets all excited and says, "WOW! I bet I can see my house through here! May I look?" The hitman replies, "Sure." So Jack looks and says, "YEAH! You can see my house! I can even see through the windows into my bedroom. There's my wife. Wait, there's my next door neighbor! And he's naked too!" This really upsets Jack so he asks how much it would be for a

So...you're Here, Now What..?
Why is it that humans learn quickly about physical pain and so slowly about emotional pain. One sticks their hand on a stove, it burns, it frickin hurts so you don't do it anymore (unless of course you like that sort of thing lol) yet in relationships one can make the 'same' stupid choices over and over again, choosing the same fate any number of times, with any number of partners, and some still don't learn to avoid that same eventuality? The heart will indulge emotional pain far longer than any other body part would, even if you like physical pain. So, you want to be in love and with me this is a particular choice. You've paid attention to the need for discretionary choices, ie. not repeating previous choices because you know where they lead. Like me you search for the one who has thier shit together and wants that immersive tactile fondling unnending love and know that it doesn't happen over night. Lust is a feeling that makes you want someone right fuc'in now, while love is a

Giving Up
I am so ready to give up on just about everything...The only thing that keeps me going is my kids. Love is extremely over-rated and here lately is not worth the heart-ache. He loves me because he can do what he pleases to me and nothing else matters. I'm tired...of everything. Life has definetly lost its luster. I live every day waiting for the night. A time when I don't have to be awake. I wait for me being able to get a job. Being able to be alone for a time. I guess I'm just miserable and for some reason I thought having a husband was suppose to make it where I had someone to share with. I cry just about everyday and my eyes are starting to hurt. I have no choice but to keep going. I have children that need their mom but if it weren't for them I don't know about the whole life thing. Beginning to wonder just how wonderful it can be I think someone lied to all of us about the joys of life...or at least lied to me about them!

The Beach..........
The day was finishing the sun setting and you had taken me to the beach a perfect setting after a day of romance and fun with you. We are standing at the water edge hand in hand watching the sun set, the waves crashing on the beach the water lapping at our feet. No words shared just each of us speaking to the others heart through silent words of love. You turn to me, and I to you, at the same time, leaning into me you place your lips on mine and kiss me with the most gentle sweet kiss, I close my eyes as our lips touch and I moan softly feeling the vibration of love surge through my body, tasting your essence, the kiss lingers on. Your hands moves down my arms and you place the palms of your hands against my palms and gently raise my arms above my head as you continue to kiss me. Sliding your palms down my arms I feel the electric currents penetrate my skin as your fingers glide over it. Your hands move down the sides of my torso and at the hem of my top you clasp it and slowly

Goodbye Mom
A young man shopping in a supermarket noticed a little old lady following him around. If he stopped, she stopped. Furthermore she kept staring at him. She finally overtook him at the checkout, and she turned to him and said, "I hope I haven't made you feel ill at ease; it's just that you look so much like my late son." He answered, "That's okay." "I know it's silly, but if you'd call out "Good bye, Mom" as I leave the store, it would make me feel so happy." She then went through the checkout, and as she was on her way out of the store, the man called out, "Goodbye, Mom." The little old lady waved, and smiled back at him. Pleased that he had brought a little sunshine into someone's day, he went to pay for his groceries. "That comes to $121.85," said the clerk. "How come so much ... I only bought 5 items.." The clerk replied, "Yeah, but your Mother said you'd be paying for her things, too."

Out Of The Country!
I made it to St Louis and it is so good to be home. First priority is to find a yob. I will be looking today and hopefully get some interviews lined up. Thinking about going to social services ans see what I can get or what they can provide. I am so stoked! You cannot believe the change in me. I am so in my element!

What Tree Are You?????
I'm a Jul 26 to Aug 04 - Cypress Tree My Birthday is aug 3rd Cypress Tree (Faithfulness) -- strong, muscular, adaptable, takes what life has to give but doesn't necessarily like it, strives to be content,optimistic, wants to be financially independent, wants love and affection,hates loneliness, passionate lover which cannot be satisfied, faithful,quick-tempered at times, can be unruly and careless, loves to gain knowledge, needs to be needed. :) This Sounds Like Me :) Find your birthday and then find your personal tree. This is really cool.Find your tree below and see what you are like... Jan 01 to Jan 11 - Fir Tree Jan 12 to Jan 24 - Elm Tree Jan 25 to Feb 03 - Cypress Tree Feb 04 to Feb 08 - Poplar Tree Feb 09 to Feb 18 - Cedar Tree Feb 19 to Feb 28 - Pine Tree Mar 01 to Mar 10 - Weeping Willow Tree Mar 11 to Mar 20 - Lime Tree Mar 21 (only) - Oak Tree Mar 22 to Mar 31 - Hazelnut Tree Apr 01 to Apr 10 - Rowan Tree Apr 11 to Apr 20 - Maple Tree Apr 21 to Apr

The Confident Woman...
I thought I might share something that I read, and left me feeling inspired I hope you all like it. 1. A confident woman knows she is loved. 2. A confident woman refuses to live in fear. Fear is not from god. Fear causes people to bury talents due to fear of failure, judgement, or critisim. 3. A confident woman is positive. 4. A confident woman recovers from setback. You only fail when you stop trying. 5. A confident woman avoids compersion. 6. A confident woman takes action. Making mistakes is not the end of the world. 7. A confident woman does not live in "IF Only" and "What If" It's not your abilities that God desires it's your availability. by: Joyce Myers

Looking Pretty
So This morning I look all kinds of gorgeous for work. I did my hair and put on make up. .. On top of that I'm actually wearing jewelry and not that one choker i'm always wearing but a really pretty chain thingy. . . And I'm just going to say that for the record if I don't get DOZENS of compliments about how fantastic I look than the entire planet will be subject to my wrath. I'm just saying all this pretty took like an hour so I had better be rolling in compliments. . .. Consider yourselves warned

Sunday 6/10/07
Up until this evening today has been a pretty good day. My brother was just in a jet ski accident that was pretty bad and it severed his spinal cord and part of his foot. He had surgery lastnight for the damage to his back, but they said their will be permanent bladder and bowel issues for him for the rest of his life to a certain extent. He is in ICU at the moment and if he is stable enough from the back surgery he will be flown to Kentucky where they will have a reattachment team to try and fix his foot. We'll know this afternoon whether or not he will be able to be flown to Kentucky or not. I'm going to end this here and go pack some things in case we need to leave quickly. Have a great day all.

No More
Tired of all the drama & games. CherryTap used to be fun but now i feel like im gettin hurt off of unneccesary shit.. so if you wanna keep in touch with me.. message me with ur yahoo info, myspace, aol.. etc etc!! Holla atcha girl DutcheS***

I Am So Lucky To Have You
Just look at you. With a smile on your face that will make me smile too. I wish I could just reach out and touch you, grab onto your hand and walk together side by side. I will do whatever you ask of me. For I pledge my life and my love to you. I love you so much, and I am so lucky to have you. (Another blog dedication to Christopher McConathy)

Ira-- We Will Missyou
my darling little show dog Ira passed away yesterday. He was my pekingese show dog. Wonderful little dog he had a wonderful life with me. A very dear gave him to me about 6 yrs ago. He was great companion and loving little guy. I will have Ira puppies coming as my female peke Belle is preggers by him. One of his last puppies is living in washington state now. i know stupid to cry over just a pet but he was more than that. he loved car rides playing with squeaky toys going on walks with me. The other dogs miss him already. Good bye Ira please know you were very loved by us Bubba Belle and kaseykahne love you

Pot Of Coffee
So I couldn't sleep so I was thinking I have to work later so I drank an entire pot of coffee this morning. At the time it seemed like a reasonable thing to do but I clearly wasn't considering that I only actually drink coffee like twice a month so now I'm all fidgety and anxious cause I've got like crazy anxiety disorder thingy. And I'm all wiggly and my hearts beating a little faster than normal and this whole coffee thing was a slightly less than good idea. . ..AHHHHHH Coffee is bad. See the thing is every time I drink coffee I say to myself "oh right this is why I don't drink coffee" then time will pass and I'll look in my cupboard and see the giant thing of coffee I bought when I first moved into my apartment cause I'd just moved out of a house filled to the brim with mormans and I was like ha ha ha I'll drink coffee. Then you know i drank coffee and realized I shouldn't But anyway I'll see this can of coffee and be like "i have all this coffee why do I never drink it" then

I Screwed Up The Other Day....
i was a bit upset and working.... well being a bartender i can drink as well. a friend of mine came in and proceded to buy me shots the rest of my shift and offered me some valume to brighten my day... got done work and hoped in his car.. poped the valume and started to feel a LOT better... then he started rubbin my thigh and we began to get touchey with each other. things escelated from there and i seriously fucked up. i betrayed my Master's trust and this blog is only part of my punishment. i know it should have been worse. i have to pay for betraying him.. He has forgiven me tho... pending i do all that he required for punishment. little one is sorry Master. she knows she fucked up big time. all she wants is Your forgiveness. zero

Feelign Beaten
I had a ruff weekend. Not sure what is wrong with me. I feel as if I have lost my best-friend and I don't know what to do. My best-friend is hurting and I guess I am feeling his pain I don't know. I feel like my heart is beign torn out of my chest. I have no will to eat or sleep. My trip Thursday will hopeful restore me. I need to get away even if it is for work! If I had of only known what my best freind would be goign thru I could have prevented it...at least I would like ot think I could. No I didn't wont anythign to happen to him but I feel guilty just the same. I could have done soemthing. I should have known! That's is what best-freinds or for...to watch your back. To keep you from gettign hurt and I let my best freind down big time. I should be shot! I don't wotn ot live! God I wish I has pwers to fix everything even if it meant my heart would be broken! I want ot see him happy again. This sadness of his is killing me. I hate all this hurt. All these te

Sexual Iq.
You have a sexual IQ of 146 When it comes to sex, you are a super genius. You have had a lot of experience, and sex interests you so you know a lot about it. You pride yourself on being a source of information and guidance to all of your friends. Take this quiz at QuizUniverse.com

What Would I Want For My B-day
Simply not sure at this point considering i have 10 days left till then??? I have my health, my friends and family all my peeps here. Maybe a VIC or a Blast possibly.... The most important thing i think i would want is for this damned war to end everyone come home and no more terrorism...but hey we can all wish right??? Tell me what would you want if it was your b-day. Leave me a comment.

Funeral Of The Cardiologist
A Cardiologist died and was given an elaborate funeral. A huge heart covered in flowers stood behind the casket during the service. Following the eulogy, the heart opened, and the casket rolled inside. The heart then closed, sealing the doctor in the beautiful heart forever. At that point, one of the mourners burst into laughter. When all eyes stared at him, he said, "I'm sorry, I was just thinking of my own funeral. I'm a Gynecologist." The Proctologist fainted.

New Drug Names
In Pharmacology, all drugs have two names, a trade name and generic name. >For >example, the trade name of Tylenol also has a generic name of >Acetaminophen. Aleve >is also called Naproxen. Amoxil is also called Amoxicillin and Advil is >also >called Ibuprofen. > > >The FDA has been looking for a generic name for Viagra. After careful >consideration by a team of government experts, it recently announced that >it has >settled on the generic name of Mycoxafloppin. Also considered were >Mycoxafailin, >Mydixadrupin, Mydixarizin, Dixafix, and of course, Ibepokin. > > >Pfizer Corp. announced today that Viagra will soon be available in liquid >form, >and will be marketed by Pepsi Cola as a power beverage suitable for use as >a >mixer. It will now be possible for a man to literally pour himself a stiff >one. >Obviously we can no longer call this a soft drink, and it gives new meaning >to the >names of "cocktails", "highballs" and just a good old-fashione

I Saw You..........
I saw you, hug your purse closer to you in the grocery store line. But, you didn't see me put an extra $10.00 in the collection plate last Sunday. I saw you, pull your child closer when we passed each other on the sidewalk. But, you didn't see me playing Santa at the local mall. I saw you change your mind about going into the restaurant. But, you didn't see me attending a meeting to raise more money for the hurricane relief. I saw you roll up your window and shake your head when I drove by. But, you didn't see me driving behind you when you flicked your cigarette butt out the car window. I saw you frown at me when I smiled at your children. But, you didn't see me when I took time off from work to run toys to the homeless. I saw you stare at my long hair. But, you didn't see me and my friends cut ten inches off for Locks of Love. I saw you roll your eyes at our leather coats and gloves.But, you didn't see me and my brothers donate our old coats and gloves to thos

Friends
""THIS IS A TEST TO SEE HOW MANY FRIENDS YOU HAVE.. YOU MUST SEND IT TO AT LEAST 10 PEOPLE, INCLUDING THE PERSON WHO SENT IT TO YOU *Hug* *Hug* *Hug* *Hug* *Hug* *Hug* *Hug* *Hug* *Hug* *Hug* *Hug* *Hug* *Hug* *Hug* *Hug* *Hug* *Hug* *Hug* *Hug* *Hug* *Hug* *Hug* *Hug* *Hug* *Hug* *Hug* *Hug* *Hug* *Hug* *Hug* *Hug* *Hug* *Hug* *Hug* *Hug* *Hug* *Hug* *Hug* *Hug* *Hug* *Hug* *Hug* *Hug* *Hug* *Hug* *Hug* *Hug* *Hug* *Hug* *Hug* *Hug* *Hug* *Hug* *Hug* *Hug* *Hug* *Hug* *Hug* *Hug* *Hug* You are my friend...And i hope u kno thats true...no matter what happens... i will stand by u... i will be there for u... when ever u need me... to lend a hand.... to do a good deed...so call on me....whenever u need me... i will always be there...Even to the bitter end...Send this promise to all your friends to show your friendship and watch who sends it back to u....

Grilled Chicken Skewers With Mango And Pineapple
Grilled Chicken Skewers With Mango and Pineapple Ingredients 3/4 cup Hidden Valley Organic Ranch dressing 1 canned chipotle chile in adobo sauce, seeded and finely chopped* 2 teaspoons adobo sauce (from can above) 1 tablespoon honey 1 tablespoon fresh lime juice 1/2 teaspoon salt 1 pound chicken tenders, each cut into 3 equal pieces 1/2 pineapple, rind and core removed, cut into 1-inch chunks 1 large mango, peeled, cut into 1-inch chunks 1 small red onion, quartered and separated into layers Oil for grilling (about 2 tablespoons) 1/4 cup roughly chopped cilantro 1 lime, quartered Preparation In medium bowl, combine dressing, chipotle chile, adobo sauce, honey, lime juice and salt for marinade. Stir well. Assemble 4 skewers from ingredients in following order: onion, chicken, mango, chicken, pineapple, chicken, onion. Repeat twice more to complete skewer. Lay skewers in shallow pan. Pour 1/4 cup marinade into small dish; set aside. Brush remaining marinade

Red Marbles
I was at the corner grocery store buying some early potatoes. I noticed a small boy, delicate of bone and feature, ragged but clean, hungrily apprising a basket of freshly picked green peas. I paid for my potatoes but was also drawn to the display of fresh green peas. I am a pushover for creamed peas and new potatoes. Pondering the peas, I couldn't help overhearing the conversation between Mr. Miller (the store owner) and the ragged boy next to me. "Hello Barry, how are you today?" "H'lo, Mr.Miller. Fine, thank ya. Jus' admirin' them peas. They sure look good." "They are good, Barry. How's your Ma?" "Fine. Gittin' stronger alla' time." "Good. Anything I can help you with?" "No, Sir. Jus' admirin' them peas." "Would you like to take some home?" asked Mr. Miller. "No, Sir. Got nuthin' to pay for 'em with." "Well , what have you to trade me for some of those peas?" "All I got's my prize marble here." "Is that right? Let me see it" said Miller. "Here

Going To Texas
hi everyone. not sure when or for how long, yet. my grandmother is on her deathbed and I will be going with my cousin to her memorial and such. Her illness has happened so fast and the progression of it even faster...stage 4 stomach cancer. Anyhow...i just wanted to let everyone know that if i all of a sudden dont respond or anything..i am not here. I am on the road. dont miss me too much and i will see you all soon. **mmuuuuaaaahhhhh**

Come Join My Friend Butterflys Lounge Guys Shesjust Started N Could Do With Some New Members
Click Image to enter and meet great people, Hear great music and please subscribe (repost of original by 'butterfly Realm of Syn member owner of butterfly angles and dream play house' on '2007-06-11 10:26:55')

Why God Made Moms --
BRILLIANT Answers given by 2nd grade school children to the following questions!! Q: Why did God make mothers? 1. She's the only one who knows where the scotch tape is. 2. Mostly to clean the house. 3. To help us out of there when we were getting born. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Q: How did God make mothers? 1. He used dirt, just like for the rest of us. 2. Magic- plus super powers and a lot of stirring. 3.God made my Mom just the same like he made me. He just used bigger parts. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Q: What ingredients are mothers made of? 1. God makes mothers out of clouds and angel hair and everything nice in the world and one dab of mean. 2. They had to get their start from men's bones. Then they mostly use string, I think. ---------------------------------------------------------------------

Barbeque Season!! -thanks Ruby!
From my friend Ruby.. I have to AGREE with this one!! Ha ha! After many long months of cold and winter, we are finally coming up to spring and BBQ season. Therefore, it is important to refresh your memory on the etiquette of this outdoor cooking ritual, as it's the only type of cooking a real man will do, probably because there is an element of danger involved. When a man volunteers to do the BBQ, the following chain of events is put into motion: Routine: 1. The woman buys the food. 2. The woman makes a salad, prepares vegetables, and makes dessert. 3. The woman prepares the meat for cooking, places it on a tray along with the necessary cooking utensils and sauces, and takes it to the man who is lounging beside the grill - drink in hand. Here comes the important part: 4.THE.....MAN.....PLACES.....THE.....MEAT.....ON.....THE.....GRILL. More routine: 5. The woman goes inside to organize the plates and cutlery.

The Perfect Boyfriend
True Boyfriend would: • Love you even when he isn't liking you at the moment* • Give you a card or send flowers just to say he loves you* • Hold your hair after you've drank to much* • Run his fingers through your hair when you have your head on his chest* • Compliment you even when your sick and look sick* • Give you his coat/shirt when he sees your goose bumps**** • Never give up on the relationship, always try talking and working things out* • Tell her she is important and there is more to her then sex**** • Lift her chin, look into her eyes, softly touch her face as you get closer and your lips meet with hers under a blanket of stars* • and,when she runs up at you crying...the first thing you say is..."who's ass am i beating today?" **** guys forward as : i'd be this boyfriend. girls forward as : a perfect boyfriend. if you don`t forward this in four minutes you will lose the one you love. if you do forward this in the next four minutes the one you love will :

Y?
what the fuck give females to fuck with guys heads? idk y but they love to fuck with my head like no other. i just need to get the fuck out of ohio. im half temped to just give the fuck up. its no wonder when ppl tlak to me im either depressed or somewhat pissed or angey. god grow the fuck up

My Soul
You Are a Dreaming Soul Your vivid emotions and imagination takes you away from this world So much so that you tend to live in your head most of the time You have great dreams and ambitions that could be the envy of all... But for you, following through with your dreams is a bit difficult You are charming, endearing, and people tend to love you. Forgiving and tolerant, you see the world through rose colored glasses. Underneath it all, you have a ton of passion that you hide from others. Always hopeful, you tend to expect positive outcomes in your life. Souls you are most compatible with: Newborn Soul, Prophet Soul, and Traveler Soul What Kind of Soul Are You?

Teasing The Gorilla;-)
A man and his wife are at the zoo. As they walk through the ape exhibit, they pass in front of a very large, hairy gorilla. Noticing her, the gorilla starts bouncing around his cage. He jumps up on the bars and, holding on with one hand, grunts and pounds his chest. The husband, finding this funny, suggests that his wife tease the poor primate. The husband suggests she pucker her lips, wiggle her bottom at him, and play along. She does, and the gorilla gets even more excited, making noises that would raise the dead. Then, the husband suggests that she let one of the straps to her dress fall to show a bit more skin. She does and Mr. Gorilla nearly tears the bars down. “Now, lift your dress up to your thighs and sort of fan it at him,” says the man. She does, driving the gorilla absolutely crazy to the point at which he starts doing flips. Then, the husband grabs his wife, throws open the door to the cage, slings her in with the gorilla and slams the cage door shut. “Now

Leaving
All slows down and silence fills the already bare room. Anxiously anticipating the inevitable, the end. The final breath that was always so distantly awaiting her, now breaths softly against her skin. Her internal struggle has already been lost, and she undesirably accepts what now approaches. Clenched fists curl up as her energy slowly releases into the room. Some stay strong, some fail, some don’t care. Anger, fear, dissipating hope, confusion. Her last breath, so weak, so tired, so numb. Everything that was important, alive and beautiful is now….

Dave Matthews Band-crash Into Me
Youve got your ball Youve got your chain Tied to me tight tie me up again Whos got their claws In you my friend Into your heart Ill beat again Sweet like candy to my soul Sweet you rock And sweet you roll Lost for you Im so lost for you You come crash into me And I come into you I come into you In a boys dream In a boys dream Touch your lips just so I know In your eyes, love, it glows so Im bare boned and crazy for you When you come crash Into me, baby And I come into you In a boys dream In a boys dream If Ive gone overboard Then Im begging you To forgive me In my haste When Im holding you so girl Close to me Oh and you come crash Into me, baby And I come into you Hike up your skirt a little more And show the world to me Hike up your skirt a little more And show your world to me In a boys dream.. in a boys dream Oh I watch you there Through the window And I stare at you You wear nothing but you Wear it so well Tied up and twisted The way Id li

What Do You Think
What Your Hands Say About You You are artistic, intuitive, and inspired. You have good people skills. Flexible and broad minded, you can fit in to any situation. There's no telling where your life will take you. Consistent and reliable, you like to count on structure and routine in your life. Your emotions tend to be nervous and potent. Your energy - both positive and negative - deeply impacts your life. What Do Your Hands Say About You?

My Love Style
Your Love Style is Agape You are a caring, kind, and selfless partner. Unsurprisingly, your love style is the most rare. You are willing to sacrfice your world for your sweetie. Except it doesn't really feel like sacrifice to you. For you, nothing feels better than giving to the one you love. What's Your Love Style?

Sickos
look just because i have accepted your friendship doesnt mean that i wanna see you cum..dont want to know how big your dick is..how you will fuck me....unless i chose to talk with you like this then do not and i repeat do not ask me to cam sex with you or decide to tell me bout your cock..I DONT CARE.....

As The Numbness Sets In
This weekend meant more to me then anyone could have imagined. It was one year since I broke up with my ex fience and his birthday. All I wanted was to be around people that cared about me and have some fun to reassure myself that what I did was right. So I had a full weekend planned which I never make plans. Just simple little things to keep me distracted and feel loved. That is what I needed most to feel loved and cared about. Instead I spent part of the weekend on the side of the interstate and the rest at a rest stop sleeping in my vehicle. Feeling lonely and scared. It was like the world kept turning around me and I could see it but I was still moving still. Finally something broke inside of me. Nothing seems to matter. I have lost all hope that things will ever be good. I shall never know what it is like to be happy. I am not the type of person to make a permanent solution that might be worrying you right now. I just can't do it, it isn't and option. But ju

A Letter Never Sent
Name, I am not sure where to start this... and I am not sure if any of this is as important as I give it favor to be. You once said something to me that I have been thinking about this evening. You said something about how the people in your life come in it for a reason a season or ... I cut you off, so I am not sure, but I believe the words torn from your mouth were going to be "for life". Unlike conversations I have with most others I truly hear your words and they stay with me. This may be something that makes you feel uncomfortable, and that is what is bothering me and the motivation behind why I am writing you. I do hear the words that you do not say to me. I can feel when I make you feel uncomfortable, and I am almost positive all of this makes you feel uncomfortable to some degree. These are my perceptions, and perhaps I am way off. While I hope that I am, I am almost positive I am not. I want to tell you so badly about how much having you in my life means to me.

Just Being Happy:)
Ok, hope everyone had a great weekend, so now yesterday i got to order my tickets for ozzfest:) I'm so excited, can't wait to go. It's been a wonderful weekend, it was my weekend off and me an my ol'man got to spend some serious time together, it was great cause it was just me an him, the girls went to their dads, missed them, but don't get much time with my ol'man without there always being something to do and this past weekend we both got to stay home and just enjoy each others company. it's what makes it all worth while. neways I'd say today was'nt so bad either it has went by pretty quick, and none of my residents really gave me a hard time for a change, gotta love that.

Before Its Too Late!
"Honey," said this husband to his wife, "I invited a friend home for supper." "What? Are you crazy? The house is a mess. I didn't go shopping. All the dishes are dirty, and I don't feel like cooking a fancy meal!" "I know all that." "Then why did you invite a friend for supper?" "Because the poor fool's thinking about getting married."

Day 2
I thought at first that things would be rough. Even though it was a short relationship, it still was a deep, meaningful one ( at least to me ) We're on day two, and I'm not sad anymore. I wasn't even sad last night ( Thanks Angel ) One friend threatened me with violence if I fell for anyone else within the next 4 months. They didn't even want to hear me say I loved someone at least till October or November. *laughs* Last night, I almost did say that to someone. I think it was just the caffeine buzz and lack of food, and I had to run before I said something I may have regretted later. (So now you know the reason, if you are reading this. *laughs* ) Thank you to my friends that listened to my rambles, argued and threatened me ... or who just sat and listened and offered a virtual hug, shoulder and kiss on the cheek. So, as I told a few friends - the Mouse is back. Hidden for a long time, broke free from his cage and is on the loose. :) Now, my friends, you'll see what

Thinking About Leaving....
Well friends, I'm thinking about leaving CT for a while and deleting my account. I spend too much time on here and other things, like my school work, are suffering. I haven't completely decided yet...partly b/c I'm addicted to this place, and partly b/c I'm pretty sure that there are some friends on here that once I leave won't have IM and I won't be able to talk to them anymore. :-( In any case, if you still want to keep in touch send me your Yahoo or MSN screen name so that I can add you.

I Don't Get It...
I don't get it. Our company has a warehouse/release program since we do name badges. It makes it easier for people who have a high turnover or who just need one badge at a time usually. To demonstrate how it works we set up a "dummy" program. We give people the login and password and they can log in and play around with the program to see all the features and even go through the process of releasing a badge without having to worry about actual badges being created. It's a great tool and I've sent many people there and walked many others through it. More often than not I've sold people on the idea after they've tried it out. So my boss comes over this morning and says it's about time to dump the program and restart it with fresh lines and so on. Not a problem. I can figure out how to do that. But he also seems to think that it needs to look more like a real program. With a dummy company that looks like a real company and dummy customer shipt to address. I'm n

They Walk Among Us
THEY WALK AMONG US I was at the checkout of a K-Mart. The clerk rang up $46.64 charge. I gave her a fifty dollar bill. She gave me back $46.64. I gave it back to her and told her that she had made a mistake in MY favor and gave her the money back. She became indignant and informed me she was educated and knew what she was doing, and returned the money again. I gave her the money back again...same scenario! I departed the store with the $46.64. This actually happened to me in Austin at MoPac Blvd and Parmer Lane . ...............They Walk Among Us and Many Work Retail. I walked into a Mickey D's with a buy-one-get-one-free coupon for a sandwich.. I handed it to the girl and she looked over at a little chalkboard that said "buy one-get one free." "They're already buy-one-get-one-free", she said, "so I guess they're both free" She handed me my free sandwiches and I walked out the door. .......They Walk Among Us and Many Work Retail. One day

Far From Perfect
No one's ever believed in me, thus it's torn my world apart; words have crushed my self-esteem, and broke my tender heart. All my life I have always been, extremely sad inside; searching for the love that I, have always been denied. I never am quite good enough, and I can't do anything right; I am worthless and pathetic, within my loved one's eyes. All I have ever wanted, was to be accepted just for me; I can't be someone I am not, what you get is what you see. The hole in my heart is painfull, for it's empty and hollow inside; and everynight when I go to bed, I pray that I will die. I am not special or worthy, for someone to truly care; I'm a misfit to society, and this truth I have to bare. I have never known success, for I fail at everything; The song that once was in my heart, I can no longer sing. As I ponder upon my failures, which are much too many to count; I wonder why I was ever born, and what is my life all about? ~Unknown

Graduation Day
Today was graduation day at Miss Helen's preschool. Many of the students would be going to kindergarten next year, and it was important that they receive their diplomas to show that they were ready for the next step in their education. A lot of people showed up for the ceremonies. And the snacks were pretty good. The students arrived in costumes, because they were going to give a presentation for those in attendance. Lilly played the part of Bo Peep. Apparently she had lost some sheep and didn't know where to find them. Well, a lot of people tried to help her, but nobody knew where the sheep had gone. Jack and Jill tried to help, but they had both just fallen down a hill with a pail of water and I guess they were in a lot of pain. But eventually, the sheep came home and all was well. Then the graduates arrived. And the undergraduates were there to assist. Ethan was given the honor of holding the flag during the pledge. Lilly ponders the si

Dont You Hate It When:
Dont you hate it when you spend all that time filling out this huge questionaire about your likes and dislikes and then you type in all this information about yourself in an essay, you still get people not in the age range, not in the right race, they know absolutely nothing about you and to top it off they dont even have a dayum picture and expect you to chat!!!!!!!!!! Come on if your going to join these things read the dayum information and put a freaking picture on your profile for goodness sakes!!!!!!!!!!!

Abuse
I surrender, heart and soul to your unyielding demands. I crumble at your feet waiting for your harsh reprimands. Mercy is a myth that I do not expect nor care to receive. I choose this punishment though it's harsher than you may believe. Your will I bend to, your bidding is what I seek to do. Nothing can compare to the wrath I feel when I disappoint you. Pain and torture is what I know I will gain. Just for being in your presence the scars will long remain. This body, this life is nothing without the reassurance of your glance. Some may call me demented, others just the victim of circumstance. They know nothing of the joy that you do bring. They only see the terror that in my face does ring. They tell me that love should be cherished, that I should be your charm. Not a hand should reach out towards me with the intent of harm. Do they not see that it's the pain that makes me this way? Can they not understand this is my choice no matter what they say? One day I will not awaken, I wi

Confederate Family And Friends (update)
i was supposed to go and sit with joyce's mom today but she decided to stay with her mom for the day instead of going to her chiropractor......her mom probably won't last but another week maybe 2 is my guess....her bp this morning was 70+ over 30+ and her oxygen level is also beginning to drop as well.....yesterday she went into a small seizure on us while we were all there and when she would get up and go to the bathroom she would faint on them....so they have her bed ridden now....between this and my moving i have a long road ahead of me.....

How 2 Piss Off A Cop!!!
1) When you get pulled over, say "What's wrong, officer, there's no blood in my alcohol?" 2) When he asks why you were speeding, tell him you wanted to race. 3) When he talks to you, pretend you are deaf. 4) If he asks if you knew how fast you were going, say no, my speedometer doesn't go that high. 5) Touch him. 6) When he asks why you were speeding, tell him you had to buy a hat. 7) Ask him where he bought his cool hat. 8) Refer to him by his first name. 9) Pretend you are gay and ask him out. 10) When he says no, cry. 11) If he says yes, accuse him of sexual harassment. 12) If the cop is a woman, tell her how ugly she is, but in a nice way. 13) If he asks you to step out of the car, automatically throw yourself on the hood. 14) When he asks you to spread them, tell him you don't go that way. 15) When he puts handcuffs on, say "Usually my dates buy me dinner first" 16) Ask to be fingerprinted with candy, cause you don't like

Have A Beauitful Day!
Every day can be a beautiful day. Just take a look around you and think about all of the wonderful things you have to be thankful for... the sunshine, roses, laughter, close friends, family, music, and beautiful dreams. The storm is never half as bad as it seems. Don't let the rain ruin your day. When the dark clouds move in just smile, because the good times are on the way. Get More at COMMENTYOU.com

Well Shit
AS SOME OF U KNOW MY 24 NICE HAS STAGE 3 BREAST CANCER HOLD ON TO YOUR BUTTS WENT TO DR FOUND MASS GOING TOMORROW FOR MAMOGRAM THEN FOLLOW UP AT SURGEN IN 2 DAYS HELL WHAT ELSE IS GOING ON HAD 1 LUMP REMOVED 3 YEARS AGO NOW THIS SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Omg. . . Be Alright - Trina, Ludacris (vid Included!!)
Here's an interesting twist to an awesome song!!! Ludacris Trina --------------------------------------- b alright b r right be alright b all right --------------------------------------- "B R Right" (feat. Ludacris) [trina:] i want my ass smacked [luda:] legs wide [trina:] front back [luda:] side to side [trina:] pussy wet [luda:] slip n slide [luda:] yep everythin gon be alright [trina:] ass smaked legs wide [trina:] front back [luda:] side to side [trina:] pussy wet [luda:] slip n slide [luda:] yep everythin gon be alright [TRINA] wait bitch, imma blow my kisses, get pist and throw my dishes, yall niggas know jus who this is, woo woo, and the head so vicious. with me, this shit gon cost, you short? then thas yo lost, you know this ass is soft, make a nigga goto breakin off. tell me that you love me baby, get high and fuck me crazy, get a towel and wipe me off, you want a bitch wit no type of flaws. my gurls be shoppin hard,

Paris Hilton. Does Anyone Really Care???
Time for venting!!!! Ok I am sooooo sick of hearing about that blonde bimbo "heiress". I will admit I have followed it more then I probably should. That is the train wreck effect going on there. You really don't want to look, but you end up not being able to turn away. Well I am sick of hearing about her. Do ppl in this world actually feel sorry for her? Is there anyone out there that thinks that she is being mistreated and its not fair? IF so and you are on my friend list or fan list...please remove yourself. I don't have time in my life for those type of people. Anyway getting back to Paris. I thought it was utterly stupid that she thought Gov Schwarzenegger would pardon her for driving drunk. He has enough work as govenor then to rescue her from jail. And I am sure the jail isn't no ordinary jail...but it isn't a HILTON...(damn I crack myself up) Anyway she is in a special part for celebrities and crooked politians (not there are such things). Her next big drama was

School Take 2
Well, I survived my first day. The teacher is male, but I knew that. He's not the ethnic group I thought he was by the name published in the guide. So I hadn't expected a strong accent and the occasional mispronounced word. I am still having trouble with the issue of a note taker. I managed to take some notes today, but I feel I missed a lot. The class is worse then I originally thought it was. And we didn't even get a photo copied diagram on the parts of the inside of a computer. He just showed us pieces and I guess expected us to remember it all. Its going to add op my stress load, but I'm in it for as long as I can hold out.

What I've Done
By Linkin Park In this farewell, There is no blood, There is no alibi, Cause I've drawn regret, From the truth, Of a thousands lies, So let mercy come and wash away What I've Done, I'll face myself, To cross out what I've become, Erase myself, And let go of what I've done Put to rest, What you thought of me While, I clean this slate, With the hands, Of uncertainty, So let mercy come, And wash away What I've Done, I'll face myself, To cross out what I've become, Erase myself, And let go of what I've done For what I've done, I start again, And whatever pain may come, Today this ends, I'm forgiving what I've done I'll face myself, To cross out what I've become, Erase myself, And let go of what I've done [Mike Shinoda:] (Na,Na,Na) What I've Done, What I've Done, Forgiving what I've done

After Hours!
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Sometimes....
Sometimes when I get home from a long day at work I want nothing more than to lose myself in some raw, passionate sex for a few hours. To get lost in it. To detach from the world and know nothing else other than my partner. To become their world and to have their world become me. To taste and touch, explore and caress... to take our time with each other until the passion becomes too much and pound each other with all the energies of our pent up frustrations. This working-the-opposite-schedule-from-my-husband thing is not doing much for my morale. A girl can only masturbate so many times before even that begins to lose it's appeal. Also, I'd really like to know why I can't leave comments anymore. :/

I Am Proud To Be A Bbw
I am obese. Morbidly obese according to every medical journal and societal convention. That is precisely what I am. There is no doubt about it. I didn't wake up one morning and say to myself, "Hey, I've decided I want to look like a negative stereotype." It happened over a period 36 years. Years of having an unhealthy relationship with my body, my self esteem, and with food. Years of dealing with a metabolism that is sluggish and stubborn and struggling and failing with every fad diet that comes down the pike. I am fat. When I started about the 2nd grade, I was considered chubby. For the next 10 years of my public schooling, I dealt with horrible psychological cruelty from my schoolmates. I would find notes in my desk that said "Take a shower, pig." taped to a bottle of roll-on deodorant yet I didn't have poor hygeine. People used to "moo" at me when I walked down the halls to class and ridicule me when I ate lunch, saying things like, "Save some for

St. John, The Butcher
The Butcher, St. John Speak not the name of the butcher St. John, You'll wake in the morning and your limbs will be gone. Ground into hamburger, made into meat, Pressed into sausages, spicy and sweet. Many people still come to buy of his wares, He's allmost allways sold out, but nobody cares. Though expensive, for the taste, the price can't be beat. Too bad nobody knows what he puts in his meat. He's carefull and picky, worse than misers with gold, He knows just by looking, which ones to serve cold. The plump ones are juicy, the skinny ones firm, The young ones are allways served ground up with worm. Bloody and cold are the ways of his mind, And he smiles as he cuts his next meal, you will find. So please lock your doors, and leave the lights on, And don't even speak of the butcher St. John.

The Loss
The Loss I know of a life changing fact, that's really quite fantastic. We're slowly losing all of our flesh, and turning into plastic. We think we know the things we feel, and go about our day. Never thinking twice about pain caused by the things we do and say. They things lie deep within us all, Things we hide from even ourselves. These feelings change the look of our souls, kept and collected in jars on our shelves Angry, infected with pus, a would inside us there does lay. From the fire that died deep inside of us Because we locked it so safely away. The darkness is here to stay. And the world has gone grey and cold. Still we fail to see the life we've given away And the things that we've really sold.

Flying With Ups
You folks will love this Especially the last one!! Remember it takes a college degree to fly a UPS plane, but only a high school diploma to fix one. Reassurance for those of us who fly routinely in our jobs. After every flight, UPS pilots fill out a form, called a "gripe sheet," which tells mechanics about problems with the aircraft. The mechanics correct the problems, document their repairs on the form, and then pilots review the gripe sheets before the next flight. Never let it be said that ground crews lack a sense of humor. Here are some actual maintenance complaints submitted by UPS ' pilots (marked with a P) and the solutions recorded (marked with an S) by maintenance engineers. By the way, UPS is the only major cargo airline that has never, ever, had an accident . P : Left inside main tire almost needs replacement. S: Almost replaced left inside main tire. P: Test flight OK, except auto-land very rough. S: A uto-land not installed on this airc

It's All About Country Isn't It ? Have U Voted Yet
PLEASE VOTE, FOLLOW YOUR HEART, BUT TO ME THESES ARE SWEET MUSIC TO MY EARS THESE TRULY REPRESENT WHAT COUNTRY IS CLICK BANNER BELOW AND VOTE NEW MALE VOCALIST > NEW FEMALE VOCALIST NEW FAV BAND

Contact Information
Fakersbusted was established in June 2003, with the primary purpose of keeping track of those dreaded fakers, their usernames & the images they use. Here within our pages, we keep track of fakers from various rating sites & online communities. Once their fake profiles are removed, their username remains here, forever. So if you have ever wondered, just what happened to that hot guy or girl you were talking to, come on in & see if their username graces our pages & find out who it is, they were pretending to be! Official Website: http://www.fakersbusted.com/ Official Myspace: http://www.myspace.com/fakersbusteddotcom Official YouTube Group: http://www.youtube.com/group/fakersbusted Official MSN Group: http://groups.msn.com/fakersbusted My CherryTap MSN Messenger: cherrytapfakersbusted@hotmail.com

I Hate My Phone!
Hello everyone! Well...I was going to add some pics to my ct but my phone sucks!!! Everytime I try to take a pic and think it looks good enough to put on here it ends up blurry. I am not going to give up though, I will have more pics of me, current ones even posted on here soon!

Commere
If you want to hang out with me or talk about topics that interest you like Maddie McCann or anything else you can come to SYM. Check it out and register...trust me..its fun!(and then there is the arcade...) Muah xoxoxox http://www.speakyourminds.net/forums ♥Immortal♥Love♥@ CherryTAP

You Cannot Not Communicate
My girl recently posted a blog They say that it is better to have loved and lost, then to have never loved at all.... that expressed how important communication is in relationships. Let's understand communication a little bit. Study shows that about 7% of your communication is verbal, 38% is vocal tonality and 55% is Physiological, or your body language. Have you ever smiled and been polite to someone but were thinking, “I have an idea. How about if you drop dead?!” The way you held your body and gritted your teeth wouldn't have fooled anyone. A person with some sensory acuity would detect the lack of warmth in your eyes, the grimace in your smile or the snarl in your voice. So even though you don't say “Drop dead” you are still communicating the message. Women are FAR more attune to reading body language then most men. And being emotional creatures, they can sense your emotional vibe and body language vibe often before you approach them What you say has a small imp

*77 On Your Cell Phone**important
Information below about calling *77 on a cell phone. A MUST KNOW, *77 I knew about the red light on cars, but not the *77. It was about 1:00 p.m. in the afternoon, and Lauren was driving to visit a friend. An UNMARKED police car pulled up behind her and put his lights on. *Lauren's parents have always told them never to pull over for an unmarked car on the side of the road, but rather to wait until they get to a gas station, etc. Lauren had actually listened to her parents advice, and promptly called *77 on her cell phone to tell the police dispatcher that she would not pull over right away. She proceeded to tell the dispatcher that there was an unmarked police car with a flashing red light on his rooftop behind her. The dispatcher checked to see if there were police cars where she was and there weren't, and he told her to keep driving, remain calm and that he had back up already on the way. Ten minutes later 4 cop cars surrounded

Butts Charged With Stealing Toilet Paper
Butts Charged With Stealing Toilet Paper By Associated Press MARSHALLTOWN, Iowa - Police blame a woman named Butts for stealing toilet paper from a central Iowa courthouse, and while they're chuckling, the theft charge could put her in prison. "She's facing potentially three years of incarceration for three rolls of toilet paper," Chief Lon Walker said, stifling a laugh as he talked to KCCI-TV about Suzanne Marie Butts. "See, I can't say it with a straight face." Workers had noticed the rolls disappearing from the Marshall County Courthouse much faster than usual, Walker said. Butts, 38, was caught last week after an employee saw her taking three rolls of two-ply tissue from a storage closet, Walker said. Butts insisted it was the first time she'd pilfered toilet paper, but she declined to answer further questions on her attorney's advice. The fifth-degree theft charge, a misdemeanor, normally carries a sentence of less than a year in jail. But Butts could face more time if co

Call
I got a little black book with my poems in. Got a bag, got a toothbrush and a comb. When I'm a good dog they sometimes throw me a bone. I got elastic bands keeping my shoes on. Got those swollen hands blues. Got thirteen channels of shit on the TV to choose from. I got electric light, And I got second sight. Got amazing powers of observation. And that is how I know, When I try to get through, On the telephone to you, There'll be nobody home. I got the obligatory Hendrix perm, And the inevitable pinhole burns, All down the front of my favorite satin shirt. I got nicotine stains on my fingers. I got a silver spoon on a chain. Got a grand piano to prop up my mortal remains. I've got wild, staring eyes. And I got a strong urge to fly, But I got nowhere to fly to (-- fly to... fly to... fly to...). Ooooo Babe, When I pick up the phone, There's still nobody home. I got a pair of Gohill boots, And I got fading roots.

Reflection
As I sit here by the river, I wonder of what is in store for me. I am a shadow for a reason, I see things I sometimes wish I hadn't know and then I see things that does me harm. Sometimes, I wonder of the gift that was placed before me, for I wonder..."Do they have the right person?" Not saying I don't accept the gift, I wonder if it was given to the right person. I often gaze into this river to see memories I placed away for a reason. Not saying all are bad or good. Just placed away for I'm trying to put back some shattered pieces of my mirror of who I am as a person A person that stays hidden away for a reason.I'm not sure of who I am as a person. Not sure of what is in stored at times for when I do try my best, it causes some chaos that takes me a bit longer to deal with. Makes me not want to gather those pieces of the mirror for I think no one would understand the whole view of me. No one would be there to help me pick up some pieces as I go. As I look up from the river

Look Inside Yourself
I SEE THE SAME AS YOU DO I LEARN AS YOU DO I BREATHE AS YOU DO I LIVE AS YOU DO WHY DO YOU JUDGE WHY DO YOU THINK YOU ARE BETTER THAN EVERYONE ELSE WHAT ARE YOU TRYING TO HIDE WHAT DO YOU RUN FROM WHAT STARES AT YOU FROM INSIDE WHAT LERKS BEHIND EVERY CORNER WATCHING AND WAITING FOR YOU WHAT SCARES YOU TO THE POINT OF THE JUDGING INSECURITY, NO COFIDENCE IN YOUR SELF, LACK OF SELF ESTEEM, OR IS IT THE URNING YOU HIDE, TO FIT IN, TO BE ACCEPTED, TO FEEL LOVED, ALL THE LIES YOU FEED TO YOUR MIND WE ALL BREATHE THE SAME AIR, WE ALL EXIST TOGETHER, WE ARE, WHAT IS DESTROYING HUMANITY US AS A WHOLE, NONE ARE SINGLED OUT SO IF YOU FEEL THE NEED TO JUDGE JUDGE YOURSELF FIRST TAKE A LOOK AT YOUR SOUL WHAT DO YOU SEE I SEE YOU, BUT CAN YOU REALLY SEE, THE REAL ME

Ever Feel Like You Just Weren't Enough?
I’m not writing this for a pity party – I’m writing it because I just need to get it all out. So if you don't want to read it - stop right now and don't leave me a comment to pacify me - and don't talk about what a pathetic human being I am behind my back - everyone has emotions and everyone needs to express them. - it's my life, don't like it, don't read it! I'm just so tired of the tears...and never being "ENOUGH"...never good ENOUGH, smart ENOUGH, pretty ENOUGH, thin ENOUGH...even if I had the ability to reach perfection...I don't think even then I'd be "ENOUGH" here's the deal...if it's true love...it's not because of looks, or money, or social status...it's all about the heart. Sometimes, as in my situation, my sole purpose is to feel needed. I give 110% with each and every person I meet...unfortunately, most of them take 150% and run and leave me hanging. Yet, I continue to love and care because it gives me a sense of purpose. I've been walked on, stomped on, spat u

Love Turned To Hatred
LOVE TURNED TO HATRED Sir John Suckling I WILL not love one minute more, I swear, No, not a minute ; not a sigh or tear Thou get'st from me, or one kind look again, Though thou shouldst court me to 't and wouldst begin. I will not think of thee but as men do Of debts and sins, and then I'll curse thee too : For thy sake woman shall be now to me Less welcome, than at midnight ghosts shall be : I'll hate so perfectly, that it shall be Treason to love that man that loves a she ; Nay, I will hate the very good, I swear, That's in thy sex, because it doth lie there ; Their very virtue, grace, discourse, and wit, And all for thee ; what, wilt thou love me yet ?

Whatever.
Okay, so. We're about a week deep into this business... Well isn't that fabulous? I don't know any of you fuckers and I get IMs from these freaky old child predator people saying, "hey sexy". You freaks scare me. So there are some pretty cool people though, like me, and Jules, Jerry, you know, the cool kids. lol. I can't wait to bring my laptop on site so I can use yahoo instant messenger again, then I won't have to deal with these little biddy as shout boxes or whatever. So school sucks, as usual. My english teacher's name is so far from being english that I don't even want to talk to him in real life, I'm sure he sounds like these assholes that call me on the helpline and get pissed cause I don't speak THEIR language. Hmph. So I'm off tomorrow and I'm excited! I'm going to sleep all day and help my parents move some shit tomorrow evening. well, I'm just trying to rack up points... That's all I'm doing... Oh, and Myspace.com is international now. Fuck you, Tom. Have a nice

Chapter 3
As you indulge your own presence lost in your senses you hear a whisper in your ear. "My dear you've stumbled into a lumberjack meeting and err,.. umm you're rather inappropriately dressed, as well" You scream "OMFG!" and attempt to cover up, rather hopelessly, as 42 men some smiling some leering at you make you feel naked anyway. With that thought in mind you drop your hands to your side and then your brain starts talking to you. "What the fuck were you thinking? You're naked in the woods with 42 burly men!" A few of them begin walking toward you with menacing looks in their eyes. The lead man puts up his hand to stop the others from advancing further. He undoes his coat and drapes it over your shoulders, leading you back to the entrance, picking up your cloths on the way. he hands them to you, so you can get dressed and sends you on your way. Needless to say, your walk home is filled with "I'm such a friggin idiot" thoughts, as embarrassment and humilty keep you engrosse

Freak On A Leash
Music Video: Freak On A Leash by (Korn) Music Video Code by Video Code Zone Korn – Freak On A Leash lyrics Someth’n’ takes a part of me Something lost and never seen Every time I start to believe Something's raped and taken from me…from me Life's gotta always be mess’n’ with me (You want to see the light) Can't it chill and let me be free? (…So do I) Can't I take away all this pain (You want to see the light) I’d tried to every night, all in vain...in vain Sometimes I cannot take this place Sometimes it's my life I can't taste Sometimes I cannot feel my face You'll never see me fall from grace Something takes a part of me You and I were meant to be A cheap fuck for me to lay Something takes a part of me Feel’n’ like a freak on a leash (You want to see the light) Feel’n’ like I have no release (…So do I) How many times have I felt disease? (You want to see the light) Nothing in my life is free…is free Sometimes I cann

Volume Xxv - Sadistic Desire
Open your mouth. Wait patiently. Await the taste of me. Your heart beats faster... Your mind races in anticipation. My knife approaches my chest... Tracing Teasing Feeding Your sadistic desire. Bracing Facing Breeding My personal anguish. Open your mouth. Wait no longer. Behold, the taste of blood. You savor every drop With tears to enhance the taste My knife drops to the ground... Escaping Fading Becoming Your sadistic desire. Crying Dying Entwining Into personal paradise.

Relationships Suck
So I just got over havin a long ass talk with my boyfriend. He said to me tonight that he doesn't see us being together and the only reason that we're still together is because of the kids. He calls me a fake ass bitch because i act different at work vs at home vs with my friends. of course i act different! i have to be professional at work, a mother at home, and i finally have a chance to be the real me when i'm with my friends. So we are havin "the talk" tonight. the talk to end all talks. by tomorrow morning, i may be single. We'll just have to see where this goes tonight and updates will be posted tomorrow!

Pray For Baby Kaleb
Pray for baby Kaleb.Add to My Profile | More Videos **I HAVE 3 DIFFERENT PICS IN MY "CAUSES CLOSE TO MY HEART" ALBUM, INCLUDING MY CURRENT DEFAULT PICTURE, OF KALEB AND HIS FAMILY. IF YOU WOULD LIEK TO RIP ANY OR ALL OF THEM TO YOUR ALBUMS TO SHOW SUPPORT FOR KALEB AND HIS FAMILY, FEEL FREE. PLEASE KEEP LIL KALEB AND HIS FAMILY IN YOUR THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS..**

For Those That Dont Read Profiles..i Just Added This......
Ok...so I guess it wasnt the last word..lol..I wanted to add something here..Yes..I have a couple of NSFW albums, Ive had 3 kids..and Im not a stick figure..but not ashamed of my body either..it has good points..and not so good points..lol..Im happy for friends to view it..but I will delete lewd comments..be constructive..my pictures arent trashy..I have done them as tastefully as I can.. and I dont do requests..and I would like it if you could rate some other pictures..me clothed preferably..not a necessity, but it would show some taste. I add photos now and then..when I have "Moments"..feel free to drop back..Hugz..Molly xox PS..all my photos are taken on my mobile phone..none are photo shopped except for the pics..in the photoshopped album..I have 3 filters on my phone..the antique look and black and white ..and colour of course.One of these days I will buy a digi cam..lol..have a great day xoxo

6 Questions
6 Questions. 6 honest answers 1. 2. 3. 4. 5. 6. You get to ask me 6 questions. (TO MY INBOX) Any question, anything, no matter how crazy or sexual they are. No catch. But I dare you to repost this and see what people ask you

Q & A With R
Here are 50 questions for the people who are a little more mature... 1. What bill do you hate paying the most? gas, it's usually the highest 2. Where was the last place you had a romantic dinner? ech, can't remember wheres 3? 4. If you could go back and change one thing what would it be? I'll keep that one to myself. 5. Name of your first grade teacher? Mrs. Kneisley (I'm amazed that I remember that). 6. What do you really want to be doing right now? Sleeping soundly. 7. What did you want to be when you were growing up? a paleontologist. 8. How many colleges did you attend? one 9. Why did you choose the shirt that you have on right now? I'm not wearing one 10. GAS PRICES? I want that nuclear-powered flying DeLorean from "Back To The Future" NOW! 11. If you could move anywhere and take someone who would you take with you? Just about anyplace where it doesn't snow. I don't know who I'd drag along. 12. First thought when the alarm went off

Bored With His Stupidity.
**** UPDATE**** Now this freak is telling people that he has called the police in response to my harassment. Would love to see that call sheet: "officer this guy I never met is telling the truth about me on Cherry Tap and I don't like it one bit." "Yeah I have stalked a little and made up blatant likes about people, but damn, does everyone have to know?" ****UPDATE****** Link: http://cherrytap.com/kbarccattleco Now he thinks he is a bouncer for **southern Hotties** I think that the only thing bouncing on him is his big ass belly. Is he justifying his stalking behavior by saying that he is trying to protect people? Justification is unfortunately typical behavior of someone who has possession and insecurity issues. ** Bottom line.... 1) at least one woman he has interacted with has had to involve law enforcement to get him to go away and quit harassing her. 2) Multiple women he has dealt with describe behaviors

Heading Home
I want to say Hello and much Luv to my blog readers. With the ride to the Redwoods over the time has come for me to head back to Florida. With my Harley loaded into my pickup I left from my Brother in Law's house up the 880 to I-80 east. What a drive it was driving up to Donner Pass, altitude 7200'. With just over 500 miles behind me I'm spending the night in Elko, Nevada. After a nights sleep I hope to make it past Cheyenne, Wyoming on Tuesday.

Denial
It took me forever to figure out what I felt was missing from my life, that I used to have a really long time ago. It couldn't have been nostalgia, because in 8th and 9th grade I was treated like a piece of shit and I had no self-esteem. So I wondered hard, with the massive improvement in the status-quo of my life over the past 5 years or so, what makes me so nostalgic, what makes this time even now feel somewhat empty? I realized that it's because I've lost my passion for the things I used to love. Somewhere along the road, I lost the fire for these things. I don't know what it is, but I think it was discouraging events that made me lose my passion for almost everything. I remember the days when at times they were the only two things on my mind; now I have no such passion for anything, only mere hobbies. It's all making sense, and now I think I know what direction I have to go in. As for the rest of my day? Well, just for the record, and in the spirit of this being a journal

Something To Think About..
Dear God ! I'm writing to you to say I'm sorry for being angry yesterday when you seem to ignore my prayer and things didn't go my way.... First my car broke down. I was late for work but I missed that awful accident. Was that handy work ? I found a house I loved but others got there first. I was angry, then relieved when I heard the pipes had burst. Yesterday I found a perfect dress but the colour was too pale. Today I found the dress in red would you believe the dress was on sale. I know you're watching over me and I'm feeling truly blessed for no matter what I pray for you always know whats best. I have this circle of Email friends, who mean the world to me, someday I " send " and " send " at other times, I let them be. When I see each name download, and view the message they sent; I know they've thought of me that day, and " well wishes " were there intent. I am so blessed to have these friends, with whom I've grown so close; so this little poem I d

Penis Biter
JAKARTA, Indonesia. (Unknown) - Police have been looking for the Penis Biter for almost two years. During this time, at least five young schoolboys were the victim of the penis biter. The Penis Biter is actually a man who dresses as a woman. He was arrested at a bus terminal in Kupang on the western half of Timor Island when his latest victim, a bus driver, screamed in pain after his penis was bitten by the man.

Just Thinking!
Well 7 weeks ago my doctors put me on Chemo but not for Cancer but for my illness I have. You take it for 6 months but only once a week so it turns out to be 30 days. See there is a high risk that I could have cancer in my lypmatic system so this is like treat it because the bio they have to do for that is cut open breast bone and I would rather take the Chemo and be safe then go through that. But the medication can slow RA down and remission sarcoidosis of the lungs and Lupus remission. So, the Chemo has a lot of good to come out of it. Now what bad about it though is my hair was falling out before the Chemo and every day I loose more and more my hair is thin and long before now its really thin. I do not know if I loose it all or just go thin. The first couple treatments I got bad head aches and felt like morning sickness you feel when pregant but it comes and goes now this past treatment number 7 I did not have as many head aches but I felt sicker to stomach then I had been feeling

Ball Worship
MILAN, Italy. (RAI UNO TV) - Dressed in traditional wear, boys and men of the small town of Bagolino end their yearly carnival with squeezing and touching each other's testicles. While the men spend the entire day walking the streets touching genitals, the women prepare special porridge-like meals shaped to resemble large testicles. Villagers consider testicles to be sacred explaining the words 'testsimoniare' and 'testimone' (to witness) derive from the latin word 'testis' (testicle). When their ancestors were called as witnesses they were usually asked to 'swear' on their most sacred things, most often this being their testicles.

Consume Me
I tell you that you consume me, In my thoughts you always stay, Your presence it surrounds me, All throughout my day. Since the day I met you, I knew my life had changed, The happiness you bring to me, Helps brighten up my day. When I am filled with sorrow, Or pain has come my way, Its thoughts of you that help me, To chase the clouds away.

He's There
Worry not about what ifs, Could bes or mights, Only about right now, In this stage of your life. He's here with you always, No doubt should be there, Ask for His guidance, His strength and His Care. Know you have angels, To watch over you, To guide and protect you, Like He's asked them too. In Memory of my Uncle Ray 04/16/2003

What Is The Dark Carnival
The Dark Carnival While its name invokes some disturbing intentions, the truth is the Dark Carnival, described through the 6 Joker Card albums, is a representation of Death. Nothing can really describe what it really is better than these lyrics... "...Now we been told this Carnival shit has touched on many lives People have fuckin sworn to us they too can feel it inside What is it that draws you in? This magic that compels you? We've been waiting six fuckin Joker Cards to finally tell you The messages and hints were there, although, most never picked up on em We snuck em in subliminally with that wicked shit around em We mentioned more and more of this on every Joker's Card The bottom line, always the same, you ain't have to look hard We wickedly kick it, inflict it, you get it, get wit it, and then we don't preach it flat out" "'Cause some ninjas don't wanna get wit 'cha They quick to forget 'cha without the hatchet and gat out So we rose the hatchet, do or

Tomb Of The Unknown Soldier
Tomb of the Unknown Soldier 1. How many steps does the guard take during his walk across the tomb of the Unknowns and why? 21 steps. It alludes to the twenty-one gun salute, which is the highest honor given any military or foreign dignitary. 2. How long does he hesitate after his about face to begin his return walk and why? 21 seconds for the same reason as answer number 1 3. Why are his gloves wet? His gloves are moistened to prevent his losing his grip on the rifle. 4. Does he carry his rifle on the same shoulder all the time and if not, why not? He carries the rifle on the shoulder away from the tomb. After his march across the path, he executes an about face and moves the rifle to the outside shoulder. 5. How often are the guards changed? Guards are changed every thirty minutes, twenty-four hours a day, 365 days a year. 6. What are the physical traits of the guard limited to? For a person to apply for guard duty at the tomb, he must be bet

Erotic Thoughts (mine)
Twisting, turning, moaning, and screaming, breathing outta control your cock in me losing my soul. I begged for passion and this is it, harder and deeper, I feel it, thats it. Going and going harder each thrust, I've taken all you have to give now lay back as I suck you off. Moaning while you pull my hair, grabbing my ass cause neither of us care. Closer and closer with each lick I give, say my name while I swallow your dick. I'll swallow your juices but then I wont stop, I'll suck you hard again so I can now ride your cock. As I climb on your massive member, rub my clit, and make her feel splendor. Grab hold of my hips if I ride you to fast, lets put our bodies in sync, oh god yes grab my ass. Up and down and side to side, your cock glides in and out, my juices flow down your sides. Round two is almost over so I wanna know this, can I swallow all your cum again, so you can fuck me just like this?

If You Ask Me About My Day....
...i'll tell you that not much happend. mondays are pretty dull for me. i've been feeling really lousy lately...but i know the reason behind it. ive been having some mild pain for a few days now but last night they were close to unbearable. the pain was so strong that it kept me from sleeping...& now im afraid of them. pain isnt a good sign at this point...so you can understand how tomorrow's doctor appointment is vital. ive told sean that im a little worried & he assured me that no matter what the doctor tells me....everything will be alright. thats just one reason why i love him so...hes always there for me...[[sigh]]...he should be home soon...well sometime this month or next month. i miss him terribly....its not really the days that hurt me...its the nights.....& these past few nights have been hard on me. all in all today was alright. well im off ...with any luck this pain will let me sleep tonight.

A Real Woman
A REAL WOMAN AS A REAL WOMAN .. I STAND BEFORE YOU READY AND WILLING TO ADMIT MY ACCOMPLISHMENTS AS WELL AS MY FLAWS. AS A REAL WOMAN... I GIVE MY ALL IN WHAT EVER I TRY.... AND IF I FAIL I STILL HOLD MY HEAD UP HIGH. AS A REAL WOMAN .... I KNOW THAT I'M BEAUTIFUL AND FINE AS CAN BE... DESPITE THESE EXTRA POUNDS I NEED NO MAN TO BUILD UP MY SELFESTEEM. AS A REAL WOMAN.... I KNOW THAT MY ASSESTS ARE LIKE TREASURE LOCKED WITH CHAIN IN KEY..... AND IN THE WORDS OF MADEA CLINK CLINK.... AS A REAL WOMAN.......I WILL ADMIT THAT A REAL WOMAN CAN GET WEAK .. I THOUGHT I HAD A REAL MAN SO I LET HIM GET BETWEEN MY KNEES. AS A REAL WOMAN.... I KNOW THAT I MUST ACCEPT THAT I AM A MOTHER , SINGLE MOTHER AT THAT....... YEAH DADDY RAN OUT BUT I'M A REAL WOMAN SO I MUST PICK UP THE SLACK AS A REAL WOMAN .... I KNOW ALL YOU MEN AREN'T THE SAME.... JUST CAUSE ONE FAILED ME YOU ALL CAN'T BE TO BLAME. YOU SEE A REAL WOMAN CAN'T BE BROKEN DOWN.. CANT BE PUSHED ASIDE. CAUSE A REAL

The Storm, Revision One.
The first revision of The Storm. Comments and constructive criticism are welcome. The Storm A brilliant flash of light illuminated the dark room, followed shortly by the rumble of thunder. Michael loved this kind of night. The electricity in the air always energized him, and had the added effect of scaring his cat, which always curled up in his lap, shivering when the thunder rattled the house. Michael sat petting his cat, listening to the heavy rain rumbling on the roof, the dull roar penetrating the room. His cat, Circe, purred loudly, almost drowning out the sound of the rain. Circe would occasionally look up at Michael, almost as if she were inquiring what the loud noises were. Michael, oblivious to his cat’s questions, wondered why he wasn't outside, letting the rain cleanse his body and soul. Most often when it stormed like this, he'd enjoy the rain and the electricity he felt being in the middle of the storm. He supposed that with the power outage ton

~~guarding The Homeland~~
"Those who hammer their guns into plows will plow for those who do not." - Thomas Jefferson FIREARMS REFRESHER COURSE 1. An armed man is a citizen. An unarmed man is a subject. 2. A gun in the hand is better than a cop on the phone. 3. Colt: The original point and click interface. 4. Gun control is not about guns; it's about control. 5. If guns are outlawed, can we use swords? 6. If guns cause crime, then pencils cause misspelled words. 7. "Free" men do not ask permission to bear arms. 8. If you don't know your rights you don't have any. 9. Those who trade liberty for security have neither. 10. The United States Constitution (c) 1791. All Rights reserved. 11. What part of "shall not be infringed" do you not understand? 12. The Second Amendment is in place

Sky
The clouds stand tall above the surrounding landscape, spanning far across the horizon. How easy it is to ignore their granduer. How sad the knowing that the skys complete perfection goes unnoticed by all but a upward looking few. Those few are continually lost in the peacefulness strewn majesticly there. They drink of the quiet calms and the raging storms. Absored in the changing vistas. It is not just observing the weather but being one with all the other upturned faces. The faces of those who looked up and shared their being with the Sky.

The Two Of Them - Pt 10
About an hour after Pete got home he sat there quietly so lost in his thoughts of what might be what might not be. So scared that he had met the woman of his dreams and let her go simply because she didnt seem to know what she wanted. The phone then rings ... He paused for a moment not sure whether or not to pick it up or not, Finally he reached over and picked it up. *Hello* He answered and the voice on the other end said..... "I didn't like the way things were left when you sped off Petie thats not how i wanted to say goodnight" Speaking back he said *Yeah well you don't ever leave me much choice most the time now do you* "No i suppose i don't do i Petie...I'm sorry for that it's not honestly something i do on purpous..... Can i come over?" *Sure why not* He said in a calm voice and then a knock on the door. He opened it to see her big beautiful eyes stairing at him.... "You asked me something Petie .. you asked if i loved you like i loved him you asked me to make a ch

Repost And You Will Know Why
I DONT UNDERSTAND HOW SOMEONE COULD HURT SOMEONE SO HELPLESS......EVERYONE WE NEED U ALL!!! PLEASE PRAY FOR THIS LIL INNOCENT AND HELPLESS BABY, KALEB. GOD MAKES MIRACLES HAPPEN, SO PLEASE!!! HAVE A HEART AND PASS IT ON AND KEEP BABY KALEB IN YOUR PRAYERS Pray for baby Kaleb. Add to My Profile | More Videos PRAY FOR BABY KALEB ~~ READ AND REPOST ~~ KEEP THIS MOVING!Kristy Reynolds and her husband are parents to a beautiful little baby boy named Kaleb. He is 6 months and 3 days old. A couple weeks ago Kristy picked Kaleb up from home care and noticed something was wrong. She immediately took him to the hospital where he was diagnosed with Shaken Baby Syndrome. He now has meningitis in response the the surgeries on his brain, his body can't regulate his temperature, his heart rate drops every time he is moved, and he has seizures. He is also blind. His sitter shook him so hard that he is in a coma, had to have spinal fluid drained from his brain, and doctor

Burnt Out
I'm in a block right now, everyone. I've been trying to work out a few thoughts and draft them into something readable, but I'm in the middle of a bunch of stress at work, and I think it's starting to stifle my ability to keep calm, even at home. So everyone who's been reading up on my beginning of an attempt at a novel, and has been helping with criticisms and suggestions, bear with me while I'm chilling out and trying to find the voice again. Much love Jessie

Why I'm Pissed
well heres the case my best friend since 2nd grade decided to hit a girl and from what i been through it's not something you want to do...yes i've hit a girl befor and regret it to this day i was lucky to not get a restrainment order on me well any ways he thought he was a big man by hitting a girl i have lost alot or respect in him for it but it's not the 1s time that morons pissed me off so he's on his last straw i'm pretty much done with his stupid crap i'm ususally very forgiving but i'm tired of forgiving some one who pisses me off and says sorry only to do it again....i've made the mistake of hitting a girl once but will never do it again i have alot more respect for women now and know better.

Who Wants To Be My 3000th Fan?
Someone? Anyone? Not that it's that big of a deal but before I get to bed I was hoping to have my 3000th fan. Hit me up if your my 3000th fan so I can give u an official cherrytap keg! Much love to all the ct addicts!!

What Animal Represents Your Sexual Appetite
A Peacock A peacock represents your sexual appetite. You like to look good to attract potential lovers and you are very preoccupied with sex – not that that is a bad thing. You are into fantasizing, and enjoy sex a lot. Take this quiz at QuizUniverse.com

What Vehicle Represents U Sexually
Your sexual experience is like an 80's hook up van You have a great deal of sexual experience, because you are so charming. You are also inventive, and have lots of confidence in yourself. Besides, who can resist an 80’s hook up van? Take this quiz at QuizUniverse.com

Military Spouse/girlfriend Or Know One
I would like to recognize these often underestimated, unseen, and unheard heroes. This is for the young women that are waking up at 6 a.m. every morning, laying out clothes and packing three lunches for those small precious children that they have been left alone to care for. This is for the pregnant military wife wondering if her husband will make it home in time to watch their *miracle* happen. This is for the childless military wife, living in a town or on a base alone where she is a complete stranger to her surroundings. This is for the women that feel like a third leg when they go out with their friends and their husbands. This is for the woman that canceled all her plans to wait by the phone, and even though the phone broke up and cut off every time you spoke to him you waited anyway. This is a pledge to the women that cry themselves to sleep in an empty bed. This is to recognize the woman that felt like she was dying inside when he said he had to go, but s

Had Alot Of Fun After Work Hehe
After i got off of work i was going to sit home an have a couple of drinks an then go to bed. Well umm my girl an i decided to go get some other people that we know an egg others houses. Damn it was fun as hell. We went passed my recent ex bf's house an he saw my car so we couldnt do his house. Shit thats tonight after the bars for his house hehe. But dont worry we egged alot of houses tonight JUST HOUSES. no names mention on here lol. I aint done with some people that where awake lol. Well guess what its almost 6 am an im going to bed for 3 hours. Nighty night.

Contest
goood evenin i want to thank all who has helped in the one contest an blast thats goin on right now, some of you has really showed what bombin is all about, we also has not show no love , this contest was the perfect contest to show how strong we are, so please come an show the love today in the fathers day contest we are runnin neck an neck we need to stay on top of that contest if thiers a tie we would use rate that means we are the winner so please lets get out thier an kick thier ass please fathers day this link for the blast which is for a 7 day blast i was goin to give to bbw/bhm bombers family we need this so please help please come help

Counting Calories
Your thinking why would you want to count calories? I have decided it's time for me to lose some weight and to do so I need to count my calorie in take! It can be so annoying at times. My aim is to have 1200 calories a day and today I ate over that amount! grrr @ me, so now tomorrow I have to do my studio cycling weather it's raining or not! my goal is to get back to the weight I was before I had kids, so here goes! I'm gonna try put my journey through all this on here and if not here then it'll be on my myspace!

One Last Breath
Artist: Creed Album: Weathered Title: One Last Breath Please come now I think I'm falling I'm holding all I think is safe It seems I've found The road to nowhere And I'm trying to escape I yelled back when I heard thunder But I'm down to One last breath And with it let me say Let me say Hold me now I'm six feet From the edge And I'm thinking That maybe six feet Ain't so far down I'm looking down Now that it's over Reflecting on All of my mistakes I thought I found The road to somewhere Somewhere in his grace I cried out Heaven save me But I'm down to One last breath And with it let me say Let me say Hold me now I'm six feet From the edge And I'm thinking That maybe six feet Ain't so far down Sad eyes follow me But I still believe There's something left for me So please come Stay with me 'Cause I still believe there's Something left For you and me For you and me For you and me Hold me now I'm six feet From the edge An

Comical.
So, I decided last night to put my lil status message as "~Running in Circles~" and promptly went to bed. I get up this morning and find that a comical jokerster has left this as a comment : --- Sneaks up behind you. Slides foot between yours. (caus your running in circles @ the momment ya know). Grabs you by the arm just as you begin to tumble, cause my foot stepped between your running feet. I Ease you as you fall to the ground. I smile all cheesey & wave @ you. I skip off into the sunset to the beat of the rockin choices you'e put on yer page here. --- *laughs* See what happens when I come out of the woodwork, I bring the nuts with me. *laughs*

Kats Blog On Fridays Discipline
He wrote on it yesterday that I would receive a maintenance discipline and punishment tonight (last night) and also informed me that I have been getting away with too much and that was going to end. Sir Don told me that he wanted me to blog about the spanking that I received last night since it was too late to blog about it last night. I had made a "loopy" with some flexible tubing a couple of weeks ago for Sir Don to use. I have a big concern of the swats being too noisy when they land on my butt when he uses the paddle. Also I have this middle ear thing and the swats will echo painfully inside my head for some reason. Anyway, the loopy takes care of that. The swats are much quieter and don't echo and it stings like the dickens with just a small amount of effort. After I made that one Sir Don also made one but with a larger, stiffer tubing. Also quieter and also stings with little effort. Both loopys do not leave bruises but leave an interesting looped shaped welts with ju

Lessons Learned In Life
Lessons Learned from Life Life is a unique experience for every single person. Everyone has their own memories, their own perspective, and their own take on the world. While much of life can only be experienced, below are a few lessons that seem to stand true in a majority of people's lives. ..> In Yourself You shouldn't compare yourself to the best others can do. It takes a long time to become the person you want to be. Either you control your attitude or it controls you. It isn't always enough to be forgiven by others. Sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself. Your background and circumstances may have influenced who you are, but you are responsible for who you become. Credentials on the wall do not make a decent human being. In Relationships You cannot make someone love you. All you can do is be someone who can be loved. The rest is up to them. No matter how much you care, some people just don't care back. It takes years to build up trust and only seconds to destroy it. It's

Internet Acronyms That I Didn't Even Know All Of Them
- POS: Parents Over Shoulder - PIR: Parents In Room - P911: Parent Alert - PAW: Parents Are Watching - PAL: Parents Are Listening - A/S/L: Age/Sex/Location - MorF: Male Or Female - SorG: Straight Or Gay - LMIRL: Let's Meet In Real Life - KPC: Keeping Parents Clueless - TD2M: Talk Dirty To Me - IWSN: I Want Sex Now - NIFOC: Nude In Front Of Computer - GYPO: Get Your Pants Off - ADR: Address - WYCM: Will You Call Me? - KFU: Kisses For You - MOOS: Member Of Opposite Sex - MOSS: Member Of Same Sex - NALOPKT: Not A Lot Of People Know This

Poem 4
In the meadow I wait For The One to find A twist of fate To control my mind So, here I sit, ponder And wait to see i begin to wonder If You’ll chose me i’ll no longer pursue That is not my part i leave it up to you To capture my heart Time and again i’ve began the chase In hopes to in That was not the case I bow my head And wait to see If, after all this said She will find me

Might Be Leaving The Tap
First off, this is the internet. GROW UP!!! Secondly, I am my own person and will do what I want, when I want and if it pisses you off, you know how to delete me. I truly love my family on here, but I can't be told what I can and can't do and if that means I can't be part of your 'club' so be it. Take me off. Thirdly, I hate getting into the middle of this friend doesn't like that one and so on. I don't want to be rejected for something I truly want, nor forced to choose because you guys have to fight over who has the bigger prick. You have different views, that's what makes you individuals! Fourthly, I joined this site to get away from the drama of MySpace and my real life. I have so much going on and stuff I have to deal with, I wanted to come somewhere where I could meet some really cool people, which I have, and not have to deal with the crap. I know that's no matter where you go, but some places it's worse than others. Let me say this, I LOVE the LRL and my LDC

What The Hell!!
STARTING OVER IS NEVER EASY ESPECIALLY WHEN YOU HAVE NOONE YOU FIND YOURSELF THINKING AND WONDERING WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU GONNA DO YOU SEARCH AROUND AND THINK YOU FIND THE LOVE YOU THOUGHT YOU COULD CLAIM AS MINE IT'S ALL GOING WELL UNTIL ONE DAY YOU FIND THAT LOVE HAS GONE ASTRAY SO NOW YOU'RE BACK TO SQUARE ONE THINKING WHAT THE HELL HAVE I DONE YOU GIVE YOUR HEART SO EASILY ONLY TO FIND THEY WEREN'T YOUR TRUE LOVE TO BE YOU GIVE AND GIVE EXPECTING ONLY THEIR LOVE IN RETURN TO FIND YOU ARE ALWAYS THE ONE TO GET BURNED WHAT THE HELL DO YOU DO TO UNDO THE HURT THAT HAS BEEN DONE TO YOU? WRITTEN BY: ANGEL

To You My Friend
TO YOU MY FRIEND I TELL YOU TRUE WITHOUT YOU HERE I WOULDNT KNOW WHAT TO DO YOU'VE BEEN THERE THROUGH THICK AND THIN NO MATTER WHAT KIND OF MOOD I WAS IN TO YOU MY FRIEND I'LL STICK WITH YOU THROUGH GOOD OR BAD I'LL STAND BY YOU UPON EACH STEP WE TAKE TOGETHER WE CAN WITH STAND ANY KIND OF WEATHER WHETHER WE ARE NEAR OR FAR APART THIS BOND WE HAVE WILL NEVER DEPART WRITTEN BY: ANGEL

Friends & Fans On My List....
I am in need of your help. Please go and comment just 10 times (more if you want to) on this picture so I can win a VIC for a month. I need 15000 comments to get it. Any and all help is greatly appreciated! hugs Carrie click on this picture to get to the contest.

Red Flags
Below is a list of behaviors that may be seen in people who abuse their partners. In some cases, a batterer may only exhibit a few of the behaviors. A batterer may try to explain the behaviors as signs of love or concern for his partner. As time goes on, the batterer’s behavior becomes more extreme and serves to establish and maintain power and control over the victim. Jealousy. At the beginning of a relationship, an abuser may say that jealousy is a sign of love. Jealousy has nothing to do with love; it’s a sign of possessiveness and lack of trust. The abuser may question the victim about who she talks to, accuse her of flirting with other men, or express resentment of the time she spends with family, friends, or children. The abuser may call frequently or drop by unexpectedly. The abuser may refuse to let the victim work for fear she will meet somebody else, or may engage in behaviors such as checking the car mileage or asking friends to spy on the victim. Controlling Behavior

Have I Ever
Have I Ever Have I ever told you that if I sit really still and silent, sometimes. I like to think I can hear your heart beating in time with mine? Have I ever told you that when I watch you speak to me through lines and cords, and bytes and ram, I imagine your voice, whispering into my ear? Have I ever told you that I wait out each day in anticipation, wanting only an hour or two, just a second in space and time, to feel close to you? Have I ever told you that there has been times, when I ached for you, ached for you so badly, that the emotions overwhelmed me.. and so I sat and cried? Have I ever told you that sometimes, I will reach out, touching your name on this cold screen before me, wishing I could reach in and pull you to me? Have I ever told you that after the first time I heard the sound of your voice, thousands of miles away, I sat up all night, turning the conversation over and over in my mind, examining it, like some new

Until We Meet
Until we meet My nights will be a little colder My days a little shorter My heart will beat a little less rapid Until we meet I know that my arms will be empty My mind hurting from the constant thought of you Minutes will seem to be hours Hours will seem to be months While months will seem like eternity Until we meet The stars in the sky will not affect me with its gleaming sparkles of life Until I am gazing at them in your arms And the food that I eat will not be as fulfilling and nourishing Until it is you that I share the my food with And Until we meet I will not feel whole My world will seem incomplete Until that wonderful day When our eyes make first contact And our bodies and souls collide in blissful whirlwind The words will roll off my tongue like a sweet love song "Hello, my love, I couldn't wait to meet you."

Southern Hospitality
In a crowded city at a busy bus stop, a beautiful young woman wearing a tight mini skirt was waiting for a bus. As the bus stopped and it was her turn to get on, she became aware that her skirt was too tight to allow her leg to come up to the height of the first step of the bus. Slightly embarrassed and with a quick smile to the bus driver, she reached behind her to unzip her skirt a little, thinking that this would give her enough slack to raise her leg. She tried to take the step, only to discover that she couldn't. So, a little more embarrassed, she once again reached behind her to unzip her skirt a little more, and for the second time attempted the step. Once again, much to her chagrin, she could not raise her leg. With a little smile to the driver, she again reached behind to unzip a little more and again was unable to take the step. About this time, a large Texan who was standing behind her picked her up easily by the waist and placed her gently on the step of

Life As We Know It
Most of us are so...... Afraid of loosing, that we never take any chances. Afraid of failing, that we don't try. Afraid of loosing the one we love, we forget to love them. Afraid of the pain, we don't enjoy life, love, & all the wonderful things life brings. We all get so caught up with our own insecurities that we forget that the "little things" DO matter!!!! I know I have forgotten to live my life. I was even letting others' control my life. I am starting to see just how blind I am. How afraid & lost I am. I don't like it. I don't like who I have become. I am a good person with a good heart, with compassion for anyone who needs my help. So why is it so difficult to find someone to be there for me? Could it be that I was so affraid of hurting, that I didn't let anyone in. Even when I think I have let someone in, I keep them at arms reach. How do we truly know how? How to let someone in? How to, Honestly, TRUELY let ourselves love someone??????? Here is a Quote

Age
age a.. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN GUILTY OF LOOKING AT OTHERS YOUR OWN AGE AND THINKING "SURELY I CAN'T LOOK THAT OLD?" WELL, YOU'LL LOVE THIS ONE! I WAS SITTING IN THE WAITING ROOM FOR MY FIRST APPOINTMENT WITH A NEW DENTIST. I NOTICED HIS DDS DIPLOMA, WHICH BORE HIS FULL NAME. SUDDENLY I REMEMBERED A TALL, HANDSOME, DARK-HAIRED BOY WITH THE SAME NAME HAD BEEN IN MY HIGH SCHOOL CLASS SOME 40-ODD YEARS AGO. COULD HE BE THE SAME GUY THAT I HAD A SECRET CRUSH ON, WAY BACK THEN? UPON SEEING HIM, HOWEVER, I QUICKLY DISCARDED ANY SUCH THOUGHT. THIS BALDING, GRAY-HAIRED MAN WITH THE DEEPLY LINED FACE WAS WAY TOO OLD TO HAVE BEEN MY CLASSMATE. AFTER HE EXAMINED MY TEETH, I ASKED HIM IF HE HAD ATTENDED MORGAN PARK HIGH SCHOOL. "YES. YES, I DID. I'M A MUSTANG," HE GLEAMED WITH PRIDE. "WHEN DID YOU GRADUATE?" I ASKED. HE ANSWERED, "IN 1959. WHY DO YOU ASK?" "YOU WERE IN MY CLASS!" I EXCLAIMED. HE LOOKED AT ME CLOSELY. THEN, THAT UGLY, OLD, WR

Daily Horoscope June 12
"It's time to banish negativity from your life -- or at the very least to examine the habit and see what it hides. A world of possibilities is out there for you to explore, but you can't see it unless you're willing." Be optimistic? Like ALL the time? Euw. My life sort of is takin a turn that way all on its own lately though. Hrm.

My Life So Far
i dont have time for anything anymore. i spend all of my time at the hospital with my mom or at work. i love my mother more than anything in the world but jesus i just want her to come home. i barely have time to see any of my friends anymore. atom is moving to colorado in a month and i doubt ill be able to see him before he leaves :( i woke up in the hospital room this morning and i stepped in bile :( my mom forgot to hook up her tube that sucks all the crap out of her stomach and so it all just dripped onto the floor next to my bed. its definately a great feeling to wake up to in the morning - bile squishing in between your toes. oh well, ive pretty much been desensitized to all of that. i have to be if i ever want to be a good nurse. anyway, i just stopped home to take a shower and check my goings on on here. sorry i havent been on much for those of you who care. ciao bella

I Will Not Follow!
This is the coolest thing I've read in ages! My uber gorgeous, way fucking cool, sleaze-boy friend, Jaculyn Fucking Jayne, from MySpace wrote this and it was too good not to share it. No matter how you feel about the bands involved, you have to admit, it oozes of his literary genius. A killer journalist you will be, my dear! Check out Jaculyn Fucking Jayne's MySpace page here. ENJOY! ~TP **************************************************** You know, I joke around a lot and don't take many things seriously, but this is something that I hold close to my heart. This is an issue that everyone should be worried about and take action again. I'm not talking about something made up like big foot and gay marriage, I'm talking about an issue much more important than anything like that. According to the Chicago Sun, since this cyclone of mind numbing agony has been in existence, at least 170 million unsuspecting victims have been taken in his wrath. Yes

To Believe
To Believe... To believe is to know that every day is a new beginning. It is to trust that miracles happen, and dreams really do come true. To believe is to see angels dancing among the clouds, To know the wonder of a stardust sky and the wisdom of the man in the moon. To believe is to know the value of a nurturing heart, The innocence of a child's eyes and the beauty of an aging hand, for it is through their teachings we learn to love. To believe is to find the strength and courage that lies within us. When it is time to pick up the pieces and begin again. To believe is to know we are not alone, That life is a gift and this is our time to cherish it. To believe is to know that wonderful surprises are just waiting to happen, And all our hopes and dreams are within reach. If only we believe.

Ok, Time To Move..
Well it is sad but i do have to move south to be with my family. I love being in Queensland but i now need to move to South Australia. Going to be so cold down there..I have the heater on here now, so i am going to feel it so bad down there..LOL When i go i wont have my normal email address for a while and i wont be on here much either. So please dont forget me.. I will post again before i go and it's not for about 3 to 4 weeks anyway. Please make sure i still have you all here when i come back. If you think i might not then please send me a message to tell me and i will get back to you with how to keep in contact. Take care and be happy always please. Tony.

Thinking Out Loud
I think we all find our selves wondering why it all played out this way.. How dreams come and go. Lost loves found and left alone, finding no place to call home ..As i set hear in the lonely days and endless nights. Thinking of all the questions i didnt ask..Knowing that u are part of my past.. Holding on and letting go, not sure what way to go or where to turn.. Lessons yet to learn and to many bridges burned.. I waite to see if there will ever be the right one for me...

A Poem I Found For My Mother!
Mom Even As I've Grown Your hands were always gentle When you wiped away my tears. Your arms always a comfort As you held me through the years. Mom, I'd like to tell you That even as I've grown You still place my needs High above your very own. And don't think that I failed to see How very much you did for me The love we shared as you guided my way Words of thanks, I just rarely bothered to convey. Mom, If I could go back and choose my mother For me, only the best would do And I wouldn't change a thing For the best mother in the world is you! Thanks Mom love me!

Us Beer Song
[edit] US Beer Song I like beer cause it is good I drink beer because I should If there was a song to sing I sing it and beer you bring I drink beer when I am sad Cuz the beer it makes me glad There is nothing left to say So let's go drink beer. BEER IS GOOD! BEER IS GOOD! BEER IS GOOD! ...AND STUFF! BEER IS GOOD! BEER IS GOOD! BEER IS GOOD! Let's go drink some... BEER! When it's warm it tastes real crappy But cold beer will make me happy When I throw up on the floor I can go and drink some more They say beer will make me dumb It are go good with pizza Now that we have drunk some beer Let's go drive a car. BEER IS GOOD! BEER IS GOOD! BEER IS GOOD! ...AND STUFF! BEER IS GOOD! BEER IS GOOD! BEER IS GOOD! Let's go drink some... BEER! (instrumental) Guy speaking: Uh, dude? I think you've had enough. NO. (instrumental)

Help Needed
HELP NEEDED!! OK I WILL GIVE A GIFT TO ALL THAT LEAVE 100 COMMENTS ON THIS PIC..AFTER YOUR DONE JUST SEND ME A MESSAGE, AND I WILL KNOW WHO YOU ARE CAUSE I WILL BE KEEPING TRACK MYSELF..SO PLEASE AT LEAST NUMBER YOUR COMMENTS EVERY NOW AND THEN AS WELL. THANK.

Sayiing Hello
HEY EVERYONE, ii MiiSS YOU ALL. ii HAVEN'T BEEN ON LATELY, BECAUSE ii'M GOiiNG THROUGH SOME SHiiT RiiGHT NOW, SO WHEN ii GET A CHANCE TO GET ON, ii CAN'T STAY ON LONG ENOUGH TO WRiiTE COMMENTS AND SHiiT, BUT ii WiiLL BE UP AND RUNNiiNG AGAiiN SOON HOPEFULLY. BUT PLEASE CONTiiNUE SENDiiNG ME LOVE, ii MiiSS ALL OF MY FRiiENDS ON HERE.

Germania By Laibach
Einigkeit und Recht und Freiheit Für das deutsche Vaterland! Danach laßt uns alle streben Brüderlich mit Herz und Hand! And in times of misfortune And in times of mistrust (Von der Maas bis an die Memel) Shall this song continue (Von der Etsch bis an den Belt) From generation to generation, from present to past (Deutschland, Deutschland über alles, Deutschland) Shall this song continue (Über alles in der Welt) More than ever In these times of mistrust After the unspeakable After you have fallen as only angels can fall Go and find your peace again Get back home and grow your tree No victory No defeat No shame And fatherland No more Only unity Justice And freedom for all There will be no memory Or there will be no hope It is the lesson you have to learn Now And in the future Do you think you can make it Deutschland?